One
The past two years, Iâve lived in a house where the landlady banned candles. She also put up a Christmas tree every year in the living room. I didnât really mind that the tree was there; it didnât mean anything to me. I didnât really think I minded not being able to light the menorah, either.
At the beginning of this month, I moved to a new place. I got a menorah and candles, and I lit the shamash and sang the prayers.
It felt like getting a piece of myself back.
Two
Iâm using âHanukkahâ in this blog post. I could just as easily use âChanukahâ instead; Iâd feel the same way about it.
Theyâre both wrong. Thatâs how I see it. Sometimes youâre just stuck with using the wrong word as a label so that you can communicate with people who canât understand you. It will always be spelled correctly â in Hebrew â in my heart.
Three
Last year I told myself that every time someone at work told me âMerry Christmasâ when it was Hanukkah, I would reply, âHappy Hanukkah!â I didnât end up doing it every time, but I got braver about it the further into the week I got.
There were never any outright negative reactions, thank G-d. Mostly people seemed confused. They would do a double take as they walked away from me, as though wondering if theyâd heard me correctly.
âMerry Christmas!â one woman said late in the week.
âThanks, Happy Hanukkah!â I said.
âThatâs right!â she said with a big grin and a little laugh. âAnd Kwanzaa!â
It was not Kwanzaa.
Happy 5th night of Hanukkah! Wishes for warmth and light for everyoneâs end-of-2020.
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Panel 1: âIâve always described myself as a devout agnostic because I feel more reverence in holding space for mystery than a solid opinion about deities.â (image of Kim surrounded by the cosmos with a big question mark).
Panel 2: âBut I like rituals, songs, and holidays, particularly when theyâre linked to the seasons and lunar cycles.â (image of Kim lighting candles on a menorah).
Panel 3: âThis year has been strange and next year is full of uncertainty, but I hope that you are able to kindle some light in the darkness in whatever ways are meaningful to you.â (image of Kim holding out a glowing heart).
Hope everyone enjoyed the first night last night, and that we all continue to make way for new traditions as we find creative ways to celebrate this year. Remembering 2019âs nightly office menorah lighting with MauryâŚÂ Chag Sameach!
Did you know I love you?
Cuz I do.
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