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[theinvisibledreamergirl]

She’s thunderstorms

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x F!MC (Helena Craig) x M!OC (Clay Banner)

Words count: 2.5 k

Warning: 🔞 content/Language

Category: Angst/AU

A.N: Part two of A Triangle of Love Series. Events after the Sweet dreams, TN fic. Helen is the alter ego of Klaw Craig. Feel free to judge me because now that I’m re-reading it… it’s bullshit and I don’t know what to call this. Especially the song it’s not fitting duhhh. Going to log off after posting it. *sighs*

Song: “She’s thunderstorms” - Arctic Monkeys

MASTERLIST

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She’s thunderstorms

Lying on her front, up against the wall

She’s thunderstorms

Bryce Lahela was right.

She’s like a goddess that entered to this building and blessed my life when I made eye contact with her.

Indeed a blessing.

She was the most incredible woman and everyone would take a bow just for her hand and fulfill all the wishes she wanted.

He couldn’t feel his breath in that short moment when they exchanged looks. Did someone pause his heart and his body? Because surely he had multiple questions as his mind drifted into thoughts.

When did she come here? How did she find him? Where did she work before coming here? Is she alone? But if not, who was with her? The hair colour and style had changed too. From the straight dark brown with bangs had gone into long, wavy light ash blonde hair that seemed to make her a different person.

But her face was still like he left it. Her arched brows that made her confident; captivating eyes with determination; full and inviting lips that always gave him chills when she crooked them into a playful smirk; her strong and beautiful jaw that tilted whenever he teased her or touched with such delicacy that made her gasp into pleasure; her long neck… without his necklace. He almost scoffed. Of course she had taken it off. What was he expecting?

Their bodies pining in the wall in ecstasy and hearing her sounds...

I’ve been feeling foolish, you should try it

She came and substituted the peace and quiet for

Acrobatic blood, flow concertina

Cheating heartbeat, rapid fire

Everything.

He wanted to do everything.

Anytime and anywhere.

With her and only her.

When he saw her hand shaking with another one... he felt a pit into his stomach and a familiar feeling came into his brain.

Mine.

She’s thunderstorms

Lying on her front, up against the wall

She’s thunderstorms

Here is your host, sounds as if she’s pretty close

When the heat starts growing horns

She’s thunderstorms

That greatly but destructive feeling called jealousy was in his veins. He wanted to reach out and twirl her around and to whisper to her:

I’m sorry and I really missed you.

Instead he came with slow and confident steps as if his imagination vanished quickly without so noticing and a small professional smile appeared in his face and she seemed to understand it. One more reason why he loves her.

“Ah Clay here you are,” Simon spoke breaking his trip of memory lane. “I want to present you Dr. Helena Craig the surgeon who’s going to replace Edgar for a while. Helen this is Dr. Clay Banner our future cardiothoracic surgeon.”

“It’s a pleasure to meet you Dr. Banner… I have heard a lot about you.” It seemed like a lifetime since he had heard her angelic voice that was a symphony in his ears. He held his tears from falling and coughed to fight the strangle voice that was about to let out.

“A pleasure to meet you too Dr. Craig and I can say the same thing about you.”

Something inside of Helen was igniting.

Her flame.

That old flame which burnt her into many pieces and toyed with her body all of those times sharing with him. She couldn’t say that she didn’t miss him. The real him. The one she fell in love with. His adoring face, his soft hands, his broad shoulders where she leaned on and his assuring voice when she felt insecure.

She had mastered perfectly the art of acting and pretending to be satisfied with everything in her life. Little did those people in the room know how her heart was aching miserably and was shattering from disappointment and hurt from the very same man that was just two feet away.

But a baritone and irritating voice seemed to cut off all of that momentary darkness which in fact she thanked him in silence. “Done with the introductions? Great. We’ve got work to do.” Ethan turned his back and started to write in the whiteboard. “The patient is from Manhattan Presbyterian…”

While Ethan was explaining the symptoms, Helen held a transfixed face to all of the theories of her attending and unexpectedly to other colleagues, she started to ask questions which resulted helpful despite being a surgeon. Sometimes she shared thoughts with Clay and even agreeing with them. It was part of the job after all and Clay couldn’t help but feel proud for his woman.

Correction: his ex.

A past tense that he had to learn from now on. But deep inside of him there was a spark of hope that maybe… maybe things would get back to normal. And maybe she would forgive him.

The team was finally dismissed but only two people stayed. Ethan called Helen before she would leave and that made Clay’s blood boiled because all he wanted was to talk to her right after this meeting. He had to try one last card even though it was useless.

“Dr. Ramsey can we talk for a moment?”

“Is there anything wrong Dr. Banner?”

“No j-just,” he stuttered. “Q-questions about the team in general.”

“We will but after I finish a discussion with Dr. Craig if you don’t mind.”

Fuck you.

“Not at all Sir.” He closed the door reluctantly and sighed in defeat.

“What’s the matter Dr. Ramsey?” She asked although she knew damn well why he had called her.

“What are you doing here?” Ethan clasped his fingers as if to stop whatever his mind was blowing now. His ears were still echoing with her words whispering softly.

Thank you for the distraction. I really needed it.

“Starting my job,” she said innocently and shrugged. “Is it irrelevant?”

“Yes, it is,” he nodded and his feet was carrying him over her; something inevitable that no matter what, he couldn’t stop. “I don’t think all of this is a coincidence.”

“Well lucky for you now you’ll have the most trustworthy person in your team that won’t let you down.”

He scoffed while shaking his head. “I highly doubt your confidence.”

“Just wait and see.”

I’ve already seen you.

After their encounter last night Ethan couldn’t sleep. Many times of trying to change and find the perfect position led to nothing but drinking in the balcony that even his dog Jenner didn’t like it and cooed sadly to his owner. What was this woman doing to him? Why he felt so weak in front of her that immediately wanted to bend her over to his desk and scream his name?

“So,” she crossed her arms behind her waist. “How was I?”

He frowned in confusion and god she thought to herself why he had to be such handsome even in that moment. “Hm?”

“In making you feel surprised.”

“Ah that. Well you’ve clearly exceeded my expectations.”

“Wow. So I rendered you speechless then.”

Giggles were ringing in the walls and for the first time in a while Ethan Ramsey smiled at that. It was something so natural that came from her as other people didn’t get his dry humour but she... she was different. It was like a magnet that more and more you get closer, the more attached you become to her.

She’s been loop-the-looping around my mind

Her motorcycle boots give me this kind of

Acrobatic blood, concertina

Cheating heartbeat, rapid fire

He cleared his throat in purpose of changing the subject. “The reason why I called you,” he put his hand in his front pocket to reveal a tiny and shining object that seemed familiar to her. “Does this belong to you?

“Oh my god yes! This is my earring!” Helen exclaimed shockingly while grazing it with her thumb. Apparently had slipped when she whispered in his ear. “I was looking it all over my room but I couldn’t find it anywhere.” Her gaze now was turned back to him in gratefulness. “Thank you.”

Without thinking she closed their distance by enveloping him into a hug. This caught Ethan off guard but now he returned the hug back and closed his eyes while inhaling her perfume. She did the same too and in that moment both of them felt safe on each other’s arms as if they knew where they belonged. The world around them didn’t exist for a few seconds and both of them despite not saying out loud, they wanted to continue it.

She’s thunderstorms

Lying on her front, up against the wall

She’s thunderstorms

“It’s nothing.” He smiled politely when they separated.

“No this is not nothing. I owe you because this earring was really special to me.” She inhaled slowly while considering an option. Taking some risk wouldn’t hurt her? Right? “What do you say uhm- a drink? In this case I can apologise for yesterday’s… thing.”

“You have nothing to apologise for.”

“Sure I have, because to be completely honest Dr. Ramsey… I knew who you were.”

And here he thought that she was just another stranger that thankfully didn’t know him. Now he was feeling raged and betrayed because that meant she wanted to impress him only by her appearance and make a spot here on his team. His authoritative voice came back as if to maintain the last straw of himself.

“You did know who were you talking to?”

“Yeah I did. Now I’m speaking to my attending,” she moved tantalising and confidently just like yesterday. “To my colleague. And,” then tilted her chin while saying. “To a possible friend.”

“For the latter dream on.” He warned her.

She laughed heartedly. “We’ll meet at Donahue’s at 9 PM sharply and don’t be late because I can’t wait more than two minutes.”

His eyebrows narrowed incredulously and crossed his arms to his chest. “I don’t remember accepting your offer. And besides… how do you know my agenda? What if I’m busy?”

“Well I don’t remember taking a no answer from you and I’ve got my sources about your special agenda.” She shrugged innocently. “See you tonight doctor.”

The door was closed but not before throwing a playful wink to him. He let out a laugh while shaking his head in disbelief. This woman was really crazy but it was one of a kind and Ethan Ramsey couldn’t wait to know more about her.

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Helen wasn’t surprised to see him waiting impatiently in the corner while she was talking with Dr. Ramsey.

What was so important that took them this long? He thought.

Actually that was only five minutes but to him it seemed like five hours already. When she got out he couldn’t help but stare at her not knowing where to start first.

“Helen.”

“Dr. Banner,” the plastered smile didn’t leave her face despite being furious and ready to wipe his ass in front of everyone. “You can go now to Dr. Ramsey. He’s free.”

“Actually, can we talk?” She rolled her eyes. “I won’t make you wait too much. I promise.”

Helen whispered only for the two of them to hear. “You and your promises,” a tackle of her tongue was heard twice. “Aren’t in coherence. I don’t know why should I listen to you. Let me guess- I’m sorry my Helen but I had to step in you to gain my spot here in Edenbrook thanks to my parents who are very powerful and influential people in Boston.”

“I-”

“I’m not finished,” her hardened gaze was evident and he knew he had to stop. “Or how you accepted without so much caring not one but two strange women in your bed while you were fucking drunk. That must’ve been a fruitful threesome huh? Why didn’t you try with a boy too? That would’ve been the cherry on top.” Her words were poisonous and she thought he deserved much worse than these. “Or how your mother has always tried to make me feel miserable in front of everyone when you did absolutely nothing to stop it. Not even moving your finger.”

In an unusual place, when you’re feeling far away

She does what the night does to the day

She was right about everything. He couldn’t disagree with any of the words she said. Helen Craig was rarely found to be wrong.

“I think that our conversation ends here Dr. Banner.”

He grabbed her elbow without thinking twice for his recklessness and made her narrow her eyes in annoyance. “Tonight at Donahue’s bar 9 o’clock and I will explain you everything.”

“Get off me or I’ll scream.” She warned dangerously.

“We both know you can’t.” Clay had no idea where this was leading but he could see the fire into her eyes. “You wouldn’t want people to find out that you had a boyfriend working here huh?”

Look at this prick starting to talk.

“Well well do you need a reminder that my father and my brother can make you beg for your life again?”

The last encounter with the Craig males was one year ago when they found out that this jerk had dumped the most precious thing of their family. Patrick Craig was the first to reach for the drawer to load his gun just in case whereas Brian her brother made sure to find Clay’s location with his advanced knowledge of technology. The end resulted in a bloody and a harsh fight between them and warning the latter to not come any centimeter closer to Helen. And the scar on his neck was still visible after that time.

“That happened once. It can’t happen again,” he grasped her out of his hand. “I’ll be waiting.”

With that he left the ultimatum settled in her hands and keeping it until 9 PM. Helen stayed still like someone had glued her in a position that she couldn’t escape.

She wouldn’t go.

No.

She wouldn’t hear him again and believe his words. But there was such a confidence in his voice that made her scared. Thanks to that she felt the anxiety rising up and panic for what was about to come.

She could easily cancel the plans with Dr. Ramsey and not go to that bar. But when she met him yesterday it felt something different with that share of eye contact.

Despite being half-drunk and exhausted from her flight he had made her forgetting all of her plans and the reason why she came in Boston. It was entirely a new world, a new dimension that she hadn’t explored yet and was eager to find more about this man.

It was unethical but did she care? Not in the slightest. Helen was ambitious and she definitely would possess it. She had to think of a plan how to sabotage this whole thing but how?

The choice she had to make was like a ticking bomb that in one way or another, was going to blast.

She’s thunderstorms

Lying on her front, up against the wall

She’s thunderstorms, thunderstorms, thunderstorms

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Love Triangle: Ethan x F!MC x OC

A doctor who became my stalker - @lapisreviewsstuff​ 🎭 A month ago, Geli broke up with Ethan. Month later, a stalker tries to ruin Geli’s new boyfriend- Raleigh Carrera and tries to win Geli’s heart.

A Triangle of Love - @theinvisibledreamergirl 🛸📚Ⓜ [mini: wip]  What if my MC didn’t get her place at Edenbrook Hospital in her first year and her boyfriend did? And what happens if she comes as a surgical resident in the 2nd year? Feat. Ethan Ramsey x F!MC (Helena Craig) x M!OC (Clay Banner)

I.  Sweet dreams, TN ♥  |  II. She’s thunderstorms

All The Attention - @itslaniquelove ♥ Ethan and MC have a threesome with BB Jax. Feat. Ethan x F!MC x OC

Another Attending - @utterlyinevitable​ 🎭 Ethan and Becca have been having a rocky affair. He won’t be open with his feelings so she’s become distanced. As she knows, the best form of distancing is to become involved with someone else. Feat. Ethan x F!MC x M!OC

Happier - @malyceaduncastellan Ethan sees MC happy with someone else.

Pre-view - @utterlyinevitable​ 🎭 Pre-FATL, Becca’s started her new fellowship at a hospital abroad. She’s at a pub with her new friends one evening. Feat. Ethan x F!MC x M!OC

The Way I Loved You - @bex-la-get 🛸📚 [wip] When Ethan runs off to Amazon, Natalie rekindles an old relationship. But tensions rise as Nat and Ethan navigate the feelings they still have for each other and the impending closure of the hospital looms. Feat. Ethan x F!MC x M!OC

Part 1

Unspoken Pleas - @utterlyinevitable​ 🎭 Set a few days after FATL, they run into one another at the grocery store. Feat. Ethan x F!MC x M!OC

Until You Love Me - @txemrn 🛸 Ⓜ [mini: wip] Constantly worried about Ethan's faithfulness, Casey Valentine's paranoia reaches an all-time high when she meets a blast from his past. TW: NSFW; Infidelity, discussion and/or depiction of medical situations, gaslighting, mental abuse & illness, suicide, violence, criminal activity; alcohol use

What could have been - @perriewinklenerdie​ 🎭 She’s getting married. But not to Ethan.

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[snarkwrites]

Title: ghosts of christmases past

Theme: holiday party

Fandom / Character(s):Juice Ortiz x OFC! Hazel Morrow.

Warnings: A little bit angsty/bittersweet here. This is kind of Juice and Hazel being stuck on the side of the road together and... internally reflecting on their last christmas together, alone and earlier at the MC. One in particular. Listen, if I’m never gonna write either version of this story, just enjoy these random ass little bits as they come to me, lmaooo. Love you guys.

FYI, the bit in italics is Haze having a bit of a flashback. This ties to the theme, I promise.. It’s theme adjacent...

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Word Count: uhh.. 300 to 700+, roughly.

My last intention was for this to... Turn angsty and bittersweet. But alas, here we are.. But don’t fret, it ends kinda.. somewhat happily.

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“Sweetie, can you go with Juice into town? Your brother said that Tig and Chibs are sending him after some things for the party tonight and I need a few things too. I’d do it, but I’m kind of enjoying Grandma time with little bit and your nephews.”

My mom thought she was asking the harmless questions. Apparently, she’d completely forgotten how Juice and I can’t even be in the same room anymore without either a shouting match or awkward silence and heavy tension as the air around us filled to the brim with things that hadn’t been said. 

And all I could think was that this time a few years ago, before I left town, we were so happy. I thought he was it for me. I thought back then that by now, we’d be settled down. That maybe Juice would be working at Teller Morrow and I’d be teaching or something.

I swallowed hard and nodded. My mom wasn’t going to let me out of this and obviously, whatever she needed was important.

She handed me a list and some money. I tried to shove the money back at her, explaining that I’d pay, but she wouldn’t hear it. 

As I went to walk out the door, my mom called out to me. “Juice was a better man than Jase.”

I whirled around, gazing at my mother with my brow raised. “ If this is your way of saying you told me so, Mom… Trust me. Lesson learned.”

“No, I was just suggesting that maybe you use the time you’re out with Juice, you at least attempt to talk to him. I know things went wrong back then, but I also know that if you didn’t still feel something and feel it strongly, you wouldn’t spend so much time picking fights with the poor guy. He doesn’t really have anyone but the club, Hazelynn.”

I opened my mouth but I closed it. My mom had a point. And lately, any fool could see that Juice was really going through it.. He rarely talked to anyone, he was always so damn tense I thought he’d jump right out of his skin. If he did have to interact with me, he was even more tense. Standoffish, even, and that wasn��t like the man I’d known years before. That wasn’t the man I loved. Juice was more easy going and a bit of a joker. Not this tense and serious guy he’d apparently turned into as of late.

I was beyond worried about him. To a point where my own current situation was sort of taking a backseat. But any attempt I’d made to reconnect had been met with annoyance. Bitterness. And deep down, that cut me.

He was literally the one man I’d honestly never wanted to give up back then. But I had to at least try to follow my dreams. I had to at least try living a life free of the MC and it’s dangers and scary situations. I’d just needed a break.

“You know I’m right, Hazelynn. You look at him the way I used to look at Jax’s father. You never wanted to break it off back then. You’re home now. You’re safe. You deserve to be happy. And if Juice makes you happy, maybe you need to stop pushing that down and lean into it. Just a thought, sweetie.”

“Mom, I…”

“No buts. Go. I need everything on that list now, not four hours from now.”

I eyed my mom and after a second or two, I walked out of the kitchen and into the hallway, stopping to put on a light jacket. It wasn’t terribly cold, but I knew it would get cooler the later in the afternoon it got.  I made my way down the hall and into the guest room where I’d put down my little girl Serena earlier after she crashed for her daily nap. I leaned over and brushed my lips against her forehead. “Mommy will be back as soon as she can, okay? Until then, Gramma’s got you. Be sweet, little angel.” I muttered, walking to the door of the bedroom and shutting it quietly behind me so the boys didn’t run in and wake her up.

I’d just walked outside when Juice’s motorcycle as well as my brother’s and Opie’s came to a stop in front of my mother’s house. They were laughing and talking and as usual, the second Juice and I locked eyes, his jaw set and the smile was gone. There was only hurt and bitterness there.

Opie and Jax shared a look and quickly retreated to the inside of our mom’s house and I shuffled my feet, trying to figure out a way to ask if he’d give me a ride to town too. Even though I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that the last thing he wanted to do was have me riding behind him on his bike. Even something as simple as an accidental brushing of bodies lately seemed to make him overly annoyed.

And it hurt.

I knew I’d hurt him. I just wanted to make up for that. But so far, he wasn’t willing to let me.

“Are you going into town?” I asked the question tentatively. Juice stopped messing with the bike to look over at me and then he shrugged. “Maybe. Why?”

“My mom, uhh.. She needs some stuff from the grocery. I’d go in my car but it’s kind of sitting in Teller Morrow on a jack right now…” I gave a sheepish look and bit my lip, watching his facial expression as he seemed to take forever mulling it over.

“Fine. I’m leavin now though.”

“I’m all ready to go.” I answered, stepping a little closer. I stared up at him intently, noticing just how pronounced the deep circles seemed to be under his eyes. He clearly hadn’t been sleeping.

,, Oh Juice,” I thought to myself, ,, Why do I feel like there’s something wrong but you stubbornly refuse to reach out.”  

He eyed me and bit his lip. For a few seconds, I almost thought he was going to say something. He looked like he wanted to ask me something so badly that it literally almost came out, but he closed his mouth and cleared his throat, nodding to his motorcycle. “Hold on tight.”

I slipped onto the bike behind him, careful to hold on tight but leave distance. Last thing I wanted was for him to get annoyed because I was leaning against him a little.

The ride into town was quiet, only the sounds of the motor and the wind. I shivered a little, wishing I’d opted for a long sleeve beneath my thin jacket too. I’d forgotten just how chilly it got to ride a motorcycle, because I hadn’t done it in so long.

The lights of town were coming into view when things went downhill quick, fast and in a hurry.

The motorcycle got wobbly and Juice swore, pulling over on the side of the road, near one of the canyons. The wind picked up a bit and I hugged myself. Juice kicked at the motorcycle and dragged a hand over his head. A movement which I spent far too long staring at as my mind just kind of… Drifted.

To a Christmas a few years ago, back before everything went so horribly wrong between us.

XXX

“ Baby girl, wake up.”

The warmth of his breath against my ear had my eyes fluttering open and as soon as I saw the bright midmorning sun, I groaned. “Oh no. Mom is going to absolutely murder me.”

“We both crashed. Question, how dead do you think I’m about to be in Clay Morrow’s eyes, scale of ten?” Juice asked the question as he rushed around, grabbing my clothes for me so I could go and jump in the shower. My head was pounding. I knew the few drinks I had the night before at the MC Christmas party had been a very, very bad idea… Especially when you consider that of my entire family, I’m the one who never does things like this.

But last night had been magical. Cuddling in front of a bonfire with Juice, wrapped in a blanket. Stargazing as we sipped cocoa and later, whiskey… and we just kind of really talked about the future. Where we saw things going.

I didn’t have the heart to tell him that after I graduated in the spring, I was heading off to UCLA. And that I intended to put distance between myself and Charming for a while. I just.. I needed the break from the rollercoaster of crazy my life had always been. I needed time to process discovering that my father wasn’t the same man as Jax’s father, but Clay Morrow, a man that I really hadn’t ever bonded with. A man that I’d always seen as merely ‘dad’s replacement’. 

I didn’t want to ruin our time left together, so I hadn’t quite told him yet.

His arms wrapped around me from behind just as I went to step into the shower in his bathroom and he muttered quietly against the shell of my ear, “Want some help washing off, baby girl?”

I turned to face him, melting against him and biting my lip as I gave a soft laugh and giggled. “Your hands all over me? It’s only one of my biggest fantasies, baby.”

His mouth crashed against mine passionately, our tongues tangling, his hands all over me as he pulled me even closer somehow and mumbled into the deep and passionate kiss, “Love you so fuckin much baby girl. Can’t wait until we don’t have to deal with curfews and all this other shit. When it’s just you an’ me. Our own little family.”

I swallowed down the lump in my throat and smiled up at him, nodding even though I knew I wouldn’t be around for a while. But not having the heart to tell him…

XXX

“I asked you a question, Haze. You listenin to me?” Juice’s stern tone had my head snapping up and I bit my lip, surveying the blown tire. I finally managed to clear my mind from my memories enough to ask what he’d said and he grumbled, repeating himself.

He’d asked if I had any signal on my cell phone. I handed it over and he took it, unlocking it and promptly pausing.

And in that moment, I wanted to kick myself, because I forgot that I’d taken a photo of him with Serena asleep a few days ago at the MC when she got dropped off there to be watched by Jax and the guys until I finished my shift at the hospital. I’d come in to find her asleep on Juice’s chest, arms around his neck. She’d told me on the way home that she had three favorite uncles now… Apparently, she’d really bonded with Juice.

I told myself that I put the picture on my phone because my little girl was in it. But deep down I knew it was more or less because the two people I loved most in the world were in a photo together and I wanted it where I could see it every time I had a shitty day or a long double shift at the hospital.

He glanced at me, rubbing his hand over his head and held the phone back out in haste. “None. Same as mine. We’re either walkin or we’re standin here all night. Because I don’t exactly have a spare.”

“Shit… I.. I can walk up the road a little, see if maybe I can pick up service.” I offered, starting to walk away before Juice even had a chance to verbally answer. I’d gotten a few feet away from the motorcycle and Juice and I heard him running to catch up, stopping me.

“It’s getting dark. I’ll come with ya.”

“I figured you might want some space, I… you were getting annoyed.” I mumbled softly, staring up at him. His entire expression changed and he sighed quietly, shaking his head no, tilting my chin up when I decided it was better if I looked down and not directly at him.

Because I couldn’t take the pain in his eyes anymore. I also hated that I was the reason it was there to begin with.

Everything had gone so horribly wrong between us and it was all my fault. All because I’d been too afraid to do what I really wanted. Too young, too stupid, too filled with all these big plans. Plans that all went wrong and even if they did go alright, they always felt wrong. I’d never really felt like I was where I was supposed to be.

But since I’d come home?

I hadn’t felt like I was ever supposed to be anywhere else. Maybe I never should’ve left. Maybe then my daughter would have a good father and not some prick of a sperm donor who was already married and wanted no part of her, or of me.

“I wasn’t. It’s just hard bein around you… Knowin that I wasn’t enough.” Juice mumbled quietly and I gave a quiet gasp.

“Juice, you’ve always been more than I deserved.” I found the courage to actually hold his gaze, my brows knit in concern because his words weren’t like him… and somehow, I knew he meant them and that he felt them.

Had he always felt them?

“That’s not why I left…” I started, only to go silent. “I left because I had to know if there was more to life. I needed a break from the craziness and I had a lot on my mind. I was so in love with you that sometimes it scared me.” I trailed off completely, muttering the last part “I wish I never left every single day.” quietly enough that I thought maybe he wouldn’t hear it.

But he did hear it. And he tilted my chin again, leaning down a little, his mouth brushing against mine. “It’s also hard bein around you because I still love you, baby girl. I never stopped. I just thought you didn’t...”

“I didn’t what?” I asked, my mouth brushing up against his with each word that left it. His fingertips dug into my waist and I rubbed against him just a little, my breaths shaky and erratic. Everything coming at me so fast I didn’t have time to process. I waited on him to answer.

“That maybe you didn’t love me.” he finally answered, adding quickly, “I was scared back then too…” his hand caressed my cheeks and he stared into my eyes. The wind picked up and he wrapped his arms around me to try keeping me warm just a little.

“I still love you too.” I admitted it quietly, making him blink in shock when his eyes met mine. He swallowed hard and started to  tenderly move his hands up and down my sides, one hand stopping to caress my cheek all over again.

“First.. We get off the side of the fuckin road.. Then, baby girl… when we get back to the MC, we’re going to have a serious talk, okay?”

I gave a soft laugh and nodded. “Okay. That’s fair enough. Let’s go try to find a spot with some service, yeah?”

“Yeah, even though I don’t wanna let you go right now.”

“You have all night to dance with me and hold me.. Like that last Christmas party we went to back then.. I’ve missed us so much.” I pointed out, making him nod.

Nothing mattered but getting back to the MC. Because I had so much I wanted to say. So much I needed to do to make things right again. To show him that I loved him and I’d missed him every single day I was away. That I made a huge mistake back then and I was so sorry.

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[setokaibaisgxtra]

YuGiOh Voice Actors

I was losing my mind, watching YuGiOh 5D’s, looking up voice actors like every five minutes so I compiled a semi-thorough list to find them easily. (Just for Duel Monsters, GX, and 5D’s.) Putting most of this under the cut.

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Protagonists:

(Duel Monsters) Yugi Muto/ Yami Yugi/ Pharaoh Atem - Dan Green (Jay Snyder) - His other roles include Timaeus and Trudge in Duel Monsters, Beauregard and Guardian of the Labyrinth (along with the Yugi Muto cameo) in GX, and Tetsu Trudge and Guard Robot in 5D’s. He reprises his role as Yugi Muto in all films.

(GX) Jaden Yuki - Matthew Charles - His other roles include Bob Banter, in GX. He reprises his role as Jaden Yuki in Bonds Beyond Time.

(5D’s) Yusei Fudo - Gregory Abbey (Frank Frankson or John Campbell) - His other roles include Tristan Taylor (after episode 11) and Jean-Claude Magnum in Duel Monsters, Damon in GX, and Hermann in 5D’s. He reprises his role as Yusei Fudo in Bonds Beyond Time and Tristan Taylor in Pyramid of Light (Yugioh The Movie) and The Dark Side of Dimensions.

Main Characters - Duel Monsters:

Joey Wheeler - Wayne Grayson (Vincent Penna Jr) - His other roles include Dartz, Shadi, Hermos, and Roland (for episodes 128 to 148), in Duel Monsters. In GX, he voices Syrus Truesdale, Lyman Banner, Elemental Hero Sparkman, Skull Knight, Pharaoh, Crystal Beast Emerald Tortoise, Alien of Light, and Roland (in episode 76). In 5D’s, he voiced Bolt Tanner, Jesse Wheeler, Grady, Dr. Fudo, Bashford, Dr. LeBlanc, Malcolm, and Robert Pearson. He reprised his role as Lyman Banner and voiced Solomon Muto in Bonds Beyond Time and The Dark Side of Dimensions. He reprised his role as Joey Wheeler in Pyramid of Light (Yugioh The Movie) and The Dark Side of Dimensions. He reprised his role as Shadi in The Dark Side of Dimensions

Tea Gardner - Amy Birnbaum - Her other roles include Bonz and Sam, in Duel Monsters. She reprised her role as Tea Gardner in Pyramid of Light (Yugioh The Movie) and The Dark Side of Dimensions.

Tristan Taylor - (episodes 1-10) Sam Riegel - He also voiced Para, Rex Raptor (until episode 145), and Arkana in Duel Monsters. He voices Radley in 5D’s. (episode 11-224) see Yusei Fudo

Seto Kaiba - Eric Stuart - His other roles include Priest Seto, Kemo, Sid, and Critias, in Duel Monsters. In GX, he voices Bastion Misawa, Titan, Para, Dox, Elemental Hero Avian, Ojama Black, and Kaibaman (along with some Seto Kaiba cameos). In 5D’s, his voices Sir Gil de Randsborg, Lug, Mr. Pitts, Sid Barlow, Sergio, Boss, and Ellsworth. He reprised his role as Seto Kaiba in Pyramid of Light (Yugioh The Movie) and The Dark Side of Dimensions.

Main Characters - GX:

Syrus Truesdale - see Joey Wheeler

Alexis Rhodes - (episodes 1-26) Priscilla Everett - Her other roles include Echo, in GX. (episodes 27-155) Anna Marrow (Emlyn Elizabeth Morinelli) - no notable other roles.

Chazz Princeton - (episodes 1-89) Anthony Salerno - His other roles include Rex Raptor (episode 188 to end) in Duel Monsters, Lorenzo in GX, and Lenny, Aero, and Haley in 5D’s. (episodes 90 to end) Marc Thompson - His other roles include Duke Devlin, Valen, Rafael, Gansley, Zigfried von Schroeder father, and Aknamkanon, in Duel Monsters. In GX, he voiced Sartyr, Burgundy, Dimitri, Prince Ojin, Franz, Orlando, Frost, young Kagemaru, Mr. Huffington, Skilled White magician, Mr. Stein, human Yubel, and The D. In 5D’s, he voices Z-one, Hunter Pace, Tenzen Yanagi, Sayer, Hideo, Roman Goodwin, Dr. Schmidt, Officer Kaz, Nicolas, Hanson, Don Piero, and Broder. He reprised his role as Duke Devlin in The Dark Side of Dimensions.

Main Characters - 5D’s:

Jack Atlas - Ted Lewis - His other roles include Ryou Bakura, Yami Bakura, Thief King Bakura, Bandit Keith, Alister, Croquet, young Odion, Richard Goat, and Gozaburo Kaiba (season 5), in Duel Monsters. In GX, he voiced Chumley Huffington, Admiral, Howard X Miller, and Neo-Spacian Grand Mole. In 5D’s, he voices Mitch, young Rex Goodwin, and fake Jack Atlas. He reprised his role as Jack Atlas in Bonds Beyond Time and Ryou Bakura in The Dark Side of Dimensions.

Akiza Izinski - Bella Hudson (Erica Schroeder) - Her other roles include Mai Valentine (season 4), Mana, and Dark Magician Girl, in Duel Monsters. In GX, she voices Camula, Sarina, Fonda Fontaine (until episode 60), Tania (after episode 148), and Dark Magician Girl. In 5D’s, she voices Rally Dawson, John, and Zora. She reprised her role as Akiza Izinski and Dark Magician Girl in Bonds Beyond Time.

Crow Hogan -  (episodes 30-93) Clay Adams (Christopher Adams) - His other roles include Reginald Van Howell III and Jesse Anderson, in GX. (episodes 94-136) Tom Wayland - His other roles include JIm Crocodile Cook in GX, and Breo, Lester, Syd, and young Aporia in 5D’s.

Leo & Luna - (episodes 9-64) Cassandra Morris - Her other roles include Alice and Yubel in GX. (episodes 65 to 136) Eileen Stevens - Her other roles include Sherry LeBlanc in 5D’s and Yubel in Bonds Beyond Time. She reprised her roles as Leo & Luna in Bonds Beyond Time.

Other Characters - Duel Monsters:

Solomon Muto - Maddie Blaustein (formerly [Dead Name]) - Her other roles include Shimon Muran and Zygor, in Duel Monsters. In GX, she voiced Sartorius, Taiyou Torimaki, and Kozaky. In 5D’s, she voiced Larry and Rex Goodwin. (in Bonds Beyond Time and The Dark Side of Dimensions) see Joey Wheeler

Mokuba Kaiba - (episodes 1-184) Tara Sands - She reprised the role as Mokuba Kaiba in The Dark Side of Dimensions. (episodes 185 - 224) Carrie Keranen - Her other roles include Kisara, in Duel Monsters, and Mina Simington and Misty Tredwell, in 5D’s.

Serenity Wheeler - Lisa Ortiz - Her other roles include Cinderella and Injection Fairy Lily, in Duel Monsters, and Toon Gemini Elf, in The Pyramid of Light (Yugioh The Movie). In GX, she voiced Mindy, Yasmin, Linda, Elemental Hero Burstinatrix, Claret, Ms. Dorothy, and Maiden in Love. In 5D’s, she voiced Barbara, Patty, and Claire.

Mai Valentine - (episodes 1-144) Megan Hollingshead - no notable other roles. (episodes 145-224) see Akiza Izinski

Ryou Bakura/Yami Bakura/Thief King Bakura - see Jack Atlas

Shadi - see Joey Wheeler

Rebecca Hawkins - Kerry Williams - Her other roles include Sadie, in GX.

Arthur Hawkins - Mike Pollock - His other roles include Jean Louis Bonaparte, in GX.

Duke Devlin - see Chazz Princeton

Ishizu Ishtar - Karen Neil - no notable other roles.

Marik Ishtar/Yami Marik - Jonathan Todd Ross - His other roles include Strings, in Duel Monsters, and Slade Princeton and Jagger Princeton, in GX.

Odion - Michael Alston Baley (J. David Brimmer) - His other roles include Shada, in Duel Monsters.

Maximillion Pegasus - Darren Dunstan - His other roles include Witty Phantom and Funny Bunny, in Duel Monsters. In GX, he voices Adrian Gecko, Abidos the Third, and Don Zaloog (along with the several Pegasus cameo appearances). In 5D’s, he voices Andre. He reprises his role as Maximillion Pegasus in Bonds Beyond Time.

Weevil Underwood - Jimmy Zoppi (James Carter Cathcart) - His other roles include Dr. Grossfield and Hobson, in Duel Monsters.

Rex Raptor - (episodes 1-144) see Tristan Taylor. (episodes 145-187) Sebastian Arcelus - His other roles include Espa Roba in Duel Monsters, and Marcel Bonaparte in GX.  (episodes 188-224) see Chazz Princeton

Mako Tsunami - Andrew Rannells - His other roles include Noah Kaiba and Leon von Schroeder, in Duel Monsters. In GX, he voiced young Zane Truesdale, Wheeler, and Belowski. He voices Toby Tredwell, in 5D’s.

Bandit Keith - see Jack Atlas

Bonz - see Tea Gardner

Gozaburo Kaiba - David Wills - His other roles include Nesbitt, Seeker, Mr. Ishtar, and Roland (other than episodes 128-148), in Duel Monsters. In GX, he voiced Tyranno Hassleberry, Chancellor Sheppard, Kagemaru, and Lucien Grimley. In 5D’s, he voiced Tank, Mr. Armstrong, Lawton, and Dragan. (season 5) see Jack Atlas

Dartz - see Joey Wheeler

Rafael - see Chazz Princeton

Valon - see Chazz Princeton

Alister - see Jack Atlas

Zigfried von Schroeder - Oliver Wyman (Pete Zarustica) - His other roles include Dr. Alex Brisbane, Alexander the Great, Aknadin, and Akhenaden, Duel Monsters. In GX, he voiced Aster Phoenix, Brier, Neo-Spacian Aqua Dolphin, and Guardian of the Labyrinth's Shield. In 5D’s, he voiced Alex.

Mana/Dark Magician Girl - see Akiza Izinski

Mahad/Dark Magician - Michael Sinterniklaas - His other roles include Jakob and Torunka in 5D’s. He reprised his role as Dark Magician in Bonds Beyond Time.

Akhenaden - see Zigfried von Schroeder

Karim - Marc Diraison - His other roles include Sergei Ivanoff and young Solomon Muto in Duel Monsters, Chancellor Foster in GX, and Commander Koda and Kalin Kessler in 5D’s.

Kisara - see Mokuba Kaiba

Other Characters - GX:

Bastion Misawa - see Seto Kaiba

Zane Truesdale - Scottie Ray (Scott Rayow) - His other roles include Devack, in 5D’s.

Dr. Vellian Crowler - Sean Schemmel - His other roles include Bobasa in Duel Monsters. In GX, he voiced Ojama Yellow, Elemental Hero Neos, Neo-Spacian Dark Panther, Mr. Phoenix, Mathematica, Mad Dog, Doctor Collector, Thelonious Viper, Crystal Beast Cobalt Eagle, Trapper, Elroy Prescot, Sky Scout, Guardian Baou, and Chaos Sorcerer. In 5D’s, he voiced Geiger, the MC, ZigZix, Rudolph Heitmann, and Hans. He voiced Paradox in Bonds Beyond Time.

Blair Flannigan - Lisa Jacqueline - no other notable roles

Professor Lyman Banner - see Joey Wheeler

Chancellor Sheppard - see Gozaburo Kaiba

Chumley Huffington - (episodes 1-50) see Zigfried von Schroeder. (episode 85) see Crow Hogan

Ms. Dorothy - see Serenity Wheeler

Atticus Rhodes/Nightshroud - Jason Griffith (Adam Caroleson) - His other roles include Osamu and Harrington Rosewood, in GX. In 5D’s, he voiced Bruno/Vizor, Primo, Aporia, Taka, Shira, and Ghost.

Jean-Louis Bonaparte - see Arthur Hawkins

Aster Phoenix - see Zigfried von Schroeder

Tyranno Hassleberry - see Gozaburo Kaiba

Adrian Gecko - see Maximillion Pegasus

Echo - see Alexis Rhodes

Jesse Anderson - see Crow Hogan

Axel Brodie - Duane Cooper - no other notable roles

Jim Crocodile Cook - see Crow Hogan

Sartorius - see Solomon Muto

Sarina - see Akiza Izinski

Yubel - see Leo & Luna

Thelonious Viper - see Dr. Vellian Crowler

Other Characters - 5D’s:

Mina Simington - see Mokuba Kaiba

Tetsu Trudge - see Yugi Muto

Carly Carmine - Veronica Taylor - Her other voice roles include Kenta and Chris, in Duel Monsters. In GX, she voices Crystal Beast Amethyst Cat, Dark Scorpion - Meanae the Thorn, Princess Rose, and Fonda Fontaine (episodes 53-155). In 5D’s, she voices Ancient Fairy Dragon and Haluna.

Misty Tredwell - see Mokuba Kaiba

Rex Goodwin - see Solomon Muto

Lazar - Gary Mack - no other notable roles

Rally Dawson - see Akiza Izinski

Sayer - see Chazz Princeton

Greiger - see Dr. Vellian Crowler

Sherry LeBlanc - see Leo & Luna

Kalin Kessler - see Karim

Roman Goodwin - see Chazz Princeton

Devack - see Zane Truesdale

Dr. Fudo - see Joey Wheeler

Aporia - see Atticus Rhodes

Jakob - see Mahad

Lester - see Crow Hogan

Primo - see Atticus Rhodes

Bruno/Vizor - see Atticus Rhodes

#my post #yugioh #duel monsters #gx #5ds #this took me so long #i hope someone else appreciates it #let me know if i made mistakes or something #i did check multiple sources #also let me know if i missed someone important or something #uses english names because they are english voice actors

[theinvisibledreamergirl]

Sweet dreams, TN

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x F!MC (Helena Craig) x M!OC (Clay Banner)

Words count: ~2.1k

Category: Smut/Angst/AU

Warning: 🔞 content/Language

A.N: I really wanted to picture something else. What if my MC didn’t get her place at Edenbrook Hospital in her first year and her boyfriend did? And what happens if she comes as a surgical resident in the 2nd year? Also I’ve decided that in this fic I’ll call MC in her middle name Helena or shortened Helen/Ellie. It’s the alter-ego of Klaw so it has nothing to do with her. After posting this I’ll log off from Tumblr ‘cause I know it’s a disaster😭😭😭😭

Song: “Sweet dreams, TN” - The Last Shadow Puppets (pls hear this first to understand it better ❤️)

MASTERLIST

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I just sort of always feel sick without you baby

I ain’t got anything to lick without you baby

Nothing seems to stick without you baby

Ain’t I fallen in love

“Do you have the keys for the handcuffs?”

“Whoa. Is someone getting a little afraid hm?”

“Well I don’t want to be useless without my hands. So I can touch you.”

“I do have the keys darling.” The two faces were closer breathing into each other’s air. “But I need you to be quiet now.”

“Show me then.”

It’s just the pits without you baby

It’s really just the pits without you baby

It’s like everyone’s a dick without you baby

Ain’t I fallen in love

The command was clear and both of them entered to the inevitable path.

Feeling each other’s skins in the most obscenely way and falling to that wild imagination that both of them had been restraining for a long time.

It was a heavenly and a desirably emotion that led themselves to be part of this trap.

They could hear their accelerated heartbeats as more and more they looked hungrily and darkly like animals fighting for domination.

Blue vs Brown.

“I missed you.”

“I missed you too.”

And all my pals will tell me is that I’m crazy

You bet I’m loopy alright

And I just don’t recognise this fool

That you have made me

Whoa I ain’t seen him for a while

Panting breath wasn’t in their expectations and shared a laugh before they reached the culmination and he unlocked her handcuffs to fall completely in his arms.

Their strong embrace fitted perfectly the curves of their bodies despite their sweat. When he was about to pull off she pouted in a whisper.

“No. Stay.”

“I will.” He promised with a searing kiss.

“But you did left me.” Her expression changed completely and in a mere of seconds she wasn’t there.

He blinked. “What?”

The sound of the alarm woke him up and suddenly he felt his underwear soaked.

“Holy shit I did this again!” He growled in frustration as he rubbed his face.

He made attempts to get up but his knees were too weak to keep his balance. Another attempt and he slowly started to walk. Or better a crawling you may call it.

He turned on his bathtub to make a quick shower and to clear this mess of himself. But the hot water made him feel again those goosebumps of that sweet dream and closed his eyes again.

She looped his arms around his waist and start to kiss his shoulders slowly and gently while moving her hands up and down his bellybutton. He let a content sigh while drifting again to that imaginary scene.

And as your shrinking figure blows a kiss

I catch and smash it on my lips

Darling I can’t seem to quit.

When there wasn’t a shoulder to lean on his head, he slapped his face growling loudly and continued his shower in disappointment.

Completely falling to bits

I really might be losing it

The idea that you’ve existed all along is ridiculous

I don’t know what to say

He missed her.

Not longer after that he arrived at Edenbrook gladly on time thanks to his fast BMW vehicle. He carried his bag through the hall of the hospital and a megawatt smile that he recognised it very well stopped him.

“Yo yo look who’s back again. My mann!” They clapped their backs.

“Ooff Bryce!” He was breathing hardly. “We were celebrating yesterday for the end of our intern year. I’m sure that we didn’t miss each other that much.”

“C’mon Banner can’t you just be funnier person in your life for once hm?”

Clay rolled his eyes. “Anyways I have to change my clothes unless you don’t have anything else to say.”

“I do actually.” He wiggled his eyebrows. “I met someone today.”

“So?”

“You have no idea whom I have met.”

“Let me guess did President Biden come here?” He snorted when he saw Bryce’s not amused reaction. “Okay fine go on.”

“As I was saying I met today a female but let me tell you man... this woman is not like the others. She’s like a goddess that entered to this building and blessed my life when I made eye contact with her.”

Clay was really trying his best not to laugh to this exaggeration. “You have met plenty of women and it’s not your first time Bryce.”

“Tsk. It is my first time. And may I add she was like queen Cleopatra that summoned everyone when she walked here.” Bryce added in a wandering gaze while he was doing his usual ministrations. “Black stilettos clicking and wearing those black leathery pants revealing her curves...ohh I’m thinking I’m going to fall in love man. She had a long coat on her shoulders and that white shirt mmhmm.” He closed his eyes. “She truly was the boss and I’m betting on this... her elegant body will be in my bed. But-”

“And there’s always a but right?”

“Can you believe I didn’t get her name?! Not even her number!”

His friend squealed in laughter. “What did you think fool? That she was going to follow you straight into the on-call room?”

“Yes!” Bryce exclaimed. “That’s what I thought too man but I lost her because that damn nurse came to me for signing a patient in a surgery.” He sighed and shook his head. “I lost the most perfect chance today and I don’t even know what she was doing here... she can’t be a doctor though ‘cause she’s too beautiful for this job.”

“Well then good luck on finding her ‘cause I have to go now. See you.” He trailed off to the direction of the elevator.

“Yea see ya.” He waved back at him before he muttered. “Go back to surgery Bryce before Tanaka cuts you off.”

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“This is going to be your office.”

“Thank you so much Mist- Dr. Tennant!” She corrected herself briefly before she would say another embarrassing thing. “I really don’t know how to express my gratitude for this.”

He scoffed. “Please can you just talk normally Dr. Craig? I think at the first time we met the rule was by names. Call me Simon.”

“Sure. Simon.” She really wasn’t used to it though. First no title of Miss/Mister and now calling by names. USA had really big differences with UK not only in titles but also in medical policy and legacy.

“And now I must say to you congratulations!” They shook hands. “And also I’d like to introduce you to our Diagnostics Team.”

She nodded in agreement.

When they finally arrived at the front door Simon stepped first to get the attention of his colleagues who seemed to be occupied as they were studying a case so he cleared his throat loudly. All of them turned their gazes to him except for an attending who didn’t even have to recognise his friend’s voice.

“What now Simon?”

“Hello to you too my pal. You know everyone that there was going to be a resident in the absence of Edgar’s, right?”

“Yes we know that.” The Japanese-British woman spoke.

“Have you brought him here?!” Judging by his accent it was an Indian man who exclaimed happily.

Simon chuckled. “Yes Baz but it’s her.”

“Ooooohh.”

“Let’s hope she’ll be useful for this job.”

“Don’t worry Ethan. She was selected as the best surgical intern in Imperial College of London Hospital and many other things among but I’ll let her to present herself.” He made her a signal to come inside.

“Everyone this is Dr. Helena Craig.”

“Please you can call me Helen or Ellie if you want.”

“I like Helen better.” The woman got up and shook her hand. “Dr. June Hirata.”

“Me too! Hi I’m Dr. Sebastian Mirani but everyone calls me simply Baz.”

“Ethan?” Simon asked quietly to get up and greet with her but he wasn’t moving any inch.

Helen gave him a knowing smile and said without breaking her gaze to him. “It’s alright for me if we don’t shake hands. I feel the same way too when I meet people that haven’t given me a good and a reliable impression at first so I completely understand your condition now.”

She caught him off guard. Ethan Ramsey expected her to scowl or glare into his eyes but instead she was killing him with that radiating smile.

Fuck.

The same smile that was reserved for him yesterday at Donahue’s bar.

In the corner of his eyes there was an unfamiliar face that stayed some stools away from him.

She lit up a cigarette even though Reggie had been strictly to every client not to use it but it seemed she didn’t care about it.

Her blonde hair was tied up in a bun revealing her constructed jaw and her long neck.

She had also earrings pierced. Was she a troublesome woman? Or maybe a drugs dealer judging by her extravagant outfit. But what caught his attention was that she didn’t look amused or happy.

She was sad. And exhausted.

Along with her was a small luggage that she had carried with herself here. She called Reggie to bring her a strong scotch and found by the latter that she was British and it was her first time in Boston.

She had also asked him for a hotel nearby this place and Reggie suggested some of them including “La Vista” Hotel which was the best. She thanked and left him the payment.

Now her eyes landed on the icy blue that had been staring on her for a long time and gave him a wicked smile. She raised her glass in purpose and licked her lips after drinking bits of it.

She was really gorgeous in all of his honesty and they didn’t break their eye contact for maybe a couple of minutes. He could do it every time without any hesitation just to rest in those piercing brown’s.

He was a very handsome man and even though he seemed older than her, she didn’t give a single shit. She could imagine his toned muscles and abs beyond those pesky clothes. She was marveled and could sense that he felt the same too.

It was like they both understood each other.

No words needed.

Only looks.

But she knew who he was. Ethan Ramsey. And she was glad that made him completely at her mercy and was enjoying it.

Poor man she thought.

She couldn’t wait for his reaction tomorrow when he would find out who she was actually.

His colleague.

Helen could imagine his flustered face and transfixed into her with his mouth agape.

She got up from her seat slowly in a tantalizing move while he drank in one gulp his scotch and called Reggie again for another fill.

She walked past him but before leaving with her luggage she lowered her head to his ear whispering dangerously. Her breath was a tingle in his ears and could almost feel her lips brushed.

“Thank you for the distraction. I really needed it.” 

She left unceremoniously when something dropped from her and he immediately caught it.

It was one of her earrings with the initial ‘H’. He was about to call her but she was gone.

Maybe he would find her tomorrow again. Here.

And he really found her. In the most obscenely and the most embarrassing way if he could describe it. Instead of what she said he got up with his smuggling look.

“Wrong observation.” When she heard his deep voice for the first time she gulped and could see his eyes glimmering triumphantly. “I hope you don’t ruin this opportunity.”

He caught her off guard. While they were touching each other’s palms an unknown heat coursed down in their bodies. Bullshit they thought because he was just an attending and she was a resident. Suddenly another voice was approaching to them.

“I’m terribly sorry for my lateness but I was-”

He abruptly stopped himself when he saw her.

His eyes were widened and his breath hitched.

She was here.

Baby we ought to fuck

Seven years of bad luck

Out of the powder room mirror

Could I have made it any clearer

She saw him too.

But not with a happy or a grateful face that always had welcomed his heart.

This was a mere seconds of glaring and then a plastered smile that he knew too well.

Clay Banner had screwed things up a year before he entered Edenbrook Hospital.

And now the woman of his dreams was standing right in front of him with his attending.

His girlfriend.

His Helen.

Or... was?

It’s love like a tongue in a nostril

Love like an ache in the jaw

You’re the first day of spring

With a septum piercing

Little Miss Sweet Dreams, TN

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TAGS WILL APPEAR IN A REBLOG!

Ps: if this fic doesn’t surpass The Grinch Girl fic notes... there’s not going to be a part two😂😂 sorry...and Happy (late) International Women’s Day💪🏻💋🥰🥰

UPDATE: Part two is posted and it’s called- She’s thunderstorms

#open heart fan fiction #open heart choices #open heart fan fic #oh au #n*fw #ethan ramsey #my mc #ethan ramsey x mc #clay banner #clay banner x mc #triangle of love series #part one #my writing

[theinvisibledreamergirl]

#3 please 😊

angst/fluff prompts:

#3. Please don’t walk out of that door.

A.N: thanks for asking dear anon❤️ I hope you like it. Dear folks I’m back in destroying your lives with angstyyyyy muhahaha 😈

Warning: none just heart pounding 🫀

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Tranquility.

Safety.

Hope.

These were the things she felt when he was around her.

When he was the guidance through the labyrinths of the unknown.

When he was the light in the end of the tunnel telling her to not be afraid to move on.

When he was the shield of the invisible knives that were thrown on her multiple times.

When he was... hers.

Sometimes you can’t understand what actually you’re doing when you’re with a partner in a relationship or a partnership if you can it call like that.

She wanted to understand in what the hell she was involving herself to. How pathetic and stupid she was.

He wanted to understand why had to make things worse for them. How to not avoid and not make her forget about him.

If you can please imagine a screen cut in half revealing their portraits you can see that they’re almost identical in everything they do.

The drinking.

The music background to culminate their breakdowns.

The loose clothes or *coughs* barely wearing underwear.

And the most important part the view of the balcony.

Please they’re not enjoying the starry dark sky of the Boston night as you may think. Tsk. They’re seeing each other.

But how?

Only the mind of a lover can create the most unpredictable, unprepared and shameful thoughts that no one has else can.

They appear like ghosts such vividly that they try to reach out but they knew it was impossible, so they retreat.

Who was the most shattered person here? Of course both of them were but mostly... her.

She was remembering now the cries before he would leave her apartment to go to another continent.

“Please don’t walk out of that door.” She pleaded and it was the first time Klaw Craig had done this to a man. Because she knew he was worth it and couldn’t lose him. “If you step out then you have to promise me that you’ll be alright...” In that moment he felt a sense of a relief as if she was forgiving him but was wrong until he heard the last words. “Without me. But I don’t want you to go.”

He stayed still with his back turned to her, unable to contain his tears on his eyes. ‘Do it’ he said to himself as if the devil had spoken to his ear whereas the angel was deafened. He was obliged to do it no matter how she was trying to put chains on him.

“Goodbye Rookie.” He turned the knob of her door without looking at her but before he could take another step he flinched when she shouted.

“ETHAN JONAH RAMSEY!” That seemed to work out because he was facing now getting his full attention. “Why don’t you want me?” Her lips trembled. “Why?”

Brown eyes were bored into icy blues trying to not forget them.

Trying to remind those that they still had a chance.

They still had to end another war.

“Because I can’t risk you.” He couldn’t feel his breath while saying it like someone had paralysed him.

“Am I not worthy enough for you?”

God did she want to ask that question? No.

But she had to even though he would give her an ultimatum because she had still that hopeless heart of hers despite being the one who assumed to be strong against these pathetic feelings.

You are. You are so much better than you think my Rookie. You are the other half who completes me. Who fixes this goddamn asshole side of mine. You’re my everything lil grumpy. I’m sorry.

Despite the desire that was burning inside of him to fall into her arms and do the inappropriate things to her in the bedroom, curling next to her and feeling her warm skin, he composed himself and gave her a pointed and a cold look which she recognised it too well.

No. He won’t...

“No... you’re not.”

The voice of her boss. Of her attending. Of her colleague.

Discomfort.

Insecurity.

Fear.

That’s what she felt in those moments when he closed the door without giving her a second glance.

She blinked once. Twice. And thrice.

She said to herself somehow quoting Kafka. “Why don’t I sleep to forget all this nonsense?” And that’s what she did. Her tears were dried and she couldn’t feel anything.

And then... she doesn’t remember what happened or better how many cigarettes did she smoke. Or how many bottles of scotches she emptied.

For the first time in her life she had never felt such relieved to move on to another man who probably was knocking on the door now.

When his handsome and knowing face appeared she thought he hadn’t changed a bit.

She smirked devilishly and caught his tie to pull him for an aggressive kiss despite being drunk.

This man had the same blue eyes but were a contrast to the icy ones.

And the way he kissed her wasn’t the same but still ignited their passion.

Because two old flames were reunited.

Because their glorious days were back.

For this the so-called fantastic duo that everyone envied.

Klaw Craig and Clay Banner.

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P.s: oopsieee did i break your hearts? I’m not feeling sorry ‘cause sometimes you need a bit harsh treatment ya knowwww😈 okk this was the devil speaking so back to the angel 😇 yes l LOVE CLAY BANNER so muchhhhh and I know it has confused you but I’ll give you explanations in another time😉

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