#chronic pain thoughts

[shibara]

Weaponized pain relief.

Bear with me for 5 minutes.

We know Vader’s wounds can’t be healed completely post Mustafar, and that it was pretty much by design. The constant pain and control that came with it served Sidious just fine, and bound Vader more strongly to the dark side, but what if someone suddenly took that pain away for a short while?

Wouldn’t that be a fantastic weapon for the light? That Darth Vader, whose entire existence stems from Anakin’s suffering, could find his mastery of the dark side gently weakened by the shock of temporary relief after years of forgetting what that feels like?

If they somehow caught him, it would be a tactical advantage, of course, but wouldn’t doing that also feel a bit like atonement for Obi-Wan? After all the feelings of having failed his padawan, the regret and the helplessness, to be able to help him like this? Enemy or not, willing or not?

And wouldn’t Vader very slowly begin to struggle maintaining his hate for Obi-Wan, whose hands wrecked him (and now weaken him, too), but which also gently bring back a little of what being Anakin used to feel like? Knowing that Obi-Wan still cares so much that he spent years learning and perfecting the ways of soothing with the Force, just for this, just for him?

Wouldn’t that be fucking heart wrenching??? 

I will make art of this someday.

Also, I’m pretty new in the fandom. If anyone has already written fic about this PLEASE send it my way, I have a mighty need TwT

#obikin #vaderwan #headcanon #chronic pain thoughts #non-con pain relief #is that a thing???? #very angry man gets slightly angry when he realizes he's becoming less and less angry these days #my headcanons

[colourmeastonished]

Body swap movie where one of them has invisible disabilities and when the other one lands in their body they immediately collapse catatonic on the floor from the pain and fatigue and the first one is like 'oh damn guess I don't have to worry that I'm faking it anymore'

#i have this fantasy of one my able bodied friends and or coworkers occupying my body for like an hour #just to get a real sense of how much i am truly weathering hellfire every day of my life #sometimes i take stock and im like holy crap ive gotten so used to so much #im a frog in a pot and ive convinced myself the bubbling is just fun ambience #my thoughts #invisible disability #chronic illness #chronic pain

[druid-for-hire]

[images ID: three images of a comic titled "one must imagine sisyphus happy" by druid-for-hire. it is a visual narrative beginning with someone with wrist pain (depicted by bright orange nerves) working at a drafting table. the reader is shown the same wrist as the person uses it for many everyday tasks such as carrying a grocery basket, pushing elevator buttons, typing, and doing dishes, until the pain dissolves all the panels into chaos. the person then performs several physical therapy exercises until the pain subsides. they sit back down at a desk with their laptop, sigh, and begin typing. a small spark of pain reappears. end id]

a fun little piece i made during the semester and submitted into our school comic anthology! (which you can buy at the Static Fish table at MoCCAFest in NYC ;] ). it's about artists and injury

#comic art #comics #original comic #chronic pain #carpal tunnel #tendonitis #my art #original #edit: what a delightful surprise to see this take off #this was made for class on very low fuel and very few thoughts and late at night and exhausted #the prompt was just a wordless narrative essay. three pages. and i had nothing and no ideas #and my head hurt and i was too tired to think about doing any of the like. research and mind mapping and ideating i'd do otherwise #but my arm hurt #so i decided to do a thing about arm hurty #i'm surprised to see so many people finding it resonating with them #but then again i shouldn't be. the universal lies in the specific #i should make more things about smaller stuff

[starving-shartist]

I wonder how many miles my dash is. Like, from now till I first started my account. Could my dash reach the moon?

#i am in 10/10 celiac pain #and scolling while trying not to scream is the only thing that helps #celiac #chronic pain thoughts

[manincaffeine]

sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal

#desiblr #txt post #txt #dark academia #writers on tumblr #desi tumblr #tw: sucidal thoughts #life quotes #chronic pain #spilled thoughts #art #artists on tumblr

[invisibleoctopus]

chronic pain culture is not being able to relate to the "lets take ibuprofen together" meme because ibuprofen hasnt worked for your pain since you were like 10

#le p2iigh #chronic pain #chronic migraines #the way i thought they were 'just headaches' for 20 years of my life #while getting an average of like. 2 a week #of course its way more now

[alexei-home-fromthewar-at-last]

I think a fair number of (able-bodied) people don’t understand that cripple is a slur. It’s a slur. It’s offensive. Physically disabled people can reclaim it *if they want to*, but they don’t have to. They can be offended by it if they want to as well. Both are valid.

Also, you can reclaim it FOR YOURSELF! You don’t just get to call other people cripples because you decided to reclaim it. That’s personal. Saying “oh, I can say that because I’m physically disabled” only applies if you’re referring to YOURSELF that way. You do not get to tell other people in your community what they should and shouldn’t be comfortable with.

#pf course if you know someone is comfy with that term you can use it for them #but you need to know to explicitly ask #I feel like this is the same for the r-slur but people know it’s a slur they just don’t care #it doesn’t matter if I’m not calling actual mentally disabled people it yeah actually it does #alexei’s silly little thoughts #alexei’s silly little ✨chronic illness✨ #chronically ill #chronic illness #chronic pain #disablity #disabled #physically disabled

[forbestiel]

What will I do when the opening scene of Good Omens s3 is the fall? When all the angels are collected along the edge of a cliff watching hundreds of thousands of angels fall into hell and their wings are charred and there’s screaming and chaos and pain in the air. When Crowley reaches a hand out, trying to hold on to something, anything, because all he did was ask a few questions he just hung around the wrong people he didn’t mean to fall. When he looks and Aziraphale – that nice cherub who helped hold up the nebula designs for him and complimented his work but followed the rules a bit too much – is right above him, watching with a heartbroken face because he doesn’t like when anyone is in pain. When Aziraphale lifts his hand, almost reaching out to him, before pulling back and looking away, hoping no one else noticed his compassion for a fallen angel because they might punish him too. What will I do then?

#i like making things painful for myself #zee’s chronically insane thoughts now available on tumblr :D #listen the official prime account called aziraphale a cherub in that scene #so i’m going to assume he was a cherub during the fall #and didn’t get the title of principality until later #good omens #good omens season 2 #crowley #anthony j crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable husbands

[study-diaries]

Reminder

Your pain (physical/mental/emotional) is valid even if nobody can see it

Your pain is valid even if you have no physical symptoms

Your pain is valid even if there is no physical injury

Your pain is valid even if others tell you it's not

Your pain is valid even if you do not have a life threatening disease

Your pain is valid even if you don't have a diagnosis

Your pain is valid even if you do have a diagnosis

Your pain is still valid even if nobody believes you

Your pain is still valid even if you are too "young" for the problem/issue

Your pain is valid even if the health care advisor/anybody tells you that it's in your head

Your pain is valid no matter what the conditions are

Your pain is valid.

Pain does not discriminate between age, gender, race, nationality etc. Just because you can't see pain, doesn't mean it's not there.

#mentalhealth #mental health awareness #mental health support #cronic pain #cronic illness #mental illness #mental health #coping #positive mental attitude #mental wellness #fibromyalgia #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronic disability #chronically ill #reminder #self care reminder #self care #self improvement #self help #self love #mental health reminders #mental health matters #mental health recovery #emotional health #healing journey #positivity #positive thoughts #reminders

[youngchronicpain]

I'm honestly so tired of people telling me they think I can do more. I am already struggling to do what I am doing now. I don't think it is a compliment, even when it is meant that way. It feels like they are saying, "What you are doing now is inadequate, you aren't living up to your potential." When I feel as if I am just trying to keep my head above water as it is. I'm trying so hard, why can't they see that?

#chronic pain #rambles in the brambles #thoughts

[thedisablednaturalist]

Do people not remember that period on Tumblr where neurodivergent people completely threw physically disabled people under the bus to further their movement? And then they wonder why we want our own space.

Things used in arguments I heard about 10 yrs ago:

- "you wouldn't say/do that to someone in a wheelchair"

- "we are literally physically disabled too bc our brain is an organ!!!"

- "physically disabled people get everything look they have special parking spaces and ramps!"

- "when you go to the doctor for physical illness they immediately give you all the medicine and work hard to find a cure like Dr. House, but when I go to the doctor they throw me out the window" (stuff along those lines at least)

Y'all kicked us out, ignored us, made your own lil club with its own terms, turned us into jokes and strawmen, and abandoned people who are both physically and mentally disabled.

We wanted solidarity and you all didn't.

But how dare we make our own community so our voices can be heard, god forbid we discuss issues important to physically disabled people in this community without mentioning neurodivergents. And when we get even a little pissed off? How dare we.

And it's happening again. I've seen the same rhetoric repeated. No one is saying that mentally disabled people have no issues or don't face ableism at all. Stop bringing up your issues on our posts, it derails it and clogs up the notes.

We had to separate ourselves because you all kicked us out first so that neurotypical people would accept you. You didn't want to be associated with the gross ugly cripples.

Cripplepunk community is not the same as disabled community. It's under the same umbrella, not a replacement. Stop taking over our spaces and stop posting shit in our tags.

#cripplepunk #cripple #cripple punk #chronic disability #chronic pain #physical disability #spoonie #disability #ive seen a ton of young people posting that stuff and then everyone else rbs it without a second thought #and young people in my notes who dont know the history #pd people feel free to add your own examples

[lestatslestits]

#this is about whatever you thought about when you saw it #okay to reblog #mental health #disability #chronic pain #idk man #whatever you need it to be about

[phleb0tomist]

did you grow up with chronic pain? did you get called sensitive as a kid/teen with chronic pain? were you bombarded with wisecracks from adults who said you won’t know real pain till you get older? join my initiative to ban this vile practice from planet earth!

i had chronic pain as a kid. (still do now.) my physical ability was best in childhood, like, i could do cartwheels then, meanwhile i can’t walk now. but istg my pain was regularly at this very same level back in childhood. ok i have extra symptoms now which make things harder, but if we’re JUST focusing on the pain part, it’s often the same. this blows my mind. the level of pain that i have now, bedbound and with opioids and a million accommodations, is the same level i had when i was 10 when i was just walkin around all day, asking my teachers nicely if i could sit indoors during playtime. (they said no btw.) back then, every time i tried to tell people how much everything hurt, adults said i was “sensitive”.

was i sensitive? is that what i was?

I think i must have been insanely powerful as a 10 year old to be out and about with a level of pain that makes me nonfunctional as an adult. I wonder how many kids and teens are in that amount of pain right now and are being dismissed because of their age. i think the way adults treat children with long term pain is evil. “you don’t know real pain! it only gets worse as you get older! wait till you grow up!!”

okay i waited.

i’m closer to 30 now than i am to 10, and the more hindsight i gain, the more i realise what a horrific violation it is that my pain was ignored when i was the most vulnerable to the trauma of unmanaged pain and had the least frame of reference for what level of agony is normal to experience while climbing stairs

#ok to rb #HOT TIP. if it takes your child more than 20 minutes to recover from climbing stairs THEY ARE NOT SENSITIVE. they need MEDICAL HELP. #anyway. just thought y’all might relate #chronic pain #medical neglect #medical trauma #chronic illness #negative #disability #txt #I want to trigger tag this but idk what to put #rant #long post

[risinglikesunflower]

Maybe I do just ruin people's lives and it would be better if I didn't exist.

#sad thoughts #alone with my thoughts #dark thoughts #life is unfair #chronic pain #loneliest #dpression #drepressed #mentally fucked #sadnees #sad truth #sad things #melanchaholic #melancholia #dispair #depressing shit #i wanna die #i hate my existence

[blueeyedcitadel]

Okay, but can I just say what I'll never get over? The fact that House didn't take the last few pills of Vicodin he had left because he wanted to give them to Wilson. Although Wilson was probably going to throw them up, anyway. Although it meant that he himself would be in pain, the very thing we've seen House trying to avoid the whole show. Because, at this point, House didn't care if he would be in pain anymore; he just didn't want to see Wilson in pain. Because seeing Wilson's pain would probably hurt more than his own pain...

And then they have this conversation:

"I should have spent my life being more like you. Should have been a manipulative, self-centered, narcissistic ass, who brought misery to everything and everyone in his life."

"You'd still have cancer."

"Yeah! But at least I'd feel like I deserved it."

And House knows Wilson is lashing out because of the pain he's in. Hell, he knows he's pretty much the same when in pain. And he is in pain, he's gripping his leg when he walks, because he didn't take the Vicodin. Yet, he just sits on the floor next to Wilson, looking completely lost, as if the ultimate irony of life has started dawning on him just now.

And it really breaks my heart...

#house md #hilson #gregory house #james wilson #house s08e19 - The C-Word #house x wilson #wilson x house #chronic pain #my thoughts

[frankiensteinsmonster]

Hi. When I use my cane to assist me in something besides walking/standing please don't assume I will be "doing a trick" with it. I take pride and joy in how fucking boring and mundane I choose to make myself to you (abled people), I'm never going to be your entertainment. Stop assuming we exist to make you smile and clap like we're fucking animals at a zoo instead of people in pain. You want interesting? Ask me about tarantulas. The sheer number of instruments I play. Kanien'kehá:ka. My opinions on Frankenstein. My OUtFiT. There are way funner things about me than the stick I'm walking with because my body hurts all over all of the time.

#for real i used my cane to stop this person's Object from rolling away #and they SAID TO ME they expected me to be doing some sort of trick?? #like this legit stranger. never seen them before in my life. told me they thought id be doing something fucking practiced maneuver #when all i did was shift my cane like. five inches to the left. #it was fucking rude #cpunk #chronic pain #cripple punk #cane user #mobility aid #disability vent