#can't finish them all i suppose

[piningprecussionist]

Template by @juni38

Im going to be completely frank with you all... and admit that I read these options and wasn't sure how to take this chart,,, so uh. Under the cut is Another Version. I'd apologize but I've given you the option to keep scrolling ¯\_(･･)_/¯

(If you notice characters missing on Kim's side, I probably figured she doesn't know who they are lol)

For the record,,, if they *wanted* me to pull their hair-- *is shot several times before I can continue*

Uhh Matthew is here because I have been converted fully on he/him or enby lesbian Matthew I think. He lives in my brain rent free now, very gender. I'd pull his hair but also I think he mostly just deserves to have it played with nicely.

And Scott's here because 1) I enjoy trans Scott, 2) Kim Pine Brain Rot possibly, 3) idk he's like,, the exception. God damnit, I've fallen for the inexplicable Scott Pilgrim Effect. What the fuck--

I did think about doing this chart like everyone was actually applicable to my tastes, but even if they were I think the ones I didn't put up would have to fall on the caress side bc I just don't feel that way abt them lol.

Again, not to say that's the case for the gals over on that side,,, I just think I would want to be gentle w them shxkdjsdhbd with the exception for Lynette who probably deserves to have her hair pulled, but again I fear she would Hurt Me,,, but maybe in a fun way,,,

Anyway No One Look At Me....

(,, also,,, Ramona is so far over bc I think she would enjoy it,, otherwise she'd be closer to Kim in that section. Same thing w Roxie)

If anyone actually looks at this version, I'm not opposed to doing a version like this for Kim btw! Just ask for it so I feel like I'm not just Dropping This and scurrying away

#sp comic #meme #kim pine #id tag more people but i Do Not Have The Strength.... #also i like Living and I think the idea of more people seeing the suggestively taken one makes me want to Die a little #(not to say you cant reblog this or whatever im just being dramatic shdjejsdhdhgdd I am generally a fairly Reserved person) #for the kim chart- i based my other scott placement on the interaction theyve had here! i think if they interacted for real or more often + #+ he'd end up definitively in the Pull Roughly suggestion with most people #ooc #he maybe if i finish edits for everyone i could try this w the au stuff. kit's thoughts might be different here... #hey* #also let me know if i forgot anyone??? i thought abt including the robots but. no hair. and gideon the cat has Fur so. on technicality- #but like barring parents and peter i think i got most people #i guess if lainey was here she'd go somewhere in the middle or right? w/out knowing what she'd be like #FUCK I DIDNT MEAN TO POST THIS. I MEAN IT'S HERE NOW SO IM NOT REMOVING IT BUT I AM S C R E A M I N G I WASNT READY #ah i forgot crash and the boys actually. thats why i wasnt supposed to post this yet #uhhhh Pull Roughly for like all of them. except trasha. trasha gets head pats and a juice box #except for on Kim's chart. on Kim's chart she's in the pull roughly section I can't lie to myself. she hates that kid 😭 also on that note + #+ knives should probably be in the middle section. like she wants to pull it for her having copped her style and being stupid abt scott. #but I didn't put her there bc I feel like even if she wants to she wouldn't ya know? knives is a Precious Angel after all

[whysamwhy123]

HALLEJUAH!! I REMEMBERED HOW TO ACTUALLY FINISH WRITING SOMETHING FOR A CHANGE!!

Of course, it's not any of the fics I wanted to finish. I went back to what is essentially my bread-and-butter now and wrote a short-ish, random OrangeHook fluff. But considering how much writing's been a struggle as of late, I'm just glad that I successfully finished something. I was back in one of those stretches where I couldn't seem to write much of anything. And this fic isn't about their age difference or Hook being a cuddlebug, so...progress?

Unless I decide I completely hate it (which is always a possibility) expect something to drop on Valentine's Day, tis the season, after all.

#What is wrong with you Sam you should not be allowed to write #Small victories you know? #Will I ever get sick of OrangeHook?? Apparently not #Can't even remember the last time they interacted on screen but that ain't stopping my brain LOL #On a more serious note - I really do hope that I can get back into the swing of things and make some real progress #On the bigger fics I want to work on #I want to finish the messy angst OrangeHook fic at some point even if it's unlikely to appeal to anyone #Annnnnd deep down in my cold dead heart I still wanna make an honest attempt at that DG Dead Dove fic #Even though that would be even more unappealing + a huge undertaking because that bitch would be loooooooooong #Also I had a slightly less angsty OrangeHook idea recently about them having their first fight and I wanna write that too for some reason #And there's still a part of me that really wants to continue Business/Pleasure because I have soooo many ideas for that AU #But that would require me to get over my inability to write smut #And I don't know how to do that (would appreciate any advice on that if you've got some...) #But at the same time I don't wanna beat myself up for not being able to write much - if anything - most days #This is a hobby after all - it's supposed to be fun #There ain't no deadline and it's not like I'm letting anybody down #Just gotta do at my own place #And write whatever absolute trash I want to write 😈 #My tags are always so obsessive like SHUT THE FUCK UP SAM #But if you've actually read all these - hey. Thanks. Love ya 😘

[alienstages]

I'm bored 😔 I wish this job would call me back, or at least contact my references or do something so I know if they actually want me to have that second interview

#i was supposed to have a second interview w them on the second #ten days ago... #i agreed to contact them next friday if i still haven't heard anything but I'm p fuckin sure i am Not getting the jov #which is fine my wife just got a $2 (two dollor) raise and her boss is offering to [redacted info] for us #but also. I can't spend all my time on studying for my GED like #it's boring. its awful. i hate it. #i want to leave my house!!!! for reasons OTHER than walking to my gas station to get drinks!n #i can't even do that anymore because we r broke!! #I've been doing rewatches of shows i never finished and it's still rly boring

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#ok i'm going to complain of an extremely petty thing #but i'ts eating me inside and i need to get it out without ruining my brother's day #he passed his last exam today he finished uni today and we're all very excited and happy for him he deserves it i love him #my aunt and a friend of her are coming to my house with food to celebrate this achievement #a lovely thing for them to do #my mom hasn't stopped saying how happy she is that he finished and passed all exams and she's proud and excited #all valid feelings ofc #there's special food for a special celebration for how special is my brother for finishing his studies #cute and fun #and i'm supposed to be the same level of hype (which i am don't get me wrong this IS exciting) #but here's the thing #i don't think ANYONE in my entire family has ever said ANYTHING about the fact that i graduated my university in 2018... #and they know... today in fact my aunt literally told me she didn't even know when i graduated #and listen i know this is petty and i don't want them to do a big thing that would be in fact annoying for me #but like... i can't help but think this is because what i studied was art and my brother studied programming... #you know a Proper Respectable Smart Career #while i'm here just doing silly drawings and starving to death like all artists... #i'm literally working on my field! #and i'm upset although i shouldn't be because it's stupid and the alternative would be them doing a big celebration for me #WHICH I DON'T WANT!! #so this whole rant is useless and stupid... #anyways i'm SO FUCKING PROUD OF MY BROTHER! he struggled so much with this degree and he's finally done :') #i'm getting him a present skjfsd #ok that's it #i'm done thanks for reading ksjdfhgdf #i had to say it here cause obviously i can't say any of this out loud lol #it's not only a dick move but also embarrassing af kdfjhfg #angel talks #personal

[sleepinginmygrave]

i have orchestra today i'm so tireddd

#i just want to go home #its at 3:45pm #i finish school at 12 #and i can't go home before orchestra #i have to wait almost 4h :((( #also i'm supposed to play only one piece but last week the director told me to play he bass part bc there's no bass #so i play them all #URGHHHHH #its so so long #and the bass part was so hard #moi #harpist rambles

[fire-atwill]

oh my god how do people finish this book loving the main characters I'm ready to throw hands with both of them constantly I don't care if Andrew keeps knives in his sleeves

#all for the game #genuinely i hate them #side characters are carrying this for me #neil needs to stfu like all the time babe stop pushing your unhealthy trauma response on others it's not your job to communicate for andrew #he's an adult he can tell his brother shit for himself #also you can't judge aaron for making an assumption based on the facts he had??? #like andrew never communicates and they're all just supposed to fucking guess??? #genuinely have to stop every three seconds to get pissed off but I am almost finished book two

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions figuring winston shouldn't just also still be there in the end with the guys we accept so he needs to be sent out, which, it's also remarkable to recall like "okay does he still technically, partially work at/for axe global then? it's a 'maybe' but what matters is that he's not There even if so"....the way that even if we infer he did get to finally be sick of waiting on better, we weren't even given so much of an arc of a couple episode's leadup showing him markedly being more frustrated / fed up with The Usual bullshit or anything like that, the way it went with one ep to spare "oh right winston's catchphrases! we all know & loathe them" like don't strain yourselves....that even in giving up on things, winston still has to be further let down by everyone even after quitting, like well that's probably ultimately helpful for him but it was (a) forced on him and (b) not sure i'd give billions the credit for anything sympathetic towards winston versus "well the only thing to be done with winston material is have fun while epic winners shit on him however they want," the wags plotline had no point just like the later one that could've been scrapped & transformed into "how about taylor gets any dialogue this episode"....the way that billions may imagine like hmm what to do with winston? all that can Ultimately happen with him is he has to go away and die, for him it's [out of sight out of mind out of Existence], just as has been the show's approach for the consequences of him being shitted on all th time for years before this: there are none, b/c we're not looking at them, and winston is never not completely [othered] including right now, and if it helps for some reason we'll talk about how we might be fine if he literally dies. and so we're graced with a "who knows or cares, he's just gone, finally. after being kept around b/c it's so fun seeing winners torment him" ending as the only one they find imaginable for winston

#uptick in annoyance about it on this day.... #fundamentally at odds w/billions thanks in no small part to a pretty guaranteed inherent [this is a meritocracy] approach #when the cocreators expect us to simply Understand that people on the show have a superior level of Smartness; for one....ruh roh #and where then everything abt being Critical & Questioning is like....abt possible Exceptions or small adjustments to The Rules.... #would not be surprised if winston is such ''proof'' like ''see; someone like him shouldn't be able to be here'' #at least there's the checks & balances of being ignored; dispreferred; bullied; to the point of eventually driving him out! #rian only being ''wrong'' to have made herself his personal bully b/c what would've been more correct would be ignoring him more often #whilest again like can't suppose based on anything that billions asks us to Reflect on winston leaving. it's just good #so too is Corrective(tm) bullying / interpersonal abuse. would've had wendy push aba if they did consider winston to be autistic.... #but instead kept it informal.... #winston billions #billions world: where yeah autistic ppl just have to go away i guess #where they cease to exist b/c they aren't real people like us. just as winston's feelings this whole time never Had to be relevant.... #they barely existed & were surely just incorrect when they did. kind of like him overall #and in the meantime didn't we all enjoy going ''god i wish that were me'' at bullying assaulting abusing the autistic guy #bit charitable of us if anything! guiding them towards the light like that. cue ''wow rian aren't you just Too pityingly nice to him*'' #(*the being more godawful to him than anyone since she showed up; including being just as bad if not as usual worse right now) #anyways like nodding dehumanizing the autistic person start to finish. who must Stop Being Here

[finexbright]

moving to the UK has made me develop an irrational fear of ordering take out

#i simply refuse to order at this point like here you go : #i was craving taco bell after ages and i got back from work at 11:45 p.m and placed an order. like literally they were gonna close in #2 mins. and so i wait and i'm so hungry and i open and it's meat. when i'm a vegetarian and i couldn't even order anything else because #it was already midnight #THEN i ordered taco bell in the afternoon next day and same fucking thing happened #THEN one time i was at work it was a long shift and every one of my supervisors know i'm a vegetarian #so they made sure to tell the guy who was serving food to get me the veg lasagna #and i take my food and go to the backroom and it looks suspicious and luckily my friend was around and i #made him take a bite and he was like yep it's meat #and so because of all of this bullshit instead of ordering take out i went to mcdonald's down the road recently #because i was like absolutely not. and i order a veggie burger. and peep in and check to see it's a green box before heading home #and me and b are sat watching gogglebox and i finish my fries and open this green ass box and lo and fucking behold #it's a meat burger. INSIDE a fucking green box that says veg on it #but i was craving mcdonald's badly so i ordered it online. and guess fuckin what. meat again #i basically stopped ordering food and just physically go out to places to eat #and today it's cold and i'm tired so i ordered food from a mexican place and it took two hours for them to #deliver the food #and it was legit supposed to be veggies beans and rice. and guess fucking what. they put meat in it #i can't even get my money back anymore because i've complained too much but what the fuck honestly #YOU keep sending me meat 😭😭😭😭😭 #i'll just make some quick pasta and call it a day 😔✊ #food mention

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Watched all of Rubius’ r/place videos while pounding a bottle of wine I’ve been trying to get rid of for ages and MAN. MANNNN. I really love Rubius. r/place was such an incredible experience, and watching his videos reminded me of just how hype and fun the r/place phenomenon was

#i talk #mcyt talk #I guess #Rubius is NOT a mcyt-er but I don't have another ''catch all'' tag for this so whatever #also to be completely transparent: this wine is like 50% juice because I keep tossing juice I can't finish in there #because like what else am I gonna do - waste juice? heck no #always drink responsibly #but anyways HOOO BOY THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN #was feeling a bit ''agh'' because I'm going back into the office tomorrow for the first time in ages #and that always stresses me out even though I work remotely 90% of the time #but I feel a bit better after watching all that #even though I know I'll be suffering in a few hours because No Sleep #it is what it is I suppose #hashtag worth it #I really do feel like my spanish is - somehow - becoming better #I think it's a mix of me translating stuff for KarmaIand's english community #and translating words I don't know over and over and then remembering them after the 10th time or whatever #I'm someone who Really Can't Learn Languages outside of a (well-structured well-taught) class #but this is more progress than I've made in ages and it makes me feel good #I'll always be grateful to Quackity for helping me feel more comfortable trying to learn again #without feeling ashamed that I didn't already know Spanish #anyways #I'd love to do more translation stuff for KarmaIand #been learning even MORE fun new sony vegas tricks thanks to my shenanigans on the other blog so that's been fun #night y'all #r place #rplace

[el-im]

Cyrano (2022) dir. Joe Wright

Last Saturday the 19th, I saw you. And then a week passed in which nothing important happened. And now here I am again. 

#making my own gd post so i can be mean in the tags #films #girl if u are just gonna ignore literally all the writing of the book in favor of quips and arrhythmic beat poetry... just make a different #movie ? lmfao #this was so disappointing. i guess i should have known better than to expect for it to be good just because it was. supposed to be cyrano. #which it hardly is #but. god. idk i'd seen dinklage in a few things i thought he was really excellent in but he did Not have the cyrano presence here #and his delivery was so... so bad. which i don't think is his fault necessarily. i can't imagine a way to say the lines he was saying well #or decently #this was just. so affronting. #i dont think i can come up with any story with as much cultural weight as this where verse is so central to the story #and to see it just. eviscerated in this? hard to watch #also... SO hard to listen go. good lord. #i literally went and watched the jose ferrer 1950 movie in the middle of this to give my brain a break #but i wanted to finish it. so... here goes. #i did like how they filmed the awkward silence w them together standing above the party room but thats been the 1 high point so far #joe wright i have literally never been more disappointed in you. you let me down. #you massacred my BOY #resisting the urge to give this a 1/2 star review on letterboxd even though theres literally an hour left in it is the hardest thing i have #ever done in my entire life #i cant believe they nerfed ragueneau #this movie felt like they tried to make it a comedy but stripped it of literally all its original comedic elements #'without art' yeah u can say that again #cyraNO #oh my fuckign god

[niallandtommo]

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#i just finished the last book in the trilogy so i promise i will stop talking about it after this #but all i want to say is #holy. fucking. shit. #i have never cried so fucking hard because of a book #i cried for like 15 minutes #i'm not even kidding #this trilogy and especially the last book broke my heart into a million pieces and put it back together #my god i've read a lot of amazing books and some of them made me feel a lot of things #but this is a whole new level #i'm so sorry to everyone that asked me about this i know this is super vague and annoying but pls trust me when i say i can't tell anyone #even though i loved it very much it was very intense and extreme and fucked up #and it wouldn't feel right to recommend it to someone that i don't know very well #anyway i will never be ok again #i will never get over this #how am i supposed to sleep or go to work tomorrow #all i wanna do is stay in bed and stare at the ceiling #ok i'm done now (i think) fjskgs

[noxtivagus]

evening has come again huh

#🌙.vent #i'm really sorry for the vents lately but i need a way to let it out. & this. this is as far as i can go with that #i need to do better again i know i can i have to :') people waiting for me. others n me.... #last night i downloaded a game for my friend. for her. & then another friend i told her i'll reply before the day ends :< 'take your time' #she said but sob she opened up abt smth n i wna help i really do & fuck it just hurts too bcs i know the ppl around me are. struggling too #i try not to put others b4 myself if i'm struggling like rn but :< i hate the helplessness. wish i cld do smth more for you #i wish i could at least be enough to help them. for you for you whoever you are i would always be willing to make these sacrifices #i'm gna cry it's been so overwhelming lately bcs i'm filled with so much hope and despair simultaneously #what do i do? which do i choose? how do i decide? how am i supposed to do. enough. find a balance #n then other friends i haven't gotten to replying yet today bcs oh i'm too worn down right now n i hate it so much i'm sorry #& other than all the stuff i want to do for myself and for others there's also things like school n #it hurts you know? i'm very much aware i've been worrying my family lately. i can't. sleep properly. i can't bring myself to finish eating #:< n then it also gets overwhelming when i. look to better things. bcs it gen makes me v happy when. idk i feel inspired or creative or wtv #but it hurts when it's also simultaneously so overwhelming bcs it's so hard to do something with it #& thinking of good memories. how fleeting those moments were. how times have changed. but also of. of how more may come #but maybe. maybe only if i'm better. if i'm not this hollow husk of my usual self? fuck i know i'm too harsh on myself. unnecessary pressur #i'm more than it i know. but at times it's just so hard to feel better when i'm. 🥹 i really really don't want to be a disappointment. #for others n. for myself.... bcs i know as always in the future. wtf the fuck happens then. i do know that parts of me will never change. #wnvr i look into my past i'll always know that i deserved being more kind to myself. bcs i'm human too. #this empty feeling of being stuck somewhere being hope n my despair hurts v much bcs it's so contradicting & overwhelming #n i wish in these moments i cld be enough for my future self. n for those around me #i wish i was better at communicating! tell everyone i know how much i appreciate them! how much i wish they'd stay in my life #i wish i cld really just say but i'm afraid that my honesty might scare you away. so instead i hide. you probably don't feel the same nyway #crying it hurts i think past experiences have made me too used to people leaving. but i can't be vulnerable enough to be #soft enough to the extent of being so honest. i've been hurt before when i was kind n younger n naive sure but oh so innocent #struggling sad n it was so bad then that i. oh i remember how it hurt.... i refuse to let myself go through that extent of loneliness again #i wish though that. i could. revive my mind. my motivation my inspo my creativity hasn't exactly dulled but it's become more passive #am i afraid that if i really be myself then i'll be alone again? if i'm weird if i'm too honest n soft n. i don't know. #it hurts feeling like i'm stuck with being too little n too much at the same time. how do i. just be. enough. for you. for me. #it hurts i'm crying i'm sorry i'm so sorry fuck i'm so overwhelmed n lost i don't want to think right now it feels so empty n i'm tired

[sscarletvenus]

i do not pity israel. never have, and never will.

each night that gaza experiences is deadlier than the last, as idf soldiers record propaganda tiktoks, make rave parties and grwms and fit checks, gloat over having food and water, and film themselves deriving sadistic pleasure from torturing their hostages and victims and desecrating the dead.

Palestinians have to display their martyred before the camera for you to believe the atrocities that the zionist entity has subjected them to. they cannot even mourn in private. the apartheid entity murders them in cold blood, and you deliver the killing blow by doubting them.

babies whose families have been killed will never get to know their own name.

i can't reshare a tenth of the videos and photos that cross my timeline. i have seen more dead children in the past month than i have known death my entire life.

israeli settlers burn olive trees, bomb bakeries and fishing boats, shower white phosphorus and earthquake bombs on the captive civilians of gaza. you already know about the disastrous effects of white phosphorus, but earthquake bombs were last used during ww2 to wipe out entire cities.

how holy is the land that seeks to be built over the mass graves of thousands of children? is it holier than the miracle of a child being born in this hypocritical world?

all 11 universities in gaza have been bombed. academics should be agitating right now, especially those who call themselves "decolonial thinkers." destruction of universities is a sinisterly deliberate act to sabotage the Palestinians who will survive this great catastrophe.

the act of cleansing your hands before prayer is extremely important to muslims. no part of us can remotely comprehend the grief of the mother who refused to wash her hands from the blood of her children after losing them in a zionist airstrike over gaza. "I swear I won't wash them, I won't wash my hands, how else am I supposed to sleep near my kids."

it is only both moral and right when one side defends itself. the other side are the price of war, no better than insects and cattle and sheep left to die within the four walls of the slaughterhouse.

this situation should not be up for debate, but let me finish with one final thing : do your research about Palestine. HOWEVER. you do not need a degree in middle east studies to object to an ongoing genocide. if someone outwits you in a debate about historical details and every nuance of a subject, you were and will remain entirely correct in objecting to a genocide.

may those martyred rest in peace and be reunited again with their loved ones in heaven's eternal vastness.

DO NOT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE.

glory to Palestinian resistance. from the river to the sea, Palestine will be free.

#free palestine #palestine #gaza #free gaza #gaza under attack #gaza genocide #genocide #decolonisation #gaza strip #from the river to the sea palestine will be free

[unproduciblesmackdown]

hell yes my "deniably casual sexual encounter in taylor's apartment babeyyy" wip is over 7k words already and i haven't even gotten to the part where anyone's kissing yet. so far it's all In Effect taylor going "is there like, an energy here or is it just me" (there is) in this 7k< form via my classic move of providing wildly extensive introspection that Could be pared down a ton i'm sure but if i was thorough abt editing myself & my verbosity & taking thousands of words to say something, including the same things repeatedly in slightly different ways, writing anything would be all the more difficult / rarely manifested. playing to my strengths / weaknesses w/fiction out here like, see that last billions fic scene that's Supposed to be largely winston somewhat going in circles stuck in his head and also sexual activity. seizing the premise for this one like, taylor being all I'm Extra Pensive Atm But What If That Sets Me Up To Be More Spontaneous When I Go Back Into The Living Room And Quants Have Something Going On. i've triumphantly managed to get taylor out of the living room in the first place and now their being able to return any minute now as soon as i wrap up their thinking about how their quants are sure like special little guys (extraordinary) (least veil of neutrality; readily positive)

#that silver lining like oh Have to be offline? that next day i do think i more than doubled the wip's length #just having fun and being ourselves (thousands of words intro to another sorta threesome) #(following my heart / playing it by ear here even if i have the general ideas) #i think it's fun if it's very long lol Why Not. and doesn't have to be just inarguably unimpeachible writing; thus also v edited or w/e.... #it'll be fine lol even while i go ''damn have i said Just / Only / Simply too much?" probably yeah but eh. #sure i go ''way to be incorporating allll these sentence fragments'' lol but i also then proceed anyways. it's fine #and when it's also so like; in the genre of Realtime Introspection it just happens lol like feels more thoughtesque #don't think i'm also managing the most stunningly characterful material wrt taylor's supposed internal voice here lmfao but again. eh. #being conscious of such matters / Any effort to hone things for the better but not sweating it enough to be too held back #like if we want this to exist at all (which i think would be fun. hence the writing of it) it's gonna have to be [yeah this is fine] levels #gotta have enough room for largely Spontaneous writing whether it's posts or a fic. or i just can't really write them lol #fun though when things Come Through while improvising thusly....actually some dialogue / action lol; largely from said quants #had the fun of writing Their having fun with it enough for a high five; ppl do those & felt [glass clink] parallel #and the inspiration like ooh throw in another Touch like rian kicking his ankle. with reasonable casual lightness lol #and yet also having gone ahead and had taylor already thoroughly and outright considered Thee Energy well prior to that lol.... #vs their not particularly internally commenting on what's meant as a [thee energy] setup type of detail lol #anyways being this far into a wip / this close to ''and then some things were getting underway'' sure increases the odds of a finished proj #umm tags idk just: #winston billions

[drawnecromancy]

i really really cannot wait to have my brain back

#i haven't been able to write. #i'm supposed to work on a secret project with logarithmicpanda and i am incapable of drawing anything for it #literally opening the files and looking at them is like pulling teeth AND I AM THE ONE WHO MADE ALL THE SKETCHES h. #dying over here #im glad i managed to draw but i'm not even really getting brain juice out of it lately #i finish the art and im like well. its done i guess #unless there's someone else going !! i can't get excited abt it it sucks