#cannot stress how thrown together this is but. sisters <3

[mattelektras]

i don't have to need anything to want to come visit with you.

#comicedit #marveledit #scarlet witch #wanda maximoff #polaris #lorna dane #jessie does things #cannot stress how thrown together this is but. sisters <3 #obligatory mcu fans interact with common sense and empathy and not this post

[prettyboybarzal]

Dancing with Our Hands Tied (3)

Pairing: Pierre Luc Dubois x Reader

A/N: Please let me know what you think! Next week is a fuuuuun chapter. The drama really spices up, I promise. I’m very excited! :))) 

Word Count: 2.3k

Warnings: Again, just alcohol consumption

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Sadie’s apology tour continued through the week after her visit. It started with her buying breakfast for you the morning after and it didn’t end until you practically begged her to stop saying sorry.

“Sadie, it’s over,” you grumbled into the phone that Thursday night. “Everyone has nights like that. I’m not mad at you.”

“Well, I’m just worried that you’ll never let me visit again!”

“Definitely not for a very long time.”

“You bitch!” she exclaimed, sending you into a fit of laughter that she joined in with just moments later. After the laughter settled, she sighed softly. “You did thank Pierre, right?”

Your silence answered the question for her.

“Oh, my God,” she whispered to herself. “I cannot believe you couldn’t put your stubbornness aside for one night!”

“It wasn’t me being stubborn,” you defended. “It was me being thrown off guard by a man who is otherwise an asshole to me and not knowing how to react to his kindness, fake or not.”

“I don’t think you know a thing about him.”

“And you do?”

“I know plenty,” she said. “More than you do, I can tell you that.”

“Enlighten me.”

“Try to get to know him yourself.”

“I don’t want to.”

“Fine, then I’m going to try to DM him on Instagram so I can send him a thank you,” she grumbled. You sat up straight on the couch, on high alert. 

“You absolutely will not.”

“Then thank him for me,” she barked. “Like a normal person.”

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Pierre was in a mood and he couldn’t pinpoint where it even started, though he had a feeling that his goal drought was only making it worse. They’d been away for a week and while he didn’t mind roadtrips most of the time, the hotel beds on this one were exceptionally uncomfortable and his missed shots were haunting him at night.

It gave Seth and Josh an excuse to drag him out the day after they returned home.“You need to get your mind off work,” they’d said. And though he protested, he still ended up with his feet sticking to the ground beneath him. 

His mind was elsewhere, like it had been all week, and as it wandered, it ended up back to you. 

Whenever he thought about the night of Sadie’s incident, he found himself getting more and more agitated by your attitude. It shouldn’t have surprised him, and yet…

“YN’ll be here soon.”

A groan ripped through his chest at Josh’s words. You were the last person he wanted to see after a shitty week on the road. 

“You invited her?”

“You know what?” Josh asked. Pierre raised a brow at him. “I’m not even going to entertain this argument with you tonight. And that goes for her too. Tonight, we’re all friends.”

Seth laughed into his drink while Pierre fixed a glare on his teammate. Josh didn’t waiver for even a second.

“I’m getting a drink.”

The bar wasn’t as crowded as it usually was, but Pierre didn’t mind a bit. In fact, he liked it better this way considering the mood he was in. He didn’t feel like being bothered and he wasn’t in the mood to mingle. He wanted to drink away his stress in the booth in the corner with only Josh and Seth to entertain him. And, well, you.

The bartender recognized him as he approached and brought him his usual, though Pierre could tell he’d put a little more liquor in it than normal. 

“Did you watch the games?” he asked, eyes narrowed at the man behind the counter.

“Yeah,” he said softly. “Listen, man, you’re one of the best. Don’t stress.”

He left Pierre alone then, but the Universe had different plans.

“Duber, is that you?” 

He knew that voice.

“I feel like I haven’t seen you in so long.”

Standing in front of him was his date to last year’s Cannon Ball, Taylor. He thought he’d never see her again, not after the few hours they spent together, but here she was with a little more lip filler than she’d had then. She placed a manicured hand on his forearm with a smile and Pierre knew he wasn’t getting out of this any time soon.

---

“Are you still mad at me?”

Those were the first words out of Josh’s mouth when you showed up to the bar. He was seated beside Seth, who was sporting a shit eating grin because somehow he’d managed to avoid your wrath.

“No, but you’re lucky I had a week to cool off because if I’d seen you the day after, I would’ve killed you.”

“I told you Pierre’s not a bad guy,” Seth said, elbow nudging into your ribs as you sat on the other side of him. Your eyes cut to him, daring him to open his mouth again, but he kept it shut.

Josh watched you search the bar and realized, shockingly, that it was Pierre you were looking for. 

“He’s over at the bar,” he spoke, lifting a finger to point him out. His back was turned, but over his shoulder you could see the blonde hair of whatever girl he was with.  “I’m pretty sure he’s with that girl that used to stalk him last year. The one he brought to the team gala last year.”

His body language was all off, you could tell from the moment you laid your eyes on him. His shoulders were squared and he wasn’t even leaning into the girl in front of him, though she didn’t seem to mind a bit. Her fingers tracing up his biceps as she spoke to him. You finally got a look at her face and the memory of her hit you.

“Oh, shit,” you whispered, leaning over to talk to Josh. “I remember her.”

“Yeah, the one that got so drunk he had to carry her home and make sure she got into bed.”

You nodded as the night came back to you. Sure, she was super drunk, but that wasn’t what stuck with you. The thing that stuck out to you about that night was the way Pierre treated her.

Last season, your feud with Pierre was at its worst last season. Whenever he stepped into a room, you had to leave it. Even when Josh asked you to be his date for that event, you almost said no just because you knew it’d be nearly impossible to avoid Pierre. The boys broke you down though, as usual, and you accepted the invite after telling Josh he owed you one.

He so clearly invited her for the sex he’d get at the end of the night. They spent the entire pregame at Boone’s apartment with their hands all over each other and she even went as far as pinching his ass in front of the entire group on the way to the Ubers.

But, even if she was just a fling, he made sure to open all the doors for her and he held her purse when she had too many things in her hands, and even when she didn’t. He spent thirty minutes at the beginning of the night out on the terrace taking pictures for her Instagram. He even stopped drinking when he realized that she was taking advantage of the open bar because, as he told Seth, “I don’t want her getting too sick.”

And, while that night shocked you then, it didn’t any longer after seeing the way he handled Sadie. 

“He just mouthed help,” Seth said with a snicker. You looked up and caught the last moment of a helpless look from Pierre. Josh chuckled on the other side of Seth, neither one of them in a rush to help their teammate out.

“Well, are you gonna help him?”

They answered with a harmonized, “Nope.”

You watched him a little bit longer as Seth and Josh carried on beside you. And then it dawned on you. This was your chance to make it up to him. You’d save him from a girl he wants nothing to do with to make up for helping your sister out. Finally, the issue could be put to rest. Hopefully. 

“Do you guys want drinks?” The boys relayed their orders without a question and you slipped away to the bar, feet dragging in Pierre’s direction purposefully for the first time ever. 

You stepped up to the bar just a few paces behind him and placed your drink order with the bartender. As you waited, you inched over to the 6’ 3” hockey player and ran your fingers up his back. Your touch had him standing at attention immediately. He turned his head, eyes widening as they met yours. You smiled sweetly as you curled your fingers around his bicep and said, “Hi, Luc.”

“Hey,” he said, swallowing thickly. He couldn’t possibly be hearing you right. Luc?

Your eyes cut to the girl in front of him as you tightened your grip on his arm.

“Do you mind?” you asked, though you clearly weren’t going to give her a chance to answer as you steered Pierre towards you and boxed her out of the conversation. 

Goosebumps rose along his skin from your touch and he was praying that you wouldn’t notice, or that you’d at least ignore it if you did. 

“Thanks.” 

“Consider us even,” you spoke with a shrug. “That’s for keeping Sadie alive last weekend.”

“That was no problem,” he said. “You didn’t have to make it up to me.”

“No, I did,” you grunted. The bartender returned, placing your drinks down in front of you while you signed off on the receipt. “I didn’t say thank you, so consider this my thank you. Now we can drop it. Forever.”

---

It was 11:30 p.m. when you gathered your things and stood from the booth to wish everyone a good night. Pierre knew it was coming. You’d been looking at your phone for the past twenty minutes, the conversations around you background noise to the plans you were making. You said your goodbyes. A hug for Josh and Seth, a wave in Pierre’s direction, and then you were gone.

Pierre only stayed another thirty minutes. By the time midnight rolled around, he was drunk. His teammates clearly had a game plan because he wasn’t even thinking about his on-ice performance anymore. When he exited the bar, he found you still standing against the outside walls. Your jaw was set, arms crossed over your chest, clearly perturbed by the fact that you were still waiting for Charlie. 

“What are you still doing out here?”

His eyes were glassy and he stumbled over the sidewalk as he sidled up beside you and leaned against the bricks.

“Charlie’s not here yet,” you answered. He noticed your frustration, arms crossed over your chest as you glared out at the street in front of you. He lifted his wrist and glanced at his watch.

“Wasn’t he supposed to be here thirty minutes ago?”

“Yeah.”

“Are you dating him? Or is it just a booty call type of situation?”

“Can you stop talking about him?”

He continued anyway, pushing himself off the wall to step in front of you, “Why do you go home to him all the time? I mean, it can’t possibly be the sex. Every guy in there, including me, has eyes for you. You could have whoever you want, I bet.”

“Close your eyes then,” you spat, stepping to the side so you could have a clear view of the street again. He rolled his eyes. Even his compliments were shoved to the side. There was no getting through to you. He leaned back up against the wall as you began speaking again. “And, just to be clear, we’re still not friends. You must be delusional to think that I want to talk to you about anything going on in my life, especially my sex life.”

“That’s fine,” he said. “I don’t want to be your friend.”

“Good,” you quipped. “I don’t want to be your friend either.”

Your eyes lit up as Charlie’s car pulled up to the curb and you were practically jogging over to it before he even parked. You slipped into the passenger seat, pecking his lips quickly in an effort to get him to drive away before seeing his neighbor. You were unsuccessful.

“Is that Pierre?” Charlie asked, leaning across the center console to get a better look at his neighbor. He called his name from the open window and Pierre came walking over with a swagger in his step. He ducked down, elbows resting against the bottom of the window, and crowded your space purposely. “You heading home?” 

“Yeah, trying to call an Uber.”

“Don’t worry about it. Just get in!”

Your head whipped around so fast that you were surprised you didn’t have whiplash after, but the frantic look that crossed your face wasn’t even registered by the man in the driver’s seat and within seconds, Pierre was sliding into the backseat.

You were silent for the rest of the ride home, listening to the boys talk about hockey. Just hockey. While you checked your make-up in the mirror, you wondered if he was annoyed by the hockey talk. Josh and Seth always hated it. Your eyes cut to him as the thought crossed your mind and you found him already looking at you. 

You immediately closed the mirror. 

The elevator ride up to their floor was painful. You were eager to slip past Charlie’s front door and get away from Pierre. They exchanged a little more small talk as they fumbled with their keys and the locks. Pierre opened his first and smiled wickedly at the two of you before slipping into his apartment. 

“Have a good night, you two,” he said. “Keep it quiet, alright? I have an early morning.”

And then he was gone, disappearing behind his apartment door, before you could talk back.

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[whatdoesshedotothem]

Monday 12 September 1836

7

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No kiss fine morning and F50 ½° at 7 50 - out with one or other till breakfast at 9 20 to 10 ½ at the Lodge the plasterer gave me the Lodge keys - had finished his job - had Joseph Mann about spars for the Long goit cabin - gave him 5 and nails - had Mr. Husband - told him to see about the Whiskum cottage windows - Joseph M- thinks they can be made water tight by substituting wood frames for the lead ones - Mr. H- to see also about the pump removing into the house - Reuben ----- that lived with Mrs. Lawson will do the job finding pipe (1 1/4in. pipe 30 yards) and everything for £6.10.0 - Mr. H- advises fumigating with brimstone the Irish cottages in Hatters fold - will be done for 2/6 or 3/. Robert Mann and Matthew and Samuel taking out hall  cellar stuff-wood and Jack filling Mark Hepworth 2 one horse carts that cart stuff to the bottom of the coal pit-field - Robert Schofield and Joseph Sharpe breaking stone n the court and taking down bit of old garden terrace wall over against the west tower - 2 sawyers from Hainsworths came this morning (1st time) to saw up deals - to stay a week - the York joiners began fitting up menservants necessary in the new court - 2 masons hewing as usual for the west tower 2 masons (Abraham and James) and 2 lads preparing and setting rag against the coal-place in the new court - wrote the above of today till 11 ¼ - above ½ hour making memoranda - then looking at measurement of Hilltop and writing over in ink memoranda in little rough book - then till 12 50 wrote and copied letter in answer to the one I had last night from Miss Vickers - in great hope of having heard of a housekeeper likely to suit me - presume it is the Miss V- who was teacher at the Manor school at York ‘and whose knowledge of cookery and confectionery, and whose of the arduous duties of a housekeeper in an establishment consisting of several servants might not be sufficient to fit her for the place at Shibden hall - Miss Lister very much hopes that Miss Vickers will soon meet with a better situation’ - from 12 55 to 4 (except called off a little by A- copying plan of the H-x Sutherland property for her sister) and had Mr. Hoyland for a few minutes about painting the Lodge (the painters there this afternoon) from 12 55 to 4, with these interruptions, wrote 3 pp. very small and close to M- thanks for her 2 letters and valuable help - will let Adney manage for herself about the woman servants in future gave M- copy of great part of my last letter to Mrs. Bull - and a copy of Miss Vickers’s letter!!! and my answer ‘Mary I have you all this to amuse you, if so be that you can be amused by such an offer’ (Miss Vicker’s) ‘sealed by a little bird ‘scaping from a cage under the watchword of our day, Liberty - I have had enough for all my life of hiring housekeepers and housemaids - ask how often the Lawtons give their servants great coat - if the brick oven is heated with wood or coal, etc annoyed sorry the gardener did not call to thank M- afraid the accounts from the minster yard are but indifferent - ‘your disappointment is mine - I should have been delighted at your coming - at last, (never too late), you have resolved wisely and kindly - and I am confident you will be more and more of my opinion - Be the secrets of our hearts open or not, the world has some right to have its prejudices attended to - who was once more convert to this opinion than Mary’s self? who has done sacrifice to it more frequently than she? and would you now despise the creed that you have held so long? But think not of anything save the good you are coming to do - you can, and will give Adney very valuable assistance - you will do great service to us all, and you will be more than satisfied - the idea of coming to see my aunt after A- and I were gone, was perhaps but an idea - a vain imagining that could have no reality - my aunt is very poorly - we have no thought of leaving here, and may not have long to stay on her account - she has so often and so extraordinarily rallied, who can say when she has done so for the last time? But I have no hope of her continuing very long - she has told me several times to give her love, and say, she should be very glad to see you - I am sure she would be very glad, and I should have laid stress upon this before, had I not

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thought it more kindly considerate to your feelings to avoid the subject altogether - you must take such board and lodging as you can get, in the present state of the house and household - Trust me, il n’y a que le premier pas qui conte - all afterwards will be easy, and comfortable, and satisfactory - if you are not in a hurry about plans for Miss Salmon, we had best talk the matter over - I think it will require much careful arrangement to insure its success - In Paris it is easy to spend money, and difficult for a stranger to live comfortably on small means’ ...... should have the n° of pupils certain for the 2 years - scarcely think £500 a year with 5 pupils enough for everything - it ‘would require a clever head, - or rather 2 clever heads, one to keep the house, and one to keep the young ladies - the latter ought never to be left - I fancy the manner English people keeping schools in Paris, are either well versed in the manners and prices of the place, or are in some sort of partnership with  some French person or other foreigner who can keep the cash-book straight - I dare not trust myself to name other places than Paris - but there are where climate is better, and living and house rent cheaper, and masters good enough to teach French - of course, everything is the best (except climate) in Paris - but it is a charming, dear place - Let us talk all these things over - your last dated letter (the 2 last came together) seems to me the kindest I have had from you since the spring of 1834. ‘when I have the object set before me of being of the least possible use to you, self is altogether forgotten’ - a golden sentence - kind in expression, - invaluable in dead - Is not that affection deepest which seeks to serve its object bests?’ - shall be glad to hear she has made up her mind about Percy - grieve over the failure of the Wiesbaden scheme - out 4 for ½ hour - then wrote all but the 1st 13 lines of today till 5 (rain sent me in at 4 ½) A- off to Cliff Hill between 2 and 3 pm and not returned at 5 - till 5 35 wrote the ends very small and close and finished my letter to M- afraid she is far from well - will not speculate or ask questions no w- will judge for myself by and by ‘I hope and think your visit will do you good’ ..... glad she is so engrossed with her schools - ‘you cannot live without constant employment - you never could - you were always active and busy - the prepossession never leaves me that your health will be better sometime hence, and that your measure of happiness will far exceed your present expectation - Adney begs me to say how very much she feels obliged to you for your kindness in promising to help her with her school - you will do her a great service; and she is not a person upon any service is thrown away - I am confident your coming here will be productive of much satisfaction and comfort to all parties - Mary! it could not be in my heart to reproach you for anything, but the weakness of yielding to some feelings, was unworthy of you, and undeserved by me - God bless you! Rouse up your good spirits, and come, and believe me always very affectionately and especially yours AL’ - had just written the last line at 5 ¾ - then out till 7 with Robert Mann, ordering work for tomorrow - the Low fishpond cannot yet be found out - read over A-‘s letter to her sister with plan of the Sutherland [Hall?] property and advice about the Greece field - very useful letter - sent off my letter to Mrs. Lawton, Lawton hall, Lawton Cheshire and to ‘Miss Frances Vickers Mrs. Gascoignes, Skinner Lane, Leeds ppd’ dinner at 7 ½ - coffee upstairs - A- read a little French - I  asleep on the sofa till 9 ¾ - then a few minutes with my aunt as I had been between dinner and coffee - would not take A- with me - my aunt in bed - not up today - very poorly - Mr. Jubb not well - sent to inquire after my aunt this morning - letter tonight from Mrs. Milne - thanks for the moorgame - about ½ fine and ½ shower day F50° at 10 pm reading Alphabet of Botany till near 11

[angeltears-writing]

The Brother’s and movies

Lucifer

v  Lucifer tells anyone who asks that he enjoys serious, dramatic movies set during the wartimes the type that get Oscar nominations but are quite intense and a little dull.

v  Lucifer however holds a dirty little secret that his prideful nature will not allow him to outwardly share.

v  He LOVES Christmas movies.

v  The end of year holiday movie’s just alleviate all the stress in him. He is so happy while watching that he can barely keep the grin off his face.

v  DO NOT watch Home Alone with him and Mammon. Lucifer every 2 minutes is mouthing off against Mammon stating that HE is the Kevin of the family.

v  His favourite holiday movie is the Santa Clause.

v  The holidays are so special to him and the movies just capture the atmosphere and joy he feels.

v  He loves Christmas because he finally gets a break from his duties, he can have a fun little party with his beloved brothers and friends, he receives and gives meaningful gifts and even Satan is nice to him on Christmas.

v  When you come to the Devildom you bet Lucifer is watching Love Actually with you and every single romantic Christmas movie so he can feel enjoy the warm fuzzy feelings assiociated with his favourite holiday with his beloved Y/n.

Mammon

v  Before you came the Devildom Mammon solely watched hardcore triple X action movies. Unless on movie night with his brothers, then he’s forced to watch some boring artsy flick or some anime junk movie .*cough cough Levi*

v  He was a total dudebro and loved PointBreak.He owns the full collection of the Fast and the Furious. What’s not to love with the live fast, die hard law breaker lifestyle?

v  The man also lives for heist movies, Oceans 11? He has it memorised! He thinks about how HE would be a huge asset to the team and dreams about pulling off some high action super cool heist with you.

v  When Y/n comes to the Devildom it is like a flip of a switch for Mammon.

v  He says he can handle horror movies but you both know that’s a big fat lie so only insist on watching them if you wish to torture him.

v  He will complain and insult your choices of chick flicks and romantic comedies but he is enraptured.

v  HE LOVES it, he watches a couple of them in secret and daydreams about you and him as the main couple.

v  This man wants to pull a Heath Ledger and serenade you to “Can’t Take My Eyes Off You” in front of his brothers, Diavolo, RAD, heck even the whole Devildom.

v  He is living for these romantic comedies and constantly tries to recreate his favourite cutesy moments with you. (Did he get you “special wishing sparkles” and told you to close your eyes and make a wish? Did he then give you a shy blushy kiss when you opened your eyes and say wish granted? Who knows that’s between you and him.)

v  Oh and you bet he’s crying when the couple’s fight and cheering so hard when they finally get together. He can’t help it he’s a secret romantic. Don’t be so loud about it Y/n! He has a tough guy attitude to maintain.

Leviathan

v  Anime movies. Need I go on?

v  He has the Blu-ray special editions of Studio Ghibli movies and he loves watching them on rainy cold days snuggled under a blanket with you.

v  He loves Ponyo for obvious water and fish related reasons. You guys have defiantly done cosplay photo shoots, he was Ponyo, you were Sosuke and Henry was the fishy sisters.

v  Other than anime movie’s Levi is a 80’s movie aficionado. He has seen every 80’s movie. He particularly relates to the high school movies for the theme of the awkward nerdy guy getting the super cool, popular girl of their dreams.

v  He does enjoy the nerdier comic book, big budget action movies, like Kick-Ass. He and Satan have faced off against each other regarding whether DC or Marvel movies are better. (He prefers the funny antics associated with Marvel plus he’s a Peter Parker fanboy)

v  He also is a huge fan of any Edgar Wright movie since seeing Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. (He let out a Woaahhhh when he saw the comics)

v  May Lord Diavolo have mercy upon you if the movie is a book or tv show adaption because Levi will not shut up during the movie. (He will pause the movie he’s not THAT inconsiderate.) You will not have a moment of peace after the movie has ended. He simply must share every single thought he had on what the movie did right and what the movie did wrong. Then he has to show you his fan casting list of who would better fit the roles and then just when you think it’s over he pushes you to re-watch the movie with him to listen to the director commentary.  

v  Levi will generally save his commentary for after the movie if you got to the movie theatre with him. Something about the change of atmosphere and the excitement that comes from the movie watching experience just puts him in a calmer less frantic mood and you can enjoy a simple quiet movie date for an hour or 2 before your ear will be talked off.

 Satan

v  DO NOT WATCH BOOK TO MOVIE ADAPTATIONS WITH HIM! HE IS WORSE THAN LEVI AND TWICE AS BRUTAL IN HIS CRITICS.

v  Now that that fact is out of the way Satan is a mystery fan. He enjoys the cheesy who dunnit type movie’s especially if the detective solving the mystery is very cool and charismatic with a fun catch phrase.

v  One that caught him of guard and quickly became his favourite was Knives Out. A clear mystery with a wacky bunch of characters all with misleading facts and motivations. Additionally he was thrown for a loop on the ending so he really enjoyed it for its unpredictability.

v  Of course Satan enjoys DC movies I mean he and Levithan read the comics and he is a clear believer that the serious tone and consequence from DC makes them the far superior super hero franchise.

v  Contrary to popular belief Satan does not like documentaries, he gets restless and bored watching them, but you keep putting on those boring long documentaries because it leads to a very steamy make out session with a slightly huffy Satan who had been complaining that his movie choice would have been much more enjoyable. Hush hush Satan we are not watching the Blue Planet to sate our curiosity of the inner workings of the environment but rather to quiet your adorable little tuts and huffs with soft sweet kisses and gentle touches.

v  The double edged sword that comes from picking a documentary is that Satan will indeed make you suffer by making his pick a terrifying horror movie since he thinks you are oh so adorable when you’re frightened. He thinks it’s really cute when you ask him to walk you to the bathroom because you’re afraid of the big scary monsters and it’s even cuter to him when you throw your face into his chest and refuse to look until the scary scene is over. Haaa he cannot resist and must pat your head and give you a small peck.

Asmo

v  When one watches a movie with Asmo, one does not simply see it, one lives it.

v  Asmo loves 90s and early 2000s movies about the pretty popular girls because he lives to see their fabulous closets, outfits and their dewy supple skin. He’s a huge fan of Clueless, Legally Blonde and Bring It on.

v  He also simply dies for those cult classic like, Mommie Dearest, Troop Beverly Hills, Drop Dead Gorgeous, Marie Antoinette, Death Becomes Her and many more. You guys put on face masks grab a couple of tasty cupcakes and start reciting the movies line for line bursting into giggles every time, that’s how many times you’ve seen them.

v  Asmo gets the appeal of campy movie’s that have not been appreciated for their odd charm so when you come along you bet he’s going to be shouting out his favourite one liners and you fire the responses right back. He’s in love.

v  What he loves most about the campy movies is the fabulosity and authenticity that comes from the movie’s just wanting to tell a great story and celebrate the oddities and dramatics of the characters. His favourites are the ones with drag queens particularly Priscilla Queen of the Desert, To Wong Foo and The Birdcage. How is he not meant to simply adore the beautiful wigs, costumes, the attitudes of the queens and the sharp, dry, witty humour.

v  Big blockbuster wise Asmo is inclined to see any musical, and yes for 3 weeks straight he will sing the songs of the musical, much  to the displeasure of his brothers but to the delight of you and Solomon who cheer him on and request encores. (Yes you all went to see Cats together, yes you dragged Satan along. Yes everyone but especially Satan was traumatised and yes Asmo did drape himself across every available surface in the House of Lamentation and belted out Memory for practically the whole Devildom to enjoy. Enough with the questions!)

v  Asmo’s favourite musical is Rocky Horror Picture show, you have monthly viewings where Asmo dresses up as Frank en Furter and performs…well not for you more on top of you.

v  Movies with Asmo are always fun treats, you both have a great time with each other and walk away from the movie’s feeling more emotional and closer with one another.

Beel

v  Beel’s taste in movies is similar to his taste in food he is not picky and enjoys a wide variety.

v  He enjoys mafia movies of any variety He likes the familial bond and the trust between members but does not enjoy the double crossing, it makes him feel sad.

v  Other than that he lives for the lively mood, the Italian food, the dramatic situations and the action sequences.

v  He has seen a few animated movies and his favourite is Brother Bear, it reminds him of him and Belphie and makes him soft.

v  He does actually does like twin movies because the plots are always outlandish and funny to him at least.

v  When it comes to movies where food is central to the plot, do not get him started. The amount of times you had to pause Ratatouille so he could get his 20th snack in the last 10 minutes was astonishing. He get’s extra hungry watching the movie but generally enjoys chatting to you about the food making process of each dish rather than paying attention to the plot. (You: Would you prepare food made by a rat? Him: Well I ate Solomon’s cooking once so even a rat’s cooking would be better than that)

v  He loves to ask which dish would you eat when restaurant scenes come up because he’s curious of your taste while watching the movie and sometimes he’ll stop paying attention the movie and instead just watch your reactions.

v  Generally speaking any movie suggestion he’s fine with as long as he gets to spend time with you and can binge on delicious movie snacks.

Belphie

v  The total opposite of Beel, Belphie is a total film snob and will harshly berate your movie choice and say ‘You really made me stay awake for this crap fest.’

v  He doesn’t mean to be mean (yes he does but he doesn’t like making you sad) he just has a very particular taste for movies and if he’s going to extend the effort to stay awake and pay attention he wants it to be worth his time.

v  He is actually the one in the house who does enjoy documentaries. What can he say some habits die hard and he’s still a total Earth nut even though he human-phobic.

v  Not to mention the gentle voice of David Attenbourough soothes him until he is just barely awake so when he finally drifts off he dreams of the wonderful parts of Earth and the miracles or nature.

v  He is a fan of Shakespeare movies particularly the rich dark one’s that are a bit more violent. The atmosphere surrounding them just fits and the plot is a classic so why watch a cheap knock-off of what he has dubbed perfect writing.

v  This man is an emo so of course he’s going to watch the slightly pretentious movies with poetry, his favourites are Dead Poets Society, The Crow and V for Vendetta.

v  On movie nights he is selfish! He insists that you watch his movie first then he immediately falls asleep after it ends. He feels no shame over this.

v  He hates twin themed movies, he thinks they’re cheap and over use the same gag of ‘Whoa they’re twins.’ (Sorry Mary-Kate and Ashley Belphie does not like you guys at all)

v  He watches brother themed movies with Beel and gets really soft because he loves his twin so much.

v  If you truly force him he will relent and watch your movie with you but he will make fun of it and bully you every second he is awake and the only way to silence him is to cuddle up close, let him lay his head on your chest or shoulder, massage his head or give him tons of kisses.  

v  Generally speaking a bad movie buddy but a great cuddle buddy for movie nights.

#obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me luficer #obey me mammon #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me belphie #obey me beel #obey me brothers #obey me leviathan #mammon x reader #lucifer x reader #satan x reader #asmo x reader #leviathan x reader #belphie x reader #beel x reader #obey me x reader

[cartoonfangirl1218]

Royal Friends Headcanons

Because they are good friends, business meetings tend to be relaxed, not so much tension of someone wanting more than their share, they all just want to work together to get the best outcome. 

However, for some it can get so friendly that Alonso and/or Chloe would go off wanting to discuss personal stories and just having fun rather than treaty work. Though when they do get together to party Hoo boy. They party. There's no party like a royal party. And I don't mean Esteban's fancy waltz, seven chambermaids to seven men, I mean the Galdonian chair dances and mulberries and impromptu olaball matches and dance-offs. It's a lot of fun, and no one but a fellow royal really gets how much a party is needed for stress relief. 

Being the only two princes, Alonso quickly took Marzel under his wing to become his best "bro" and his wingman. And though sometimes Alonso's "legendary" plans are disastrous, they are a good influence on each other with Alonso helping Marzel be more outgoing and Marzel bringing Alonso back down to earth. 

Alonso plans to bring Prince Ari under his wing when he gets older. Rebecca not-so-jokingly swears it will be under her dead body. She likes Alonso, but she doesn't trust him to be a good babysitter much less a good role model. 

The girls have royal girls night which is basically a spa weekend with some olaball thrown in, and dressing room fashion shows. Sometimes there’s matching outfits at Val’s insistence. And yes, they it looks awesome.

Chloe and Marisa became such fast friends. Their bubbliness overflows into one another and they're the two main huggers of the group. Plus they both are very interested in learning about each other's worlds, and Marisa can gently but firmly guide Chloe when she backslides in social habits of oblivious selfishness. Also Marisa is always up for helping Chloe journey back to the territory of the sea nymphs and visit her gf Maliga. 

Rebecca develops a snarky relationship with Alonso since she was one of the few that doesn't fall for Alonso's charms or tangos AT ALL. He likes to tease her about her perfectionism and she mocks his playboy attitude. They act like they can't stand each other, but also are brutal when they team up for olaball. When Valentina joins their team, basically the match is won before they even do anything. 

Valentina was a bit perturbed by Chloe's touchy-feeliness, especially when it smushes her ruffles, but she comes to enjoy Chloe's positivity. They really enjoy shopping together too and admire the materials found in the other's countries. 

Valentina sometimes takes Marisa and Marzel as her "pet projects" in teaching them the ways of the human world, and outfitting them in the best of the best Paroisan outfits even if they cannot walk in the many layers and in Marisa's case, the corset.

Chloe, Marisa and Rebecca have ongoing bets on Valentina and Alonso, and Eleteo's relationships.  

More and specific Elena and XY hcs under cut.

Marzel has a small crush on Rebecca, best displayed that whenever Rebecca has to take a trip overseas, he volunteers to guide the ship in case of rocks, even if it takes a couple of weeks, and he has his own princely duties. But he is smitten enough to forget that he has his own kingdom. Rebecca finds it sweet and is considering seeing where it goes especially with Marisa's jokes that they can be sisters-in-law. 

Rebecca is lowkey the mom friend of the group, always trying to find solutions to other's problems and trying to make events enjoyable for everyone. 

Alonso is the one who unofficially cheers the other's up. He doesn't do emotions, and likes to keep things light, so he's the one to go for jokes and pratfalls and caricaturing himself, bound to put the smile back on their faces. 

Chloe gives the best gifts. Not all yachts like King Hector, but very sweet and personal homemade ones.

Elena and Alonso

They still have a teasing flirtation with Alonso knowing it won't go anywhere and Elena always smirking as she shoots him down. But now Elena freely helps Alonso with his romantic woes with Valentina when he endearingly, frantically asks for help to show Val how he cares without looking lame and "whipped." 

In return, Alonso offers free advice which Elena ignores because she doubts Mateo will like the things which Alonso claims "all men want."

Alonso gives Elena updates on how Charoca and Charica are and sends the lava crystals that they send as gifts. 

They enjoy having dance-offs and whenever Alonso wants to show off some new moves, Elena is usually his partner because she picks up dances quickly and they are surprisingly in-sync a lot of the time (they did do an amazing impromptu tango the first day they met after all).

Alonso actually enjoys indulging in her love of puns. Even if he thinks they're lame, he still does them till Elena is crying with laughter.

Elena and Valentina

Elena and Val are probably the closest even if they sometimes fall into a friendly competition. Elena likes to try out her magical expertise, and her new spells that Mateo has taught her with Valentina who is a very proficient wizard in her own right.  Their kingdoms actually hold wizard exchanges and Elena often invites Mateo to join her meetings with Valentina because watching Mateo and Val geek out about magic to be amusing. As well as Mateo's silent frustration at her boasting.

Now they are allies in the kingdoms, they make amazing teammate on the olaball field and invented the Double-Trouble Queen fastball. 

Elena actually taught Valentina to cook since Val had made it part of her royal duty to learn about all different aspects.

Their first dish was pan dulce, with Avaloran chocolate. In return, Val has taught Elena some new hairstyles with copious locks and waves, with some of the best Paraisan hair ornaments.

Elena and Marisa

Marisa gave Elena multiple, stylishly dyed kelp shirts for her visits to Coronado and inadvertently created a trend for kelp clothes. 

Much like Ariel, Marisa goes to Elena to confirm or ask about new human objects that come to the shores that Camila no longer recognizes. 

Marisa got Elena addicted to romance novels that are apparently very popular in Nueva Vista and they spend some beach days laughing about some of the cheesy paragraphs and then they talk about their own romantic lives or the lives of others.

Elena and Marisa do amazing duets together and every year on the Human-Sirena Treaty to celebrate the improved relations. 

Elena and Marisa took crossbow lessons from the Turners, and have an ongoing competition for who can get the most center targets. So far Marisa is in the lead with 3-1. It's slow-going.

Elena and Marzel Elena and Marzel enjoy each other's company a lot during kingdom negotiations. They find they have a similar worldview with formerly having a black & white morality, insecurities in living up to their fathers and so they work well together in working toward a common goal. They enjoy the feeling of accomplishment.

Marzel taught Elena how to play Hermit Hold'em which is basically a poker game, and soon the two were running around Coronado's casinos, having the time of their lives. But that was a bad idea with all the money they wasted, they have been banned by their family members. 

Elena urges Marzel to participate in athletics and helped to teach him olaball, and fencing, the latter which Marzel was surprisingly proficient thanks to his own battle training. But he still enjoys frisbee the best. 

Elena also helps undo some of Alonso's more damaging advice about how to act on the human world, especially in regards to girls. 

They both share their concerns about their younger siblings, while Marisa and Isabel see them as overprotective and overly cautious, they think Isabel and Marisa are impulsive and jump into situations before they're ready. It's nice when you have someone who automatically agrees with you on things. 

Elena and Chloe Elena and Chloe share the same humor when it comes to puns, and always greet each other with a hug and a pun. 

Chloe tends to go off-topic when she sees her friends again instead of focusing on business as she should, but she also asks questions about the other's lives (as Elena once taught her or sang to her to be more precise) and then Elena gets dragged in describing the latest event that her kingdom faced and a whole afternoon goes by before they go back to the treaty Elena came for. 

Chloe gave Elena a taste of some of the best mulberry pies which Elena quickly consumed and had seconds. Which Chloe made into a friendly pie eating contest. 

Chloe takes Elena on hikes through Norburg's amazing pine trails and Elena shares some of the "winning" yoga moves that Ixlan taught her. 

Chloe gives Elena updates on the relationship between Abigail and Hector and proudly details her own diplomatic skills when they fight. Elena is just glad it's not her who has to do it.  Elena and Rebecca 

Rebecca became a sort of big sister inventor to Isabel, though she's not as knowledgeable in STEM, she has the creative knack for it and helps bridge the gap between Isabel's scientific talk and Elena's out-of-the-box thinking. 

Elena and Rebecca share a love for cultural events and what it means to bring the kingdoms' communities together so they often trade lessons on important dances and foods. 

Rebecca and Elena both have a tendency to focus on the minutiae of event/business details when they feel stressed with something. Luckily, it's not at the same time and usually can talk the other off the brink.   Though Rebecca tends to hold herself to a high standard, Elena helped to unleash her fun side and created a vicious prank master. Prince Ari blames Elena for all of it. 

Elena and Rebecca are often the first ones to go for adventures like rock climbing or horse racing and the others are jealous of how easily they take to things like that. 

#elena of avalor #elena castillo flores #prince alonso #princess marisa #princess valentina #princess chloe #princess rebecca #prince marzel #my headcanons #my hcs #headcanons

[wearetakingthehobbitstogallifrey]

Kdrama recs Part 2

Hello @camsthisky and anyone else who cares! I do apologize for the delay on this post--it has only been 84 years since Part I of my kdrama recs, I know, and I thought about going for a full century but this is me finding a way to de-stress after watching the first episode of I-Land alkdjfadlksj I’m gonna die of heartbreak but whatever

Speaking of heartbreak, there is a lot to be found in Korea’s wonderful historical dramas, so like, be warned—or, if you are an angst-loving monster like me, settle down for hot guys and good cries

Let us begin! (or, if you want romantic modern dramas see Part 1)

1. Scarlet Heart Ryeo/Moonlovers: 

aha ahahahahahaha *weeps* You may have heard people talk about this show. You may have heard ME talk about this show. This thing was my first kdrama ever and it RUINED ME 

Disclaimer: I have seen this show once and rewatched it twice and on the rewatches I can never quite make myself watch the last 4 or 5 episodes because things get tragic and messy and I get mad. HOWEVER there is a lot of good in the first part of the show and because this thing was all the rage in everywhere but Korea itself, there’s like over 300 fanfic for it and several good fix-its, including one by my good friend @thelonelybrilliance

Ok so anyway this show which could also be called An Abundance of Princes starts with a young woman from modern times getting thrown back into ancient Goryeo during an eclipse and finds herself in the body of Hae Soo, the cousin of the wife of one of the princes, and thus she gets embroiled in royal affairs which are, quite frankly, a mess. See, the evil eyeliner prince (whom I love even when he’s the worst) is plotting with his mom to get the Crown Prince out of the way aka dead BUT who should return to the Palace but the 4th Prince, Wang So, who has spent at least half his life living as hostage to a powerful family. 

So has a scar that cuts across his eye and which in this society makes him a horror to look at or smthing idk he just looks extra hot to me but anyway he wears a mask and is known as the wolf dog (or as the MURDER ANGST CUPCAKE thanks @abadpoetwithdreams). He might seem a little rough around the edges at first because his life has been hell but he really just wants to love and be loved okay people need to be nice to him wtf

Other princes include: 

    1.  the Crown Prince, Wang Mu, a good egg, not particularly charismatic but he tried to protect his lil bro when no one else would

    2.  the 8th prince, Wang Wook, who reminds me of a fellow named Shane and I don’t mean the cowboy

    3.  the 10th prince, Wang Eun, a dumb adorable spoiled bby (played by Baekhyun from EXO)

    4.  the 13th prince, Baek Ah, a tol soft boi, an artist, a BAE, a BRO, a SHIPPER ON DECK

    5.  the 14th prince, Wang Jung this son will fight everyone he’ll fight himself he just loves to fight! Not always wise but he’s a good boy and I like him a lot 

    6.  just realized I skipped the 9th prince but nobody cares 

One quick note is that IU plays Hae Soo, and I enjoy her a lot in the first half of the show where she is still spunky and rebellious...sadly her character kind of falls apart/gets too weak for my liking as the episodes progress

The MAIN reason why I feel it my duty to recommend this show to everyone despite the fact I have never met anyone who wasn’t traumatized by it is LEE JOON GI

Yes, this man:

 I mentioned him in the previous rec post—he played Bong Sang Pil in Lawless Lawyer (AND IS NOW CURRENTLY STARRING IN FLOWER OF EVIL WHICH WILL BE ON ANOTHER POST AHDFOIASDHGALDSKJF FRIQ I AM IN LOVE WITH THAT MAN) 

BUT SERIOUSLY LOOK AT HIS PHOENIX EYES!!! HIS RAZOR SHARP FEATURES! HIS BIG ADORABLE EARS! HIS BEAUTIFUL EXCESSIVE BANGS! 4TH PRINCE WANG SO LOVE OF MY LIFE

SOMEONE PROTECT THIS BBY

2. Hwarang: Ok so right off the bat I am going to smack down a disclaimer that I can’t stand the female lead. TRULY CANNOT. Thus, I don’t like the romance, and only care about the love triangle as far as it just shows how sad and lonely one of the guys is. (Also there are scenes of dumb old men plotting and I don’t like them either). At the end of the show, I am happy that the one guy is NOT stuck with the female lead as his wife. Good for you sir

Sounds like a show to steer clear of then, right? WRONG. This is a show that you skip through because the scenes that are good? Are GREAT

Picture this: It is the Silla era of Korea, and the queen is ruling as regent in place of her son, who has been hiding all his life because everyone wants to kill him. Well, son is now grown and must soon come into the light and take the throne. Queen who both wants her son as king but also really likes being queen decides to do everyone a favor and form an elite fighting squad out of all the prettiest and most talented sons of nobles in the land, with the idea that they will be loyal only to the throne, and thereby keep their dads from plotting to destroy everything. 

Let me tell you something, these ARE the prettiest boys in the land. Good hair, good jawlines, beautiful smiles—the cast lineup includes Park Hyung Sik and his cute lil elf ear, Park Seo Joon, Taehyung (yes from BTS!), and Choi Minho from Shinee, plus two other actors who are lesser known but who are drop-dead gorgeous. Anyway. Sorry, but they really are all beautiful. 

The fun thing is they don’t all get along right away, a few of them are VERY much opposed to the other for various reasons, but they all have to bond and become brothers in arms. And what they don’t know is that the real king snuck in and is one of them. 10/10 I would die for the boys! (also Tae has an older half-brother who is a lower rank than him but whom he looks up to and that makes for cuteness and pain) Once you skip the boring or annoying parts of the show, the rest has so much delight, laughter, and oops pain, lots of pain. I want to go re-watch. 

Two other things I should mention about the show: a super soft side romance between secondary characters and a game of, as they call it in the show, HOT SOCCER 

^pretty boy 1 (with the cute elf ear sadly on the other side of his head)

^pretty boy 2 (sad cheekbone bby) and pretty boy 3 (happy cheekbone bby)

^pretty boy 4 (the prettiest of them all, and he knows it!)

^pretty boy 5 (aka Taehyung danced around the set of a historical drama and made everyone adopt him as their bby) 

3. Faith/The Great Doctor: This is a longer kdrama at 24 episodes and they didn’t have much of a budget so special effects aren’t the best or anything but I just got really attached to all the characters? This is another modern girl goes back in time but UNLIKE SHR it actually has a happy ending, so if you need a historical drama cleanse after that tearjerker/enrager, this could be it for you

Eun Soo has to navigate the ancient kingdom, keep people believing she is a heavenly doctor with special powers, and keep Choi Young alive so he can fulfill his promise of returning her to her own time. The problem with that is Choi Young does have kind of a death wish because of reasons—

Eun Soo is a plastic surgeon who would really like a rich handsome husband one day but them’s the breaks for you, aka she has had no luck in that department. Back in ancient Korea, Choi Young (played by Lee Minho in sadly the only role I really love him in) is a high-ranking beloved captain who can fall asleep anywhere. Oh he can also make electricity with his hands! :D

The story begins when the sleepy sad captain tries to escort the new king and queen to their palace. This was during the time period when ancient Korea was basically a puppet kingdom/tributary of ancient China (Yuan). The king (who is very smol and lacks confidence, but still has a good heart for his country) lived as a hostage in Yuan for many years, and his wise tol queen is a princess of that land, and someone needs to sit them down and make them talk because they actually love each other a lot. Anyway, when the queen gets injured by assassins, Choi Young goes searching for a legendary doctor, winds up in modern Korea, and steals both Eun Soo and a SWAT shield, because hey, it looked cool I guess

Lots of fun things in the show: Choi Young has a crew of soldiers who are BEYOND loyal to him, and while he doesn’t think much of the king at first because he’s been burned by kings before, they slowly become bros and shippers on deck for each other. Eun Soo does not lose her spunk or loyalty unlike other people I could mention *cough*HaeSoofromScarletHeartRyeo*, and it cracks me up when she curses people out. There are also a bunch of people (mostly bad guys) running around with special powers or gifts, including a flame lady and a flute boy, and the latter wears delightful anime wigs, keeps his sword in his flute, and plays his flute to kill—literally! I love flute boy very much 

sorry it’s black and white but DO YOU SEE THE SWAT SHIELD

4. My Country: A New Age:

ANGST ANGST ANGST PAAAAAIN BUT ALSO BEST INTRO BEST FAVES BEST ACTORS

Picture this: two young men, who both hail from childhoods of trauma, who grew up together and are best friends, and who are tragically forced apart and end up on opposite sides of a conflict that threatens to upend the current rule of the kingdom. This IS the star-crossed brotp you’ve been waiting for!

Seo Hwi is the son of a general who died a criminal, and all he wants is to live simply and earn enough rice take care of his younger sister, who has seizures and a sweet crush on Hwi’s bestie. Hwi is the best softest most loyal boy with a good and true heart, a great deal of courage, and a talent for wielding a sword, and just wait till you see the best one-shot fight scene ever of him in battle, it is INCREDIBLE! (He is played by Yang Se Jong, who I now want to see more of) Hwi has an abundance of charisma points in that he picks up a small band of loyal soldier friends and they become the best little found family, lots of brotp-ness in this crew—do not mess with any of them because they will all FIGHT you

Seon Ho meanwhile is the illegitimate despised son of a powerful nobleman, only tolerated because the legitimate son died. Seon Ho loves his friend and is very protective of his friend’s little sister who crushes on him but his dad is a high class grade A power-hungry jerk and that causes complications of course. Seon Ho also has a good heart, he’s a gentle soul really, but he always gets stuck in bad positions and unfortunately makes a couple of difficult/bad choices so he hardens himself as much as he can but the consequences always kill him and he just wants to save his friends and destroy his dad and the stupid hierarchy that treats bastards as lesser. WHY IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK? 

Seon Ho he is played by Woo Do Hwan who has so much talent I die so many times over in this show just because of the way he portrays Seon Ho like that sad sad boy is one of my favorite characters evER! Is he problematic? At times maybe but I am HERE for him he just needs LOVE AND AFFECTION AND AN ABUNDANCE OF GOOD FRIENDS BUT INSTEAD (SOMETIMES THRU HIS OWN FAULT BUT HE ADMITS THAT) HE JUST SUFFERS AND SO I SUFFERRRR

*grabs a towel and dries up my tears*

Hwi also falls in love with a woman named Hui Jae (or was it Hee Jae i can’t remember) and they are very cute together, she’s pretty cool but the show’s one failing is arguably that they kind of underuse her in the plot as the story goes on? But I still like her and she still has a good role, and she is both brave and kind and not afraid to step in or tell people off, also keep a weather eye open for patching up scenes! 

Oh yeah, eVERYONE in this gets hurt/stabbed/shot/bloody, such a shame they have to take their shirts off to clean and bandage the wounds ;)

Last character I must mention is Bang Won, played by Jang Hyuk in his second interpretation of the historical figure. Bang Won is the fifth? son of the guy who becomes emperor/king, and he has his own plans for the country, so when Hwi catches his eye, he recruits him to his cause.  What you need to know about him is that he has issues with his dad, is slightly unhinged, and cannot and should not be parted from the fan that he constantly carries around with him. Gotta say, Jang Hyuk is FANTASTIC (heheheheheheh) in the role, able to convey all kinds of emotion in the rise and fall of his voice, in the tilt of his head, the tears of his eyes, the flick of his fan. Give this actor all the awards! 

To sum up: if you like to cry for days after watching a drama, if you like excellent heart-wrenching brotps, if you like conflicted characters, if you like amazing music and setting and plot, if you like guys with good hair and arm muscles (and 

abs, thank you shirtless scenes what) this show is a Must Watch 

DID I SAY STAR-CROSSED BROTP I MEANT SWORD-CROSSED BROTP ADKJFADLSKJFLKJDFALKDGKLJL </3

~

Ok I was going to leave the historical drama post at this for now but...I’m going to cheat a little and include the one historical C!drama I just finished.Yes folks I am talking about:

5. Nirvana in Fire:

Ok so maybe the switch from kdrama to cdrama makes you uncertain. Maybe the fact that this show has FIFTY-FOUR EPISODES makes you go hell no I don’t have enough time for that. Well if you overlook this show for those reasons, you are making, and I do not exaggerate, the greatest mistake of your show-watching life!

Look, first, this drama has one of the best, most intricate, most satisfying plots in history, with like 20 characters you would die for, and second, the episodes are only about 42 minutes each, which is shorter than most kdrama episodes, so you can deal.

Once upon a time there was a general/family who were just too good to exist in corrupt old China, so naturally they were framed for treason and there was a giant massacre and everybody died, including the eldest prince who was like um dad maybe this is all a horrible mistake and the king was like no u are the mistake. Sad times.

One of the many younger princes named Jing (A NOBLE HEART, if not always the cleverest) returns home from wherever he was, finds out that not only did his prince brother die, but so did his best friend/brother in the whole wide world, Lin Shu, son of the general. Because he insists on the innocence of said bros/family, Jing becomes an outcast prince and is shuffled off to fight in wars where he can’t cause any trouble. Meanwhile, Princess Nihuang, Lin Shu’s brave, awesome, amazing, wise, incredible girlfriend, refuses to marry anyone else, and because she is too cool to be messed with, nobody tries to banish her

Cut to I think eleven years later, when the two most powerful princes are vying to be the crown prince and heir to the throne. They both try to recruit the aid of a renowned clever and sassy strategist named Mei Changsu, to help them with plotting and PR and such.

Well little do they know that Mei Changsu is actually the not-dead Lin Shu, with a completely new face (for reasons), and that Mei Changsu is a chess master setting up a long con for the dual purpose of obtaining revenge/justice for the dead and of raising Prince Jing to the throne, since Prince Jing is the only man with a good enough heart and strong enough will to make China a better place for all the people. But just to make it hard on everybody, Mei Changsu is dead set on not telling anyone who he really is—again, for reasons. He is not always successful in keeping his secret.

I literally don’t know what else to say because there is so MUCH to say, so many characters to love, and I mean LOVE. How do you get a cast this good? How is everyone so different yet so important? How do you feel bad for the emperor even when he’s slimy? How do you have to stop yourself from rooting for the prince who would destroy some of your faves? I can’t praise the charisma and acting talent in this show enough! And the music! IS GORGEOUS!

1 strategist too sassy for his own good and too clever for everyone else’s good + 1 prince who loves his mom and his dead best friend and his dead older brother more than anything else in the world + 1 gentle wise mom + 1 eternally loyal princess who would defend her loved ones with the sword if necessary + 1 sassy Elrond healer man + 1 grumpy sulky baby who loves being a better fighter than almost everyone + 1 loyal to the death, brave badass general who is going to have a stress breakdown if the strategist doesn’t take better care of himself + not 1 but 2 good boys who deserve to be protected but who are willing to throw themselves into battle if necessary + 1 antagonist tiger prince who I love and am not ashamed to say it = THE BEST OF TIMES

^he hardly ever wears his hair down but when he does <33333333

*checks calendar* how soon is too soon rewatch something, asking for a friend

#kdrama recommendations #scarlet heart ryeo #hwarang #faith: the great doctor #my country: the new age #nirvana in fire #my kdrama recs #historical kdramas #plus one cdrama #i went overboard on gifs sorry not sorry

[unseelie-bitch]

Season 3 Episode 1: The Princess' Ball

Oh I am EXCITED for this

Oh god okay new shots in the intro include a well-dressed man who very much looks like a human version of Scarlemagne from Kipo. Gonna go out on a limb and assume he's the new antagonist

Musa's hair's longer!! Oh it's so cute

Okay who is this blue haired lady that keeps showing up in the intro she's clearly important but gives me villain vibes

Also loving the amount of ballgowns they're clearly going to wear this season

Stella's packing for a vacation, good start

Musa "wear whatever you have" is not advice Stella would EVER take come on

And why exactly is vacation way shorter this year? You can't just say that and expect me not to question it

I think Techna's voice actor has changed >:(

Layla and Musa aren't going home? Aww...

"Hitherus" iconic

KIKO

Oh nice one Layla

Oh no Stella's getting a sungram please tell me her parents aren't cancelling on her

Oh Stella's getting a princess ball! Also "back when they still had arranged marriages" implies that Sky actively proposed to Diaspro and they were actually dating so... what's the truth lover-boy?

Oh no her dad has a suprise announcement he thinks will make her happy? What's the bet he's either pulling her out of school or has found her a husband

Aww Stella's bringing the whole squad!!

"Approaching omega dimension" with ominous music... can I assume we're either going to see the Trix or fancyboy?

Oh they're delivering three prisoners... Icy? Darcy? Stormy?

"They say it's so cold down there it freezes your heart solid" well Icy won't exactly have an issue now will she

Yep it's the Trix

Okay so Icy just woke up with glowing eyes which is a whole thing but can we talk about their frozen expressions? They not only look afraid but in pain... when were they frozen? What happened to them? I hope they're okay

Well Icy's free

Icy I'm loving your monologue but do you want to maybe free your coven sisters

Oh no she's hoping her parents are getting back together honey no

Oh my god Icy freed Darcy and Stormy and they both immediately collapsed they look so exhausted I'm so worried for them

"Only the baddest of the bad get sent here, girls" "Nice! I bet they're talking about us at Cloud Tower" I cannot stress enough that these are not Big Bad Villains they're just teenagers who don't want to be forgotten and have been abused and manipulated please can they get redemption arcs

Oh ice-laser-breathing-snakes. Isn't that fun?

Stormy actually looked terrified oh no

Blue haired girl from the intro has made her entrance and she's a dick

Pizza man is not okay with this Stella Vs Mystery Girl fight in his shop

Sorry they're... what? Please tell me she didn't actually say "Betas" like it's a flex

Oh wow her friends have a song and dance. Isn't that lovely

Okay I was willing to accept Mystery Girl right up until she was a bitch to Flora now she's going down

Techna going "snap" to emphasise Stella's insult? Iconic. Especially since she did it better than the Betas

Musa's getting her hair spelled! Excited to see it longer

Bloom and Stella are alone <3

Virtual dresses? Excellent world building

Montage!!

The Beta bitch is going to steal Stella's dress isn't she

Yep there we go

HOW DARE YOU PUSH STELLA AND BLOOM OVER

The Trix are running from the snakes oh shit

IT FROZE STORMY'S MAGIC AND SHE LOOKED SO SCARED AGAIN NOOO

Icy actually called back to make sure Stormy knew where they were going! I'm so glad they all care about each other <3

Icy please stop enjoying the icy floor the others can't deal with this like you can

Love that Icy jumped then flew into the cavern while Darcy and Stormy just fell straight down

Again, Icy is fine and gets up straight away, Darcy is hurt and crouched down and Stormy is just straight up lying on the floor please look out for the non-icy witches Icy

Oh there's sir fancyboy. His name's Baltor and I believe I've vaguely heard it

He was sentenced to eternity?? Jesus. Also implies that they would have gotten the Trix out at some point which is interesting

"Frozen dude, blink once if you can see us" okay first of all Icy his name is Baltor and it is literally RIGHT in front of you, secondly he was sentenced to eternity do you really want to try and team up with that? Thirdly iconic line though I love her

Love that Stormy's like "what if we unfeeze this guy so the snakes can kill him and we can get away" and Icy immediately agrees. These girls are pro-murder but everyone has flaws and they're cute so

Darcy and Stormy protecting Icy's back while she's using her (clearly diminished) powers to unfreeze Baltor? Even though they know damn well there's nothing they can do against the snakes? Absolutely brilliant the Trix are such a strong group I love that they actaully love each other and will protect the others at all costs

Fully ran behind Baltor and shoved him into the snakes lol

OH SHIT BALTOR KILLED ALL THREE SNAKES WITH LIKE 0 EFFORT

He's so extra I love him

He was frozen and awake for 17 years... yikes

I didn't notice his stupid little beard until now yikes Baltor please shave it

Oh he cut Icy off this won't end well Darkar has taught her not to let anyone else take charge

Baltor being like "I have no idea what any of you can do and I know I'm powerful but we've been sentenced to the same place so you probably are too. Also I'm out numbered so Imma just let you do what you want... for now" is the smartest villain-play so far

Meanwhile Stella's still trying to get her dress from Beta bitch

"Tantrum Tirade" is Beta bitch's spell so she's clearly the epitome of 'daddy's little rich girl'. Just the Winx version of Veruca Salt. Clearly Beta is for the trustfund babies without talent. Yikes

We have a name lads: Chimera

OH NO HER SPELL IS MAKING A BASKET OF PUPPIES FALL FROM A HIGH BALCONY

Watch Stella lose the dress because she's a good fucking person and won't let the puppies die

OH THOSE DOGS ARE SO CUTE

Oh shit. She's "soon going to be the princess of solaria". Shit man. Stella's dad's marrying Chimera's mother isn't he. That's the news SHIT

The gate to Tides? Oh no Baltor and the Trix can't wreck Layla's home world :(

Baltor you little bitch you could have told them the gate was re-enforced BEFORE they tried to break it and got thrown backwards

Icy might want to show off but I love how Darcy and Stormy are like "bitch do NOT bring that snake back near us"

The teamwork lads. Icy redirecting the beam so Darcy and Stormy can break the barrier? Immaculate. Also I love how Icy has started calling them "ladies" I just think it's cute

Baltor's little hops are ridiculous

"I like your style" "Back at ya Baltor" Icy I can't believe you just WINKED please stop flirting your girlfriends are RIGHT THERE

Mermaid guards!!

Okay but for real, why do you even HAVE an omega dimension gate? Like, what was the purpose? Come on

Oh Baltor's enslaving the mermaids. Christ that was quick

"How do all these guys get minions?" "I don't know but we gotta get some too" says Stormy and Icy, ignoring the third member of the Trix who's primary power is MIND CONTROL (also the Trix are so cute I'm sorry they're just adorable)

Musa's long hair is WONDERFUL

Okay Stella's new dress is actually quite cute

Musa please don't ignore your boyfriend

Are we going to find out why Bloom and Sky fought or...?

Riven brought music for Musa oh my god I can't believe I'm starting to like him... but the growth... the development... HE'S ACTUALLY KINDA CUTE NOW SHIT

"Something's wrong with the ocean" no shit Layla there's a TIDAL WAVE

RIVEN JUST SAVED A TINY CHILD AWW

Layla saving the OTHER tiny child

Oh... bye Layla! Good luck fighting Baltor alone...

"You brand them, turn them into freaks and take their power? Very cool, Baltor..." Icy PLEASE I know you have a crush but come on

Baltor's electric guitar solo is peak

#winx rewatch #winx club

[couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name]

Yo did u make that post about your 9th grade science class

oh my God I was talking about it with my friend last night and now I’m losing my mind about it all over again sdkjhdfskh

so the school I went to for 9th grade was a Catholic high school, and it was one with like a GREAT reputation. Like, all the Catholic high schools in my area were ‘good schools’ but this was the like the Big One. Always had the best grades, happiest students, best sports teams, best plays, always did the most outreach with the elementary schools, like it was a very popular school. 

But then,

The summer before I started, the city shut down like...a fucking hundred Catholic schools, because no one wants to fund education I guess? And if your parents send you to Catholic school, they usually want you to stay there no matter what. So instead of all these students going to public school...a ton of them were forcibly transferred to this school (in the suburbs). Everyone was pissed- the city kids were mad because they had no attachment to this place and the commute was annoying. The teachers that transferred with them were pissed off about the whole affair. The teachers that previously worked in this school and didn’t lose their jobs to new teachers were stressed and had no way of controlling the overcrowded classrooms. Tuition went THROUGH THE ROOF. And their was a lot of tension between the city kids and the suburb kids for...literally no reason at all tbh, it was just There so all the classes were insane.

But my science class. Took insane to new levels. 

So, I need to preface this with the type of student I was: I liked science, I thought it was interesting, but science did not like me, and thought I was a bitch. No matter what I tried I was always just scrapping by in the class- but. I always dedicated myself to being the nice, quiet girl who sits in the front, because then the teachers like you, and whether you’re actually a good student or not they’ll give you allowances. 12th Grade gov class, I literally handed in my requirement-for-graduation research paper in a week and a half late and still got a hundred on it, because when the teacher asked me where it was I told her ‘I handed it in on the due date?’ and she immediately was like ‘Oh my God, you did? I’m so sorry!’, then gave me a day to get a ‘’‘new’’’ copy to her, and she felt so bad she gave me extra credit. Like, genuinely, I was determined to play this part and it paid off lmao. 

So for 9th grade I was obviously doing that, but compared to everyone else going crazy, I looked like a literal saint. The teachers in this school weren’t authorized to give detention- we had a school ‘Disciplinarian’, and basically you had to go to his office for him to tell you you have detention, it was weird, but if an entire class was acting up, each room had a call button so he could be summoned to the room to give the full class detention. But all 3 of my science teachers that year, instead of pressing the button, would send me down to his office to bring him back up to the classroom personally, so he would know that everyone EXCEPT me was getting detention. Like, every time one left they literally left in their notes for the new teacher ‘send Molly to get Mr. Chia if the class gets too bad’ it was so fucking funny. 

We went through 3 teachers that year. 

The first one was this old man with an impossible to pronounce last name, who walked with a cane and was considered one of the toughest teachers in the school. Before the end of October, he had mysteriously vanished. Like- they literally wouldn’t tell us where this man went. I feel like if he died or had a stroke, they would’ve had us pray for him during homeroom or something??? He left us no clues, he literally said to me ‘you did great on the worksheet today! Skip the homework, I’ll see you tomorrow’ and then for the next few weeks we had rotating substitutes until they found a new teacher kjshdgjkhd where did he GO

But anyway- he hated our class. He had the toughest teacher rep to live up to and he literally could not control a single student. Screamed his throat raw. Was constantly changing seating arraignments to try and keep certain kids apart. Was constantly getting bombarded with paper wasps and rubber bands and annoying kids asking invasive questions about his stroke. Kids were threating to fight him if he sent them to get detention. No one ever did the homework, everyone always yelling over him when he was trying to teach- in the later weeks before he disappeared, he literally just taught to me and like 3 other students in the front and tried to tune out the other kids. This poor dude omg. 

So, we had various substitutes that just put on movies for a few weeks, and then they found our second teacher. He was a cute, young guy, eager to mold young minds, was active in the church and his sister actually went to the school, so they though they could count on him to get our class together and stick it out for the full school year.

This man was mistreated so badly by these 15 year olds that he RAN AWAY TO ITALY.

I’M NOT EVEN BEING DRAMATIC HE LEGITMATELY MOVED TO ROME TO GET AWAY FROM US. 

He stood no chance. The SECOND he walked in all the kids could smell he was weak blood. The chaos went to new levels- people released real wasps into the room so everyone would run around in panic. Physical fights broke out *just* for the sake of disrupting class. No one would ever stop talking over him. A used tampon was once thrown at the chalkboard. I was shot in the arm with a homemade blow dart that a kid made during a test. People were always trying to hack into his laptop to get answers. A fire was started in the trashcan. Someone tried to climb out the window when he snapped and started screaming at everyone. He screamed so much his voice was almost perpetually hoarse in the days before he left. People would make inappropriate jokes about his fiancée and little sister. Someone tried to steal his camera a few times. The all had terrible nicknames for him.

I literally saw this man transform, before my very eyes, from someone happy and excited to live his passion, into a depressed and stressed out man who just wanted an out. I felt SO bad for him. I genuinely cannot imagine being pushed to my breaking point so hard that I decide my only option is to FLEE THE COUNTRY. But he literally came in one day like ‘guess what fuckers! I’ll be in Rome by the end of the week! Have fun in hell!’ ksdjfdskjfd

The third teacher- they had a hard time finding. Even people who were actively looking for teaching positions didn’t wanna take the job because word got around about us literally driving a man out of America. They ended up finding a teacher at another school who was good with ‘’’’’difficult students’’’’’ and offering him an obscene amount of money to switch. He...listen. He was nice.

He comes in the first day, says ‘So I don’t actually know what physical science is- I’m just gonna teach you guys chemistry’ and then proceeded to not actually teach chemistry. 

He got mad at the kids every now and then, but he was a lot calmer than the other teachers. He let A LOT slide and put on a lot of science videos to get out of trying to get through to the class. 

He was...not the most attentive. I distinctly remember being in the lab, and we were doing that thing where you make flames change colors, and while he had his back turned a guy at my table lit his worksheet on fire, laughed, wasn’t paying attention and let the flame get to his sleeve, had his sleeve catch fire, panicked and beat it out, all in a few moments, all before Mr. Sliffy managed to turn around to catch him. It was an almost completely silent affair, but I feel like the teacher should’ve noticed the residual smoke coming off a kids arm??? He didn’t say anything though khdfsfhkds

So we really skated through for the last trimester that year- apart from a few labs he’d just put on like, ocean life documentaries and if he saw you paying attention he’d give you full class credit. He gave out candy to ‘anyone who’s not being an asshole’, so while some kids were still wild and unruly, everyone calmed down enough so the constant screaming turned into more. Bearable chatter. Tests were few and far between and not that difficult. 

But I still cannot believe I had to live through this class like....I think I developed tinnitus just from sitting in it everyday. I was like constantly on guard for a fist or a dart to hit me for months afterward. It was too much like...can we please do something about schools oh my God. I don’t even know how to officially end this post. Please be nice to teachers oh my God. 

#molly's memories #freshman year #science #asks #molly mumbles

[robronfic]

80+ robron fics to celebrate fic writer appreciation day!

thank you to every single one of you who write for our much loved ship! you’re all incredible and we appreciate you every single day! here’s some of our favourites over the years: 

aus:

~ multi-chapter ~

asking the moon to stay by bugmadoo/@josephtate

(all his life prince robert had known that one day he would have to follow in his father's footsteps and become king of emmerdale. what he never expected was that he would have a secret love affair with the court's mechanic aaron dingle. royalty au. complete. 32k.)

we'll always have the moon by notforonesecond/@notforonesecond

(while working through his deployment for the british army, aaron dingle unsuspectingly meets the love of his life at a bar one night in the form of robert sugden. navigating through war, love, heartbreak, and tears they build their relationship, communicating through handwritten letters. cut after they've built a life and a family together, is aaron willing to sacrifice it all for his country? army au. complete. 87k.)

the hardest science by jentacular

(robert sugden has had aaron livesy erased from his memory. please never mention their relationship to him again.thank you. fantasy au. complete. 230k.)

cause we're lovers, and that is a fact by dinglesugdendinglesugden/@prettyboysugden

(the 1980's- a time of music, love and pride. robert and aaron have to hide their relationship, but will something tear them apart? 80′s au. complete. 17k.)

from the moment we touched by lovesnarf/@snarfettelove​

(needing to let off some steam after a stressful day at work, robert (a ruthless businessman) picks up a prostitute on his way back to his penthouse apartment. but one night with aaron isn’t enough and robert’s got a hell of a week coming up; he offers aaron the opportunity of a lifetime - stay (and get paid) for the whole week. aaron can’t resist, and robert’s pretty fit after all, so he agrees to the deal. they just aren’t supposed to let feelings get in the way of their ‘arrangement’. pretty woman au. complete. 42k.)

fickle fortune by robron_til_the_end/@robron-til-the-end

(robert sugden moves back to emmerdale after ten years away, now rich and famous. he wants to reconnect with his sister and his home, but finds himself hung up on a certain mechanic instead. fame au. complete. 90k.)

sounds of silence by some_mad_lunge/@some-mad-lunge

(DCI robert sugden has spent the better part of a year chasing a serial killer he cannot identify. PI aaron dingle has just cracked a 15 year cold case and is fighting his instant fame. thrown together, they form a partnership that leads thlm closer to finally solving the mystery. and to each other. police au. complete. 33k.)

you really got me bad by escapingreality51/@escapingreality51

(robert loses his job and is forced to get a roommate. however, when aaron dingle rocks up on his doorstep, robert's ability to say no quickly disappears. roomates au. complete. 12k.)

the primary colours by littlelooneyluna/@littlelooneyluna

(robert’s job is to track down a fugitive, becoming a school teacher in the process just so happens to be the case this time around. police au. complete. 143k.)

the journey by tenpercentbatteryremaining

(aaron and robert meet on the eurostar from paris to london. and then again on the train from london to leeds. and then again on the bus from leeds to emmerdale. and then finally... alternative meeting au. complete. 7k.)

i'm so glad it was you by supercali/@nooneelsecomesclose17

(aaron’s morning routine is pretty set in stone. get up, make a brew and sit on the windowsill overlooking hotten high street, while checking his phone for messages. his day was always better when there was one waiting for him. he couldn’t tap the screen fast enough when he saw the icon, sipping at his tea while he waited for the app to decide if it would load or not. finally it opens and he sets his mug down beside him. you’ve got mail au. complete. 16k.)

take my sins by sugdensquad

(robert is an ambitious businessman, an insomniac… and lonely. aaron is a desperate, broken young man… who is also a prostitute. when they crash into each other - literally - one night, their lives are sent spiralling. but they both have baggage, and the past has a funny way of showing up at the worst possible moments. Will they manage to cling to each other, or be torn apart for good? prostituation au. complete. 311k.)

finding home by dirtylittlegreasemonkey/@memorieswarm

(it's the end of 2010. almost a year before, after a long relationship with victoria sugden, aaron came out. their relationship had dissolved into an awkward state and then she discovered his internet history and everything made sense. his acceptance of it, after much confusion, anger and upset, was aided by the support of her and best friend adam. aaron's starting to think about the future and his sexuality but victoria is driving everyone crazy with her excitement of one thing - her brother robert is returning home after more than five years away. when robert crosses paths with aaron, the attraction and antagonism is immediate, but it's not long before aaron finds out robert's biggest secret and that might just change everything between them. teenage au. complete. 58k.)

southpaw by hissingmiseries/@turnerkanes

(an au where aaron's a southpaw boxer who gets dragged into the world of illegal backstreet fights, all gloves and testosterone, where he meets a collection of fellow boxers, a ruthless trainer, an anxious medic and a pretty little businessman. sports au. complete. 40k.)

rumours by imaginentertain/@beautifulhigh

(robert is a divinus, or a “div” if you’re feeling particularly cruel. people who are functionally immortal: they can die through severe accidents or illnesses, or something immediate. people with the ability to heal, to understand a person better than they know themselves, and who are rumoured to love so deeply that they will literally love you forever. robert hasn’t told anyone who he is, only telling aaron after the car crash and their engagement, giving him the choice about whether he wants to live his life with a man who won’t ever grow old, who isn’t anything close to normal and secure. not all the rumours are good ones though, and for every high there’s a low. immortal au. complete. 105k.)

unsinkable by sweetly_disposed

(aaron dingle is all alone in the world. with all his possessions strapped to his back and no family, money, or job prospects to speak of, he is lost, searching for something new, somewhere to call his own. robert sugden has it all: the money, the job, the fiancée, the bright future set out ahead of him, and yet he is stuck, confined to his class with his father breathing down his neck. fate steers them together, entwining their paths en route to a brand new world. titanic au. complete. 25k.)

and might had fallen to sands and fire by matan4il/@matan4il

(aaron is a hebrew gladiator whose daily routine of training and fighting is changed by the arrival of a unit of roman soldiers. historical au. complete. 44k.)

one last night on this earth (can you teach me how the heart works?) by dingletragedy/@dingletragedy

(the thing is, robert is bloody gorgeous and aaron is, well, he’s aaron. with one final overview of robert's face, aaron sighs loudly and locks his phone, leaving robert’s profile just sitting there, waiting for someone else to take the chance aaron just threw away. tinder au. complete. 22k.)

reiteration by otherworldliness

(robert sugden falls asleep in august 2017 as a broken man rapidly loosing everything he loves. he awakes in august 2014 with more knowledge and hindsight than any man should, but more importantly - hope. time travel au. complete. 69k.)

inevitable by raelee514/@raelee514

(robert and aaron have a deal. It's simple. it's casual. their sure adding fake dating for christmas won't complicate anything. fake dating au. complete. 25k.)

need you now by turquoiseterrier/@turquoiseterrier

(the night aaron lashed out and hit sandra was the night his stepmother left, taking her daughter with her and leaving aaron alone with the increasingly abusive gordon. years later, with aaron feeling trapped and desolate, gordon hires a local decorator to spruce the house up ready for sale could the blond painter be aaron's light in the darkness? alternative meeting au. complete 101k.)

from dales to islands by whataboutsugden

(robert sugden has been on the island for 3 weeks and is happy in his couple, but when new boy aaron dingle enters the villa with his best friend adam, he finds himself conflicted and has to decide what, and who it is, he really wants. love island au. complete. 42k.)

met a boy in a bar, went to his hotel room by diary

(aaron and robert meet in a bar. alternative meeting. complete. 36k.)

this new sun by veryveryverytemporarily/@veryveryverytemporarily

(aaron is a celtic warrior who finds robertus jacobus, a roman legionary, still hanging onto life after battle. he takes him back to his clan’s village and nurses him until he’s well again. when feelings develop between the two men, will they be able to stay together, and if not now, when? period au. complete. 27k.)

the man for the job by montecarlos/@robin-frijns

(robert sugden has just become prime minister. it falls to agent aaron dingle to make sure he doesn't cause too much trouble. bodyguard au. complete. 18k.)

jungle love by sugden_in_a_beanie/@sugdeninabeanie

(the boys in the jungle. i’m a celebrity au. complete. 34k.)

~ wip ~

white blank page by their_dark_materials/@rustandruin

(aaron’s a semi-closeted music journalist for a regional newspaper. robert is the newly hired out-and-proud sex and relationship columnist he hates. but when they’re forced to work together, aaron realises that irritation quickly turns into attraction. can he overcome his past and find the strength to choose his future? co-workers au. wip. 99+k.)

put a bullet in me by toxica939/@vcktoxica

(“you don't look like a science geek,” the guy – robert – calls out, moving across the room. he's as graceful as the girls are and lightening quick. aaron's spent his life getting ribbed on by army boys and putting bullets through anything with eyes like this kid. a lifetime of fronting. he's not gonna turn into some little pussy now just because his knee's shot. “you don't talk like you were made in a test tube,” he shoots back. zombie apocolypse au. wip. 43+k.)

this time imperfect by lifeinabubbleIblew/@jonny-versace

(two lifelong best friends come to terms with their changing relationship, unaware they're soon to be torn apart. teenages au. wip. 7k+)

i’ll love you always by danielle97

(after aaron wakes up from a car accident, robert finds that there are some gaps in his fiancés memory… mainly that he can’t remember anything about robert or their life together. au. wip. 125+k)

game, set and match by hauntedbydesign

(aaron dingle and robert sugden are both british tennis players desperately looking to kickstart their troubled careers by competing in the next grand slam on the calendar - wimbledon. but can they find the success they crave on the grass courts of sw19, when their worlds collide and attraction is thrown into the mix? tennis au. wip. 70k+)

oneshots:

ticket to anywhere by perksofbeingaiko/@strongboyfriends

(sixteen years old is dull in ways that movies and television never want to admit, and every minute felt like a countdown until he could escape. But life didn’t work like that. at least, not for robert. aaron couldn’t possibly be the one to change that. could he? teenager au. onehsot. 42k.)

safe in your hands by wafflesofdoom/@capseycartwright

(robert sugden arrives home to emmerdale in a whirlwind of magic and arrogance, determined to become head of the sugden family. aaron doesn't exactly expect robert to make him feel the way he does from the moment he arrives, curious, and excited - and magicial.after years of letting his magic go dormant and unused, aaron is swept up in the wonderful world of robert the great and powerful. (magic au. one shot. 14k)

oh, you're so precious, you're a fucking delinquent by robbosugden/@calhighway

(aaron is a reckless delinquent who always turns to his best friend of four years whenever he gets himself into trouble. teenagers au. oneshot. 3k.)

sunflower seeds by littlelooneyluna/@littlelooneyluna

(liv is seb’s babysitter, when work gets in the way aaron is forced to step in and save the day, then he falls hard. alterative meeting au. oneshot. 20k.)

a different language by thisissirius/@sapphicsugden

(“he can’t hear you,” vic says, touching aaron’s arm. aaron frowns. “what?” “robert,” she says, gesturing at the blond standing by the bar. "he’s deaf, and he doesn’t wear his hearing aid.” deaf au. oneshot. 6k.)

nine facts by thesnowyswan/@thesnowyswan​

(aaron loses his memory and this is his journey of (re)discovery. amnesia au. oneshot. 5k.)

cider and mince pies by sugdenlovesdingle/@sugdenlovesdingle

(as far as christmas traditions go, robert and aaron make their own. teenagers au. oneshot. 3k.)

double shot vanilla latte by wafflesofdoom/@capseycartwright​

(robert had owned the grind for over two years now, buying himself a coffee shop out of his divorce settlement and turning it into one of leeds’ busiest cafes. but he’d never had a customer quite like aaron. coffee shop au. oneshot. 8k.)

two night stand by imgoingcrazy/@robertisbisexual

(aaron’s been single for months and, after a bad night out, is convinced by his friends that a no strings one night stand is exactly what he needs. only casual sex is a lot harder than aaron remembers - especially when your date is a prick - and when forces conspire against him aaron finds himself trapped with robert a second night. alternative meeting au. oneshot. 26k.)

constellations by withoutwords/@thefancyspin

(robert had always stayed with them on his summer holidays, inseparable. friends to lovers au. oneshot. 3k.)

so at ease in the midnight sky by aarobron/@aarobron

(aaron finds the dingle's travelling circus at 16, just after he runs away from gordon, and spends his days helping out with odd jobs. what he doesn't expect to find is a best friend in the shape of vic's older brother, robert. they grow closer, as a double act on the trapeze and as friends, but he keeps his feelings quiet until gordon shows up and flips everything they know upside down. circus au. oneshot. 53k.)

teen idle by astoria

(robert sugden is beautiful, popular at school and always seems to have a girl on his arm. so why is he getting closer to aaron dingle? high school au. oneshot. 5k.)

december came, something changed. by vicbartons/@vicbartons

(to aaron, setting his best friend up with the girl of his dreams had seemed like a worthy enough cause to team up with his least favourite co-worker for. and how hard could it really be to hijack the office secret santa? but then again, when had one of robert sugden's schemes ever worked out the way he planned? co-workers au. oneshot. 13k.)

maneuver one into place by murderousdeer/@robertjacobsugdens

(robert helped lawrence build a legitimate business empire from the ashes of his criminal enterprises. that is, until robert made one tiny, irrelevant mistake and the whites kicked him to the curb. planning his revenge, robert went in the only place where he could assemble a team to get back what was rightfully his. he wasn’t expecting old feelings and wounds to resurface quite so strongly. especially not when it came to his master thief, aaron dingle. ocean's 11 au. oneshot. 57k.)

what is watered, grows by laramie

(a gentle story about being happy with what you have even when you want more, and then getting more and being happy with that too. gardener au. onehsot. 11k.)

faculty lounge by illgetmerope/@illgetmerope

(aaron and robert meet over coffee and tea in the faculty lounge. a story of their romance through chats and mugs. teachers au. oneshot. 4k.)

baby, it's cold outside by small_bump/@victoriasugden

(anything can happen on christmas eve, even a mircale. robert's kind of banking on it. alternative meeting au. oneshot. 6k.)

trouble by design by saltyplaydough/@spamela-hamderson

(aaron's yorkshire's most unprofessional cop and robert's a criminal in love. police/criminals au. oneshot. 1k.)

the first by zoeteniets/@iwillsendapostcard

(first dates au where aaron and robert are paired together on the programme. reality show au. oneshot. 3k.)

canon / canon divergent:

~ multi-chapter ~

iceberg by miss_whimsy/@misswhimsy​

(robert attends counselling to try to help with his depression and guilt. canon divergent. complete. 18k.)

birthdays and surprises by daily_scenarios/@susieskinner93

(since he's been told that seb was miserably the whole day on his birthday, robert thought of a plan to reunite his two favorite people in the world....via video call. canon. complete. 2k.)

can't you see my love? by loveislove87/@scottt190

(robert and aaron are starting to drift apart, losing focus on what's truly important, when an accident threatens to challenge them and maybe remind them both of what matters. canon divergent. complete. 13k.)

i wonder by thisdamndesire/@thisdamndesire

(hazel is back in the uk and is working as an art teacher in london. she needs to be active on facebook for the first time and curiosity gets the better of her. canon divergent. complete. 10k.)

whenever i let my guard down by whiplash

(in the aftermath of the accident, aaron’s surprised to find that he’s the strong one. or, aaron might be the one who’s a bit broken, but robert’s the one who actually breaks down. canon. complete. 4k.)

a little too soon by dirtylittlegreasemonkey9384

(they're together. they're happy. all is well, except it isn't, because aaron still wakes up in the night with terrifying flashbacks of that night at the lodge, no matter how much he wishes he didn't. canon divergent. complete. 25k.)

a foil character's tale by itfeeislikehome/@bigemmerdalefan

(alex and mike witness robert and aaron's relationship in all it's wonderous glory. canon divergent. complete. 2k.)  

~ oneshots ~

so many nights like this by lily_rizzy

(lottie fowler was a horrible receptionist.Working the reception at the hotten spa hotel was not the career she had envisioned for herself when she had accepted her place studying business at leeds uni. by 22, she had pictured that she would already be climbing the corporate ladder to bigger (paychecks) and better things. and yet, she currently had no feet on the corporate ladder despite finishing her degree with a respectable 2:1, and was currently stuck in a career she would have shuddered at, age 18.- or the story of robert and aaron, told from the point of view of a hotel receptionist. canon. oneshot. 5k.)

ice swans and dry-cleaning by persiflager/@persiflager

(“so,” says the twat. “aaron livesy, married. never thought I’d see the day.” canon divergent. oneshot. 6k.)  

separation never suited us by wellyfullofale/@wellyfullofale​

(robert’s been away from emmerdale for almost a year, but vic has persuaded him to return for his 40th birthday party. he hasn’t seen or spoken to his husband since he left the village after convincing himself that aaron had moved on following an argument that they were both too stubborn to move past. he returns with hope that aaron might still love him the same way that he still loves aaron, but when he finds his husband is seeing someone new, is all hope now lost after a year apart? or will they find that, actually, a kind of love like theirs isn’t ever over? canon divergent. oneshot. 33k.)

daniel in the den (felled in the night) by sunsetmog

everything he felt was trapped in his chest, clamouring to get out, desperate to tear itself out from underneath his skin. or: aaron shows up on robert's doorstep in the middle of the night. canon. oneshot. 2k.)

tonight, they sleep by auselysium

(robert takes aaron to the seashore to get him away from emmerdale and the dark secrets he has confided in him. his intentions, for once, are completely noble. but then, aaron knocks on his door in the middle of the night. canon. oneshot. 1k.)

wanting makes the world go round by electrumqueen

("he slept on the sofa." or; robert sugden is a lying liar who lies. canon. oneshot. 3k.)

old wounds stitched anew by theprincessed/@theprincessed

(robert is rushed to hospital whilst out on a morning run. post-recovery, aaron makes him feel better. eventually. canon. oneshot. 6k.)

a line has time in it, your heart needs to heal by amarelavita/@luststricken

("this ‘all yours? you did this?" aaron said, as robert caught him lightly turning pages of a sketchbook, the most recent one, the one that contained a lot of himself in it. he soon reached those pages, the first one was of the back of his torso in bed from one of their many hotel escapades, he wouldn’t be able to tell which one, but robert knew. canon divergent. oneshot. 2k.)

mumble and sigh by couldaughter

(“careful,” aaron said, a fond smile on his face. “people might start thinking you’ve gone soft.” “you won’t tell anyone, will you? i’ve got an image to maintain.” canon. oneshot. 4k.)

who's this man that's holding your hand by reinacadeea/@reinacadeea

(in a not-very-distant future, robert wakes up with amnesia and like the good sister she is, victoria tries to help him remember. canon divergent. oneshot. 1k.)

he belongs to me by dvs/@dvswraatins

(robert wakes up after a three year coma just in time to ruin aaron's marriage. future canon. oneshot. 16k.)

you used to dream about fires by sophwrites/@elshopper

(sometimes you’ve got to lose people, so that they can find their way back to you. or: robert and aaron were having the best second wedding day ever, until they weren’t. canon divergent. oneshot. 7k.)

i signed it with love from me to you by sugdensrobert/@sugdenssrobert

(he had found it by accident, didn’t even know it existed. or, robert finds a piece of paper with some very special words on it. canon. oneshot. 2k.)

not for anything by dinglehorton/@thompsonconnors

(robert's not sure what he's done wrong this time in her eyes, but he's willing to bet that she's jumped to conclusions and has already begun to blame him for this whole mess. he's distracted though by the pressing need to go back to the lake and retrieve the ring so aaron has something to wake up to. so he goes, despite her pleading for him to stay with those damn eyes that look so similar to her brother's when he's upset. canon. oneshot. 3k.)

three hundred and ffity-plus by dreamember/@robertsugdn

(it’s probably why he feels so on edge as the date approaches. he’s just waiting for the other shoe to drop, for him to lose robert just like he lost jackson and ed. canon. oneshot. 6k.)

do not disturb by anythingbutplatonic/@robertssvgden

(it’s a very slow day at the office. aaron and robert find an unorthodox way of keeping themselves occupied. canon. oneshot. 1k.)

sweet dreams (are made of this) by kayceecruz/@kayceecruz​

(after a tragic accident, robert’s left in a coma. while his loved ones fight to keep him alive, robert sinks into a world of dreams. when he wakes up, he is confused about what life is real and all he wants is to have his husband by his side. canon divergent. oneshot. 24k.)

you can be found by thepackwantsthed

(instead of getting married to chrissie, robert runs away with aaron. they come back to emmerdale eight years later, with each other and a family of their own. canon divergent. oneshot. 5k.)

all over again by miss_romance_lover/@golaulau

(after an accident, aaron suffers short term memory loss. he knows robert, but he doesn't remember the happy life they've been building together. is love really enough to overcome the uncontrollable? canon divergent. oneshot. 4k.)

use our eyes, throw our hands overboard by lesfemmesdangereuse/@lesbiennesdangereuses

(it was a saturday night, liv on baby duty and aaron and robert were going to a house party. canon. oneshot. 4k.)

this heart had its beating, this heart has its bruises by storiesthatmakeus

(when aaron joins robert on a business trip to london, he learns more about his husband’s past away from emmerdale and falls even deeper in love with him as a result. canon divergent. oneshot. 7k.)

tooth and nail by craystiel

(robert fights for his place in aaron’s life, as mistrust and miscommunication dares to tear them apart. canon divergent. oneshot. 5k.)

misconceptions by itswheremydemonshide10

(five times the dingles expected the worst of robert – and the one time none of them did. canon divergent. oneshot. 5k.)

#this took ALL DAY!!!!! #i am so so sorry if i missed anyone! #robron #fic rec

[diabolikmosquito]

Just-Watched Thoughts on S3

Alright time to write this while I’m still here recovering so I can go to bed already. I might add more/clean this up once I get some proper sleep. Tagging it but putting Castlevania Season 3 spoilers under a cut just in case people haven’t got tags hidden and such. Here goes-

Overall I’m honestly just kinda shocked? I think it’s because a lot of things were easy to predict (that the cult might be trying to bring back Dracula, something was up with the Judge, Hector was obviously gonna fall for Lenore’s bs, etc.) so when things happened I didn’t see from a mile away.. 

When I was only like an episode or two in, things actually felt a little stunted to me? Something about it felt like “This is what people liked from before, right??” particularly with certain action or such, but I feel like it picked up pretty quickly from that. I’m still kinda in winding-down-emotions mode so I can’t really definitively say what storylines I liked and which ones I disliked for the most part. I liked Isaac’s, and the design of the... Hivemind Magician? Was all pretty sick. It felt like the first thing that was actually a massive challenge for him, and nearly overtook him, but he overcame it and even came out of it thinking through what he wanted for the future. It’s a nice change from seeing him steamroll anything that came his way. 

I like that Trevor and Sypha’s storyline ends up with them not getting their heroic grand time like they did last time. Yes, there were sacrifices made, but before it still felt grandiose: they’d worked together to kill Dracula, something the world didn’t even think possible for the most part. This time, they sacrificed a lot more and ultimately didn’t win a thing other than their own lives, and were helping a hidden monster in their process of killing other monsters. What a crushing thing for them to have to go through, and I think Trevor’s conversation with himself before (and later with said monster, ironically enough) about missing parts of his old non-heroic non-adventuring life was pretty somber and interesting. 

The whole Lenore/Hector route was exactly what’s expected from the beginning, but it was done well for what it was, and I don’t think they were trying to fool anyone with the direction it was headed. Carmilla’s plot was.. eh, more or less not much seemed to actually happen, but it did introduce us to the awesome vampire sisters so I’m more than down with it. I wish we got a little more about Saint Germain’s whole deal with that portal and such, who he was looking for and how he knows they’re still alive in there, but I assume that’s a next-season kind of thing. I’m gonna ramble if I write anymore so here’s a more concise/clear list:

Things I liked -  Trevor and Sypha’s chemistry! I thought it was good the first couple seasons (which apparently puts me in the minority?) but they felt much more compatible as a couple this time around. The little exchange about the “taste for rougher things in life” is wonderful, and I definitely snorted when she sleep-bapped him in the face. - The tidbits of funny dialogue! Seems to still be a show specialty. Some of them were understandably a bit funny (using “Nope! speedwalks away” in place of “shut it” is pretty good), and others weren’t funny but I just found it hilarious (e.g. Morana’s repeated fancily-stated things that boiled down to “... Lenore, seriously, TMI”) - The soundtrack! Not really any surprise, despite it not being the famous Symphony of the Night tracks people clamored for trust me I totally get that and despite it still not being released even from season 2 much less 3,  it was very nice to listen to.  - The vampire sisters! While it was obvious from the beginning Lenore was the “cutest/nonthreateningest-looking of the scary bunch but actually the scariest” one I liked the energy they all had, especially Striga and Morana and their relationship. I liked that we got to see Carmilla’s attitude bouncing off of other vampires who (while respecting her skill) also called her out for it from time to time. - The references! I’m sure there’s more and I’m a dumbass who only spots the obvious ones, but... the fact there’s demons that’re exactly ones out of the ol’ Symphony of the Night game again, like the Malachi and Fire Demon. It’s so dumb but I love shit like that, especially since they obviously stray far from the game canon and don’t have to do that but do it anyway. - Some of the action scenes. I cannot mention what I like without mentioning the parts that made me go “... Okay, yeah, that was badass.” You know the ones! When Cho busted that sword with her hands, when Sypha chopped that angel-like demon into pieces. ... A lot of the stuff Sypha did, actually, I’m glad she got some more epic moments to kick ass this season. I thought the earlier action scenes of the season were just alright, but by the last fight it was definitely starting to feel like that awesome dynamic fight style we saw in season 2. - The fact Dracula saw an opportunity to return and didn’t want to. Not much to say here other than the obvious - I feel like that’s extremely fitting, and I’m glad they made it clear without bringing him back and having him be angry/regret it or something like that. Without any dialogue, even. - The ending.. somewhat. It destroyed me a little on the inside, but I actually like that nobody really had a happy ending. Particularly if there could be another season, it feels really fitting. I’ve seen some people complaining “They ended up where they started! Trevor and Sypha are back on the road, Isaac’s traveling with his army, Alucard’s alone in the castle and Hector is a slave” but I couldn’t disagree more. Of course if you boil it down to the words themselves, it’s “the same,” but did ya see the sheer trauma literally everyone was put through? Obviously some had it worse than others (and we’ll fucking get to that) but nobody came out unscathed. Everyone’s now had some belief challenged or retreated further into a fear/mistrust that already existed - previous events planted the seed for it and the hell the cast went through gave it growth. 

Trevor and Sypha are going to have to challenge their goal they’d been following since working together/getting together: they can’t just go headlong adventuring and fixing people’s problems, because things like this can happen. Their new allies and the entire town were slaughtered or trapped somewhere, and the man they’d trusted and been helping this entire time was a serial killer, particularly of children. Alucard is drifting into a state of consciousness not unlike his father before he met Lisa, but potentially in a worse place since he’s witnessed and felt true kindness, but has retreated away from it even so due to the betrayal he’s suffered at an already-fragile time for him. Isaac has to reconsider what he’s going to do once he has his proper army, and even if it’s worth it to get his revenge or to carry out Dracula’s original plans. Saint Germain.. I mean, he’s in psychodelic hell searching for that person and presumably a way out, I assume it’s tragic. Hector’s learned a hard lesson in trusting and is going to have to figure out if his freedom is worth risking pain or death. Likewise I think the characters grow this way. Even if it was a happy ending, or an ending where everyone “wins” some small victory somehow, I think it’d ultimately have been worthless if nobody was fundamentally changed by the end of the season.

Things I didn’t like - The sex scenes. I’ve seen a lot of people like “If you’re gonna put in gratuitous sex then actually include Trevor and Sypha??” and I’m gonna have to disagree with that. While I love the ship and all, I’d like to give the benefit of the doubt and say sex scenes weren’t thrown around randomly or just to flex the rating - they were only tied to actual story, hence why I’m down with the bedroom stuff of the show’s main ship only being alluded to. However, I gotta say that the long broken-up sex scenes mixed with battle/action was not the way to do that. I think I know what they were going for (it definitely drove my anxiety up having those scenes back to back with intense action/violence, I can tell ya that!), but it just wasn’t a good idea. Yes, they were obviously made to be uncomfortable (particularly since I’m pretty sure one of them was dubious consent at best?) but that was reflected well just in a few key frames/actions - it didn’t need to be drawn out and mixed with the action. It made me want to skip through (I didn’t out of fear I’d miss battles, which isn’t really good design) and I’d like to bet parts of the finale are unwatchable for some. For the record, yes you could say “well they got into an adult-rated show, deal with it,” but the fact of the matter is up until now sexual violence/discomfort wasn’t heavy-handed and in-your-face like this. Non-sexual violence was definitely all over the whole series, but it’s still a bit like whiplash considering. Also, the fact people think the scene with Alucard was at all chill. I see it from a story standpoint (though I honestly think their motivations were weak and there’s other ways to betray someone/get their guard down), but I think the people going on about “power bottom” and this and that are forgetting that the absence of a no is not a yes, particularly with someone severely emotionally damaged after spending months alone not only without a support group but without any contact, immediately following the death of his father by his own hands. I’m no expert but I don’t think that’s someone in the proper state of mind to consent to anything sexual, even if there were a couple weeks or whatever of spending time with these new friends. He very well might’ve been on the way to a stress disorder before they turned his world upside-down and frankly I’m wondering how he’s going to be faring come the next season (assuming there is one.) That’s more of a fandom gripe than the show itself I suppose but it’s worth a mention. - The pacing. It’s hard to pinpoint it, but something about it felt off, especially in the first half. The best way I can describe it is when you pump the gas and brakes because your brakes aren’t working great and you’re loosening them up - maybe it was necessary to get things going, but it’s a bit destabilizing/odd for anyone in the car. I think it’s what contributed to that stunted sense I got until things picked up a little more. You can see it more in just how packed with stuff the latter half is, some things which could’ve been planned a bit better through the whole season. - Sumi and Taka. I honestly felt that they wanted to get in a way to have a punch-in-the-gut arc with Alucard (not a bad idea, I am one for tragedy), wanted to kill off some characters who were actually important, and decided to do these both with one stone. I don’t think they were successful on the second part, because these two absolutely contributed to the stunted feeling I had about some of the season. They had a good start in terms of backstory, and the idea of two people working together to fight vampires without having some big legend tied to their name to drive it (e.g. Speaker magicians, Belmont legacy, Alucard’s heritage), as well as a connection to/fleshing out of one of the nameless generals, sounded like a great concept. A great concept, but it was rushed I felt, to the point that their motivations for turning on him were so packed and squished in they just weren’t believable if we’re supposed to believe these two were sane. They had some sort of mental/trust issues due to their backstory - that’s fine, and could contribute some emotional problems. However if their distrust in Alucard had been given more time to fester and grow, more little comments of Alucard’s brushing off their attempts to learn about specific things, and more cues from him that could be misinterpreted by them as him causing trouble and lying (not just them not believing him by itself), it would be more believable that the past and misinterpretations of the present get into their head and poison their thoughts of him. You can plant a seed of doubt but just like any other character bonds, it has to be given time to grow. Alucard’s rapid bonding with them could be attributed to his loneliness, trauma, and need for a support system, but you can’t make that excuse for Sumi and Taka’s motivations going from “Hm.. I wonder what he isn’t telling us” to “We need to emotionally gut him and then kill him” basically overnight. Edit:

I forgot to add a conclusion last night, so I guess the TL;DR is season 3’s a good 7.5/10 for me, -1 for the overall pacing, -1 for missing a bit of the punch from before, and -0.5 because the last few episodes jumped me with a bat and I let it happen.

#i'm probably gonna regret this tomorrow but here are my just-got-gutted-by-that-season thoughts #castlevania #season 3 spoilers #castlevania season 3 #ooc #tw dubcon #tw violence

[intertwined-fates]

07/26/2018 HELP 

Hello, fellow followers and other valued individuals who may be reading this. I dislike stooping to ask for help, but I'm currently at a loss. I'll be real with you and try to keep it brief. About a year ago, as you see in this instagram post I hit an extremely low point. I was losing everything. My family had broken apart. I lost my step-father, the one man who finally gave me a father after being abandoned by my biological one very young... and no, he didn't pass away.

The person I trusted with everything, my secrets, my fears, my hopes, and dreams... cheated on my mother after ten years and had been actively cheating on her for several months prior to when my mother found out. My best friend of nine years and our other mutuals abandoned me. They couldn't deal with my disorders anymore (psychotic depression, generalized anxiety disorder). My boyfriend at the time had been supportive as possible, but I knew deep in my heart that my depression was consuming me. I didn't like who I became when depressed... how could I put him through that side of me? I couldn't imagine a life without my family together. It shattered me and the only joy I had left was my daycare job. Even that was hard to hold onto, considering I worked a second job where employees, including myself, were sexually harassed.

August 6th, 2017 my mother and three younger siblings packed up to leave. A friend of my mother's and their family was allowing us to live with them while my mother worked her ass off earning money so we could move out and get away from what toxic environment our home had become. I stayed home and told them I'd make the drive later on my own. I didn't bother making up any excuses and they didn't push me to follow. Part of me was waiting for my stepdad to come back because I knew he would be showing up eventually... well, I was hiding in my room, waiting for him when I heard the door open. I heard him open the front door, then go into his bedroom and leave again. I wanted to call out and beg him to fix what he had done. I wanted him to confess all the wrongful doings he had done by cheating on my mother who loved him so unconditionally. I also wanted to scream at him for ruining what family I finally had in my heart. But, I didn't do any of that. I went out there and he offered to talk. I told him I didn't have anything to say. He left and I assumed he wouldn't come back. I wish he would have stayed and acknowledged the pain in my eyes.

That's when I lost myself. I realized I was home alone, I had alcohol, energy drinks, and my three prescriptions in the kitchen. I went into the bathroom and brought all of that, a hello kitty blanket, notebook, pen, and shut the door. I sat down and started to take the pills, counting as I swallowed them. I took twenty-five antidepressants including 25mg lamictal, 150mg wellbutrin, and 150mg of sertraline. I don't remember how many I took of each, but those were the dosages for each individual pill. As I took the pills, I tried to create a goodbye on the paper. I couldn't focus and my hands were so shaky. I tried to write how sorry I was and how I loved everyone. I ended up getting frustrated and scribbled all over the page. That's when it really set in. I was fucked. I was going to do severe damage to my kidneys or actually die if I stayed there. My mom and siblings were out of town by then. My stepdad was god knows where. I was alone and I was going to die. I didn't want to call an ambulance. I would be alone with strangers, then. So I walked outside, sat on the porch steps and started calling my stepdad. He didn't pick up. I tried over and over and he didn't pick up. I texted him what you see below. He almost hadn't come... which still scares me to think about what would have happened if he hadn't come.

I walked up to the car when he pulled up and got inside. I sat there and stared at the seat with my blanket wrapped around me. I then mumbled for him to take me to the hospital. Through the corner of my eye, I could see he was confused and I felt like he was angry at me... he asked me why and I told him what I had done. He said my name. I felt hopeless. He took me to the hospital and they made me change into a gown while a lady with glasses watched. They took my belongings and the lady laid me down on the bed. She started asking me why I did what I did and what I had done while my stepdad sat in a chair and watched them hook me up to different machines. Everything was so fuzzy to me. I felt like I was in between being alive and dead. My mother was called and she sped over an hour of distance to be by my side. She sat next to my stepdad and maybe this is twisted... but part of me hoped my failed attempt would bring them back together. At least, if I couldn't die... maybe my stepdad would realize how terrible of a decision he had made and would fix his mistake... but that didn't happen. He stayed in the room while they made me drink activated charcoal. Never fucking again... let me tell you. I've never tasted something so foul. Eventually, it made me throw up. The doctors told me I needed to throw up several times before they could do tests on me. Once I had thrown up many times, I fell asleep on and off in that room. When I woke up again, I was told I'd be going in a different hospital room. They moved me and explained I would stay overnight to be monitored. A guy was assigned to monitor me. I felt so uneasy. I couldn't sleep with him constantly staring at me. I  wanted to disappear and every time I tried to pretend he wasn't there my heart rate would rise which only attracted more attention. I was stuck... and at one point, my stepdad and mom weren't in the room. I overheard that they were arguing in the parking lot... my mom came back into the room and confirmed that my stepdad had left to go talk to his girlfriend (who he had cheated on my mom with). My mom was fighting for him to get back in the room... she knew how much it meant to me for him to be there and he ... just... abandoned me for some whore. No different than what my biological father had done to my sister and me as kids.

I am twenty now. A year has nearly passed since that day. I am doing better than I ever imagined I would be. I teach toddlers at a local daycare. I have my first in-person lesbian relationship with someone who really clicks with me. My mom has a new boyfriend who treats her like a literal queen. He even took in my dog since I'm not able to pay the pet fee in our trailer. I am happy with my job and my new girlfriend. My biggest concern is money. While I love my job, I am not paid the best. I drive a 2002 Volkswagen Jetta that I have spent well over 1,000 dollars in repairs since March of 2017. I really need to save for a new vehicle and due to my suicide attempt, am trying to pay off hospital bills. I currently owe $1,571.83. It was over 2,000 dollars but I have been paying when I can to pay it off. I also have to pay for college. I cannot sign up for classes until I pay a 278 dollar fee because I dropped Summer classes due to stress. I could really use the help. On top of that, I pay for other bills and my car is unreliable...

Anything helps and if you are unable to donate and managed to read this far... please take this experience of mine as a reminder. Your life is never worth taking. You should embrace your life. No matter how gloomy things look now, you never know when you'll get a positive plot twist. You ARE capable of living a great life. I believe in every single one of you. My inbox here is always open as well or you may dm me at come_aliv3 on instagram. <3

Link to Paypal.me: paypal.me/SydneySutton

#support #donation #donate #suicide #suicideawareness #medical #signal boost #help #love #depression #paypal #bills #hospital #thank you so much

[clockworkopera]

Ty, Livvy and Ultima Thule...

Ty, Livvy, ‘Ultima Thule’ and the Wicked Powers:

Ok, so I’ve got multiple theories here: I’m going to try to braid them together into a cohesive piece. They interconnect in some ways and overlap in others. These ideas are my own interpretations and extrapolations. I have done previous posts individually, so those that may have missed stuff from earlier, I have added links throughout.

1-Dreamland Poem, by Edgar Allan Poe—Titles of all the Chapters

2- Whatever Ty does that allows the Wicked Powers to happen

3- (Bronze) Riders of Mannan: Bronze to Summon the Wicked Powers

Dreamland

First, Ultima Thule means: a distant place located beyond the borders of the known world. Cassie used the reference of Thule twice in the book. The first was in Porthollow church when the demon called himself “I am Sabnock of Thule” (So beyond the borders of this world into a demon realm), and the second for the inscription of the clock at the ending (and the reference of heaven, another place beyond this world).

The chapter titles of LoS are all lines from the poem Dreamland by Edgar Allan Poe (Full poem here: http://apoemaday.tumblr.com/post/103571634145/dream-land).  The last stanza of the poem:

By a route obscure and lonely,                                                                      Where an Eidolon, name NIGHT,                                                                       On a black throne reigns upright,                                                                            I have wandered home buy newly                                                                   From this ultimate dim Thule.

I admit I was surprised the poem didn’t seem to have a significant role to the story in the same way Annabel Lee had for Lady Midnight. I have a hard time with understanding poetry (and English is my first language—I know there are a lot of international folk out there), but the website Shmoop did an excellent line by line analysis. https://www.shmoop.com/dream-land-poe/summary.html

The story of the poem goes that there is a human traveler that ventures beyond the ultima thule (maybe in his dreams). The place he visits is described visually much like Faerie, a place “out of SPACE—out of TIME”, that is “haunted by ill angels only, Where an Eidolon, named Night, On a black throne reigns upright”. On his journey through this land he sees a range of beings from ghouls to ghosts of the traveler’s past: “White—robed forms of friends long given, In agony, to Earth—and Heaven.” Schmoop translates this line: “The speaker recognizes these ghosts! They appear in the shape of dead friends, people who have been buried…and gone to heaven”. But the traveler cannot stay indefinitely, and like a dream his stay is only temporary—even if this place makes the speaker thinks the place is ‘peaceful and soothing’—“Maybe that’s because the world is so bad that he’d go anywhere to escape it, or maybe it’s because he gets to see his dead love ones.”

This reminds me of Ty.

What does Ty do?

I keep thinking back to the scene between Ragnor and James at the Academy, after James turned into a Shadow in Nothing But Shadows:

“I waited for you to ask me for help,” Ragnor told him. “I thought perhaps you might make a warlock.”

“I never wanted to be anything but a Shadowhunter,” James said helplessly.

Ragnor said, sounding disgusted as usual: “You Shadowhunters never do.”

Does this mean that James could have chosen to leave the Clave to become a Warlock? It’s sounds like a definite possibility. Since Ty is a descendent of Lucie’s, could he then have a latent warlock ability as well?

We don’t know how all the genetics work in Nephilim, and since Tessa was the only one of her kind to be born, it is all uncharted territory as to how her demon ancestry will affect or present in her descendants (there is Thule again—beyond the borders of known genetics). It could be a hidden gene is carried, and if you subscribe to the idea of epigenetics it will only get ‘activated’ under certain stressful conditions. I have a theory that stress is what triggers warlock abilities from these examples: Tessa’s was triggered by her imprisonment with the Dark Sisters, James by nearly dying, and Magnus when his step-father tried to kill him. I can’t even imagine the ‘stress’ to Ty, caused by Livvy’s death.

If the poem has deeper meaning and significance, then I think it is about Ty. His thinking pattern is different from whatever everybody else considers ‘normal’. Maybe with his unusual way of thinking, his first instinct is to go after to where Livvy is—rather than thinking like all the rest of us do, with theories of necromancy and bringing her back from the dead. This may not even be a conscious thought in his mind, more of an unconscious automatic response as his heart tries to follow her. They were going to be parabatai: “Entreat me not to leave thee, Or return from following after thee—for whither thou goest, I will go”. Ty takes the meaning of things very literally—and I would think only more so with it being such an important oath.

Riders of Mannan: Bronze to Summon the Wicked Powers

https://clockworkopera.tumblr.com/post/163610362312/mythologies-of-mannan-and-the-faerie-weapon and https://clockworkopera.tumblr.com/post/162715976952/and-bronze-to-summon-wicked-power

Manannan mac Lir is a Sea God in Celtic Mythology. His name is shortened in Manx Gaelic to Mannan.

When the Rider Fal was killed, Gwyn asked the other Riders: “A Rider has passed into the Shadow Lands,” said Gwyn. “Would you like me to sound the horn for him?”

Mannan is the guardian of the Otherworld, who ferries souls to the afterlife (Shadow Lands?). He is the Celtic equivalent of Hades. He is also a Necromancer (I would think he would have more use for the Black Volume than the Unseelie King). And the Seven Riders call him their ‘father’. The Riders of Mannan are described multiple times as bronze: cloaked in glimmering bronze, bronze riders, bronze hair, masks, horses, shortsword, skin, irises, armor. Almost every physical description includes bronze.

And then there is the Nephilim children’s rhyme: “And Bronze to Summon the Wicked Powers”

And how well do angel’s weapons work on the Riders? Kit couldn’t help but notice that the angel blades didn’t seem to be cutting through the Riders’ armor, or even slicing their skin as he’d managed to do with his shortsword. There was puzzlement on Ty’s face, rage on Livvy’s as she stabbed at Eochaid’s heart with her seraph blade. The weapon snapped off at the hilt, the force of the rebound sending her staggering back almost into the river. (I won’t even make parallels to the Mortal Sword because that isn’t what this post is about)

Could this ancient pagan SEA god play into the water symbolism of the books, especially Emma’s fear of the ocean and her nightmares, or even the big HINT of the book covers? Could a path to the Shadowlands be forged through the sea, in the same way souls have to cross the River Styx in Greek Mythology?

Picture 1): This was found on Cassie’s Pinterest page, titled THULE. 2) Basis for Cover of LoS 3) Cover for LM 4) Cassie’s Pinterest: Titled: EMMA

Uniting Theory: Ty uses his newly awakened warlock power, not even understanding what he is doing to build some sort of bridge to the Shadow Lands. The problem is bridges run two ways, so if he does find a path through, that means that whatever is on the other side can get back into this world too. Wicked Powers.

 And then Cassie has this teaser for Queen of Air and Darkness:

Fear prickled up and down Emma’s arms like goosebumps. Since she was twelve, she had been terrified of the ocean: she had always believed her parents had died in it, dragged below the surface by Raziel knew what, choked to death on bitter seawater. The surge and crash of waves, the imagined black velvet of the ocean’s depths, had filled her nightmares.

Even when she found out her parents had been murdered on dry land by Malcolm Fade, their bodies thrown into the sea after death, the fear remained. She reached for it now, welcomed it in. She could feel it filling the empty spaces, the hollows left by grief.

She glanced back down at the sea. The surging whirlpool below, the waves slamming like dark blue walls against sheer needles of stone, looking like a painting of a maelstrom, a photograph of a hellscape taken from a safe distance.

The wind screamed in Emma’s ears like a warning. Another wave hurled itself against the cliffs, sending up an explosion of spray. Emma smiled grimly into the wind and salt, and jumped.

Am I the only one who wondered WHY?? This is Emma’s greatest fear—what would could possibly be so important she would voluntarily jump into the ocean? Maybe going after Ty…

#ultima thule #tiberius blackthorn #the wicked powers #the dark artifices #livvy blackthorn #mythologies #theories #TDA #original post

[jikook-love]

tagged by @bangtanseonyeontrash​ tanks for keeping me entertained gurled :’)

THE LAST…

-drink: orange juice :3

-phone call: MY DAD. MY ONE AND ONLY OTO-SAN <3 

-Text message: my loser sister

-Song you listened to: Love Battery by Hong Jin Young (still. IT JUST CAME ON BY CHANCE OKAI but it’s goo--oop, now it’s Decalcomanie by Mamamoo dere you go)

-time you cried: idk like a week ago? out of sadness that is. i cried this morning when my sister was playing League of Legends. 

Have you ever…..

-dated someone twice: nah man. once the wind blows away it won’t return (Boys Over Flowers quote that frankly, never made sense to me)

-kissed someone and regretted it: nope. i ain’t an easy woman

-been cheated on: technically that one time on LINE chat in high school I was diqing role playing around with this guy. i’m pretty sure i knew he had a waifu but chose to ignore it. but then i became friends with her and then three of us just got together to FIGHT and I’d accuse him of being a cheater and shiet so uhhh...no i guess not (just reminded me of it LOL) 

-lost someone special: you’re lucky if you haven’t my friend 

-been depressed: it is but a coping mechanism for me at this point :) 

-gotten drunk and thrown up: i don’t drink :D 

Three favorite colors…..

Blue, black & white 

In the last year have you…..

-made new friends: mm hmm ^^

-laughed until you cried: OOOH YES. it’s the best feeling. until i get a stomachache and make one too many weird noises

-found out that someone was talking about you: ...maybe? idk. i feel like i have but idgaf cause they’re so irrelevant my brain doesn’t even care to remember them anyway LUL 

-met someone who changed you: of course ^^ good and bad people alike ofc :) 

-found out who your friends are: hmm...i guess so? 

-kissed someone on your Facebook friends list: i deleted facebook so this question becomes dubious ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 

-Do you have any pets?: nope. 

-Do you want to change your name?: i did. until i realized how blessed it was to have a short name :)

-What did you do for your last birthday?:  i had a joint b-day with my mom (that sounds so weird). but she invited her friends and i invited mine and i aggressively forced them to eat all the foods and sing karaoke :’)

-What time did you wake up?: can we not talk about this i feel so attacked rn (it was 9:30 a.m. and then somehow it became 11:30 a.m.)

-What what you were you doing at midnight last night?: reading sketchy manga. probably. 

-Name something you can’t wait for: my fuqing lab results to FINALLY SHOW

-When was the last time you saw your mom?: last month :’( but it’s funny cause she’s coming back from her vacation tonight and we’re coming to pick her up ^^

-What are you listening to right now?: Troublemaker by Troublemaker (BUT WHEN WILL CERTAIN PPL COVER THIS SONG SO I CAN LIVE jkjk that’s asking too much...or is it?)

-Have you ever talked to someone named Tom?: probably. 

-Something that gets on your nerves?: when people don’t give credit where credit is due ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  

-Most visited website: NCBI. jk i’m not that cool. tumblr, probably OTL

-Hair color: black. like my soul

-Long or short hair: it’s getting longer again. and i indeed to keep it that way ;)

-Do you have a crush on someone?: even if i wanted to there’s just trash all around ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

-What do you like about yourself?: atm? that i washed my bedsheets and blanket on sunday and now they still feel really good and fluffy and i can’t even get out of them <3 best thing i ever did for me 

-Blood type: unknown. probably O though.

-Nickname: Hoe 

-Relationship status: Still irrelevant. 

-Zodiac: CANCER. like the embodiment of my tumblr 

-Pronouns: She/Her

-Favorite T.V shows: i only watch anime gdi White Collar, Sherlock (ish), Friends

-Tattoos: nooone. 

-Right or Left handed: meta. 

-Surgery: nope.

-Sport: i used to play badminton and wanna pick it up again but other than that I don’t move :D 

-Vacation: what about vacation...? Recentest one was with my sister to Montreal in the summer and it was the littest thing I’d ever done in my life :’D

-Pair of shoes: Sneakers. pretty much always.

-Eating: stress lul

-Drinking: watterrrrrr

-I’m about to: go back to work :’)

-Waiting for?: my life to be sorted out. soon hopefully :)

-Want?: to have a plan for next year upon graduating :’)

-Get married?: when you find a person who can tolerate my sense of humour and my hobbies and has a mild neglect kink let me know

-Career?: Probably gonna go to grad school cause I actually really enjoy doing research, and we’ll see who I end up preaching from there ^^

Which is better?

-Hugs or kisses?: lul. neither. idfk how to hug (or kiss) people. WHAT IS SKINSHIP.

-Lips or eyes?: EYEZ. 

-Shorter or taller?: Tall. 

-Older or younger?: Older. oppa plz. 

-Nice arms or stomach?: ...? idk?

-Hook up or relationship?: relationSHIP SHIP SHIP

-Troublemaker or hesitant?: Balance plz. i cannot handle an extremity of either 

-Kissed a stranger?: nope

-Drink hard liquor?: nah

-Lost glasses/contact lenses?: no

-Turned someone down?: we don’t talk anymore ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

-Sex on the first date?: nada

-Broken someone’s heart?: doubt it. i probably unintentionally broke some other thing instead. 

-Had a broken heart?: not really. 

-Been arrested?: almost. but not quite. 

-Cried when someone died?: ya. 

-Fallen for a friend?: yes 

Do you belive in…..

-Yourself?: moreso recently, so I guess so

-Miracles?: LOL YES. I got to where I am based on miracles pretty sure

-Love at first sight?: not yet? unless you count animals then that’s different 

-Santa Claus?: rn no but holy shiet when i’m around children no one tell me to calm down 

-Kiss on the first date?: nah. i like making people wait when i can ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

phew that was long! i’ll  tag @yildiz-blackthorne, @kaliheartsjikook and anyone else who read this until the end ^^

#tag #tag game

[luccie-eclair]

JNPR HC's PT. 2 (Read tags)

Got bored, did another one. Not as deep & "character revealing" as the last. Mostly just fun or weird quirks I thought of. But here's more random stuff I came up with.

•Jaune was sick of everyone stealing his hoodie, so he somehow convinced his team to eat a shit ton of Pumpkin Pete's cereal so he could get them all hoodies

They still steal his hoodie

•On a mission, Jaune called out the move "Nora's Arc" & she was super confused bc she never once read a religious book & wasn't invested in any religion enough to really think about doing it

•When Pyrrha met Ren, she thought he was a selective mute & tried using sign language. He chuckled & introduced himself w/ his voice

She was very embarrassed

He did find it interesting & asked her to teach him VSL (Vale Sign Language)

•Nora cannot come in contact w/ water for at least 7 hours after activating her semblance

•W/o looking, Nora knows when Ren has activated his semblance 

It's said that you can feel the color & some of your energy draining from you, though

•Camp Camp is a thing in this universe

Nora loves Nikki

Pyrrha finds an interest in Neil

Jaune, ironically, doesn't enjoy David as much as Gwen

Ren says he likes Erid, but he's a sucker for Max

•They have earned the title "Team Double Date" and "Team Relationship Goals"

•Pyrrha & stress don't mix, esp w/ her semblance 

Jaune has been thrown more times than he can count

Nora has had a soda can or two launched at her head

Ren has had his own frying pan turn against him

She has actually used it to get CRDL off of Velvet's back, though

•Pyrrha & Nora are ambidextrous. Ren is, too, but prefers his left hand, Jaune is one of those right handed normies (JK. I'm a right handed normie, too)

•Semi-phobias (???) Let's call it a dislike

Nora can't do tight spaces for too long

After being w/ his bestie for so long, Ren doesn't really enjoy absolute silence despite occassionally wishing for it

I've said that Pyrrha doesn't like supernatural shit

Jaune... he's gotten over a lot of fears since being at Beacon, but then IT came out... boi

•Ren learned some photography stuff from Velvet

•The signal for privacy (if you know what I mean 😉) is Jaune's sock

•They are no longer allowed at the zoo bc of Nora's extravagant plan to steal a sloth

The thing is that it actually worked & she kept said sloth for about 3 days until Ren made her return it to its family

She was caught putting Carl back

She named the sloth Carl in case you got lost

They tried to pull a RWBY & keep a kitten named Kimba

But Goodwitch is allergic to cats & reacted the second she came in for dorm inspection

They had to clean the cafeteria for 3 weeks

•Jaune likes to show his team some cartoons he grew up w/ on team bonding nights

•Jaune has DC action figures & comic books that Ren and Pyrrha have joked about burning bc of their love for Marvel

Nora stopped that real quick

•However, they all agree that the old Teen Titans was lit & the new one is trash (I got too personal. I'm sorry)

•Music

Jaune likes rock & showtunes

Nora likes anything that isn't slow (esp Mpop -think Kpop-)

Pyrrha likes indie/alt rock

Ren is into some Mpop & some R&B, he hasn't really chosen a genre for him yet (he's a great rapper, though)

If you play country around any of them, you will get knocked tf out

•Remember that naughty jar I mentioned? At the end of each month (it fills up fast), the team decides what to do with it. 

Sometimes pay for the damage from an extreme plan

Sometimes a night out

Sometimes charity

•Nora picks their Hallows Eve costumes every year & plans early (Like, at the start of the new year)

This year, they are going as Kim Possible (Pyrrha), Ron (Jaune), "Hego" (Ren), and "Drakkene" (Nora)

•If you mess w/ anyone on this team, be prepared to have your life ruined

If they get RWBY, SSSN, or CVFY in on it, just drop out of school and go live on a deserted island. Your family will understand 

•They like to rearrange their dorm into a huge fort using bed frames, mattresses, pillows, and blankets 

•They have found Zwei in their room 157 times since he's come to Beacon 

•They have matching Dustmas sweaters from Jaune's mom (they are not ugly)

•Jaune's 6 year old sister had a crush on Ren

Jaune was quick to tell Ren that he didn't have his blessing

They all went w/ Pyrrha to one of her promotions for support

The metal equipment bending at random moments made it obvious that she'd rather not be there

•Ren, Jaune, & Nora have tried to teach Pyrrha how to dance... I'll just leave it there

•Ren & Nora are currently learning Love Whisper by Gfriend

•Ren is often awoken at o'dark thirty in the morning because Jaune and Nora are having existential crisises about everyday objects

•Nora will occasionally sleep w/ Pyrrha

•She often joins Ruby & Penny when they do crafts and diy type stuff

When the three of them get together, the final product ends up being... "slightly" different from the picture

•Ren once woke up to use the bathroom and witnessed Jaune and Pyrrha doing the do across the room

He installed a decorative curtain the next day

Yang & Sun find it hilarious

•During group projects, everyone tries to do everything, but that's too much so they split the work:

Ren does research

Pyrrha works out how to write it down

Nora does the creative part

Jaune works on memorizing and presenting 

•Pyrrha snores like a grown ass man, jfc 

•It doesn't take long for Ren to find a position and pass out. He rarely moves

•Nora is restless. She often moves around & kicks whomever she sleeps with

•Jaune curls in on himself into a tight ball. It's weird as hell 

•Ren, Nora, and Pyrrha have worked hard to hide, throw away, and burn Jaune's onesie

They fail every time

•Ren makes manbuns look really hot(that's less an HC, and more a fact)

•Pyrrha may or may not be pagan despite her mother being monotheistic (I haven't fully accepted it as an HC yet, but I wanted to include it anyway)

•Ozpin briefed the first years w/i the first week saying that the second letter in the team name was second in command

Nora denounced her role as second in command in favor of Pyrrha

Glynda was really confused (and almost happy) when Pyrrha came in her office instead of Nora

•Nora works at an ice cream shop in Vale bc orphans on a full ride don't tend to have a lot of lien unless they're Bryce Wayne & his apprentice Rick Grayson

•The only team that has gotten detention and cleaning detail more than JNPR is RWBY 

But they're really tied for first place

•Pyrrha was supposed to have a younger sibling

•Once they're married to one another w/ kids, they tend to base part of their lives on the other family

Making sure there's enough space in the new house for the godkids

Living relatively close

A trillion sleepovers

Family vacays & Dustmas cards

Celebrating holidays together

•They become in-laws through their daughters Ming (Renora) and Louise (Arkos)

#you reached your limit #rwby #jnpr #team jnpr #jaune arc #pyrrha nikos #nora valkyrie #lie ren #renora #arkos #team sloth #jnpr headcanons #headcanons #why did the last one get so much traction? #i was legit talking out of my ass #who tf put a block limit on text posts???? #fix your life tumblr #i had a whole part about their retirement af signal #you fucked me! #now no one will ever know #talk about bs cliffhanger #i was gonna add something from dream daddy #but nooooo #you've reached your limit my ass

[legendarynightmaresandwich]

My 17 Books of 2017

I swear to Glob, I’m gonna have to make this a monthly thing bc my dumb ass didn’t write down what I read every month so I sat for 30 mins straight thinking “what did I read this year?????” Then I kept confusing this year with 2016, relived the fact that I didn’t read a single book this Summer bc I had a stupid boyfriend instead, and that I won’t have any pictures of the books bc most of them were from the library and I’m lazy. 

2017. While I was still in school I exclusively read stuff for class and not pleasure. I still enjoyed the books I read, so I included them. After graduation, like I said, I acquired a dumb boyfriend, so instead of reading I wasted my life with him for three months. (Pro-Tip: Reading is always more satisfying than boys.) Moving back home, and working at a library, I read 11 books, a graphic novel, and almost half of a graphic novel series. (I’ll explain.)  It feels so good to read again! 

So the total for the year is 17. Not bad at all! So, here we go. 

Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neal Hurston 

Hooooo boy it was so good to read this book again. This book was first presented to me in high school, by a teacher I didn’t like, who treated everything we read like it was stupid. I guess that was her sense of humor. What I remember from high school is that everyone hated this book and especially hated the main character, Janie. The consensus was that Janie makes horrible decisions, relies on men too much, and is irresponsible. Talk about an anti-feminist reading. Reading the book again, being older and slightly wiser, I’ve realized that the book outlines the ways that society makes it almost impossible for a character like Janie (a woman of color, uneducated, and poor) to thrive. Her life is about survival, despite her missteps and trials she survives. My one problem with the book is that I wish Hurston explored Janie’s inner thoughts more. Other than that, this book is beautiful. 

Quote: “There is a basin in the mind where words float around on thought and thought on sound and sight. Then there is a depth of thought untouched by words, and deeper still a gulf of formless feelings untouched by thought.”

I love this quote bc instead of seeing Janie as a lost cause we should view her as untapped potential, she is so much deeper than the surface layer that I was unfortunately taught in high school. 

Native Son by Richard Wright

Here’s another book that was good to revisit in a sense. I didn’t read this in high school, but my sister’s grade and the grade before me did. And everyone hated it. Reading it in college, I am so glad that I didn’t read it in high school. Generations younger than me might be ready to read this book in high school, but my generation was not. (I am so glad that it seems like younger generations are more informed about inequality, feminism, etc.) For my grade and the kids older than me I think it was impossible for white kids, in a white high school, with white teachers, to fully understand this book. It is so EASY to read this book and view Bigger as a murderer. (It is important that he doesn’t kill on accident either. He smothers a woman, chops her up, and incinerates her.) And he is a murderer, but not exclusively. He is oppressed every way he turns, by his employers, the police, the media, his friends, his family, etc. And Bigger responds to the world’s anticipations. This book is fascinating to me in that Wright wanted to create an “Anti-Uncle Tom” character. Bigger is a bad person, and a criminal. But he also represents the inevitability of an oppressive society to fail its citizens and create monsters. 

Quote: “Men can starve from a lack of self-realization as much as they can from a lack of bread.”

Go Down, Moses by William Faulkner 

This book was HARD. Faulkner is impossible, especially when you have other classes to focus on. I survived by reading a Cliffs Notes synopsis of each chapter before and after reading it. But this book was worth the read. It’s a brief, but deep look into the practices of the antebellum South. I really liked the format of this book being a series of short stories. (But in Faulkner fashion he never tells the reader who is speaking and what time period we’re in.) 

Quote: “But you cant be alive forever, and you always wear out life long before you have exhausted the possibilities of living. And all that must be somewhere; all that could not have been invented and created just to be thrown away. And the earth is shallow; there is not a great deal of it before you come to the rock. And the earth don’t want to just keep things, hoard them; it wants to use them again.”

Counterlife by Philip Roth 

This book is extremely interesting. It’s broken into five parts and each part is an alternate version of the same awkward story. Henry has a serious heart condition. BUT the medicine that is keeping him alive makes him impotent. The only other option is to undergo an extremely dangerous surgery. In one version he dies of the surgery, in one he survives and moves to Israel, then in another his brother Nathan is impotent instead of him. The whole book is framed by Nathan who is an author. It shows how fiction can be unreliable, how authors twist the truth. We never know the “true” story. This is a structurally brilliant book, even though I’m not a huge fan of the characters. Their problems are worthy of eye-rolls. 

Quote: “And as he spoke, I was thinking, 'the kind of stories that people turn life into, the kind of lives people turn stories into.”

Attachments by Rainbow Rowell 

I read this book bc I read Fangirl and really enjoyed it. This book was just as cute and fun to read if you can get over the creepiness of the plot. Lincoln’s job is to read company emails to make sure everyone is following email policy. Emails get flagged for swearing, other code words, and anything that doesn’t seem like work to the computer system. Two women that work at the company chit-chat through email all day, not following the email rules. Lincoln reads their emails and falls in love with one of them. Like Sleepless in Seattle, the two don’t meet until the end. Again, if you can get over the lack of privacy in the plot, this book is enjoyable. I love Lincoln as a character. He’s a big, tall, lumber-jack type man who is really sweet. I also enjoyed how the book portrays working the night-shift. It’s a world I don’t think most people really know about. Lincoln is lonely and in a rut and these two hilarious women are the only bright spot in his life. 

This book is cute, and it was a good break from reading heavy stuff for class. 

The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

I have always wanted to read this book. The cover is beautiful. (That shouldn’t matter...but it does.) It seems like the general consensus of this book is that it is life changing. This book will inspire you! This book will make you take the initiative to follow your dream! Snake oil. Maybe I’m cynical, but I HATED this book. It’s preachy, it’s chock full of cliches, and worst of all I cannot get over how sexist this book is. The boy character is allowed to have a dream and pursue it. But the girl’s dream is to STAY BEHIND AND WAIT FOR HIM TO COME HOME????? That’s her dream!?!? That sucks!!!!!!! That’s unacceptable to me. Every nice thought or potential mantra to be gleaned from this book is completely overshadowed by the mistreatment of the female characters. LAME. 

It by Stephen King

I read this book bc I wanted something really long to read at jury duty. This book is so long, but I honestly loved every second of it. I was borderline obsessed for two weeks of my life. I completely fell in love with the characters, my precious babies. I was always weirdly fascinated by the mini-series when I was little. I really liked getting to know the kids and then the adults. I was surprised that the book is not split half in half, but the adult scenes are mixed in with the childhood memories. I really enjoyed this book that my first reaction to seeing the new It movie was to be MAD at what they changed. That hasn’t happened in a while. (Harry Potter anyone?) I thought the tumblr love for Pennywise was funny to a certain extent, he’s pretty hilarious in the movie. But in the book...real life nightmares were had. Nothing in particular gave me a nightmare, just the overall vibe and tone of the book stressed me out and kept me awake. This book really transported me. When I was reading it, for better or for worse,  I was in the town of Derry. 

Quote: “Maybe there aren't any such things as good friends or bad friends - maybe there are just friends, people who stand by you when you're hurt and who help you feel not so lonely. Maybe they're always worth being scared for, and hoping for, and living for. Maybe worth dying for too, if that's what has to be. No good friends. No bad friends. Only people you want, need to be with; people who build their houses in your heart.”

Fair Play by Tove Jansson 

I love this book. Tove Jansson is the creator of Moomin and I only recently found out that she wrote a few books too. Fair Play was the only one my library had so I checked it out. And it was amazing. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

The more I learn about Tove, the more obviously autobiographical her books seem. This book is a series of short stories about two women who live together and learn to work around and with each other in every way. Mari is sensitive where Jonna is gruff. They are both stubborn about different things and have a beautiful symbiotic relationship. In some reviews I’ve read of this book people go out of their way to make sure it’s known that Mari and Jonna’s “sisterhood” is strictly “platonic.” I roll my eyes, bc CLEARLY they are not. They are life partners and have a deep love for each other that goes beyond just being roommates. Plus, it’s pretty obvious that Mari, a writer, is Tove Jansson, and Jonna, an artist, is her life partner and graphic designer Tuulikki Pietila. 

But back to the book. It is an absolutely beautiful series of short stories. I wouldn’t even call them stories. They are more like little snippets of daily life. They are full of subtle emotion and are written in such a straight forward but artistic way. Simple prose carries deep meaning in this book. 

Quote:  “It is simply this: do not tire, never lose interest, never grow indifferent—lose your invaluable curiosity and you let yourself die. It's as simple as that.”

The Artist of Disappearance by Anita Desai

I originally read this book for a class (Landscape Architecture of India) and to be honest I skimmed through it and wrote a bullshit book report. When I saw it in the library I wanted to try it again. This book is just three short stories I can’t believe I didn’t find time to read it before. I didn’t really like the third story, about man living in the mountains, but the first two are great. The first is about a man trying to figure out how to insure a dusty mansion full of treasures. The second is about a woman translating a work of fiction, on the brink of madness as she becomes more of a creator than strictly a translator. These two are among the best short stories I’ve read. The writing is so beautiful. 

Quote: “Everything in the house turned damp; the blue fur of mildew crept furtively over any object left standing for the briefest length of time: shoes, bags, boxes, it consumed them all. The sheets on the bed were clammy when he got between them at night, and the darkness rang with the strident cacophony of the big tree crickets that had been waiting for this, their season.”

Murder in Mesopotamia by Agatha Christie 

I’ve been meaning to read some Agatha Christie for some time now. I read And Then There Were None in high school and absolutely hated it. I was interested in this one bc I know Christie went on many archaeological digs. So I thought this book would contain interesting historical elements about archaeology in the Middle East and ancient Mesopotamian culture. Not at all. Lapis lazuli is mentioned once, cylinder seals are briefly mentioned, everything else mentioned are just “tablet fragments” and “vases.” I was disappointed. I was also really disappointed by how BORING this book is. The mystery is slightly compelling, but nothing exciting really happens. This is a Poirot mystery, another reason I picked it, but he doesn’t show up until halfway through the book! The book is narrated by a nurse. She’s tough and straightforward. I really liked her at first, but throughout the book she is straight up racist. The Middle East is a “primitive” land to her. The natives speak in a “funny, sing-song” language. She is suspicious of the native men around the dig being thieves. She’s even prejudiced against Poirot, showing much disdain toward his accent. 

At least Poirot is nice. And he solves the stupid mystery. How does a woman drink a WHOLE GLASS of acid without noticing??? This book was dumb. I don’t think I’ll read Christie again. In this instance my high school self was right. 

Norse Mythology by Neil Gaiman

I was really excited to read this book, Neil Gaiman has yet to disappoint me. I love the way this book was written. I especially loved how in the introduction Gaiman outlines all the female Norse gods whose stories have unfortunately not survived. (Makes me want to write some Norse mythology fanfiction. Nerd alert.) I love these characters, the stories are so interesting. A very good read. 

Quote: “The Norse myths are the myths of a chilly place, with long, long winter nights and endless summer days, myths of a people who did not entirely trust or even like their gods, although they respected and feared them.”

Me Before You by Jojo Moyes

Jumped on the bandwagon with this one. This was a really popular book at the library so I checked it out. It’s cute. (Bridget Jones is better.) The book promised to make me cry, but I didn’t. I really liked the main character, Lou. She’s funny and just trying to figure out her life which I related to. A quick read, VERY predictable.

After You by Jojo Moyes

I liked the Louisa character from Me Before You, so I thought I would read the sequel. It was disappointing. Everything fun and admirable about Lou is lost. The story-line where Will’s conveniently long-lost teenage daughter shows up is stupid. The love interest is boring. Really, a terrible sequel. I’m sure there’s better fan fiction out there. 

The Whispering Muse by Sjon

This book is plain weird and not my favorite. Luckily, it’s short. I like the mythological/folkloric aspects of the story. My main issue is that the main character is so unlikable. He’s pompous, annoying, and rude. Not endearing in any way. The ending is very strange. 

Autumn by Karl Ove Knaussgard

I LOVED this one. The author is writing letters to his unborn daughter. They’re not really letters though, more like small essays on completely random topics: frogs, sunset, plastic bags, embarrassment. The author has a fascinating way of thinking, and the connection to his daughter made the book sweeter. This will be the first of three, I think a book will be published for each trimester? Not sure. But I can’t wait to read the rest. 

The Fables Series by Bill Cunningham 

Fables starts out great. Fairy Tale characters in NYC, trying to survive. The premise was intriguing and the first few volumes are awesome. It was everything I wanted Once Upon A Time to be. Where OUAT is over-dramatic and embarrassing, Fables is gritty and clever. It started falling apart for me about halfway through the series.I wound up only liking a few characters that the series kept straying away from. Sitting and reading a whole, long-winded story about Little Boy Blue, when Snow White and the Big Bad Wolf are so much more interesting, got tedious. To be honest, I just skimmed through the later issues. 

Origin by Dan Brown

Dan Brown’s worst book, in my opinion. I’ll have to read some of his others again to make sure this theory pans out, but the writing in this one is so condescending. It was really annoying. It’s as if Dan Brown thinks his audience is stupid. Instead of saying “Beethoven was playing on the radio” he’ll write “18th century composer, known for works such as this and that, emitted from the iHome music player that was invented in 2005.” Every little detail has some shitty explanation. He explains what Uber is, what William Blake’s most famous poem is, "Nicolaus Copernicus … the father of the heliocentric model — the belief that the planets revolve around the sun — which ignited a scientific revolution in the 1500s"; "Friedrich Nietzsche, the renowned 19th-century German philosopher and atheist"; and "Winston Churchill himself, the celebrated British statesman who, in addition to being a military hero, historian, orator, and Nobel Prize-winning author, was an artist of remarkable talent." WE KNOW. Or you could google it! 

Honestly, the writing made this book hard to read and not be insulted by. I did like the story. It’s interesting, very contrived but it’s Dan Brown. Contrived is his middle name. This book read like a shit mystery with sentences from wikipedia copied and pasted in. 

Quote: "'Robert,' Ambra whispered, 'just remember the wise words of Disney's Princess Elsa.' Langdon turned. 'I'm sorry?' Ambra smiled softly. 'Let it go.'" (The "it" in question is Langdon's cellphone.)

I can’t believe I had to read that with my own eyes. 

Annihilation by Jeff VanderMeer

My last read of 2017. I was intrigued by the movie trailer and the cover of the book is beautiful. This book will stick with me for a while. One review describes it perfectly. 

“It’s been a long time since a book filled me with this kind of palpable, wondrous, disquiet, a feeling that started on the first page and that I’m not sure I’ve yet shaken.” -Matt Bell

This book is beautifully disturbing. And the ending is perfect! It’s a trilogy, but I don’t know if I even want to read the other two yet. I think I have to let this one marinate for a while. 

A stunning read, a great way to end the year. 

Quote:  “I am walking forever on the path from the border to base camp. It is taking a long time, and I know it will take even longer to get back. There is no one with me. I am all by myself. The trees are not trees the birds are not birds and I am not me but just something that has been walking for a very long time…”

And there you have it! My year in books. Here’s to next year!   

#2017 #happy new year #tove jansson #native son #their eyes were watching god #annihilation #dan brown #origin #books

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The Moments When You’re (Not) Alone

@kathycats @vld3exchange

Ao3 

Did someone ask for Lance hurt/comfort???

Fic under the cut

1.

Lance finds Pidge by accident.

He’s trying, strangely enough, to find Keith’s room, which is still an odd and foreign thought. Everything changes when he hears the sniffling outside of Pidge’s room.

There’s an awful voice in the back of his head that tells him to walk away, that he has his own demons to deal with and that Pidge can handle her’s on her own.

There’s a horrible pause as he decides what to do, but there’s a louder sob and suddenly Lance is knocking frantically.

“Hey, Pidge,” Lance says, trying to feign nonchalance, “I need some, uh, math done?”

There’s a pause before the door opens just a crack.

“Can’t you ask Hunk?” Pidge croaks out, voice thick with tears.

“Nope, Hunk’s busy. It’s up to you.”

Pidge laughs, a small sound that sends a rush of happiness through Lance. She pulls the door open. “Come in, try not to stink up the place,” she says, attempting and failing miserably to keep a straight face.

As Lance walks in he realizes that he has no idea what to do next. Honestly, he hadn’t expected to get this far.

Pidge raises an eyebrow at him, trying to quickly swipe a tear away. “So, where’s the math?”

Shit. Quick, gotta improvise.

“Must’ve left it outside. Oh well.”

Pidge stares at him, the moment growing, before busting into laughter.

“Lance, you’re my friend, and I appreciate you, but you’re a terrible liar.” Pidge says.

Lance puts a hand to his heart in fake shock. “Me? A terrible liar? I’ll have you know that I’m a fantastic liar! I could be lying about that, and you’d never know!”

Pidge snorts, fighting to keep a smile off her face and failing miserably. “Why are you actually here?”

Lance shrugs. “Just wanted to check on you. See how things are hanging.”

Pidge’s face darkens for a second. “You could hear me, couldn’t?”

Lance just nods, and Pidge sighs, flopping back onto her bed. Lance cautiously approaches her and sits beside her. There’s a moment of silence.

“I’m so much closer to finding Matt,” Pidge begins, voice uncharacteristically quiet, “but I just-I don’t know. Anything could be out there. He could be...He could be gone, and I-” Pidge cuts off her sentence to try to breathe, and Lance can’t help but intervene.

“We’re gonna find him.” Lance firmly says, pulling Pidge closer. She leans into him.

“B-but what if I d-don’t?” Pidge sniffles out. Lance thinks on this for a minute.

“How about,” he starts, “we deal with that bridge if we get there. If he’s anything like you, he’s still fighting. He’s still out there.”

Pidge broke away from their hug, eyes shining brightly. “You really think so?”

Lance smiles. “Know so.”

2.

“Hey, Hunk, you doing okay?” Lance asks, watching his friend glide through the kitchen and wash dishes. He had volunteered to help clean up after dinner, but that just meant watching Hunk do the work and licking the spoons.

Hunk, who, despite the fact that dinner was over, was staring on baking something new.

“Yeah, I’m fine, I’m doing great-why wouldn’t I be?” Hunk rambles on, and Hunk is an incredible engineer and an absolute genius but that man cannot bluff to save his life.

“You’re stress cooking, my dude. Something tells me we’ve got enough food goo to last a deca-phoeb.” Lance mentions, as friendly as he can.

Hunk stops and takes a step back to join Lance. He puts a hand on his forehead. “I didn’t even realize I was doing that. Should I be worried about that?”

Lance smiles softly at his best friend. “Nah, man, I think you just need to take a break. What’s stressing you?”

Hunk frowns. “Not sure. Maybe it’s the fact that Keith’s the leader now? Or maybe it’s the new villain so soon after we stopped the last one. Or what if Yellow doesn’t like me anymore. Or-”

“Hunk,” Lance places his hands inches from his friend’s shoulders. Hunk sees this, and nods, so Lance holds him by his shoulders. “It’s gonna be okay, man. Just take a deep breathe.”

“Right,” Hunk wheezes. “Breathing, I’m good at breathing, I breathe all the time-”

“Hunk,” Lance commands, “follow my count. In, two, three, four, out, two, three, four, in…”

They sit there for a while, breathing.

“Thanks,” Hunk says when he’s started to relax. The two boys sit on the floor, Lance criss-cross apple sauce and Hunk with his knees tucked up to his chest. “There’s been a lot going on right now.”

“I’m always here for you, Hunk,” Lance says, squeezing his friend’s knee. “I’m here whenever you need me.”

3.

Of all the people to be hanging around the lions at this ungodly varga, Lance wasn’t expected to run into Allura.

She sat where he was heading-near the red lion. She looked exhausted, and Lance is reminded that she’s so young. It’s easy to forget, because of her demeanor, and her position, that Allura was still barely an adult. They were all so young, far too young for all the shit they went through.

Allura’s head snaps up as she hears his arrival.

“Oh, Lance,” she starts, her voice artificially peppy. “Can I help you with anything?”

“Nah, I’m just here to think,” Lance admits as he sits down next to her on the ground.

“I am, too,” Allura admits softly, and Lance just nods. They sit in silence for a minute.

“D’you wanna talk about it?” Lance asks, and Allura tenses for a moment before nodding.

“I’m just…” Allura starts, rapping her arms tighter around her knees, “I’m not sure what my father would think of me now.”

Lance frowns. “He’d be super proud of you, Princess. We all are. You’re doing a great job with Blue.”

Allura sighs. “I suppose. I just can’t shake the feeling.”

Lance doesn’t know anymore jokes to defuse the situation, so he decides to go for plan two: honesty.

“It’s gonna be hard,” he admits, “to get past the feeling something’s off. But if it weren’t meant to be, it wouldn’t be happening.”

Allura smiles at him, cocking her head slightly to the side. “I’m impressed, Lance, that was beautiful.”

And now, now is the perfect time for that charming, oh so clever Lance McClain humor.

“I mean, it’s not the only beautiful thing in the room-there’s also me.”

Allura covers her hands to her mouth and snorts, honestly snorts, and Lance feels honored to be sitting with her and seeing this side of her.

“Thank you,” Allura says, “for cheering me up.”

Lance smiles. “Anytime, Princess.”

4.

“Lance, can I talk to you for a minute?” Shiro asks, and Lance can’t help but feel his heart stop. Shit, what did he do this time?

“Yeah, of course,” he weakly responds, returning to where Shiro was standing. “Wassup?”

“I just want to say thank you. For taking care of Keith.”

Lance blinks rapidly, trying to understand. “Whatcha mean?”

Shiro frowns. “I know that I haven’t been-look, I haven’t been around for him. And thank you for taking care of him while I was gone.”

Lance couldn’t believe what he was hearing. “Shiro, you’re acting like it was your fault you got captured.”

And Shiro, he just looks at the floor, refusing to look at Lance, refusing to refute the claim.

“Shiro,” Lance starts, voice barely held together, “you know this wasn’t your fault, right?”

“I should go,” Shiro says as he tries to leave, but Lance reaches out for him.

“Hey, wait-”

As soon as Lance puts his hand on Shiro’s shoulder he knows that something is wrong.

Shiro stiffens, breath halting. Lance can barely blink before he’s being thrown over Shiro’s shoulder and onto the ground.

There’s a moment of shock before Shiro’s horrified face appears above him.

“I’m sorry,” Shiro pants, eyes wide, voice frail. “I don’t-I didn’t mean to-”

“Are you okay?” Lance pushes himself into sitting position.

Shiro barks out a humourless laugh. “I should be asking you that.”

Lance shrugs. “I got a bunch of sisters, I’m used to it.” Shiro quirks an eyebrow.

“I’m fine,” Shiro says. It’s a thin lie that they both see through. Shiro sighs. “I’ll be fine,” he tries. It’s closer to the truth, but even he doesn’t believe it.

“Do you want to talk about it,” Lance tries.

Shiro shakes his head. “I don’t want to burden you.”

Lance laughs. Shiro turns to him, confused. “Dude, you’re like my idol,” Lance explains. “You’re never bothering me. So if ya wanna spill, it beats training.”

Shiro, chuckling slightly, sits down next to Lance. “Ok,” he relents.”

5.

Keith Kogane is a lot of things. He’s a fighter, a rebel, a dropout, a hero, and a thief. He’s, for all intents and purposes, the current leader of Voltron.

And, currently, Keith Kogane is sick as a dog. Only he won’t admit it.

Lance sighs as he approaches Keith’s room, bowl of soup in hand. Hunk had asked him to deliver the meal, and surprisingly enough the rest of the team agreed, It was odd, the relationship between Keith and Lance-it was in the middle of some sort of transformation from enemies to something just slightly more powerful than friendship. Who knew where it could go after that.

Lance stops as he reaches Keith’s room, hesitant to continue. What if he was mad? Or what if he was happy to see him, what then?

Lance starts to retreat when the door is flung over and there stands Keith.

The man looks horrible, bags under his dark and wistful eyes. He’s too pale, with sweat glistening across his forehead. His eyes are covered by a film of haze, a fever no doubt.

“What do you want?” Keith asks. Even his voice is rough.

“Hey, man,” Lance starts cautiously. “You feeling hungry, dude?”

Keith narrows his eyes. “I’m fine.”

Lance rolls his eyes. “Look, Keith, just take the soup.”

Keith bites his lip before speaking, voice soft and embarrassed. “Can you bring it in? My hands are shaking pretty badly.”

Lance blinks. When he finally speaks, his voice matches Keith’s in compassion and pitch. “Yeah, of course.”

Lance walks into Keith’s room-it’s messy, clothes and blankets strewn all over.

“I think I might be sick,” Keith says, and Lance can’t help but snort.

“No shit, Sherlock,” Lance replies. Keith frowns, and Lance backtracks. “Sorry, I just-you need to get some rest man. It’ll get better if you take it easy.”

Keith looks panicked. “We have things to do. We have to search for Lotor, and we need to figure out what the Galra were doing with Shiro, and Pidge needs help finding her brother-”

“Hey,” Lance says, placing a hand out to slow Keith. “Let me work on that stuff. Hunk and Pidge can work on looking for Pidge’s brother, Allura and Coran will scan for Lotor’s ship, and I’ll talk to Shiro. By the time all of that’s done you should be feeling better and we’ll be able to get right back into it.”

Keith stands there, frozen, for a moment. And then he nods, a smile cracking through his stony facade. “Thanks, Lance.”

Lance can’t help but return the grin. “No problem, Keith.”

+1

Homesickness is a bitch.

Lance, sitting buried under his blankets, can’t help but think back to his time at the Garrison and how difficult that was. The schedule was strict, and phones were confiscated for most of the day to make sure that the students were on their best behavior, but Lance still found a way to call his house every night, and someone would always answer, no matter how late it was.

Lance wants to call home so badly right now.

Oh sure, he’s tried, but there’s something about being in another galaxy that makes cell service impossible.

And besides, what would he even say? “Hey, it’s Lance, I’m alive but I might die any day in the fight to dismantle a dictatorship, also I pilot a giant furry mecha,” wouldn’t work. There was nothing he could do to fix the situation. He had a responsibility to the team.

That didn’t stop it from hurting.

If he could just call his house, have one of his sisters pick up. Lily would listen intently as he described his teammates, always the one for people and for gossip.

Carmen would tease him about Keith and help him understand what the boy meant by certain things he said.

Lizzy would praise him, remind him that he’s doing a great job and that he’s doing difficult and important work.

And his Momma? She would listen to him about the situation would Blue, would comfort him, would remind him that he’s important, would tell some story of the time he was three and crawled out of his crib to get some cookies, reminding him how strong and resilient and just plain incredible he’s always been.

But there was no way to contact his family.

There’s a knock on the door, and Hunk speaks on the other end of it. “Hey, Lance? You ok in there?”

Lance frowns. Maybe he can just pretend that he’s not in here.

Another voice speaks up-Pidge. “We know you’re in there, Lance.”

Well, shit. “‘M napping,” Lance tries to force out. He shudders at the sound of his voice-it’s weak, high, and it wavers as he tries to lie. It tells on him, informs them that he’s crying.

“Lance, can you let us in,” Shiro says. He’s there, too? There’s dread in Lance’s stomach as he lumbers over to the door and opens it.

Pidge, Hunk, Allura, Shiro, and Keith are all there waiting for him, sympathy on their faces.

“Hey guys, wassup-” Lance is interrupted by a sob, and all facade is dropped. He huddles closer to the edge of the door, leaning against anything, as he tries to regain his breath.

Hunk moves forward, eyes alert with worry. “Hug?” Lance nods, and he’s pulled into Hunk, who, per usual, gives the best hugs. Hunk rubs Lance’s back, soft circles that make Lance feel safer.

“It’s been a couple of vargas since anyone has seen you, and we were just making sure you were alright,” Allura explains, moving forward. “We’re here for you, Lance.”

Lance tries to say something clever, something that gets them all to go away, but all that comes out is a sob.

Pidge moves forward. “Do you wanna talk about it?”

Lance, not trusting words, just nods.

The group looks at each other. Shiro speaks up. “I think all of us would be too much. Who would you like to talk to, Lance?”

Before Lance can respond Keith speaks up.

“I’ll do,” Keith says. The others look at him, than Lance, than back and forth before Lance nods and opens the door to let Keith in. The others rub wave at Lance or pat him on the shoulder as they turn to leave.

As soon as Lance walks into the room he’s wracked with another bout of sobs. Keith panics, eyes wide and unsure, before reaching out and pulling Lance closer to him.

“I m-miss home,” Lance squeaks out, and Keith nods.

“I’m sorry,” he says.

“I w-wanna c-call, I wanna call my f-family,” Lance chokes out, and Keith breaks their hug to look him in the eye.

“Can you breathe with me,” Keith asks, and Lance nods. Keith takes Lance through a series of meditation-like instructions, and twenty minutes later Lance has stopped shaking. He looks exhausted.

“Sorry about that,” Lance mutters, and Keith shakes his head.

“No need to apologize. It happens to all of us.”

Lance frowns. “Yeah, but I’m the person everyone goes to when this happens.”

Keith blinks. “Lance,” he starts, “you don’t have to always focus on the group. Someone very smart once told me that rest was important.”

Lance crinkles his nose. “Did I say that?”

Keith smiles. “Shiro did, but you repeated him later.”

Lance laughs, which turns into a yawn.

Keith frowns. “You should take a nap. You’re probably exhausted.”

Lance nods. “You’re right about that, buddy,” he says as he lies down on his bed, positioning the blankets to smother him.

He hears a smile in Keith’s voice. “Night, Lance.”

***

When Lance wakes up, he notices two things-one, it’s much later than when he went to bed, and two, his phone is sitting on his bedside table with a note on it.

“Pidge and Hunk are working on a prototype for you to call home. Give it a try.”

Heart racing, Lance picks up the phone. Tears are in his eyes, because no matter what happens next he knows that he has two families.

He dials the phone.

“Hello,” a voice on the other end replies.

Lance can’t hold back his tears. “Momma!”

#voltron #my writing #kathycats #i hope you like it!!!