dad needs a night out
Warnings: suicide ideation and flashbacks of an attempt (Reiner bullshit), Reiner's awful mental health
Summary: You’re the manic pixie dream girl teacher to Reiner’s depressed single DILF.
Word Count: 9.3 K
Author’s Note - fic is for the awesome and cool Daddy’s Day Out collab by the awesome and cool @nuclevi <33
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Reiner can feel their eyes on him. It makes him itch underneath his pullover - makes his jaw clench and his fist tighten around his keys. It’s harmless, he thinks. They’re just glancing, really. But then again, he already knows what the moms are thinking when their eyes flicker to him in the hallway.
They’re whispering but he knows what they’re saying. Or rather, he knows what kinds of things they’re saying.
He pretends he doesn’t know about the thoughts in their head and he pretends that it all rolls off his back and he waits for his daughter. His mother squeezes his shoulder - she’d insisted on coming and he couldn’t deny her the opportunity to see her granddaughter.
Dottie “Dots” Braun. Looked just like her mother - Historia Reiss - and acted just like her older cousin - Gabi Braun. He doesn’t know how it happened exactly, they hadn’t even seen each other all that often lately.
He tries not to think about why, but sometimes when it's late and the room is pitch black and he can’t tell the difference between memory and dream - it’s all he can think about.
He’s ashamed and he doesn’t tell his friends what happened even though everybody already knows. He doesn’t talk to his friends often because it’s all they want to talk about. They’re all kind people and he would gladly die for them, not that it’s saying much, but he can’t listen to Bertholdt’s sympathies or Annie’s insistence or Zeke’s pressuring anymore.
The door to the classroom slides open and the face of a young man is peeking through, he grins and waves, “Hi, guardians, just a minute and we’ll be ready for you!”
Karina’s thumbs twiddle and Reiner’s hands dig into his pockets.
Dottie’s already inside and he just wishes she was next to him. It’s a little pathetic for him, he realizes - to need your child to have self-purpose. And not in the way parents usually mean it, but to be literally useless without your daughter is just an embarrassing feeling.
Historia had nearly forced Reiner to go to the parents’ night at Dottie’s school. He can appreciate her trying to let him take the reins as a father, but he knows that she knew he’d be uncomfortable. Perhaps that’s what she was looking for - not to be evil, but because her best way of getting comfortable with something is to dive head first and she assumes it’ll work with him, too. Ymir, on the other hand, had side-eyed him so critically that he felt obligated to give in the moment her eyes slid over to him.
Whatever. It’s fine. He loves his daughter and he’s honestly just grateful to be presented the chance to still be a father.
No custody, but Historia said he can come over whenever he wants - so that’s a plus.
The young man from earlier pokes into the hall again, “Alright, we’re all ready for you!”
The adults flood into the room and immediately search for their respective child’s face. Dottie’s bouncing in her seat as she excitedly waves to Reiner and Karina.
“Hi, Papa!” she cheers, leeching onto him the instant he’s by her desk.
“Hey, Dots,” he squeezes her in his arms - feeling the heat on the back of his neck when he recalls that night four months back.
August 19th. A Thursday night where the stars were twinkling and the wind bled warmly against his skin on the balcony. A time when the sliding glass door was especially noisy when it would open and close as he went inside.
The young man calls for attention at the front of the room and Reiner is ready to give it so long as it can just sway his mind from the stream of unpleasant memories.
“Thank you for coming tonight,” a new voice speaks now and Karina elbows her son at the sight of a young woman.
Reiner loves his mother, she’s kind and compassionate and very giving, but he can’t stand the way she’ll try setting him up with anything with a pulse if it’ll mean he’s busy and distracted.
...
You look out at the classroom of children and their guardians, “Glad you all could join us! Tonight’s just going to be for all you adults to get to know our classroom routines and rules and lessons.”
The young man to your right gestures to himself, “I’m Armin Arlert and I’ll be co-teaching in the classroom.”
You then gesture to yourself and introduce yourself in the same fashion. Reiner can admire the rehearsed fashion of the way you and Armin go through procedures. It shows that you two have been working on this night - maybe even practicing and pitching lines to one another when you weren’t actively teaching.
It reminds him of when he’d babysit Gabi - showing off projects he wanted her to take interest in or a game he thought was cool. It reminds him of when he’d recite stories to Dottie before bed or tell her tales of his own childhood.
He can tell that you two aren’t extremely experienced in giving speeches to adults the way you are to kids, but he can’t judge either of you for that. So he sits quietly with his mother and daughter and listens intently. He hopes that neither of you notices the judging eyes of other parents or the way some aren’t even paying attention. He hopes you two can see the way he’s invested and take that as a sign that you’re doing well.
He doesn’t know why he hopes that, but maybe he just doesn’t want either of you beating on yourselves after everyone leaves. He imagines that in an earlier time, he would’ve apologized for some of the other people’s behavior. But now he doesn’t want to bother.
Maybe you two don’t notice.
Maybe you two already know.
Maybe you two don’t even care as long as the kids are still intrigued by school at the end of the day.
He should know that last point by now. He’s not the golden boy he used to be. The star athlete and the one people loved talking to and teachers entrusted with academic integrity. The one with the hot friends and the pretty girlfriend and the killer smile. The one people liked to hear talk.
Reiner hangs on the collective word of you and Armin until the very end, when Armin is standing at the door and handing out a syllabus to each adult as they exit.
He stands and watches Dottie take Karina’s hand. They walk down the aisle between desks ahead of him - almost making it to the door when you speak up from behind them.
“Sorry, Mr. Braun, right?” a sticky note pulls at your skin as you hold it between two nervous hands, “Dottie’s father?”
“Yeah,” he waves off his daughter and mother so they go ahead without him, “Her mother couldn’t make it tonight,” a lie, but he doesn’t think it’s necessary you know that, “I hope that’s not a problem.”
“No, no, not at all!” you dismiss his worries with a wave of your hands before holding out the sticky note in your grasp, “I’ve met the Reisses, but I’m afraid your information isn’t on the form we give for parent information.”
Reiner wishes he could be surprised. Historia isn’t terrible or rude, nor does he even dislike her, but he can’t say it’s shocking she didn’t take the liberty to fill him in as the father of their child. Aside from his name, he supposes.
“I’ve been… away for a little bit,” he chooses not to share information with the teacher of his daughter that he just met today - mostly out of respect for you. And Armin, who he assumes - that if he did spill his guts to you - would quickly hear about it as soon as he left the room because, in total fairness, who the fuck shares the kind of thing he’d hypothetically share with a stranger?
The sympathetic smile on your face, however, tells him that you might already know.
Fucking Ymir who, unlike Historia, is actually someone he doesn’t like very much. Someone who can’t keep her mouth shut. Who likes to overshare. Who likes to overstep. Who likes to act as though he’s completely incompetent as a father.
But he was a great dad, and not in the way that most fathers claim they’re great while doing mundane work that mothers do every day with no thanks. No, Reiner went above and beyond in the work and he put in the hours and he did it because he loves his daughter and he loved his wife, even after the divorce was finalized - his love was just different. Historia was nice and she was the mother of his child, of course, he wouldn’t stop caring about her even if he didn’t actually love love her.
He was a great dad, that is the point. And Ymir liked to pretend he wasn’t and then share her opinions and knowledge without anyone’s feelings taken into account.
But you smile, uneasy and crooked and still holding out the sticky note, “Not a problem, just put down your legal name, any work or personal phone numbers, Email, and relation to Dottie on here and we can add you,” Reiner takes the note as you continue, “I’d have the form to you but we’re out of copies right now and I want to make sure you’re on there before I forget.”
Reiner nods and he can sense the words bubbling at the tip of your tongue: I do that a lot. He decides to simply not speak.
You have a nervous energy about you that he can admire. You care. He misses feeling nervous because it used to mean he cared.
You thread your fingers together, “You can have Dottie bring it in for you or bring it in yourself, whatever works best for you works for us!”
With a customer service smile, which you technically shouldn’t have to perform as an educator, you wave Reiner goodbye as he takes his leave.
He hopes Ymir didn’t actually go and tell you and Armin what happened. He feels ashamed to call himself a father now, but at the same time - he knows he shouldn’t be so hard on himself.
Not that he can help it.
It’s fine. It isn’t like you’ll be his closest friend by the end of the year. It’s fine.
Karina drives to Historia’s house where he gets to confront Ymir as politely as he possibly can.
“Did you tell them?”
“Tell who what?”
“The teachers. Did you tell them?”
“I said you had an accident. Nothing else. They didn’t pry, so no - they don’t know. Now, would you fuckin’ relax? You’ll put Historia under stress if she can sense you freaking out.”
“She’s empathetic - not psychic.”
Ymir shrugs and moves past Reiner, “Not that you know of.”
Reiner doesn’t actually have much reason to dislike Ymir the more he thinks about it. But it’s easier to have a distaste than to admit he’s not as good as her.
Dottie’s excitedly telling her mother about what happened just moments earlier and he has to take a moment to collect himself. There’s something nostalgic about this scenario. Something he almost wants to go back to, but knows it’d hurt far more than it could ever help.
Historia is happier now and Reiner should be, too.
In a weird way, he almost is.
Not that the last four months would show it, but he feels less trapped. Again - not that the last four months would show it.
...
“You should take the note yourself,” Gabi says.
Reiner had been staying with his uncle and aunt rather than his mother. He would stay with his mother, but she’s not in the financial status to take care of him at the moment. Besides, he doesn’t know if her smothering ways would truly be best for him - not that he blames her.
He and Gabi were sitting at the table that morning before she had to go to school. She was invasive just as his mother was, but she only did it to be annoying, not because she fretted over him. She cared, but she was still a fifteen-year-old.
“Why?” he stares into the tar pit he calls drinkable black coffee.
Gabi shakes her head at him but he doesn’t notice, “Because I think if you make Dot do it, you’ll just sit here staring at your coffee all day.”
Gabi had left off the ‘s’ from Dottie’s nickname since the girl had first been called ‘Dots’ and sometimes it annoyed Reiner. Other times it endeared him. Either way, it was nice to know that even while he was away, she and Dottie didn’t grow so estranged as for the nickname to be adjusted.
“Yeah, probably,” he admits.
“So, you should do it. Get out of the house,” she looks at the stove clock and rises from her chair, “Wash that for me.”
Reiner looks at the bowl she abandons and decides not to. Not out of malice, but because sometimes it’s fun to hear Gabi get lectured.
Reiner shoots up at that thought - he’s thirty-six years old, he can’t be finding it comical when his kid cousin is lectured. He has to get out of the house, so he makes sure he has the sticky note filled out and takes his car keys from the bowl by the front door - leaving behind Gabi’s cereal to deteriorate in the warming milk.
...
The carpet of the front office is blue, he’s sure, under the murky brown stains which sources he doesn’t even want to know about - it’s blue. They’re patchy and they remind him, oddly enough, of his own primary school. On days where he’d either actually throw up in the middle of art or pretend to feel sick so he could get called out and was forced to sit on the uncomfortable cushions of the chairs until his mother came.
Now, he waits behind a mother as she signs her son out of school. The two walk out and he can faintly hear a high five in the hallway after they’re out of sight.
When he moves up, the woman apologizes before rushing off at the sound of a concerning yelp coming from the nurse’s office. He assumes he isn’t more important than a potential emergency in the nurse’s office so he waits patiently for the woman to return.
...
You peek into the front office from the copier room, spotting Reiner with a bright orange post-it folded between his fingers. Plastering a grin over your lips, you stride out to meet the man in front of the counter, “Hey, got something for me?”
His shoulders tense before he turns around, letting out a sigh of relief, “Yeah. Yes,” he holds out the note, “Everything you asked for is on there.”
“Thank you,” you practically hum and take the note from him.
Reiner nods slowly, and before you can turn back to the copier room, he speaks, “Hey, this - it’s dumb,” his face flashes hot in embarrassment when all you do is quirk a brow, “I was just wondering, if you’re ever looking for a TA and nobody else is volunteering, then I’m happy to do it.”
This time, both brows shoot up and your grin morphs from pleasantry to genuine surprise, “Sure, if you’re ready to grade papers and make copies all day,” your fingers drum against the thick stack of papers in your arms, “And you’d probably have to work in the side office, just so you don’t rile the kids up or anything,” you chuckle, “Armin and I don’t ask for TAs often because there isn’t much excitement to be had.”
“I feel like that’s self-explanatory.”
“Yeah, well, you’d probably be surprised how many complaints we used to get when we would ask for volunteers and they couldn’t just sit next to their kid the entire day,” you laugh, gritting your teeth, but the laugh is something strained and he can tell you’re reliving something that makes your blood boil, “I get that it’s ‘just a second-grade class’ but still. It’s not like what we do isn’t important, right?”
Reiner nods and you gesture to him, responding to your own question with an assured,
“Right!” you flatten the stack against the counter, “Anyway, if you’re positively sure, then it’d be a great, big help if you could TA.”
He’s positively desperate for something to get him out of the house and he’s sure that if he has to sit at a 9-5 or get screamed at and mocked for a minimum wage he’d put a gun in his mouth. But you don’t need to know that, so he just nods and holds his hands out, “Can I start by carrying all that back to your classroom for you?”
You hand over the papers in your arms before putting a finger up and rushing to the copier room and returning with another stack, “Now, we can go.”
“Here,” he moves the stack to the crook of his arm and reaches out for the one in your hands, “let me.”
“Aw, no,” you protest - rather lightly, if you’re honest, “Are you sure - I’d hate to make you carry so much.”
Reiner takes the papers from your lackluster grip and places them atop the ones already in his hold, “I don’t have muscles for fun.”
“What? No,” you elongate the vowels as you speak, “I thought working out was just a laugh riot.”
“For sure is,” he mutters.
The conversation dies quietly as you two go through the winding hallways. You lead him to a door right beside the real entrance to the classroom, “I’d take you through the actual room, but Armin’s reading with them.”
Reiner doesn’t mind. Not at all. He prizes Dottie’s giggles and smiles when she sees him, but he also treasures her education - so he thinks he can survive not being the center of attention for a little while.
…
Reiner drops Dottie off in the mornings and then waits for her to wander down a hall before making his own way to the office he works in. You always show up - sometimes with Armin, if he’s early enough - with two cups of coffee. The first time you came, you had creamers and sugar tucked into the crook of your arm and sheepishly admitted, “I don’t know how you like your coffee, so I brought everything.”
You feel bad about “making” him work all day without pay, so you actually offer wages of your own. Reiner refuses every time - he knows you don’t make much already, and he lives comfortably, he doesn’t want to cut into your funds.
“Armin and I switch on subjects for the most part,” you told him while the kids were being taught the components of space by Armin, “It just works better than having two adults crowding the room at once. Could make the kids feel too watched.”
He isn’t sure what that means, but he doesn’t ask. He doesn’t want to be something that sticks out, but you always come into the office when you aren’t teaching to talk to him. You sit on the opposite desk pressed into a wall and watch him dumbly flick his head back and forth as he grades and you talk.
Reiner likes the background noise, and he likes how easy you are to agree with.
“Kids shouldn’t be charged for the food in the cafeteria.”
“Breaking Bad is a little overrated. Like it’s good, but I think people slobber over it too much.”
“Armin’s new choice of book for the kids is so boring, and he knows it - little shit.”
“The Ozark finale kinda sucked.”
“I feel like it’s just nostalgia talking, but I don’t think Marvel’s as good as it used to be.”
“I never saw myself doing this, to be honest.”
Everything you say, Reiner can easily nod along to - including that - but something about you saying it puts him off.
He looks up at you and you’re just sipping your coffee as if you aren’t on the verge of existential crisis.
“Huh?” he asks, putting down the pen in his hand.
You shrug and look away, “I just didn’t imagine I’d be a second-grade teacher living with my co-teacher.”
“You and Armin are roommates?”
“Wrong thing to take from that, but yeah.”
“Well, what was the right thing to take from that?”
“I dunno,” you hop off the desk you were sitting on and move to leer over his shoulder at his work, “I thought I’d work in a daycare. It’s more fun.”
“Is it?” he sits up and finally takes notice of the ache cranking through his spine, “I would’ve thought it’s more stressful than teaching.”
“I mean, sometimes it was,” you cross your arms, “I left because they were starting to make daycare more academic and I couldn’t be around for that.”
“So you came to teach?” he turns in the chair to look at you directly.
…
You look down at Reiner as he speaks and you feel so silly under his gaze. He’s got a kind face for a man his age, you aren’t used to it.
Shaking your head, you take a step back, “I was jobless for a long time. Bumming it with Armin and feeling bad that I couldn’t pay him back. Then he said there’s an open position at the school he worked for and I went to the interview,” you wave your hand around, “Now, I’m teaching.”
He nods slowly, “What’d you go to school for?”
“Literature, big help that was.”
“Do you like teaching?”
Your response is too quick and both of you know it. A little too practiced. A little too harsh.
“Of course!”
And then you backtrack.
“I mean, I love working with kids. Not so much the parents. Except you.”
You’d only said it to save both of you the awkwardness of not clarifying it, but Reiner can feel his heart thud beneath his ribs at the way you say it. You’re the exception - I like you.
Reiner wants to say something back. He has to say something back.
“I’ve always had a lot of respect for teachers, I don’t really know how you can handle a class full of kids and deal with insane adults,” he’s careful in how he phrases it.
“Yeah, neither of us get along with people our age. Except each other, I guess.”
Something about the way you exempt Armin rubs Reiner the wrong way and he feels so fucking stupid for it. He’s thirty-six acting like a child when they find out the babysitter they have a crush on is dating somebody.
Crush.
He wants to dive out the window at that thought.
A crush on one of his daughter’s teachers. Who’s younger than him.
Way younger, maybe. He doesn’t know exactly how old you are but he bets you’re in your mid-20s. He feels pathetic.
But you smile upon him and the sunshine peeking through the windows hits you with a backlight. A halo seems to shine overhead and he grins at the thought.
You’re just being nice to the man who works for you, but he likes the daydream where he’s the mysterious man you want to know more about. Even if you haven’t asked him anything about himself.
“Well,” you check your watch, “I should get back in there. Need anything before I go?”
Reiner looks down at the paper before him and shakes his head - muttering a small ‘thanks’.
“For what?”
“Giving me something to do.”
You’d giggled and pat his shoulder as you left and he felt like crumbling beneath your touch. Oh, to die at that moment - knowing that the spot you’d graced with a gentle hand would be forever unsullied by the rest of the world.
Dottie would need him, and that wakes him from his thoughts.
He’s embarrassed to admit that Dottie hadn’t been on his mind on August 19th.
The night he slid into his studio apartment and looked around at barren fucking wastelands he called square feet in a home. The night he laid in bed and tried swallowing pills just to get out of his own head. The night his ex-wife and her new wife decided to grant him a surprise visit with his daughter. The night Historia screamed so loudly and so raw that she had a sore throat for the next week and alerted his neighbors.
Dottie was confused as she was rushed back to the car by Ymir, who he bet was muttering something more comforting and gentle than anything she’d ever said in her entire life previously.
He woke up on August 21st at eleven in the morning with his mother clutching his hand and Historia whispering with a doctor right outside the door.
Before the doctor could bring it up, Reiner had admitted himself to suicide watch.
Now, he’s back and Dottie hasn’t asked a single question about it - so he’s hoping she’s moved past August 19th.
He still thinks about dying, but he’s firmly decided against taking action. So, that’s something.
…
“Why do you show up every day?”
Reiner wasn’t expecting that question. It sounds silly to say, in hindsight. What kind of sane person with a job - or, shit, even just a hobby - shows up to assist their daughter’s teacher(s) without their daughter even knowing?
Though, to be fair to him, he never told Dottie because then she’d get nothing done. And he only really kept showing up here, specifically, because he liked to daydream about the symbolism behind the hearts you put on his coffee cups. He liked picturing a timeline where they aren’t meaningless doodles from the dreadful ride to school but rather something to show minute affection.
But he can’t tell you that, so the next answer is the reason he even considered the position - to avoid being at home alone with only the inner workings of his mind to keep him company.
He can’t tell you that, either.
“Ehh,” he can’t decide what lie to spit, but you seem to get the message from his dumb mutter.
“Sorry, not my business,” you shake your head, “Don’t feel pressured to answer that.”
Reiner’s never felt so at ease before - so disarmed. You stand up from a new favorite spot of yours, sitting on the edge of the desk Reiner works on, and he feels obligated to say something.
“Thanks,” you turn, eyes wide and taken aback by his gratitude, “for not pushing. I really appreciate that, not a lot of people would just drop it the way you did.”
“Well, maybe you need to know different people,” you tap the side of your cup with your nails, “People aren’t cruel, Reiner, you just need to know the right ones,” something in the way his jaw clenches, and brows set tells you that he doesn’t believe you, so you continue, “If you want, Armin and I are going out with a few friends on Friday. You can meet some new people - they’re all really nice, I promise.”
Reiner chuckles, he scratches the back of his neck, eyes shifting to the carpeted floor in lieu of your face, “That’s a kind offer, really, but I’ll probably feel more like a chaperone than anything.”
“Oh, no, no!” you wave your hands about, hoping to dismiss his insecurities, “Eren,” he nods along despite having no idea who that is, “always drags along his older brother, Zeke, so it isn’t like they’ll be weird about you being older or anything.”
He hates to be that guy, but he can’t help himself from asking, “Zeke? Last name Yaeger?”
To his surprise, you nod excitedly, “Yeah! How d’ya know him?”
“We went to college together,” and then the reality of Zeke fucking Yaeger potentially being in the same room as him since August 18th slushes over him, “We’re buddies, actually.”
Now he can actually recall the name Eren - which he always thought was spelled Erin - from Zeke’s stories of a snot-nosed and annoying younger half-brother that he’d kill for.
“Aw, that’s great!”
You’re so sweet to say that, but you don’t know what Reiner’s done.
“Just - fuckin’ stay out of it!”
“I can take care of my damn self, I don’t fucking need you.”
“I’m goddamn fine, Yaeger. Leave me alone.”
“Yeah,” Reiner nods, “it’ll be great.”
“Uhm, do you want my number or anything?” you’re quick to tack on, “So I can keep you updated on the plans and whatever.”
“Yeah,” Reiner fumbles for his phone and hands it over, “that’d be great. Thanks.”
“Of course, and if you can’t make it then no worries - just, ya know, let me know.”
You hand back the phone and give Reiner a short wave, “Well, I’ll be back for lunch.”
Reiner returns the wave and checks the contact you saved once you’re gone. He grins upon seeing it: ‘hot teacher :)’ - at least you know yourself.
Reiner contemplates texting Zeke now. Apologizing. Explaining. Reasoning. Pleading for forgiveness. Any of it. All of it. He thinks about it, and lets the moment pass.
Then returns to grading.
It’s not that Zeke doesn’t deserve an apology - he does. All of his friends do. Even fucking Porco who bugged him to no goddamn end. It’s just that Zeke intimidates him. Or, rather, the idea of looking Zeke in the eyes and having to backstep and relive all of his own shameful behavior intimidates him.
It’ll be even worse with Bertholdt and Annie. He’s sure.
But Zeke should be a manageable task for now. Should be.
Reiner doesn’t pick up his phone again for the rest of the day.
…
“Are you serious?” Armin just barely manages to get out the question after choking on his dinner.
“Yeah - why not?” you huff.
“Because that’s insane and we barely know him,” he stands up and takes both your plates from the table, “I mean, he seems great but what if he’s an asshole?”
“He isn’t - besides! He’s friends with Zeke, everything’ll work out.”
“He’s friends with Zeke?”
“Yeah,” you lean back in your chair, “It’ll be fine, you’re worried over nothing.”
“Story of my life,” he mutters as he returns to the table, “Alright, fine. He can go, but you’re the one telling Mikasa to get another seat at the table she booked.”
“Will you at least stay in the room with me when I do it?”
Armin sucks in a sharp breath as if to think, then he agrees, “Yeah. Hurry up.”
…
Dottie’s hanging off the doorframe of the bathroom, lips pulled down into a pout as she watches her father fuss with his hair, “Why’re you working so hard? You’re basically bald, anyway.”
Reiner turns and narrows his eyes at his daughter, “Hey, I’m not bald - it’s a buzz cut. There’s a difference,” he returns his gaze to the mirror, “Not having a receding hairline in my mid-30s is actually a big accomplishment, just so you know.”
“Mmm,” her nod is lackluster, eyes rolling, “Sure, old man…” Dottie stands on her own and smacks the doorframe, “Why’re you even leaving? Just stay home… Auntie’s making split pea soup and you get to go out? It’s so not fair.”
“I’ll make grilled cheese or something tomorrow, Dots,” he stands straight, “Dad just needs a night out. For fun. And friends.”
“Why don’t I just go?” Dottie wanders over to the counter and rests her head on the cool surface, golden tendrils of hair flutter and fall into the sink and Reiner gently brushes them out.
“It’s a night out for adults.”
Dottie arches a brow, groaning, “‘s dumb.”
“I know,” he ruffles her hair and steps back from the bathroom mirror, “Don’t be hard on your aunt and uncle, okay? And stay out of Gabi’s room, if she doesn’t finish her project - she’ll fail the semester.”
“Okay,” Dottie drags out the ‘a’ and follows her father to the front door where he puts on his shoes, “Bring me back food.”
“Wow, a month into second grade and somebody forgets their manners.”
“Bring me back food, please?”
“Sure,” Reiner bends down to kiss the girl’s forehead, he can feel the thrum of anxiety below his skin but the idea of showing that fear in front of his daughter makes him want to die, “I’ll be back soon, okay?”
“‘Soon,’” she makes overly exaggerated air quotes and unlocks the front door, opening it as Reiner steps out.
“I love you,” the man grins down at his daughter, and she giggles.
Her face is just peeking out between the gap of the door as she excitedly chirps, “I love you, too! Have fun!”
The door slams shut and he waits to hear the lock click into place before turning to his car.
…
Eren’s question is innocent enough, “What’s with the extra chair?”
“Her newest geriatric date is coming,” Armin spits it out before you can even get a word in. He’s jabbing a thumb in your direction and making no effort to save you from the thundering tires of the bus.
“I thought I told you,” Mikasa turns to her boyfriend, only to receive a firm head shake in response, she shrugs and Zeke sighs from across the table.
“Oh, what?” you lean forward, “Scared to not be the only senior citizen at the table?”
“I’m in my mid-30s, not rotting,” Zeke makes a point to check his watch, “Boyfriend’s gonna be late.”
“He’ll be here.”
“Right… what’s this guy’s name, anyway?”
“Oh, so, funny thing- “ but before you can answer, Connie and Sasha arrive - loudly, as they usually do. They ask the same question Eren does and Armin pokes your side,
“Her silver fox boner.”
Jean asks when he shows up, too. Armin takes a slice of bread from the center table and points at you.
“Couldn’t keep it down long enough for the dad we work with to leave.”
And so does Marco. Armin pauses before drinking his water and nudges his head in your direction.
“Wrinkle-chaser.”
“He just has crow’s feet and it’s very natural,” you point at Jean, “Kirstein’s already got some.”
“Fuck off.”
Zeke crosses his arms and leans back in his chair, making another show of checking his watch, “Your boy’s officially two minutes late.”
“God forbid that as a dad, he’s busy,” you mutter.
“Hey, you didn’t answer my question, by the way,” you saddle the blond with a raised brow and he scratches at the back of his neck, “Your boy - what’s his name?”
“Oh!” you’re just about to roll the name from your tongue when Armin stops you and gestures to the entrance doors,
“Ask him yourself.”
Zeke turns and his jaw drops open, “No fucking shot.”
“You know him?” Eren follows his brother’s gaze.
“Right,” you nod, “he said you two were friends! That’s what I’ve been meaning to say.”
“Yeah, friends,” Zeke’s eyes suffocate Reiner from across the floor and he hopes the man can fucking feel it as he checks in with the hostess.
…
Reiner looks over the hostess’ shoulder and to the table she points at when he finally understands what the dread filling in his veins was.
Of course, he’s nervous and worried and ready to puke at the mere idea of having to face the discourse he’s caused. But the way Zeke’s eyes scorch him from over the rim of his wire glasses makes Reiner’s muscles shrivel beneath his skin.
He rubs the back of his neck and meets eyes with everyone at the table except Zeke as he introduces himself.
Armin shakes his hand as does Mikasa and Jean. Connie and Sasha wave excitedly. Eren nods. And you gingerly pull out the empty seat beside you.
“Uh,” Zeke stands before Reiner can sit and pats him on the shoulder, “we gotta catch up, man.”
Reiner knows Zeke well enough to know that isn’t a potential desire or wish, it’s a way of saying ‘come the fuck outside with me’ without making the rest of the table awkward.
“Oh, sure, yeah,” Reiner gives you a tight-lipped grin as he turns to follow Zeke outside and pretends he doesn’t feel your sweet eyes on his back.
Zeke doesn’t speak when they step outside, instead, he pulls out a pack of cigarettes - the same brand Reiner’s always known him to smoke - and offers one despite knowing Reiner doesn’t smoke. It makes his eyes burn and he hates the smell. So Zeke lights up a cigarette on his own and watches the cherry illuminate as he forms the thoughts within his head.
“So,” Zeke blows the smoke out slowly and Reiner almost hopes the fumes can inflate him - just a little, “you disappear to flirt with a woman ten years younger than you?”
“I can see why you’d say that,” Reiner moves to stand against the wall, still not looking the other man in his eyes, “I just… I never knew how to get back to you.”
“And the others?”
“Haven’t talked to them, either,” Zeke gives Reiner a look and he shakes his head, “Not even Berthold.”
“What happened to you, man?” Zeke takes another deep inhale of the cigarette and Reiner’s eyes close in on the way smoke ribbons out and above them. Reiner takes too long to respond and ends up having the smoke exhaled into his face, “I mean, I know what happened. But what happened? You just…” Zeke wets his lips and looks away, “Historia was the only reason I knew you were alive.”
“I don’t know, I just couldn’t - it would’ve been so fucking awkward. So I just ran away before you all freaked out.”
Because how do you keep going? When everyone knows you want to die, how does life continue?
“It wouldn’t have been weird, we would’ve helped.”
“You’re not responsible for me, besides, I don’t know how encouraging you all are.”
Annie and Zeke were both condescending at best. Bertholdt was smothering. Porco hated him and he hated Porco. Pieck was probably his best option and she had better things to be doing.
He didn’t wanna do that to her.
“I’ve literally had to clean up your vomit, I think I can handle being open for a conversation.”
Zeke’s got a habit of making problems seem small and while Reiner can appreciate him trying to make it known that he’s available, he’d be lying to say it simply rolled off his back like the leers of the single mothers at Dottie’s school.
“Yeah, but I didn’t know how to,” Reiner presses his lips into a thin line before he speaks again, “Got a job - sort of. I assist at Dottie’s school,” he says your name and it feels like honey dripping from his tongue, “they offered and I, uh, didn’t have anything going on.”
“What’s it about?” Zeke takes another drag of his cigarette.
“What? Coming here?” the other man nods, then shakes his head, and Reiner waits patiently for him to continue.
“Yes and no. What’s with cozying up to my friend? I’m sure as shit that Armin didn’t plan on bringing you - and you seemed ready to sit there like a lost puppy.”
“I don’t know,” Reiner’s honest, and he knows that’s the last thing he needs to be right now with Zeke forcing daggers through his skull with that dead-eyed stare, “She’s nice to me. Draws hearts on my coffee cup and always offers half of her sandwich at lunch. Good company. We both hate Quentin Tarantino.”
Zeke nods, “Do you really see this going anywhere? Or is it just for you to get back on your feet?” in a rare display of sincerity, Zeke’s glaring simmers down into real eye contact - he stomps out his cigarette, “I’ll tell you now, if it’s the second one - you should pick another girl,” he juts his head to gesture inside, “She’s not the one for that.”
Reiner wants to ask why Zeke knows that and how he could come to that conclusion. He doesn’t. He lets the moment pass and decides that maybe one day you’ll think he’s worthy of sharing the details yourself.
He wants to tell Zeke to not worry - that everything will be fine and he’s fine and you’re fine and everyone is going to be fine. What comes out instead is, “What are you? Her dad?”
“Very funny, shithead,” Zeke pulls open the door to the restaurant, “Go ahead and play puppy for the night. We’re gonna talk about you one way or another.”
…
Reiner agreed to go out two business days in a row, a task he hadn’t been able to manage since his early 20s. At Zeke’s insistence, he’d come to terms with the fact he needed to own up to his actions regarding their group and agreed to go on lunch with the group.
If he had to guess, he spent more time staring in anticipation at the analog clock on the wall and digital clock on his wrist than actually doing work. And for that, he felt bad. He hoped you wouldn’t be counting on him on this particular day.
Nine o’clock strikes and you wander into his makeshift office - you don’t teach second hour science, so you always come to spend the hour with him.
“Hi,” you pat his shoulder as you approach, hopping up onto the desk, “looks like you’ve been busy.”
The stack of tests that Reiner would usually be half-through with by now has had a mere two paper decrease since you dropped them off earlier that morning.
“Sorry,” he sighs and rubs at his temples, “I’ve got a thing for lunch and I can’t stop thinking about it. I feel like a child.”
“It’s not childish - whenever I have plans, my stomach hurts for, like, the whole day.”
“Really?”
“Yeah. It’s called anxiety.”
“I can take the work home, if you want.”
“No, don’t worry about it,” you scratch at your chin and look away from him, “I just feel bad you’re doing all of this for free. I’d pay you if Armin and I weren’t paid so shitty.”
“Don’t- “ Reiner takes up his phone and checks the time - an hour until he has to leave, “I don’t mind. I like helping.”
“I’m glad, I still feel bad, though.”
“You’re honestly doing me a favor. I needed something to do.”
Even though those sentences should raise a few questions, you don't ask. He likes that. You know when to pry and when not to, he can appreciate that respect.
“I gotta prep for next hour, actually, but I hope you enjoy that thing you’ve got.”
“Thanks, I’ll try. Sorry again, for not doing- “
“Seriously, Reiner, please don’t worry about it. You’re perfectly fine.”
“Thanks.”
“Of course.”
It takes Reiner two minutes to enter the restaurant Zeke told him about. He stands outside and debates lying, but only in theory - because he knows that if he actually does and leaves all his friends hanging, then he might as well delete their numbers.
He takes a deep breath and pulls the door open, spotting Annie as she sits in a booth far off to the side of the floor.
He sheepishly sits down and he isn’t expecting the way Bertholdt gives him an awkward side-hug or how Annie pats his shoulder. He isn’t expecting Pieck to smile so sweetly and take his hand in hers as she greets him. He isn’t expecting Zeke to say he already ordered Reiner’s favorite plate from the menu.
He didn’t think Zeke would remember.
Porco shows up after him - which he’s also surprised about. He didn’t think Porco would even come.
“Sorry,” he says, eyes trained on the smooth wood of the table, the others’ eyes burning through his bones and he kind of wishes you were sitting next to him so he could have your reassurance, “for everything. I - “ he feels his eyes burn and he has to close them so no tears can trace his face, “I just didn’t know how to look you all in the eye anymore.”
Nobody replies, each person is patiently waiting for him to wring his brain dry of all thought.
“I felt so ashamed of myself and I was too scared to be asked why. I didn’t want anybody thinking they weren’t enough or that I didn’t care. I didn’t know how to talk to anyone. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”
Porco, bizarrely enough, reaches out first, he’s quiet for once. Only nodding in understanding and mumbling, “We weren’t mad.”
Pieck curls closer to Reiner and gingerly hugs him from the side, “I’m just sorry you felt like you had to worry about us while trying to heal. We look out for each other, don’t we? Let us take care of you.”
Reiner tries not to hunch over and weep like a newborn. He really, really tries not to - he doesn’t like crying in public.
But he doesn’t succeed.
And even though most of his friends aren’t emotionally intelligent enough to comfort someone like him, they all try.
…
You’re cleaning up the little office Reiner holds himself up in when he returns. You two lock eyes and you point at him, “Fired. No, I’m kidding. Your eyes are red, are you alright?”
“M’fine,” he waves off, “Emotional lunch,” he admits.
“Aw, I hope it went well, at least.”
“Really well, yeah.”
“That’s good.”
It’s the last hour of the day and you don’t teach, so with no Reiner to take up your time, you busy yourself with tidying the area.
Reiner watches you bustle about the room. Moving supplies and dusting surfaces as you go, he silently joins in and moves spare chairs and boxes around the area as you direct him. He likes the silent two-step you’ve both fallen into.
The bell rings and you both know what’s coming next. Or, you both know what should be coming next.
Normally, you and Reiner conduct a performance. You hold Dottie back for at least three minutes just to chat and get to know how she’s doing in school while Reiner rushes through the halls to get to the pickup center and pretend he just arrived at school.
Now, however, as you’re about to head out the door, Reiner catches up with you and grins, “I think it’s easier if Dottie just knows, now.”
He didn’t want her knowing that he didn’t have anything better going on, and disguised it as not wanting her to be distracted, but maybe he should’ve owned up to it earlier. He’s feeling good today, and maybe tomorrow will be utter shit - so he should live out this good day while it’s here so he can reflect on it when tomorrow’s drenched in muck and leaves him wishing for nonexistence.
“Feeling brave today, are we?”
More than you’ll ever know, is what he wants to say. But he keeps his mouth shut and doesn’t bother replying aside from a light chuckle. You two enter the class at the same time and Dottie notices him almost instantaneously, her face lights up and she abandons her bag in favor of rushing to her father.
Armin approaches you as the two are reuniting after a grueling seven hours apart. He’s grinning but you can see past the shiny veneer and into the anger slowly rising beneath his skin, he claps you on the shoulder and mouths, ‘what the fuck?’
“Children,” you hiss in warning.
He shakes his head, whispering, “You’re insane.”
“It’s fine,” you slap his shoulder, “It’s literally fine.”
“Hey,” Reiner calls and you turn, he’s got Dottie’s bag in one hand and is holding her hand with the other, “we’re heading out.”
“Okay,” you look at Armin and shrug, walking over to the father and daughter, “I should be monitoring the pick-up area, anyway.”
Armin’s eyes widen and he has to restrain himself from jaw-dropping at the blatant lie you just spewed. There’s teachers who are scheduled to watch the pick-up area and neither you nor Armin is the one to do that.
Armin catches you by the arm and whispers in your ear, “You look desperate.”
You shrug and whisper back, “He looks hot.”
“Miss, Miss,” Dottie abandons her father’s side in favor of hopping over to yours, “You missed it! Last hour, Mr. Arlert was passing back tests, right?”
“Right.”
“And guess what?”
You hum, pretending to ponder before giving up, “What?”
“I got an A!” she turns to Reiner, “Dad, Dad! Show her, show her! It’s in the big pouch!”
Reiner holds the office door open for you and Dottie as he speaks, “Maybe later, Dots, we’ve gotta go home now.”
“Good job, Dottie!” you beam, holding up a hand for her to high five, “I knew you could do it. Mr. Arlert and I are so impressed by your progress this year.”
“Here, sweetie,” Reiner hands the girl her bag and points to his car at the curb, “I’m gonna walk you to the car and then I need a quick word with your teacher, okay?”
“Okay,” she all but sings.
Reiner looks to you as though silently asking if that works, you nod just a little too quickly - a little too eager to fall under his palm.
Once Dottie’s safely in the car, Reiner rushes back to your side, scratching the back of his neck. Today’s a good day, so if it’ll be ruined - he should get it over with now, he supposes.
“Hi,” he keeps his gaze away from you, trying to tuck himself away from your eyes despite being as burly as he is.
“Hi,” you duck your head to force his eyes to meet yours, “everything okay up there?”
“I was just wondering, would you…” he can feel the swell of his gut and the way his tongue feels like sandpaper against his gums, “would you wanna go out sometime?”
You look shellshocked for a moment and it hits him what a dumb fucking thing that was to ask.
“God, nevermind, I’m dumb,” Reiner goes to turn but you gingerly take his wrist in your hand.
“No, I’m sorry - I just - I wasn’t expecting it,” you smile and Reiner wants to bury himself in the lines that curl into your skin as you giggle, “I’d like to go out, actually. It sounds fun. Just text me the place and I’ll meet you there.”
Reiner wants to be romantic and offer you a ride, but he doesn’t want to push in case you let go - so he lets it pass.
At seven, he meets you at a restaurant that he’s just able to afford.
And of course, right from the gate - he fucks up.
“I was surprised you actually wanted to come out, I read this thing that said if you date people younger than you it means you’re, like, mentally immature,” he immediately shakes his head, “Dunno why I said that - Jesus fuckin’ Christ.”
“No, it’s fine,” you try to save him from embarrassment and he thinks it’s sweet, even though it is in vain, “And, if it’ll make you feel better, I’ve got kind of a thing for dilfs.”
“I’ve never been so glad to hear that phrase before.”
“Glad I can be of assistance,” when the conversation lulls, you suddenly blurt out, “I’m trying to get a new personality trait by listening to my dad’s favorite bands.”
“Oh, and what bands are that?”
“The typical old guy ones. Where if you’re driving through Arizona and 98 KUPD is on, you’ll hear a song and go - ‘hey, my dad would like that’ and when you bring it up he’s like ‘hey, I do like that song.’”
“Okay, they’re not old guy songs,” just as you go to ask why he’s so defensive about it, Reiner continues, “but if you don’t wanna sift through shit, I can put together a playlist for you, or something.”
You tilt your head and grin, “Aw, you’d do that?”
“Yeah, it really wouldn’t be that hard. Maybe two hours. Just to make sure it’s perfect,” he hopes you don’t get the sense he’s being dead serious, both so you don’t think he’s being weird and also so you don’t know how long he’d sit there curating a playlist just for you.
“Sure, if it won’t cut into your schedule at all - that’d be great.”
He almost wants to laugh at the insinuation he has a schedule. Reiner nods and smiles at the way you’re beaming.
“God,” you shake your head, “I’m actually pretty excited now.”
“Let’s hope I don’t disappoint.”
“Aw, no - I believe in you,” he knows it’s only a throwaway line, but he can’t help but commit the way you say it to memory.
For when he needs it.
Later that night, Reiner would sift through his favorite songs - listening and relistening and re-relistening - just to find the perfect playlist for you. One to get you started, he reasons. One that’ll maybe make you check out the bands for more. One that you’ll enjoy enough to maybe ask him for more suggestions.
And tomorrow morning, when Reiner is driving himself and his daughter to school and one of his favorite songs is on - he’ll realize that it now makes him think of you. And he can only hope that the rest of his favorite songs don’t follow suit.
Or maybe they should.
He likes thinking about you.
“Dad?” Dottie calls from the backseat.
“Yes, pumpkin?” he glances at her in the rearview mirror.
She holds up his phone that she’d been playing on moments ago, “Why is my teacher asking when your ‘next’ date is?”
Reiner has half a mind to pull over and snatch his phone back, but he doesn’t. He can wait a few minutes longer to tell you in person - when you’re holding out a coffee made to his liking with a heart drawn next to his name.
The next date is whenever and wherever you want - he’s already at your beck and call.
…
Dottie’s tenth birthday. You’re sitting at the Braun dinner table even though she hasn’t been your student for just under three years.
Gabi slides into the seat on your right and passes you her laptop, “Can you read my thesis statement? It’s kicking my ass to write and I have no clue if it’s right.”
“What’s your topic about?” you turn to the girl and she sighs, narrowing her eyes as she tries to recall.
“No homework at the dinner table,” Karina lifts the laptop from your hands and makes sure Gabi’s work is saved before closing it, “It’s your cousin’s birthday, be a little patient, sweetie.”
Gabi groans and tosses her head back, “If I don’t ace this essay, I’m fuc- “
“There’s the birthday girl!” you cheer as Dottie bounces through the doorway, her father following after with a too-tight party hat string looped around his head.
Dottie bounds into your arms and squeezes with all the strength in her little arms, “Thank you, thank you, thank you for coming!”
“Of course, I came,” you don’t ruffle her hair only out of respect for the work Historia had put into it before waving off her daughter to celebrate her birthday with her father, “Wouldn’t miss your birthday for the world.”
Reiner sits in the chair on your left and takes his daughter into his lap, he turns to you and takes your hand in his - pressing a kiss to your knuckles.
You grin, leaning over to kiss the man’s cheek and taking delight in the way his cheeks still tint pink - even after the years you’ve been together.
You two hold hands as Dottie opens her gifts and he whispers in your ear how much he loves you - and you turn and whisper back how you love him more. Reiner has imagined a life like this, he’s glad he can finally have it.
He’s overjoyed, however, that you’re the one he’s lucky enough to live it with.
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Okay, shopping cart accident to one side, I’m home now. Let’s go.
Tonight, on a very special “Quantum Leap”, we remind you that 2012 was about 11 years ago.
Oh fucking God, Party Rock Anthem…
Okay, it looked like Ben punched her to the floor.
“You love basketball.” Interesting time to pint that out.
“Ben, call it a hunch, but I think you have to save basketball.”
“Amanda, if you don’t rest your ankle, I’m banning you from basketball.”
You didn’t have to cue Party Rock Anthem back up, guys…
Gia should’ve done a Space Jam, but she got the job done regardless.
Now Ben, as you can tell, you are not leaping yet, so welcome to the long haul.
Ah, we’re getting right into the transphobia, delightful.
“And she’s your daughter.” She just called Ben “Dad”, no fucking shit.
I too sadly stare at high school trophies when confronted with dickhead teenagers yelling at my daughter.
In-fighting amongst the team, and Ben being scolded by the principal for having his trans daughter play basketball, we are starting off on a cheery fucking note…
“Look, my daughter can fucking grow a new ankle all I fucking care, you are the asshole here, not me!”
Calling it: In 8 years time, Amanda’s mom becomes a full blown Karen. I can technically say that since “Karen” didn’t enter the public consciousness until 2020, she doesn’t count yet in 2012.
Well, I commend Gia for trying to make light of a shit situation.
Also, dollars to donuts the principal was the one to make her use the janitor’s closet as a changing room.
Why the fuck would they use a real helicopter for “Miss Saigon”? You remember what happened with “Twilight Zone: The Movie”, right?
Ben already changed history, neat.
So, Ben has to make sure Gia has to not run away, got it. How many transphobes does he need to beat up to make this happen? Can that be the episode?
Moral of the Story: Being an ally is for scrubs, being an accomplice gets shit done.
Why am I convinced this bar is in Texas?
Also, is Janis still at the Project, or was she allowed to leave after saying a name?
Dottie, you are clearly lying about not knowing Ben, why are you lying to Ernie Hudson?
Dottie is such a sick-ass poet, the government hates her. That’s awesome.
So, while Ben is fighting transphobia in 2012, Magic and Jenn are attending a poetry slam in Not Texas.
March 13th, the scariest March. So, watch as it turns out that day was actually super bad for Dottie, and I become an asshole.
“Management here is sus.” Among Us has done a lot of fucking damage to society.
[My phone wanted to autocorrect “damage” to “Sam anger”, just FYI.]
If only “Angry Birds” was still a good game in 2023…
“I can’t believe you put her in the game without giving me a head’s up first!” It was the last 30 seconds, and Amanda had a shit ankle, stop trying to make Ben the bad guy here!
“Don’t make me the enemy, I’m already doing that to you!”
Okay, I count that as confirmation of my “Amanda’s mom becomes a Karen” theory.
I think you need to block that number, ma’am.
“I-I didn’t think-” “That’s right. You didn’t think.” Ma’am, remember how you told Ben to not make you the enemy? Yeah, that’s a two-way street.
Ma’am, I am willing to bet Gia’s going to regionals, I hope you are prepared for that.
I love how Ben indirectly asked “Why couldn’t this episode just be basketball?”
“They banned trans people in the military?” Oh, I wish to fucking God they were allowed to directly shit on Trump here…
“The point is, we saw it coming, and we[…] didn’t say anything.” A tale as old as time.
I love it when my wholesome time travel show openly admits it wants to fix the bullshit of 2017, but can’t yet.
“[soft cheerful music]” is not a caption this episode deserves.
I love how the episode is blatantly making this a wholesome family moment to set the audience up for more bullshit at that car wash. I saw the trailer.
I fucking felt myself die hearing Ben say “Swag”. Certain things were left behind in the 2010s for a fucking reason.
And now there’s a debate between Twilight and Hunger Games. I am fucking old.
“Bella is totally useless without Edward or Jacob.” Show, I did not fucking sign up for debates about the lore of Twilight, stop this.
“Who needs The Hunger Games if you got high school, am I right?” Mic drop.
And now the episode enters hardcore “This is the fucking moral” mode.
Nothing like a dance party to make life better.
Okay, legitimate question: How much of this speech was written, and how much of this is ad-libbed from personal experience?
Okay, time for the fun car wash scene set to Carly Rae Jepson, clearly things will not get bad!
Oh goody, Amanda’s mom is also here, I already do not have high hopes!
[Fun fact: I dabbled in car washing as a kid one summer. That lasted only a week; when I tried washing my sister’s car, she got annoyed that I didn’t do a good job, and when she tried doing it herself, she sprayed me in the face with the hose out of anger. That’s why I don’t wash cars anymore.]
“Hey, I just met you, and this is crazy, but here’s tonal whiplash, I guess sorry, maybe.”
Ohhhhhhh, I hope that wasn’t the principal’s car…
…so, of course it was actually Amanda’s mom’s car…
Ben is getting fed up with this mom, and I agree with him.
Boy, I already know what the principal has in mind for “protecting girl’s basketball”, and I already am mad.
Ben is legitimately knocking some skulls to protect Gia. Father of the year.
“Okay, let me tell you a story. It’s about me.”
“Dad, I bet it sucked for Ben Song…” “You don’t know the fucking half of it.”
“And every time I smell Febreze-“ Holy fucking tonal shift, Batman.
“She called it loneliness, but I called it toast.” …you were having a stroke?
Magic is having a religious experience in this poetry slam.
I love how she didn’t even say a name, and yet Amanda’s mom instantly owned up to being the complainer. No fucking subtlety.
Amanda, why are trying to be cordial at this point, your mom is currently making shit worse, and both you and Gia know this.
Okay, fuck it. She’s a full-blown Karen now. The evolution is complete.
Please, please let her slap the shit out of Amanda’s mom…
Amanda, there is only one reason why you would say it would be different. You know that, right?
I love how the principal has just decided to cowtow to Amanda’s bitch-ass mom.
I now really fucking hate the principal. Way to fucking go, you made shit worse!
And now Gia’s going to run away! Good job all around!
“This isn’t my first runaway kid, let me tell you about an earthquake in ‘89 sometime.”
Maybe basketball will help fix everything…
Look, Gia, if it makes you feel better, there’s a decent chance karma is going to bite Principal Kruger and Amanda’s mom both in the ass hard.
“Why don’t you grownups figure out how to make school safe for everyone?!” Gia? Hi. I’m from 2023. We’re still waiting for that question to be answered…
Ben has indirectly said the principal can go fuck herself.
Okay, cool, Amanda has decided to stop giving a shit about her mom.
“You’re really going to put your job on the line for this stunt?” “Go fuck yourself, ma’am, I’m fucking Ben Song.”
“What exactly do you think you’re going to achieve with this?” “Well, ma’am, I think we’re about to go to regionals.” I honest to God wish Ben flipped her off after saying that. You know for a fact he wanted to.
Okay, time for the most important game of basketball all episode.
The only cheaters I see are all the assholes holding up the shitty fucking signs trying to psyche Gia out.
That was Ben’s “Remember the Titans” speech.
I love how everyone at the Project is getting in on the action.
And Ian goes into the Imaging Chamber.
“Look, the principal wanted me to make you pull your daughter, but I ain’t her fucking lackey. Instead, I just want to tell you good luck, we’re all counting on you.”
Yeah, get fucked, society, the Union saves the day yet again!
Annnnnnd I was wondering when Katy Perry would poke her head into the door…
I love how Ben leapt there.
Meanwhile, back at the poetry slam.
“Dottie, you got Quantum Leaped.”
So, I guess Ian’s the secret leaper.
Meanwhile, Hell’s Kitchen.
“Awesome! I get to be a cook! Nothing bad can happen!”
[On an unrelated note, the promo revealed that the next episode involves the restaurant burning down that same day.]
All in all, I am now doubly upset I couldn’t watch this live. And that’s not even factoring in there’s another three week gap.
Also, my pet theory is that Principal Kroger gets sacked soon after that game.
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