#cocsa mention

[trauma-culture-is]

Trauma culture is going to therapy only to gain more internalized self hatred and problems as your therapist tells you your problems aren't real.

(Big one being COCSA is "completely normal" and "just experimenting" that's really fucking me up)

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#actually traumatized #trauma culture #trauma #therapist trauma culture #sa mention #cocsa mention #psychiatric trauma cw #it is not normal and even if it was you're still allowed to have trauma from it #mod puns

[survivingcocsa]

u took so much from me

#twcocsa #tw cocsa #cw cocsa #tw csa #cw csa mention #cocsa mention #side blog

[florenceisfalling]

im one of those people who gets labeled as being "too defensive" of terfs bc i am willing to have a genuine discussion with them if i think i could sway their opinion whatsoever. however when i see those radfems whose criticisms of "males" as a whole run so deep that they say violent shit about literal children, like six year old boys involved in cocsa cases, i see red. i need those grown fucking creeps dead and desecrated when they slobber about how little boys should be killed. i need to put a pocketknife into their brainstems with my own hand

#saw one talking about putting a 6yo boy in a wood chipper 'legs first' and its like #theres no redeeming you at this point from my end of things. improve or die #child harm tw #cocsa mention #transmisogyny tw #im a cocsa victim btw dont fucking talk to me about 'think of the victims'

[cinpoetry]

Sunday School Lessons

Tw: cocsa, religious trauma 

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What is rape?

Did we do it right?

Am i still a little girl on her knees

Legs spread for the camera 

Saying im sorry like a ball of cotton stuck in the throat

I am still obedient

I am still crying in the nighttime

Too dirty to be touched

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Swap spit in the bathroom of the church 

Silently screaming, 

Is this supposed to be gods love

Rape in the form of two pairs of feet under the stall

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I am still aching from that worship

#original poem #poetry #short poem #poets #sad poetry #poetry corner #spilled poetry #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #my writing #poetic #poets on tumblr #poem #tw cocsa #cocsa victim #cocsa mention #cocsa trauma #religious trauma #depressing poem #tw depressing stuff #trauma

[the-resurrection-3d]

Words: 3.5k 

Fandom: The Owl House (Cartoon)

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Rape/Non-Con, Underage

Relationships: The Collector/King (The Owl House), Caleb Wittebane/Philip Wittebane | Emperor Belos, The Collector & Philip Wittebane | Emperor Belos

Characters: King (The Owl House), The Collector (The Owl House)

Additional Tags: implied Empgold, cocsa, Sexual Abuse, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied Necrophilia, Screenplay/Script Format, sad unfinished handjobs, Hurt/Comfort, well really lots of hurt but only a little comfort

LIGHTS UP on the stage: our hero, KING, sits on a windowsill like he’s seen his sister do many times before.

He is not a prisoner; there is no glass. The Collector has made sure that there are no locked doors and no glass or bars on the windows and no locks, no, definitely no locks. Unless it’s Eda’s cage, but hey, that’s just for everyone’s safety.

Outside the world has more stars than ever, so many it hurts King’s eyes to look up the sky.

AKA Philip Wittebane is a menace to society. 

#gurl i am NOT putting this in the tags LMAO #csa mention #cocsa mention #2d nonsense

[solsticeamaris]

the ACES test is drastically uninclusive in my opinion. even as someone with a high score, there are so many deeply damaging childhood experiences left unaddressed such as COCSA, family working on the frontlines through military and/or law enforcement (not supporting the system, but the parents' lives are at risk daily and that can be one of the most damaging things for children to grow up aware of), sexuality and gender identity struggles, death of a close friend and/or legal guardian, NCCSA, CSEM, and so much other shit that isn't talked about. these things have also been proven to have a negative impact on people's physical health later in life, and therefore should also be options. i know people probably do not rely on aces anymore, and i support said departure from it, though it can be helpful in certain situations.

#aces test #tw cocsa #cw vent #childhood trauma #gender identity #lgbtq community #csem tw #child abuse tw #death tw #cocsa mention #ptsd tw #parental abuse #sa tw #csa tw #personal vent #tw dysmorphia

[fakeboitherottengirl]

Like I grew up getting constantly molested and I grew up as a fat kid and if you asked me what I could change about my childhood and what caused me the most trauma I wouldn’t say it was the rapes, those barely even register, the treatment I got for being a fat girl was way more humiliating and dehumanizing and made me feel less at home in my body than the incidents of what (at the time) felt like positive attention from older boys\men like it grosses me out more to remember but if I were making a list of things that I processed as traumas at the time and didn’t either shut down and store for later or was groomed into thinking it was positive at the time and only processed as a trauma in retrospect, I had a very happy fun bright childhood until I turned 12 and everybody out of nowhere started bullying me about my weight. My weight, not my sexual experience, was what defined my shame. If anything, I had converted any shame I had over what happened to my body into shame about its size. I will die on the hill that fatphobia is real and traumatizing. I’ll be 30 next year and I’m still struggling with the same case of bulimia that I’ve been in and out of as a child, never REALLY having time clean, disappointment to everybody around me because I literally broke a sphincter in my throat and can’t keep food down if I eat the slightest bit too much, like yeah it sucks that there’s hours of both self produced and “professionally” produced csem of me floating around god knows where probably being sold next to molly from 2012 when it was still real and tabs of 25i on whatever replaced Silk Road but like what really ruined my youth was not what happened to me sexually (that’s ruining my adulthood- yippee!) what ruined my youth was being big idk there’s no point to this post other than fuck anybody who doesn’t believe that fatphobia does real harm that shit literally ruined my life and also made me even more vulnerable to sexual predators a lot of my early memories of molestation related to my weight like I thought they were grabbing at my chest to make fun of it for being fat at the time, not copping a feel bc I was early developed, and I think that’s a major root of my chest dysphoria. Anyway I’m on a lot of kpins because work was hard and I’m ranting but yeah fatphobia is real and it stole my youth worse than any of my abusers did

#fatphobia #csa mention #ed mention #cocsa mention #gender dysphoria

[inferialis]

vent art etc etc

#vent art #cocsa mention #technically #tumblr user inferialis #i don't know how to tag this i'm sorry #ok to reblog

[trauma-culture-is]

Saw an anon a while ago say their therapist was trying to tell them COCSA was normal. Don't know if they'll see but if they do, then first off normal only means common. It only means that it's something a lot of people think or do, and a lot of normal things aren't okay. Pretty sure that statistically it's not normal but regardless normal doesn't mean it's okay. If it were okay it wouldn't be categorized as assault/abuse. and sorry your therapist is trying to tell you otherwise.

i agree, don't think it's common either but things like abuse in general (especially verbal/emotional) are unfortunately not rare...

#not trauma culture #cocsa mention #sa mention #abuse mention #psychiatric trauma mention #mod puns

[loutrem]

Pouring my heart out, screaming to my little brother how he hurt me, how i can't ever believe him again. Doesn't say sorry. Doesn't remember he was a tool in the SA i endured for years. What should i even think about now. That hes just a pos? He keeps saying he love me and im everything to him but i cant reciprocate. He hurt and keeps hurting me and everyone around him. And he doesnt listen. And he doesnt say sorry. And he doesnt remember.

#talking otter #negative / #cocsa mention

[layer-07]

i have this memory of being... not going into the details but it was COCSA, but i have no idea if it was a dream or not. i remembered this episode in 2020 but it's kinda funny how i probably repressed this memory for yearsss and then waking up one day like "wait hold on i just a fucking bruh moment" 💀

#cocsa mention #vent #venting #trauma #traumacore #traumadump

[puppydogism]

The urge to respond to my bio familys repeated attempts to contact me cause i wanna know if one of my parents died (🤞)

#im not gonna but sigh #interesting how it only started after my mother texted me to harrass me for how i reacted to cocsa like - your fault lady! #cocsa mention #csa mention #family mention #i literally refuse to feel guilty for that (in theory)

[the-resurrection-3d]

I would get drunk tonight and finally write that luberto cocsa truther fic

#cocsa mention

[flowersbark]

having a complicated relationship with sex/sexual things after sa is so weird because like . it'll be 1 am and ill be switching through apps and ill be thirsting over a character and then ill open tumblr and i remember everything bad shes ever done to me

#cw vent #sa survivor #sa vent #sa victim #vent blog #vent post #tw vent #vent #sa trauma #cocsa survivor #cw cocsa #cocsa vent #cocsa victim #tw sa mention #tw sa #sa recovery #tw csa #cw csa #csa vent #csa victim #actually traumatized

[fakeboitherottengirl]

The other teacher in the toddler room joked how kids that age will do anything for stickers and I was literally bribed into silence by my first abuser with stickers so i had a minor panic attack and just saw my babies and how innocent and helpless they were and I got this flair of rage about what he did to me because who could abuse the trust of somebody so trusting who just wants approval who could see that implicit trust that they have for everything and their implicit belief that the world is a good safe place and violate it there is no crime worse than abusing a child in any way

#cocsa mention