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yourbpdgf · 2 years

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just something random from my drafts. im working on a really cool request i got so you can have this while i work on that.

sanzu sfw & nsfw hcs!

warnings: cnc, bondage, somnophilia, knife play, gun play, drugs, pierced dicks.

let me know if i missed any warnings.

• sanzu would never cheat on you. if hes dating you hes fucking INFATUATED with you, and seeing how loyal he is to mikey itll be the same with you.

• if sanzu had to pick between you and mikey i genuinely believe hed just get rid of himself. too hard of a decision. hes vowed loyalty to both of you until he dies, so he guesses hell have to die an early death 🤷‍♀️.

• contrary to popular belief sanzus not toxic if hes dating you. ofc he has to work late and he has buisness trips but most rich people do, right? as long as you dont need him to be with you every waking second then you should be fine.

• now to his drugs... if you really REALLY had a problem with him taking drugs to the point you were considering leaving him he would stop. being high isnt worth the loss of you in his opinion.

• but if you wanna do drugs with him? hell yeah! yall are gonna have the time of your livessss. but hed only let you do small time drugs like weed not hard shit like cocaine or anything to do with needles. he cant let any nasty needles pierce his pretty babys skin.

• sanzu keeps you in his penthouse with security surrounding it. the security isnt so you cant get out, no if you wanted to go anywhere you have a chauffeur and 2 body guards ready for you. the securitys there to make sure none of bonten or sanzus enemies get anywhere close to you. because if they did? sanzu would kill the world in its entirety and then himself. life without you has no meaning in his eyes.

• when youre with sanzu you get what you want when you want it. just ask and its yours ml! oh and when youre with him he does his BEST to convince you to stop working. you dont need to work he can take care of you just stay at home and chill, kay? you dont wanna stay in the house? thats fine take his card. again whatever you want you get 🤭.

• cuddle hcs now.

• sanzu is extremely touch starved, ik everybody says it but it makes so much sense ok 😭. takeomi was a dick in his childhood, senjus existence annoyed him and his parents sucked booty juice. therefore he wasnt getting much love, so now that he has unlimited access to that? yk damn well hes gonna take advantage.

• whenever sanzu is home hes usually in bed with you, dont be nasty its not like that ALL the time. his favorite way to cuddle with you is for you to be laying down with him on top of you. his head on your chest, your hand in his hair massaging his scalp and his arms circling your waist. to him its just so relaxing the most ideal position to be in. heaven on earth if you will.

• now onto the dirty shiii.

• sanzus MADDDD kinky. im sorry thats just how it is. his main kinks are bondage, gun play, knife play, choking and cnc.

• bondage: sanzu would use his belt to tie your wrists behind your back, hed also gag you with either your own panties or his tie. anythings fair game to sanzu as long as youre okay with it hed bound you with anything.

• gun play: hed either fuck you with his gun to your head or throat, or fucking you with the gun. obviously hed keep the gun empty with the safety on but he wouldnt tell you that. it gave both of you a rush effing adrenaline junkies .

• knife play: he loves carving his initials into you. sanzu loves gliding his pocket knife into you plushy thighs, he loves seeing your pretty red blood drip in the shape of his initials. he lives for your mixed expressions of bliss and pain when you feel his knife cut into you. he could probably cum untouched from just that.

• choking: seeing his hand around your neck while struggle to breathe is exhilarating to say the least. obviously he would never want to actually kill you, never. its just the fact that your struggling to breathe yet youre still trying to moan like a whore is amusing to him.

• cnc somnophilia: sanzus a busy ass man. sometimes by the time he comes home your asleep already and hes very pent up. now any normal person would see that you were asleep and just masturbate, but no this is sanzu were talking about. sanzu had made sure to have the conversation with you about fucking you while youre asleep and once you agreed? oh he ran with that shi. expect to be fucked while sleeping at least 4 times a week <3.

• now for dick hcs

• its pierced. he was high when he got it pierced so he doesnt remember it nor does he remember how painful it was but he doesnt regret it.

• 4 inches soft. 7 1/2 inches when hard.

• above average girth.

• its bushy but clean. he cleans it up and trims it every once in a while when he remembers. you probably wont be able to get him to shave it.

ok thats it here these r

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#sanzu x reader #haruchiyo sanzu x reader #haruchiyo x reader #sanzu hcs #sanzu headcanons #sanzu smut #sanzu x reader smut #haruchiyo sanzu smut #haruchiyo sanzu x reader smut

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gojos-thot-patrol · 2 years

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I now present you with:

Random JJK men head cannons I made while in my feels~

Only my main 3 for now: Suguru, Gojo, Nanami.

SUGURU

Suguru is a music guy. I dont make the rules.

Like, he had an alternative phase back in the day, I lean to mall goth personally, and learned guitar he was such a music guy

Always knew where the best shows were at and was always at them. His favorite type of first date

He doesn't just listen to rock either, he listens to it all. Rock, Pop, Hip Hop, hell he'd even listen to County is the song was a hard enough bop

His love language is albums and playlist.

He has an actual record player and plays actual records. Like a hipster.

Also, the man can cook. Idk, I just get those vibes.

Like, hes naturally really good at it, but never does it cause he hates it.

Unless it's for you baby.

If his SO asked him to cook, he would do it without hesitation. Eating is important

Gets kinda distant when you ask about his technique. Hates talking about it. The most anyones ever gotten out of him is that curses taste like vomit

Which, is probably why actual foods tasting good is so important to him

Former smoker. He actually stopped once he left Jujutsu Sorcerery. He just, wasn't stressed anymore.

Still craves a cigarette whenever Mahito opens his mouth though.

His favorite color was formerly blue. These days it's more of an emerald green

Is fucking fantastic at wii sports. Especially the boxing game, that is where he shines.

GOJO

CONTROVERSIAL TAKE: this man hates drugs. Like, even weed he can't stand it. And he tried too, back in his younger days, just not his thing.

He hates when things mess with his head or his perception. It's why he's not big on drinking either. Especially if it slows his reflexes, he's not about it

Owned a bucket hat and puka shell necklace and at one point is not nearly sorry enough for it.

Hes a bitch for coffee. Don't ask me why, it's just the vibe.

Ok, let me rephrase, he likes creamer with a dash of coffee, add in lots of sugar and milk.

Hes actually a huge sweets guy. Like, to the point that he for sure has a giant candy bowl in his classroom and it's not for his students

Hes not great at communicating his feelings and needs. He has a hard time identifying then in the first place honestly

So, the clearest insight as to how he's feeling is through whatever music he's currently listening too.

Like "Hey babe..you ok?" "Oh? Yea of course doll! Why would you ask that?" "Well, we've been listening to the Johnny Cash cover of 'Hurt' on repeat and people that are ok don't typically do that"

Once it's pointed out to him, he is willing to talk about it to figure out what's going on. Can't fix a problem when you don't know what it is anyway. But, it's gotta be pointed out first.

Cats just love him. No, that's not a pun. Like, stray cats will come up to him on the street and rub up against him and love on him. Cats love him.

And while I wasn't going to make it, he has made the "what can I say? Imma pussy magnet" joke

NANAMI

This man kicks ass at mortal Kombat. Like, that's how he used to blow off steam when he worked his office job and now that's just a skill he has

Any fighting game really. That includes smash bros. Gojo onces convinced Itadori that Nanami never really played games, then challenged him to a bet

Easiest 5000 yen Gojo ever made. Until Nanami found out and demanded half

Hes secretly a huge nerd in general. Like, he has the entirety of star trek on DVD and listens to D&D podcasts

Hes a thin guy. You'd think he wouldn't eat much, right? WRONG that man's legs are hollow. He is every all you can eat buffets worst nightmare

Hes secretly punk. It's some of his favorite music, The Misfits are his favorite band.

Really, he just likes any music that could be considered aggressive. He never has nor would he ever dress like it though

Actually loves fruity drinks. Like he keeps a bottle of Pink Whitney at his apartment for mixed drinks.

Hes not picky though, he'll drink whatever you give him. Unless it tastes like pear. Not a big fan of pear

If he drives a car, it's the most worn our beater you've ever seen. He has the money to replace it, but why do that when it still runs just fine?

Probably because the passenger side door is held together with duct tape, but whatever.

His favorite color is yellow. Like, a pastel cozy yellow, and also more saturated warm yellows. He says it's a happy color and it makes him smile.

Used to have a coffee addiction, but didn't like being addicted to anything. So he's more of a tea guy now.

Can't stand messy, but also loves cleaning so it works out for him. He says cleaning is calming.

Especially when he's playing Dragula at 7am. Much to his neighbors, and sometimes his So's dismay.

Genuinely, as an autistic person, I think he's autistic. Like, the monotone voice and the "I don't give praise or ridicule, I just speak facts" gives me those vibes

Also, he just says what's on his mind and has little to no filter. Sometimes that's a good thing, more often than not it's bad.

Will just randomly crack random body parts. His knuckles, back, neck, his elbows. He snap crackles and pops.

Hes also double jointed in his shoulders, so good luck trying to pin/wrestle with him ever

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk headcanons #gojo satoru #suguru geto #nanami kento #gojo headcanons #geto headcanons #nanami headcanons #headcanon #gojo x reader #geto x reader #nanami x reader

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forlorn-crows · 1 year

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im feeling a little emotionally vulnerable tonight.

i never know if it shows, but writing is very much a baring of my soul, so to speak. maybe not literal . . . okay, maybe some of it is projecting, but arent we all?

but what i mean is ive always written and been a creative my entire life. i use it to cope, in more ways than you can count. and sometimes i write poetry/prose. for myself, to process what's going on in my hot mess of a head. sometimes its with the intention for others to read, more curated, maybe more tame.

but fuck it if sharing it isnt one of the hardest things to do. and getting wonderful feedback is something i hold so dear to my heart, especially coming from someone who has a hard time making and keeping connections with other people.

but that interaction becomes way too much of a craving sometimes. its becoming increasingly harder to just be alone. to just sit by myself without the need for constant stimulation or validation or interaction or any of it. and thats another hot mess of a thing, in it of itself

so i write. and i wrote something that i thought i would keep to myself at first, but i thought, i dont know, maybe theres someone else out there who needs to hear it too.

(under the cut in case you want to skip it)

crow x

addiction runs in my family. in my genes. i certainly dont feel it in the form of substances or material vices.

but i feel it here. i feel it in the way i constantly refresh, reload, drag my thumb down from the top of my screen.

even that motion, the flying of my fingers across the keyboard is addicting. the bubbles of red, purposefully eye catching, salting my nerves with dopamine until i crave it in the same way i cant stop eating processed snacks once just one bite hits my tongue.

sometimes i feel like all i crave is text on my screen. validation from voiceless entities. its a rush, its a drug, its so real i feel it make a home in my too-big heart, or sitting and watching from my ribs like a grandstand for my emotions.

its okay to breathe once in a while. to crave the traditional, the raw being of life outside a world of technology. its beautiful what these platforms give us, but the things it gives are sometimes far too addicting to any more be considered good. for some, at least.

its okay to take a day. a few. a week a month a year. those connections are invisible, intangilble, but the important ones will wait for you.

i say it for myself, and i say it for others. to whoever wants to listen, whoever wants to take this and wrap it up neatly and place it in their brain for later, whoever wants to scream into that endless ether with me.

#im not gonna tag this #im just gonna post it and send it with love to anyone who wants/needs it

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marunalu · 2 years

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Class 1A vs Deku arc literally undermined Deku's valid and noble reasons for leaving UA. Deku had trauma due to the war and had regrets about not being able to stop an incomplete Shigaraki. His fear of putting the people and his loved ones in danger after remembering what happened to Shoto, Bakutrash, Aizawa, GT, Nejire, Ryukyuu during the war was all the reasons he left UA. He already has lack of self worth due to being told worthless and useless and abused for 11yrs and when he became desperate to find Shigaraki it started to become worse with him not taking any breaks and all of this was before the encounter with Nagant . Watching Nagant explode and AFO's declaration only reinforced his fear and trauma and it's why he left all might. His state of mind became worse and he stopped caring about himself anymore.

However when class A arc started, all of his trauma, fear were thrown away. The arc painted Bakugou as innocent and an angel while blaming all might for Deku's lack of self worth when the person to really be blamed was Bakugou due to years of bullying, calling Deku useless and worthless, telling him to kill himself. The whole arc was a disgusting with Ochako and Iida agreeing with the trash when he mocked Deku. He also had the audacity to project himself on to Deku. Even Bakugou's apology was trash and Class A were just watching again. The most saddest part is that none of class A knows exactly what Bakugou did to Deku. They don't know that Deku's lack of not taking himself into account, his lack of self worth was a result of Bakugou's bullying, calling him useless and worthless. In the end the arc Undermined Deku's reason, his trauma and glorified his chief abuser.

The worst of it for me is what happened after Bakugou's apology which was narrative having Deku putting himself down and saying Class A were way ahead of him as Hero when they didn't do shit compared what Deku has done since the start. Then Deku Apologizes which was not necessary considering Deku was right to say they can't keep up. So what is Hori saying now? that Uraraka due her speech is a way better Hero than Deku? Bakugou is a better Hero than Deku ? Iida is a better Hero than Deku? Does Deku have to now learn on how to be a hero from class A when said class A didn't do anything compared what Deku has done?

Sorry for venting it's just i had High Hopes for the solo arc but am utterly disappointed with the story now. I understand Deku needs to share his burden with his friends but it should have been organic by making him realise that he Izuku (not Deku) matters and how much he means to them and that he can rely on them. Not by undermining his choices and reasons and especially not by putting him down.

Yeah the izuku solo/vigilantes arc had so much potential and hori did throw it out of the window! But honestly I think that was mostly his ex editors fault! Thanks god, that guy got replaced!

I agree with you and I understand why you feel so dissapointed and angry! I get why class a did what they did. They love izuku and wanted him back, but in my honest opinion they used - at least at first - the wrong methods. The 2 things that pissed me off the most, were first iida and ochako being SO FUCKING COLD to izuku at first and siding with bakugou, whos first action was to mock izuku again, when it was absolutely clear he wasnt in the right state and second, momo creating a fucking "asylum chair" they wanted to use to drug izuku and drag him back to ua against his will - she lost A LOT of my respect for her in that moment and I dont think she will ever win it back! I will not go into detail again, about everything wrong with bakugous apology! That whole abnormination of an apology was nothing more then the biggest insult to human intelligence and 95% of the fandom did eat that shit up!

#bnha #anti bakugou #anti katsuki bakugou

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hella1975 · 11 months

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I think you’re gonna understand this just based on how you’ve written tams so far so I’m saying this to you because I’ve known so many people who are just awful about this but one group of people I’m more fiercely protective over than any other are homeless people. I’ve known so many people who are so hateful towards them and blame them for being homeless or think they’re all drug addicts or crazy which is still like. At that point there should be systems to prevent people that are addicts or mentally ill from ever facing homelessness but either way no one should be homeless, it’s not their fault and it’s a huge punishment for things like “not budgeting”. On top of that I worked at a store where our most stolen product was baby formula at the height of Covid when the prices for them skyrocketed. All of my coworkers were always so infuriating saying that they’re stealing it away from moms to cut their drugs with, none ever considered that maybe they were moms doing anything they could to feed their babies. Anyone who steals food, I never reported or look down on them, they are doing anything they can to feed themselves and I’m not going to stop that. I know how bad homeless shelters are and food banks, I know how common it is for things to be stolen and to get beat up just for being there or raided by police. Sometimes they’d sit outside our store or even shop and my manager wanted me to kick them out. They were never doing anything, most never even asked for money! They needed shade, a roof and ac for a few minutes from the heat or rain! There was a tropical storm once and we were forced to keep the storm open but when homeless people came in they wanted me to kick them out then too, to go where?? They wanted me to throw them back onto the streets in dangerous weather and for what. We got stolen from all the time, genuinely it would’ve made no difference. Most people who stole looked like rich tourists stealing our alcohol or teens stealing makeup but they never said we could kick them out. Likely because they could defend themselves, if nothing less than in court. Maybe it’s because I almost ran away as a kid and I researched into being a homeless child at like 10ish and saw how horrific it was from people who’ve been there before so I stayed home out of fear but I can’t imagine having no sympathy for other people. Even if they steal, how could you blame them? They are just trying to survive. Especially if they steal from Walmarts or targets or whatever, they is about as “ethical stealing” as you can get. I can’t imagine looking at someone who has nothing and does what they can to not starve and just making it to the next day and deciding you hate them and being filled with rage over them being in public. No one would choose that life, I promise they’d love to work and make money if only anyone would hire them. Nothing makes me more filled with rage and sadness than seeing someone hate or be mean and aggressive towards homeless people. The same people have more sympathy over a stray cat than a homeless person and I genuinely don’t understand that

no i completely agree with you on ALL of this it's the basic 'you're closer to becoming homeless than you are to ever becoming a millionaire' like it literally just takes one bad financial turn and that could be you. it really baffles me that if people can't at the very least empathise with homeless people from a humane perspective of the fact they're, oh i dont know, real life actual people with feelings, then you could at least empathise from a self-preservation standpoint because that could be you. that could be you so fucking easily. homeless people have not failed morally to get there. they didn't get judged by some higher power and were found lacking. they are just people. and the same way money breeds money, poverty breeds poverty. if you're homeless, you dont have a home address, which means you can't apply to jobs, which means you can't get an income to GET a home, on and on in a hundred different cycles. it's called the poverty TRAP for a reason.

#ur so real for turning a blind eye to shoplifting IF IT'S A CHAIN IT'S FREE REIGN #i mean baby powder. fucking baby powder. it literally boils my blood to even think about #there has been a collosal failing here but it's not on the homeless people it's that we have a society where this is so prevalent #ask

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berryunho · 8 months

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Just binge-read The Answer in a day and let me say that the plot is fucking insane, how the hell do you people come up with something so intense? Lmao, anyways I love reacting to mc's actions and inner monologue like a bff hearing some tea over a videocall "girl no he stabbed you, dont think about him as a normal person, he isnt one, with him its supposed to be throwing hands on sight for sURVIVAL"

And yet I still managed to get gaslit, girlbossed and gatekept by her relationship with san, tell me why I was here reading chapter 29 and thinking "wow he really is bringing up some red flags now after that fight" and then had to stop myself right there because the very first red flag that man had raised was from the very beginning wheRE HE GREETS HER TO THE CULT *BC HE IS PART OF THE MF CULT*

I CANT BELIEVE I FELL FOR IT, WTF

Anyways, can't wait for more, but take your time lol, I am as excited as everyone else but you are doing this for free and with something this good it's honestly such a service, thanks for all the effort <3 hope you're doing well and hope that you keep writing even after or outside of The Answer because you genuinely do such an amazing job building up descriptions and characters, I am very curious about everything we are yet to see, and I did wanna ask, sorry if you have answered this before, but do you already have an ending planned for the story?

- 👁👁

UM ? I LOVE YOU WAIT LET ME PUT THE OTHER MESSAGES UNDER THE READ MORE AND THEN RESPOND LAKDJF;ALKSDFJ

Just wanted to add that not only do I react like a nosy bff in a call with the mc as I read The Answer, but I also judge the absolute hell out of her choices not as in "this is gonna get you killed" but as in "I would 100% be going tinfoil hat in HJ's ass about the other world ages ago for entertainment alone" I CAN'T BE THE ONLY ONE CMON Mr Cultist wants me to go from city dwelling college student to hillbilly cult wifey in 2 days? HE TAKES AWAY MY PHONE ONLY TO TELL ME HIS BIBLE FANFIC IS BASED OFF THE SHIFTING REALITIES COMMUNITY? THE ONE THAT WAS BIG ON TIKTOK IN 2021? Be fucking for real, I would, on day 1, sit down in front of him and go "already, so whats up with the other you? You two still chat? Also whats up with his version of Hwa? Is he a petty little shit too? Are they in a questionable fwb situationship too? Do you still get prophecies? If so, why are there so many prints of your walmart bible around? Cause that seems like an awful waste when you will inevitably have to print just as many more with the new updates so wtf" He takes away my entertainment when I have the attention span of a 4 year old? Fine, he is gonna have to entertain *me* now to make up for it, bible study time? More like you are now my social media outlet where I'm gonna rant about my crazy theories, my favorite ships and I will overanalyze each and every plot hole in your bible sir, I don't care that its a prophecy, I want consistency from your writing about the other world, I want detailed descriptions, I want to feel like I am there, how do you expect to win New York's best seller with this vague ass paragraph about your little lost boys crew in trenchcoats? I'm gonna annoy him into killing me and realizing I'm not the one, his stalking time all going down the drain. I consider this an absolute win for me.

Okay I'm so sorry for sending another ask when I just sent two humongous ones lol but I did remember one thing I wanted to ask and I hope it doesn't come off wrong bc I mean nothing bad about it at all but back when HJ was all "I'm only gonna do the devils tango with you when you beg me to uwu" and mc thinks "damn, at least my local cult leader got some consent morals going" I couldn't help but stop myself and wonder: girl. He made out with you. In front of at least 40 people. When you were drugged. Clearly tripping. By his orders. And he stabbed you right after but most importantly he has bragged about making out with you IN FRONT OF A CROWD WHEN YOU WERE TRIPPING BY HIS OWN DESIGN And yknow, my question is: was mc's (continuous) lapse in judgment in this moment to blame for her not realizing he in fact does not give a flying fuck about consent and she just let that slide bc the cult mentality was getting to her (which we do see progress over the story, and its been one of the most interesting parts of the fic btw, I think you did really well with that) or did you not mean for it to be that and I read too much into it? Lol because yeah he is a self admitted and apparently diagnosed psycho but you'd think he would see how this morals he just tried to brag and seduce her with are not moralling at all. Or maybe he just hoped she wouldn't realize his delusional-moral compass isn't gonna point correctly no matter what way he tries, I'm definitely thinking too hard about it at this point lmao HE REALLY IS GETTING INTO MY PARANOID BRAIN, THE MIND GAMES ARE CONSUMING ME FR Anyways, again, sorry for the long asks one right after the other, I'll stop pestering now.

I fucking lied, I'm sending another one to ask if you happen to have any fics to recommend that maybe give off The Answer vibes or that you think may be a good read while we are all on standby bc I just got hit by the withdrawals-after-a-good-fic now that I realized I can't keep reading since I got to the last chapter lol. I'm so sorry. - 👁👁

first of all let me say it again: i love you. thank you so much for reading the answer and for being kind and for wanting to tell me and ask me so many things!! i really, really appreciate it and pls dont feel bad for sending me asks (big or small) bc it just makes me SO happy lol i feel bad that you've been waiting for a response for so long but LKJF:KDJF:AKDF I WILL DO MY BEST TO ADDRESS EVERYTHING so here we go:

I did wanna ask, sorry if you have answered this before, but do you already have an ending planned for the story?

hehe no worries at all!! i do have an ending planned and i know how we will get there, but there are certain elements and plot points that aren't solid yet and could be changed!! but i am set on the ending ^^

the entire second ask is just so valid. like tbh i would absolutely be the same. like id be scared af for a few days but once i realized i wasnt gonna like DIE immediately and that i could get away with annoying hj like at least a little bit id be on his ass. honestly and truly the main reason that i havent written more of like... the answer in the story is bc im too concerned that anything i wrote would be torn apart for analysis when i wouldnt actually be reading that far into it LKJA;SKFDJSD bc like you're right anything that hj would be writing would be very pertinent information TO HIM but like... does it actually mean anything... or is it just words... LOL idk if that makes sense but everytime i try to write like in the style of a religious text with the answer lore it sounds so ridiculous i just cannot take myself seriously enough to do it KLAJKS;DFJASKFD BUT HELP YOU POINTING OUT THE SHIFTING LORE? LITERALLY THE EXACT SYSTEM I STOLE THIS LORE FROM I HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING WHEN I STARTED WRITING I WAS JUST LIKE idfk whats something weird that i can connect to the ateez lore that i dont remotely understand AND THATS WHAT I CAME UP WITHALKDSFLA;JDSFJLSKDJ you are real

And yknow, my question is: was mc's (continuous) lapse in judgment in this moment to blame for her not realizing he in fact does not give a flying fuck about consent and she just let that slide bc the cult mentality was getting to her (which we do see progress over the story, and its been one of the most interesting parts of the fic btw, I think you did really well with that) or did you not mean for it to be that and I read too much into it?

eheheeheheheheh i really was waiting for someone to point this one out!!! i definitely meant it to be a lapse in her judgement and like a ...... hmmm idk how to put it like she's selectively forgetting things that don't match with what she WANTS to believe !! like personally i would never in my life write a member of ateez to be a rapist so we obvs won't be worrying about that BUT if this were a real situation, that would probably be a very real fear to have and i figured it would be a good thing to address in case anyone was like. worried about that. LKAJSKFDJASDLFK but yes you're right they're obviously not above MURDER so like. how much credit can we give them. its really just mc wanting desperately to alleviate some of her fear and believe that she is at least a tiny bit safe (even though that is CLEARLY not the case)

if you happen to have any fics to recommend that maybe give off The Answer vibes or that you think may be a good read while we are all on standby

heh this one is tough because ... im not really a fanfic reader LAKJDFKLAJSDFK but my beloved mutuals bee (@atzfilm) and caly (@hongism) are geniuses hehe !! bee writes dark fics that are mwah chefs kiss and caly writes mists of celeste which has a toxic unyielding leader hongjoong. so. you know.

SO YEAH ANYWAYS? THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN FOR THESE ASKS AJDKFALSDKFJSKLDJ AND IM SORRY AGAIN THAT IT TOOK ME FOREVER TO REPLY AND THAT THE UPDATE IS ALSO TAKING FOREVER LOL I HOPE YOU'RE STILL AROUND LAKJDFLKSJDF

#👁👁 anon #answered

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attex · 2 years

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do you have a preferred favorite method of pk torture or do you just want to do anything you could possibly think of

is there one singular thing that you want to do most or consider/think of most, or is it a free for all for whatever you're in the mood for, an all you can eat buffet of options?

if there were a table full of weapons of average and unconventional variety ranging from guns, to knives, to sharp scalpels and dull blades, scissors, cheese graters, potato peelers, toothpicks and pencils, staplers and syringes, or simply your bare hands, and a pitifully present pale king was quivering before you, what would you do? be slow and merciless? or quick and right to the messy parts? a bit of both? play with his mind until he begs for death?

would you stop at simple weapons or would you use other methods? Would you use anything to promote illness, disease, or infection? With that, would you keep him alive to let him deal with festering wounds and parasites? would you give him burning or freezing pain? torture of other sensory and cognitive functions? could you keep him in a room and leave him alone forever in solitary darkness and watch as he loses his mind? are you in favor of something that takes sweet time, until he becomes a zombie of a being he used to be?

this is a deep question here, this king of bugs provokes curious thought for torture. what do you see most fit for him, as if you were a personally assigned demon to torture him for all eternity, over and over, what would his inescapable fate be?

okay before i elaborate , i love this ask so much i want to hang it on my wall .

this is all assuming hes somehow human sized or im bug sized to compensate :^)

dont think i have a favorite torture method . all that matters to me is that he suffers as much as possible

i always like the torture methods that promote a slow painful agony, to make sure he suffers as much as possible . the idea is to completely mentally destroy him from how much pain he is going through .

and yes, something that promoted infections and diseases is a go-to . there is literally nothing better than causing an infected wound that collapses into itself which basically prolongs the torture just by existing .

i have consistently mentioned the idea of peeling off the plates of his exoskeleton piece by piece, agonizingly removing other tissue along with it every now and then for some flavor .

i want to shove things in his eye sockets, more of a forcing them in kinda way, its best if i tilt him upside down stretching him out . leaving him like that for a good while with things in his eye sockets would be pretty good I'd say . adds character

the best thing about guns is that it can cause a mini explosion , and also gunpowder is versatile . i consistently think about blowing his mouth off or even his whole head completrly destroyed . it would be pretty nice to have the fresh shrapnel go everywhere mostly

the idea of having him incapable of escaping and putting him in a completely empty dark room sounds good but considering hes a weird little bug freak i feel like it would be difficult to get him to be mentally fucked up from such a thing, same applies to putting him in a tight space... normally id love it but he might he immune to this

so i really like the idea of him overworking himself to a lack of sleep already, but imagining how he wishes to rest so badly kinda gets me going . this is mostly outside of the torture scenario bcz even if i made him not fall asleep ever its just not the same so im mentioning it

another good thing is having him be slightly poisoned or drugged at all times . if i was eternally torturing him i would constantly make him experience the horrific things substances can show him , yknow how fucking awful something like a bad drug trip can be . theres so many options !! and the best part is that its all just his own mind creating its own hell !!! that is amazing is it not !? aside from that its best for him to be constantly feeling sickly ill , whether from the infections and wounds he suffered beforehand or due to me giving him mercury poisoning or something ?

not sure how possible it is, but, have him constantly be reminded of how much of a failure he is . always wave around the fact that he fucked up . make him feel miserable more than he already does and fuck him up into completely believing no matter what he does or did hes a useless fucking thing

something fun is to inject highly corrosive things into him, have him be melted from the inside . ideal if it turns his insides into soup slowly and agonizingly and he realizes his organs are collapsing into a nasty sizzling mush . points for if he throws up his internals .

yknow when i imagine a pk torture scenario i mostly imagine just being cruel as fuck to him in general . like aggressively shoving him and forcing him around, holding by the horns and bending his body n whatnot . its the little things that make it count and its important af to me because if i cant even touch him violently with the intent of painful death whats the point ? there is a lot of enjoyment in him being in distress overall and anything to enhance that is great <3 i want to get horribly up close right before i crush one of his limbs under a heavy blunt object . its the labored breathing and suppressed twitching from the pain that makes it . what i want to do is to give him a tight hug and then bash his head in . hold his hands and disembowel him . hold his face gently and shove a huge plank of wood in his eye .

his inescapable fate at my hands is quite blurry, i like change and i like trying new things . i think there is always something different and fun to embrace . so he is fucked

#hexatxt #ask #anonymous #gore #torture

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devantesmithpelly · 1 year

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rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better. i was tagged by @msmargaretmurry

last song: well ive been on taylor swift lockdown for the last week but the last song i listened to is whatever was playing when i left the bar i was at last night... i dont remember what it was but the playlist slayed and i know i heard me and my husband by mitski near the end so lets just go with that

last show: im choosing to go podcast for this one. ive been marathoning paul f tompkins's old podcast spontaneanation over the last couple months so as a little birthday treat yesterday i relistened to my favorite episode for the.... 8th time at this point? it starts with an interview with ira glass and then afterwards theres a narrative improv about jury deliberations and its 4 people playing like 15 characters trying to keep track of it all and it makes me laugh out loud every time

currently watching: YELLOWJACKETS!!!!!!! i was sick last week and marathoned the entire show and its SO CRAZY!!!!! WHATTTTT A SHOW!!!!!! im not the hugest tv show watcher especially not... prestige tv? im either watching the reality dating show of the month with my bachelor watch group (we are actually off the bachelor these days but we havent found a better name yet) OR im rewatching the same 3 shows i already like. so its exciting to be invested in a new good tv show that im watching all by myself without anyones help!!! cant wait to see whatever fucked up shit those girlies do next

currently reading: i just finished reading (an incredibly overdue library book called) Harvard's Secret Court: The Savage 1920 Purge of Campus Homosexuals and now im starting (a less overdue library book called) Death in the Mudlick: A Coal Country Fight against the Drug Companies That Delivered the Opioid Epidemic. as you can see i went to the library in january planning to go on a nonfiction kick which has now turned into a finish all my library books so i can return them before i have to pay to have them replaced kick!

current obsession: i cannot stop watching sheep shearing videos on youtube. it started with cow hoof cleaning which became horse shoe replacing and i cant imagine where the algorithm will take me next but im keeping fingers crossed its yarn spinning!!! other obsessions include like... everything ive already mentioned of course. and also the improv class im taking right now which i cant shut up about because its one of THE funnest things ive ever done. AND ALSO im obsessed with actively pursuing closer friendships with the people i think are super cool. so its very exciting that you tagged me in this!!!! thanks!!!!!

im tagging: anyone who wants to play the game! if youre seeing this consider yourself tagged

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disproportionatelysculpting · 1 year

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Have you ever had a relationship with GOD/YHWH? Have you asked HIM things, for help/understanding?

What is stopping you from pursuing a life w/ someone WHO will never leave you and has your best at heart?

𝗔𝗹𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝘄𝗼𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗱: 'If you do not know where you want to go, then it doesn't matter which path you take.'

I'm always saying I don't know what is happening or why I'm feeling despondent

— so I agree we don't know how to live.

We're all unique snowflakes, but I think divorce & drugs and alcohol exists so we can try to calm down from all the anger and rage we feel when 𝘄𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 — or the way we want to be treated or remembered.

1.] If 𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝘀 𝗮𝘀 𝗺𝘂𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿, Hell is basic entry level for everyone, &

2.] If GOD sent HIS SON to die on the cross in our place to avoid this Hell and lead us thru life by HIS HOLY SPIRIT; &

3.] HE says there is only 1-way forward & JESUS is the way/truth/life, that no one comes to the FATHER except thru JESUS. [John 14:6]

Why would we ever avoid HIS easy yoke? Why wouldn't we ask HIM in to show us the way?

We clearly don't have life/truth/way to GOD, unless we accept JESUS, & life/death begins forever after we're ejected from earth.

I wonder if you were to die in your sleep suddenly: Are you ready to be drop-kicked into eternity?

Case in point...

Rose you say you think about your mentor Albert a lot that he passed away suddenly [5:37] maybe that's the take away lesson here:

In the Bible it says there was a rich man who had so much money/wealth that he was thinking to himself he had more than enough to retire & live at ease for the rest of his life.

The problem was,

Luke 12:20 | ²⁰ But GOD said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life will be required of you. Then who will own what you have accumulated?’

this is gonna be long, cause i have been wanting to write over this for a while*deep breathes*

lets start from 1st fact that I, am NOT Christian or into it by any means, I am a HINDU and I do not think I am the religious enough to fit in the criteria.

now lets talk about my relation with God, I do appreciate the "good" teachings of every religious texts and things, but I do not think GOD/ GODS are the place for help, when they could not answer me as a kid who was like helpless and lost, I dont think they every could. One can say to each their own, I see the theory of GOD more like a friend, a choice(will discuss later) . So no, i do not seek any relation with the GOD, i do not want to ask anyone anything anymore, if they REALLY had the best it WOULDNT be like this?? yk? its kinda fucked up to think but they are the ULTIMATE GOD so why are they doing this? iykwim. just my way to view tho.

now all the stories (yes i consider the teaching of bible, geeta, and other holy books as stories nonetheless)- i wouldnt say anything cause its not about my religion, i dont want to come offensive cause i have not enough information to make an opinion for now

FOR MY POINT OF VIEW on how i believe on god, its very simple

once a teacher of mine said -i dont believe in god, i just know there is a true good spirit showing you the right ways

and to add to that , i think, god is a very flawed concept, they wont pay your bills or heal your trauma or anything, they dont even talk lol, but THEY DO GIVE PEACE, like they are just a figment of my imagination that give me an idea of what kind of personality i want in me, Gods are someone i trusted and still do to share my life issues cause they are more like A PERSON WHO IS TRYING TO KEEP THINGS BALANCED to me than something divine, If you read Indian mythologies, mostly God mess up too, and then they solve it, they teach humans how to manage mess and how to not fuck up things in wrong proportions, not to lose humanity, even god are helpess in many situations sooo you know. I do love the religious festivities, stories, the peace being in a temple and things but i cant just be all devoted to them, thats toxic in my point of view. To me god is just a friend, i can talk to and have no other expectations, just hope that they know whatever they are doing is okay. God to me is just a teacher who gives me options and in the end its me who decides and makes my life how i want, and they do this to all humans, thats why things get bad its not the God choice, but the people. And this made me feel a bit better cause if you are just like the end is god and he is gonna be all healer and stuff, you will meet disappointment, i did not once or twice but so many times. God isnt going to help you, ever, they will only give you options, SO WHY MAKE THEM THE ULTIMATE WHEN IM THE ONE IN CONTROL?

IDK if this made sense to you anon, i know you mean well (hopefully, this is not a cult thing or something) and im not saying your way to trust god is wrong, it just doesn't suit me and its okay

thank you haha

#idk if this makes sense really #its a long post going about all of my views but idk how to put my thoughts in my words properly unless its a full one on one convo #and i dont mean to offend anyone in anyway #peace out<3 #ask

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Somewhat infamous for being a bizarre, complicated, and incredibly dark JRPG, Xenogears also has a plural character.

Only Xenogears and the information that can be found in the game itself will be covered. While it is technically cannon to Xenogears as the intended form of the game, any potential information that Perfect Works may have on this subject will not be used, as it is not within the game itself.

Due to the fact that this is Xenogears, the full spoiler overview will contain heavy subject matter.

Spoiler Free Overview:

Number of canon plural systems: 3

System types: canonical Dissociative Identity Disorder, malevolent fantasy possession

Personhood: 4/10

Dynamic: 8/10

Narrative Sympathy: 4.5/10

Consistency: 8/10

Edge: 8/10

Singlet Nonsense: 8/10

Overall series grade: 5/10

Full Spoiler Overview Below Cut:

While there are three systems, two of which are barely mentioned and dont feature enough content to make a solid review of them. These two are antagonists hijacking the bodies of other people, one of which gets one moment of wresting control away, and the other has periodic wresting of control away from the antagonist. It is not entirely clear the manner by which they are possessing others, as budget cuts and time constraints rendered the second half of the game a lot less in-depth than intended. The first of the two seems to be a sentient genetic magic virus that possesses a random woman and largely takes over completely when the previous host dies, and the other is a spirit possessing others to subsist without a body. Only the second one behaves in any level of measurably notable ‘more than one’ way, and this is only at the very end of the game that it is revealed. They will not be reviewed in-depth as there isn't enough content to do so.

Plural Character: Fei Fong Wong

System type: canonical Dissociative Identity Disorder

Personhood: While each member of the system is given a distinct self-schema and motives and demonstrated to be personlike, characters will frequently consider Fei the only ‘real one’, refer to the other headmates as Fei, and related phenomena. One of the system frequently refers to them all as ‘fake personas’ as well. Its important to keep in mind when grading this media that it was published in 1998, and this is very much a product of its time and was relatively progressive and accurate then, and later works by the author are much better with this, but it could certainly be better when graded to the standards of today. 4/10

Dynamic: Has a unnamed, mostly catatonic fragment that was created recently to deal with the trauma the game throws at Fei, Fei who is the current host, Id who is a persecutor protector and former host who took on the majority of the abuse they suffered and seems to vary in age(in the inner world mostly behaves and looks young and in the outer world looks and behaves like an adult), and the original, who is also a little.

Id loathes the original and refers to him as ‘the coward’ because the original has amnesia for their severe medical abuse and torture but not for the happy memories, and Id can only remember the time of the abuse but not the happy memories. Id is mad the original will not share his memories, and the original dislikes him right back because he is ‘mean’ regarding this. Later, the original stops fronting or paying attention to front completely after accidentally killing their mother with their magic powers, thus forcing Id to become host alone. After ten years of time as host, kidnapped by one of the villains and trained as his assassin, their negligent father catches up to them and fights the kidnapper and Id. It is not explained how, but the game claims Id was ‘sealed inside Fei’ by the father (possible choices feasible in the world include but are not limited to drug-induced programming, Id being so upset and traumatized he split and went dormant on his own and the father just claimed he did it, physical trauma like a knock to the head causing Id to go dormant, and magic) and dropped off the village you start the game with severe wounds. Fei is formed then and has complete amnesia, knowing nothing of his past or his system.

Three years later the game starts, and soon after, Id awakens from dormancy again.

For the majority of the game they have no communication and Fei has full memory blackouts whenever Id fronts, but Fei begins to see flashes of Id and the original talking to him internally and flashes of memory, and this culminates in finally Fei being able to talk to Id and the original and be aware of what the others are doing.

Sometime during the course of the game, Fei unknowingly creates a mostly catatonic fragment in response to the trauma, and only becomes aware of it when he meets the others.

At first they all fight heavily, but over the course of the long conversation in their inner world reconcile.

The dynamic is an in-depth and well-reasoned dysfunctional system, if handwaved in places. Points off for the one proper conversation any of them have at all taking exactly one long and vaguely rushed cutscene explaining most of this section all at once. 8/10

Narrative Sympathy: Its mixed. The narrative sympathizes greatly with Fei, but for the majority of the story Id is considered an enemy and absolute monster and only gets sympathy towards the very end of the game. The original barely has any screentime and the fragment has even less. The game and the characters in the world treat Id like a total monster, and while he did very much kill many many people, many of which were civilian bystanders caught in collateral damage, were retaliatory overkill, or were targets his kidnapper had him kill, he never once attacks the party first and other characters who have done just as horrible atrocities get nice things said about them by others. 4.5/10

Consistency: The narrative for sure doesn't forget Fei is plural at any point, because its central to the plot. Though it seems to waver about language and personhood a bit, so points off for that. 8/10

Edge: This is extremely edgy. Id is the classic ‘murderous alter’, quite literally, given this is 1998 and there is very little media at that point that featured DID at all. Its possible he is responsible in part for the proliferation of said trope even, but Xenogears flopped so badly that its unlikely to be the case.

It is important, however, to note that the game itself is extremely edgy. Its a game in which has human experimentation, fascism and the horrors of war, systematic violence/oppression, cannibalism, genocide and other horrors at front focus and it does NOT shy away from digging into any of those. This makes the edginess a little less of a problem as its series-appropriate, but it remains still notably edgy due to Id being one of the edgiest characters in the game.

It is worth noting that there is a scene where an ally intentionally negatively triggers Id out to talk to him while pretending to be evil, which is a particular kind of content warning that most content warning listings are unlikely to mention.

Points reduced for the fact that its reasonable for the kind of story they are in, but still a very high score due to Id being the quintessential murderous alter. 8/10

Singlet Nonsense: There is a lot of this. Most of which is such because it is very dated, rather than out of poor research. It seems to be fairly well-researched for 1998 in Japan, actually.

There is strong ‘final fusion is the only way’ campaigning by basically every character who knows about Fei having DID(as this is what was the common view in the field then), which culminates in Fei and his system choosing to fully integrate after the one and only proper conversation they have with each other- this happens extremely unrealistically fast without much proper considering on the notion of living together beforehand, though all of them explicitly consent to it, which is good. The unification itself is rather unrealistic in other ways as well, as Fei essentially remains the same and the others disappear, Fei only gains a bunch of memories from it.

Id has extremely strong superpowers, though these are reasonable for the circumstance as its system-wide but Id was the only one trained to use them properly, and post integration Fei has access to that might too. Id also, however, inexplicably shapeshifts when he fronts (presumably he is tapping into the magic powers to make an illusion that makes him look how he wants, but its never explained why he can do this exactly), which is much less justifiable.

Switching is also heavily dramatized in many of the occurrences, with lots of flashing lights(This game has a MASSIVE epilepsy warning, there is a HUGE amount of flashing going on) and screen cuts and dramatic head clutching and screaming.

While its fairly good for its time, it does also have two particularly egregious instances of misunderstanding DID, the first is that while the game refers to their DID as DID in almost every instance, there is one instance of a character referring to Id as ‘a schizophrenic’ instead of ‘an alter in a DID system’. Its possible this is, as every other usage of a diagnosis is correct, a translation error (made more likely because it was translated by one sleep-deprived guy on a time crunch because the rest of the Square Enix translation team refused to work on the game due to the controversy the dark content and use of religious themes), but it was also common for older media to refer to DID in this way in general so it might not be. We cannot as of writing this locate any fan japanese translation notes that can confirm this either way.

The second is that a character describes one bit of major evidence to the other characters for Fei having DID as instead of any of the other symptoms he is blatantly showing (many mixed dissociative experiences where he is visibly dazed and out of it, obvious confessed identity confusion, the fact that they saw him switch to Id that one time) that Fei had mood swings (ie bipolar symptoms). Which is just full-stop wrong as bipolar and DID are very much not the same. Unless it was a translation goof and intended to mean ‘acts very different in some situations than he usually does due to passive influence’, which there are a few occurrences that seem to be the case with this, thats a pretty big inaccuracy.

While they get some things right, and much of it was good for its time, there is just so much singlet nonsense. 8/10

Possible upsetting tropes present: murderous alter, persecutor headmate suppression, ableism from those around them, superpowered evil side, shapeshifting alter without reasonable cause, unrealistically quick final fusion, final fusion being pushed, intentional negative switch triggering by an ally, general dated psychology and language

Overall series grade: While in 1998 this was relatively well researched and decent, this depiction is incredibly dated now, and there is so much edge. In today's day its very apparent how understanding has changed. Its important to note that there is strong evidence the creators have kept up with the research to this day and it truly is just a product of its time, as Xenoblade 2, their most recent work, is far more accurate to today’s understanding of plurality. Its likely their depiction in this game was well-meaning and meant to align with the understanding of the times. That said, while its clear they made a good attempt for 1998, the portrayal is bogged down quite heavily by the way they handled Id and the many things that are understood to be incorrect regarding DID now. 5/10

#xenogears #pluralpride #pluralgang #systematicpride #review #this was a behemoth so it took forever lmao #personal opinion: really liked this system & Id is a good boy- a low score doesnt mean we didnt like it #its just. you know Very 1998 dated and edgy

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angelnumber27 · 2 years

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It’s a long shot that I could ever hate myself, I love myself — highly doubt you could say the same. You’re the one whose addicted, let’s not forget that. I see your posts and remember how fucking terrible you are. All you do is project, I wasn’t even talking about any subject matter; was literally just calling you a fiend, fentanyl whore.

awwww hahah ooooooookay lmfao whateeeeeever you say 🤣🤣🤣🤣 keep telling yourself that honey. if you loved yourself even in the slightest you wouldn’t send ugly hate anons to someone who doesn’t know you! That’s not how loving yourself works <3 you’re rancid and hateful and soooooooo MAD and that’s that :) I don’t do this gross childish shit like you and love myself more than it seems you could ever love anything. You have an ugly heart and a nasty ass attitude.

unfollow me if my posts make you remember how “fucking terrible I am” (false lmaooooooo) name one time I was “fucking terrible” baby girl.. if IM terrible what does that make you? Demented evil and irredeemable.

Would genuinely LOVE to hear what someone like you considers terrible and would LOVE to hear what you’re referring to. Because this is entirely unprovoked projection and I know for a fact I’ve done nothing to your random irrelevant ass. Clown.

I’m not the one projecting. My ask box literally says “don’t project” so I know you most definitely didn’t even know the meaning of that word bc clearly you dont have a very extensive vocabulary, so you just copied what my inbox said ☠️ And how dense are you that you cannot read the dozens of times I’ve mentioned that I am NO LONGER ADDICTED. You even got the drug wrong damn fool🤣 Haven’t been for almost a year and just watch, that’ll turn into several years. I’m so sorry (not) that that makes you SOOOO angry. But guess what? It has nothing to do with you. You have nothing to do with me. (Thank GOD) You’re someone who can easily be so UGLY even to strangers which makes me feel horrible for those who know you in real life and all of the other kind people/addicts in recovery you stalk and harass. You need to work on yourself a LOT, you need to try a LOT harder when it comes to reading comprehension and you need to start educating yourself (for once evidently) so badly and to find something better to do all day than taking the time and energy out of your day to do this childish immature ass shit. Are you nine years old? Have you never in your life known anyone effected by addiction? Id be surprised if you didn’t. Hope you don’t treat those people like you treat people on here. And do you just not have the mental capacity to understand that when someone gets clean from something, it means they’re no longer taking it? Like you really don’t get that???? LMAO. Do some extensive research and go to therapy regularly. You need it. This behavior is beyond disgusting, really hope you heal your ugly heart! 🖤 have a good life being horrible judgmental hateful bitter and jealous! None of that is my fault, or anyone else’s (it’s.. yours.) so you should stop taking all of that blatantly obvious self hate, pure ANGER and extreme insecurity out on people you’re jealous of or because of whatever disgusting urge you can’t control to attack people who don’t deserve it at all and are worlds better than you.

Why don’t you go try to do what I was on for four years and try to even go through 1/10000000000 of what I’ve been through. Doubt you’d survive in the first place. But keep speaking from a place of absolute idiocy and keep living your sad life of being unable to feel empathy :( You could NEVER do ANY of what I did, getting and STAYING completely sober from the most additive deadly substance on the planet at home by myself with no medical help. I did something beyond incredible and no matter what nasty people like you say, I’m so proud of myself and always will be :) as I should be. Clearly you could also never experience the extreme pain abuse and trauma I have and still be kind and loving to others (but you already knew that) you’d off yourself if you’d been through even the tiniest fraction of what I have. I’d hate myself too if I was like you :( so sad and horrid and SOOOO ANGRY. (Only difference is I wouldn’t take that out on other people who are doing better than me because I’m not an awful cunt) hope you don’t have anyone around you physically (I’m sure you don’t lol bc truly why would anyone want to be around that) because you obviously don’t have a shred of empathy or basic decency in that angry ass body of yours. I feel bad for you, it must be so hard to wake up this ignorant bitter and jealous every day.

I hope you get the professional help you desperately need to heal from your vile ugly heart and horrible personality bc this is so repulsive and so are you! If you need help finding therapists in your area I can send you links! :)

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begging people to pay more attention to the difference between Drug Use, Drug Addiction, and Drug Abuse.

theres a post going around thats been bugging me because theres a lot thats good but one little bit has been nagging at me.

“using a substance/getting high to make a boring, tedious, unpleasant, or otherwise general sucky household chore more bearable/pleasant/entertaining” is regular old Drug USE.

“having to use a substance in order to make yourself even physically/mentally/emotionally capable of doing that unpleasant chore” is Drug ADDICTION.

“using a substance either so dangerous, so frequently, or at such high strength that it becomes a detriment, impacting your health beyond the typical usage of the drug and/or ability to even do the chore” is Drug ABUSE.

These three things are not mutually exclusive. Nor are they mutually inclusive. They can come in any combination. But the key takeaways that bother me most when people dont consider are:

Drug USE is a neutral action. It is a choice. Some people enjoy taking drugs. This is not a moral failing nor is it a Problem. This is just people Enjoying A Thing That You May Or May Not Approve Of, with risky typical side effects that grown ass adults are more than capable of deciding if they want to take that risk and how to take extra precautions to watch for/avoid those concerns. Like getting involved in extreme sports, working in any art/craft with particulate or paint, or driving on the interstate.

Drug ADDICTION is the physical and chemical meed for the drug. it is also a neutral state. it just means your body is reliant on the substance to function in a certain. getting used to and needing caffeine in the morning is an addiction. any long term medication you require is technically an addiction. lets take anti depressants for example. many people never learn to make those hormones on their own and meed to continue taking them. if they stop taking them they go through withdrawal. thats addiction. chronic pain and painkillers. ALSO addiction. and one that gets a REALLY bad reputation. but its a GOOD THING to not be in pain. that addiction is NOT inherently negative

Drug ABUSE is (or at least, SHOULD be) the only inherently negative term in the batch. this is the shit that IS ACTIVELY HURTING you, more than the typical assumed risk, and what most people THINK they’re talking about when they refer to Addiction. Abusing a substance to the point its impacting necessary functionality, judgement, health etc. THIS INCLUDES LEGAL, PRESCRIPTED DRUGS. ONES THAT STRAIGHT EDGE PEOPLE WOULD CONSIDER GOOD. EVEN ADVIL. YOU CAN TAKE TOO MUCH ADVIL TRYING TO CURB MUSCLE OR CRAMP PAIN. IT WILL GIVE YOU STOMACH ULCERS. I DID THIS FOR YEARS EVEN KNOWING THAT, IGNORING DIRECTIONS BECAUSE I JUST WANTED THE PAIN TO STOP SO BAD. THAT IS DRUG ABUSE.

to keep it simple:

Drug Use: the use of a drug. neutral umbrella term

Drug Addiction: take this drug away, and i will go through withdrawl/wont be able to ____ properly

Drug Abuse: while on this drug, i am actively going through health issues/cant ____ properly

If you don’t agree, i dont care and i dont want to hear it in the notes. This is MY take on the matter. I am not opening up debate about “well TECHNICALLY the MEDICAL definition-“ yadd yadd yadda, I am making a flat statement pursuant to something that annoys the shit out of me. If you dont like it, make your own post and leave me out of it.

#OBVIOSULY this is an ‘in my experience’ ‘your mileage my vary’ yadda yadda yadda

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