#cocktail of emotion

[peculiaritybending]

Aziraphale’s face after Crowley kisses him makes me feel sick, not exaggerating, not a silly haha hyperbole, it actually makes my stomach churn. He just looks so broken up about it, he’s almost crying. I know that if Crowley had said yes to going to Heaven with him he would have kissed him back but he couldn’t. There’s a look of guilt there and just pure pain, he looks at Crowley in a way that says “please don’t make me feel this, not now” and the worst part is because of how complicated his reaction is, I feel it could be mistaken for one of disgust which disturbs me so much because Crowley may believe that’s how it made him feel. The fact that Aziraphale doesn’t kiss Crowley back but also isn’t the one to pull away and instead briefly holds Crowley during this kiss haunts me so much as well, god.

#me when a scene supposed to portray a cocktail of emotions is written beautifully and acted beautifully 😱 😱 #I’m so sick in the head #appologies if this is cringe #good night it’s almost 3am and ​I’ve been thinking about this non stop since yesterday evening #good omens #good omens spoilers #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

oh right, technically i sell t-shirts

i forgot about that

#holidays are coming up and it would make a terrible gift #that's the main selling point #anyways these exist and can be exchanged for legal tender #the cost is the listed price + the emotional expense of knowing that i am judging u #bc i am. i am judging u #why would u want this. why would u exchange currency for this #there are so many other things you could exchnage currency for instead #a grocery store shrimp platter for instance #with the nauseatingly red cocktail sauce that is SO much better than a t shirt any time #hmm chicken picatta at a local Italian Eatery perchance? i am. a big fan of anything picatta #oh oh i know! 3.6 POUNDS OF FRESH OKRA #FOR THE COST OF THIS FRIVOLOUS T SHIRT U COULD INSTEAD PURCHASE 3.6 POUNDS OF FRESH DELICIOUS OKRA #and then --hold on i have a recipe--and then what u do is #so it is basically sacrilege to suggest this but what u do is u skip the cornmeal entirely #my southern ancestors are shaking a wooden spoon at me right now but LISTEN. u skip. the gotdang. cornmeal #instead: wash chop and soak (for 10 min) the okra in a mixture of 1 egg to tblsp water #then coat in flour #THATS IT JUST FLOUR #No cornmeal. i am betraying my heritage rn but I'm RIGHT #coat in flour sprinkle liberally in S&P and FRY that suck in veg oil high heat #until crispy & brown & u hear your arteries clenching in apprehension #so. so yeah #that's what u should do instead of buying this shirt go fry the shit out of some okra #(but buy local and young & tender if u can bc the grocery store is full of old-and-therefore-super-stiff specimens #pro tip (aka grandma tip): if u can't chop okra smoothly with your normal cutting knife then it's too old and tough. #...i mean u probably CAN still fry the shit out of it I've certainly done that before it's just much less delicious #ANYWAY. anyway ANYWAY. shirt. okra. farmers market. that reminds me of a post i made back when we first started selling these dang shorts #shirts. shorts shorts. oh shit i should make a crop top option. #i. i don't Know How to make a crop top option #HUH . . . i need to lie down now and contemplate the constant and irreconcilable limitations of the human experience good night

[frozenpinesmp3]

y yo a ti cas really was a great day to be online

#you couldn’t make a cocktail of drugs that come close to the emotions of the spanish dub #dot txt

[ariadne-mouse]

A seasonal offering for you: a scene from my old fic Only Lovers See The Fall, in which Caleb and Essek contemplate endings and beginnings at a Harvest Close festival in Zadash. The right kind of autumn red looks just like the Vermaloc of Rosohna and the home Essek has left behind.

My strength as an artist is in nature subjects and simplified, gestural comics, so it was fun to stretch myself a bit by attempting a full scene with people and buildings. Happy Autumn! 🍁🍂🌻

#the fic balances melancholy with light festival shenanigans btw. a carefully mixed emotional cocktail that ends on the upswing #thanks discord friends for your encouragement and advice! #ariadne draws CR #critical role #shadowgast #fanart #image ID in alt text

[scificrows]

Is there a 300 page essay about Murderbot's armor (specifically the opaque helmet) as a not-so-subtle metaphor for masking in a clearly neurodivergent character already? Because I need it.

The way Murderbot is unvoluntarily without its opaque armor in All System Red in front of the crew (i.e. unmasking) and appears surprised at its own strong facial expressions and other people's reaction to it? The vulnerability that comes with that and how Murderbot spends pretty much the rest of the book wearing or actively missing its armor which keeps it safe from the mortifying ordeal of being known (yet sometimes other characters suggest it might help for it to not opacify the helmet in order for others to see it as a person and to trust it (and in the end idk if it would have achieved the rewards of being loved by its humans and have had its needs met if it hadn't unmasked in this relatively safe environment sometimes)).

Also there's the whole avoiding-looking-directly-at-people-and-using-drones-instead thing which Murderbot usually hides using the opaque helmet, but whenever it doesn't have that people notice it and many react negatively/confused. I think that's a whole neurodivergent-applicable situation in and of itself? Like damn

And then Mensah encourages Murderbot not to wear armor on Preservation station since it would not need it there, Murderbot is hesitant but ends up not wearing any (like 4 books later when we finally get to that bridge) (going for the comfortable clothes it chose for itself instead, with very strong feelings about the whole being able to make choices thing that I cannot go into further at this point because I would absolutely end up BITING SOMETHING OR SOMEONE).

And I'm not going to advocate for unmasking all the time in any setting because hell no, sometimes it absolutely sucks and people are irritated by Murderbot's now visible quirks and are afraid of what they don't know, but many GET TO KNOW Murderbot better and because there are other people that make sure Murderbot is safe and respected and are willing to get people fired for it if they disrespect it (Pin-Lee my beloved) Murderbot can experiment with this situation without being exiled to some abonded part of a planet and other people are forced to spend enough time around ot to learn to respect it and even like it. I just....... It must be so scary and Murderbot is handling so much at once and in this essay I will

PS sorry this is a disorganized mess but so am I and I have so many Thoughts and even more Emotions and so little patience.

#murderbot #the murderbot diaries #all systems red #murderbot diaries #𓄿 #i sincerely hope this post isn't insensitive because i feel like the autism vibes are strong with murderbot and i am not diagnosed with tha #but i have adhd and a fun mix of anxiety and depression #and i've been deepdiving into autism research to help get one of my closest friends diagnosed (not possible at the moment) #and i relate so strongly in many ways and i dont know if its just that adhd and autism can overlap heavily #or my personal cocktail of adhd anxiety depression etc #or if i am on the spectrum somewhere myself #in any case i feel very strong solidarity and i hope i am not overstepping #but the main point here is the masking and that is DEFINITELY something ive been struggling with a lot recently #hence the strong emotions lol #i dont like to unmask. it sucks. but it can be so worth it. #and i am practicing and learning and trying my best #i feel like this fun sideblog for my scifi hyperfixations is quickly turning into a mess of therapy ramblings for myself #maybe thats because i love these books particularly BECAUSE i relate so strongly to these characters #in ways that are not NormalTM. and surprising for me #and ways that really help me figure out who i am and why dealing sith other people is so difficult for me #welp nevermind #all hail murderbot i guess

[aimasup]

Too much time to think now

driven to such conclusions by your own sick mind

#my post #my art #villainous #villainous cn #villainous hbo max #no this is not paperhat #black hat #can't feel fear right? how about some new emotion cocktail of 'wtf'

[waywardted]

#tedlassoedit #ted lasso #rebecca welton #ted x rebecca #teddy boy #mine: lasso #m*ne #tl x lit #otp: you liven up the place #the cocktail of emotions after her second truth bomb...it's literature it's cinema it's romance #one month to knock out the to-do list lol we'll see

[chalkrub]

it’s my birthday yippee!! which means it’s also midge’s birthday, even BIGGER yippee! happy 1 year you silly bugbeast....sorry for depriving you of the coveted april fool birthdate, but if I can’t have it then neither can you

#my art #oc #midge #illustration #i worked myself into a corner getting the colours right for this so i just cheated and slapped a gradient map on lol #sorry midge i've gotta go do important things (impromptu bday cocktails with leetle frendos) #HAVE A GOOD DAY PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!! ON MY BEHALF!!! #i'm going to a tasting menu tomorrow with my mama we're gonna eat 9 courses of things like ''emotion of burnt pineapple'' #which i'm very excited for i love pretentious food #OKAY byeeeeeeee muah muah muah #monster art

[hella1975]

i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH! #'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

[gardenerian]

do you ever think about how insane it is that one day you watched a show. for whatever reason. someone was talking about it or it was just on or the netflix algorithm read you like a book. and you liked the show, you wanted to talk more about the show. and you found a place to do that. and you post here and there, maybe start dabbling in meta or art or writing. and then. idk, you’re talking into the void and then suddenly people are talking back? and before long you are deeply in love with real people with real and full lives and they love you back and ??? all because you sat down in the living room and watched a show?

#i love shameless for what it is #but i also love that it brought me to all of you #i’ve had. a hugely emotional evening and i love you all forever #next up: TEN DAYS OFF #you’re all gonna be sick of me 🥰 #no YOU had a big fat cocktail and forgot to take your meds shut up

[mitskijamie]

Casting went crazy jamie looks so much like georgie

I KNOW RIGHT!!!!!! He's mummy's boy 🥰🥰

#ask #i feel like people always compared Jamie to Georgie when he was little but once he got older and they grew apart and he got closer to James #everyone always told him he looked like James #and he just kind of internalized it like he's been hearing it since he was 12 years old and he has his name anyway so it makes sense #of course he has his face. they're the same person #and he bleaches his hair and cuts it short because James always wore it long and dark and he pierces his ears bc James would never do that #etc etc #but after roy and keeley meet georgie like at the cocktail bar or whatever roy is like 'you look Just like your mum' #and Keeley's like 'yes oh my god you're identical' #and it's the first time he's heard that in years and he's tipsy and it's been a crazy emotional week so he just starts bawling

[ihearasound]

.... ppl really do care about me don't they

#hard for me to comprehend im experiencinf a cocktail of emotions #but mostly becoming aware of being loved

[alexiethymia]

a concept: Lockwood was as jealous of the Skull as Lucy was of Holly during The Hollow Boy

#lockwood and co #lockwood & co #locklyle #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #this is not actually a lockwood and co blog #I say as I rush to post something after once again deciding to reread #but anyway perhaps it's something a bit more complex than jealousy #a cocktail of emotions at knowing lucy was getting drawn more toward the side of the dead than the living #there's that added layer of the tv series in that in the first season lucy helps him with his recklessness #and now she's the one engaging in that sort of behavior in THB #but the thing is the nature of their recklessness if different in that #lockwood's is reckless because of his unresolved issues #while lucy becomes reckless because she wants to help the dead she can speak to #which again must complicate things for lockwood #because those that lucy sees as victims #lockwood just sees as evil causes of his sister's death #their talents play into this to #because lucy can hear them she can empathize with them #because lockwood doesn't hear them well or at and because of his exceptional sight #he only sees the ugliest of the Visitors and it's easy for him to forget they were once alive #so there's that 'jealousy' that lucy is spending more on more time on the entities who killed his sister #which causes her to put her own life in more danger as a result #resulting in lockwood getting angrier at her especially when he thinks she's missing the point by focusing on holly #and it's just a never ending cycle of them being angry at each other without fully understanding the other person's reasons #and irony of ironies #when (not if) we get a season 2 #lockwood will feel the full force of what lucy felt this season because of his jump of a cliff tendencies #books #tv

[fruitcontent]

Here's an idea: after Ladybug shoots Tangerine, he decides not to accompany a complete fucking stranger but instead try and help the person he's got history with ‒ short and fragile and violent as it is. I mean, he kicked Tangerine off the train, but Tangerine clearly isn't in a state to seek retribution. He's fucking dying. So Ladybug tries to help. He tries to apply pressure to Tangerine's neck to stop the bleeding, and at some point, Lemon finds them and takes over, and... whatever, you know? A completely different ending from then on because Lemon's priority won't be fighting the fucking White Death or finding the Diesel but to keep Tangerine alive long enough for them to leave that godforsaken train. And if it means hiding, then he'll try to find cover, and we wouldn't even have to stretch things too much about the crash because nobody fucking died from the crash itself anyway.

(One can actually survive being shot in the neck. Even if it causes arterial bleeding. I googled it.)

#and then we could have a sequel about their slow recovery #no action only physical and emotional healing and unbearable intimacy #lemon and tangerine #tangerine bullet train #lemon bullet train #tangerine #lemon #fruit cocktail #ladybug #bullet train

[tavyliasin]

Don't Trust Google Docs Suggestions

Those squiggly blue lines can be helpful, loves, but sometimes? Sometimes those suggestions are utter nonsense and should be ignored. G Docs has no respect for my style, often trying to tell me to swap out words and sentences that use a more old-fashioned or formal grammar that suits a character voice better, and other times I realised it was making suggestions like this! Sorry, darling, Haarlep is doing what now? Pulling out a fucking blender? No, no, they are whispering something utterly debauched to Tav, not making her a bloody salsa. So, please loves, especially those of you who are writing with English as a secondary language, do not always trust the system. It can and will betray you. Apparently with powered kitchen appliances. Honestly I was laughing at this for several minutes when I realised what it was trying to suggest! Oh, and the Fiendish Festive Feast Fic is still being written, I'm over 4k words but it isn't ready yet. I will have it out as soon as it's done, and 2 of my Winter Exchange Event pieces will be going live on AO3 in the next few days when the collections release, so there will be new works of mine soon enough~ Happy writing, darlings! I love each and every one of you~ thank you for reading this far, for sharing a few laughs, and for generally dropping by my feed. I adore having you here, this community makes me so very happy to be a part of it. <3

#Haarlep #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #google docs #autocorrect #spellcheck gone wrong #seriously they're not making cocktails #there should only be cock and tail #separately #take care of yourselves though you are loved #yes I am too squishy and emotional it's 3am what are you going to do about it? hug me? go on then

[rubyiiiusions]

thinking about if boom eggman shipped sonadow and he was very vocal about it. as in he'd see sonic and shadow fighting, sigh, grab a megaphone and yell "KISS ALREADY"

#he also actively tries to get them together #like sending notes to both of them telling them to meet at midnight on the beach and then leaving a bouquet and a blanket with candles #if things go sour he has a live violinist that definitely isn't just orbot and/or cubot with a fake mustache #he's sitting watching them with popcorn and a fruit cocktail reclining in a beach chair #if they move too slowly he screams at them through the megaphone #imagining a heartfelt confession after months of buildup alone #there's big feels big emotions and they have a sweet passionate kiss #and BOOM a party popper. eggman's throwing confetti through the window. katy perry begins to play #i think im silly goofy #sonic boom #shitpost #sonadow #boom sonadow