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romantichomicide95 · 9 months

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Hello :D

If requests are open, can I request fem reader with bf yuji just a happy couple or new couple that will have their first kiss and any romantic moments 🥹 the mini plot is completetly up to you and thank you sm for taking the time for noticing this 💗 Ive read most of ur writings btw i really love them!!♡♡

omg finally more Yuji! of course! i’m so happy, I’ve really been wanting to write for him he’s so sweet, also thankyou i appreciate that 💕

Yuji Itadori x Reader

FIRST KISS -Super fluffy.

Yuji Itadori was like a breath of fresh air. After dealing with Fushiguro's reserved nature for so long, someone who wasn't particularly interested in being friends with you, it was a refreshing change to have Yuji join Jujutsu High. You and Yuji became fast friends, forming a tight-knit group with Nobara, and reluctantly Fushiguro. Ever since then, the four of you were almost inseparable.

But there was a problem, an indescribable, uncontainable issue that troubled you day in and day out. It was the ever-growing feelings that brewed inside you for Yuji. The way his infectious laughter made your heart skip a beat, his genuine concern for your well-being, the way he seemed to understand you without words; it all made your feelings grow stronger each passing day.

Today was quiet. You were in the middle of the slow season and missions were scarce. None of you were complaining as it meant a lot more free time. For you this meant free time to spend with Yuji.

Seated side by side in your favorite spot by the riverside, just the two of you, you watched the calm waters flow as the warm suns rays bathed you. You couldn’t help but admire how the sun reflected off Yujis eyes, they looked almost golden with the sun shining on them.

“What do I have something in my teeth?” Yujis voice shocked you out of your trance and you quickly realized you were staring.

“N-no sorry.” you said embarrassed, turning away. “I-I just was lost in thought.”

"Oh good that would be embarrassing.” He chuckles briefly pausing before he speaks up again. “Hey. You know you're one of my favorite people, right?"

You look back up at him. He had this big goofy smile on his face. It made his eyes sparkle and you could feel your heartbeat pick up. It was so annoying how that smile always made you melt. “I am?” You finally manage to stutter out.

He took a deep breath, his gaze meeting yours. "I mean... Yeah.” he chuckles “Why do you think I hang out with you much?”

Your heart picked up speed. “I don’t know Yuji.” you admit, a shy smile forming. “I guess I never really noticed you did.”

He laughed, a carefree sound that filled the air. “Yeah, I mean you always make me laugh, you’re smart, you’re probably the nicest girl I know. Plus…you’re so…pretty. Ya know?“

He shrugs nonchalantly, leaning back against a tree as the sunlight filtered through the leaves, casting shadows on his face.

You lowered your gaze, you almost felt…shy. "Yuji, I... I don't know what to say. That's... really sweet of you. You-you think I’m pretty?”

He grinned as he reached out to gently hold your hand. “Yeah I do. I think you’re beautiful.” His eyes met yours. His cheeks were dusted a light shade of pink, but he still had this confident air about him.

You bit your bottom lip. Fighting back the big excitable smile that seemed to be creeping its way into your face. “Thank you Yuji. That-That means a lot. Especially coming from you. I feel the same.” You say bashfully, squeezing his hand.

His smile grew and you felt warmth flush through your chest.Yuji leaned in closer to you, his eyes never leaving yours. “Can I kiss you?” he asked, his voice soft.

You gave him an eager nod. A shiver of anticipation running through your body “Y-yeah I would really like that.” You smile.

Time seemed to slow down as Yuji leaned in even closer closing the space between you. You closed your eyes, your heart beating outside your chest as Yujis lips met yours. They were soft and tender and he kissed you with such delicacy.

I’m the heat on of the moment you grabbed him by the shirt, pulling him in closer and you could feel him smile against your lips as the kiss grew deeper.

As the kiss came to an end your lips parted, still lingering close. You both open your eyes, and you couldn’t help but smile as Yuji looked at you with adoration. You could feel the electricity between you, threatening to shock your system.

Yuji tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear. “Wow…I’ve been wanting to do that for so long.” He said leaning back again as his carefree laugh filled your senses.

You joined in on his laughter as the tension was replaced with pure comfort. “Well…it was worth the wait.” You say, as you lay your head down on his lap. He laced his fingers in yours again.

He looks down at you and smiles his big goofy smile. “It certainly was. I’m glad I dragged you out here today.”

And as you look back up at him, happy with the way today was unfolding and excited for what was blossoming between you both, you nod. “Me too Yuji…me too.”

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roachemoji · 9 months

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NEW ST LIVE BLOGGING bc i lost my old thread lmao S1 06-08 (but not really i need to rewatch the end again)

Episode 6

OKAY im starting like halfway through ep 6 again

the AUTISM in the first 30 seconds of this episode starting up again lmao EL calling him a mouth breather because its the first insult she fucking hears??? Yea YEAH

GOD JOYCE IN A TURTLE NECK <- my mom (hold oni have to jump back up here because I completetly skipped the part about Jane and her mom and the connection to El and i feel like its a little too on the nose that thats who El is given how much ive seen and read about the fuckery and connections in this show so im waiting on that - unless it is just... that. AKJHD)

I LOVE DUSTIN SO MUCH WHY DO I NEVER HEAR ANYTHING ABOUT HIM LIKE WHAT THE FUCK

hes SO smart holy shit i mean they all are but his interpersonal skills are so JUST YEAH CALL THEM OUT CALL THEM OUT also his quiet "ok" when he pushes that theyre all his best friends UGH

is this the scene is this the i think im about to watch the thing i just OH MAN HE JUST CLOCKED HIM WHO STRADDLES A MAN LIKE THAT WHEN YORUE FIGHTING HELLO

damn

anyway sorry Johnathan and Nancy Platonic Soulmates Best Friends Forever im making them bracelets !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh man i was gonna mention the van that Lucas saw but i forgot also GOD DUSTIN IS THE ONLY ONE WITH FUCKIGN SENSE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH boys boys boys boys boys

I FORGOT HE PISSED HIS FUCKING PANTS LMAO

JUST PISS YOUR PANTS???? oh he okay yeah i though the was actually asking him to just piss his fucking pants

DUSTIN JUST SACRIFICING HIMSELF WHY DO I NOT HEAR MORE ABOUT HIM ACTUALLY

SO what would happen if Mike had like died what would happen if those kids had caused his death like wouold they have just ran and left Dustin or pushed him off or what like AKJSHDSKAJHD

IM SORRY THE SONG WHEN EL SHOWS UP IS SO FUCKING FUNNY

El exxperiencing PTSD so vividly breaks my fucking heart like girlie i understand i understan di do i reall really do god im so sorry BABY GIRL ITS OKAY AOOIASUDSKAH SHE OPENED THE GATE DAMN gonna like swaddle her or something god

im sorry the squad of white vans going to kidnap children is a little too on the fucking nose for me

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Episode 7

real talk could El not just explode them what if El just exploded them i mean obviously theres OTHER consequences like... killing people BUt i mean.

SHE IDNT EXPLODE THE VAN BUT I MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT GUY IS PROBABLY DEAD SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pausing to say something actually: How child abuse is depicted so far in the show is very scary to me in how real it feels. To be a kid in those situations, to not understand the power you weild because an adult as manipulated you into believing that you're helpless? That the only person you can rely on is them, even as they're actively harming you? Brenner being aware of the harm that El can cause him but believing so strongly in the hold he has on her and therefore he is above consequence, above harm? fucking yucky The scene of him giving her the potted flower made my stomach sink. Felt a little too close to home I know that themes of abuse are really prevelant in this show and Its really interesting to see how it affects people different but especially El, someone who'se pretty fucking clearly autistic and shows a lot of the same symptoms that i did post abuse? I thought i had more to say on it and maybei will as time goes on i just!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ough okay moving on --

LUCAS!!!!!!!!! APOLOGIZING and El saying she sorry too and ALL OF THEM APOLOGIZING YEAH THIS IS BOYS BEING BOYS BABEY THIS IS!!!! BOYS! BEING! BOYS!!!!!!!

WHITE WOMAN JUMPSCARE AGAIN

i cant wait to get to the part where i understand who you (POINTS AT EM) believe she is and fully feel whatever i should feel about her and what shes done or about to do or going to do in multiple timelines or what have YOU

Mikes dad makes me want to ram my head into a wall

and BRENNER is just fucking STABS HIM STABS HIM STABS HIM

Joyce is just :3c she just!! she <3

she can.... make you fly....... and...... piss yourself

the two super powers

OUHAKJSDH i forgot they think Johnathan killed Will jesus christ i hate these two so much and OUGAKSDH GOD THANK YOU FOR AKHSDAKJH FINALLY!! THANK U IK STEVE SHAPES UP AND CHANGES HIS SHIT AND GROWS THANK GOD BUT JESUS ITS ABOUT TIME HOLY FUCK

SPIT IN HIS EYES SPIT IN HIS EYES !!!! WISH U HAD GOD NOT THEIR DND SHIT HELLOW???

the Byers,,,,,,,,,, seemed so distant before like they didnt know each other or cared but god theyre so close theyre so so close and i feel that i get that

MIKES DAD AGAIN I WANT TO HES SO FUCKING STUPID if i were locked in a room with him id put on cocomelon

HOPPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

THE BOYS ARE ALL SO SMART I LOVE THEM OS MUCH

El is just trying so fucking hard god the liek desperation and fear or failure and guilt that she just keeps carrying itS JUST!!!!

MR CLARKS LIL DATE NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! do you ever use your teacher's autism against him and force him to info dump in the same of science.

watching them setting up the pool and knowing they probably just told them to figure it out while they filmed it <3 ALSO MIKE REALIZING HIS SISTER IS ACTUALLY COOL idk need more siblings being siblings

JOYCE IS MY MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

someone giving El the option to say no? to back out? to FEEL SAFE??? im going to lose my mind im gonan scREAM and cry and throw up!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am BANGING MY FISTS On the TABLE

genuinely WAHT did barb do to deserve this WHAT DID SHE DO SHE WAS SUCH A GOOD FRIEND OH MY GOD

joyce joyc ejoCYCE JOYCE JOYCE fuck all yall shes my favorite character im in love with her

Do episodes that end in the upside down also not end with music @ em i cant remember this happening before bc i didnt write it down <3

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Episode 8

LAST EPISIDE OF THE SEASON i went to get popcorn for this to pay full attention or as much as i could im goingin an dout of dissociating so bare with me i feel like im gonna have to rewatch the entire first season again bc i missed a lot but we'll get there in due time anyway onward and upward boys

OHH THE FIRST SCENE I SAW A PARALLEL TO EPISODE ONE!!! WITH JOYCE ON THE PHONE AND NOW YELLING AT BRENNER

god i love WHEN PEOPLE STAND UP TO BRENNER AND DONT BELIEVEHIS BULLSHIT

Hopper <333333

Johnathan and Nancy are my favorite best friends theyre jUST like GUNG FUCKING HO i love it

IM OAIUSDKAJHD NANCY AND HOPPER GOING FUCKING IN WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN yall keep underesitimating these people because you got your fancy suits and you think ou have control of the situation and then you get your ass handed to you SO IM waiting for his ass to be handed to him

do NOTTTTT DO NOT DO THIS TO ME WITH HOPPER DONT THROW ME INTO A FUCKING FLASH BACK!!!!!!! NOT LIKE THIS NOT HERE GONNA BITE

if i have to watch people cut their palms to get blood one more time im gonna STOP STOP IT STOP IT STOP oh my GOD LIKE... BAK O FYOU HAND? YOUR ARM? GIRL.

STEEVEEEEEEEEE are the lights gonna start blinking girl please pleas eplease srteve please can he help kill please bro Im HIS big brown eyes hello hwa the fuck

SO Tumblr deleted... everything after this and im kinda upset man i got like 20 minutes left in the episode not even and it just wiped out 90% of me going balls to the fuck wall about El exploding people's brains and how much i love Joyce Byers and how they gotta stopputting me through so much emotional turmoil when it comes to Hopper and his flash backs

I think im gonna rewatch the last episode to give a better genuine reaction bc i kinda spaced out at the end and dont super know whats going on now askdhj

#bo posting #bo.txt #stranger things #oougHSKDHGSJF #AH

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nateriverswife · 2 months

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last time i checked my outline table on notion, it kept deleting the rows everytime i was changing the characters in the scene and so i lost like most of september. i fixed it by duplicating a row multiple times and just changing the title of the chapters, because i already wrote those and i didn't need them. now i realised that the "characters in the scene: L" filter was on and now my outline is completetly fucked up with 40+ useless rows in the most disorganised order ever. i love notion but goodamn.

#it took me so much time when i did it the first time and this is even the revised version of the original outline #d.exe #i'll fix it when i update the story and have to check the published box cuz right now it's just painful to look at it

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lupusexspiravite · 1 year

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Why has this become the social Normality? By lupus Ex Spiravite

This is a true story,

Less than a year ago my friend wilson was invited to a CoD Gaming Discord Server by a ex-friend who was an admin of the server.

Wilson spent a few days before the incident toke place staying quiet and just gaming on the server with his mic muted and rarely speaking to anyone just to make sure it was safe for him to speak.

A little background about wilson,from kindergaten all the way through college, He was bullied to the extent that He had to move schools and one incident left him with permenant damage All becauase he didnt want the last of the money he had for the REST OF THE ENTIRE MONTH (at this point it had only been 5 days into the month) to go to the bullies and instead of letting him go, they beat him damn near into a coma and ended up stealing his identity causing wilson to this day to be extremely afraid of people.

Which is why he spent the time he did to make sure it was a safe space for him to play with others on CoD.

He finally decided it was safe and spent the next few hours playing with people in the Main VC for the server. He was having so much fun that he even invited me to come over and hang out with him on this server. Which at the time i had to decline just yet because of work.

He is getting ready to head off for the night and a new person joins he has never met before that day who i will call S. S is being greated by everyone by there Discover User Created Name and so my friend Says: Hi my name is wilson Ill be playing games here starting today Nice to meet you S.

S then proceeds to go into a rant and yelling at Wilson calling him Transphobic for calling S by the same name everyone else is. after what wilson had gone through he started having a panic attack. Said so and S left and So did wilson.

Wilson went to get back on this server after giving himself half a day to mentally prepare for something like this again but Found that he had been Banned from the Discord server. Wilson then proceeded to message his Admin friend asking what happened when he was told that He was banned for Supposidly going on a 40 min transphobic rant against S. Which in fact had been a complete lie. After being told this that Admin Friend he had known since his first year in college Completetly ghosted him.

The following 3 months after this incident, He was bullied online to the Extent that Wilson considered removing himself from this world because the one thing that had always been his love and passion had been turned by one person lie into a living nightmare. To this very day He still gets people Messaging. Emailing and Posting on all social medias that he is the most horrid person and even some egging him on to remove himself from this world.

He and I both have gained from from 8 seperate people that was in the server at the time of the incident that shows without a doubt that wilson never once did as S Said.

This proof has been given to the head admins of each of the server as well as the server owner and Yet Nothing has changed. Not a Single Thing has been done to Make right this incident.

This incident cost him damn near everything he spent his whole life working on because of S's Lie but does that matter? No from what I am still seeing it does not matter. He has proven his innocent multiple times but does that matter? No all because 1 person crafted a Story and spread it to the far reaching corners of social media My friend wilson Has lost everything.

Is this the type of Representation the LGBT people should be condoning? No it shouldnt but It very much well is.

This has become the Social Norm now and days. Everyone must tip toe around everyone because if you even get the slightest perceived slight against you then you may destroy the persons life. As a Human being, This is Cancel Culture which has showed that doing this to a person is the correct action and should always be a culteral norm and refuses to accept the Truth when it is revealead is The most absoluetetly Appaling thing.

What is worse about my friend wilsons after this is that His supposed best friend said that my friend needed to Apologize to S, Stating that and I qoute:

Because S has been misgendered and Misnamed for all these Years that gives them to right to do what S did and that Wilson Must apologize for Slighting S.

Wilson told this now ex friend that He had done nothing wrong and even showed proof but This friend stated:

It does not matter wilson must apologize S and everyone In all admins in all 8 discord servers that he had been banned from.

when I heard this I started literally crying and Apologizing to Wilson because That was one of the most convoluted and Disrespectful things to say to a person after there entire world crumbled after a Proven Lie was taken as truth.

Is this ok?

No Not in any way shape and/or form is this ok. Wilson now barely eats, he barely comes out of his room spending 80 percent of this time awake laying in bed crying from extreme PTSD. depression and Anxiety from this incident.

Video games have been mine and Wilsons Safe space for Many years, its how we relax, and to Wilson it was a way to make money and do something he loved and yet Now To wilson Gaming is just HELL..

Now that you have Read the entirety of this post Please write in the comments of what your thoughts are and Who should be the one apologizing to who.

The names in this story have been altered per Wilsons the originator of this stories request. I have been given permission to Post this as a story.

a Correction must be Made, As of march 3 2023, My friend wilson Has removed himself from this world due to the continued Pressure from this Ass nine Incident.

#lgbtpeople #lgbtq #harrassment #social media

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romanarose · 5 months

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Update on how things have been.

ups and downs ups and downs...

TW for depression, suicidal thoughts, sh, and ig work issues although those seem small in comparison to the other warnings

Monday was much better. Today is worse than Monday but not as bad a last week. Last week I was in serious danger to myself. If I was insured I would have committed myself for my safety.

I relapsed on SH this week, been over a year since doing that so its pretty disappointing, but not as bad as when i relapsed after like 5 years.

As some of you know, I quit my job on friday. It was my weekend job at olive garden that i'd been at for a long time, and had evn more years at different olive garden locations and long story short i was feeling a lack of respect and decent pay for certain postions so i said i was done hosting, expecting to do bread, salad, or to go. I get schedule to buss which pays worse than host and i lost it lol. Completetly. It felt like an insult. It honestly got blown out of proportion bc of my emotions but the way my general manager handled it was really disappointing and brushed me off when i wanted to talk about it on saturday. On sunday we did actually talk. One of the other managers was in the room and while i didn't feel my GM understood me, the other manager did. She said she was the one that scheduled me that and didn't mean it as an insult nor a punishment but she validated why I felt like it was. She took me off one of the bussing shifts as an act of goodwill. I'll be working less hours there and more on my on campus job but i think over all it got smoothed over enough.

But after that, i cried and cried and cried. for 45 minutes. Like i sat in the parking lot sobbing bc i could not drive. Eventually im able to get to panda express and cry more trying to calm down and get my food. I just went i with my face red a blotchy ad tears in my eyes and went home and watched My Man Godfrey via screenshare with a friend. Good movie.

Unsure how I feel. I naively thought yesterday that this was over, but one good day does not a cure make.

On the brightside, my Race and Ethnicity in america class was supossed to do a presentation on jackie robinson tomorrow and my and a classmate were gonna work on it today after class... and she said "hey i pretty much did everything, if you just wanna come to class a little early tomorrow we can go over the slides." I felt bad bc I didn't do anything but she said she really just prefers to do work by herself. She and I are both history majors and know each other well, so I know for a fact that I can return this favor some day. I started tearing up and saying how I've been struggling so this is such a relief.

Grades will be okay I think. geology is gonna suck at the end bc ive been bullshitting it all. Race and ethnicity in american will be an A i think. Just got my paper back for the other american history class, I got an A so far. Im not super confident about the research paper at the end but... If I have an A a C or something for the paper will be alright. I got my midterm back for the history research class and I though I got like a 50% lol but it was a B-. everything else has been a's so far so if i dont do great on that paper ill survive. Race and law is an A rn and I dont precieve that changing. I need to keep a 3.0 gpa to keep my scholarship one more year.

Anyway y'all dont care about any of that.

I fear as this semmester goes on there will be less and less time to write fics so be prepared. Im trying my best. Everything is awful rn and i dont wanna exist but im pulling through.

sorry for the depressing post

#tw depression #tw suicide #tw self harm

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katiascraft · 1 year

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why are people so crazy abput how they look??? I dont know if i'm the only one, but im like zero beutiful matwrial tho i always've been more insecure about my personality. Does it happen to you too???? Or am i like crazy???? Like i feel until i could love my personality i can not even care about how my body looks. Like i dont even know who i am or who i want to be and i dont fucking know if i like it like im completetly lost

#im curious #is this so depressing???#need answers #help #body image #insecurities #personality insecurities #im insecure of who i am #:(#sad #im sad

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pearlcscent · 3 years

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i hate online classes so much like death would be easier

#IM SO CONFUSED #what is going in this course #i have no idea #i really couldn't tell you #like on top of illustration projects and the dissertation #yall are adding more assignments??? HUH #DEATH #please #and i don't even understand what module this assignment is for?#since the tutor said it wasn't for the ONLY class we've been having the past 2 months #HUH?#i don't understand #completetly lost #isa.txt

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normatural · 2 years

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By Your Side | Jax Teller

Part I: Welcome to Charming

Prequel // Part II // ...

Pairing | Jax Teller x f!Reader

Summary | Jax was lost and done trying to find himself after the death of his childhood best friend and the brutal homicide of his wife, there’s no one else that he can turn to... That’s until you decide to pay him a visit in your hometown.

Warning(s) | Language, mention of death, angst. I’ll leave a song below in case anyone wants a background music.

Word count | 1.8k

Autor’s note | This story takes time on Season 7 but won’t be a 100% loyal to the tv show’s plot and events. This was proofread but if something escaped my eyes, please, help a friend and let me know. Feedback is always welcome!

•• My request are open and in case you don’t have any particular ideas, you can check my prompt list. ••

You drummed with your fingers on the steering wheel as you could see the ‘Welcome to Charming Town’ sign getting closer and closer, making your heart beat faster as you remembered the last call you had with Gemma two nights ago.

Tara was killed.

The night you departed from Charming was far from friendly. Jax shouts were still very fresh in your mind as you could also remember Opie telling, from the corner of the club’s parking lot, him to calm down and for the two of you to sit down and work things like grown-ups.

Honestly, the thin line of tension waiting to blow on your faces related to your friendship started not so long after she came back to the town, with Tara whisperings the most absurd comments about you into’s Jax skull. You were pestering her, calling her all sorts of names and making threats, were what she often went for.

“Oh, so you’re gonna call her a liar too?” Jax chuckled, a humourless sound as he looks at you as if you were someone completetly different from someone who he once called best friend, from the teen that always cleaned his wounds after a fight and listened to his thoughts whenever the kut felt heavy on his shoulders.

You scoffed.

“Can you even listen to yourself, Jax?! She’s... Fuck! She’s playing you like a goddamn puppet since day one and you can even see it!” you shouted, running a hand through your hair as you took in a deep breath, feeling the tears burning as they threatened to start falling. “I’m your best friend for fuck’s sake! I’d have never threatened to kill your wife.”

It hurt deep inside your chest to stand there, listening to accusation after accusation coming from the mouth of someone you’ve known for so long, someone you cared and loved with all your heart – which made it easy, at the hot of that moment, to hate him with all your heart too.

“Then, because you’re my best friend, I’m gonna warn ya” he pointed his finger at you, eyes wide as the words spilled from his mouth like venom, taking a couple of lazy steps towards you as it seemed your words didn’t even reach his ears. “If I hear you touched on a hair of her head and I will. Kill. You.”

Like a reflex to the pain shattering your ground, barely giving you time to register them any further, your hand had already met his cheek in a sharp stroke – one that would probably leave a reddish print of your hand on the skin.

All you could bring yourself at that moment was to wipe the tears that had escaped during his words and make your way out of there and to the nearest bar you could find open at that moment so you could do what you had to do. Get your things and go.

There was no point in staying in the hell hole that was Charming for someone to whom you meant nothing and yet, there you were again. For him.

“Home sweet home” you sighed, leaving the keys on the small living’s room table as you looked around the place you grow up, not even a single thing out of the place your father had left years ago and you maintained it through the years after, but it was certainly too clean for a house that staid closed for a long time. A clear sign that Gemma was around and tied it up for your arrival – her sweet way to show love.

The woman was the closest thing to a mother that you had since your mom passed away when you were just a fifteen years old girl and for Gemma, you were the daughter that she always wanted but never could have due to her heart condition.

Dropping to the couch, you rubbed your temples as if it’d make you think better about what you should do next, or better, how you would get to Jax knowing that, according to what the Samcro’s queen said, her son was distant like she has never seen before.

Your eyes landed on the scraped wood tile floors, filled with scratches collected through the years that told histories of your many movie nights with your dad, pushing the table and couches away for a pillow made bed to watch the favorite movies of both, a way to distract all your minds from what being involved in a gang caused in your life and even despite all the obstacles you went through, life seemed so much lighter back them.

“What are you doing here? There aren’t even groceries in the cabinets” you jumped on your place, hand flying to your rapid besting heart as your head snapped towards the voice.

You sighed, closing your eyes, and rested your head against the couch as you found Gemma leaning on the kitchen door’s lamb, a flannel hanged on her shoulder as she looked at you with that Teller signature smile.

“What? Am I looking that old to start scaring people now?” She arched a brow and you chuckled, shaking your head before you wiped tears you didn’t notice falling earlier and walked to her, wrapping Gemma in a hug.

“Shut up, you look great!” You bit a smile as she squeezed you before pulling away, fixing her bangs.

“Alright, enough affection. You need to eat something and I can’t cook in an empty kitchen so grab your things ‘cause you’re coming with me.”

You stopped cutting the vegetables as you heard that familiar voice that used to bring a warmness to your chest, pretty much similar to what you felt just now but it wasn’t accompanied by that cold shiver in your spine. Taking a deep breath, you pressed your lips together as you turned around to face the man at the door.

The last time you saw Jax, his hair was much shorter and his face was less matured by years and responsibilities of the ‘president’ patch you noticed on his kut and his eyes... Well, you haven’t seen such anger, sadness and worry on them ever before, the dark circles and black eye combined with a couple of bruises visible on his body didn’t go unnoticed on your radar either.

“What the fuck is she doing here?” He looked at his mother, finger pointed at you as he acted like you weren’t standing just in front of him.

Gemma took a deep breath, resting the hand that held the spoon on her waist as she look at you with an apologetic smile and then at her son.

Anyone that knew Gemma, and maybe even those who didn’t, could tell right away that between all the girls Jax has ever crossed path, you were her favorite. The one she wanted to be her son’s old lady. Except, you and Jax never went any further than playfull flirtations and stolen glances across a crowded room.

“Jax... I’m so sorry for your lo-” you stopped talking as he sent you a glare. One that reminded you of the expression on his face the night you left Charming.

“Don’t. We both know how you feel about... her.” It was hard to understand how he could still spill his words with such venom to you. Was him still so blind that he couldn’t see you had come back for him because you cared about that stubborn man?

“I’m gonna kiss the boys good night.” He looked at Gemma again and she sighed, knowing it meant another sleepless night with her son burying himself on the revenge against the Chineses. “Next time you bring her over, give me a warning so I don’t bother leaving the club.”

You looked down at the chopped ingredients, telling yourself to hold those damn tears. You wouldn’t cry in front of him right now nor Gemma but the lump in your chest was making it a really hard task. Forcing a small smile, you look at her as you heard his footsteps leaving the room and she nods at you, a silent way to tell you to go after him.

To your surprise Jax hadn’t gone to his childhood room on the second floor, occupying a seat on his mother’s couch as his head rested against the couch with closed eyes and you stopped on his side. From this close you could notice the cut on his lips with dried blood, his high cheek adorned with a small gash and the black left eye seemed fresh if you judged by the swollenness on there.

He was never one to get so beaten up in a fight and you wondered if, maybe, he purposefully let the other guy get the punches right in purpose.

“Jax, look at me.” The words weren't much higher than a whisper, a soft plead coming from the tiredness of a long trip and your broken heart. It was tiring to hold a grudge against him, even more, when he was standing there so broken.

“You can’t come back now and think you can fucking tell me what to do” He opened his eyes, sending you a sharp glance as he remembered going to your place on the next day, just the found the door locked and all the things in your garage, your little sacred place since your fathet got killed, gone. You left him without looking back, not even stopping to tell him goodbye and even thought he never admitted it to Opie back then, that got him good. Worst than he thought it ever could.

“Stop yelling like a dick and listen for a second, Teller. I’m fucking tired of your bullshit and those wounds will get infected if someone doesn’t clean them and I know you won’t.” You inhaled deeply, grabbing the first aid kit that Gemma always left on the second shelf next to the books at easy reach in cade any of her boys needed it and honestly, the times were a handful.

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#Spotify #jax teller imagine #jax teller one shot #jax teller x reader #jax teller #charlie hunnam x reader #charlie hunnam imagine #sons of anarchy #charlie hunnam

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hermioneistherealhero · 6 years

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#f you have to excuse the behavior of nasty fans by saying 'well what about THOSE nasty fans???'#you've already lost and you've lost the point completetly #there are nasties on all sides #yes even the one you're on #call that shit out and be better #*if

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hysokaz · 3 years

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why did hisoka not kill gon in zevil island?

he wanted to see gon grow. he even said so himself, he wants to see gon grow into an opponent worth killing. but we all know that.

he wants to see gon grow stronger so that he will reach a level where he feels he can fight him and get a good match out of it. but thats a boring answer. i think that hisoka didnt kill gon in zevil island, despite the fact that gon was down and paralyzed, because he respected gon in that moment.

hisoka doesnt really have "respect" for a lot of people. or things. i think his respect can go hand in hand with if he wants to fight someone or not. does hisoka mind killing, or fighting? of course not, but theres a difference between him not minding and him WANTING to kill/fight. you have to impress him or at least do something that makes him reasonably think that youre "worthy" of fighting him. some people he respects include illumi, chrollo, machi, etc. anyone who he would REALLY like to fight some day. i dont think he respected gon in the beginning of the exams; i think he thought it would be fun to fight gon, but i dont think he thought it would be any time soon that the urge to fight him would pop up.

the start of his respect, and urge to fight gon grew the second that he saw gon with his own badge in hand.

so why does this matter?

because the respect gon gained from hisoka kept him alive.

i think its interesting to compare the way hisoka views targets he doesnt MIND fighting and targets he WANTS to fight, aka, respects. agon, the bird-looking guy who he kills, was nothing to hisoka. hisoka was in a trance when he killed him, gon even said that hisoka wouldve just killed anyone he saw. when hisoka killed agon it was quick, and hisoka let agons body fall without a second glance. in fact, the next thing he does is a clear indicator of the way he views the people he respects. he drops EVERYTHING, in quiet shock, to look for the person that ripped the badge of his chest. you know its shock because hisoka places his hand on his chest, where his badge had been, to see if it truly was gone. its enough of a shock for him to completely snap out of his bloodlust trance and to focus all of his attention to the person who took them down.

gon

and when he saw gon, what was his reaction? he was happy.

gon is special, in a way. hisoka saw potential in gon, but he didnt seem to care too much for him. it was enough to make an impression, though. that impression instantly grew once he saw gon was the one to take his badge; he realised that gon truly would grow into an opponent worthy of killing.

it almost seems like hisoka WAS going to kill gon at first, the way he reacted after spotting him, but i can GUARANTEE you he wasnt. hisoka was no longer in a trance once he saw gon, he was completetly calm and in his sound mind (as much as that counts). hisoka approaches gon, or at least begins to, calmly and quietly. he visibly shows himself stepping towards gon, he doesnt try to go quick before gon can react, in fact, he waits for gon to get over his startlement before approaching. gon, still scared for his life (for good reason) ran away. but i can still guarantee that he wasnt in a trance even without him not physically being on the screen-- all of it revolves around geretta. he kills geretta quietly, gon doesnt even know hisoka kills geretta until after it happens. hisoka is careful, collected, and assassinates him without a sound. had hisoka been in a trance he wouldve been running to kill gon, and that wouldve made geretta hear him and it wouldnt have been such an easy kill; when hisoka is in a trance, he doesnt care who sees him-- hes so overwhelmed by his own bloodlust to not sense the presence of others. theres no reasonable way that hisoka wouldve calmly approached geretta if he was truly in an urge to kill gon, therefore he didnt want to kill gon.

hisoka is not too... prideful. i wouldnt use the word to describe him at least. its not like he wakes up in the morning to admire himself, hes never said something that leads me to believe he even tells himself hes strong. i dont know how to explain it, but hisoka doesnt NEED to tell himself that hes strong; hes confident, but hes not vain. i would only ever call him overconfident when bloodlust gets to his head-- but when that happens, hisoka plain cant THINK, so i dont think its too far to use that. the only counterargument against this that i can think of is the way he is with chrollo, but i havent thought much about their relationship and i dont want to bring that up now. what im trying to say is that hisoka couldve honestly given less of a shit if he lost his own badge. it wouldnt mean anything to him so long he could still win. but hes not stupid, he knows the value of a badge. the knows the value that gaining an opponents badge would mean to someone, i think he wouldnt exactly KNOW know but i think he would have a hunch that it WOULD mean something to gon.

so i think that hisoka giving gon his badge would be a sign of respect, as well. he COULDVE taken all the badges he needed, he COULDVE just let gon be, but instead he went out of his way to gift gon his badge. this wasnt mockery, like gon took it. it was a sign of respect, because hisoka WANTS gon to pass. he knows hes going to be fine even if he has to get 3 more cards and gives his own to gon so that he may pass. its the thing that sparked my analysis, it was CLEAR that it was a sign of respect.

i have one more argument. believe it or not, knocking down gon was another sign of respect. while yes it brought gon to a very low point, hisoka didnt mean for that to happen. him knocking gon down was mercy, in hisokas eyes. he obviously doesnt want gon to not pass, its obvious. another sign is that geretta is killed. hisoka couldve let gon deal with it, i mean geretta didnt give a lethal dose, but hisoka didnt let that happen. he dropped his badge and left it with gon, and ran off with gerettas. if gon passed and if he passed, he was fine with that.

its all respect. he has enough respect for gon to want him to live (for now) and pass.

so why did hisoka not kill gon in zevil island when he had every chance? he had too much respect for gon to do it.

#hxh #hxh meta #gon freecss #hisoka morow #ik i got pics from 11's but i was actually watching the 90s version when i got the idea to write this #i was arguing with myself because im crazy about the way hisoka acted and i was trying to deduce WHY he didnt kill gon and #why he acted the way he did in general during that time #and i just slwoly came to realisation that gon only survived because hisoka respects him #and its so. hisokas fucking brain is so intersting i need to dissect it #litearlly i am going insane soemtimes i feel like im one of the only people in this website who fundimentally understands this clown #i know thats not like something to brag about and i sound stupid but i. i feel like i understand his reasoning but damn near everything &#perhaps that is a cause for worry #not my fault i got mentally fucked up in the head symdrome #anyways guys im hongry and the glue in my nails is peeling off and its 2am #seriously i spent hours doing dishes and that makes the glue fall off sm faster it fucking sucksssss #why do i spend hours doing dishes? because i spend hours cleaning and organising. why do i do that?😎 please help me #side note writing this at 2:25 im really hongry still man #i litearlly do not know if any of this makes sense im ujst jmjrsg .stupid clown #okay i finaly ifnished it at 4:42 am i need to go to bed i have like a hair appointment at 12 and thats important i need my blondness to #keep my sane..dont worry i only dye half of it platimun blonde because i hate yellow and its a stupid colour #anyways i feel like i couldve explained this better but i try my best #omg wiat 4:44 making this edit yayyy angel numbers #um anwyays wanted to say..shit what did i want to say........oh yes i wanted to say that i know no one asked but but i really had been thin #kin about this and i realy needd to get it out of my heaed

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Hi ! Are you alright with some sad/angsty themes for fanfics?? Its completetly alright if your not, but if you are I was thinking a small hazbin hotel fanfic with Alastor comforting Angel after a flashback? Maybe Angel had a really bad ptsd flashback and regressed because of that, and Al finds him and tries to comfort him? Thank you ! (Srry for the kinda sad ask, trauma based reggression is something I struggle with and I cope a lot through fandom ^^´)

Hi anon, Mod Crayon here! I have been so excited to write this story because I experience trauma-based regression too and I just recently got into Hazbin Hotel. If you want to talk Hazbin Hotel with me you’re welcome to DM me @stuffiesandcrayons ! You can read the fic on AO3 here or under the cut. Thank you for requesting, and I hope you like it!

Angel Dust was sitting in a chair in his bedroom, his knees pressed to his chest as three sets of his arms wrapped around them, when Alastor burst in.

"Angel Dust, my dear, you absolutely must hear what Charlie was just telling me!" Alastor's laugh track played as he spoke, and he reached a hand out toward Angel Dust.

Angel Dust flinched, and that's when Alastor noticed how glazed his expression was. "Are you in the past, my fine fellow?" Alastor asked.

Angel Dust nodded slowly, as though it was a great effort. Some weeks ago, Angel Dust and Charlie had explained to Alastor that one had to be careful when Angel is in a state like this. His mind would get stuck in the past for one reason or another, and it was either a very entertaining time for games and silly voices or very unpleasant. This was clearly the latter. Alastor turned, intending to find Charlie so she could take over.

"Don't go," came a weak voice from Angie. Alastor could hardly ignore that. He told himself that he was only staying to witness the other's weakness, but maybe Charlie was getting to him after all.

Alastor closed the door and sat on Angel's bed, facing him. "Would you like to talk about it?"

Angel shook his head. Unsurprising.

"How about a hug from Sir Sparklepants?" Alastor asked. Charlie had made this stuffed animal and insisted on the name.

Angel Dust squinted, seemingly lost in thought. Alastor picked up the stuffie and held it out to him. Cautiously, Angel Dust took it.

One pair of his arms held the stuffie tight while the other two pairs began to relax. He smiled slightly, still not looking at Alastor.

"You're welcome, little friend," said Alastor. "I'll be here for as long as you need."

#trauma tw #trauma #agere #fandom agere #mod crayon

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godsboychildposts · 4 years

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Title: Wake Up World, Heavenly Parent's Holy Community is Here for You.

I. Introduction:

Today is an Ahn Shil Il day Heavenly holy calendar 8-8-22 or 20-10-8 by Solar calendar.

I believe every man and women was created in the love and beauty of God's image. We were each created in the beginning as Soul Mates, twin pairs destined to meet each other in an eternal love triangle as a trinity copy of the Holy Spirit of Heavenly Parents. But because of the FALL of MAN this perfect harmony was lost for eternity.

II. The Source of Our Suffering:

What we are experiencing as love and life today is a product of the Fall, thus it is conflicted, painfully filled with unneccessary suffering, loneliness, and despair. Clearly DRUGS , CRIME and CORRUPTION can not solve this problem it only exasperates the problem. The only real hope for humankind as a whole to return to that state of original perfection of peace and harmony is to first deny this world completely. I didn't say self denial, or denial of God, but rather denial of the falsity of this world order! As long as we continue to think things are normal and acceptable there is no hope for the majority of humankind.

III. The Hope of Humankind:

Of course a few will continue getting richer as Classism continues to seperate the HAVES and the HAVE NOTS at the expense of human dignity, rights, gender inequality and abject poverty of the majority. All "-ism" such as Racism, Tribalism and ultimately Classism tends to seperate the Oneness of humankind resulting in conflicts, pain and sorrow. Why can't we see this simply reality and awaken? Why do we continue to suffer unnecessarily? It is situations like this which leads my scientific mind to conclude in the existence of evil forces of nature called the DEVIL. A Devil not stronger than God, but a Devil who can only be defeated by the collective righteous of all humankind not just a few! It is for this purpose Heaven promised to send us a Second Messiah as a Messianic Couple. They will rise from the deepest Hell on Earth to become the first ever victorious True Parents. In the end times they alone will be the hope of heaven, earth and humankind.

IV. The Mission of True Parents:

So how do we stop mankind's spiraling decay towards a bottomless pit? How do we stop this perpetual state hopelessness, pain and suffering centered on our fallen state of existence? I believe only the True Love of God and Heavenly Parents can completetly liberate us all into a New World Order.

We must return to the original ideal of love and life. After perfecting our hearts and character centered on God's ideal of True Love, we must find our Divine Soul Mates and fulfill our true destiny our True purpose of creation by living a life of JOY, PEACE, and HAPPINESS for for all eternity.

This is the True Parent's legacy to humankind. While many only see them as "a self proclaimed Messianic Couple" my wife and I see them as the Avatars or earthly presence of our Invisible Heavenly True Parents. Our final prayer and hope in life is to awaken as many people to this same realization. Love you all forever.

A message of hope and peace from truelovefamilyfoundation.org. Please don't miss attending the the upcoming 3rd #globalrallyofhope scheduled this month October.

#classism #Racism #tribalism #true love

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i-am-no-jedi-nor-muggle · 5 years

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This scene was epic! I lost it completetly right here!

PS: The Wasp looks sooooo badass! like

“Are we doing this or what?” 👊🏽

#avengers endgame #mcu women #mcu ladies #avengers #captain marvel #scarlet witch #okoye #pepper potts #the wasp #valkyrie #mantis #nebula #shuri #gamora #girl power #women power #fight like a woman #fight like a girl #future is female

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chaossmagic · 5 years

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Aaron is human he allowed to grieve losing Robert man he loved for 5 years FIVE YEARS not even Aaron was with/loved Jackson that long( and he grieved him for years like) before he lost him like smh, also just cause rebound doesn't mean you moved on either look a vic she had flings/rebounds with ellis/matty and clearly not completetly over adam, but aaron being aaron doubt will have sex until he ready to move on like?

EXACTLY.

It’s human. It’s normal. Anyone is allowed to mourn a loss, whatever form that loss might take, whether they’re a fictional character or not. It’s realistic.

#anon

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ainarosewood · 5 years

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Prompt # 30 Darkness Preserving Life

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This is another one of my Character Aylis as the Amourtine Persephone its a continuation of fury-solutions . It also explains my headcanon about the echo and how it is tied to Hydaelyn.(for I have always held that it and the blessing of light are two separate powers tied but separate) Shb Spoilers beneath the cut.

Persephone took a breath and focused if she had done it correctly the concept of the Echo correctly it should enact right away. It did in an instant she found herself one with the current of the Underworld.

She could hear its song which should have been harmonious screaming in discordant notes crying out for help. She could feel the aetherial flow warped and twisted beyond recognition. Tied in thousands of gnarled tangles that writhed to be loosed to follow their destine path once more.

As she sensed all of this she thought about what could be the root cause and in a flash it all became clear. The creation magics, the magics her people prided themselves upon these were what was leading their world to destruction. In their hubris and carelessness they had unwound the very aetheric laws that made their world….and there was no fixing this.

Her attunement was so complete that she saw it clear as day. The Convocation’s solution, the summoning of their god Zodiark and the subsequent call of those who apposed it to Hydaelyn had been the death knell for their star. The sheer amount of aether used to construct those beings tore what little of the firmament of aetherial law that remained. Now two aetheric powers attempted to via for dominion over all of the star. Darkness and Light alone, umbral and astral power. The other elements were ceasing to exist due to the over inundation of these two titanic beings.

Persephone began to weep as she realized this, she had been right these deific beings were not the solution they were their doom. Something had to be done, she had to find a way to save the star.

Child of Amarout, gifted creator, heed me for all is not lost….. a voice drifted toward her on the aetherial flow.

She sensed toward the voice and found herself near Hydaelyn. Wary of what it could do she kept her distance.

Fear not child, I am Hydaelyn all made one. The souls of thy comrades freely given to save themselves from the dark one

Persephone boldly stated, “I sense what you are Hydaelyn and I will not be bound to some beings whim”

I will not bind thee to me child, I wish to beseech thee for aid.

Persephone’s eyes widened in surprise and she got the sense that even if the being tried it could not bind her to it. That was an interesting side effect that she hadn’t thought would happen with the Echo. It was intended to solely be a means to better attune with the aether. “How could I aid you?”

The dark ones power and my own are destroying thy star. If it is allowed to continue it will bring about a cessation of all life. Action must be taken.

“And you need me to do this in your stead for if you were to do it on your own the balance that is already skewed will simply shift to light destroying all life. And if you were to fail it would shift to darkness and also destroy all life.”

Just so creator, in order to restore the balance of life both the dark one and I must be destroyed.

“But that would hasten the fall of the star you both are now inexorably tied to it due to the foolish actions of those who wanted a quick solution instead of understanding the consequence of their action.” the Amourtine countered.

The star may fall but life will continue child, in this destruction new life will be born and the flow start anew untainted completely by the dark one’s and my power.

"Though both of your powers will still be there,” Persephone argued her newfound awareness with the Echo giving insights she never dreamed possible. But this concept attuned her to the aether so completely that she was beginning to fully understand its workings.

That is true child, but our power shalt ever be with in the flow of life now for we are tied to it as art thou and thy kindred.

Persephone closed her eyes contemplating the entities words. If naught were to be done the star would die for eventually one or the other of these beings would be in sole control. Causing either a void of light or darkness depending on who prevailed. Were she to do this however her star, her people would be destroyed but in doing so life would be preserved.

She opened her eyes staring at the sky fractured and fragmented tendrils of light and dark warring with one another and she made her choice, “I will aid you Hydaelyn, for to do nothing will bring about the cessation of all life and someone must answer for our hubris. I only hope that those that come after do not follow our foolish path.”

Accept my power then child bring it to the dark one and unleash it fully in his presence.

With that the light around began flowing to her filling her being the darkness swelled around as the light left thinking it had triumphed. Hydaelyn surrendered herself completetly into Persephone’s being until the Amroutine was a single beacon glowing in the stifling gloom. Her feet moved of their own accord guiding her to the heart of where the darkness spread. There Zodiark floated the Convocation all of them suffused with Zodiarks power. They surrounded the being standing between her and it.

“Persephone what are you doing?” Hades snapped alarm filling him as he could see she glowed with the unatural power.

She looked at him suffused with Hydaelyn’s light stating, “What must be done to preserve life.”

With that she unleashed the full of the power onto the entity that they stood before Hades, Lahabrehea and Eledibus were thrown back from the strength of the aether and it slammed directly into Zodiark. He screamed in rage as then light erupted all around them in a massive explosion which engufled all present.

The last thing Persephone saw before she and the star fragmented was Hades, and the other two fleeing from the destruction in a portal of writhing shadow. Life must prevail she thought as her soul shatter scattering itself through out the river of aether.

#FFxivWrite2019 #Shb Spoilers #Amarotine WoL #oc aylis tyme

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