#could've been worse though

[tired-fandom-ndn]

you wouldn’t happen to have any thoughts on laios x falin would you… I’ve had some difficulty finding people being freaks (affectionate) about them which is a shame cuz I feel like their dynamic is RIPE for incest

I have A thought about toudencest, anon. I think that Falin has a HUGE thing for Laios that she has never acted on or really let herself think about but it's been constant background noise since Laios became her protector and her only real constant instead of just her brother.

ON THE OTHER HAND, I don't think Laios was attracted to Falin in the absolute slightest UNTIL she was turned into a monster and then he has weird and abstract wet dreams about her chimera form for the rest of their journey and a sporadically afterwards. I think he would still be attracted to her with all her feathers and cool monster stuff after they successfully revive her, but if Falin doesn't notice and do something, nothing would ever come of it just because I don't think Laios would actually recognize it as sexual attraction instead of just fascination.

And no, the wet dreams would NOT make it easier for him to realize he's attracted to his sister because this man has absolutely had weird and abstract wet dreams of ALL his loved ones as monsters. He just thinks everyone has those.

If Falin DID notice and initiate something (maybe with Marcille's permission, maybe not), it would be. . . weird. The sex is fantastic for them, they love each other too much for it not to be even if they're both awkward and fumbling, but I think Falin would be very torn between joy at finally getting what she's wanted since they were kids. . . and a sort of hurt disappointment that Laios isn't really attracted to her but to what the dungeon turned her into. This is her body, and she loves it, but it hurts that Laios never looked at her as something desirable until her body was fundamentally changed. The fact that he's like that with everyone isn't much of a comfort.

#Anonymous #had to be angsty there at the end sorry #could've been worse though #by saying that laios also has absolutely no interest in her romantically and it kills part of her inside #knowing that he loves her like she hung the stars in the sky #but he loves her as a SISTER and that's all he'll ever see her as even when they're having sex #:) #toudencest #shipcest #nsft #dungeon meshi

[scum-belina]

Apparently I had too much to drink last night and reblogged a bunch of music

#could've been worse though

[danwhobrowses]

For anyone else who is gonna struggle surviving the next 3 weeks with the angsty and tense situation of Callowmoore here's a few things from the last 2 episodes that I feel were underrated and will assist in trying to keep me sane/emotionally stable: - Matching messed up hands built for holding - Fearne nervously playing with her hair as she approaches Ashton - Ashton wanted Fearne to be either the last thing they saw if they died or the first thing they saw when they succeeded - Fearne's admittance corroborates Ashley's 4SD revelation that Fearne is in love with someone in the party but doesn't know how to process the emotions - Fearne wanted Ashton to be happy, while Ashton wanted to feel whole so they would be worthy of the Hells - Ashton twice tried to lead a search for Fearne, and instantly clocking onto Chetney saying he followed Fearne - Fearne making herself look as radiant as possible before giving Ashton the cold shoulder - Ashton only rose to Chetney's provocations until he said 'You hurt Fearne' Use how you will

#godspeed my poor damaged psyche #critical role #bells hells #callowmoore #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #fearne x ashton #ashton x fearne #strangely enough I don't enjoy having a dark and sad pit sitting in my chest day to day #3 weeks and we don't even get a cute M9 reunion in between to distract us? this was worse than Callowmoore's sistergate 3 week wait #also 'a little'? Sweetie people don't jump into lava for a little you got the big L and it's not Lesbian(s) #Feel like Laudna was a bit cruel this ep (Ash has been there for her a ton and she kinda villainized him) but we'll put it down to Delilah #much of Ashton's trauma has been overlooked or left to them to internalize but still nobody has told them that they are loved #and Ashton Greymoore needs to be told they're loved! (by Fearne) #but yeah time for more positive mental scenarios that 99% won't happen (but when that 1% does ho boy) #couldn't have just had Fearne go 'no talking' and sleep on Ash's chest to hear their heartbeat as her touch soothes Ash's pain could we? #or final fight scenarios where Ludinus is a walking harness and Ashton tricks them into absorbing their titan powers so he'd explode #they could've even had a talk in the woods because they wanted to find her so bad but was not gonna test Imogen's patience #I for one though will have at least one where Ashton seeks out Mori for advice (Fearne too but separately) #Tal I need you to use all your romantic arsenal in the feywild (Percy's worst travel experience) to win back Ashley's beautiful faun girl #bonus prompts for 'You will always be perfect to me' and 'Promise you'll come back to me' they pop up often in my scenarios #taliesin jaffe #ashley johnson

[kathles]

you ever see the most stupid take about indigenous American history that makes you go "ohhhh this person has no idea what the fuck they're talking about" and then you look up info of their bio and they're literally white

#julien posts #ndn #this post is apt that one person going “hey the noble savage trope is bad we shouldn't infantilize native Americans and here's why” #and then they list a bunch of atrocities indigenous tribes committed pre colonization #like hello #did you forget that the Indian savage is also bad if not worse than the noble savage #like why do you think it's called the “noble” savage to begin with LMAO #indigenous tribes already KNOW the shit our ancestors did #did you forget that how exaggerated a bunch of it was though because of how racist colonizers wanted to emphasize how “savage” we were #and how that became a harmful stereotype towards indigenous peoples #like the “Noble savage” wouldn't have existed to begin with has there not been the “savage” stereotype LMAO #they had the audacity to go at the end #infantilizing indigenous tribes w/out recognizing their past is just as bad as colonizers stereotyping them #as savages #like HELLO?????? LOL #and like its not like infantilizing/romanticising indigenous peoples isn't a problem either #it very much is!! #but op literally could've went “they're history during colonization is actually really complex” #(aka the time period where the noble savage DID emerge. mind you) #“and they're more than just the stereotypical Pocahontas” they could've said #but nooooo they had to go the white supremecist route. okay. lol #like PLEASE do more research beyond Wikipedia if ur gonna be talking apt this shit pls #(yes I know they did use wikipedia. they literally admitted it in the notes. lol) #(also imo I don't think white people should be talking abt this shit to begin with cuz most of them are bound to mess it up #but if you HAVE TO do proper research. I beg of you as an Indian studying American Indian history) #EDIT: btw im not saying you cant include the atrocities some indigenous tribes did commit #when talking about the complexities of indigenous history and how its not right to infantilize us #but if your entire post is ONLY abt said atrocities while ignoring the rest of the complexities during colonization #(esp when the noble savage stereotype was most relevant) #then its a bad look on you and isnt the allyship u think it is. lol

[kariachi]

Sorry-not-sorry I'm back on my normal 'Kevin and Argit were so small' bullshittery.

Because they fucking were. Kevin was twelve when Servantis tossed everybody, and Argit couldn't have been far off. They were middle school aged. 'Puberty would be starting about now if we weren't wandering the Null Void and therefor likely not eating near enough' aged.

A pair of children, with minimal education, no paperwork, no homes, no guardians. Wandering the Null Void and then the Milky Way, on their own. One a prime target for the slave trade, both prime targets for adults looking to take advantage of them (*coughcoughOttocoughcough*). With only as much security as they could provide themselves and each other. Only able to rely on themselves for the basic necessities of life.

And then this show has the audacity to try to tell me that they turned to crime due to poor morality. That they're money focused because they're just naturally greedy. That they don't trust people and look out for themselves because they're bad people that either will always be bad people or will only improve because of the power of Tennysons.

What options were there for them? What jobs are there in the Null Void? What jobs are there in the galaxy that'll hire barely-teens, if even that, with no paperwork or educations, that wouldn't ruin them as badly and pay worse than the crime they already had experience with? Will keep them fed and clothed and sheltered? When one of them already has a criminal record, for violent crimes at that? When there's nobody there to stop even the 'good' adults from taking advantage of them?

The show will sit there and tell you that Kevin's violent crimes were the result of a rough childhood, but he and Argit's non-violent ones? Totally on them, no excuse, wholly a matter of greed and not giving a shit about other people. Fucking bullshit. This is a pair of kids who had to grow up way too fast, up against an existence that saw at least one of them as easy profit, with nothing but themselves and each other, and no opportunities. They're a pair of traumatized kids who grabbed the opportunities available to them with both hands and were molded by the problems they faced.

Of course they're money-focused, unlike the Tennysons they don't and haven't had anybody making sure they had enough to get by. They've had to support themselves and live with the constant worry that something is going to go pear-shaped and they'll have nothing.

They spent years with anybody and everybody being a potential threat (even between the two of them, Argit's noting that Kevin's snapping while he worked for the Rooters was the worst he'd seen 'before or since' makes it quite clear he's seen him on and passed the edge at least as much if not more than we have), of course they're going to be slow to trust, quick to toss people aside, and unwilling to help their enemies without some sort of payout, they've been burned before.

Just- Damnit these two come from some shitty fucking situations, the effects they had on them are obvious if you bother to fucking look, and they both deserved better than the series just going "oh yeah they're assholes what do you expect they're criminals" and moving the fuck on. Like, for fuck's sake at least acknowledge that they're like this because life was a fucking lead pipe to the teeth to them! We know Kevin's situation was shit even before they met, we got to see it, but even if Argit had a perfectly good life beforehand (unlikely) the earliest we see him is being held captive for illegal experimentation purposes by law enforcement! These two have been through shit! At least acknowledge it!

Fuck, they could've replaced Color of Monkey with that, hitting on the differences between how Kevin and Argit adapted to their circumstances, give us upfront the Tennysons being a safety net that let Kevin heal (rather than just 'oh the Tennysons taught him morals because they're the Good People') while Argit's issues and lack of security kept him stagnant. It would go better with what we see of him over the course of OV leading up to the Rooters arc, and what we're shown in the Rooters arc. Give us him still being far from great or on the up-and-up but improving with the stability that comes with his 'hero' status, a repairing relationship with Kevin after that arc, and a flourishing, above-board business. Rather than backpedaling on any good the writers had thrown at him like they'd realized they were coming up against a cliff.

Shit that makes you want to get the writers by the shoulders and shake them mercilessly.

#the fact kevin's willingness to leave his enemies to their fates is treated as a character flaw resulting from his being immoral #rather than a result of the traumatic-ass shit he's been though and these enemies continue to put him through #we *really* needed a scene between him and gwen where it's made clear that just because she and ben choose to forgive people #doesn't mean kevin has to and that his desire not to help people who only want to hurt him is entirely reasonable #argit has gone through so much shit too and it was understandable it didn't get touched on in UAF because it hadn't been established #but OV has no fucking excuse #bastards really went 'argit is a more accepting partner than rook and selflessly saved a lot of people's lives at least once- #-and cares about kevin and went through so much trauma alongside him and is the wielder of the omnitrix in at least one parallel universe' #and then turned around and went 'but also he is actually an even worse person than UAF showed- #-no really we know we just showed him being the type to selflessly save lives- #-but he's totally down with kidnapping and selling small children to be eaten' #these boys deserve better #honest to fuck they had argit selling children as food directly after showing us how he was treated as a thing by adults as a child #when we know kevin was a victim of the same shit and that argit held it against at least servantis #when we could have had an episode where kids are going missing in Undertown and the heroes learn because Argit called them about it #when we could've had something hitting on he and kevin's trauma from the shit they went through alongside argit growth #as he at the very least refuses to let other little kids go through shit like he and kevin did #which would play well with what we see of him in the rooters arc #*and* what we see in The Purge when he's the one who responds to the FK bullshit not by fleeing the planet but by informing Team Tennyson #despite being shown to have the *ability* to flee #we'd even still get to see scary post-rooters 'don't fuck with me' argit it'd be great #missed fucking opportunities all over the damn place doing these boys dirty

[armando-triplepapito]

You are an absolute queen for re-watching ysblf and blessing us with your gifs💫

What do you think Betty's main purpose was for buying a car? Because she just wanted one, but not as expensive as a Mercedes, which she only agreed to get because of Nicolas as we see her remember what an unconditional friend he had been. But let's say that they had bought a regular car, nothing fancy, what was the reason? I'm thinking that she didn't want Armando to drive her to her house anymore and was thinking of having Nicolás pick her up and take her to events and whatnot as she stated, but her "financial jealousy" angle worked much better with an expensive car, but considering she did not seem to have that in mind (but it did wonders for her plan), what do you think she was aiming for? Or how would have Armando reacted to see her leave Ecomoda with Nicolas but without the added shock factor of seeing them on a Marcedes? Thank you for taking your time to read this 🌷

Aww thanks for all the love!! I'm just so happy you've been enjoying my gifs! I'll make sure to make some more!!❤️❤️

Dude! it seems like we're on the same wavelength!! These past few days I've seen mutuals mention the Mercedes and it also has me questioning what would've happened if she did buy an affordable car like how she originally wanted. Tbh I couldn't come up with anything other than what you mention.

I remember how a mutual said "Betty mentally broke up with Armando" and I think that's exactly right. Just like how alcohol surrounded their relationship, so did his car. With the breakup, Armando had to lose his car privileges with Betty. She didn't want him to drive her around, take her home, give her goodnight kisses, she just didn't want to rely on him much less share the same space with him.

We know that the Mercedes was part of her plan to give him financial jealousy but I feel like deep down Betty actually wanted to give him romantic jealousy. (I feel like we get this confirmation with the advice Aura Maria gives to Sofia). And what's a better way to give Armando romantic jealousy than by switching his role with Nicolas?! Now that was chef's kiss!

The Mercedes was an all around good choice to give Armando both financial and romantic jealousy. If Betty did get an affordable car it wouldn't have had the same impact but I feel like it could've been used as a great barrier between the two of them. My memory is hazy but I think one of Betty's arguments during their 2nd night together is that their relationship wouldn't work because they're from different social status. An affordable car would have highlighted this.

If Nicolas pulled up with a normal looking car no one would bat an eye. No one would ask what he works in, where he got the money, why some one with wealth would be involved with Betty etc (remember Marcela made a whole fuss with finding out more about Nicolas). The only ones who would actually care would be the girls from the Cuartel. I feel like with a normal looking car, it would've tormented Armando.

Just imagine Nicolas and Betty driving around with a normal car. The Cuartel would be squealing, fangirling, congratulating Betty for her relationship. Maybe their relationship would seem "stronger" cause there's a chance Patricia wouldn't try to be involved with Nicolas. Their appearance of lovebirds would be perfect and it would leave Armando seething in anger. He'll have no choice but to watch Nicolas do what Armando did for Betty but the difference is that Nicolas has the privilege to be affectionate in public. Armando wouldn't even be able to complain or make a fuss like he did when the Mercedes was involved. With the Mercedes there's the worry of Terramoda's money being used but with a cheap car what's there to worry about? I don't doubt he would still follow Betty and Nicolas around but this time he can't admit to Mario that he did. With the Mercedes he had the opportunity to say that he followed them around to figure out what was going on with the Mercedes but in this situation what can he say? He can't admit to Mario that he's stalking them so he'll have no choice but to keep his feelings to himself. Mario tho? Mario would torture Amrando! He would say stuff like how Betty changed him for Nicolas, how she would rather be with someone poor than with a wealthy man like him, how PERFECT those two are for each other and everyone would think so too! even Marcela! I can imagine her saying something along the lines of how ugly betty deserves to be with someone ugly as Nicolas driving around in an ugly car. Armando will go nuts! He's gonna get desperate! He's obviously going to try to win Betty back but how? How to convince her? What can he give to Betty that Nicolas can't? Afterall what Betty really wanted was their relationship to be known by everyone. Armando can't do that but Nicolas can. He can't even use Nicolas against her. Before he was able to say that Nicolas is taking advantage of her, using her, but in this scenario he can't say all that. He'll essentially have no argument he can use.

Betty would probably be satisfied with this. I feel like deep down she always enjoyed Armando's reactions when she paraded around with the Mercedes. I have no doubt she'll enjoy watching Armando feel lesser than Nicolas. A wealthy man being jealous of a poor man, laughable. Anyways, like I said before, an affordable car could've been a great barrier between them. There'll be no reason for Armando to drive Betty around and Betty could use the car to avoid him. Their dates will end up awkward cause there's no doubt Betty would want them to arrive in separate cars. Plus it gives her the power to leave whenever she feels like it. Imagine her ditching Armando during a phone call with Marcela lol. Most of their dates, if not all, consisted of Armando driving her around, having conversations, and giving her goodnight kisses inside his car. If we remove his car there's basically no more intimacy and it'll give Betty the opportunity to "officially" breakup with Armando. The Mercedes was a big deal so of course everyone's reaction was exaggerated. I'm sure that Betty was exhausted defending herself and Nicolas from the executives. Seriously idk why Marcela and Daniel even cared about Betty being related to the Mercedes. Anyways, a normal car would go "unnoticed", it would help Betty slowly separate from Armando and they'll basically drift away from each other. The distance is what I think was what Betty was aiming for, to avoid him cause at the end of the day she wanted nothing to do with him. And Armando won't be able to close the distance. Wasn't he the one who authorized Betty to buy herself a car? He can't just tell her to not use it or to get rid of it. He'll seriously have no choice but to watch Betty drive away with Nicolas. When the conversation of their relationship comes around Betty could just say they should stop with their relationship since it's not working out.

Ok long story short I feel like what Betty was aiming for with a normal car was to simply put distance between her and Armando and also to give him romantic jealousy. I know she said she was trying to give him financial jealousy but I think she came up with that idea after the Mercedes. Armando would obviously be seething in anger to see how Betty is being swept away by Nicolas, to watch how they shamelessly act like lovebirds, and to hear from everyone that Betty and Nicolas are perfect for each other. Also I feel like this scenario could've helped Armando realize his feelings for Betty. Before he was able to convince himself that he's going crazy cause "his" money was being involved but in this case he has no other choice but to actually see the big picture and realize his feelings for Betty is beyond than just remorse.

I'll stop right here cause I have so many ideas, so many thoughts, but I don't know how to intertwine them. I hope you're somewhat satisfied with my response. I tried hard to explain my thoughts coherently but writing was never my strong suit.

Thanks for the questions! I had fun thinking about this scenario! I just love What Ifs like these!! Anyways have a great day!😚💐✨

#Even though I tried answering your questions I feel like I created a fanfic instead... #I just love a desperate Armando #The jealousy arc was the best #feel free to add or improve my thoughts regarding this scenario #tbh I would've loved if they did go with the affordable car route I feel like Armando's jealousy could've been even worse lol #ysblf #betty la fea #yo soy betty la fea #armando mendoza #beatriz pinzón solano #nicolas mora #what ifs

[astriiformes]

Talked about this with the counselor I've been seeing at school earlier today but my intense, desperate need to leave a mark on the world (not even in a fame way, in like a "I need to leave this place better than I found it in a big, tangible way" one) and the fact that I only value myself when I feel like I'm adding good to it paired with the fact that I've been an insane perfectionist since I was a very young child and tear myself to shreds and lose all my confidence over tiny mistakes is literally going to kill me some day

#had been thinking about applying for a leadership position in our university ostem chapter for a while now #but psyched myself out of it last night before applications closed #because with everything that's gone wrong in the student group i was involved in this year i no longer trust myself to be a good leader #or frankly even a good person #i also had a slightly soul-crushing talk with a professor yesterday about my grade in her class #because even though she clearly thinks i'm brilliant (and basically said as much) i missed like two weeks of class #specifically because something happened with another student who i know i managed to make upset #(on accident. but it seems like she found my apology wanting) #and i feel so awful about it that i decided the only way to handle this was to avoid her so i didn't make her uncomfortable #so now my grade is suffering in a class i could've gotten an 'A' in #and it's just like. what am i even doing #i care so much about making the world a better place but i feel like such a bad person and trying makes it worse #and i know i'm under no obligation to put myself through this kind of stress but i don't know how to value myself if i don't #lately i feel like i'm beating myself up for being too fragile and unstable to even make a good martyr #and i know it's not healthy but if i try to step back i just get sad #like how now i feel awful about not sending in that application. and at least half dozen other similar things #i just want to make a real impact but it feels like the only thing i'm good for is making things worse #i'm not even fun to be around most days. i'm just.... sad

[thatwasthenightthingschanged]

growth is realizing I have an unhealthy relationship with money aka I rarely allow myself to spend money on anything outside of groceries & feel bad for the times that I do so

#that's what growing up living with not much money does to you i guess #though my family could've been off worse i guess #but yeah #i regularly get panic attacks thinking abt all the apartment stuff i have to spend money on now that my gf is moving/has moved out

[luxrayz64]

here she is all painted!! sticking the wip shots under the cut

#ok I stuck this in my drafts for a few days so secondary update #the paint got slightly chipped off on the plane -_- could've been worse ig #wharever though we ball #saw #espeon cries #very excited for the con this weekend I've never been to a con in cosplay #well. lie. but it was a much worse and much less recognisable cosplay. so obviously no one recognised me #but my partner and I will both be in saw cosplay so yay yippee tortured besties ^_^ #might post pics of the whole cosplay. maybe

[lilbittymonster]

Mom said it's MY turn to accidentally PvP kill an alliance with the Puppy Bunky death laser

#that was. the spiciest run of PB I've ever had lmao #everyone was in good spirits about it though so it could've been much worse

[britneyshakespeare]

Another Thing Wrong With The Former Gifted Kid Discourse, Since I Can't Stop Thinking About It:

people have such an unhelpful tendency to universalize their own experience when talking about the plights and struggles about Gifted Kids™—and what they are talking about is not necessarily invalid, but they're more often talking about their individual responses to their particular schools' policies. This Is Not A Systemic Analysis. it's helpful; i sympathize with you. But You Are Not Dismantling The Inequities by saying this or that happened At Your School when you were a child, and it affected you this or that way because of Who You Are.

example. i always see people talking about neurodivergence in this conversation, which is actually helpful in spotlighting how the Gifted Kid discourse often glosses over such complex intersectional issues. you can talk about how you were Gifted & Neurodivergent and how those experiences lead you to future disappointment. this is, i must stress, valid. but your analysis of your own life Is Not A Systemic Analysis. your experience alone will never speak for how the educational system and trends in policy among schools across the united states affect ALL neurodivergent people negatively because there are neurodivergent people who are Different From You. not to mention that when people point out that very often "Gifted Kid" usually correlates with some degrees of privilege, people push back and go nooooo I'm neurodivergent. people across all other marginalized identities who are systemically disadvantaged by the educational system can be neurodivergent. this does not make you, initially, when you were as a young Kid determined to be Gifted, NOT also in fact privileged.

if you are not ready to discuss experiences that were different from your own growing up, you aren't really engaging in the discourse of how to improve public education in the united states. it's a diiii-verse country we live in. not only in the ways we traditionally think of. when we think of "marginalized" or "oppressed" people, some specific and historically significant groups come to mind. when it comes to advantages that set up a child for future educational success, these broad categories often leave gaps because they lead people to generalizations, and ultimately, fatalism.

but there's really so much hope in early childhood education if we were to make things more equitable, ie like i always say UNIVERSAL PRE-K. these kids who are determined as "gifted" more often than not were just from more enriched home environments that prepared them for learning how to read, write, and do math. it's often not special innate abilities that leads to differences in outcomes for different students, but That's How The Kids Interpret It When Some of Them Are Called "Gifted." they're more often than not, not doing something that's truly exceptional or precocious for their age. they're displaying signs of age-appropriate development, when often, the kids who may be lagging behind them skill-wise just Haven't Practiced Those Skills As Much.

so yes, that's why there's a correlation in things like upper- and middle-class white kids being seemingly more successful in school (and more commonly deemed "gifted") at a young age. it's from privilege. it's not even just the implicit biases of their educators already working in their favor for their race and class. it's the fact that being more privileged, generally, means their family and parents had all of their basic needs provided for. they had more time to read with you. they could buy more development-promoting toys. they probably had better mental health to cope with the demands of child-rearing. if they suffered chronic or sudden physical health issues, they were insured. privileged children are usually less exposed at a younger age to the harshnesses of this world, as every child should be. ALL of these little advantages build up, in terms of what a child can be provided with before they go to school. anything that's going wrong in a child's family system can negatively impact them without them even being old enough to understand it.

you may not think of yourself as Privileged. you might prefer to think of yourself as Gifted. Gifted is so nice, even if it's demoted to Former Gifted. at one point you were told you were superior and it felt really good. and You, reader, i do not know You. i'm not calling You privileged, even if you are! hell, everyone's privileged in some way. i am at the point in the post where for transparency's sake i think i should say I Could Be What Some People Call "Former Gifted". i was called smart as a kid and given special homework sometimes etc. i'm not calling any Former Gifted people stupid for not realizing this either. what i mean is that this kids Are Not Usually Actually Gifted. this is a compliment given overwhelmingly to children who were just simply not deprived. when people say they were once Gifted, they're more often than not saying I Had The Early Opportunities To Learn Everyone Should Have, But Doesn't. this doesn't make you an outlier. It Might Just Be A Sign of Privilege.

#also I Am Privileged #i wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth in fact my parents were unemployed for much of my childhood #and there were many medical stressors for multiple of my immediate family members that complicated things #my father was diagnosed w type 1 diabetes when he was recently laid off in a pre-affordable care act world. #but in terms of having basic needs met and provided for. i did! #i didn't know the differences for my family's circumstances #also both of my parents are college-educated which helped them get out of that and helped provide for the privilege i was born into. #I Acknowledge These Privileges Not Because They Make Me Bad But Because Not Everyone Has These Things Handed To Them! #privilege doesn't mean you don't struggle. it means you don't struggle as much as you could've. #things couldve been worse #rant #long post #im not making it rebloggable bc i dont trust this website lol #people wanting to say 'im not privileged im neurodivergent' in this convo just grinds my gears #theyre making it seem like 'gifted' = neurodivergent which is NOT true #even if what they were praised for seems in retrospect to them to be their neurodivergent qualities. and #how that might emotionally interact with the future disappointment of realizing you're Not Special. #or even the social isolation you MAYBE experienced from your own school's policies for students like you! #that's again though not a systemic analysis but a personal one. and that's fine. that needs room #but people will assign a disproportionate amount of importance on their individual experience. and deny they could be privileged! #it feels very 'oh officer id never kill my husband' but about privilege lol. #its ok to be privileged. its ok #if those privileges are that you were regularly fed and lived in a stable home and your parents were there for you then thats a good thing. #universal pre-k is what ive been driving home but really all other systemic inequalities affect educational success is what im saying. #much like suicide prevention is more than just having a hotline. it's correcting the injustices of the world that make ppl feel hopeless. #educational justice is providing an equitable world for all children SO THAT they are capable of being reached by education #let's acknowledge the layers please. please

[lonesomedotmp3]

well. it's over.

#i knew it was really really bad based on beth's posting and it's still worse than i thought #it's just not a finale at ALL #just compare it to ANY merlin season finale #le morte d'arthur. the last dragonlord. THE COMING OF ARTHUR. #they all FELT like season finales they felt HUGE both emotionally and in terms of stakes #and the show could've been cancelled after them and yeah that would've been a shame but it wouldn't feel completely pointless! #you're still left with a feeling of satisfaction #but whatever. it's done. at least ariadne was there. even though she was honestly barely even in the finale at all 😐 #atlantis lb

[heartbeetz]

@ Anton come kiss me rn my mouth tastes like whiskey and cinnamon

#made a fun drink. whiskey + coffee ice cream + pumpkin pie spice (no pumpkin. just the spice mix). warmed up in a mug #was kinda shit tbh but I wanted to try and make something #wayyy too much alcohol per volume. smelled and tasted like nail polish remover. stung my nose :( #only made worse by the fact that I tried to add vanilla extract ://// #also used too much spice mix I think #maybe not though. I couldn't really distinguish the flavors bc they were all drowned out by the liquor :/// #anyway I fucked it up but just kept adding ice cream until it was drinkable #could've been better if I'd thought about flavors ahead of time instead of just. putting shit in a cup. lol #note to self: you are not a mixologist #was gonna say ''he could make me better drinks'' but this isn't true. he probably drinks it all straight #or plays around and fucks up like I do #lol. lmao even #roz posts #♡: 🔨🎰🥃

[kenshiv]

the entire killers of the flower moon session when the dialogue got drowned out by the screaming children watching fnaf in the next room

#specially amusing considering with the exception of me and my friend and some guy sitting near us everyone looked over 60 dfjgndk #some old lady loudly complained how she'll never come to this movie theater again. go off grandma! #it could be worse though it could've been swifties.

[orchres]

the emotional rollercoaster I've been on today 🤧

#if only it were possible to sweat out being triggered to fuck like you would a fever #I'm grateful for my support system though I could've been suffering way worse

[scum-belina]

Doesn't matter how nice or civil interactions with my immediate family go, afterwards, I feel dirty. I feel like I shouldn't have told them one damn thing about me. Not even something casual. It genuinely feels like casting your pearls before swine. They just...trample your hopes and aspirations and try to taint them with their own ignorant and warped opinions. I always regret it but I seem to never learn. They're not worth opening up to one iota.

#my mom's cousins were terrific today though they are blameless #everyone else...not so much #could've been worse but damn they know how to hurt me personally