#call her beautiful

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[salmonentrees]

this is the Vees. to me.

#hazbin hotel #the vees #valentino #vox #velvette #voxval #staticmoth #Velvette just filming their evilcute gay dancing in the finale always gets me #also her calling them the voys in PUBLIC at an OVERLORD meeting…… #that was insane. and beautiful.

[bishy437]

tgcf au where everything is the exact same except HC loses his Cool Guy persona in front of XL and becomes a stuttering Mess

#tgcf #heaven official's blessing #Teen!HC calling people fcking losers to their face but then being like “hhh;;;; Ge..ge... ‧⁺◟( ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ·̫ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀ )” with XL #he becomes white lotus!Hua Cheng with XL #and Dark Lotus with everyone else #i know mxtx loves her Intimidating and Perfect gongs but Consider: #HC channelling E'ming bc Gege is so beautiful & amazing that all of his preparations and intentions to act Competent just go out the window #no self assured HC in my hualian house!!! #His Coolness died with Wuming #hualian #hua cheng #xie lian #mine

[egophiliac]

new chapter 7 installment dropped how we feelin????

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

THAT'S HIS DAD

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 6 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 6 spoilers #BABY DRAGON BABY DRAGON BABY DRAGON #i will take three thank you #god. lilia really has no idea how incredibly loved he is huh. #meleanor: (dies to protect him and her son) #malleus: (is literally born having a huge destructive tantrum because he wants lilia back) #silver: (bases his entire life and personality around how much he loves his dad) #lilia: wow i just can't understand why everyone is so upset about me dying #(somehow sebek ended up being the most normal about him and there's the most unexpected part) #man i really gotta redo lilia's um poster. i wasn't super happy with it to begin with but now there's like. fun shapes and context! #me: ha ha why is his magic called that. that's so weird. #me later: o-oh. oh i see. #SPEAKING OF SEBEK THOUGH there he is! THERE HE IS! #i was so afraid the armor was going to be a bad thing but NO he earned it! #he shook out his hair and turned out to have been beautiful all along! #episode 7 is about two things and two things only: dads and significant hair moments #and also speaking of dads! #i am taking lilia mistaking malleus for revaan based on his voice #as one more tick in the 'if crowley is revaan then there's going to have to be a really good explanation' column #the dulcet tones of dire crowley... #on the other hand if crowley tears off his mask and immediately starts sounding like malleus that would be THE funniest way to do it #auuuggghhhhh it's only been out for hours and already i'm like next part when #we've been cliffhanger'd again lads #idia finally came back to us and they were like 'please wait for the next release :)' #ortho did...did you somehow hack your way into silver's dream palace

[atelier-melvalda]

The girl that loves night orchids

#Shadowheart #Baldur's Gate 3 #baldurs gate fanart #BG3 #BG3 Shadowheart #I love Shadowheart so much #POV: You are Bing Bong (that was my friends first comment when he saw this haha) #She is such an interesting character and an absolute cutiepie as your girlfriend #And her with the white hair #I am in love #Also her beautiful green eyes #I gifted this piece to Jennifer (her VA) and Aliona (VA and MC Director) and added a little Corinna sitting on Shadowhearts hand haha #very happy because they loved it #heartyfarty #thats what my Tav calls her girlfriend (she's embarassed but secretly loves it)

[i-wanna-hug]

lady shar's chosen

#((IF GIRL EVIL WHY LOOK SO GOOD IN THIS ARMOR?? CHECKMATE SELUNITES)) #((ok obviously this is the 'bad route' but i've been doing an evil playthrough with my friend lately-)) #((and smth about unironically calling this vers. of her “dj shart” over voice calls brings so much joy and beauty into life)) #baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #shadowheart

[fishnetinsides]

there’s nothing more emotionally devastating than the Saw III screenplay.

#lynn calling amanda beautiful. nobody talk to me #mandy's scared of the dark. :(((((( #bless her heart #they keep comparing mandy to a little girl. that's my sweet angel #the deleted scene where she has a nightmare about adam???!? she is so sweet #saw #saw 3 #saw iii #saw script #sawposting #amanda young #lynn denlon #lynnmanda #shotgunshipping

[azfellschild]

you must know, right?

you must know I'm not that evil

or: crowley holding the last and only feather from his angel wings that didn't turn completely black 💔

#based on the beautiful painting by Gerda Roosval called “a blue hyacinth” #my baby crowley has been in so much pain :( #he's not that evil #thank you to my fellow artist and wonderful friend nafyn for the feather idea <3 #crowley #good omens #fem crowley #good omens fanart #good omens 2 #crowley fanart #angel crowley #go2 fanart #go2 #my gomens art #gomens 2 #azfellschild #crowley painting #i love her #gomens

[ryllen]

x

#HH i WAS just THINKING of drawing yuu visiting his place with a dress after attending the college event with everyone with usual suit get up #and maybe just did a little dance together and have him laughs at the fact she is dressed but actually barefoot; but then ... BUT THEN H #twisted wonderland #twst #sebek zigvolt #twst yuu #twst mc #fanart #i was thinking maybe this is set up by lilia again #but then i want trey senpai sincere *but goofy* compliment on the dress; maybe he helped to pick the dress #anyway that dress is so delicate and beautiful #that website has a lot of good green dresses #he actually suited up tidy just some while ago but he started dismantling himself when he got to be alone out of sadness & frustration #because of what he heard #maybe it was even an official announcement #details detai ls #one can only call her yumimi in several occasions -- or maybe forever if u get to that point of relationship with her #she prefer to be only known as yuu because she thinks the mimi in her name is too cutesy for her #i said this on tags on another post already but just for new people who are looking if u are reading this right now hello #i just wanted to draw yumimi in beautiful dress that was all #it's funny if i just imagine jade elbowing on trey and delivering better compliment for yumimi because jade knows the situation needs it #does it look more like cabbage roll #eeh

[chessb0r3d]

i cracked the code.

#believing dirk is the worst guy because its what dirk thinks of himself #ignoring daves bisexuality and think hes a gay man in denial even when he explained hes bisexual #believing john 'im not a homosexual' egbert is explicitly straight while he makes out with his mcconahey and cameron posters more #than he kissed women(literally only once) #believing that rose is an edgy psyhcotic little bitch when she was neglected. she speaks elegantly to cover that shes silly and a total ner #and how did people forget that rose also writes gay wizard fanfiction. reads Wikipedia. and her beautiful artstyle as a result of neglect #(and by neglect meaning having SO MUCH TIME to draw) #jake wasnt into dirk. he also told di that he didnt like how brobot getting touchy with him during strifes #but as part of the repression 4(prospit kids). he refused on changing the bot settings #what jane said about roxy being better when she was drunk. it was fucking sarcasm. its the least insane shit you could say to a best friend #all the kids have issues and of course people get mad over a girl being sarcastic. #when KARKAT said THE SAME THING to rose when she was drunk on the meteor nobody bats an eye #trolls are just grey humans that are bugs. he doesnt get an excuse for being an alien. humans were made from KARKATS BLOOD #jade isnt all silly girl and is so FULL OF HATE towards the trolls. she called karkat a fuckass (VERY FUNNY) to do her a favor #“jade would rather have punched karkat in the fact then had a pleasent conversation with him.” #“she viewed the trolls as rude mean and cruel. and even thought that nepeta was just making fun of her. #despite it being that nepeta just wanted to roleplay and have fun." #dred.loki #I HAVE YET TO ADD MORE. THESE ARE JUST NOTES #homestuck #chss

[lieutenantbiscute]

Sometimes you just gotta scruff the turtle— ANYWAYS!

TM(N)T by @nerves-nebula

Note: Mona knows that this isn’t her son, she knows IMMEDIATELY off the bat just by that scowl and angst

#tmnt 2012 #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #shellshocked #ShellShock Mona #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #2012 tmnt #can turtles be scruffed? maybe! #but Mona keeps an eye from her corner on them #call it what you want #she cares in her annoyed anger #ALSO HELLO ITS BEEN SO LONH SINCE IVE DRAWN MY BEAUTY MONA LISA!!! #tmnt mona lisa #tmnt y'gythgba #shell shocked au #Biscute dough

[thecaywild]

Are you a fan of my Calvin’s..

#babes #mature woman #hot as fuck #babesofinstagram #sexy titts #so hot 🔥🔥🔥 #hotwives #perfect wife #hot as hell #beauty legs #in her calvins #call me a good girl #southern california #cowgirl #hot white chicks #chive #nerdy chicks #tattoed babe #mature babe #tumblr babe #nerdy babe #stoner babe #what a babe

[rugwurm]

Fiecare familie nefericită este nefericită în felul său

#myart #parties are for losers #pafl #nadya #katya #what a beautiful woman #i sure hope the miracle of childbirth doesnt have any adverse effects on her #just remembered the nikita father theory exists #not one for speculation... but its interesting to think about ww #god gave me life so i could lose it in the fighting ring to line weight #i am not immune to gingers #anyways i wanted to render this... but finals call me

[rebelcharmings]

eah as random tweets i found on my timeline recently

#anyone else noticed lizzie has an almost drastic change from her in the webisodes and then the later specials #or just me #like shes definitely more mellowed out . which is nice but i also sometimes miss her random outbursts they were quite funny #ever after high #eah #eah tweets #i’ve seen ppl call cupid briar and hopper the pink trio so i thought it would fit #darling charming #apple white #lizzie hearts #raven queen #hopper croakington ii #c.a. cupid #briar beauty #faybelle thorn #dappling #444cuddle is carrying these tbh

[an-eldritch-peredhel]

You are the daughter of an angelic faerie and an elven king. You have grown up inside the only magical safe-haven of an increasingly apocalyptic land outside. You have wanted for nothing, essentially leading the perfect life, suffering and death playing little role beyond the abstract. Your father will never die, and your mother will never leave, but for tradition you are still crown princess and are educated as such. You love to dance and to sing.

You meet some kind of monster inside your mother's borders, a monster not of her or your making. It stumbled across you, dancing in the forest, bloody and travel-worn and weary and wide-eyed as it stares. You are stronger than it, but you run rather than lunge for the kill. You feel pity, more than fear. And something about him makes the part of you that you inherited from your mother sing.

He tries to follow you, for a year and a day. You are stronger, and faster, and stealthier, and you let him see you sometimes anyways. You are not convinced that he is not a monster, but nor are you convinced that he is.

Spring blooms again to the tune of your song, and you let him get closer than before until you run.

But you hear him speak for the first time. He is a speaker, and perhaps to him you are the monster. You do not run, and you do not kill.

He calls you "Tinuviel"

He calls you nightingale- a little songbird, plain and brown, with a lovely voice. They are your mother's creation, but he does not know this.

He calls you daughter of twilight- perhaps for your skin and eyes and hair, but perhaps because that is when he has seen you most.

He calls you singer- creator of the very fabric of the universe, skilled enough to deserve the title.

You are the most beautiful creature the world will ever see, the daughter of an angel and a king. He does not call you beautiful, or angelic, or princess. He calls you a singer, plain and brown, dark and distant as the approaching night.

He is bloody and travel-worn and weary and wide-eyed as you dare to step closer.

He called you nightingale.

You don't know what to call him, but you hope to find out.

#my writing #my headcanons #headcanon #silm fic #lay of leithian #beren and luthien #luthien #luthien tinuviel #beren #eldritch peredhil #second person pov #sorry but the vibes demanded it #big kudos to that one post that went #'luthien probably stopped for beren bc he called her nightingale acknowledging her skill instead of her beauty' #bc that was a big inspiration here #luthien gets a lot of my love but THE RELATIONSHIP IS TWO SIDED #BEREN MAKES HER FEEL LIKE HERSELF AND I WILL NOT STAND FOR SLANDER #also incredible vibes that luthien canonically worries beren is an orc at first afaik #like maybe problematic but. an eldritch demigoddess going 'you look like you're on my parents kill list of monsters. oh well' speaks to me #not pictured is beren trying to pull himself together w/ internal screaming bc 1) that *should not have worked* #he is as smooth as sandpaper. he is a vegan hobo bogman who talks to animals and is traumatized and hasn't showered in months #2) the Creature that is Looking At Him with its head tilted and eyes pinning and stalking closer with fangs and talons out #should be doing much more for his survival instincts and much less for his libido than it is #beren is certifiably Doing His Best and i love him #banged this out in 10 minutes in a daze of blorbo squeezing lets see if people like it lol

[child-of-hurin]

Part of what charms and compels me in Jeyne Poole's arc is her reaction to her predicament. All the female POVs in this book are dealing with a lot of gendered violence, and they all deal in different but dignified forms... Jeyne is not a POV character and she is absolutely not dignified lol. She cries and begs, she is utterly helpless. But unlike most women in this book who are utterly helpless, she survives. It's frustrating how fans refuse to celebrate that, simply because there is no glory in it.

#Sometimes I wonder if that's part of why fandom is so uncharitable towards her #like if she had some self-sacrificing sense of dignity maybe people would like her more... if she were resourceful or proud #boo! #she's perfect #i also think the absurd notion of arya 'mercy killing' her stems from this too? tbh #like - you think this woman is too pathetic to live? that even if she escaped bluebeard's castle her life is better over? #people will call grrm a grimdark author but this shit you see in fandom is 100000% more cruel than anything this man wrote #her pain is too real to her for games of honor to hold any meaning! she tears the veil she ruins the veneer #she has no noble bearing no honor no ambition no wolf no lover no knight she will not rise from this taller and wiser #none of the ways in which she'll change will be for the better and her pain will only reward her with more pain - the pain is worthless! #here is a child-bride suffering and nothing about that suffering can be made beautiful or meaningful- besides her escape #which theon instantly romanticizes.... what a moment #we flew! #i can't wait to read about her again #jeyne poole