#can't even remember tags anymore

[sollucets]

guys i am trying Really hard not to have public opinions about of this morning... pray for me

#i work really hard not to do that. genuinely. every single time i reblog a meta or post my own opinion or write more serious tags #it is Vetted #i keep these things to my friends & my discord & such on purpose because. because. it's better for everyone #but im hanging on by a thread today i guess :') #for now.... just.... people need to remember that when youre debating fiction like this #the characters are fictional but the people listening aren't #and you can cause real fucking harm by talking about demographics the way people have been #rowan chatter #(if i see someone fucking say ray can't love again i'm going to kill. it's directly to murder i will be committing crimes) #(AND if i see another implication that he should've had to get sent to prison it'll be arson also) #fuck you all you dont get to have ray anymore. im taking him he's in my pocket now #do people even know how rehab & therapy fucking WORK #okay. okay. okay okk okokokkok mission failed a little #but we're far enough down in the tags now. reblogs are off. don't eat me

[mamawasatesttube]

ik its ultimately harmless behavior and that no one on the internet today uses that sort of general etiquette anyway, but it's still wild to me when people make posts that roughly amount to "i don't ship this." and then specifically tag the ship name so it shows up in that ship tag. like... who in this tag do you think wants to see this dkjlskdjslk

#rimi talks #to be clear this is a lighthearted post it just does make me snort #and going in ship tags is always like crossing a field of land mines anyway like you Gotta expect to find dumb shit #but this particular kind of post just throws me back so hard to 2014 homestuck fandom. what are yall doing #incidentally this is also the reason i simply can't get behind davekat. in theory it's fine as a ship #but i was there gandalf. i was there 3000 years ago. #when every single davekat shipper and their mom went out of their way to shit on jade harley #for the unforgivable crime of being a fairly popular female love interest to the two boys they wanted to ship #im not even remotely into homestuck anymore but i remember this. free my girl she did all that but i dont care etc

[trlvsn]

studying psychology literally does nothing for your understanding of yourself btw. you just end up with better knowledge of excel

#going to rant in the tags a little because maybe someone has the same experience #like. i am aromatic. and probably asexual. sometimes i feel like i might be in love with a person because i start craving company with them #but when i think about any romantic or intimate touch i start dissasotiating and get really weirdly sad and unenthusiastic about the idea #apathetic even. it's like i want something i can't describe or even get realistically #and my own relationship with touch is also really weird #i remember when i was an early teen i would deprive myself of touch in times of stress #if i was crying or something i would sit and spread my limbs so that they weren't touching each other bc i didn't feel deserving #of the comfort #and like!!! wtf!!!! nothing ever happened to me to cause that. did it #i'm literally just a normal girl #why am i like this and what is wrong with me. why can't i love normal why is it always an obsession and a game #why do i get interested and then when i finally understand the person i'm not anymore. people aren't rubix cubes but my heart thinks them so #sigh. please can i have one normal relationship with a person. one good friend #anyways LOL bye

[ladycibia]

I am so sorry.

#I missed you and I'm so sorry #without going into details here #I've been so busy with work and personal life #and drawing didn't really do the trick anymore :( #ofc 300+ hours in PLA also had their part in it BUT THAT'S ANOTHER MATTER #anyway #I really hope to get back into drawing again once school is over! ;v; #and more importantly #I hope you're all safe and happy #<333 ;____; missed you guys #I can't even remember my own tags #cibia chats #cibiart #I think???

[nightmarecrypie]

#dbh #connor rk800 #gavin reed #dbh gavin #detroit become human #convin #dbh mods #convin gifs #not me sharing this just cause i'm getting extremely stressed today #and found it in my frafts #drafts #can't believe i never shared this #i don't even remember the tags I use anymore #might add a caption in the future if i' in my pc

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Had a dream about a magic school AU. Like... Literally my school but with magic and with Roxy as a protag because Blorbo. She was the only one in the school without magic so every magic lesson, she'd literally just take a nap on the desk. What else is she gonna do?

But also I dreamed how she was compensating for not having magic. She was mixing chemicals into explosives to win fights and like... Yeah it's kinda hard to argue against the dog with Potion of Kaboom™️

However, because it was a dream, my brain combined the Glams with the cast of Ni No Kuni 2 and got very confused when I woke up because the Kuni 2 cast actually fit a magic environment but FNaF guys do not lmao

There was also a bit where Roxy not having magic means naturally, she doesn't rely on it to solve problems. So while everyone was given the task of making a candle go out without blowing on it, she just. Stared in absolute bafflement as everyone around her immediately dove to figuring out spells that extinguish flames. Instead of just. Water. From the tap. Right next to them.

She decided to freak them out a bit for fun and when the teacher asks for volunteers to come forward to show what they've come up with, she immediately puts her paw up and gets called on. She wets her paw under the tap before anyone has their attention on her, walks up to the candle at the front desk, turns so everyone can see, says all professional "Today, I've learned..." pauses and then... just pinches the flame out. Literally just pinches the wick between the paw pads on her fingers and it goes out immediately. "That you guys are idiots." And walks back to her seat in silence with a smirk.

Naturally, a bunch of kids are yelling that she can't just do that what the fuck?! But she did just do that. It took her half a second to do what's taken all of them a good forty minutes to figure out at least. Teacher asks how she knew that would work and she just "you can't have a flame without oxygen. Obviously." and you get a chorus of "WHAT" and "WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THAT?!" She's so damn smug about it lmao these people make showing off too easy sometimes.

Like sure, she physically can't pass a mandatory magic exam unless she's able to figure out ways around it, but she can at least fuck around in lessons lmao. She tried skipping them but they started getting on her family with all the typical mandatory attendance shit so she has to go now :/ she just sleeps in them or fucks with people for fun since everyone likes to flaunt their magic on her every day anyway. Eat shit assholes she knows how to put fire out with minimal effort!

I think there was also a bit about her trying to convince teachers that a non-magic sports club would be a good idea?? And failing miserably because they just don't see the value in a magic school with non-magic sports. Thinking now, she could probably make her own club after school but probably wouldn't get that much traction with it... Resenting her family and teachers and every power that be forever because she could be a top student and could be doing amazing in school if she was just in a non-magic focused one. But she's stuck here and it sucks.

I don't know where I'd go with the story but eh it's neat I like it! Definitely different to my normal stuff!

#fnaf security breach #i feel i can't do anything with this without getting accused of inspiration from the worst piece of media ever... #because this site is mostly american and the school from that is literally just the uk's school system... but magic... #all i can see in my head is my buddy restless thinking that fucker made up christmas crackers man #so I'd be very wary touching this one cause i do NOT want to be associated with that bullshit #i never even liked it that much i jusf thought 'hey magic thats neat' and that was it before i Found Out the rest #so like #yeah uhh #new au I'm not sure i CAN do anything with?? #without some bright spark making a connection where there isn't one??? #uhh... hooray??? #I'd love to make it a thing i think it'd be neat even if it would serve OCs better probably #so I'd love to talk about it #but you can see why I'm hesitant to post anymore about it without prompting right? #you guys can see why...? #for most people that aren't from here that series is the first interaction with the british school system they've seen #so a lot of people seem to think it was designed and made by that fucker when it legit wasn't #we have school houses here that's fairly normal... and christmas crackers... #and whatever else cause i don't remember a damn thing I've never seen any of those films the whole way through lmao #but anyway on that note... if you were wondering from that tag... #i was in the blue house in primary school. we were the falcons :) #we won the house points a lot it was great!! #anyway yeah I'm up to talking about this one and developing it more! I just... maybe won't unless someone specifically asks about it #ya know? #ask away if you want to!!! would be happy to fuck around with it!!! #otherwise I'll just. keep it to discord rambles... which is less fun honestly #but hey it works

[shirogane-oushirou]

me: i think i'm gonna try to log off for my mental health ^_^

me: and by that i mean spend multiple days straight cleaning out my very first tumblr blog so i can back it up bc tumblr utils keeps getting stuck halfway through <3 <- dying and perishing and passing away

#📌 [ my posts. ] #💭 [ my thoughts. ] #someone drag my laptop away for a few hours KJANJKN like. #i'm getting through more than i have in my MANY attempts over the years (it had 75k posts when i started. now it's 60k. lol. lmao.) #but it's still mildly soul sucking. and i DO definitely want it backed up bc a lot of gifs and art are on there #in various tags i can't remember anymore so just backing up specific tags wouldn't work. #it's just. the human brain was not meant to take in multiple thousands of early 2010's posts in such a short span of time... #our memes... not funny. our 'fyeah-___' blogs... not funny. our lack of online fake story literacy... not funny KJANSKJN. #also! on my... cough... other sel.fship blog i said i missed the 2010's stsk fandom but not the weird raunchy 'humor'? .... yeah. yep. #anyway back to being semi-offline ksjndjkn i'll try to catch up on drafts throughout the evening. #OH ALSO. this does mean i've drafted a bunch of old aesthetic / music / pkmn posts on here so. beware kjsdnkj.

[worldwhampion]

I just found an archive did u kno vy'keen evolved from

p r e y a n i m a l s

!??!?!?!?!?!?

i somehow completely forgot about this so this ask made me try to recall everything i ever knew about the vy'keen. THANK GOD i have like every piece of nms lore locally on my laptop. okay now to the vy'keen lore bc i've got some thoughts on this.

the vy'keen being originally prey brings another layer to their weirdly deep lore iceberg. i'm calling it weird because i think their lore is more based on implications of what is told (?) hence why people tend to overlook them.

i do think it's very interesting how fear is a major aspect of their ideology, and how largely it's connected to their aggression. You'd think that fear would be highly looked down upon in vy'keen society, but fear seems to be in fact their prime motivation, fuel and cause for being aggressive. They've made a weakness into their strength. this is rather oxymoronic, and it's not the only oxymoron related to the vy'keen. there is a second one (and you're the one who told me about this!): they're militant pacifists. now i guess you can call them fear-strengthened as well.

i remember the armorer having a raw quote related to weakness, something of: 'you can be weak, but you cannot stay weak.' For a society that's based on hostility, that is some amazing advise right there.

also i just had a WILD realization. humans are actually quite similar to the vy'keen. it's even safe to say that out of all the races, they're the most alike. hear me out: humans were once prey too in prehistoric times, and it was through cultivation of technology (or weapons!!) that they got elevated to the top of a figurative food chain. and the fact that human history is literally littered with war. Now this is making me wonder what the vy'keen exactly do with their aggression, like do they wage war the same way humans do or is there a difference in motivations? like what's their key goal for war.

all of this is proof for why the vy'keen is highly underrated. maybe one day i'll write something to spread the good word of the vy'keen.

#okay so the reason i even made the vy'keen-human connection in the first place is because i'd just read the novel version of a space odyssey #it was mostly due to the prologue #to sum up in a nutshell - it was about humans getting smarter and learning how to use weapons for hunting and protection #and can't forget the good ol violence against each other!!! (also as protection) #if you look at it this way - there is indeed some virtues to be found in aggression as an effective survival tactic #okay this is giving me some new ideas #there could come a point when the vy'keen don't need their aggression anymore - when they've been long enough at the top #and that could cause some huge society problems #this is somehow reminding me of the first spawn's situation #OKAY BEAR WITH ME HERE IN THE TAGS IM GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THIS #remember your previous ask about the first spawn? #the first spawn weeded out those that didn't agree with becoming aggressive #my point is #should the vy'keen h y p o t h e t i c a l l y reach a time when they no longer need aggression #they could be having the same situation as the first spawn - but inversed #like how the first spawn deemed docile gek useless - the vy'keen could try to get rid of the aggressive vy'keen #who would've become a (problematic) minority by then #yeah i may have read too much sci fi - though it's nice to think about stuff like this #just realized i have written a crapton in the tags i'll stop now #no man's sky #vy'keen #asks #nms lore

[angelnightrose]

All relationships (yes, even your friendships) are built on a system of give and take. You give, they take, they give, you take. You should be getting back the energy you are putting in and vice versa. If you feel like you're in a point where all you've been doing is giving and not getting anything back, it's time to rethink where you put your energy.

#kind of a vent thing #i'm just frustrated with things #okay nvm this turned into venting #vent in tags #but also like remember your energy is precious #if you're constantly giving your energy to someone they should probably return the favor at some point #it's one thing if they're going through shit and dont have energy to give back because that's understandable #but when it's been going on for years and you watch them give energy to everyone else #and they have the nerve to preach about spreading good energy and can't be bothered to do it themselves even to so called “friends” #that's when i get pissed off #so yeah fuck off #i'm done spending my energy on you and being treated like a child in response #the only reason i'm even still in your server is to talk to other people lol #like i do not care about your opinions anymore because you clearly don't see my shit as its own thing that i put so much heart into #you only see it as something to boost your stupid ego when it has nothing to do with you and i'm tired of it

[moongothic]

And this is how I find out Tumblr has a limit to tags per post

#Moon posting #I think I had like 10 more full senteces worth of tags on that last post #That just got nuked #Lmao #Moral of the story: If you're gonna write an essay you might as well keep it in the post and not it the fucking tags #I can't even fully remember what I wrote anymore #Just know that it ends adruptly because it literally got cut short #Hubris so on and so forth

[eleni-cherie]

this fanfic from 8-9 years ago I'm rereading is so fcking good w so many layers and plot twists goddd fanfics used to be this good back then and didn't even need smut for it.

++ what ppl consider angst nowadays doesn't come near the actual angst from back then.

+++ side-characters that were actually important for the plot and also had their own deep and plot relevant background stories and weren't just there for the sake of it?? it was a thing back then!!

#fanfics #wattpad #fandoms #idk y'all but back then I read like 60+ 5sos fanfics and so many left a lasting impression on me that I still remember them even now #can't find any bts fanfics that can compare to the angst #or the multiple layers or plot twists or character developments #the story I'm rereading rn is a calum mafia story but also bit college au in the beginning and god it's so good #probably my fave fanfic ever #this or the mental hospital one which was also a calum one #I miss these times #nowadays you don't find Angst like this anymore #ppl are too sensitive #you'd have to spoil every lil angst or plot twist or dramatic turn in the tags

[juniemoe]

screaming in my pillow thinking about halsin and sirius bye

#i've been wondering what kind of pet name sirius would give halsin #and i just think that 'honey' would be sooooooo funny #but it's not really in character for sirius #if he was finnish like i am i think sirius would call him 'kulta' which means gold in english #but that doesn't work. obviously #hmm maybe 'my love' 🥺 that is sweet #ill have to sit on this #oc: sirius #god i can't even remember how i tag things anymore #oc tag

[chqnified]

I found a use for me having spent 11 years of my life learning Chinese. I can actually understand WayV lyrics

#Youth with you #and that's great. #tbh i also was able to watch without subtitles when they came out. #also yuqi's accent is >>>> #rambles tag #i only say this now because the only wayv song I'd properly listened to for ages was love talk. but the English version lol #and then i remembered they had bops I'd barely listened to so i went and re-listened then was shocked i understood the majority of thelyric #one of my friends said she'd find me even hotter if i did Duolingo. so. uhm. i re-logged into my 7 year old Duolingo account #i basically skipped all units to the very last big unit test in Chinese (think there's 57 levels?) passed first time lol #oh then j did french. passed level 197 (? think it was that. the last one) after the 3rd try. #the pain in the ass thing about the french one is the translations can be translated multiple ways but not all are accepted 🙄 #also idk where tf me àcènts go like wtf. #anyhow. my goal is to finish those last units and get the final trophe 🤩 like yeah i already knew i was fluent but still #i also re-started korean and started greek because at one point i did try to learn greek #and Spanish but. kind of. can't be bothered with Spanish. because it reminds me of being 6 again. and i hate that lmao #i can't believe i tried to learn korean 6 years ago. has it been that long since i gave up lmao #i re-learnt to read <3 i can read just slowly now. #anyhow. idk what I'm talking about anymore #said friend said im peak hot in society now. it worked lmaoo #going to attract everyone with my 2 day Duolingo streak 🤩

[officersnickers]

Guys, I need your help. Do you have any recommendations for websites for artists? Like, DevianArt’s new policy really fucked it up, Twitter was a hellhole from begin with and Tumblr sucks out any passion for posting new art around here. Some tips would be very nice.

#idk tumblr doesn't make me happy anymore #it's a good site for memes and stuff #but posting stuff? either some folks will only like it but not reblog it #or it would be ignored completly #yeah my art is shitty but it was so before and didn't suffer like this like it does now #I don't even feel like writing in the tags anymore #I surely have feelings about the pictures I reblog and would like to tell the artists my thoughts #but then I remember no one does it for me and I feel so down :( #I know this is shitty behauviour from my site but I can't help myself #both writing or drawing doesn't get any reactions #but I love to do it! I have so much fun with my hobbies! just... not alone #deviantart is better for using it as an archive so maybe I start only posting my art there #and using this site... for memes and stuff idk #Snickers babbles

[wingsandpetals]

good news everyone it does get better at least a little and after thinking about it i'm not quite as miserable or in despair as i thought i was.

#i'm about to overshare in the tags ok👍 #our post comrade. #-------------------------------------------------------​------------------------------------------------------------------------- #just discovered that it doesn't make me mad or miserable anymore to look at my ex's old texts #it's melancholy if i let myself think about how we'll never talk again but they're actually funny now👍 #i feel much better all of a sudden #i don't hate them as much as i thought i did. and more importantly i don't hate myself as much as i thought i did 👍 #i guess we were really just two goofy and struggling teenagers #and i guess we were best friends for a reason #did you guys know we were tumblr mutuals. i never told you that #that was way before this blog. they were the reason i migrated to instagram #👍‼️ if you're wondering why i went back to look it's because i wanted to find the logs of me infodumping about rea/icide for my amusement #they said dar was pretty. that's so funny #and i agreed much too enthusiastically. completely unsubtle #and i talked about how i was changing my name to parme and how happy it made me #i didn't remember that part. i wasn't even officially nonbinary at that point #:). #i can't write about this in my diary sorry it would out me. so it goes here

[daz4i]

when ww said "this is not my life, I'm no survivor, i only happened to survive"

#he gets it he really does. #hate when ppl call me resilient or are proud of me for surviving shit. girl i did not do anything to be here now. in fact quite the contrary #i am permanently in survival mode and I'm trying so hard to turn it off. but mostly in 1 direction and not the one most ppl hope #sigh. I'm tired man 😐 i just started new mood stabilizers and I'm anxious as fuck #(well. not new. i was on them before when i was a teen. can't remember why i stopped tho) #the whole trying new pills is depressing bc well. there's p much nothing left for me to try #i had a call with her this week. i mentioned it i think. but most of it was trying to figure out if there's meds i never tried out there #the only other one we considered to maybe replace my current antidepressant is very new to the market aka she doesn't know what it does yet #so. instead of replacing. adding stabilizers and hope they don't make things even worse (but lbr they probably will) #I'm very close to giving up yet again. idk what there even is to give up on anymore. my life is nothing with a side of void #but giving up is the only thing i know how to do. I'm too anxious to do anything else. i don't know how to do anything else #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh really wanna cut rn but i already have some wounds on my hands and arms + I'm in enough pain as is so what's the use #vent #i should sleep. idk if i can. I've been trying all day and failed. I'm so tired #i wish i didn't wake up man 😐 i wish i died. tonight #suicide // #not really but implied ig #self harm mention // #ask to tag