#cptsdawareness

[journal-from-the-heart]

i think, for trauma survivors, especially those who were emotionally abused, invalidated, or gaslit, it is really important not to underestimate the significance of speaking bluntly about what happened to you. Forcing yourself not to beat around the bush, not to downplay what you went through with your words. say what happened, without any caveats, without any “but it could’ve been worse”, “but i might just be being overdramatic”, “but it wasn’t really THAT bad,” and so forth. sit with the discomfort until you can begin to let yourself realize that it WAS that bad, you WERENT being overdramatic, and even if it could’ve been worse you still didn’t deserve it. It’s almost like a form of reclamation, taking back your memories, taking back your life, even the difficult or gross parts, and refusing to let anyone change the narrative or tell you how you should feel anymore, even yourself. and it hurts and it’s scary and it feels weird and awkward and sometimes you want to convince yourself you’re lying, but i think sitting in those weird feelings and letting yourself admit that you really did go through trauma puts the power back in your hands to process things and be compassionate to yourself while you heal

#like. recently i’ve been reflecting a lot on this trauma i have with this absolutely godawful english teacher i had in grade 7 #he was an absolute creep and even though he never touched me i knew he touched other girls and made even creepier comments to them #than he did to me. and i never really had time to fully understand the gravity of the damage he did to me because i was #so focused on the fact that it could’ve been worse and he never even actually touched me or got that close to me save a few times #but yesterday as i was reflecting on this i finally got myself to admit. i was terrified of him and i was terrified for every fucking minute #that i spent in that class. and i was a child who never should’ve had to deal with that and it’s clear that i still have a lot of problems #from that whole event. and the more times i repeat that and get myself to understand it. the more i’m able to be compassionate to myself now #and patient with myself in the things i struggle with as a result of what happened #childhood trauma #trauma #cptsd healing #cptsd recovery #cptsdawareness #trauma survivor #trauma recovery

[staysofte]

it's called developmental trauma because our brain is still continuing to develop until adulthood (and possibly until 25yrs of age)

research shows that the brains of adults who have gone through developmental trauma are structurally different when compared to adults who have not experienced continuous trauma during their childhoo

please remember that PTSD is different from C-PTSD and they're both different from trauma

#cptsdawareness #trauma recovery #healing process #mental health awareness #lessons from your friendly neighbourhood psychologist #actually cptsd

[bluelikealaska]

I am so used to

Having no one to talk to

I wonder

How much lighter I’d be

If only I did

But you

Are not my mother anymore

And he is long, long gone

So who do I turn to?

When it’s unbearable

To breathe

#bookblr #pain #poetry book #poetscommunity #spilled writing #poem #female poets #cptsd recovery #cptsdawareness #hope #one day

[the-healing-mindset]

I have hesitated with going into therapy to discuss complex trauma and possibly C-PTSD regarding my life, but the more and more I see the descriptions of the signs and symptoms, I really identify with the way it is described. Especially when it comes to trusting that other people will be there for me and that I can feel close and connected with other people.

Source: Dr. Glenn Doyle

#trust #Dr. Glenn Doyle #life #living #complex trauma #cptsdawareness #C-PTSD #CPTSD #trauma #healing #recovery #growth #relationships #healthy relationships #interpersonal relationships

[overdramaticpoetry]

Everyone I've ever loved has left me.

Friends, family, lovers.

There must be something wrong with me, right?

At least that's what the diagnosis tells me.

So I go to therapy

I'm recovering

Doing better.

At least, that's what I tell myself

I tell myself I will become better because people leaving must be my fault, right?

Better has been on the horizon for years, but I am only stepping farther back.

The sun is setting on forever

Will I be like this forever?

Two steps forward, three steps back. It feels never ending.

Everyone I've ever loved has left me.

-everyone I have ever loved {overdramaticpoetry}

#poetry #poet #news #beginner poetry #borderline feels #borderline #tw cptsd #cptsdawareness

[violetisquiet]

idk who needs to hear this……but you don’t have treatment resistant depression and anxiety…………you have ✨ cptsd ✨

#just cptsd things #depression #mental health #cptsdawareness #cptsd memes #mine

[thesinsemillier]

Somatic therapy has been teaching me how to live comfortably in my own skin. Reading Gabor Maté's The Myth of Normal helped me understand how my body reacted to the chaos I was born into, and how a dysfunctional society exacerbates trauma in so many people. Essential reading on a healing journey. He offers so much guidance and wisdom.

#cptsd healing #complex ptsd #ptsd #cptsd life #cptsd #cptsdawareness #cptsdsupport

[sapphistications]

Watching only murders in the building and this was profound

"We're all driven to recreate the dynamic of our first wound, so we can change the ending"

#cptsd coping #cptsdawareness #childhood ptsd #ptsd #therapy memes #mental health

[dantesjourney]

These words have seen me through a lot in the past 14 months. Today, I'm taking some time to step back and examine trauma related responses, reactions and behaviors from the past week. It is still significantly difficult to catch them in the moment, but the time between the thing happening and me thinking "huh, this is probably trauma related" is getting shorter, on average. I'm getting better at asking myself questions that dig into the why's and wherefores of these moments.

* Ok, this response/reaction/behavior is trauma related. What's triggered this?

* Why am I having this particular reaction in this particular situation?

* What trauma is this linked to?

* Do I have genuine reason to believe this situation is the same as the trauma behind my reaction to it, or is this my brain acting out of fear because of the past?

* Is this something I need to tackle and adjust purely on my side, or are there things the other person/people involved need to adjust as well?

* What can I do to calm the fear/anxiety associated with the trauma that is feeding this reaction?

* Is this being exacerbated by lack of food, lack of sleep, overstimulation, understimulation, unrelated stressors or another unmet need?

This is progress. This is significantly different from this time last year, night and day from 14+ months ago. I'm working on it. This isn't about "getting better" or curing or fixing anything. It's do better, be better and letting results speak for themselves. It's taking the time to appreciate the little wins. I deserve better than the life I've had, I deserve better than being shackled to my past for the rest of my life. It may always be with me in some capacity, but that doesn't mean I have to let it weigh me down.

#mental health #mental health struggles #writer #mental heath support #mental heath awareness #trauma #trauma recovery #trauma related #trauma response #cptsd recovery #cptsdawareness #cptsdsupport #cptsd coping #ptsd #anxeity #depression #lgbtq community #lgbtqia #lgbtqiaplus #genderfluid #gender fluid #lgbtq #self compassion #self discovery #self improvement #self acceptance #self awareness #self healing

[journal-from-the-heart]

hey, all my fellow trauma survivors out there. i know sometimes it's easier said than done, but try to go easy on yourselves, okay? you went through a type of hell that can change you for life. It's not fair to expect yourself to be operating the same way as someone who hasn't. Nobody's stitches heal immediately.

#childhood trauma #trauma #cptsd #cptsd recovery #cptsd life #cptsdawareness #cptsd healing

[theyaretodd]

one of the things that i have had the privilege of access to in the pursuit of CPTSD/Nervous System treatment is the Stellate Ganglion Nerve Block. Just yesterday, I had my second procedure. If anyone has any questions or if you yourself have done this treatment, i’m all ears. 🙇🏻

#ptsdawareness #cptsdawareness

[petitemelusine]

Despair/loneliness

#illustration #children’s illustration #illustrator #editorial illustration #children’s book illustration #picture book illustration #digital art #lgbtq artist #queer #procreate #anxiety #depression #loneliness #despair #cptsd #cptsdawareness #mental health

[slighttemptation]

Mental health and mental illness is really kicking my ass... I'm the angriest I've been in my entire life, and my fuse is shorter than I ever thought possible. I used to be the most patient person you'd ever meet... and now... I'm as easily irritable as my mother was at this age, and I've started slamming doors when I'm upset and yelling... Does anyone have any advice? I started medication for my first time (I have CPTSD, severe anxiety, depression and a mood disorder that my psychiatrist hasn't diagnosed yet) the medication I take is limotragine 25mg, been on it only one week (gonna take about a month for it to start kicking in). I got a new therapist and will see them next week. I just... am exhausted. I don't like how easily I lose my temper. I have an emotions journal that helps to make me aware and work on emotional regulation.. but fuck dude... I'm ready to be done. I think about killing myself every single day ever since I was 9 years old.... that won't go away.. but shit dude. I'm exhausted. I just want to get lost in a forest and gently pass away and let the forest floor vegetation take over.

Advice for anger issues? Anyone?

#help #anger issues #mental illness #mental health #anxiety #depression #ptsd #cptsdawareness #mood disorder #advice