#class get's a wake up call

[askyofexplodingstars]

my favourite polycule

#i recently finally saw all the ddlc plus side stories and they were very sweet #there's no way they didn't notice the sapphic overtones while writing them lmao #esp the last one; they just about went around the whole class calling each other cute but yuri bailed before it could get that far #i lub them #plus timeline is canon in my heart now idc #doki doki literature club #doki doki literature club plus #ddlc #ddlc plus #ddlc sayori #ddlc monika #ddlc yuri #ddlc natsuki #my art #doodles/sketches/wips #also as someone who's had long hair i can confirm it's hell to wake up and brush so i've given monika & yuri mercy by having it braided

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 285

Another Tiamat Prompt, what d’ya know lol. 

Only? That much power, of nine near-godly beings in one body? That’s a lot. And, they can’t exactly… unmeld anymore. But they were prepared for that, they were ready to have to sacrifice it all. So if they have to leave their world as their power gets too strong, then so be it. 

So they wander, from world to world, unable to stay long, never finding a place that feels like home. They wander, stars spilling from wings, asteroids melding with scales and stars bursting into feathers as they do so. 

They wander, and grow both stronger, and bigger than ever before. But they grow tired, weary. Exhausted even. This endless travel, they tire of it, just wanting a moment of rest. They’ve been moving endlessly for so long, getting fitful rest as one of them dozes at a time, and they just want a proper moment of sleep. 

So they land and… when did worlds become so small? When did they become vast enough to wrap around them? When did they grow so large to dwarf the world they had once come from so long ago once in another timeline? 

How long, they wonder, have the nine of them wandered? How far? How many timelines? Dimensions? Planes of reality? 

But they’re tired. So for now? They rest. They sleep away their worries and grief, life and death spilling from their breath, rock and earth building around them as they dream. Water giving way to life, plants to animals, animals to destruction over and over. 

And they rest. They sleep. Scales harder than any ore, feathers more beautiful than the rarest bird, fur softer than the most expensive silks, yet visible to none. For they sleep, resting below the waves, stretching from sea to sea. 

Until…

Until they begin to wake. They do not mean harm, they are not even aware of the life that has grown from their presence, of the panic the great disasters and storms are causing. One snuffs in their sleep, a volcano bursting from the heat. Another head shifts slightly, sighing at the new comfortable position as sinkholes break across the surface like an earthquake. 

How can they be aware, when they’re still dreaming? 

#DCxDP #DPxDC #Prompts #The Class Pulls a Tiamat #Reminder for who is part of the Ennead: Danny/Dash/Sam/Tucker/Val/Paulina/Kwan/Star/Wes #Don’t worry they’re not on Earth #Another planet might be panic-calling the Justice League & the Lanterns though #Superman instantly pales the moment they get anywhere near the planet #”That’s not a core of a planet- that’s some sort of Heartbeat” #Yes the giant multi-winged hydra is planet sized now #They’re like the mystery flesh pit #Yes they Are waking up from some aliens mining at their scales #They’re big enough it doesn’t even hurt them it’s just like an annoying rash or itch #Yes it’s very lovecraftion vibes with them being near incomprehensible to the planet-dwellers & other things #let ghosts be Eldritch

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[katierosefun]

pros of waking up earlier in the morning: wow i’m getting so much work done. i have so much time for the rest of the day. what do you mean i’m already almost done with this assignment it’s not even noon yet?

cons of waking up earlier in the morning: i have to actually wake up early in the morning

#caroline talks #i laugh because it's not even really 'early' #i woke up at like 8 am today which is actually. kinda considered later for me in the mornings #because even on the weekends i usually try to wake up at around 7:30 bc. idk. being a full-time law student #means that. you gotta really get going even on the weekends #and then during the actual week i'm usually up by 6:30 am #maybe earlier if i really need to get more stuff done #but it's break! which means that usually i'd be up at around 9 am #or even at like. 9:30 am #but i have an assignment due at 9 pm tonight #and then i have some networking calls to make tomorrow afternoon #and i also need to outline for my classes bc oh god we are officially less than a month away from the first exam #which makes me. scream #so like! we are being. so normal #how can i relax over break when time is hurtling at me like a TRAIN #anyways in a panic #i actually started working on this assignment last night #bc for some reason i thought it was due TOMORROW instead of TONIGHT #so yesterday in a rush i printed out all 25 pages of the assignment #read through it a few times on the train #tried to do some of it but the wifi SUCKED so i couldn't get far #then came home at like. 6:30 pm #ate dinner + chatted with my family for like. 3 hours #then from like. 10 pm until almost 1 am i was working on the first part of the assignment #and then 7 hours of sleep before going into the next part of the assignment #it is now 11:34 am #i have been at it for roughly 3 hours now

[disdaidal]

So I think I'm finally getting a contract and I'm going to start my new studies (as a youth/school counselor) in my old school. I met the principal today and had a talk with him, and he said he was pleased to see me there and would like to have me there because I already know my way around and seemed to manage things just fine when I was still their student. So, that's great, I'm finally getting somewhere.

But I'll have to wait until Friday because he's still not quite sure who's going to be my supervisor, so he's going to have a talk with a couple of staff members about it at first.

And then my teacher in my new school is already pressing me with contract matters and stuff, wanting me to start earlier than I had originally planned or at least get the contract done by then, so uhh. I'm going to have a Teams meeting with her on Friday at 8 o'clock in the morning (I'm not a morning person at all), and I'm sure we're going to have such a lovely discussion about my schedule and study plans and all that stuff.

All this phone-calling and paperwork is giving me a headache. And I still have some school assignments to do and to return before next week, and guess what - ya girl just wants to read and write fanfiction all day and all night. 🤪 Priorities, I has them.

#personal #no seriously i went to bed around 4am because i was writing a fic. and then i got up at 8:30 after snoozing the clock for an hour #because i had the appointment with the principal around 10am so #but anyway despite my poor sleeping schedule i am actually happy about this opportunity #i should be able to work in the evenings if they can just find me a supervisor. which would be super because then i'm not going to have to #wake up early. unless i get a side job because i need money and this is only training so i don't get paid for it. but remains to be seen #i am not feeling awfully energized for school/work combination right now so uhh #but then i'd also get to work as a special needs assistant because this school has a lot of special needs students #so that sounds pretty good actually. it was something i was also thinking about doing before #because i was kind of a special needs student myself when i was younger and i didn't get the help i needed so #helping others with that could be great. a great opportunity indeed #and i may have to help with this other type of class as well #i think they're calling it preparatory education for vocational training in english. i'm not 100% sure what it even means #but well if i get a chance then perhaps i'll find outl #so all in it sounds like they have need for me and i get to do a lot of different stuff so. it should be good #it's. just this. studying itself. and like i said. all this paperwork and making phone calls and stuff. it's stressing me out #so uh #let's just hope that friday makes me a little bit wiser

[tkbrokkoli]

how are my mutuals doing

#not fandom related #personal log stardate #i was busy the last few days writing a report for class. on friday i spent 9 hrs w writing 😬 im drained now from the past few days #exams start in 2 weeks so i basically have to spend all my free time studying starting from today ugh #ive been on T for a little over 2 weeks now haven't noticed any changes so far except maybe some ~sensations~ considering voice and #bottom growth. my throat has hurt a bit for a few days but i might also just have gotten a cold. i feel however like my voice is a little #deeper right after waking up and trying to speak deeper than my usual speaking voice has become a bit easier. i have to put effort into it #though. also bottom growth idk if the sensations are just a usual phase of sensations dowm there that i sometimes get anyway #or if it's actual bottom growth. i could be imagining the voice and bottom growth stuff. that's how tiny the changes in sensation are #still it makes me euphoric 😁 #i haven't talked to my family abt trans stuff again and there's a slight tension between us that im not sure what to do w #but im seeing my therapist this week to discuss all of this #i don't have any health updates bc i haven't seen that doctor again yet my next appointment is in april and since I didn't get a call from #them i suppose nothing is urgently bad so i hope it's all just fine but ill hear abt it in april

[deicide-doll]

trigger warning. do not read if you dont want to read something triggering.

#my bf is a fucking rapist #i told him i didnt want to have sex again because it was getting late and i have work tomorrow #and he usually takes a long time to finish after round 1 so i didnt want to stay up an extra hour #and he started manipulating me and pleading and saying he loved me and i dont know why i capitulated but #the fact that i said ok after 10 no's? #and i was crying #i was crying while i sucked his dick and while he fucked me #and he told me to struggle more because he found it hot #he thinks rape is hot #and after he joked about being a good manipulator and being able to get me to disregard my boundaries #which is true #but like he knows im an abuse survivor and have trouble with boundaries #the fuckdd up thing is he was the one who taught me to have boundaries #he told me to tell my mom to eat a dick when shes egging on my eating disorder #he told me i didnt have to stick around when my mom was calling me slurs for breaking dishes or failing classes #and here he is being proud that he managed to get through an abuse victims boundaries #he also joked about waking up to the cops at his door #which like shows that deep down inside he knows what he did is wrong #and if i wasnt such a cool girl i could get him into trouble #not like cops here persecute rape anyways but #i pretended to like it after the fact because i still needed him to take me home and i didnt wanna start a fight #but holy shit #idk what to do... #i mean im going to leave him fuck the trip #im shaking i dont even know how ill be able to go to work tomorrow #when this whole thing was over me wanting to get a reasonable amount of sleep on a work night #misiabear rants

[ballerinafigurine]

living with a mother who doesn't care about my health is ridiculously frustrating

#what do u mean i didnt get a booster shot for tetanus #what do u mean by calling me a hypochondriac when ultrasound literally shows im injured #WHAT DO U MEAN AM I GOING TO CLASS I HAVE A FEVER #personal #what do u mean u are staying in the room while having my first breast exam even when i asked u to leave and staring at me the entire time #what do u mean i dont need a psychiatrist i can barely get more than four hours of sleep because i wake up too early

[othercrossee]

Toya bd is the same day as my presentation

#z rambles #i need to bullshit tonight cuz once i wake up tmr its all work from here on out #i cannot explain to u how. funny this schedule is like oh lord.....who made this? #coming from the school who tried to one up their own student for rigbtfully complaining and then got a no u. from the government #i would NOT put it pass them to stoop low enough to do this to us #ALSO I HAVENT PAID THE TUITION FOR TBIS TERM 🧍‍♂️ #none of us did. the ENTIRE CLASS goin to get called tf out soon #uhhh ig ill do it this monday idek #i love this stupid gif sm sorry for abusing it #im gomna go add to cart now and neglect drawing toya um

[starpros-sunshine]

hello seb its me the catboy in your head. leave tumblr and get a tasty snack you deserve it

anyway hi seb howre you

Thanks thanks I'll try to do that I really deserve a treat I really do

I'm okay I think. Could be considerably better. A lot better actually but I'm fine I suppose.

↑ the lady

#i have my cat here and she's very cute #so that's nice #but i had this coming the past few days have been really weird #and then my first thought after waking up was 'oh this is not the right body' and then i wasn't really able to look in a mirror all day #cause it just felt wrong like. not my face nope nope who the fuck are you #same with my voice yeah today was a depersonalisation day indeed #for lack of better wording I'll call it that #again i apologize I'll return to being silly and happy in a bit #this was rather nice i think i needed to cry again I'm like if repression was a person so it's good to get all of that out once in a while #future me is gonna hate me for this but i do not care #at this point saying I'm good and everything's splendid is not gonna do me any good either so whatever #oh who am i kidding there's a good chance future me won't even remember this #if i do remember then it'll be classed as a nice experience #vani🐈 #sorry again i know it's not really what people like to hear from their friends but yeah i feel better now really

[thisiswash]

letting me become an adult was a mistake all i am is a child who knows math now

#i stay up until 5am playing video games and ruining my sleep schedule #there is a reason i am into girls u can call mommy #lol #anyways i am very tired and only woke up to go to office hours which #didn’t end up happening so i just spent 45 minutes figuring out a problem on my own #WHICH I DID I DID IT #and I got the right answers #so #yes #ok sleep time before waking up to get ready for class later #have a good day everyone

[kalu-chan]

Well this was a dream I hope to not have again.

#Like it wasn't a nightmare it was just. Uncomfortable. #Like it involved me first realizing I missed work. Waking up IN THE DREAM and realizing it was like 10-11 AM so I still missed a meeting #And I apologized for that with a meme for some reason?? like googled a pic and edited it a bit for that #And then my coworkers told me that original pic was made by a TERF and that that's REALLY not a good look for me #And I was just sitting there like No!!!! I just grabbed a random pic off of Google!!! But I didn't wanna tell them that I AM TRANS #And then there was some weird event thingy and there was a group called ''Young Poet's Society'' that I wanted to join #And the book I read was so BAD like #It was about a man cheating on his wife somehow?? #Written very old timey like a book you'd get as assigned reading in German class #And the first scene I remember was the MC being worried about wanted to cheat and being told like #''better you bring other women home than to spill your seed elsewhere'' #And then the second scene I remember was him with some woman telling her that 12 children is already more than enough #And that they'll soon not be able to see the floor between all those trousers and skirts. While to woman was pregnant btw. #Like. bruh. #Oh and before I first realized I'd missed work I was taking a walk or smth and ran into some kid (I'm guessing 8-10 maybe?) #And somehow ended up chatting with him. Idk guess we decided we'd be siblings now lmao #Went to get milkshakes with him and my dad. I wanted vanilla but dad ordered without asking me so idk what I got #Probably something nice tho. maybe Oreo or smth. #At some point some uncles/aunts and friends of the family were also there #kiddo started getting antsy so we told him to go back home #Meanwhile I was a little worried about missing horseback riding practice #Before I realized SHIT I STILL HAVE TO WORK MON TO THURS THIS WEEK AND IT'S ALREADY LIKE 8PM #(which btw is also after horseback riding practice but wasn't in this case) #So I thought it might be a dream and willed myself to wake up but I guess I only woke up into that other dream where it already was 10-11AM #And when I tried waking up again it didn't work so I figured it must be reality

[theamazingannie]

Me: Hey, we don’t need negative commentary right now. We need to be more encouraging.

Mom: Well, I guess I’m a terrible mother and am of no use to any of you and I guess you can be your brother’s mom now since I’m so bad at it. *storms off*

Me:

#she also said ‘I guess you don’t need my money for lunch or for me to wake you up in the morning either’ #which like…those are very basic parts of being a parent #she’s literally threatening to just stop taking care of her minor child #because me and him both find her comments about his work ethic to be discouraging #he is the poster child for learned helplessness right now #and i am working so hard to undo all of that #but It’s hard when both of my parents consider it their god given parental right to insult their children #It’s so frustrating #like i so badly wish I could leave and go no contact with them #but id be abandoning my brother too and I can’t leave him alone with them #he was fine before I left for college and now he’s a fucking mess #because he has had no One looking out for him #and It’s fuxking devestating to watch #He’s so smart and so passionate but he’s failing one class and doing terribly in most of the others #cuz he can’t focus and doesn’t see the point in homework #aka is exhibiting signs of adhd #which my parents know he has #he had an official diagnosis and a prescription #but that does nothing when the two people with the lost control over you #are constantly calling you a failure and saying you’re never gonna get anywhere in life #Im so sick of it

[actualtoad]

this has been such a weird last couple weeks of school though

#like i feel like my mental illness really pushed itself to the front for the last while there #not that it’s gone like im still within that time period i think #i just feel like i had a pretty regular routine going for some months there #like. wake up get on bus sleep on bus struggle through classes go home sleep wake up repeat #so i guess i was already pretty mentally ill. but my routine has changed to like #wake up at 3:30 wake up again at 7 get on bus sleep a little struggle through first hour sleep through second hour skip third hour #don’t turn in my fourth hour assignments go to french and pretend to be happy go to raider time and be uncomfortably quiet and then #stay after school for as long as possible to avoid setting foot at home for as long as possible #and then add in a couple mental breakdowns per week about the only adult who’s ever been like. kind. to me. in this way #anyway my math class just started and it’s just going to be a straightforward work day #our college grades are finalized but for the high school grade we’re allowed to retake any tests we did badly on #so i might retake the chapter five test. im just worried that i might do worse this time around #but anyway for today that’s not what we’re doing that. that’s an option for next week. im just going to stay here #but yeah. idk. im still filled with a huge amount of fear just about the idea of not having somewhere to go #like. i can’t drive. if the school bus isn’t taking me to school every day i just don’t have the support system i have during the year #idk. tara and elanor both live within walking distance. i just. definitely don’t feel that comfortable talking to them about stuff #or asking them for help with anything that’s very important #hey i just found out the kid who ‘‘prefers to be called daddy’’ dropped this class. good for us #can i tell you how uncomfortable it is. as the only person in this class with a name different from the one on the roster #for this random kid to be out here making fun of the idea of that #and saying he prefers to be called DADDY. it was. an interesting thing #to be fair it’s kind of funny. it just made me uncomfortable and he’s for sure transphobic so #it just wasn’t a good look all in all. even if it was a little creative #anyway my playlist is playing twinkle lights by the sonder bombs now. i love this song too. im going to turn off tumblr though #just out of respect for my teacher. i guess. like i should be doing something important right now #he gave us a work day and i should probably work about it #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[the-mehlwurm]

I'm celebrating never having maths, biology, German, physics and history ever again by playing stardew valley and drinking a bottle of beer my parents got me last summer as a souvenir.

#Rhis might genuinely be stupid because it's a 1.5l bottle of beer #And I'm already tipsy enough that I decided to wake up at 5:16 to join a friends class instead of getting up at 7:00 #But I'm having fun #And I deserve to celebrate #Because if I pass all my exams I'm going to pass the school year #And that's dope #Btw I caught 2 fish Perfectly despite being tipsy and sneezing #One was a large mouth bass and the other on was a carp (carps are easy to cathc but who cares) #I also still gave school tomorrow #But only philosophy for 1.5 hours #So it would probably be ok if I'm hungover #Also going to dress up as a 2000s emo bc we have sth called a “mottowoche” in which we dress up and tomorrow our theme is time travel #And 2000s emo is closest to my actual style so it won't be too embarrassing lmao #I love beet #But being drunj is weird #Idk what I should think about being drunl #Like i just get dizzy and really emotional and I start stumbling #But idk #Love yall BTW #<333333333 #You're always sonice to me #Genuinely appreciate you #Hop you have an amazing day #And week #And life in general ig #Love you :33

[ii-zi]

My heads a little odd it's like it was filled w water and it had a marble or something and everything I disturbe the water with sound or movement the marble thing goes crazy

#im thinking of a word but can't remember it lol #might have to skip sleep so i can shower before everybody wakes up and ask to be taken #somewhere? #like a clinic or anywhere for a checkup? #like i dont wanna go to er they're gonna make me wait hours bc im breathing and not bleeding lol #but maybe a simi clinic #disoriented is the word #i feel like an astronaut it's funny when not alarming it's like #when im very motion sick without the nausea? im just glad im not nauseous lol my stomachs been so nice the last week or so #we're all sick tho im thinking of asking if i could get a covid or influenza test done bc we're /all/ sick my dad almost kicked it last #weekend and my mom's taking a day off for the first time like ever #I've been feeling emotionally devastated for some reason (btw the baby saved all their classes!!!!) and i keep thinking it's bc im #physically ill which i can never fully process despite being sick all the time lol #but i got a /normal/ fever twice or thrice in a week and it scared me so bad lmao they usually make me feel like #i was throw into a furnace but i felt the bone deep cold n all that relatively normal shit but it felt so foreign i was scared #naproxen and a 13h nap (lol) took care of it yesterday tho #im v scared of antibiotical restriction or whatever it's called I'm not very bilingual rn #so i never take them without them being prescribed by someone reputable lol #but I've been feeling like I've got a mild ear infection for what seems like forever which im aware can be super dangerous #but i was too focused on getting them to take me to the dentist first that I wasn't even thinking about that #(and they were going to! but then my dad got his phone stolen and he needs it for his job lol) #anyways my mom said that im either juuust entering a fever or coming out of it or whatevers the right term #which is why im so chatty rn lol my mom says i talk even thru my elbows (thanks gboard for the translation) but she #can tell when i have a fever bc i get squirmy bc of the heat + super chatty it's so funny #hopefully it all goes well and the simi doctor magically puts me a step closer to finding out what's Wrong™ w me #(magically a.k.a. medicine) #ive also wanted to talk w a doctor about how many antibiotics i was given as a kid without the #stomach pro something thing. for like thr flora so it doesn't die w the illness #and how it could be v closely tied to my chronic stomach issues (even tho i was like born w them but like it could have made that worse) #personal