“My mind is a blank canvas; where there should be colorfully painted dreams is a heavy blackness. My eyes are as stationary as the silhouette of my bedside lamp, which is where they rest. When the sallow glow of the streetlamp behind it becomes shades of white, I know my night is over.
My mind flickers to the cupboard and the sleeping pills inside that my doctor prescribed. I don’t want them, I don’t want chemicals to “fix” me. I close my eyes and they almost sting like a wasp, opened for too long I suppose.”
— written by @lustfulawakenings (me) ✨
i hope that when you look at her, you see me.
and i hope it breaks you like it does me when i see you with her.
i hope missing me shatters your heart and drains your soul
i hope that when you look in her eyes you remember mine that were holding back oceans when i told you goodbye.
when you roll over at 3 am and caress her arm, i hope you wish it was me, knowing that i’m too far gone for you to reach out to me.
because then, maybe, you’ll understand.
Ok @n0wornever asked for some calming songs so I made a playlist for everyone filled with some soft/acoustic songs that I hope can relax you. There are some songs that have background effects so if you want to get the full calming effect, listen at a lower volume.❤️
Hopefully you enjoy and find songs that you like. I tried to do a mix of songs from different genres. Have a lovely day everyone and remember to take a break from your ~silly little tasks~ and relax. :)
Not me binging the whole album at 6 am because I can’t sleep😅💛
Helloo there, whatcha up too?
Overthinking about how I’m not living through a soft and tender gay romcom again for the third time this week
Bad dreams…or premonitions
If your ever sad at night ,
Shadow puppets fill that void
As I lay here at night thinking of you I can’t sleep. All I can think about now is my house and how it any moment my heart could just stop and you would be the last thing on my mind while I die and you die in my heart. Now I worry that you won’t be with me because I could die at any minute and that’s what I think about and that’s what scares me for us not to have a life together knowing that I can go at any moment I love you so much.
Insomnia has me writing poems tonight.
Hope y’all had a good night sleep.
(It’s almost five am)
Idk if I’m depressed or if I’m going through nicotine withdrawals 😭 this sucks so bad
Why do I feel like shit.
Im laying in bed thinking about the time I tooted in my former supervisor’s office and I tried to make the chair or my shoe make a noise so we could pretend it was that and they wouldn’t, and so we just sat there staring at each other in silence for like five minutes until I said “okay” and walked out
Anyone awake? Damned insomnia and overthinking keeping me awake