#compared to my regular 45%

[winterarmyy]

Welcome home... Soldat? | Part I

That time when Bucky accidentally relapsed into the Winter Soldier.

Summary: Y/N had make a habit of greeting Bucky a warm 'welcome home' everytime he came back from his missions, but there was one particular day when she unknowingly greeted someone else.

Navigation: Part I || Part II* || Part III (end) || Extra

Words: 2.9k++

Pairing: winter soldier!bucky x female!reader

Warnings: implied 18+ content, implied smut, dubious con on groping reader's body, dark(?) possessive behaviour, google translated russian, our soldat is kinda cute(?) in his own twisted way, and well, basically fluffy times with the soldat.

P/S: Guys, I never planned this at all. I mean, who am I kidding? All of my fics are not planned and I clearly write things out of impulse. Therefore, this one don't have much of a story building/plot because it was born out of one scene that flashed in my head and has been replayed way to many times that I need to let it out. Anyway, I still hope you enjoy it, somehow.

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Y/N didn't know when exactly she started this habit but she swore to herself to never grow out of it.

It's been nearly 2 years since the fall of Hydra and the avenger has accepted the winter soldier under their wing. Begrudgingly by Tony, but the rest of them seemed like they're not against it.

Y/N used to be an agent from SHIELD but since the fall, she had been recruited under the avenger's programme and had been living in the tower since.

She remembered the day when Bucky first came in, he was quiet and weary all the time. Like an abandoned cat, picked up by a stranger to come to their home. And it took the whole team months before he slowly adapted.

Who knew he would morphed into a sassy, grumpy little shit, right?

Since the first day, Y/N had been making an effort to make him feel welcomed. Helped him to adjust to modern times. Though it was not regular but she's glad he came to her from time to time to ask about things.

Y/N only meant it to be casual when she greeted him back from his missions. Usually, it'll be something like,

"Oh you're back?"

"How's the team?"

"Good to see you well put together from such horrendous mission."

"God, you look like you fell from 5 flight of stairs."

"Are you even trying to fight back, Bucky?"

But one time, Bucky came back in the morning around breakfast, she wasn't feeling sassy or clever. So, instead of greeting him with playful remarks, in the glory of her messy bed hair and iron man pyjamas, she greeted him with a sleepy smile, "Welcome home, Bucky."

And that surely made the 6 foot, bulky hunk of a soldier paralysed in his spot. His ocean blues slightly widen, and his cheeks deepen in blush.

For a moment, he wondered if this is how he would feel if he had a wife waiting for him to come back from war back in the 40's. But, then again nothing can be compared to the sight he was seeing as he is now.

And Y/N didn't want to ever lose that memory of him.

Cute and flustered Bucky is a very rare sight to see. Perhaps, this was the only time she could witness it and she want to cherish it for the rest of her life.

Though Bucky never replied to Y/N's greeting, it didn't stop them from starting a whole new routine.

Y/N always knew that she had a thing for the sargent, but about 2 months from that moment, Y/N realized she was in love.

And she waited for him, every single chance she had for arrival of the team to come back. Just like she is now, at 03:45 in the morning, while scavenging for something sweet she can eat as she waits for Bucky's return.

When, she turned around she was not expecting to have her face into clashed into something, "Oww!" Y/N shuts her eyes close as she rubbed her aching nose to ease the sharp strike of pain.

For a moment there, she seriously thought she might have just bumped into some kind of a solid air that appeared out of nowhere, but when she opened her eyes, it was just Bucky who was standing rather ominously still.

"My god, you scared the shit out of me. I know you used to be an assassin but, you gotta announce yourself sometimes, man." She joked. Although she did find it impressive that he managed to silently sneak up on her with those thick, heavy combat boots he was wearing.

"Woah, someone's been having a field day kicking your ass, huh?" Y/N's eyes lingered a little longer on the wounds at the side of his temple that she didn't notice the void in his eyes.

"Anyway..." she continued as she shook of the thoughts of caressing the cut on the corner of Bucky's lip, before greeting him with a gentle smile, "Welcome home."

Bucky's unresponsiveness was nothing new to her. With the amount of silent glares and gruff eye-rolls that he had shot at her these past few months, she's used to it by now.

But, when she finally had the guts to look him in the eye, only then she noticed the underlying shift. Albeit, his signature frown was still as present as ever but, those eyes had made her questioned of the slight difference from what she recognized.

Bucky wordlessly step forward and cornered her until her back meets the side of the kitchen isle. He took his time assessing her, almost admiring the way her iris wavered in confusion.

Something is wrong.

Her guts were screaming at her to notice it but her body wasn't reacting accordingly. That's when the voice of the AI, Jarvis echoed through the walls.

"Emergency alert: Code Winter. Initiated by Captain Steve Rogers. All agent is advised..." The announcement went on based on protocol while the cogs in Y/N's brain finally moved, "Code Winter? That means..."

 "...to be cautious of Sargent James Barnes; reprimand on sight however try not to engage alone. Agents is..." Jarvis voice in the background interwoven with Y/N's internal deduction, "...This is not Bucky?"

As she tried to put her own mind into perspective, trying to make herself believe that this man in front of her is not Bucky Barnes who she had been adoring over for these past few months, the soldat's hands reached the side of her neck, squeezing the softness of her flesh while his thumbs grazed the shape of her jawline.

His heavy gaze remained on hers, willing her to stay as still possible.

"Bucky...?" She called his name in hopes of triggering something, anything for within his controlled mind.

At end of the corridor leading towards the kitchen, Steve could see how the soldat had already gotten his hands on Y/N and panic strike him like lightning, he sprinted towards her as he despretely shouted, "Y/N! Stay away from--"

But Y/N was not able to render anything she heard from Steve, especially after a long silence, the soldat finally spoke, "Yes, I'm home..."

He carefully pulled her face closer to his as his lips planted on her soft cheek, "...мое cолнышко (my sunshine)" he lifted for a second just to kiss her again on her temple as he whispered lowly, "...мое Родная (my darling)"

Y/N's heart was beating madly for several different reasons. Parts of her was terrified that the soldat might break her neck within an instance, but it gradually changes into something much more confusing, a conflicted joy, when he keep on trailing his lips all over her face.

What is happening?

Both her and Steve was practically frozen in pure confusion.

Steve's mouth hanged open as words failed to form, while Y/N was unable to comprehend any sort of thoughts, let alone counter movements; when the soldat continue to whisper Russian endearments against her skin, littering sweet kisses on every part of her face, except for her lips as if he wanted to tease her.

His hands slowly travel down her back and stopped on the side of her waist, pulling her body closer until there was no space in between them anymore, before he wrapped his arms around her.

The drag of his stubble on her skin burned but it felt so good when he kissed it after.

Seconds later, Sam managed to catch up with Steve and his cautious approach fell as he witnessed the soldat's rather domestic actions towards Y/N.

Sam foolishly let his guard down as he approached with a question directed to Steve, "Is the tin man back?" That was when a bullet barely grazed the tip of his ear that then buried through the wall behind him.

Both Steve and Sam forced to stop any sort of movement as the soldat's aim was still locked towards their direction; his cold blue eyes pierced with a menacing warning, all the while posessively holding Y/N in his arms as his kisses trailed the side of her neck.

"Nope, not yet." Sam answered his own question as he waited for Steve's order.

Y/N felt like she have to do something to de-escalate the situation. After a quick deduction, and based on the soldat attitude towards her, she took the risk of believing that he would not do anything to hurt her, so she decided to play along.

Will it work though?

Well, she got to have to try for it work.

She gulped nervously before softly calls for him, "Soldat?" she looked up towards him.

When the soldat gave her his attention, she watched the loose strand of his hair fall down to his face. Her hand went up and reached for it, "How about we go back to your room and let me tend these wounds, hmm?" She cooed while tucking his behind his ear and briefly caressing his cheek with the back of her fingers.

The soldat didn't reply but instead silently process her proposition.

However, the hesitation only worried her more, so she continued to persuade, as she cautiously slide her hand, following his arm that was holding her teammates at gun point, "It'll be just the two of us. How's that sound?" She smiled warmly at him as she managed to lower it enough to grab the gun away from his grasp.

There was a glint of indecipherable emotion in his eyes when she mentioned that, which then he nodded in agreement.

"Okay then, let's go." She put the gun on the kitchen isle behind her and replaced her hand in his, pulling him towards his bedroom. The soldat did not protest to her lead, in fact her followed her obediently.

But before Y/N makes an exit, she looked back towards Steve and mouthed a reassuring message, "I got this."

The captain had all the rights to be weary but at this point, he just had to believe in Y/N's action plan. He nodded and replied, "Be safe. We'll be outside."

Along the walk towards Bucky's room, all she could think was that she can handle it and she got this under control.

But, does she?

Well, Y/N did have it under control, in terms of keeping the soldat from going on a berserk rampage but what she didn't think through was how the fuck she should handle his behaviour towards her.

After they arrived to Bucky's room, she had instructed him to strip off his tactical suit and leave him sitting at the edge of the bed, only in his short to avoid him reaching for any hidden weapons he had, all the while she went to grab the first aid from his bathroom.

Now that she almost done tending the small injuries on his face, it finally dawned to her that the soldat had her immobilized in between his legs as his hands rubbed the back of her thighs, occasionally squeezing the softness of her body in his tender grip.

His intent gaze waited patiently for her to finish and as soon as she did, he pulled her on his lap, making her to straddle on top him as he smushed his face on her chest, "Oh, Родная (darling)... I have missed you."

Her hands found her balance on his shoulders while the soldat roaming hands held her body still by the back of her waist.

It will be a lie if she said her heart didn't skipped when he confessed; even if it was still the soldat's thoughts and words but it was Bucky's voice.

The soldat pulled his other hand to play with the buttons of her pyjamas shirt, specifically around her chest area.

Part of him wanted to just rip her clothes off from her body but another part of him didn't want to. He didn't want scare her; and his precious little darling deserved to be pampered.

He had her buttons popped off; one by one, slow and almost sensual while Y/N was still in a heated debate with herself on what she should to next. She wanted the soldat to stop but god the temptation of wanting more was beyond her will power.

This is not Bucky.

She knew that. But, she had been bewitched by the look in those familiar blue eyes. So enthralled and so keen to unwrap her.

Y/N let out a low yet sharp gasp as her chest was finally revealed, "Soldat, what..." The soldat take a quick glance into her eyes, "...are you doing?" before trailing back down to the curve of her breasts, cupped so beautifully with a simple black bra.

His hands went back to grabbed her thighs as he replied, "Just wanna hold you." He leaned closer and left a lingering kiss in between her breasts, mumbling deep, " Wanna feel you, мое Родная (my darling)"

Fuck, it feels so good.

"Wanna feel you..." Y/N's grip on his bare shoulder tightened as he lips warmed the top of her right breast, "...here." An unexpected moan slipped out of her lips as the soldat latched his wet mouth on her skin, bruising it with his mark.

He groaned to the taste of her, so sweet and soft, he wanted to pull the bra off her and suckle on her nipple. He bet that they're perky and so sensitive. Bet he could make her cum just by playing with them.

He wanted to leave his bite mark around them, make them look much more prettier. But, he needed to be patient.

He brought his left hand up to hold the other side of her chest; pulling another pretty noise as the cold metal of his thumb gently stroked the exposed skin of her breast.

"Wanna feel you..." His flesh hand made its way lower and cupped her clothed sex, unexpectedly making her grind down to his hold, "...here."

She couldn't help to find shelter in the crook of his neck when he began to stroke her sensually.

This is getting out of hand.

Y/N doesn't mind to entertain him if the soldat only asked for him to hold her but it was clear that he wanted so much more than just innocent touches. Especially when he languidly rubbed his middle finger in between the slit of her pussy.

She hates how easy it was for Bucky's touch turned her on, his hands and his lips; regardless if his actions was someone else's.

This is wrong.

This has to stop.

"No... soldat." She whimpered in his ears as his finger drew slow circles on her clit, his mouth latched on her shoulder.

"I can't touch you here?" He murmured softly as he pressed harder. Even with the barrier of the cotton panties, she was so sensitive to his touch; he loves that about her.

"N-no. You can't." She choked back a moan as she replied.

God, what if he doesn't care?

What if he'll get mad and force it on her?

She can't imagine the guilt Bucky had to experience if the soldat take her right now. And all because her stupid little brain cannot comprehend a plan to stop him, all because she let the soldat touch her as freely, as willingly.

Salty tears started to blur her vision when she sniffled them back.

Much to his deperateness, the soldat pulled her away and watched as her tears spilled out, "Oh darling, don't cry." He leaned in and kiss the corners of her eyes, murmuring his words of comfort, "I hate to see you cry, мое cолнышко (my sunshine)." His metal hand slithered to her back and his palm stroked her lovingly.

"Okay, okay. I won't touch your sweet princess part, okay?" He patted her pussy one last time before reaching to swipe her tears away. "I promise." He whispered.

As much as he wanted to fuck her stupid, fill her hole full with his load; however the soldat does hold her very dear to his heart and hates to see her sad.

"Just let me hold you close, darling?" He cooed as he kissed the edge of her lips.

Y/N didn't know why but she trusted his words. Maybe it was because he was so gentle with her, that she was tricked into believing him.

She watched the soldat waited patiently for her response and when she nodded softly, he swiftly lifted her in his arms and lay her down on the bed.

He tucked himself in under the sheets with her and naturally rested his face on her chest. His fleshed arms wrapped securely around her waist and his metal one around her thighs, as he pulled her closer; almost suffocating himself in between her warm breasts.

It was like an instinct for Y/N to encircle her arms around his neck while her hands run through the thick of his hair, absentmindedly playing with the softness of it.

She almost giggle when the soldat let out a deep-throated sound of relieved sighs as she continued to massage his scalp.

As the soldat started to sail deeper into dreamland, Y/N thought that maybe this will be the only and the last time she had the chance to hold Bucky like this and she knew it was wrong to feel grateful to the soldat because had done nothing but terrible, despicable things in the past.

But when she thought about it, none of those sins was his choice to make. He was created to kill and nothing else.

But what if he had something to hold on to?

A hope to look forward to?

A person to protect?

Or a home to go back to?

Would he still be the same monster he had been before?

She have not a slightest clue.

But, what she does know that this soldat who's clinging in her arms, deserves something kind.

And she hoped that she managed to give him a sense of peace for once in his life.

Y/N nuzzled to the side of his tired-looking face and placed a sweet kiss on his temple as she whispered ever-so-softly, "Welcome home, soldat."

Part II >>

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A/N: This is possibly part 1? I'm not sure either. Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments! And reblogs is much appreciated!

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[mayakern]

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i also just really want to emphasize to people who don’t make clothes that natural fabric can cost a LOT of money compared to synthetics—i like to sew historical costumes, and while i’d love to use period-accurate materials, i often go with synthetic blends because most 100% natural fabric runs $20-60/yd (compared to $6-10/yd for synthetics). and that’s just shopping for mass-produced fabric, so i have to imagine that even if you’re getting some kind of bulk discount, procuring custom-printed, high-quality, ethically-sourced natural fabric would be a huge increase in cost compared to synthetics.

i would love for all my clothes to be made with natural fibers, but as someone making barely above minimum wage in a super high cost-of-living area, i just can’t afford that. and i honestly really appreciate your commitment to making clothes that fit fat bodies while also being well-made and affordable, because finding clothes that hits all three of those things is a rarity.

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yes natural fiber fabric is much more expensive as a base cost than synthetic but the kicker is the printing. for reference, we’re reasonably confident that we will be able to sell the solid dyed natural fiber skirts for around $45-50. it’s literally just that custom printing is so damn expensive it’s not even worth pursuing.

#ask

[sukifox18]

I think I found out something about "Welcome Home" easter eggs.

Spoiler alert...

so I think I understood something about the audio of Wally Singing "Beautiful Dreamer". (to find the audio you have to go to the "Welcome Home" site and add singingmp4 ) 

First of all we know that Wally sings in the audio. He sings the music "Beautiful Dreamer" by Roy Orbison, we clearly hear that he does not sing very loudly.

After listening to the audio several times, I finally understood that in the audio there is a rather regular noise, at first I thought that Wally was dragging something on the ground but it was way too regular to be that . So I understood that it was a kind of snoring, I measured with a metronome how regular the sound was... (I put the metronome at 45 BPM and every 5 strokes of the metronome the noise repeated, I only Know that snoring is something that  can be regular.)

After that I connected all the clues I had.

I think we all know Wally is the mastermind of the story, I think in this audio he sings "Beautiful Dreamer" as a lullaby for someone who's sleeping, so that's why he's telling us to “stay quiet” for do not wake up someone or something in another easteregg, we also see that the interior of his house is completely black. 

I think Wally is taking care of someone or something that either behaves like a child or it's something you have to put to sleep at all cost to avoid boredom...

Here, especially tell me if you understand what I wrote, and tell me if it is possible...

THANK YOU FOR READING MY LITTLE THEORY ON WELCOME HOME

(If ever there is a problem with the creator of "Welcome Home" compared to my theory I will delete the post...)

I hope you liked my theory and go follow Partycoffin .

#welcome home #welcomehome #theory #creepy #puppet #wally

[headspace-hotel]

so my quest now is to get Arundinaria federally listed as endangered because I think the evidence is highly compelling

it's declined to less than 2% of its original range

it used to be a keystone species in an ecosystem that included Bachman's warbler, passenger pigeons and Carolina parakeets, all extinct now

Currently canebrakes are major habitat for several endangered or critically endangered plants including Venus flytraps and Alabama canebrake pitcher plants

it grows in large clonal colonies and reproduces sexually only every 30-40 years. this means that existing genetic diversity could be incredibly low.

(Personal observation) very, very few existing examples of rivercane are large, robust, and healthy canebrakes. like, most photos and observations I can find are of little, twiggy canes growing as part of the underbrush in a forest.

My canebrake has no canes that look like that. The shortest canes are 4-6 feet tall. But it's not declining—it's healthy looking and on the ground there are tiny sprouts nudging up from the rhizomes. ALSO. I found an old photo of the canebrake, from June 2020. It was like. Half the size. I am certain the river cane was not this tall and striking in the spring. I go on walks daily in the neighborhood; I would have noticed it.

I hypothesize that as a canebrake expands and matures, its growth rate increases, so a "mature" canebrake can shoot up 6+ foot canes in a single growing season. Existing research by the few organizations working on canebrake conservation states that after a controlled burn, canes resprout very rapidly from the rhizome system, growing as fast as 1.5 inches a day. Historical records attest that river cane reached 30 or even 45+ feet tall, but there is like, one photo online in existence of cane taller than 15 feet.

What this means is that almost all remaining river cane is in incredibly poor condition, basically existing in a weak immature state. "Maturity" for river cane means a large clonal colony, not a few sparse sticks in the undergrowth. The fact that this plant grows in large clonal colonies is key—if no mature, healthy colonies exist in an area, the plant is almost functionally extinct.

With the rate of development and clearing of land compared next to river cane's slow flowering schedule, it's likely that many clonal colonies are eradicated without ever flowering, meaning that genetic diversity is almost certainly dropping.

Rivercane is dependent on human management via regular controlled burns to thrive. This is not a species that will recover if simply left to itself—if an area of land is left to reforest, the cane will be outcompeted. If it is grazed by cattle, it will be destroyed.

It is already listed as endangered in a couple states

i'm going back to my volunteer job soon, I will bring this proposal, I already know the head forester and ecologist are interested, and i'll be gathering contacts

#river cane #canebrake #canebrakes #bamboo #conservation

[mrbensonmum]

TV Show - Dr. House | House M.D. VII

Unstoppably we are approaching the end of the third season (currently at S3E20, House Training), and I'm wondering, as my memory refuses to reveal, what major event occurs that causes House to reform his team or leads to drastic changes. Yes, I admit, I'm really looking forward to seeing Thirteen (Olivia Wilde) and also Martha M. Masters (Amber Tamblyn), although I think Masters might take a little longer to appear.

It's quite exciting when you've seen everything already, can remember a lot, but a rewatch helps to put all the puzzle pieces back in the right order. Yes, one could think about it, but I enjoy the suspense.

One of the scenes that made me laugh a lot back then has already come up, namely when House compares a patient's body to the German railway system. Back then, the comparison might have been somewhat accurate, and yes, even in the original, he makes the same comparison with the same cities (Berlin & Düsseldorf), but unfortunately, the German trains, whether regional or long-distance, are nowhere near as good and punctual anymore. I've been wondering the whole time if it was like that back then, but no, today it's definitely worse. Just thinking about how many times I got stranded at a train station last year, BIG UFF!

Otherwise, after the Tritter thing, things are moving rather slowly, and I don't think that's a bad thing at all. The highlight, of course, is the romance between Chase and Cameron, although it's almost over by now. I vaguely remember a wedding in the future and maybe even a divorce? No, I'm sure about the wedding, but I don't think there was a divorce. Oh, I also remember the big bus accident involving Wilson's girlfriend. There's a lot more to come!

Speaking of which, I think the dynamic between Wilson and House has changed a lot since the incident with the prescription pad. At first, it seemed like everything was over and they had no future, but now the connection seems stronger than ever. We also saw that in the story with Cuddy, when they both tested each other to see how far they would go. And then just saying "Night House!" "Night Wilson!" to each other, that's a true bromance, ladies and gentlemen! (I know, I'm late to that party!)

But now there's a very heavy episode on, as once again, an important topic is being addressed, one that often unfortunately gets overlooked in every society, Alzheimer's & dementia. Foreman's mother suffers from Alzheimer's, and I know, it really affected me back then because my grandmother died of Alzheimer's, and my mother is showing the first signs of it now. This disease steals the mind first, then the body, and we should talk about it much more and do much more against it. I know what it's like to watch a person lose themselves in the darkness of this disease, and believe me, you wouldn't wish it on anyone. Once again, a topic highlighted by the series and one that should continue to be addressed. I'm currently wondering if House is airing anywhere on regular TV in Germany, but I don't think so at the moment. That should change because yes, it can be fun and enjoyable for about 45 minutes, but it's also a topic of conversation that might find resonance in the workplace or similar institutions, and suddenly a disease is lifted from its obscurity and brought into the real world. THAT'S IMPORTANT! However, there is another important aspect in this episode that must not be overlooked. Doctors make mistakes, and these mistakes can end up being deadly! Of course, nobody wants to talk about it in the real world, and doctors usually don't admit to such things. It's another issue that's hushed up, but the series brings it back to light, brilliantly! Also, the fact that House performs an autopsy afterward for research purposes may seem strange and odd at first, but it's also about finding out where things went wrong. Yes, it's also to stroke one's own ego, but it's also to prevent such things from happening again.

I won't manage to finish the end of the third season today, but there was another remarkable appearance. In the last episode (S3E19, Act your Age), part of the supporting cast of Bones made an appearance. We saw Joel David Moore and Carla Gallo. And in the episode before that (S3E18, Airborne), Pej Vahdat was one of the passengers or Foreman's substitute.

A little thank you to everyone who diligently reads and shares my Dr. House posts. I'm just doing this for fun, but it's cool that it's well-received and my little analyses are being shared. Thank you very much!

#tvshow #house #dr. house #dr house #house md #greg house #gregory house #wilson #james wilson #dr. wilson #alzheimers #dementia #important

[bread-tab]

i'm trying to get over my deep embarrassment about being So Bad At Math and let myself accept it and work on it and really think about it again—

which is hard! because every time i even bring up my struggles and/or the idea of having dyscalculia i get shut down like "no you're too smart, you can do math, you're just anxious, you're just overthinking it"

... yeah, i can do math, but i do it slowly and by shortcuts and memorization and being good with calculators and by redoing everything five times as fast as i can to catch the inevitable stupid mistakes. i can do math like the average dyslexic person can read.

i'm a cashier and i can't count people's change back to them using that subtraction(?) trick. i mess up too often.

i'm overthinking it because i keep having to relearn significant parts of multiplication and division every year or two.

—and, uh, anyway, and now that i'm thinking about it again after getting back into therapy and all that. working actively on self-acceptance. it just hit me that the number i have the most trouble with is 1.

like of course i didn't want to admit that. one. one! can you even explain to me what one is? probably not! it's too obvious! it's intuitive, right?

well. not for me.

1 is actually a very abstract number. when you're looking at stuff in the real world—counting beans, slicing pies, whatever—you're actually arbitrarily grouping billions of atoms and molecules into a "single" object. you're one person, but you're also trillions of cells.

i do fine with the real world, but not so well with abstract quantities. my intuition is concrete. in the real world you can't multiply things. that would violate the conservation of mass. you just move things around (or compare them to each other). and practically speaking you're always moving around lumps of stuff and an atom or a crumb here or there doesn't matter. 100 vs 99 is not a big deal. 1 vs 2 is. (sometimes i get very upset about fractions.)

i can't hold the idea of "one" as a pure quantity in my mind very well. i think of everything as a set. (i was very happy to encounter set theory in middle school. genuinely ecstatic.) i have to visualize 1 as something tangible, give it a shape. a dot. a circle. a square. the problem is, 1 is really small. either i'm picturing it as something big enough to have other stuff in it—too big—or as basically an empty set, which ends up resulting in a lot of errors because i treat it like 0.

i can think it more easily in binary sometimes—explicitly distinguishing between 1 and 0!—but that means a lot of repetition which i can't keep track of well enough for regular arithmetic. the repetition is worse for my working memory.

idk, it's late and i'm rambling. it's just. this is a disability i have. it's on my mind because i've been struggling really badly with time management and today i really realized that a big part of that is because time management involves constantly doing math. i get to see my little arithmetic mistakes add up to cascading problems in real time.

what's a little 1 misplaced here or there? whoops, that 1 was an hour. 15 minutes is basically the same as 20. oh but 20 is about the same as 30. is there really a big difference between half an hour and an hour? well, i have 60 whole minutes, might as well waste 5. 45 minutes is almost an hour.

15 minutes late is "you no-call no-showed your appointment." 10 minutes late is "your timecard is looking bad. you're on your first warning, after your third one you're getting fired." 5 minutes late is a "tardy," and i've never had a clean attendance record.

it's past 3 a.m. i need to get up at 11. will i get 8 hours of sleep?

do i ever?

this is not a very kind world in which to struggle with simple math.

#dyscalculia #don't get me started on what it's like to manage money #at least you can't go into time debt #long post #venting #i guess #ableism

[twisted-wonderland-shenanigans]

Question, how big IS everyone in your kaiju au? Are they 10-20 feet tall or are they bigger? And do they have extra appendages, if so how many! (and if it would be okay, may i be called OddBall Anon please! (> ^ <) )

I have been putting this off a little too long, BUT!!! I have finally gotten a good idea on the heights of each of the characters in this AU! (Minus RSA and Rollo at the moment)

And of course, you can be OddBall Anon~! >v< Sorry it took so long to get to your ask. ;;v;;

Here's a link to the list of what each character is in the AU to make it easier to reference!

Heartslabyul:

Riddle/Ragebloom—35 ft

Trey/Shellshock—65 ft

Cater/Flashwing—63 ft (130 ft wingspan)

Ace/Slyfang—50 ft

Deuce/Bruiser—63 ft

Savanaclaw:

Leona/Pridefang—66 ft

Ruggie/Scrapper—54 ft

Jack/Frosthowl—78 ft

Octavinelle:

Azul/Ashsong—65 ft (200 ft in length)

Jade/Heartshocker—45 ft (100 ft in length)

Floyd/Heartbinder—45 ft (100 ft in length)

Scarabia:

Kalim/Goldmaker—40 ft (90 ft length)

Jamil/Venomblade—43 ft (94 ft length)

Pomefiore:

Vil/Crystalflayer—60 ft (120 wingpan)

Rook/Shadowhunter—52 ft

Epel/Feralfang—35 ft

Ignihyde:

Idia/Magmagloom—66 ft

Ortho/Calamity—25 ft

Diasomnia:

Malleus/Catacylsm—90 ft (not including horns)

Lilia/Echofang—40 ft (80 ft in length)

Silver/Silverfang—59 ft

Sebek/Thunderfang—75 ft

Staff:

Grim/Grimfang—5 ft 5 in (at first); grows to be 10 ft tall with the regular feeding

Crowley/Nevermore—70 ft (140 ft wingspan)

Trein/Elderclaw—65 ft

Crewel/Crewelfang—66 ft

Vargas/Rampage—75 ft

Sam/Shadowdrifter—53 ft

Now you might be wondering: why is there such a stark difference in height when some of the boys are the same exact height in game?! There's a simple explanation for that, actually.

See, compared to the Monster!AU, the Kaiju's heights are roughly rounded off based off the animals they're based off of. For example, Ace and Deuce: they're both roughly the same height in game, but because Ace is based on a fox and Deuce a canine in this AU, foxes are smaller than regular sized dogs. Hence, Deuce being bigger and Ace using this as an excuse to hitch a ride on his back 😂

Now for those of you who are visual, I've gone through and done a height chart of the boys using my main persona Faun (5'1") as a basis for comparison. As a treat, I did everyone here on the list! UvU

Some of these guys are so big that they dwarf/hide some of their pack. >.> But this should give at least a better idea on how big everyone is!

Trust me, the original height I had for them had Crowley being at 200 ft tall, which would have made interaction nigh impossible 😱 And yes, I was also trying to use the Godzilla and King Kong as examples to go off of, which would have made me being able to write fluff a little difficult realistically ;;^;;

#twisted wonderland #twst #twisted wonderland kaiju au #twst kaiju au #heartslabyul #savanaclaw #octavinelle #scarabia #pomefiore #ignihyde #diasomnia

[beardedmrbean]

Sen. John Fetterman could land himself in trouble with voters after he doubled down on his claims that he is not a progressive Democrat, despite comments he made during his election campaign.

"I'm not a progressive, I'm just a regular Democrat," Fetterman said on X, formerly Twitter.

The statement was contradicted by the website's community notes feature, referencing tweets from Fetterman in 2016 and 2020 in which he clearly said he was a progressive.

Despite the contradiction, Fetterman has noticeably shifted away from the position upon which he narrowly defeated Donald Trump-endorsed Dr. Mehmet Oz in the 2022 midterms.

Politicians such as Vermont Sen. Bernie Sanders, an independent closely aligned with the left of the Democratic Party, have called for a ceasefire in Gaza, whereas Fetterman has said he supports the Israeli response to the attack by the Palestinian militant group Hamas on October 7 "unequivocally," despite criticism that it has been too strong.

"I just think I'm a Democrat that is very committed to choice and other things. But with Israel, I'm going to be on the right side of that," Fetterman said.

The Pennsylvania senator's stance on Israel is a particular source of ire for many who consider themselves part of the progressive movement, largely younger voters.

A November 2021 poll by Pew Research recorded that 71 percent of the progressive left movement is made up of people aged 18 to 49.

It is young voters that favored Fetterman in his 2022 Senate race against Oz. According to an exit poll taken by Statista, 72 percent of voters aged 18-24 who answered said they voted for the Democrat. The figure was similar for voters aged 25 to 29, at 68 percent.

His position on Israel-Gaza could spell trouble among this voter demographic. According to a New York Times/Siena poll published on Tuesday, 45 percent of people aged 18 to 29 think President Joe Biden is "too supportive" of Israel. In the same age group, 46 percent of people who responded said they were supportive of Palestine, compared to 27 percent favoring Israel.

The same poll said that just 20 percent of all voters aged 18 to 29 believe Biden is handling the conflict well. Asked about the result on CNN on Tuesday, Fetterman said: "If you're getting your perspective on the world on TikTok, it's going to tend to be kinda warped."

He added: "Sometimes you may alienate some voters, but it is really most important to be on the right side on that. That's where I am at."

A total of 16 of his former campaign staffers wrote him an open letter, asking him to change his stance.

"It is not too late to change your stance and stand on the righteous side of history," it said.

An op-ed in news outlet PennLive was published in November by Mireille Rebeiz, Ph.D., chair of Middle East Studies and associate professor at Dickinson College in Carlisle, Pennsylvania, in which his position on the issue was labeled "disturbing" and saying he was "unworthy of my trust."

Fetterman has called for humanitarian aid to be sent to Gaza, but criticized pro-Palestinian protesters when they staged a demonstration outside a Jewish-owned store in Philadelphia in December, calling the gathering antisemitic.

Immigration is also a divisive issue in Congress, and Fetterman has made it clear he wants to work with Senate Republicans and says it is a "reasonable conversation" to have. The GOP has pushed for stricter measures along the southern border with Mexico.

"It's a reasonable conversation—until somebody can say there's an explanation on what we can do when 270,000 people are being encountered on the border, not including the ones, of course, that we don't know about," Fetterman said to NBC. "To put that in reference, that is essentially the size of Pittsburgh, the second-largest city in Pennsylvania."

His wife, Gisele Fetterman, arrived undocumented from Brazil as a 7-year-old and was an important part of his Senate campaign. Some accused him of throwing his wife under the bus because of his stance.

Newsweek has reached out to Fetterman via email through his Senate office for comment.

"Fetterman has never been progressive, but endorsing talks for tougher immigration laws when he's married to an incredible woman who was once an illegal immigrant and who kept his campaign alive while he was recovering from a stroke is actually sickening," said Alexandra Hunt, a former Democrat candidate for Pennsylvania's 3rd Congressional District.

The conversation around Fetterman has some such as left-leaning commentator Mehdi Hasan questioning if he is the "new Kyrsten Sinema," the Arizona senator who became an independent in 2022.

"Fetterman has been a pleasant surprise for his Republican colleagues and a thorn in the side of progressive Democrat," Hasan wrote in British news magazine The Spectator in December. He added: "One still has to wonder if he might follow in Sinema's footsteps and officially extricate himself from the two-party system."

Sinema cited a "deeply broken two-party system" as the reason she left the Democratic Party in 2022.

However, Heath Mayo, a conservative who founded the anti-Trump nonprofit Principles First, praised Fetterman.

"John Fetterman is testing a lot of new boundaries for the Democratic Party right now. Aggressively pro-Israel, pro-border security, anti-corruption in his own party[...]That's principled leadership and Dems should embrace it. He is speaking to a lot of us," Mayo said.

On X, Hasan said Fetterman's comments on him not being aligned with the progressive movement was "a total attack on the people who worked hard to elect him."

#nunyas news

[wtrclover]

LINK TO MY KO-FI

As it turns out, I forgot to actually TELL people that I do commissions! So here's that sorely needed announcement! On to the pricing!

Types of Commissions you can get

REGULAR COMMISSION

$35 SKETCH - B&W Semi-Rough 'Sketches'

$50 FLAT COLOR - Inked and Colored drawings.

$70 RENDERED - Fully Rendered Drawings.

$45+ STYLE REPLICATIONS - Style replications done within a REASONABLE scope. (Price can change)

$20 PIXEL ART - For Icons and Sprites!

$2 MSPAINT DOODLES - Quick and variable quality MSPaint doodles.

Important Info

Multiple characters/sequence are an extra 50% to the price each.

Please use the Ko-Fi DM function to further contract me about the commission!

Please be aware that I may take a while longer on pixel art commissions compared to other commissions.

#my art #commissions #commissions open #pixel art #furry commissions #wtrclover.txt #wtrclover.png #commission

[bipolarmango]

In February 2022, I was prescribed Seroquel for the second time after being off of it for three years (after first being on it for 12 years) to treat my bipolar disorder. I gained 17 kilos in two months and the medication was changed to Aripiprazole to control the weight gain but I kept gaining. By October 2023 I had gained total 26kg.

I saw my psychiatrist every month and every month I complained about the weight gain. His file clearly stated that I was anorexic when entering the hospital in December 2021 and it took two months for me to agree on starting the medication because I was terrified on gaining weight on the medication.

During all this time, I was told by both my psychiatrist and my GP that I should exercise more and eat less and the excess weight of the antipsychotic would go away. They both told me the weight gain was due to me eating more, even if I knew I wasn't eating more. In fact, I was sticking to my salads and even started a gym regime and still gained like crazy. I told them this, too, but was dismissed.

For the past seven months, I've put extra effort into losing the extra kilos. I've been working out at the gym four days a week for 60-90 minutes per session, walked for 45-60 minutes a day for six days a week, and eaten 1500 calories a day, and lost total five kilos. My personal trainer was mindblown for my lack of success.

This week, I finally book an appointment for a specialist to discuss the weight gain. My blood results came back pre-diabetic and insulin resistant, both something Aripiprazole causes. My TSH (thyroid hormone) has also increased almost out of the reference values compared to pre-Aripiprazole. My body mass index shows that my muscle mass is much higher than is necessary for a person of my height due to all the workout I've done as per recommended by my doctors, but the medication has totally destroyed my metabolism so my body is hanging on to fat like crazy. I'm literally a muscular fat person. I'm suffering from metabolic syndrome and my metabolic age has gone from 30 to 50 in less than two years. I am also heading fast towards a stroke and heart attack, and my cholesterol is skyhigh.

My message is: if you're put on antipsychotics, please have regular bloodwork taken. Your psychiatrist may not pursue them or advise you to do so, but your physical health may be in jeopardy. Exercise and healthy eating don't always help the case, even if the mental health personnel will have you believe so. I did exercise throughout being on the medication and had a healthy plant-based diet, yet my bloodowork looks anything but, all due to the antipsychotic medication.

#antipsychotics #anti psychotics #actually mentally ill #bipolar disorder #schizophrenia #psychotic disorders #psychotic depression

[blackhakumen]

Mini Fanfic #1176: Battle of the Wife-Loving Husbands (Sonic)

6:45 p.m. at the Crocodile's Residence's Living Room..........

Antoine: (Starts Laughing While Sitting Next to Vector on the Sofa) Ohoho nonnn!~ Zat actually happened!?

Vector: (Chuckling Lightly While Nodding) It's the truth! The moment we found out that Eggman was pulling the strings that entire time, Charmy zoomed right on in and started stinging the poor guy without breaking any sweat. The little rascal made me real proud on that day I'll tell you what.

Antoine: Yes, yes, as you should be!~ Any father would be proud to see their offspring give zat fouled wrench Robotnik a taste of his much deserved comeuppance. And I must say, I truly admire the hardwork and dedication you've crafted onto detective agency for such a long time,

Vector: (Smiles Brightly at his Brother in Law Beside Him) Hey, thank man! It's all in the day's work. (Starts Rubbing The Back of his Head Back and Forth) Though, to be honest. I don't even think it holds a candle to how rad your royal guard gig is in comparison.

Antoine: (Chuckles Lightly) Oho I wouldn't exactly say it's the most "raddest" profession out there. But I take full pride in doing what I must to protect the king and the Kingdom of Knothole. (Closes his Eyes Shut and Clasps his Hands Together as He Sighs Very Dreamingly) And I would've never gone as far as I am now if it weren't for my sweet, darling Bonnie being by my side through even the toughest of trials!~

Vector: (Grabs his Chin While Thinking) Hm now that i think about, the agency and my life in general has changed a whole lot for the better since the day Vanilly and I started dating. (Starts Smiling Fondly and Sighing Dreamingly as Well) It's been two years and I still can't believe I'm happily married to that saint of an woman!~

Antoine: Oh yes~ Marrying zat strong, irresistibly beautiful woman was one of-non. It was ZHE best decision I have ever made in my glorious life~

Antoine/Vector: Bunnie is/Vanilly's the best wife that ever lives!~

A sound of scratching record his held in the background as the two husbands turns back to one another right on cue.

Antoine/Vector: Huh?

Vector: (Rubbing the Back of his Head Again) Uh S-Sorry about that. Didn't mean to interrupt you there. (Chuckles a Bit) You know how I get whenever I start talking about Vanilla.

Antoine: (Quickly Shakes Both his Hands in Front of his Face) Oh nononon, it's quite alright! I was just taken aback from what we both said is all. (Starts Twiddling his Fingers While Looking Away For a Bit) Considering how inferior she in the equation of this very topic......

Vector: (Eyes Immediately Starts Widening Up) Who's inferior!?

Antoine: ..........Vanilla.

Vector: (Gives his Brother in Law a Menacing Looking Glare) Are you saying my wife isn't good enough?

Antoine: (Shakes his Head) Non non non. Vanilla is a wonderful, fantastic woman, truly! I just don't think she's necessarily the best compared to my adoring wife.

Vector: (Let's Out a Gasps Before Putting on a More Regular Glare this Time) Excuse you? I'll have you know that my wife can be up to par with yours in greatness! Are we really gonna gloss over the fact that she was able watched over Cream on her own, YEARS before I came along to step up and help?

Antoine;: (Simply Nodded) A very impressive and admirable feat indeed. (Forms a Competitive, Slightly Pompus Smirk on his Face) But MY wife has raised Miles as her own long before we thee wed.

Vector: (Raises an Eyebrow, Unconvinced) Really. How long exactly?

Antoine: (Lowers the of Hand Down Slightly While Hovering the Other Below it) Back when Miles was zis small and Bunnie and I were teenagers. You'd be surprised how knowledgeable she is when it comes to raising a youngling. (Clasps his Hands Together) Hence why I adore her everyday~

Vector: ......Alright, I'll admit, that's impressive. But MY wife used to be part of a vicious biker gang in her college year as Hot Fangz and still as feared and respected in the streets to this very day. PLUS, she was able to take down a group of rival gangs abd street thugs all by herself, with only her fists!.....'Least that's what she told me.

Antoine: Charming. Meanwhile, MY wife has not only managed to demolish a wave of the doctor's robots within a eight to ten minutes, without developing a single sweat, but she was ALSO rightfully crowned as "The Strongest Woman in All of Mobius" thanks to her years of contributing to the Freedom Fighters name. Not to mention the fact zat her strength alone equals zat to an elastic bull.

Vector: Yeah, well, MY wife managed to demolished Metal Sonic once. You know? A near perfect of Sonoc in every way, one of Eggman's greatest and quite possibly powerful creations besides Omega and his own daughter, Sage! In fact, she doesn't even need to fight at all considering her glare alone could make anyone runaway with their tail behind their legs, within seconds, Bunnie included.

Antoine: ('GASPS') I beg your pardon!? (Finally Glares at Vector) Are you implying zat my glorious wife iz a cowardice chicken!?

Vector: (Crosses his Arms) Not at all. I'm just saying her chances of last a second staring into Vanilla's Motherly Death Glare are below zero. (Forms a Cocky Grin of his Own) Even more so considering she's the baby cousin of the two and one of he golden rules of being part of a family is the oldest siblings always goes on top.

Antoine: (Starts Growling in Anger) Baby cousin or not, Bunnie Rabbot D'Coolette will always be the Strongest Woman in my prideful heart and I refuse to let anyone tarnish her name in vain, not even from my one and only in law. (Gets Up From his Seat) Which is why that I, Sir Antoine D'Coolette.....(Points at Vector in Front of Him) Challenge YOU, Vector Crocodile, to a duel of wits, strength, and honor! And that duel......

Antoine got down on his knees and place his elbow on the coffee table with his hand crunch up and a determined look written all over his face.

Antoine: Will be the wrestling of the arms!

Vector: You mean Arm Wrestling?

Antoine: I know what I said! Now will you accept my challenge or forever hold your peace?

Vector: (Shrugs) Sure, I'm down. (Gets Himself Up From the Sofa and Seat Himself Down on the Floor While Setting his Elbow on the Other Side of the Table While Gravving Hold of Antoine's Hand) Just don't expect me to go easy on your cuz we're family, bro.

Antoine: Oh i intend on give everything I got, brother-in-law. Commence battle! In 3......

Vector: 2.

Antoine: 1!

Vector/Antoine: GO!

The two brother-in-laws begin their arm wrestling match, pushing themselves to the absolute fullest.

Vector: (Struggling a Bit by Antoine's Surprising Strength) Argh! I'll be damned.....You ain't playing around tonight....Aren't ya?

Antoine: Not even close, mon ami....It seems the love for my Bunnie given me the strength I need to out best!.....

Vector: Well, ain't that sweet? (Starts Picking his Strength Back Up) But you're not the only one feeling motivated by love right now, you know!....So if you wanna go all out, then COME ON THEN!!

Antoine: SANS PITIÉ!!!

Meanwhile at The Hallway.......

Bunnie: (Standing Behind the Side of the Doorway Entrance Watching the Match Up Going on in the Distance) I cannot believe our two lovers boys are in there bickerin' and arm wrestlin' for our honor and junk.

Vanilla: (Places her Hands on Both Cheeks While Standing Behind her Cousin, Swaying her Hips From Side to Side like a Lovesick Puppy) I know, right?~ It's the most cutest thing ever!~

Bunnie: (Looks Back at the Husbands Arm Wrestling Each Other Before Sighing and Blushing) Yeah, I won't lie. It's freakin' adorable....(Turns Back to her Older Cousin) But the clock's tickin' for us get to that fancy restaurant in time now. How are we gonna get those two to stop fightin'?

Vanilla: Just follow my lead, dear. I have an idea.

Back at the Living Room

We head back to the fierce Battle of the Wives Loving Husbands and our two combatants who are still going out strong, refusing to give in and not letting their wives' name and integrity plummet down to the dirt without a fight.

Speaking of wives........

????/????: Oh Boyyyys!~

The intense match up came to screeching halt as the two competitors gaze their attention and are completely struck in awe with their jaws plummeting diwn on the table at the two ladies making their into the living room.

Vanilla Rabbit Crocodile, sporting a long, sleeved red velvet dress and ahinig red heels with her hair down in the back in the same length as her two bunny ears, and Bunnie Rabbot D'Coolette, wearing a violet dress, black leather coat and cowboy boots, with her her hair being tied up in the bun in the back.

Needless to say, both ladies has dressed themselves up nicely for their scheduled double date for this evening much to their husbands' surprise.

Vanilla: (Giggles Softly) We're ready~

Vector: Vanilla.......

Antoine: Bunnie.......

Vector/Antoine: (Slowly Got Up From the Floor) You look!.....So......

Bunnie: (Forms a Seductive Smirk On Her Face Along with her Older Cousin) Stunnin'?~

Vanilla: Pretty?~

Vector: (Starts Blushing Along with his Brother in Law) Beautiful.......

Antoine: Breathtaking.......

Vector: Classy........

Antoine: Magnificent.........

Vector/Antoine: (Eyes Begins to Sparkle in Pure Awe) AMAZING~

Vanilla: (Giggles Some More) Aww~ You two are the sweetest~

Bunnie: Very much so. (Place her Havds on Both her Hips While Putting on a Bit of a Motherly Glare on her Face) Now, that we finally got your attention, you mind tellin' us why on Green Earth y'all were sittin' on this floor arm wrestlin' when we have a restaurant to get to?

Vanilla: (Clasps her Hands Together While Giving the Men the Sad Puppy Dog Eyes) Are you not getting along?~

Antoine: (Rapidly Shakes his Hands) Nononon! Non, we are getting along, truly! (Starts Twiddling his Fingers) It's just zat....Wellll.....

Vector: We were only testing out our strengths and wits is all. (Notices His Wife Wobbling her Lips Up and Down with the Same Puppy Dog While Bunie Raising an Eyebrow, Unconvinced Before Caving In) ('Sighs in Defeat') As well as battling for your honors before we had this huge debate over which of you two is the best wife. (Points at Antoine) Which he started it, by the way....

Antoine: (Let's Out Another Loud Gasp Before Angrily Points at Vector) COMMÈRE!!!

Bunnie: (Glares at her Husband) Antoine, is what Vector said is the truth?

Antoine: (Starts Chuckling Awkwardly) I-I-I wouldn't exactly say zat....particularly happened.....per say-

Bunnie gives Antoine her signature Harden Glare, In silence.

Antoine: (Spread his Arms Out and Wide in Utter Defeat) Okay, YES! I confess! I started zis charade from the very start! (Clasps his Hands Together in a Pleading Manner) I only wanted to prove to him how magnificent of a woman you are!~

Vector: (Crosses his Arms With a Satisfied Smirk on his Face) Yeah. It was definitely his fault already.

Vanilla: (Finally Gives Her Husband a Her Signature Motherly Glare) Vector!

Vector: (Gets Slightly Frightened by his Wife's Glare Before Lowering his Arms and Sighing in Defeat) But I wasn't any better. (Starts Rubbing The Back of his Head Back and Forth Yet Again) You're the most amazing woman I've ever met, Vanilly, and....I guess I wanted to prove him right....

Vanilla: (Places her Hand onto her Chest as Her Heart Begins to Melt in Pure Happiness) We've married the most sweetest husbands in the world, Bunnie~

Bunnie: (Heart Starts Melting in Happiness As Well) Indeed we have, Cousin. (Turns Back to the Husbands in Question) That's mighty flatterin' of you, boys, but y'all don't need to pit against each other to do so. (Turns to her Husband) 'Specially since you've been wantin' Vector to be the brother ya never had.

Antoine: Bunnie!

Vector: (Turns to Antoine) Wait, seriously?

Antoine: ('Sighs in Defeat') It's true. I've always been fond of the idea of having a sibling or two growing up. (Turns Away While Scratching the Side of hus Cheek a Bit by Using One Finger) So I'd hoped zat during evening together we would....bond as one, even if we aren't blood related.

Vector: (Stares at Antoine For a Brief Second Before Chuckling Lightly) Well, why didn't ya say so from the start? (Starts Patting on Antoine's Back) I'd be down to have strongest guard of the Knothole Kingdom for a brother!

Antoine: (Chuckles Lightly) Come now. I wouldn't exactly say I'm the Strongest out there......

Vector: You say that. (Wraps his Arm Around Antoine's Shoulder with a Big Smile on his Face) But you were definitely giving me trouble in our match earlier.

Antoine: (Smiles Back) Well, I couldn't possibly sat there and not give The Karma Collecting Vector a fair challenge now can I?

Vanilla: (Watches the Two Men Laughing Among Themselves While Gushing Up) They're finally getting along!~

Bunnie: (Smiles Softly) Like two brothers in the northern sky. Now can we please get the hay on outta here to our date night already?

Antoine: Yes, of course!

Vector: Hope we're not too late.

Vanilla: Don't worry, dear. We could get there a little earlier if we ride on our motorcycles.

Antoine: (Grimace at the Thought a Bit) Oh mec......

Vector: ('Gulp') Here's hoping we have the strength to make it through without falling......

Bunnie: (Giggles Softly) Will you boys relax? We ain't gonna ride as well fast as we used to, we know our limits.

Vanilla: Buuut before we go, we want to tell you something right quick?

Vector/Antoine: Hm?

Vanilla: If you boys continue to behave yourselves and get along for the rest of the evening.....(Puts on a Very Seductive Smirk on her Face) We'll be more than willing to give you a very special treat when we come back here~

Bunnie: Yep. Some quailty, fun alone time. (Smirks Seductively as Well) In the bedroom~

Vector: (Eyes Starts to Widened While Blushing Along with hus Brother in Law) S-Speical.... T-Treat......

Antoine: F-Funtime.....In the...bedroom?~

Bunnie: (Casually Shrugs) Yeah, why not? We feelin' a little adventurous tonight. (Turns to Vanilla Next to Her) Isn't that right, V?

Vanilla: (Happily Nodded in Agreement) Indeed we are~ Especially on beautiful night like this. (Walks Over to Vector) And what better way to spend wonderful evening~.......

Bunnie: (Walks Over to Antoine) ......Then to have a little fun with the men we grew to love ever so fondly~

The two ladies kisses their respective husbands on the lips on a bit if a slow, sensual manner, for a brief second before pulling away, leaving the two standing there, stunned and speechless.

Vanilla: Well, now with that's settled.....(Happily Walks Out the Door Let's get our grub on, people!~

Bunnie: (Follows Vanilla Behind) Love Quest Restaurant, here we come!~ YEEEEEE-HAW!~

Antoine: ...........You know, call me crazy. (Turns to Vector) But I feel like I'm falling in love all over again.

Vector: Same.But enought talk. (Turns to Antoine with a Determined Look on his Face) Let's give our beautiful bunnies the best Double Date of their lives.

Antoine: (Nodded in Agreement) Oui.

The two give each a sided fist bump as they both walk out the door as they begin to experience the double date night of the brand new year.

@rechicken-and-waffles

@albion-93

@bestpony666

@ma-lemons

@cyber-wildcat

#sonic series #vector the crocodile #antoine d'coolette #vanilla the rabbit #bunnie rabbot #humor #cute romance #brief brotherly rivalry that ended in the start of a beautiful bromance lol #vanilla x vector #bunnie x antoine #Valentine's month #edited

[vi-sigoth]

There are a handful of exercises that I FUCKING hate, mostly because I think they’re harmful and/or they don’t do anything/there’s better exercises out there that target that specific muscle group better. Curious to hear other people’s thoughts because if YouTube and Instagram are anything to go by, this is a hotly debated topic.

Mine are:

One Arm Shoulder Press with T-Bar: I feel like there’s better ways to target your shoulders, and it makes my arms crunchy, like I can feel my arm grinding around in its socket.

45 Degree Leg Press: I know this one will be unpopular, but I just really, really hate this machine. It puts a weird pressure on my lower back, and I have absolutely nothing to back this up with, but I feel like a lot of machines were designed with a male body and male center of gravity in mind (which makes sense, obviously, the majority of gym-goers are male) and this machine is probably not great for women. Just my feeling. About 80% of my workout uses barbells/ez bars/dumbbells anyway, but when I want a leg press I use the regular one where you sit upright.

Most HIIT: I know this is also going to be very controversial, but I found HIIT to be a massive waste of time and pretty useless in terms of building muscle, gaining strength, and losing weight. I also didn’t really build up a ton of cardio endurance when I did it, (compared to simply running for an extended period of time on a treadmill or using a Stairmaster) and I did it for a good year and half before I quit entirely and just started lifting 4-5 times a week and running on the treadmill 2-3 times a week. Obviously, it depends on what kind of athlete you are and what your goals are. If you run cross country and want to do some non-running type cardio, with low weights, sure. But for me, not useful and not helpful.

Butterfly-Pull Up: Not a real pull up and looks retarded. I said what I said.

Squat to Overhead Press: Retarded and dangerous. Sure, it gets your heart beating and works legs, core, and arms, but you could also just have dedicated leg, core, and arm days that will work all of those body parts more efficiently and not risk snapping your spine in half.

Behind the Neck Lat Pulldown: Does absolutely nothing that the regular lat pull-down can’t do imo.

Squatting and Deadlifting with a Smith Machine: Again, might be controversial, but I felt like my back hurt terribly every time I tried to deadlift with a Smith machine, because I couldn’t quite maintain proper form. I feel like I made way better, healthier, faster progress when I just simply started unassisted squatting and deadlifting with lower weight and really focused on getting my form correct—then I added heavier weight. I think a lot of beginners feel intimidated by squats and deadlifts, but in my experience the Smith machine hampered my process rather than helped it.

Tricep Cable Push-Down with Rope: I think the metal V-bar is better for this. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Front Squat: No particular reason other than I just don’t like them and would rather do other quad-targeting exercises.

Bulgarian Split-Squats: Excellent exercise. One of the best leg exercises out there. I do them every week. And when I do them I am so brave about it and I don’t even complain once 👿.

[thydungeongal]

Mutants in the Making

Step #9: Wrapping Up

Previously:

Step #1: Getting Together

Step #2: Cursing Your Dice

Step #3: You're Good At...

Step #4: Your Origin Story

Step #5: Let's Mutate!

Step #6: How You Fight

Step #7: Getting Good

Step #8: Get Stuff

This is the final post of creating my cool mutant character, a surprisingly docile, double-muscled, extremely strong mutant groundhog who was adopted by a regular human family and lived on their farm, helping them out, just being a good kid in general. As he grew up he demonstrated a knack for fisticuffs. He was always ready to throw down in case someone was causing trouble in town or being prejudiced against his groundhog self.

His name?

Punchutawney Phil

Anyway, I'm really sorry about this. Phil is a good kid, so for the next step, which is choosing his values, I pick the following three: honesty, simplicity, family. Phil values nothing more than a quiet, pastoral life, and his adoptive human family is the most precious thing to him.

In the world of Mutants in the Now Phil probably will end up crossing paths with one of the many villainous factions who wish to subjugate and exploit mutants. Phil ain't having none of that.

So, I could still roll up contacts for Phil, but truth is, I've been staring at the screen and typing for almost 6 hours. I'm sure this process would've been quicker if I hadn't been liveblogging it and had to occasionally take breaks from writing, but it's still a very exhaustive character creation process. Very rewarding though! Because I do feel like I've ended up with a really interesting character.

But to finish up, here's a final writeup of Phil:

Punchutawney Phil

Cognition 16 (+3), Determination 19 (+4), Affinity 15 (+2), Perception 16 (+3), Strength 23 (+6), Prowess 12 (+1), Endurance 26 (+8), Speed 15 (+2)

Size Rating: 8

Initiative: +5 (+SPD+PER)

Defense: 13 (10+PRO+SPD)

Morale: 17 (10+DET+PER)

Superficial Harm Threshold: 95 (Size SHT 22 + Endurance*2 [Tough Hide]+Determination + unused Takebacks)

Hit Points: 54 (Endurance*2 + unused Takebacks)

Willpower: 4 (+DET)

Lift: 78 lbs. (Strength *10 * Size Lift Mod [1/4] + 20% [Construction])

Move: 45 (Size rating *3 + Speed *3)

Basic Traits: Rodentia, Facultative Herbivore, Bipedal, Prehensile, Vocal, Inhuman

Minor Traits: Good Dog, Hibernate

Major Traits: Stable, Thick Hide, Burrow, Tunnel

Unique Traits: Your weight is 100% higher than it normally would be for your size rating. Add +2 to your size rating when comparing it with other characters for purposes of various effects. This bonus does not increase any of your traits (like size damage or SHT).

Core Ability (Iron-Body Armor): When in a melee with more than one foe, gain Resistance 2 and +A on saving throws. If you already have Resistance 2 or higher, add 1 to Resistance instead.

Base Ability (52 Blocks): When you have focus, add a bonus to your Defense equal to the number of foes in melee with you.

Construction Package Ability: Add +20% to LIFT. When using a tool as an improvised weapon, reroll a single 1 on the damage dice.

Domestic Package Ability: When you maintain a home, all your allies regain WILL on a 4+ instead of a 5+ when resting there.

Farmer Package Ability: Gain 1 temporary WILL at the start of a fight scene when defending your farm or garden. In addition, you gain one animal companion as a gimmick.

Skills: Athletics 60%, Caretaking 68%, Climbing 73%, Cooking 62%, Crops 68%, Homemaker 68%, Laborer 79%, Livestock 68%, Operator 65%, Riding 73%, Smithing 76%, Trainer 60%, Whisperer 65%

Weapons:

Baton, Stun (cattle prod), 3d10 (blunt, hand, mighty), +7 melee (3 glancing damage)

Flexible, Whip (bullwhip), 2d10+1d8 (hand, shock), +7 melee (3 glancing damage)

#mutants in the making

[blueberry-bubbles130]

Here's the redesign for Andre Bourgeois!

God it was such a fucking pain to do, but I got it done after a few days.

Design Choices-

So for Andre's regular redesign, I kept his grey hair. I imagine because he's the mayor of Paris, the owner of a famous hotel celebrities stay at and with his wife being famous as well, the stress made him go prematurely grey. Because of the extra stress he's under due to occupation and the sudden appearance of akumas I also gave him eyebags. Like there is no way this man is mayor, a hotel owner, trying to reassure the people of paris about the akumas and not losing immense amounts of sleep over this, with stress. I changed his tie to a bow tie to differentiate him from Gabriel because I know they're going to end up looking similar in my style. And because I've changed his character a bit, i feel the bowtie suits him better. I also gave him dark red reading glasses, and darker blue eyes. His suit is just a regular one with some black dress shoes. He's also on the shorter and stockier side compared to Audrey and Gabriel who are taller and thinner.

I also redesigned Malediktator. Now I'm not fond of the canon design for Malediktator at all, the colours are all too bright in my opinion. And after looking on Tv Tropes the hat he wears is supposed to be like the one Napoleon Bonaparte wore, however because of the shape and colour choices it doesn't quite look like that. And I just don't like it at all.

So for my version of Malediktator, I tried to go into a more historical direction. I gave him a tricorn hat, and long coat as well as breeches, and buckled shoes. I gave him a cane. Now you may be wondering where the akuma is if I never gave him the sash, but it's in the cravat, which regularly is his bow tie. His skin I kept blue but it more of a desaturated grey-blue colour so it's less eye strain. His sclera's are a cold grey-blue and his irises are red with light red/white cats eye pupils.

Personality/Story Changes-

I changed Andre's age because in the canon show apparently he's 70, which I'm not dealing with, so instead he's younger but him and Audrey are on the older side of all the adults. At beginning of my rewrite he's 45 years old and by the end he is 47 years old.

In my rewrite, him and Audrey have known each other and dated each other for a longer time than they knew Gabriel, Emilie and Natalie. They met at a theatre Audrey worked as a costume designer at, and Andre had gotten a temporary jobs as a screenwriter at. He left after a while to study becoming a lawyer but was still dating Audrey, while she started her own fashion brand. Eventually they got married, had Chloe and he became mayor, then Audrey went to New York for a few years to set up an American branch of her fashion brand.

For personality, I made it so he's not corrupt and is less willing to assist Chloe in her antics because Chloe is also toned down. I also made him a lot more paranoid, it makes more sense for me due to his jobs, dealing with akumas and Chloe causing akumas in my opinion. I also made him more nervous in general. He deeply cares about Audrey and Chloe, but due to workload he hasn't got the time to be around Chloe, which is partly why she's lashing out for her parents attention which she doesn't get because they're both heavily overworked.

For his relationship with Audrey, they love each other and they're pretty much an opposites attract relationship, because I changed Audrey a lot in my rewrite, mainly she's not abusive. He's nervous and paranoid and Audrey is the strong commanding one. She helped him find confidence, whereas he helped her from rushing into things and messing up.

In my rewrite for the majority of season 1 and 2, Andre is nervous and paranoid especially with the akumas. He worries alot about the safety of his daughter at school because of the akumas and is worried about his wife returning. He knows that if she returns while the akumas are about, due to her stubborn personality she'll become an akuma or an akuma will target her. This changes when at the end of season 1 Darkblade almost executes him by guillotine. Then Audrey returns.

Season 2 mostly stays the same until about 3/4 of the way through Audrey gets akumatised into Style Queen and then the next chapter he's get akumatised into Malediktator. Now the reason for his akumatization changes from Audrey and Chloe wanting to leave to him having meltdown due to stress and not being able to truly protect his family from the akumas and Dague Noir. He becomes Malediktator and takes over quite a bit of Paris with him taking Audrey to city hall to protect her. Chloe as Queen Bee shows up on her own and reveals her identity to Andre to distract to deakumatise him by destroying the cravat.

Then for the season 2 finale Miracle Queen occurs due to an argument between Ladybug and Chloe over Chloe wanting to be a hero. But Ladybug won't let it happen due to her revealing her identity and Ladybug simply not wanting to deal with Chloe.

Season 3 begins with Andre and Audrey realising simply how bad their neglect of Chloe affected her and promise to be better parents to her. This goes mostly well with them trying to teach Chloe how to ride a bike. Chloe doesn't tell them about the bullying she's now facing at school simply because she doesn't want to bother them or stress them out because she's enjoying this new family bonding time with them. However shortly after this Andre and Audrey go missing after going away for a weekend for their wedding anniversary. The police found their car crashed on the side of the road by a tree with blood inside of it, but they aren't in the car or anywhere near it for that matter. Unbeknownst to Audrey and Andre, Gabriel is Dague Noir and has taken them captive in order to blackmail Chloe into working with him. For the rest of season 3 he holds them in a private cabin he purchased privately, so no one can find where they are. Gabriel does have a tv in the cabin so they can at least see the news. However they have injuries from the crash, with Audrey having a few broken ribs and Andre having a broken foot. They don't find out Chloe is Abeille Gardienne until the end of season 3 when Mayura and Dague Noir come back to the cabin solely to give them Chloe's blood-soaked hoodie from her impalement, and Dauge Noir ranting to them about how much he despises Chloe

For season 4 nothing really happens, with Audrey and Andre, apart from them worrying about what the hell is happening with Chloe, and figuring out Gabriel is Dague Noir due to Andre telling Gabriel where he was going for his anniversary because Andre still thought they were friends. Until at the end of season 4 Chloe, Adrien and Sabrina take down Dague Noir and Mayura. Chloe reunites with her parents at the cabin, but immediately after seeing them she passes out because of exhaustion and her lingering injuries revealing the facial damage to her parents. At some point during their kidnapping Audrey and Andre also see Chloe as Abeille Gardienne have a breakdown on live tv, because of the stress Chloe's facing having to work with Dauge Noir.

Roger Raincomprix arrives to the cabin with Butler Jean and Miss Bustier only to find Andre trying to strangle Gabriel for what has happened. At the end of the story, after Gabriel and Natalie's trial, Andre and Audrey try to move on with their lives while being better parents to Chloe. As well Adrien gets adopted by them.

Next redesign will be Audrey, then Gabriel's.

#andre bourgeois #andré bourgeois #miraculous ladybug #miraculous rewrite #ml rewrite #mlb rewrite #miraculous redesign #ml redesign #mlb redesign #miraculous fanart #ml fanart #mlb fanart #Such fickle things au

[1533-secrets-from-history]

@faintingheroine

I might remember incorrectly,so correct me if I am wrong,but it was said that she was in service for 6 years. That could be referring to six years of being Kalfa, which would mean she received rank in 1516,that would make sense as it would mean Mahidevran and Gulshah, were already there, Mustafa was born and their relationship would start at that time. It also explains how close Nigar, Daye and sumbul are, they could have served them back in Manisa. However, she would not receive rank as soon as she arrived, I can imagine her spending some time in harem as a potential concubine, where Daye noticed her for hard working and intelligent nature,bonded and she introduced her as harem kalfa. That would mean she was in harem as a regular concubine for some time.

Another question is when she was kidnapped. Considering she spent good enough time in her motherland to remember it, even learn russian from her grandmother and being still fluent after all those years, I would assume she was around Hurrem's age, when kidnapped. In the best case scenario, she would have been bought immediately and spent little to no time in the slave market,so to add this up: around 17 years of her time in motherland + several years as Çarye ( it should include time to get used to the new environment, learn Turkish and gain mutual trust and bond to high ranking servant, possibly Daye, with whom she has mother-daugther relationship) + 6 years of her time as kalfa and her age by the time of 1522 would be about 25+ in my opinion, making her birth date 1497 or possibly(even likely) earlier. That would mean she gave birth in late thirties/yearly forties(considering it was actually common in the Ottoman empire and even quite the average age of harem servants to marry and give birth), that would mean she married for the first time some time before and she would have been around 40 or bit above when she was set to marry again, which again would have been normal in ottoman empire, especially if it was urgent. So she could have been in her late 40's, early 50's, when she died. Gray marks are actually quite deceiving in the show, pre time skip Gulfem, Mahidevran, sah and Suleyman have no gray markings despite Mahidevran being 44-45, Gulfem a bit older and Sah and Suleyman even greater In age, while Hafsa had her own hair even in her sixties. Gray markings actually appeared only after timeskip, possibly to keep up with Hurrem, whose actress was changed,while others remained the same. Even Fidan hatun got gray markings despite being quite young compared to others, as she arrived in harem when Hurrem married suleyman, her friend Fatma was Mustafa's favourite, so she was somewhere close to their age, that would make her no more than 30 yeas after time skip and in late 30's, when she for gray markings. So, even if Nigar was in late 40's yearly 50's, she would not get Gray marks.

In the show, Hatice was married for six months before she widowed, if I remember correctly. Proper time for an ottoman princess to marry was 17 years, that is actually the age when Shah, Hurrem and Suleyman considered marrying Mihrimah off, so if that happened to Hatice, that would make her only 17-18 in 1520. I can imagine, Hafsa setting her marriage as soon as she reached the proper age, so she would not "fade away in sadness", in her mind that would have been right decision to make, so I would say she was not even 20 in 1520. I'd estimate her date of birth to be 1501 or more likely 1502.

Fatma could be younger than Hatice, as she represents herself as younger than Hurrem, so at any rate she would have been born after 1503, that would also explain why she mentions Hatice so much,but not other sisters, who were probably much older than her.

#magnificent century #muhteşem yüzyıl #nigar kalfa #hatice sultan #hurrem sultan #haseki hurrem sultan #mahidevran sultan #gulfem hatun #sah sultan #sultan suleyman

[semi-sketchy]

This is a really good video, I love the analogy in it, though I want to add another point that might not be relevant to the YouTubers quitting, but is to me.

It can really suck when the project you are passionate about and really want to make is ignored.

Like I’m not normally one to whine about numbers, but it is demotivating when I pour everything into something I’m super passionate about only for no one to care. It’s part of the reason I haven’t worked much on Xenoblade 3’s DLC essay despite somewhat promising it.

The highlight videos are some of my favorite pieces of content I’ve ever made, but they took weeks of work keyframing, adjusting audio, making assets only to get barely any views.

I still have old projects lying around for highlights of Ori and Untitled Goose Game I likely will never finish.

My LP of SA1 had so much info compiled and I did a lot to make that work, but it just didn’t kick off. I was hopeful something fun like Untitled Goose Game would catch the eye of my regular audience and maybe get them interested in my gaming content, but it didn’t. I did more casual and edited playthroughs of things like Sonic Frontiers and The Murder of Sonic, videos I think are very good and honestly are what I enjoy making the most at the moment, but same result.

I actually have a roughcut project that's essentially a blind Future Redeemed playthrough. I recorded it for notes and eventual essay footage, although polishing it for upload is tempting, I don't know if it's worth the effort.

I understand I’ve always been a variety channel with a focus on KinzTube, so interest in gaming topics isn’t going to be as high, but even when I made another Signature Island episode, what people kept saying they wanted, it didn’t perform as well as a low-effort video talking about a movie that was also unrelated to Webkinz.

It took almost 6 months to break 1,000 views compared to the 45 days of an off-the-cuff video which says nothing valuable.

I know no matter how much effort I put into a video, a plush collection or unboxing will always be more popular. It sucks because collections are very repetitive to make and I’m too broke to constantly be buying Webkinz only to earn less on a video than the package cost.

It’s also tiring because Webkinz is a shrinking brand, so if I did stick to just making KinzTube videos, my channel would die anyways.

Stuff like this does eat away at your motivation. It's rough when the only person who values your work is you. I don’t know if that was the case for all the people quitting, but I know it’s draining me.

#mirror post from twitter #but yeah something that's been on my chest since...god i made that last si episode #maybe i'll make this into a talking video i'm not sure right now #like i said it's been something on the back burner for awhile #Youtube