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inkskinned · 9 months

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you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

#warm up #this isn't good #writeblr #this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3 #but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker #and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS #the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!?#..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much.#on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt #and medical debt #i will put that first little bit of cash #into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments)#i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option #but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver #oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs

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slaughtersafe · 3 months

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“The great angel, Arthur, shall smote you down”

#arthur morgan #can't get that line out of my head I'm just ddkwjwjsjsdndjs #rdr2 fanart

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miracumess · 3 months

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i don't think some of y'all understand how significant it is that annabeth chase, the leading lady in an IP/brand as big as percy jackson, is played by a black girl. she is not some sidekick or comic relief. THEE annabeth chase, one of the wisest, intelligent, brave demigods and love of percy jackson's life, is played by a BLACK GIRL!!

but you're so hateful and caught up with book inaccuracies and changes that you can't even offer a sliver of hope for things to improve in continuing seasons, and instead immediately resort to wishing the show gets cancelled because they didn't do that specific thing in that specific scene in the books. makes me think there might be another underlying reason as to why you want it to fail.

and before someone starts, this isn't to say you can't have criticism, but if you really love percy jackson, why wouldn't your hope be for things to get better?

"i hope this show gets cancelled" yeah girl fuck you

#i do have my own crits too i dont think it's perfect but to be cancelled?? some of you book purists need to get out of your damn head!#anyway i love you leah and i can't wait to see more of you #percy jackson #percy jackson show #pjo #pjo tv show #percy jackon and the olympians #annabeth chase #percabeth

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egophiliac · 6 months

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this is basically what happened, right?

(these guys are very lucky that everyone at NRC 1) has the combined intelligence of a sack of bricks, and 2) is easily distracted by shiny things.)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #stage in playful land #stage in playfulland #these two are SO sleazy and i am utterly delighted by them #can't wait to find out their tragic backstory in approximately 3-4 weeks!#fortunately i have like a month to figure out how the heck to draw their hair (spoiler: i will never figure it out)#also. god. i love it whenever leona accidentally reveals his Mom Side.#he doesn't care about any of this but he WILL be tagging along to make sure no one else gets into trouble #once again he has to be the Responsible Adult and he hates it. the whimsical hat weighs heavy upon his head.#anyway this is me so excuse me while i now talk about diasomnia for three hours #but lilia being all 'kids gotta have some adventure in their lives!' is hilarious #specifically because you know silver would NEVER.#100% silver not only never snuck out but he always went to bed on time AND brushed his teeth AND flossed even when nobody made him.#lilia: aww but you should be enjoying your youth! >:c #silver: i am. i enjoy being respectful and disciplined and honoring you as my father.#lilia:#lilia: maybe i'm TOO good at raising kids #you know i was going to say none of his kids would be involved in this but i actually think malleus definitely would #he would not see it as a moral quandry though. he would just be excited to be invited along.#(the only reason he isn't there is because he was busy admiring a termite-infested beam somewhere and yuu didn't get a chance to ask him)#i mean MAYBE if lilia as his single authority figure told him no then he would have some reservations #but lilia's the one who's screaming HELL YEAH LET'S SNEAK OUT AND DEFY AUTHORITY while dabbing so moot point there #sebek would never and he would rat on everyone else. unless malleus is going in which case he's already there.#and i guess if everyone else is going silver probably would too #but he'd. y'know. feel conflicted about it.

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wizardemotions · 2 months

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the question came to mind of "in your ship, how might the larger/stronger party pick up or carry the smaller one?" and these were the answers i came to

#quill to paper #can't get over draco and harry being like 3 yrs deep in a relationship and still irritating the fuck out of one another #drarry #linny #romione #drarry fanart #linny fanart #romione fanart #draco malfoy #harry potter #luna lovegood #ginny weasley #ron weasley #hermione granger #also it's my belief that the weasleys are literally all hot in some way shape or form #even percys hot in like a pretentious high ranking office grunt sort of way #ginny? my god. as a dyke: professional quidditch player ginny could do unspeakable things to me #rons got the whole head auror thing going for him and also being just sorta rugged. if still pale as hell #stock photos + one pose photo used as refs #draco is screeching smth like UNHAND ME BASTARD!!!!!!!#hermione gets to be smug about her hot auror arm candy husband #also yeah i'm inflicting my music taste on harry. he gets ahold of grunge and goes completely off the handle with it #everclear beloved

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cunodoesnotcare · 2 months

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the hottest thing in the world is to grab her by the chin and not let go, squinting into her eyes. if she dares to look away, squeeze her jaw and squeeze it hard, and be sure to ask, “why is your gaze running, hmm? do you have something to say, pretty thing?”

#can't get it out of my head #I guess I just love restraining girls in different ways #lesbian #wlw yearning #wlw nsft #lesbian nsft #sapphic nsft #wlw concepts #wlw post

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artofpandarson · 1 month

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b-

biderman!

meant to be with BINDERMAN! do not separate!

#bisexual #spiderman #peter parker #peter b parker #I kept thinking about Peter B in a bisexual suit #and here we are #I can't get this man out of my head #and I'm thrilled

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killherfreakout · 20 days

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Touch me, baby, put your lips on mine Could go to hell but we'll probably be fine

CHAPPELL ROAN Naked In Manhattan

#chappell roan #chappellroanedit #chappellsource #naked in manhattan #the rise and fall of a midwest princess #musicedit #tusercourtney #usermusic #usermusicdaily #dailymusicians #dailymusicqueens #femalegifsource #my gifs #*#i'm just giffing videos i think are pretty and songs i can't get out of my head

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aws-art · 7 months

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howdy

#i can't get the blackwatch cass out of my head #i might need help #bark bark woof woof #your honor i love him #cassidy #cole cassidy #overwatch #overwatch 2 #blackwatch #ow #art #artists on tumblr #digital art

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z-tomaz · 7 months

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it also caught me so off guard in episode 1 in particular that the crew clearly knew how much izzy was doing to protect them from ed?? no one's saying it out loud because it won't help but the hug, and the whole scene surrounding it, says they've all quietly been paying attention and worrying about him behind his back and it was a culmination of weeks and months of living like they were while knowing that izzy was bending over backwards to absorb as much of ed's rage and heartbreak and anger as possible in order to shield the rest of them??? help??