#childfree and proud

[crazycatsiren]

If you chose to have a child, then you signed up for:

A disabled child

A neurodivergent child

A queer child

A child who's an imperfect human being with humanity

You're no hero or martyr if you chose to be a parent. You're a parent with a child who needs you.

#parents #parenting #children deserve better #pro choice #childfree and proud #childhood trauma

[onesaltysir]

#Meme dump #antinatalism #childfree #childfree by choice #i hate kids #fuck them kids #i hate breeders #proud antinatalist

[notallsandmen]

Pretty much everyone around me rn: ”What made you decide to be childfree?”

*Vivid flashback to 5-year-old me getting a Pregnant Barbie with a revolving tummy, immediately vacating the fetus and filling up the stomach cavity with Skittles, and proceeding to use it like the most macabre handbag*

Me: ”Uhm, you know. The environment.”

#childfree #I’ve had to have the same conversation A LOT recently and I’m a little fed up with it #my first vent post #I’m so proud

[supernovasolace]

So my partner hasn't been to the doctor in a while, and we finally got around to finding him a PCP. He always attends my more complex appointments to help take notes, etc. and he asked me to come along to his appointment today. I always find it helpful to have extra support, so I was happy to return the favor.

Along with catching up on routine stuff, he asked for a referral for a vasectomy. You wouldn't think that this would be an out of the ordinary request coming from a man in their 30s, especially given the torrent of dire news lately on the state of reproductive rights.

The amount of attitude this doctor switched on at this point was wild. My partner was very firm that no, we do not have nor want kids, and no, he was not interested in reconsidering. We've discussed at length how the access barriers to vasectomy are so much lower for us than a hysterectomy, not to mention the increased healing time and risk of complications due to my hEDS. One partner going through major surgery vs. another having a 15 min outpatient procedure seems like a pretty clear and reasonable choice.

Even still, it took both of us insisting to get the doctor to put in the referral, which he then proceeded to sulk about on my partner's behalf, unprompted??? He even went so far as to point at me and say "Well it [the vasectomy] will be fun for HER..." I just looked at him and said, "I just told you I can't have kids. It's not medically safe for me to carry a pregnancy. I've had 3 IUDs inserted. That was plenty of "fun" already, and I've done my part. It isn't my turn anymore."

We finally got the referral, but fuck if it wasn't like pulling teeth. I shouldn't have to disclose my medical info at an appointment that isn't even for me in order to get a doctor to do their job. If even a straight (passing 🏳️‍🌈) white man in a blue state can still receive this much pushback and condescension when trying to exercise bodily autonomy, I'm deeply worried for the rest of us.

#rant #vent #wtf #heds #bodily autonomy #the straights are not okay #tired #medical bs is exhausting #when i make eye contact that's how you know you fucked up #childfree #spoonie #vasectomy #reproductive choice #reproductive rights #at least my partner is lovely #proud of him

[t4tails]

somebody: children should get to exist in public maybe

every proud childfree person in a 100ft radius:

#og post #like just straight up spitting conservative talking points and misogyny. awesome

[kirain]

Headcanon for the companions having children? 👀

This was fun! In true D&D fashion, I rolled a 🎲 to decide how many children each companion (besides Halsin and Astarion) should have. Luckily most of my rolls were low, because I think making five to six kids for everyone would've killed me. 😅

🎲 Gale couldn't wait to settle down and have a child. He has a daughter named Abigail, whom he worships and adores. He never pushes her towards greatness, though she achieves it through curiosity, hard work, and nautral talent. With her father's support, she becomes a wizard of both world renown and incredible kindness, never feeling burdened or unloved. She is truly the apple of her father's eye.

🎲🎲 Karlach never thought she'd live to be a mother, but life surprised her in the best way. Not only did she survive the perils of Avernus, but she also gave birth to twins, Terra and Reeze. They would become celebrated demon slayers, traveling the Sword Coast for fun and protecting innocents from evil.

🎲🎲 Lae'zel adopts Xan (Freedom), and has a biological daughter named Vika (Hope). Both children, raised to be cherished and free of Vlaakith's tyranny, become symbols of a promising githyanki future, as well as the source of their mother's joy.

Astarion, unable to conceive and unwilling to condemn a child to his vampiric way of life, remains childfree. He does, however, visit the Underdark as often as he can, during which time he ensures the spawn children are adjusting well to their new form. He also donates many stolen goods for the construction of their new city.

🎲🎲🎲 Wyll has three sons, Alder, Adam, and Cenric, all of whom inherit their father's best traits; honour, courage, and compassion. Despite his immense responsibilities, Wyll always makes time for them, encouraging them in all areas of their life. One becomes a politician, one a commander, and one a bard. He couldn't be more proud.

🎲 Shadowheart has a son, Linwyn, whom she showers with all the love and affection she lost to Shar's cruelty. She raises him firmly but fairly, except when he brings home an injured animal. Each time it happens, she just doesn't have the heart to turn it away. He becomes a devoted cleric of Selûne, as well as a successful animal physician.

Halsin never has children, at least not in the traditional sense. Once the Shadowlands heal, he opens a large orphanage, dedicating his time to the dozens of children who come and go over the years. They never forget him or the positive impact he had on their lives.

🎲🎲🎲🎲 Minthara has three daughters and a son, Nayrene, Enthira, Curien, and Cheza. They are acceptable. Smart, strong, independent; everything she expects them to be. Though she rarely admits it out loud, they make her very proud.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #astarion #lae'zel #wyll ravengard #shadowheart #karlach #halsin #minthara

[pastafossa]

Re: your dad accompanying you on doctor visits—we stan Papa Pasta in this house 🙌🏼

HE'S THE BEST! He's so big and scary and gruff looking, he has scared the shit out of people for decades, and yet he is also Aggressively Supportive Of His Girls.

Has gone repeatedly to the doctor with me since I got sick at 13, and stood up to every last doctor and teacher that treated me like shit. Standard accompanier on doctor's visits and ER trips

Went toe-to-toe with my Jr. High's principal when she decided to close the library directly after the final bell because us volunteer kids and the librarian were selling snacks to help fund book purchases, and the principal claimed the sold candy would 'encourage bad behavior' somehow. He got the library reopened after arguing with her for two hours that she was forcing kids out of a safe space where they could do homework and read when they had nowhere else to go

When I got sick, he retired (since mom made more) and became the stay-at-home parent, took charge of meals, doctors visits, homework, all of it

Literally argued with other parents when they insinuated he was 'babysitting' his own kids

The cook in the family, including holiday meals, he is very proud of his Christmas/Thanksgiving stuffing (in his defense it is REALLY good)

So supportive of me being childfree that when I got my tubes tied he helped my mom make a cake that said 'YOU SHALL NOT PASS' with a picture of sperm falling into a crack in the cake (a crack that was sliced by a massive Deadpool action figure).

Has joined the Free Dad Hugs squad at Pride

Would bike with me to the library when I was a kid so we could pick books together

Still games with me and sis despite being in his sixties (we're all playing BG3 at present)

Proudly shows off his cat mug to guests - it has a picture of Fig on it, and he tells people Fig is his Bro Cat

Has accidentally irritated other parents by teaching their babies to make funny GRR faces and go BA-BA-BA-BA-BA

Has a growing collection of LGBT+ positive shirts

Will drive my mom to the park and unpack the little electric scooter for her (she has bad knees and can't walk great) so that she can zoom around the park

Has been married to my mom for thirty plus years and still accidentally takes pictures that only show the top of her head with him cause she's like 5'3 and he's 6'2

#i talk about my mom a lot but Papa Pasta is also FUCKING AMAZING and i love him so much #he looks terrifying but he is the nicest person in the world

[mallory-x]

Thank you @bazzybelle for the tag! I love getting tagged in things even if I don’t always remember to reblog them

Were you named after anyone?

I have the same name as my mum’s cousin but she says I’m not named after her. Apparently my mum just picked a name that she liked that she didn’t know anyone else had used for their child, and managed to predict one of the most popular girl’s names that year. By the time I was in upper sixth there were 12 of us in sixth form with the same name.

Do you have kids?

No. I have complicated feelings over it but I’m at a place now where I’m happy with being childfree. I’m in my mid 40s so it’s unlikely to happen even if I wanted it to now.

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Me? Sarcastic? Never!

(I have to warn new people that I’m a sarcastic bitch and to let me know if I go too far and I can tone it down a bit)

What's the first thing you notice about people?

If they need help/support. I used to think it was annoying that people would always approach me to ask directions or something, but now I’ve realised they approach me because I’ve made eye contact first. Now I’m older and more confident I go up to them if they’re looking lost and ask if I can help.

What's your eye colour?

Hazel. Predominantly brown with a dark limbic ring, and green around the iris.

Scary movie or happy ending?

Happy ending. I don’t like horror films (except vampire and werewolf ones, which don’t count). I can cope with a sad ending if it’s the noble, self-sacrificing type of sad ending. (Yes, the irony of this when I’m in the Sandman fandom, I’m well aware!)

Any special talents?

Appearing confident and organised when I’m really just anxiety, ADHD and autism in a trenchcoat.

What are your hobbies?

What I say my hobbies are: knitting, crochet, embroidery, reading, steampunk

What I spend my time doing: scrolling discord, Instagram, and tumblr, and reading smut on AO3, all while procrastinating any of about 16 craft and writing projects

Have any pets?

I have three cats - Giles, Willow, and Cordy (Cordelia). We did have five cats earlier this year, but we lost Charlie to heart failure in April and Spike to a car accident about six weeks ago.

What sport do you play/have you played?

I recently started learning Historical European Martial Arts (HEMA) - specifically 15th century German longsword. Hob Gadling would be proud!

How tall are you?

I tell people I’m 5’9” (1.75m) but I’m probably closer to 5’8” these days

Favourite subject at school?

Maths. Pure maths in particular is so elegant, it’s like poetry.

Dream job?

What I’m working towards: nurse practitioner in the emergency department

What I daydream about: running a little secondhand bookshop/cafe with lots of little nooks with sofas and armchairs to curl up in, regular groups coming in for crafting sessions or board gaming or toddler groups, hanging coffees for homeless people - a place that people feel welcome and want to come and hang out in.

Tagging @janimoon, @acanthoscurria, @shadowpuppet-storyteller, @zigzag-wanderer, @temve, @starlightervarda, @tryan-a-bex, @ginjones, @gabessquishytum, @paprotkarotka. No pressure of course

#mallory’s musings #tumblr tag game #tag game

[octahyde]

ocxcanon cringe

It’s OC X Canon week on Twitter and idk if I’m gonna do it and if I do it’ll take months and none of it will be posted anyways but i thought I’d post and give a rundown of my ships hi

(picrew used)

I don’t have many but I’m putting them under a cut just because that’s easier

Yuzuki X Wren- Story of Seasons: Trio of Towns

The YuzuWren… my everything… I made them in 2020 because that was the year I started really getting into making OCs and finally played 3oT after being hesitant and skipping out when it came out due to how badly the concept of multiple villages was implemented last time. (Thank FUCK Marvelous learned from tott. Anyways) Especially because during the time of playing the file, I realized I had been repressing some horrific, horrific trauma of something that happened to me. They’re what got me through it and I ended up getting a solid 100 hours through their file!

Wren is a trans man. Along with his interest in farming, Daryl refused to accept him as a man. Gay Uncle Frank took him in not only to help get started with farming, but also to help him with transitioning. (As a side note I did not realize Wren starting to transition when he moved to his farm meant he was getting his hrt top and phallo from fucking Ford until months later and felt so FUCKING sorry for him.) (Another side note- Daryl refuses to accept Wren’s transness even after he becomes “proud” of his farm and hopes he’ll grow out of it, Marlena is happy to see how well her “daughter” is doing, and Lynn is genuinely really supportive but rarely gets to see him because of how she’s still young and lives with their parents.)

When Wren first visits Tsuyukusa, he starts helping out Omiyo and Umekichi whenever he had down time to make things a little easier for them. Obviously, this lead to occasionally checking in on Yuzuki as well. Wren got interested in Yuzuki’s jewelry early on and started trying to make more time to talk to him. From being sexually harassed from being so frail and feminine looking in his childhood, Yuzuki was very empathetic to Wren- he’s cis and he can’t possibly imagine how much harder they were for Wren having that his entire life. Finding out Yuzuki was also the unfavorite child to a significantly more horrific degree than Wren was likewise made Wren more sympathetic to him.

Anyways they get married and have gay sex and live an r/childfree life because I have having kids in these games LMAO can you tell they’re my darling yaoi

Mistel X Roland- Story of Seasons (3DS)

I started this file a while ago but recently got back to it!! And doubled the hours I had on it before in a week. Uh.

Roland was a born and raised city boy who always hated how busy the city was. He always loved growing his own vegetables on his apartment balcony and, eventually after doing research on agriculture, decided he’d do best on a farm. When a lot opened up in Oak Tree Town, home of his favorite writer, he couldn’t refuse and set out immediately. Indeed, it wasn’t long before Roland started visiting Iris regularly to talk about literature with her. Mistel, the autistic little freak he is, got curious about Roland very fast and kept attacking him with questions every time he came to talk with his sister. Roland found it incredibly annoying and started giving Mistel little presents when he visited to satiate him while he talked to Iris. This backfired, however, as it only got Mistel even more fixated on him and made him start prodding at Roland even more than he did before. Worst of all, Roland was beginning not only to not mind it, but also starting to enjoy it! At some point, he started visiting less for Iris and more for Mistel. Not that he had a crush on him. He’d never admit he had a crush on him. Eventually Mistel beat him too the punch and asked him out, and that’s where my file currently is!! Very excited to get to when he’s disproportionally hornier than every other LI in the entire series LMFAO

IdiYume- Twisted Wonderland

This one is really REALLY embarrassing for me because I haven’t done romantic yume/self ships since like… middle school

My sona is a catch all one I made a few years ago; Beatrice “Trixie”/“Trix” Hart. Normally I use her/him to terrorize anime boys platonically (she was first created to be an assistant to Klavier Gavin in Ace Attorney, and I think it shows with the name LMAO), but as I got more into the series and read Book 6, I Needed to kiss Idia Shroud and used him for this as well. His name stays the same minus the nickname because, well, I’m a trans dude keeping his gendered birth name lol.

He’s a second year Pomefiore bnuuy beastman at NRC and is BFFs with Cater. Him and Idia vaguely know each other, but generally dislike each other. Online, though, he’s Idia’s favorite vtuber and ok this is too embarrassing for me sorry JDKDWKKFSKFB

I prefer them a lot after NRC, though- I view them as both being transhet (because I am transhet. bye). Idia’s boymoding at NRC, and Trix is girlmoding quite literally everywhere except the all male school he goes to. After they graduate, they start transitioning together. Its a very very intimate experience for both as they support each other through everything.

This picrew is them 10 years post NRC when they’re fully transitioned because that’s usually what I think about with them. :) They’re very happy and love each other and their 3 cats and their younger brother and his 2 dogs.

Chenya X Beau Rhodes-Twisted Wonderland

My most recent ocxcanon ship and the one I have the least amount of development on because there’s so little known about RSA and Chenya is only allowed out of RSA Jail every now and then for enrichment. Beau is twisted from the rose from Beauty and the Beast! He also grew up in the Queendom of Roses, but a different part than Chenya Trey and Riddle. Him and Chenya were roommates their first year at RSA. Beau is very mature and committed to his work and studies in floral arrangement, in contrast to Chenya who’s. Well. Chenya. They end up balancing each other out; Chenya helps Beau lighten up, and Beau has better luck than most convincing Chenya to stop fucking around when he needs to.

The biggest aspect, to their dynamic, however, is something else.

I think NRC is one giant cringe compilation to RSA. They love hearing about the insane things that happen there. And, well, Chenya is childhood friends with the most ridiculous human being ever born, Riddle Rosehearts. And also Trey Clover, man who has spent his entire life being in love with the most ridiculous human being ever born, Riddle Rosehearts. Beau and Trey met as first years from Chenya introducing them, but whenever Riddle came up there was a silent “dude just wait until you meet this guy next year.” Beau didn’t know what he expected but Riddle met all of them.

Chenya does convince him to go to an unbirthday party with him though. Eventually. And he surprisingly does have a great time. That doesn’t stop the “I’ve had to listen to him talk about being in love with this guy for 8 years dude” conversations though.

#ocxcanon week #bokumono #harvest moon #story of seasons #trio of towns #3ot #yuzuki #mistel #twst #twisted wonderland #idia shroud x oc #idia shroud #twst ocs #chenya twst #artemiy artemiyevich pinker #why is that his name. #oc talk #m #yumeshit #bkmn posting

[xxgoblin-dumplingxx]

I haven't sent much to this blog but I just want to say-

Thank you. Thank you so much for keeping the decision to abort with arranged!verse. I've been reading fanfiction for about 8 years now and writing for around the same amount of time, and as someone who will remain childless by their own volition (not really wanting kids + so many goddamn carrier risks + a severe phobia of pregnancy/ childbirth), finding fics where the reader decides to go through with not keeping the child is astoundingly rare.

Anyone who gives you flack for that can honestly go fuck off, because most of the internet fanfictions containing pregnancy caters to them anyways. One AU where a reader decides differently isn't going to kill you, there is literally a monopoly market for your type of thinking that you can find elsewhere.

On top of the fact that the verse is very very well written. Thank you thank you thank you <3<3<3

Surprisingly, everyone has been very chill and very supportive of arranged!verse2.0. I'm proud of them.

I am a childfree woman. My husband carries around pictures of our dogs and his favorite game is to talk about them like human children and see how long it takes them to realize he's talking about dogs... So yeah. I love the children in my life. I'm very blessed to have such wonderful little weirdos in my life- they just can't live in my house.

And like everyone else, I want to see myself reflected in media. Any media. So I've made a space where my experiences can be represented and I have a handful of verses! that are child free. As a treat.

[cursedvibes]

Kenjaku thinking that their son Yuuji is handsome/adorable is my weakness. Between the fact that Yuuji looks alot like his dad and was essentially the perfect vessel that came directly from them I like to imagine Kenjaku when they spy on Yuuji and Junpei from afar as like a proud mother taking a moment to how grown and independent your kid is now.

It also makes it extra funny especially how Sukuna and Uraume take when they take the extra time to just trash talk Yuuji in particular. Like to imagine Kenjaku in the background just rolling their eyes, but oh well what can you do when your * friends* are childfree.

They were certainly very proud of him for making friends with the person they wanted him to. So maybe not so much his independence, but I'm sure they are happy to see he's adjusting to Sukuna and the sorcerer life so well. Perfect foundation for his conflict with Mahito that will push both of them to improve.

No matter if they caught Sukuna & Uraume's comments about Yuuji, they certainly went out of their way to insult Sukuna. His new face is ugly, he's stupid, has no social skills and can't even go to Sendai on his own. They also weren't in any rush to get Uraume to Sukuna and interrupt his fight with Yuuji. If they had been there, they would definitely make some passive-aggressive comments about the two like how Sukuna wasn't even able to cut Yuuji's limbs off or something.

#asks

[crazycatsiren]

Be nice to children. Seriously. This world isn't becoming easier for them.

#mother witch ramblings #childfree #childfree and proud #children deserve better

[onesaltysir]

Parents will post the dumbest shit I swear to god

Rant under cut

Idk Kelli, maybe your son was looking for you because you're his parent, and children typically go to their parents when they want something. I PROMISE you, your five year old with skibidi ipad cocomelon tiktok syndrome who can't read does not understand the concept of perfect parents.

Quit praising yourself for taking on a job that you chose to do. If your kid wants his mum, he's going to go to his mum. Like that is the simplest thing. He dgaf if you're perfect, he just wants something. You're not some angelic queen because you chose to be a mother.

Parents, you do not deserve special treatment for raw dogging it and then popping out some little shit named Braxteyighnn or Ahshahleyigh. Stop acting like you're some angel when all you do is shove an ipad in your kid's face while you post about how your parenting is so perfect and you're some magical blessing on this world.

Parents who do this shit are not a blessing, they're the bane of my existence.

Get off your mommy blog, get off your high horse, and do the fucking job you chose to do.

#childfree #antinatalism #childfree by choice #i hate kids #fuck them kids #i hate breeders #proud antinatalist #fuck parents #fuck breeders #wanting to be a parent should be a fucking mental disorder #parents #parenting #antinatalist for life #pro choice #“Ooh look at me I'm a magical goddess” no karen you're just another shitty self entitled mum

[skippyv20]

I was so seething with annoyance at the dreadful way the Anon without children was treated by the women who turned their backs on her, that I did some research to find something to make her feel better.  She might like to look at a website I found, TheNotMom.  It is an organisation which supports women who are either childfree by choice or childless because of medical reasons or circumstances.  Anon is making a huge contribution to society through her career and the taxes she pays, she should be rightly proud of herself.  And choose better friends!

Thank you so much!  This is wonderful!  I am sure she will greatly appreciate this…..thank you❤️

#submission

[foxymoxynoona]

Hmmm how about a jealous Eniko & a sexy in love reassuring meadow Jungkook?🥹❤️ Like they are out together with their daughter and run into his ex cat girlfriend, how would all that play out? 😱

Also, Jungkook is such a DILF🥵

OK so I made some changes to this since running into Eun-kyung is actually a pretty big deal! I'll write another DILF Meadow drabble though to make up for it 😉 I hope you enjoy this!

Story: Meadow Characters: Jungkook and Enikö Word Count: 3890 CW: jealousy, references to sex and marking and mating and past infidelity

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More recent, I don’t know where the others are ??

It was bound to happen sooner or later. Why wouldn’t it? Enikö and Jungkook were now thoroughly entrenched as pack leaders and that meant, to them, more than just the wolves. It meant being out in the community as much as possible, doing their own shopping, running their own errands, rather than hiding behind the privilege and luxury their status could provide. For Enikö in particular, this self-sufficiency was important. She’d been a prisoner in her own home before, locked up in the name of protection. Never again.

The Jeon Territory was large though, and larger all the time as they reclaimed lost pack lands. Large enough she might never be able to walk through downtown and recognize every face she saw; even Jungkook couldn’t, and he’d lived here his whole life. Not to mention the new folks coming in. But people knew who they were, and Enikö wasn’t sure she’d ever get used to strangers approaching her, greeting her by name, asking about her life as if she was… a public figure. Exactly what she was.

It still made her jumpy sometimes. There was no way to predict whether she’d be met by people who supported her work or criticized it. There were plenty of people who despised her, or didn’t recognize her status, or saw her as an invader –and many of them were not afraid to shout it to her face. Change was slow, slow enough she might never be able to feel safe walking around downtown without Namjoon or Ji-yoon or Chailai by her side. Jungkook was her ideal companion, of course, but they’re both just so busy, and what time they did get together was usually spent at home, or running through the forests, or gathering at a friends’ for a barbecue, or at most taking Mira to the Children’s Museum or a park. Of all the things Enikö could do when she had rare childfree time with Jungkook, running errands downtown wan’t anywhere near the top of the list. 

But then came the day: Jungkook had a dentist appointment she’d offered to take him to because he got nervous about dentists, and she needed to pick up her necklace from the jewelers after the chain had broken, so why not take advantage and swing by the new sushi place for lunch while they were at it?

Unfortunately, many others seemed to have the same thought about the sushi restaurant. They could see the line pooling outside the door, so Enikö suggested Jungkook try to get a table while she picked up her necklace. He resisted at first but ultimately his growling stomach and sulkiness about his sore teeth won out, and the jeweler was only two doors down and empty anyway.

It was quick work for Enikö to get the necklace. She didn’t wear the Jeon black obsidian pendant often but it felt nice to clasp it around her neck with the newer, stronger chain. Mira had been immediately drawn to it, as if she understood it was a gem related to her heritage, and yanked it right off her mother’s neck. Jungkook had been proud of her strength –until she tried to eat it and he and Enikö had to work together to wrestle it away. 

The gemstone slowly soaking up the heat from her chest once again, Enikö went to meet Jungkook at the sushi place. The line had cleared out enough she stepped right in to see if he’d managed a table already.

Enikö was friends with several of Jungkook’s exes. There were quite a few to choose from --even more if she dared to prod his list of rut partners from the years he hadn’t had a girlfriend to turn towards.

She did not prod for that list, not yet at least, not until she had more happy, confident years with Jungkook under her belt.

It wasn’t that she doubted Jungkook in any serious way. She felt his love. She knew his commitment. She breathed their bond every day of her life. But she had not yet grown past that twinge in her stomach at the thought of the women he’d been especially intimate with –not the high school girlfriends, but the rut partners who had seen him truly wild with abandon, which she had not; the adult relationships that had lasted longer than a couple of weeks; the particular relationship he had still been in by choice when he’d been forced to mate and mark her.

It was bound to happen at some point, that they’d run into Eun-kyung again. Why not? She lived here. In the territory that now belonged to Jungkook and Enikö. It shouldn’t matter at all and while Enikö had not in any way prepared herself to see Eun-kyung, if she had contemplated it, she would have optimistically believed that her confidence in her true bond with Jungkook would make the interaction no different than when she and Eesha happened to cross paths at the baby gym and had a good chat. They were going to have play dates.

That was not at all how it felt to walk into the sushi restaurant and, after a moment of searching, find Jungkook standing by the sushi counter in conversation with Eun-kyung, the woman he’d still gone to fuck the day after marking her.

Deep shame flooded her without check. Eun-kyung, who had sent him back a box of lingerie and sex videos, as if he’d still want them with his new mate. Eun-kyung, who had talked to her like she was a child, who in her own fucked up way had been one of the only people to point out how fucked up the situation was for both women. Eun-kyung, who had taken out her anger at Jungkook with a pipe to his car and been pressed against it as he murmured his apologies and regret to her.

Enikö wanted to say she was above it all but the way Eun-kyung and Jungkook stared silently at each other for such a long moment, having a secret conversation using some old language developed during their intimacy, dragged her right back to that time in her life that, until a minute ago, had seemed like nothing more than a distant dream. 

“You think I didn’t want to choose you? You think I’d choose this girl I don’t even know-”

Those words would haunt her until she died. She’d papered over them with all the things he’d said since then, words she believed, but Eun-Kyung was beautiful and it ripped the paper right off. Eun-kyung sighed and turned her face away and Jungkook’s tongue pressed to the inside of his cheek, Enikö could see the bulge of it and the sexy gesture didn’t help the ball of dread in her stomach.

So what now? Did he still have regrets? Did a casual run-in with the woman she’d stolen him from remind him of the choice he hadn’t been allowed to make? Now he was stuck in a role he both wanted and didn’t want, with a mate who was busy a lot and a demanding young daughter and–-

But she wouldn’t let him go without a fight. She couldn’t. They were happy together! He loved her and she loved him and she wouldn’t let him go easily! She wasn’t that scared little fresh omega deer any longer. She wouldn’t give up her mate! She’d fought to earn her place by his side! 

She surged towards the pair despite the shivers down her spine. Either her motion or the sense of her caught Jungkook’s attention. Eun-kyung was in the middle of saying something but Jungkook turned his body wholly towards Enikö and held his hand out for hers. Instantly she felt less like she’d intruded on something and more like he’d been expecting her, waiting for her. She put her hand into his and let him pull her right into her side, but she caught herself with her hand against her body so there was still the slightest space. So she was still standing at her full height as she faced Eun-kyung.

They were the same height, she realized. In her memories, Eun-kyung was much taller, towered over her, but Enikö had knee-high boots on and Eun-kyung had flats on and they were eye to eye. 

“Hello again,” she said, seizing the right of the first words.

“Hello,” Eun-kyung answered. Maybe she wasn’t as tall, but she was as beautiful as Enikö remembered. Sexy. Cool. So very different than the professional public image Enikö maintained --maybe not as submissive and straight-laced as she’d been raised but at the end of the day, she was still herself. Not very cool.

“Nice chat, Eun-kyung-ssi. See ya later,” Jungkook said and nudged Enikö away but she stayed her ground. They’d been talking about something and she wanted to know what. She worried he wanted to hide things again. Not really but a little bit… His heart race was escalated, she could sense it as if it raced through the fingers pressed to her lower back.

“Things are a little different now,” Enikö said. “But I’m sorry for the pain our match caused you back then. I hope you’re doing better these days and that it’s not unbearable to live here.”

“Why would it be unbearable?” Eun-kyung pressed.

“In our territory.”

Eun-kyung rolled her eyes and gave a little shrug, “It doesn’t matter. Like I told your mate here, that was a long time ago. I’ve moved on.”

“Great.” Jungkook’s voice did not sound like it was great. His thumbs dug harder into Enikö’s back to make her move. “See ya around. Let’s go eat, baby.”

The baby felt awkward to her, like he was showing off. Why did he care? Back then, he’d called Eun-kyung "baby." And Eun-kyung had called her "a baby." Very different.

“It turned out ok for us though too,” she said to Eun-kyung. “He didn’t 'chew me up and spit me out' like you predicted.”

“Yeah, I heard he immediately pupped you and then used your blood connections to take over the pack or something-– look, I don’t care. Good for you. I don’t think about either of you at all and I sure as fuck hope you aren’t thinking of me.”

“Ok and we’re gone, thanks so much for saying hello,” Jungkook snapped and this time took Enikö’s shoulders and guided her away. His wasn’t the only escalated heartrate now. She expected him to lead her out of the restaurant; she was torn between not wanting to cede the territory and knowing that she would feel like she was performing for as long as Eun-kyung was in the restaurant. 

He pulled the chair out of a table that had been waiting for them, then dropped down to press a kiss to her neck near her mate mark. 

“Easy, Enna. Let’s just enjoy our lunch, everything is fine.” 

Was it though? Enikö plastered on a smile and tried to calm herself but it was hard not to read something into every gesture –-or lack thereof. Why didn’t he scent her? It was the normal thing to do when your mate was upset, which he could tell she was. When she rested her hand on the table for him to take, he busied his hands checking off the rolls they wanted instead and then flagged a waiter down for water. 

The meal was uncomfortable, to say the least. Enikö didn’t bring up the odd and hostile meeting. She tried to focus on the food, as did Jungkook. Eun-kyung left with a couple of women not longer after and theoretically that should have diffused things but it didn’t. She barely tasted the food. They started and trailed off multiple topics. She’d never been so glad for Jungkook to call for the check.

Obviously he was still thinking about Eun-kyung. Enikö wished she could read his mind. She wished he would volunteer what had happened without her having to ask. She swished she wasn’t so desperate to know. Suddenly even her own name sounded too close to Eun-kyung’s. Did he ever get them confused, think of his ex instead when he said her name?

“Enikö,” he murmured, taking her hand as they walked. “Just… just let me get us home first.”

“Hm?”

His lips straightened into a line and he said nothing further, the two of them wrapped in silence. That, too, felt like back then. It wasn’t easy, comfortable silence, she didn’t feel his love and presence, she was too wrapped up in her own pained memories, now prodded nearly to a fever-pitch by him sounding like he had something to tell her. 

He’d barely parked the car in the drive before she couldn’t hold it back any longer. 

“Do you still miss her?”

“I’m sorry I–- wait, what?”

“Do you still miss her?” Enikö asked because it was the question at the heart of everything. It didn’t really matter who said what, it just mattered how he felt about it all. Probably.

The passage of emotions across his face was remarkable for someone who often stayed so stoic, but he landed on one that could easily look like anger, brows scrunched, corners of his mouth downturned.

“The fuck are you talking about? Her ?”

“Yes, her . The girl you chose and had to give up because of–-”

“Because I met my true mate and the woman I love more than anything or anyone-–”

“But you didn’t at the time!” she interrupted his rush of flattery before it could further fluster her. She got out of the car; he followed close behind.

“No,” he conceded. “At the time I was pissed. I was angry and… and stupid. I hurt her and I hurt you even worse.”

She stopped just at the edge of the drive. If anyone had noticed their return yet, no one came running. Probably Mira was napping and Otto with her on guard. She crossed her arms and met his gaze and tried to think of what else to say. 

He took hold of her face and stared into her soul. “No, little one, I do not miss her. I haven’t thought of her a day since you took my heart.”

“Which was when?”

“I forget the exact day. Somewhere in Europe. Actually I probably hadn’t thought of her in longer than that… why would I?”

She took hold of his wrists and pulled his hands lower to rest on either side of her neck. 

“En… baby, you don’t need to be jealous of my fucking ex.”

“I’m not… I’m not jealous,” she scoffed. 

“Good. You don’t need to be.”

“I just… just seeing her again made me remember everything back then and…” She let out a deep breath through her nose. 

His voice dropped lower and she felt the flash of distress from him. She hadn’t expected that and in looking, managed to bump their noses together as he pressed his forehead to hers.

“I know,” he breathed out. “Me too.”

“That’s what I’m saying!”

“Yeah, the guilt and the shame just…” He clenched his teeth so hard she could practically feel it in her jaw. “Did I ever even apologize to you?”

“What?”

“For what I did. For going to her and for how I treated you when you were understandably upset–-”

“You did apologize.”

“Well it wasn’t fucking enough. Nothing could ever be enough. Maybe we should have just left after we saw her but I fucked up so much back then, I didn’t want to ruin your lunch too.”

It was ridiculous. It made her pull away and look up at him with confusion. Suddenly the distance between them for their meal felt different: guilt instead of regret, or a different reason for the regret; shame instead of longing for an ex. 

She kept hold of his wrists as she pressed, “So you weren’t fondly recalling–-”

“Yeah, no. It was just awkward to run into her. She came up to me and was all ‘well things look like they’re going well for you.’ And like… yeah, they’re going fucking great for me. How do you tell someone yeah sorry I didn’t tell you I got mated but she’s the love of my life and we have a perfect daughter and my life only got better after you?!”

Enikö’s eyes went wide and she threaded her fingers through Jungkook’s and asked, “So what did you say instead?”

“Oh. No, I basically said that–-”

“You what ?!”

“And I did say I was sorry again about the whole thing but that yeah, my life is great. Don’t look at me like that!”

“You’re such an asshole!” she cried and covered her face with her hands to laugh. 

“I said I hoped her life was going well too!”

“And what did she say?”

“Well then you came in and it just got worse from there…”

“I can’t believe you said that–-”

“Well what should I have said?! I’m not going to act like it wasn’t the best thing that ever happened to me. It sucks I hurt her in the process, that was shitty of me, but I’m not going to lie and act like I regret how my life changed.”

“You’re such a dummy,” she sighed and wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed herself close to him. No wonder Eun-kyung had been pissy. She was never going to feel like she got justice for the way Jungkook had hurt her, that was the truth. Maybe if she knee Jungkook had been hurt by Aloysius... but Enikö sure wasn’t going to call her up and volunteer that. 

Jungkook’s arms were tight around her, the relief in his voice obvious as he sighed, “Ok, so you aren’t mad about–- I thought you were upset again about what I did back then. I was ready to grovel, I just didn’t want to talk about it in the restaurant–”

“I don’t want you to grovel.”

“I’ll do it.”

“No, alpha,” she assured him, and twisted her face to kiss his neck. “I was just a little jealous, that’s all.”

“Of what ?” The way the words sputtered out was soothing in and of itself.

“I don’t know, that you chose her–-”

“I chose you a thousand times. I’ll choose you every time.”

“That you had a good sex life–-”

“Yeah I thought so until I met you,” he snorted.

“That you pierced her nipples.”

He froze. 

“I… well… I did do that,” he said, mouth twisting into something between sheepish and amused. “But I drank from yours so–-”

“Jungkook!”

“I’ll pierce yours if you want me to.”

She immediately clamped her hands over his and pouted, “I don’t. These poor nipples have been abused enough by your daughter, I don’t need you poking holes in them too!”

“Ah, poor little omega,” he murmured. All traces of the guilt were gone now, there was only smug playfulness as he slid his hands up her sides to press beneath her breasts. “Do they need to be soothed?”

“ I need to be soothed. Do you remember when you made me carry home a box of her lingerie and sex tapes–-”

“And you watched them!” he yelled, followed by a laugh. “You know, you were a pretty disobedient brat for a supposedly well-trained omega.”

“Hey!”

“Ah but I know, I shouldn’t have made you take the box home. I was an asshole. I’m a changed man now.”

“Apparently not if you made sure to tell her ex how great your life is now–-”

“Look I will take any opportunity to brag about Mira and you. You’ve got ears? Great, you can listen to how great my girls are.”

She shook her head and let it fall to his shoulder. 

“Ok,” she admitted, “I guess I feel kind of silly now for being jealous.”

“It’s not silly. I put you through a lot, especially around her.” He dragged his nose along her neck and throat, a supplicating gesture rather than a dominant one. “I’m sorry, En. I’ll never not regret how we started. But I’ll live with the guilt if it means I get to spend a lifetime making it up to you.”

“You already do, alpha.”

“More. I can do more.” His lips tugged at her skin and then her teeth. She understood the offer, if she wanted it. If she felt like it, after that emotional upset. 

“Hm…”

“I think it’s been a while since you’ve been jealous over me,” he murmured. “Feels kind of good… just a little bit good!”

“Oh shut up.”

“Would that make you feel better? If I shut up and just show you where my loyalty lies?”

“You didn’t have to make this sexual. I would have been happy with kisses and verbal reassurance.”

“Yeah but I do my best work with my mouth and my dick… and then kisses and verbal reassurance…”

She wavered. A mid-day romp sounded pretty wild with how tame their schedule had become recently. They’d eaten so quickly, there might still be time. They could check and see what time Mira had gone down. And he wasn’t wrong, she never left the bedroom (or sofa or kitchen counter or desk or…) afterwards not feeling certain she was the center of his world. 

“I don’t know, your mouth and your dick seem to have caused a lot of problems in the past.”

“Yeah but not anymore. Unless you’ve got something to complain about?” It was mean to ask that as he dragged his mouth along her throat, tilting her chin up to get that submissive access he wanted. His tongue followed, saliva leaving even greater scent of him, of his claim on her, of the proof he belonged to her too. 

“I guess right now the lack of them is leaving me with something to complain about.”

“Say no more. You want to go upstairs? Or should we just find a nice patch of grass–”

“Jungkook!”

“Yeah, I know the wild girl I mated. No regrets there, Enna. You bite way harder.”

“Yeah, don’t forget that,” she glared. 

“Ah, maybe you should remind me.” After her impulsive bite on his exposed neck, hard enough to make him hiss, he promptly scooped her up. “Ok, we’re in a hurry now.” Enikö giggled as he fumbled to get the door open in his haste to get her upstairs for whatever borrowed time they had left before Mira woke up.

Maybe there wasn’t anything that could make the ending of his previous relationship and the start of theirs feel good. Maybe she’d always feel a little guilty about Eun-kyung too, because things had turned out so well for them. She hoped Eun-kyung had a good life with someone who could make her as happy and erase any of the pain or bitterness that might linger. Jungkook and Enikö had each other for that, and with the attention he lathed on her nipples even left unpierced, she could settle into the truth that there wasn’t actually any space in their relationship for real jealousy or insecurity at this point. 

But, in the event it happened again, she was glad to have an alpha so eager to show her exactly who his heart belonged to with every look, touch, and taste. 

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