#connected to mental illness and trauma

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #9460

  Belonging to a group that understands you. – Guest Submission

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#sad #help #hope #reason to live #depressed #depression #empty #alone #mental illness #anxiety #trauma #guest submission #mental health #belonging #welcome #group #understanding #connection

[neuroticboyfriend]

i don't think people realize just how taxing it is to survive OD. it doesn't feel like i survived and my life continues. it feels like i should have died, didn't, and my life restarted from zero. it feels like i was just fucking spawned into existence with a backstory. forever changed. crossed the line and instead of crossing it back, there's... nothing. it's like entering a black hole. anything that goes in, doesn't come out. i didn't die, but an infinite number of lives that could have been did. overdose is traumatizing.

#ok to rb #death tw #suicide tw #i wasnt trying to die but still #drugs tw #substance abuse #substance use #substance misuse #severe mental illness #serious mental illness #mentally ill #vent #bpd vent #cause pretty sure this shit is connected to bpd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized #actually traumatized #trauma vent #bpd #overdose tw #overdose

[spiltcandycoatedpunkblood]

Captain Haddock: We haven't stopped to talk. We haven't had a chance. It's always like that with you, running from one thing to the next. I've seen it. What you've been through. Tintin: They destroyed my life because of me. We stand here now in this hall, with a life which they devastated because of what I did to them. So, yes, I keep running! Of course I do! How am I supposed to look back on that?!? Captain Haddock: It wasn't your fault! Tintin: I know!

#done a variation of that heartwrenching scene in the wild blue yonder episode #because i can't stop thinking about the similarities and connections to trauma #i love angst so much it runs in my blood #doctor who #quotes #incorrect quotes #source: doctor who #wild blue yonder #tintin #the adventures of tintin #anybody want their heart broken into a million pieces??? #captain haddock #favourite characters #done my own variation on it because YES WE ARE ADDRESSING HIS TRAUMA LIKE THIS #so glad i found this again #trauma #mental illness

[pageofheartdj]

Ableists: PwNPD are inherently abusive and they deserve to be mistreated for simply having a disorder.

PwNPD: Hey stop that, that's a shitty way to talk about mentally ill people.

Ableists: Oh shut up, the world does not revolve around you!!

also

Ableists: Every single person that hurt me or just acted shitty or just someone I personally don't like are narcissists!

Seems to me the world DOES revolve around pwNPD. For ableists.

#npd #narcissistic personality disorder #npd is not 'people i dont like' disorder #get over yourself #'victims deserve to have a hard time healing(which means villanising a group of mentally ill people #that aren't even necesseraly connected to their trauma)' #also predictably hypocritical how you shame pwnpd for 'having a hard time coping with their disorder that was high chances caused by trauma

[verdictvelvet]

i think a lot has been made about the way a lot of strive versions of returning guilty gear characters feel like 'this character is here and now they're doing better than they were before' and how that speaks to shifting creative priorities and i guess i have to admit i do feel kind of complicatedly about it sometimes

like sometimes theres an angle where it feels aspirational and hopeful and sometimes it feels like the experience of just kind of leaving a character off screen until they slide back in happier and more digestible just kind of feels dishonest to me and to what spoke to me in the first place, and sometimes both of those feelings settle onto the same character, and its kinda difficult to square

#but also 'how does this connect to my experience of trauma/mental illness' is perhaps the single most subjective lens you can wield

[aparticularbandit]

where is my meta on what monika's route would have been

did i not ever post that

#musings #bandit #like i have a bunch of the CONNECTING meta for it #but not the actual in detail post #.... #maybe i should just fic write it #i could fic write a monika route #...do i really want to do that #the answer is yes i would like to write a monika route #because we have implied ideas of what each of the other girls' routes would have looked like and how they would have ended #and how the player would potentially interact with their various mental illnesses and trauma (or abuse in natsuki's case - although that's #more parental neglect...ish...not entirely) #but what we get for a potential monika route is built entirely on things she imparts throughout the game #AND WOULD HAVE EVERYTHING TO DO WITH WHY SHE DROPPED THE DEBATE CLUB

[nailgunstigmata]

i know this post makes me look like an insane person but i swear to god that there are genuine similarities in the ways they portray themselves as a defense mechanism borne out of insecurity and past trauma and how said constructed persona has been adopted as fact in large swathes of fanon. they are in the same lab rat subject batch and their response to stimuli is to insult it verbally but in a self preservation kind of way. and a little bit as a hater also but not as much as they want people to think

#im not joking about this im deadly serious #a part of it is definitely mental illness but this is NOT conjecture. i have sources i could write an essay about that #like making the connections is me not coping well with stress for sure but there is actual merit here. just listen to me #i know i sound insane using the word trauma in dunmeshi context but. listen #guy that has just heard of the concept of tropes voice: hey guys hear me out here

[bitchfitch]

Yeah it's a metaphor for how it's considered normal for boys to be emotionally neglected throughout childhood and how toxic masculinity and patriarchal ideas hurt men, but it's also literally about a big sexy bull man and a weird cat doing the fuck with eachother.

#considering describing all my stories like this from now on #Yeah its a metaphor for how a lot of mental illness and personalities disorders come from places of extreme trauma but it's also literally #about a unicorn and a werewolf having a loud argument in the canned food section of Aldi #Yeah its a metaphor for the grief of loosing someone and how nututre can often matter more than nature #but its literally about a dragon fucking the reincarnation of his dead faun husband #Yeah its a metaphor for being white/poc biracial and loosing out on being able to connect to one side of your culture due to ideals you #dont hold but its literally about fucking big monster alien mermaids that are So so sexy

[possibly-eli]

i dont understand what about this is so difficult for people to comprehend:

i just kinda want my thoughts on opinions on MY OWN HEALTH to be entertained instead of immediately disregarded

like. im 17. i shouldnt be having back pain so often. i shouldnt be having such severe leg pain. i shouldnt be dealing with such shitty hand joints. but FUCK ME i guess i dont get a say in jack SHIT about my own health!!!!! because what i say means fuck all!!!!! ok man!!!! whatever i guess!!!!!!!

#its shit like THIS that makes me TERRIFIED to bring shit up to my therapist #i cant tell her if i have an idea on what might be wrong with me because shell probably just NOT LISTEN TO ME #because thats what my LAST therapist did #and what my mother CONSTANTLY DOES #FUCK #this is why i have to self-diagnose by the fucking way #not that its any of your goddamn business what we do and why #its because of Trauma and Stigma and the fact we already Have autism so apparently. according to The Law or something #that means i cant be mentally ill in any Other way #so i GUESS ill go Fuck myself and have to deal with only being self-diagnosed with adhd. and atypical depression #and c-ptsd. for the rest of my life #and not get any treatment for anything despite it directly impacting my quality of life #and maybe being connected to my shitty memory issues #but lmaoooo that doesnt matter lol lmao rofl fuck this guy this guy doesnt know what hes talking about #how could any mentally ill person have an idea on whats wrong with them Thats Not How It Works #did i mention that that was a mindset i had btw #i dunno where i picked it up but probably from my parents #“a mentally ill person doesnt know theyre mentally ill” thats the stupidest shit ive heard in my life #also im not going to debate the validity of my mental illness with you #i have npd. that is a fact because of LITERALLY. FUCKING EVERTHING #im just not pursuing a Professional Diagnosis at this time because it wont do anything for me and itll be more trouble than its worth #and if i have my knowledge on That questioned i might Actually kill myself

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #8879

 To find out that your friends care about you way more than you've ever let them express.  – Guest Submission

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#sad #help #hope #reason to live #depressed #depression #empty #alone #mental illness #anxiety #trauma #guest submission #mental health #friends #care #connection #caring #emotions

[spookyboywhump]

22, 23, 33, 38, and 44 for cain!

Ehehe thankie :3c

(22) What are the moral lines they would absolutely never cross? Are you sure there’s no exception at all?

Cain has a few. There are certain grievous injuries that he thinks are absolutely wrong to cause a pet for any reason and not only would he’d not cross it, but he does attempt to intervene when made away of it. Along with that he is strongly against outright killing pets. Despite how terribly he treats the people who have been placed or bought into his care he still seems to think he has some kind of responsibility to keep them alive, even if just barely.

(23) What is the worst thing they have ever done to themself?

Get romantically involved with Nicholas :)

(33) When they’re sick, what comfort do they prefer?

Cain likes to be allowed to rest and relax, while also being frequently checked up on, comforted by the right person, brought things he needs ect. He honestly does not have very many memories of being genuinely cared for when he was sick growing up so he kind of just makes Zander do things for him and accepts he won’t get any actual emotional comfort. Sometimes Nicholas will comfort him and he’ll actually be soft and gentle and really just spoil him and make sure he’s well taken care of, which Cain absolutely loves.

(38) How self-aware are they of their traumas, and do they do anything about it?

Cain is aware that he is likely traumatized from the everything growing up. He is not aware of how trauma actually manifests or affects his mental health he just knows it’s there and he doesn’t intend to do anything about it for a long while until he really doesn’t have much of a choice and other people are outright telling him what needs to be done.

(44) When, if at all, did they first realize they were being abused or had been previously abused? What made them realize it?

I think Cain kind of always knew something wasn’t quite right just from his mother’s reactions to how his father would treat him or behave around him. After that it was when he started going to school with people who had normal families or maybe had families similar to his in the sense they were involved in the same business, but were by no means treated the same, and he realized how horrific the treatment he faced really was. For the longest time he’d swear he wouldn’t wish it on his worst enemy, the things he personally endured or witnessed were just that horrible. He didn’t want to be around it and he tried to leave multiple times but when that didn’t work things ended the way they did

#oc stuff #Cain #child abuse tw #cain knows that it wasn’t right what he went through and he knows it likely caused trauma #unfortunately he is not at all educated on trauma and mental health ect so he doesn’t have a great grasp of things going on #or what to do about it #related to the sick question but I like to think cain also suffers from chronic migraines #and he gets them real bad and he gets really ill and bedridden #and even though there was somebody to tend to him when he was younger they weren’t particularly #warm or nurturing or had a great connection to him #so when Zander is reluctantly following orders to bring him things so he doesn’t have to get out of bed #but actually taking the time to maybe even ask how he’s feeling or what’s up with anything other than annoyance in his voice #Cain feels kind of cared for and he likes that a lot #but he loves the treatment Nicholas gives him so much #prettyboyarts

[comicaldolphin]

Ableists on youtube always talk about how personality disorders are faked sooo so often and how fakers are so easy to spot. They'll claim that science is on their side and anyone who is even remotely "cringey" or different looking is automatically faking.

Meanwhile, psychologists and people with diagnosed DID (not that a dx is more valid, its just so these uppity ableist people can "trust someone's experiences who really have it") speak against literally everything these people say. No, DID/OSDD isn't felt one way. Yes, there can be fictives. Saying that DID is one concrete way and therefore you can always spot fakers is anti scentific since the mind is complex and we dont know enough about it. Basically youtube is a cesspool and im so sad that in our attempt at self discovery has landed on a discovery that many youtube channels profit on ableism and bullying young (mostly lgbt) teens and adults who are mentally ill, even if it isnt explicitly what they self diagnosed with. Who cares either way? Your fake claiming doesn't change what goes on in people's heads. Not mine, either.

*edited to fix my grammar in this one

#and yet people eat this shit up! #everyone in the comments will suddenly become psychologists because someone has an alter of a character they think is “cringe” #hey well guess what #fictives are a thing and if you can make a deep personal connection and have shared trauma with them #its fucking possible to form them! #i hate the internet and this post is specifically about “ABLAZE” that shitty ass channel #actual psychologists dont agree with that “dyed hair and prounouns = faking” mf #did/osdd #personal #vent post #tw vent #also you dont get to know my damn trauma just bc im mentally ill #my shit is here to protect me from that so why do i need to prove it to you anyway??

[spiltcandycoatedpunkblood]

local sad twink boy managed to finally get his hands on the coolest blood necklace and bracelet for Halloween when he got back to his parents'

#see i really think i prefer the way i dress especially coming up to autumn #i can see why i connect more and more with virgil from sanders sides #i am anxiety and almost dress like him #photos #gotta love me some fake blood and i have a lot of very intense feelings lately #halloween #fake blood tw #blood tw #it me #queer #LGBTQIA+ #mlm #bisexual #bisexuality #mental illness #trauma #aspec #aromantic #aromanticism #asexuality #asexual #transgender #transmasculine #trans men #greysexual #greysexuality #demiromantic #demiromanticism #personal

[littlegildedswallow]

loneliness resulting from childhood neglect and a complicated, codependent relationship with your classical music and arts loving father who's had a traumatizing life and a deep sadness in him will have you doing insane things like genuinely relating to hannibal lecter.

#was listening to a violin adaptation of kreisler's sicilienne and i thought i was going to die of sadness #where does the grief come from ? #i realized recently that by withdrawing from my parents' love and affection i subconsciously try to punish them #by doing to them what they did to me in my childhood #the fucked up thing is it wasn't even intentional #my mother was mentally ill and my father worked abroad #we moved all the time and I've always been a little more sensitive than the people around me #so the loneliness was crippling #just this deep deep sadness that never goes away #and when i got old enough to socialize i realized i just couldn't click with people my age who weren't also traumatized #so i convinced myself i didn't LIKE people when all i felt was this fucking ache in my chest all the time and a desperate need to connect #and be understood #when i think of my childhood i think of classical music our beautiful house with the chandeliers and red carpets lots and lots of books and #my mother collecting hail in a glass jar #and then we moved to That Place and everything went to shit and mentally I'm still stuck at age 8 feeling abandoned and alone #and here come the fucking tears #i really need to stop staying up past sundown fuck #it feels like my father passed his trauma and grief down to me #like i inherited it lmao #do you get why I'm so obsessed with hannibal lol ? #relatively affluent childhood until a Terrible traumatic thing happened and he became alone after which he spent his life building walls #unable to genuinely reintegrate himself into society #that's exactly what happened to my sister and i #but she's stronger than me #mentally and emotionally #so now here i am #mine

[magdaclaire]

i have questions tho

#like with the irritability and aggression symptoms. does it count if i have those but i also have extremely tightly held self control #like yes i used to feel like this all the time throughout high school and that was the fucking worst but i've figured out coping mechanisms #i would not have survived this long if i had not been able to crawl my way out of my five anxiety attacks a week era #sophomore year! was! hard! #but now that i'm uncovering shit that happened when i was a kid and all the shit i have boxed away my entire life #when i wrote about ladybug having well developed compartmentalization that post was about me #i literally put things in boxes in my head. i separate myself from the emotional effect of things so that i can be as fair and #logical as i possibly can be. like yes i've had nightmares since i was a kid. yes i've had depressive symptoms since i was seven. #yes that's when one of my major traumas occurred. why have i never connected these dots #they literally sent me to GRIEF COUNSELING bc they thought my sudden behavioral change was a delayed reaction to my parents' divorce #vent cw #mental illness cw #i just need to talk this out #when i get to donna's office on 3pm thursday we will be so back #mer rambles

[laurathepsylosopher]

#eating disorder #healing #ed #inspiring #inspo #trauma #therapy #trauma informed #psychology #mental health #mental wellbeing #mental illness #anorexia recovery #recovery #anorex14 #addiction #psychotherapy #health #mind body connection #stress #stress response