#can't stand the last one

[egophiliac]

IT WAS ERIC AFTER ALL!!!! I'm so glad we got to meet him (before Vil snaps him away with those Infinity Gauntlets) (can't wait to see what happens when we get the matching Infinity Tiara to go with them, there will be no survivors)

(sorry to be so slow/rough lately, just got a lot of stuff on the ol' brain at the moment! alas, if only I could spend all my time drawing incredibly stupid characters I mean I do but)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #tapis rouge #i know these are not my best but by god i needed to draw ~daddo venue~ #he is a treat! can't wait for him to yell at us for screwing up a shoot or whatever the last-minute disaster will be #i am SO HAPPY it turned out to be about movies after all! ...i mean sort of anyway #i'll take what i can get (and i do enjoy twst trying to be all cute about snow whAHEM i mean beautiful queen) (i see you there twst) #(also to be fair it actually wasn't poisoned in historial-revisionism-twstland so i think we can trust this apple. a+ acting eric) #anyway we are still. very solidly in the 'stand around and talk about the wallpaper for three hours' part of the event. #but HEY we got to meet eric! i was not really expecting it to be him so i am VERY pleased #also god help me i did think the shopping montage as portrayed by a rhythmic where they literally SKIP down the street was hilarious #there's a lot of Choices that were made in this event and that was a good one

[inkskinned]

it takes a really long time to unlearn but there's no such thing as "cheating" or "half-assing" being a person. if you need to leave the cabinet doors open, leave them open. microwave your tea. sit down in the shower. buy the eggmaker. use your phone to calculate tip.

it's mostly fake posterity rules. who cares if you microwave your dinners. who cares if you use instant coffee. who cares if you stop watching the show that got boring. we all have a different set of skills and a different life and taking care of yourself is fucking hard.

at the end of your life there will be no final scoreboard. nobody is going to judge you because you brushed your teeth in the shower. there will be no final count of the number of times you had the same meal five nights in a row. there will be no fanfare or party because you won at being a person - and no one will be disappointed that you never understood the point of using paper towels to dry your hands off after washing them.

yeah, in this world, people will put up a fuss. i've noticed some of the biggest fusses are over what you'll put in/on your body. the fact that i will regularly eat deli meat straight out of the bag makes a lot of people genuinely concerned for me. but here's the thing: sometimes that's the only way i'm getting any protein. my doctor says i am doing fine. i'm sticking to my weird snacks and calling it deconstructed charcuterie.

they'll say they're horrified because you take a shortcut. that's fine. it's just that it looks like a shortcut to them because they're on a different life path. these kinds of things stand out to them as important. that's fine too. but for you? you've got other things that already make you pretty hard working. and these tiny things - well, they're just clutter on your journey.

#before any motherfucker is like <3 #''i know more about this and it IS WRONG to do this THING'' #shhhhh #unless ur a doctor and a patient has specifically asked... shut the FUCK up dude #one of the ways my life has changed in the last few years is like #taking coffee for granted #isn't something i can do #can you stand up for the entirety of making a meal? i can't always #and having some pompousass person be like #MICROWAVE THE WATER? FOR TEA? like . yeah actually i've been in prison for it ever since #''it tastes different!!!'' cool. it's not going into yOUR body. #i personally don't ever make hot chocolate with water. only ever oat/soy milk #but i wouldn't be like ... SIR. I WILL NOW JUDGE THEE #it's just like ableism all the way down innit #ableism and classism and #the expectation of the mental load as a form of being ''good'' #also. besides the like. pots and [redacted medical information] #im doing GREAT actually #>:) i have visible abs even when not flexing #it's bc god prefers me as a lesbian n has rewarded me lately for presenting more openly

[amaranth]

1/11/03 @ fireside bowl

#ray toro #gerard way #my chemical romance #mcr #okay last one...! someone mentioned this on my other post (i think) and i was like you're so right this deserves some gifs #mikey was behind the mic stand the entire time and i can't gif him :(((((((((( #ee #gifs

[maegalkarven]

I keep thinking about Durge, who, even after defying Bhaal, is never truly free from their father's legacy.

Because yes, the Urge is gone, the cursed blood of Bhaal doesn't call to them anymore. But body remembers, even if mind doesn't. Body knows what it did, it knows what it was created for. It's instinctual, bone-deep reflexes of a person raised to be the perfect murderer. It's little twitches and how easily opponents fall: foes and former allies alike.

It's small glimpses of the past, because mind doesn't remember, but the body DOES. It's the eerie familiarity of darkest corners of Baldur's Gate, it's people recognizing Durge on the streets, people they don't remember but who remember THEM.

It's the feeling of being haunted by your own self.

It's the body of Ketheric, the bloody mess left of Orin, Gortash's lifeless frame. It's the knowledge you're the last one, what this tragic story of conquer started with you and ends with you.

It's the feeling of emptiness where bubbling joy once was, the blood on the blade what brings no feelings. It's being charming, or kind, or honest, or gentle, or honorable, but at the end of the day still being the best in the art of murder - and who are they if not Bhaal's unholy blade?

Godless and fatherless, struggling to reimagine themselves.

Especially when memories come; they never return fully, never in the whole picture. But glimpses, the shards of existence what was once theirs cut deeper than any ritual blade would.

I keep thinking about Durge weighted down by the grief of the world, guilt of the world.

Alone: without a god, a father, a sister, a partner (Gortash, bc these two were absolutely insane for each other).

Alone and with whole life ahead; lost and confused and with hands bloodied.

Hero, people call them. They don't feel like a hero.

#baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate spoilers #dark urge #bg3 durge #the 'it started with us in ends with us' narrative is killing me #durge who is a tragic hero who at the end of the day is not the person they started with #and not the amnesiac from the nautilus #but the mix of both #martyr and murderer #savior and monster #also gortash my beloved. I keep having headcanon where Durge and him sworn loyalty to each other before orin lobotomised durge #swore like on infernal pact the ritual whay doesn't allow them betray each other #what links their lives together so they die as one #ultimate trust fall and safety feature #'you can't kill me because it would be killing yourself' #durge convinces Bhaal it's ok bc it only means Gortash and Durge will be the last men standing when the time comes #and when durge kills Gortash they will ki themselves too #making the ultimate last tribute to bhaal #but secretly durge is a survivor #they want to live more than they want to please father #so chaining them and gortash by the pact is a safety measure to make sure they don't kill gortash #bc killing gortash would be killing yourself and the self wants to survive #despite everything #so then in act 3 when durge dies and is reborn Gortash feels it #and when Karlach raises an axe to end up Gortash Durge cries in pain #because you can either kill one or neither #don't mind me I'm just plotting to keep rat coded evil boyfriend of my durge alive #durge has 2 hands he can have TWO rat-coded boyfriends #Astarion upon seeing the pact tattoo over the durge's heart: you too hug #and then Raphael is like 'THIS tattoo is the oath of loyalty actually. the closest thing devils have to a marriage pact'

[korrasamibottles]

Yeah Venom of the Red Lotus showed us how crazy powerful Korra is but The Last Stand had Korra transform the destructive power of a massive bomb blast into something regenerative in the culmination of one of the best character arcs I've ever seen. In my OPINION!!

#SORRY ok i'll stop. #lies. i have more to say. she is so brave and so selfless!!! #and mako sacrificing himself to destroy the weapon's energy source was really powerful too #AND of course. the korrasami of it all. #ok one more thing. it seems like the most common interpretation of korra's conversation w/tenzin in the last stand #is 'suffering makes you a better person' and people rightfully get pissed off about that #but i just....fundamentally disagree with that reading. i saw it as korra choosing to find meaning in her pain #and choosing to find wisdom in it. and i think that's really fucking powerful and why korra's arc resonates so deeply with so many people. #like. the suffering happened. she can't go back in time and undo it. and she didn't deserve it!! #but the only way to move forward was to accept that it happened and let it empower her rather than drown her. #i mean there are things i've been through that i wish hadn't happened #but the idea that those things don't necessarily have to mean i've changed for the worse #that i can choose to find A Point to it all and grow from it and use the pain rather than the pain using me #is actually really empowering. #tlok

[shivunin]

I know it's just what the slaver enemy type is programmed to say, but I have very strong feelings about the ones during A Bitter Pill telling the others to "keep the pretty ones alive."

Like. If you're Fenris, already at your limit in what you can handle emotionally today, and you hear the ones who'd drag you back to a fate worse than death saying that about the few friends you've managed to cobble together in your sparse years of freedom...man. I've been thinking about this for days and I don't have any sort of conclusion here.

#i think the fenhawke angle makes it worse of course #like it's worse to hear that about someone you love #but it's awful regardless #i think i might need to write about this because i can't stop thinking about it #and the fact that he sets you up for an ambush when you meet but you face one down together for this quest on his behalf #and because of that you are forced to face the most awful parts of his life being potentially visited upon you as well #double or nothing so to speak #god he is just so!!!! #i am putting him in the stand mixer and flipping the switch #half the time i write these things and i fewl like the last drunk in the bar sobbing to the bartender #hello is anyone listening?? fenris is a free man but in freedom he's only found more to lose T.T #fenris #da2 #dixeram

[skylarbee]

am/miles fans on tumblr rn as just about as dead as the crowd in belfast what is going on

#where is everyone #also that crowd is so not it omg #why is everyone literally just standing in one place #are they doing the mannequin challenge #WHILE MILES IS PLAYING INHALER??? #is it them or me who got 2 hours of sleep last night i can't really tell #miles kane #alex turner #milex #arctic monkeys #the car tour

[unlikely-gravestones]

Currently thinking about how for nearly all Dreamling meetings, Hob's always the one watching Dream leave him.

In 1389, he watches Dream walk away from their table. In 1489, he again watches Dream leave while saying that he never told Hob his name. In 1589, he bitterly watches Dream leave with Shakespeare. We don't see the end of the 1689 meeting, but there's a pattern here, so. In the 1789 meeting, Hob again watches Dream leave and he literally never looks away from him- the scene ends with Hob still watching Dream leave after their confrontation with Constantine, he never turns his head from him. And then of course the 1889 meeting, which again...ENDS WITH HOB CHASING AFTER DREAM AND WATCHING HIM LEAVE IN THE RAIN

friends I am having thoughts

#The angst potential of Hob being so used to the one that's left behind #Always watching His Stranger leave #Which #Hob's happy to watch Dream walk anywhere if u know what I mean #But he's always the one being left in that pub for the next 100 years #Someone know what I'm trying to say I can't get to my point #I don't even think there's a point it's just a recurring detail I noticed #And the last shot of the 1789 meeting got me because it literally ends with Hob STILL watching Dream leave #Despite him walking in the opposite direction his head was STILL turned to watch Dream #the sandman #dream of the endless #hob gadling #dreamling #sandman #And it's not that I think hob wants to be the one that leaves Dream for once #It's just that by 1889 we can clearly see that Hob is evaluating their relationship and wanting more from it #Wanting to put clear terms down and see where they stand and he's OBVIOUSLY been musing a lot on their interactions #I just think it would add to how lost he might feel about where they stand with eachother when he's always being left alone

[linusbenjamin]

Lost | 6.07 'Dr. Linus'

#lost #lostedit #tvedit #lost spoilers #benjamin linus #ilana verdansky #miles straume #nikolatexla #i shouldn't be laughing but last gif is so funny 💀 #he looks so pathetic and desperate it actually looks good on him #look at him... he can't understand anything. he's just like me #this show manipulated us so well bc i always thought ben was so powerful that no one can stop him #but deep down he was just a scared little boy who needed a hug #i can't stand seeing him like this... fun fact his last scene where he was sitting on a bench - i only watched it once bc i start crying

[nihilismtrcit]

neighbor janie isn’t a fan of eden walking the halls in her underwear. “some people have kids and husbands, eden” 

#simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 screenshots #anotherzodiaclegacy #anotherzodiaclegacychallenge #eden #janie #el oh el #obvs that's not what they were fighting about in game but like come on #her neighbor with a husband and toddler can't start beefing with her randomly #while she's in her bra and undies in the hallway #without me imagining this narrative lmfao #last post from this one night stand #or boyfriend?? who knows #i am just now playing and working on some more posts for the drafts so we'll see where it leads with ellis

[blubushie]

i think the reason so many people think they are against leather is that they don't distinguish between leather and exotic pelt production. one is taking advantage of the resources we already have while the other unnecessary wastes them

Oh no vegans and ARAs just think it's like. Morbid or something to wear something else's skin. I call it respecting the sacrifice of the animal and not letting any part of it go to waste.

They KNOW this shit comes from cows. But wearing cow skin is disturbing to them. Cow's gonna die anyway. So you're sacrificing the lives of countless fish to save the hide of one cow who's still gonna die, except its hide will rot instead of being put to use. Fucking wasteful.

Tbh there's a common thing of fish not being considered "worthy" of life though. Look at betta bowls, goldfish bowls, fish being given away as rewards at carnivals. A lot of people consider fish more on par with insects in the compassion department despite their intelligence and ability to feel pain and socially bond. And vegans/ARAs MASSIVELY show their hand and morals when they buy pleather knowing the environmental impact is has on microplastics in the ocean, but I guess the life of a few thousand fish aren't more important that the life of one cow who's gonna die anyway ay?

They bitch about the biggest impact to the environment? It's pollution. You're not polluting shit when you take an animal's hide and tan it and make it into a vest or shoes or what have you. But pleather? The entire production process is pollution.

But vegans don't care cuz they don't have to think about it. That's pretty par the course. "Plant food is humane" while ignoring the pollution from pesticides, the billions of animals killed every year from combine machines like deer and foxes and wildlife, to pesticides, to the people like me who are hired to shoot wildlife what feed on plant crops so it can reach THEIR tables.

Miss me with that "It's grown to feed livestock too." I was a stockman and all the cattle and sheep I ever drove were free-range grazed.

How's that soy taste, lads? Cuz it's watered in blood. Let's also ignore the human fucking slavery of avocado plantations, of quinoa farms, how the people who work the land to grow your food are kept indentured and paid so little they can't even afford to buy the fucking food they grow to export to you tarts. Where's your compassion and decency there, ay? You'll protest against dairy calves being taken from their mums cuz dairy cattle have zero maternal instinct and will sooner crush their own calves than raise them but you're silent on Nestlé? Modern slavery in the modern day doesn't get a word of protest from your bleeding hearts ay?

#blu whos #bushman #veganism #honestly i don't care if someone's vegan i just can't stand the ones with mightier-than-thou attitudes #to be fair the last few paragraphs of this aren't aimed at you ozzy i just started running at the mouth <3

[legerdomain]

season 4 or something

#‽ #gotham #gotham fanart #leslie thompkins #sorry i can't draw lee for the life of me. or more this is my first time drawing lee #more people should start caring about lee actually #i think ed and lee were good friends and nobody talks about this #they work better as friends but i don't like that they pushed romance #i think ed has a lot of trust in lee!!!!! you guys #ed nygma #edward nygma #the riddler #oswald cobblepot #the penguin #nygmobblepot #again not really but also yes. they hate each other so much #oswald is such a hater #at least theyre STANDING next to each other #i hope this doesnt flop at least. im up to 80 notes on that last one. i love tumblr guys #took the chance to tell the people of tumblr of the interophoneme (the interrobang eroteme and echopheme) #you GUYS i love punctuation #it is so easy to ramble in these tags sorry #LADIES! i have gotham requests/suggestion open (just please follow me at Least) but go crazy in my inbox #lee thompkins

[airanke]

Ngl I feel so bad for these girls :/

#they did deserve better than what they got from the very beginning #And I will say one thing I can't really stand about JJK is how characters drop like flies #I'm literally not attached to anyone so when there have been deaths I have zero emotion 😂😂😂 #in fact the only time I cried during any part of the JJK story #Was during the movie when Inumaki tried to use the last of his strength #To tell Yuta to run #ALSO I KNOW THESE ARE LIKE NASTY LIL GIRLS #BUT I STILL FEEL REALLY BAD FOR THEM #SUKUNA DIDN'T HAVE TO DO THEM LIKE THAT

[dribs-and-drabbles]

Beginnings and endings

Bad Buddy ep 1 | Bad Buddy ep 7 | Our Skyy 2 Bad Buddy ep 1

#bad buddy #our skyy 2 #I took some liberties with ep 1 #because there is a whole scene after #but the sentiment stands #THE DESIGN #uservid #mjtag #tosnimeat #userkit #user111 #usernuria #userjjessi #I can't remember who else to tag 😭 #it's been so long since I tagged people last #parallels that make my brain melt #someone asked aof how many parallels he wanted to make and he just said YES #this was just one on MANY

[isaacathom]

i have genuinely so many thoughts about how the book Lieutenant Hornblower was adapted and how most of the changes work, when accounting for the fact it must necessarily leave Bush's POV in order to work as television, and how those changes end up fucking over Bush's character in the movies, and how he was further pilfered by the series' decision to maintain characters like Styles and Kennedy. There is so much going on in there. Unfortunately, I don't yet own a copy of Lieutenant Hornblower, and having to constantly borrow it from my library is a faff and prevents me using post its to mark important passages. :(

#i also last read lt hornblower over a year ago at this point #analysing the intersection of bush and kennedy is particularly ripe since kennedy DOES NOT EXIST in that book #and barely exists in the book prior. he's in two chapters. he has like 5 lines of dialogue. he probably gets killed in france #but in Lt you can understand the impulse! because other than bush and buckland? there are two other lts who arent important #so scrapping them in favour of an existing character you cobbled together for the series? yeah! yeah!!! #but they can't give archie the fate of either of the scrapped lts. bc itd be utterly ignomious #one of them gets cut in half by a cannonball. the other dies offscreen during the prisoners revolt on the renown #so they shift the circumstances of the firsts' death to a sequence with bush (the anchor thing) #and they alter the latter to remove archie from canon before he completely breaks the events of Hotspur #but THEY ALSO take actions from bush! and give them! to archie! #and it has a marked effect on bush's character in those two movies! #and when loyalty/duty are more “faithful” to the books re: bush's characterisation its jarring! #*shaking the books* i have so many thoughts #hornblower #“what does styles have to do with it” changes how he relates to the crew. #also they give the cradling bush scene to styles instead of horatio which is Funny as hell but also ;-; #it has a completely different tone but thats the stand in! for horatio calling for him tenderly! #but they couldn't give that scene to horatio because he was about to have a similar thing with archie. :(

[i-can-even-burn-salad]

Happy STS Elli!

What inspires you to write? Are there things that you know that you can get inspiration from or does it just come randomly?

Happy STS!

For me, inspiration doesn't mean "to write".

There are, and always have been, a lot of stories floating around in my mind - ideas, scenes, vibes, outlines. I get inspiration from literally everywhere, from talking to my friends, and video games, and scrolling past images or prompts, and reading books, and spending too much time on reddit, and…

Many remain daydreams, or character backstories, eventually lost to time.

Now for actually being able to sit my ass down and get words on the page? I don't know. It comes and goes as it pleases. Having a beehive where a brain should be does NOT help, let me tell you that.

I just. Can't focus on shit lately. Can barely make it through a chapter when reading. Every day is just suddenly over, and I got nothing done, and I am so tired. I have a completely outlined short thing I have been trying to write since Nov, and it's like pulling teeth.

I could do with several months off work while everyone leaves me the fuck alone. How would that be.

#salad-ask #aria-benedetto #sts ask #I cried new year's because after having 1 (one) day of my vaction actually completely to myself #Which was after I already didn't get any quiet time on my LAST three attempts at taking time off because someone was sick at home #And spending most of all that time just working (in my time off) and cleaning the depression piles #My mom berated me for instantly refusing to come over for some 'if I die you need to know where stuff is' talk #(note: there's no reason to think she might anytime soon and she was talking about like... a cd collection) #'You always have something!!!' #I don't know anymore how to get people to understand how fucking exhausted I am. #I'm about to let the stupid paint course voucher from work lapse because in a year I didn't find a motive I like and the energy to even #consider wasting 3 hours of my life after work to produce some physical object I have no room for while having to run to get there on time #Not to mention people!! A room full of people!! #I've just become sooo sensitive to noise lately I can't even stand to be in the kitchen when the fridge hums #And you're always always always the bad guy if you close the door in someone's face because they're whistling or watching tv or calling #It's cool :) Sorry I was being unsocial :) Lemme just quickly slam my head against a wall until I pass out :) #So uh anyway happy STS writing has been going well