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lostmf · 5 months
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eccedentesiast-skies · 4 months
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You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.
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bl0w-m3 · 9 months
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Tell me where the anger goes.
Tell me where to put the anger
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screamchamber · 27 days
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bashmyheadinn · 1 year
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echo-stimmingrose · 3 months
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When Echinda showed up my fight or flight response was IMMEDIATELY triggered. I don't know why but that condescending motherly tone instantly trigger- Oh wait nevermind, I know exactly why.
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nterini · 1 year
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In Defense of Hira - A textbook case of C-PTSD caused by Childhood Abuse and Neglect
In a lot of the shows that I watch, especially with teens or young adults relating to trauma, or any genre really, there’s always a playful question on my mind: where are their parents? However, at this point in show, it’s becoming so much more apparent that the lack of support Hira received growing up, is fundamental to the way that he sees himself and his position in the world around him. So much so that as much as I want to joke about Hira being as dense as a stone wall, I find myself becoming increasingly uncomfortable in how much my own trauma and reactions to isolation mirror Hira’s.
Symptoms of complex PTSD
Feelings of worthlessness, shame and guilt.
Problems controlling your emotions.
Finding it hard to feel connected with other people.
Relationship problems, like having trouble keeping friends and partners. (Source: NHS)
How was Hira Traumatized?
He was left to his own defenses at an early age and had to fend for himself. Just because they provided him with a house and money for food doesn’t mean they took care of him. He was also bullied for a speech impediment and isolated by his peers as a result. He’s probably never had anyone listen to him closely or had close emotional or physical relationships in his life. Extended periods of neglect in childhood and then more intense isolation later on is extremely damaging.
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Trauma manifests differently. Before therapy, it was really difficult for me to wrap my head around the fact that I wasn’t actually invisible to friends and family. It took a quite aggressive and embarrassing event, (now funny and touching really) for me to understand that if I deviated from my own patterns or if I disappeared or didn’t contact people for hours that people would actually miss me or think about me. I went out and watched a movie after an event, and told one person through text. After the two hour movie, I turned my phone back on and found 30 missed calls. My mother had informed me that she had called the police and that the principal had formed a search party for me. My face was plastered all over Snapchat by my classmates.  I was mortified by what I believed to be a waste of resources and time on my behalf. Such a loud display of love and even then all I could think about was hiding away and making myself smaller. I wasn’t even decent enough to acknowledge the pain, worry, and fear they felt at the thought that someone they loved went missing. It took multiple years later: a very a tentative mother and aunt, very involved teachers, mentors and friends plus therapy for me to stop feeling like a ghost. To get out of my own head and stop trying to fade in the background as a coping mechanism. After being abandoned by his mother to live alone in a house so she could be with the family she wants, after being isolated by his classmates for having a stutter all throughout high school, only one person knocked loudly enough at the door attached to the fortress Hira built in his mind to cope with his trauma. Kiyoi.
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That mental fortress is why Hira is alive today. It kept him safe when he had to sleep in the dark alone as a young boy when he had to cook his own meals. His social ineptitude is due to years of isolation and degradation by those around him. He wasn’t deemed worthy enough by his own mother to be taken care of. Yet Kiyoi loves and sees him. Kiyoi says his name and holds his hand and kisses him and suddenly Hira is solid mass. Not a shadow on the wall or the useless child not worth keeping. He becomes slightly more than nothing. In Hira’s mind he becomes a pebble. Sigh. Well it’s a start. But it’s not enough. It’s gonna take a real miracle for Hira to overcome years of trauma and see himself as a human being. I believe in him though. He’s so brave. No like really though, some of the shit he says is so cringey it takes real guts. Kiyoi is not going to give up on Hira anytime soon he’s too much of an exhibitionist for Hira and a freak (endearingly). Also, Hira is obsessive and intense, so they’re a perfect match.
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He just needs proper counseling and a bit of time. I’m rooting for them.
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silkythewriter · 1 year
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Could I see hcs for Charlie, Vaggie, Cherri and Velvette with an adopted child that is heavily implied to have had a very difficult, sad and painful life before they took them in? The child is extremely quiet, timid and fearful, frequently has nightmares, cries a lot and often seeks them out for comfort. Thank you in advance if you decide to accept this!
꧁Charlie, vaggie, Cherri, and velvet with an adopted child that had a difficult past ꧂
Summary: Charlie, Vaggie, Cherri and Velvette with an adopted child that is heavily implied to have had a very difficult, sad and painful life before they took them in
Small warning!: Sorry for any grammar/spelling mistakes and sorry if the characters are OOC!!
Small note!: This is my first child reader Headcanons on my account so hopefully I do it correctly and you enjoy this! Also there’s some vaggie x Charlie ❤️❤️❤️
Fandom!: Hazbin hotel!
Daily song suggestions!:
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✰Charlie✰
Best mom in this situation to be honest, I have to give it to her ☠️
She’d definitely in roll you to some of the best therapy hell has to offer, which is rare down here but still possible!
She’s very careful on who she lets you interact with, like let’s say alastor she keeps a close eye on you if your every around him cause she knows how scary he could get :(.
All the best comforting plushies her money can buy, she knows how terrible your nightmares get and she wants to make sure there’s something there to comfort you! Just incase.
Staying up most nights comforting you is frequent, she does get very tried but pulls through for you cause she wants to comfort you and make sure you fall asleep first before her
Sometimes she lets you sleep in her bed with her and vaggie! And she always makes sure you have the best pillow on the bed 😭🫶
Her comfort method is singing a lullaby or cuddling up with you and playing with your hair/massaging your scalp!
I’m gonna be honest with you whenever you cries she cries :(. She hates seeing you sad or scared, that’s why she works hard to make sure the staff and the hotel are as comfortable as can be to you! And she’ll do anything to insure that!
She always has tissues on hand just incase! She always kisses your forehead after you cry to comfort you ❤️
Alastor is usually very talkative and that doesn’t mix very well with your quite self sense he doesn’t understand why your so quite, he tries talking to you but leaves you be after Charlie explains why he’s stressing you out
She always near by to comfort you at any second! She knows how bad things get so she wants to make sure she’s there to make sure your okay!
She makes sure the staff and her parents (whenever they drop by) are careful around you, she always has a stern talking to husk cause he usually has trouble controlling his attitude but after awhile he warms up to you and lets you be just like alastor!
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☾Vaggie☾
She’s use to tough love so it takes awhile for her to figure out how to make sure your comfortable
Surprisingly is very patient especially towards you she knows how hard it use to be for you so she wants to make sure she at least salvages some parts of your childhood
Charlie is a big part of your life cause she’s basically your second mother and helps vaggie a lot! Also pays for anything you need
Surprisingly is actually very good at doing hair so if you let her and it relaxes you she’ll gladly take a brush and softy brush your hair out before tucking you in to sleep <3
Literally growlers at anyone other then Charlie if they get close to you she doesn’t trust anyone, nor does she plan to so she is very over protective of you
Has matching necklaces with you (design is your choice) so you never forget she’s with you no matter where you are! She knows when she does have to leave you alone for awhile it can be more then hard so she tries combating it as much as she can
She’s awake the minute she even hears a creek in your room, sense she moved rooms to be closed to you and make sure your safe, anytime she hears a sound she very alert and ready to jump up and run over to your room 😭she just genuinely worried about you!
She knows how quite you are so she usually speaks for you in uncomfortable situations, she knows how scary things get for you so she’s just trying her best to make your life a bit more enjoyable and easier
Depending on your age like if your 5-6(oc/character wise) she’ll have a baby monitor and will check up on you randomly in the night just to make sure your okay!
The amount of plushies you have is astounding, vaggie will snatch any plushies she’ll see that she thinks you’ll enjoy! Same goes for clothing ect
(Idk I’d hell has an education system💀) but if we’re assuming they do either you go to the best one in the sinners realm or you have online school either or is a good chance but vaggie leans a bit to the online school system due to it being probably more safer
Over all very protective because she knows how dangerous hell gets, she has many trust issues so trusting someone with something as precious as you? No way, only Charlie is the most likely chance like I said but if she can’t take care of you vaggie would rather cancel any plans she has
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⚠︎︎Cherri bomb⚠︎︎
One of the chillest moms out of everyone out of this list to be honest
Overprotective like vaggie but in her own way! She’ll let you do whatever you want but if anyone hurts you the last thing they’ll see is a bomb smashing into their face
Angel is like an uncle, he spoils you whenever he can! He absolutely adores you and Cherri appreciates when he can look out for you, but she kind of understands he isn’t the best influence, but I mean it’s hell what can she expect?
I think she just has a small cramped apartment sense the limited space in hell, so you guys will most likely have to share a room, but she tries making as welcoming and comfortable for you!
Isn’t the best mom, but not the worst , she’s new to all this new mom business but she’s trying to figure it out. She restrains from being overbearing due to her bursting personality she knows how overwhelmed it might get you so she goes down a few notch’s to make sure your okay!<3
No matter how tough she is on the outside, I’d you cry she’ll cry even harder, look she hates showing so much emotion but when it comes to you she just can’t help it she has such a mother bond to you after taking care of you she can get out of hand
You, her and angel have weekly game night playing any game of your choosing! Hide in seek, hell monopoly, or anything else really! Cherri loves uno though! She does let you win sometimes but she’s very competitive so even then there’s very little mercy ( ー̀εー́ )
Depending on your age again she carries you around or holds your hand mainly she likes to make sure your near her and safe!
Has a big sweater she bought and lets you have it cause of how comfortable it is, Also thinks your adorable in it !!!^▽^
She lets you do whatever you want honestly, want icecream at 8am? Let her go fetch the bowls and fill them to the brim, want candy at the dead of the night? Has a special stash in the closet!, Shes honestly a very free mom and does whatever makes you happy!
Your guys room is a mess of blankets, pillows, plushies, and empty candy wrappers and bags, you and her have a Friday Sunday cleaning day to at least clear the floor 😭😭 it’s a lot of fun! Especially when she puts on your favorite music
Overall let’s you do what you want at least if it doesn’t hurt you that much!, she tries helping you out of shell but she won’t force you, you go at your own pace and she’ll be there every step of the way <3
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𖨆Velvet𖨆
Oh boy she might as well be a handful to you then you to her
Vox and Valentino are probably a big part of your life considering how much she hangs out with them, where ever she goes you go
She’s up 24/7 so when you have nightmares she right there by your side, with hot chocolate and some snacks and some hugs!
Absolutely spoils you rotten considering how much power she has she can basically get anything you ask for!
Even if your a boy, she’ll absolutely want to put your hair into pigtails like hers if you have the hair for it and let it! She loves twining with you in one way or another she finds it adorable!
She can’t exactly bring you to her job, she only does when it’s absolutely necessary and there’s no one she can let take care of you, but even then she makes you cover your eyes till you guys get to special room she made vox and Valentino make for you, filled with all types of snacks and game of your liking!
That being said she only lets vox babysit you, sense he’s the most responsible, and I feel like Valentino doesn’t favor kids all that much
She has a lot of comfort items she Carries around in a bag for you just incase you aren’t feeling that well or just need a good cry
People don’t even look at your direction after finding out who’s your mom, if anyone even messes with you their already dead, of course not infront of you but they’ll be taken care of in the back as vox takes you to get icecrem
She loves dragging you around hell and showing you her favorite shops and locations, she also adores taking you shopping! She enjoys it herself, if she doesn’t have money to pay she just walks straight out I mean who’s gonna stop her?
Your room is stuffed with toys, plushies, blankets, and any items you enjoy! Like I said she loves spoiling you! You also have a large bed to make your sleeping a bit better sense you wake up a lot in the night
Overall a very hyper mom and has random burst of energy so expect random adventures to make you feel better about something your upset about
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sanrioangelkitty · 1 year
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cevansbaby-dove · 1 month
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Just hold me. Becca's pov
So you wanted to hear the story from my pov? I got ya.
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I was helping chris in the kitchen after dinner when my phone goes off with a number i don't know.
I glance at chris but he's washing dishes so he doesn't see me look at him. I pick up. "Hello?" i walk out of the kitchen and hear someone say. "Hello Rebekah how are you?"
"I'm sorry how do you know my name?" I start to feel my heart beat faster. "I'm *Says name* you don't remember me?"
I gasp hearing the name....no no.."I'm sorry but don't call this number ever" She says. "Laurel *says last name*...you remember your old name?"
I bite my lip hard knowing that name will trigger something that Chris hasn't seen before. "Ye..yes i do but you and your dumbass hubby shouldn't know this number....how did you get it?"
"i wanted to ask if your free to catch up tomorrow" I hear her say. "No..you won't ever get to see me after twenty plus years of no contact so do not ever call me!" I hang up before she can say anything and i walk back into the kitchen.
Chris looks at me. "Baby?" I jump 'Yes?" he walks to me slowly. "Hey shh what's going on?"
I hold back tears as i tell him about my childhood and how i was hit and grew up with my twin and how i had to protect her from the monsters of so called mom and dad of mine.
We end up in the living room and i look at my hands and chris brushes my hair from my face. "Dove nothing you say about your past will scare me...You have demons and I'm willing to fight them away from you always."
I look up at him and let some tears fall on my cheeks. I wrap my arms around his waist and bury my head on his chest hearing those words they make me just sob my heart out.
A/n mod here but this is a true story of my past. I did live with people who didn't care what they did to me and my sister.
My mom is even writing a book about our past and i pray that my past is a clear view that people like my first mom and dad are REAL and my twin and i are proof that you can go through hell and come out burnt but not killed.
I protected my sister as much as i could and even at 23 i still protect her from people like my so called mom and dad.
I don't tell my story to get attention, i tell it so people know people are real and my first family was real everything they did was real and it made me who i am today.
tags:@cutedisneygrl @bookishtheaterlover7 @nicoline1998enilocin @patzammit @angelbabyyy99
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mayhapsyourmom · 1 year
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anyone else’s parents get mad at them for having empathy
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lostmf · 3 months
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By @hel7l7
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its-venting-time · 8 months
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Me when my friends finally find me in the midst of a depressive episode:
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dust-child · 14 days
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Does anyone have any experiences connecting with the Goddess or divine feminine energy after having a traumatic childhood? Like the way I grew up and the women figures in my life were always victims of abuse and degradation . This has severely impacted me and the way I see myself and other women. I try connecting with the goddess but my mind fights me and I end up with distressing intrusive thoughts sometimes. I desperately want to overcome this and become closer with the goddess.
Are there any specific deities or goddesses that can help and work with me on this? Help me heal?
I have so much anger and hurt. And I find myself punishing myself in retaliation.
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asianboywhump · 1 year
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My Lethal Man: Ep-21
TW⚠️: Suicide Attempt
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bashmyheadinn · 1 year
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