#ciblog

[killbaned]

what people think 'i don't have the energy to do that means': im a giant lazy asshole that doesn't care about anything

what it actually fucking means: if i have to stand one more time i might literally pass out

#ciblogging #im tired #i just want to feel respected god damn it

[flatstarcarcosa]

Sometimes I think of a Funney Post I would like to make about me and Slade but then I gotta dial it back when I remember no one following this blog has the almost ten years of context posts about my bladder issues that people on my main do and that a joke with the punchline of me pissing on something would be incredibly out of left field.

#txt.txt #ciblogging #for bl

[akoeabi]

ciblog (di Sekitar Kota Makassar...) https://www.instagram.com/p/CEuajwHlVli/?igshid=1sykbn3hhqh77

[killbaned]

american govt: you HAVE to be fair and unbiased in your hiring practices and be open to hiring disabled people

corporations: ugh fine, we will

american govt: good

also corporations: but we're gonna make it so hard, if not impossible, for said cripples to do their jobs and be self sufficient that they'll have no choice but to quit, if they don't work themselves to death, and then ALSO make it impossible for them to invoke these laws against us and claim we're not being fair :)

american govt: yah that's fine too lol

also american govt: if you're crippled and you want money to live and you can't get it by working because clearly you're fucking lazy we will force you to undergo agonizing tests and invade every corner of your privacy and then decide if you're deserving or not based on how many times you smiled on your instagram account!!

#ableism #slurs tw #ciblogging

[killbaned]

I'm fast approaching my pain threshold and I have no idea when or if I will be given pain meds and it's making me want to drink. The only reason I'm not is because I've already found working with a hangover is Bad and also because if I drink I'll smoke a whole pack of cigs and I just had penumonia

But I don't know what I'm going to do.

#ciblogging #i hate this and i hate the cdcdea #and i hate that fucking pa at my drs office

[killbaned]

Its heartwarming to see all the married men on the IC subreddit that make posts like "my wife can't get doctors to take her seriously how can I help her?" Bc so many turn into assholes about IC because of how it affects your sex life.

#ciblogging

[killbaned]

i fucked up and let my spoons dip into the negative and i’m 

fucking dying!!! 

#ciblogging #all this because of some bread?

[killbaned]

Gluten free bread.......

Is like eating toilet paper......

#im going to fuvking die #ciblogging

[killbaned]

i’ll never forget the time when i was working at ingles and  a coworker was whining about how she was SO STRESSED and dealing with SO MUCH “chronic pain” that every night, just to be able to sleep, 

she had to take one melotonin and one advil PM 

#i did not know what to respond with lmao #like wow #ableds are fucking weak honestly #y'all are babies #ciblogging

[killbaned]

curling up to go to sleep at five pm???

it’s the disabilities, babey!!!!!

#ciblogging

[killbaned]

Me: I'm going to have one (1) coffee.

My kidneys: oh so you want us to die huh? You want us to fuck right off and never work again? FUCK you.

#ciblogging

[killbaned]

I'm so exhausted its making me sick.

#ciblogging #pwease remove my kidneys

[killbaned]

me, someone whos had chronic pain for about five years: ha ha wow, who knew STANDING STILL could HURT amirite fellas

#ciblogging #me i did #i would like #a shower chair ple a s e #PWEASE #sitting on the floor of the shower isnt better because i have to #get back up

[killbaned]

LOVE is stored in the PISS

#i had to get a pelvic ultrasound done and my bladder is looking loke an upside down heart??? #that shit better be image distortion #ciblogging

[killbaned]

me: can you figure out why it hurts to exist?

the medical community: hmmmm no, but heres pain pills so you can function in the mean time

me: ok? i guess

the dea an cdc, busting my door down like the fucking kool-id-man: WHATS UP YOU FUCKING JUNKY

#ciblogging #cdcdea can kiss my ass honestly #these fucking bullshit rules about getting meds refilled #and another of my meds is about to be turned into a controlled subtance the fuck!!!!

[killbaned]

im just so tired of situations where us cripples or, in the case of some, care givers for us cripples are like collectively saying, “hey! this thing works for us!” and the fucking government just looks at us like 

:) hmmm, but does it really, what do you REALLY KNOW, you cripple you?

#slurs #ciblogging #LIKE im on 14 meds that i can't even afford #and i prioritize getting them filled by which one's DT's i can afford to deal with atm #which just for reference: none of them are fun