#cat.exe speaks

[anthillkid]

I think the latest episode of WEP shows pretty well how easily mentally ill and people in toxic enviroments easily get indoctrinated into cults through fake kindness. Like a lot of media shows it like only stupid or already evil people join cults but no anyone can be manipulated into one. Especially people in pain

#cat.exe speaks #wonder egg priority #tw cult #tw cult mention

[codes-and-stuffs]

back of a cab is my favourite song from her it’s so good. all her music is also very gay which is a plus

!!! adding these

#i adore gay music #codes codes #cat.exe #speaking of gay artists have you heard of rio romeo

[anthillkid]

Microdosing on hating men by quoting Lady Dimitrescu

#cat.exe speaks #lady dimitrescu

[anthillkid]

Btw I think the girl Ai was saving was supposed to have some disorder on the psychotic spectrum and if so I like how they treated it. I like how Ai saved her by believing her. Like yes the delusions/hallucinations aren’t real but they’re real to the girl and it’s nice seeing an anime handling the topic well

#cat.exe speaks #wonder egg priority

[anthillkid]

I don’t know if the new episode actually implied Rika has gone through csa or if it was just an offhand remark Momoe did while stressed. That’s probs the first thing Momoe’s done I don’t like since that’s a really rude thing to say but honestly none of the girls are treating the possibility of csa in a good way. Which I get they’re young and stressed and have 0 idea what caused the suicide so sure Rika will just throw the idea of it out there and sure Neiru will just stress Ai out even more by the idea of her somehow being in love and sure Momoe will of course deny all the chances of her uncle not being a good person

#it's that time of the week where I talk about wonder egg again #cat.exe speaks #tw csa #wonder egg priority

[anthillkid]

Okay but listen. All of my problems would be solved if I got to smash a car with a baseball bat, had a gf, and also had a massive supply of free weed

#cat.exe speaks #ok to rb

[anthillkid]

Me: Everyone experiences hypersexuality differently and everyone’s experience with hypersexuality is valid! (:

My brain: Except for yours

Me: Except for mine (,:

#hypersexual #hypersexuality #vent #cat.exe speaks #ok to rb

[anthillkid]

Damn, I sure wish there was someone I could vent about my hypersexuality to without my venting being sexualized and without me feeling like I’m being seen as a sex object while venting

#cat.exe speaks #jk I would never vent to anyone about my hypersexuality #bc it makes me feel disgusting #and like I'm faking it all #and i'm not a victim #and it was all my fault #hypersexual #hypersexuality #wont even say anything about it to the school counselor #ever #ok to rb

[anthillkid]

I hope that all women and enbies with chubby tummies, thunder thighs, stretch marks, tummy rolls or chubby arms know that they're beautiful and that they give me a gay panic whenever they come on my dash

#cat.exe speaks #wlw #nblw #positivity

[anthillkid]

I hate my bitterness. I hate my jealousy. I hate the way my mouth fills with malice over other people’s happiness. I hate how anger has built up inside me for so many years it leaves me with rage over nothing. I hate how I can’t hear my friends with good parents talk about their home life without my chest swelling with envy. 

#and i keep it all inside #because i despise those parts of me #i just want to be a gentle person #ok to rb #cat.exe speaks #traumacore

[anthillkid]

Ok ok ok i just left the party. I told her. I told my crush. The stars were out. It felt right. Like we both knew it was happening. She'd kind of realized i was into her already. She said we would be a really cute couple but sadly she didnt feel the same way. And its fine! As long as we stay friends im happy. Im not even sad rn. Maybe bc i drank a lot of alcohol but yknow. Im not sad. Im okay. It was my first crush that lasted this long and now i can move on. Im glad i got to feel this in love with her but im just as glad i can now move on and feel that same way for someone else C:

#cat.exe speaks

[anthillkid]

The positive news is that i found my hello kitty sjirt (: itd been missing for a few months

#cat.exe speaks

[anthillkid]

I swear to god if tumblr doesn’t take down Helloevilmyfriend soon I will personally go over and kill him with my bare hands

#cat.exe speaks #please report him

[anthillkid]

Reading about how the investigation towards getting T works and literally every sentence makes another part of my brain snap

#THEY want me to take loved ones there and talk about my transition with them while the psych is there???????????? #WHAT????? #why??? #like even if they let me chose to take friends there instead of parents I still dont wanna #if Im gonna discuss my transition with my friends I want that to be private not with a psych #whasdhfkjhdsjkh #ahhhhh #why #having to sit in a circle and eplxain my transness to a bunch of cis people and a probs cis authority figure sounds so nice /s #yes all my real life friends are cis #cat.exe speaks

[anthillkid]

Me: *Having a breakdown*

My entire body and brain all at once: We must inhale carbs. This will fix us

#cat.exe speaks #bread is my only savior