[Part 1 | tw: swearing, homophobia, internalized homophobia, mention of rape, self-hatred]
I never post anything personal here on Tumblr but I feel like this would be a safer place to share a rather venty art about my own experience as a closeted kid. It's been 4 years since I first discover myself and now that I'm turning 18, I just want to let out a frustrated sigh at least, to all the years that I spend hiding and to all the years to come in the future too.
I'm scared shitless of everything and it definitely doesn't help that my sexuality makes me feel like I can never be accepted. Even as I grow to block out the outside noises, of the people who are too thick in the head to understand diversity, of people who won't matter to me in life anyway, and I learn that there is actually nothing to be ashamed of about who I love, or my lack of sexual desires. I'm still terrified. There are still people who I love but would they love me back if they know who I truly am? And how am I going to truly accept myself?
I know that someone out there might be able to relate to my angsty little checklist, maybe you can understand this weird frustration that I'm going through too, and maybe you can feel like you're not alone in this. It's a tough life and it's tiring to be afraid all the time, but at least you can learn that you don't have to lift all the weighs of the world by yourself.
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petition to make red high top converse the official shoe of closeted bisexuals living in homophobic conservative communities
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This is totally random but I get serious closeted bi disaster dean vibes from you... How sure are you that you're not dean or at least possessed by dean?
Serious closeted bi disaster dean vibes????
OP I am fairly certain that I'm neither in the closet nor possessed by dean...
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THEY WERE COWARDS THAT THIS FOUR WEREN’T CONFIRMED ✨BISEXUALS✨
PISSES ME OFF.
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Being a bi woman in the closet is so frustrating
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Hunky Nick Mallory Bisexual Rant
Ok I have reawakened the Grojband phase that was in me at age 11, but now i realize, Nick Mallory was definitely one of those guys who has those 1 time things with girls, but thats because hes a closeted Bisexual. Sure hes cool with guys, but during the Valentines Day episode, the band walks up with a card for Trina, and Nick just wants to give Corey a hug, not laney, corey. I know that hes just being nice on Valentines day, but if he were one of those ‘Nice Guys’ he wouldn't want to willingly hug anyone. And if it weren't just corey, and he mentioned the whole band then this rant wouldnt happen. He mentioned no one other then corey, sure corey turned it down but just, the way Corey just said hey and Nick immediately wants to hug corey.
Also! The first Episode when corey gets nick to go to the Cherry Grapestain movie, he just asks corey if he needs tickets, corey only mentioned getting Nick tickets, but nick just asks corey if he needs some. Unknown to him, corey couldve already had tickets, but still offered to give him some just becuase it was nice! Nick has feelings for corey but totally doesnt know how to feel about it! OMG even if it is off screen, after Corey declines the tickets because of his plan, Nick doesnt even react, and if he did it wouldve just been like a bye or like an “Alright”! He wouldnt care!
Weird ass rant IK but just on my mind
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I made this mason jar desk ornament filled with bi-themed pink, purple, and blue paper stars for National Coming Out Day. I’m not out yet so I feel like I can’t openly celebrate my bisexuality like everyone else but I wanted to create something to remind myself that progress isn’t a competition and that someday I’ll get to a point in my journey when I can be fully open with myself and others about who I am.
If you’re a fellow bisexual (whether or not you are out yet), I want you to know that you are a star and I’m proud of you!!! Keep on living your best life boo❤️😘!
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being a closeted gay and seeing a rainbow in the sky feels like a forehead kiss from the universe
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Yo, Bi person living with homophobic parents here
Anyone have any stores or links to pride (specifically bi) merch that I could show my parents and get them to let my buy without outing myself?
My parents always have to look at what I want to buy online before I buy it because I don't have a debit card or PayPal and thus need them to buy it for me. I'm desperate for a way to show my pride without rousing suspicion in my parents or outing myself entirely to them. Any ideas?
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You know you are addicted to tumblr when you forget that you cannot be as gay as you want outside of this hellsite.
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Being a closeted bisexual is so difficult. Like you are allowed to comment on how beautiful a girl is but you don't know how much is too much and how much is too little.
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GUYS I GOT MY MOM TO WATCH SHE RA WITH ME AHHHHH
So I‘m still closeted, since I‘m not ready to come out yet and still need to look, how comfortable I am with my labels, but I told her, that "Basically, everyone is gay" and was like "Really??? That’s so cool! Let’s watch it!" It kind of made me happy to know, that she’ll watch a super gay show with me lmao.
She has watched the 80s version as a kid btw, so she was really excited. I just need to hide, what a simp I am lol
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I just finished watching the queen's gambit, great show.
TELL ME WHY I GOTTA FIND LESBIAN ROMANCE IN EVERY PERIOD THING I WATCH.
First eloise and penelope in bridgerton and now beth and cleo in this shit.
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I started questioning my sexuality about a two years ago. I liked boys, and I was sure of that, but I adored girls too.
I thought it was just that I adored girls but then I finally realized, oh wait, I spend like 90% of my free time freaking out over gorgeous actresses and fictional girls. I’m probably bi.
Nina Zenik (from the six of crows series) was probably my bi awakening. XD.
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My dad: Boys and girls can't be just friends, one of them is gonna be attracted to the other.
Me, a bisexual who's bad at making friends: This explains a lot.
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It is entirely possible to be sneaky with your pride.
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Ah yes, bi visibility day!
How shall my closeted ass celebrate?
*cuffs jeans higher than normal*
*listens to sweater weather a couple extra times*
*only writes using pink, purple, and blue whiteboard pens for the class I tutor*
Happy Bi Visibility Day Friends!!!
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Sitting at dinner w my family and the waitress is hot and winks at me:
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closeted queer culture is painting your flag colors somewhere and your family seeing it and being like:
“oh such pretty, beautiful colors!”
because they don’t know what those colors mean and, every time you hear them, you feel satisfied in having tricked them.
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