#cerise doesn't gamble with lives other than her own especially not *calista's* life and that's why she's Not priya 😌😔

[explorerspack]

8 hours....

#its SO long is the thing it's so fucking long #cerise didn't relax. at all. #hhhhh. 😔 #and like. there's fully NOTHING she could have done but. GOD #she doesn't have exhaustion cause she's strong as hell but mentally she does #cerise and fásach and auberon all not getting a long rest is something that can actually be so personal-- #(unless. y'know. someone dies cause I don't have my fucking spells) #the fact that this ended up being like. best case scenario #esme could have told cerise to do *anything* and she would have done it #she'd have given up information! she'd have hurt herself or let esme hurt her! she'd have healed esme! she would have just. done it! #like in that situation i *maybe* would have tried one of the riskier plans i came up with but. god. it's *calista* #cerise doesn't gamble with lives other than her own especially not *calista's* life and that's why she's Not priya 😌😔 #and it's like. of course the mage would have threatened to kill or hurt her friends if cerise didnt cooperate #this whole thing--reassuring calista; pressing her shoulder against elliot so he knows she's here; playing nice with someone evil to stall; #feeling your magic absolutely depleted...staying up all night because someone has to...it must have felt so fucking familiar #hhhhhHHHHHH she's so strong but like. fucking hell how hard can she handle getting pushed. #c:crop #cha:cerise #the theme of being powerless and/or having your power controlled and used against you that runs through her character. it's So upsetting. #and like *i* know she needs to go either to the wall or to the keep but all she wants to do is sit right here 😔 #edit: vibes anyway this is what's been in my drafts since yesterday #shout out to fásach for telling her she can rest 🥺 it Would be helpful to have me there even with just cantrips but god. #i can't see justifying her going Anywhere #also I feel like i should clarify that by 'this is why she's not priya' i meant specifically leadership style not the y'know Everything Else