#create space for better things

[commsroom]

i honestly do feel that eiffel's disrespect for authority and willingness to complain are positive traits. in terms of 'these are things i value in real people', but also for what it represents and what he's resisting within the narrative of wolf 359.

it's notable in the face of cutter's personal philosophy and goddard's corporate culture (pryce & carter #5, etc.) ... eiffel won't just accept anything, he won't do his job with a smile (he might not do his job at all, but either way, he reserves the right to be upset about it), he won't learn to compartmentalize. he will complain. he will keep on complaining. he values emotional honesty, and actively encourages others to express their feelings, especially the ones that aren't goddard-approved.

no matter what happens, or how long they've been up there, he never gets desensitized, and i think there's really something about someone who will keep saying 'this isn't normal, it isn't okay, i'm not okay with it, and i ask you to also not be okay with it,' even when he seems alone in saying it. their situation is horrible, and he feels everything so strongly. being able to express that is healthy, and it's human. i find it reassuring.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #you know? #it's how all of the antagonists in wolf are so good at compartmentalizing. it's cutter's particularly intense brand of toxic positivity #eiffel isn't interested in any of that. he feels how he feels and he's more than willing to express himself. #it's not just that he doesn't get desensitized either. it's that he is always surprised when other people are. #no matter how much callousness he runs up against he never stops being shocked and disgusted that other people can do that #and his emotional honesty creates a space for people who otherwise don't feel safe or comfortable enough to be honest with themselves #minkowski tries so hard to buy into the corporate culture but she's never quite got it. #and hera has internalized on a much deeper level that it's not safe for her to express her feelings #so it's just... nice that he can do that. i like him. #i like that he doesn't try to fix things for hera or tell her to feel better. he's just willing to be there and be upset with her. #to me (and i think for her) that counts for a lot. #& being good at complaining is a very attractive trait. to me.

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

#how do you miss me when you won't talk to me? how do you like me so much and then go to just. not? #how did i let you in when i try so hard not to let people do that because i know that once they get past the walls all i'll be left with #is the idea of them rotting and withering inside me. polluting the space i create to keep myself safe. #why does everyone leave? leave in silence too. leaving behind so many questions and so many words engraved in my brain #i am so tired of *grieving* when those i grieve are still alive and well and thriving and i'm reminded that it's versions of myself #that i'm grieving instead. how do you grieve yourself? how do you not fucking fall apart over it? #just. fucking talk to me. don't make it be true that all i'll ever be is nothingness and the memory of someone you liked once #but never never never liked enough #i'm so so cold already. i'm a shell. i want to be warm again but it always leaves me so hollow and hurting #i grieve the dio who was warm. i grieve them i miss them i am so so angry that he had to leave. to hide. with no way out #i'm happy for you. i'm happy you're happy. but you're no better than anyone else and it makes me want to run away again #but i have nowhere else to run and no one else to be. and it's so fucked that it doesn't matter who i am i'll never be enough #for someone to just. stay. to see me and to stay. to hear me and to sit and listen and just. just fucking stay. #maybe i'm not worth staying for. maybe there's nothing to know nothing to hear nothing to see nothing to listen to nothing to find #maybe all i'll ever get is one/two good months paid for with a lifetime of grief. and i'm at the point where i don't want the good months #anymore with you or anyone else who tears down these walls with affection that is so endlessly addictive and leaves me yearning. #on the off chance that it will keep the grief away too. but that's the thing about grief isn't it? it's here to stay. unlike you #god this is so fucked up and i'll delete this later but for now i just need to. let it out. poe said i should make a side blog for the grie #but poe's not there anymore. poe has stopped starting fires. so this goes on main until shame makes me take it down #blah #personal #not st

[josephquinncurl]

I'm just here to remind you all that Eddie Munson is the sweetest baby boy in hawkins that never did anything wrong in his life and was trying his best to graduate and don't end up like his dad. 😔

#the way he made Chrissy feel so safe so fast #the way he created a space in hellfire for kids like him #just so they had somewhere to be tehmselves #and not be bullied like he was #he was one class away from graduating too #he wanted to do better #he was so nice and kind #i just want to hug him #tell him he did a great job #and that he was always brave #and that he mattered snd was important #im so soft for eddie right now #to be fair im on my period so yeah sorry #im almost crying again #joseph quinn #joe quinn #eddie munson #stranger things eddie #stranger things #stranger things 4 #eddie munson stranger things #hellfire club

[meownotgood]

care to share your updated Aki collection? Would love to see the new wall grid especially now that there's more Aki keychains!

To more Aki purchases ahead <33

yes, of course!!!!

pls ignore the messiness in the aki shrine... I am going to be reorganizing everything as soon as I have the time... I'll post some more pics and closeups whenever I do that.... this is temporary setup

#I'm going to buy some little riser things for the shrine #so I can better display some of the little items and stands #and then when I have a day off I'll take everything down and fully reorganize #but I'm working the rest of this week so that won't be for a while lol #too many akis not enough space!!! #and these two I got today are literally so big they take up so much space 😭😭😭 #BUNCH OF FATTIES #but.... I've got another plushie on the way #and I'm going to order the new aki prize plush that comes out tomorrow as soon as I find a good listing #so I'll hold back on reorganizing until those arrive #then I'll make room for everything #being the parent of so many topknot sons is hard work........ #ask mags #aki <3 #thank you for caring anon. I kiss you #should I link my my figure collection page somewhere? you can keep track of my collection there #me just now noticing I left my 3ds in the pic cause I'm trying to get my mii to have babies with the aki mii I created

[silenthillbunni]

ig i just personally dont rlly vibe w ppl who think that merely saying 'i wish they died' just to lighten the heavy weight of their overwhelming emotions (that they cant control may i add) is the same thing as actively actually murdering someone 💀

#did u know that venting can actually make someone feel a bit better and less inclined to act on thoughts..... #when u create environment in society where u force everyone to supress and hide all their ugly thoughts and emotions #those feelings will grow stronger and stronger and poison you #and that's why ppl eventually explode when it cant be contained anymore #ppl expressing things - that they prob dont even mean or want to be true or a reality #is nowhere near the same thing as ppl acting on it or causing others harm #but then also i am of the opinion that *everyone* deserves help and treatment. ppl shouldnt be discarded and labeled as broken or crazy #sm ppl have overwhelming emotions they cant control bc all of our brains are different. there should be *quality* help available for everyo #instead we live in a society that shames ppl. that push ppl into boxes and say #if u dont fit into this tiny neat little square u are ugly broken disgusting and reprihensible!!! #then they just banish u to the shadows where they dont have to see u or look at u #anyway this is a whole society thing that is connected to this issue in my braib #brain* #what i was gonna say was that i personally think venting and expressing your thoughts - no matter how ugly they are #is necessary for humans. esp when it's in a space where the potential target of the thoughts wont see #esp when there are no plans of taking yhe thoughts into action #asl long as u can separate complaining and venting ur frustrations and causing someone (undeserved) harm irl #thats just who i am and this is my blog and i dont appreciate ppl telling me #that i have to shove it all back inside and im not allowed to express anything #if you're a wasp who thinks everything should be bottled up. that everything should be expressed delicately #then u do you. but you do not tell me that i have to conform to your ways. i find your ways harmful and regressive #so maybe we should just go our separate ways huh? everyone arent meant to get along #theres no use in arguing or fighting or reprimanding ppl everytime u see smth u dont agree with #esp when all u see is a *thought* that causes no material harm to another person. then u should just be on ur merry way

[tippenfunkaport]

When I first started in fandom, for whatever reason I decided making fankids was like… too cringe for me. Like that was the arbitrary line I drew of what was too deep into fandom for me.

Anyway, think of this when I post my fankid drawings later because they represent me surrendering what is left of my dignity and fully surrendering to the cringe.

#honestly a lot of this was just that my early fandom experience was being surrounded by people who were ONLY into their fankids #to the point where they barely cared about the canon characters or killed them off entirely #and I felt like then what even is the point of being here if you're like that? #and no judgement if you're OC obsessed it's just like I have a whole back catalog of original characters so I personally didn't Get It #but then I needed to create some for narrative necessity and i was like eh this might as well happen #but you'll notice even my fankid stuff is still fully from the pov of the canon characters bc they are the ones I care about most #but I understand the OC / fankid thing better now in that it's training wheels for a lot of people #and it's great a great way to test drive until you're ready to create a character from scratch #or for people who have no interest in making content to contribute to the fandom space by commissioning art of their little guys #or to play in the fandom space without the confines of canon by making it their own #so be cringe and free everyone and have fun #though I will forever think about the time someone joined one of the non-fandom writing servers #and asked why we didn't have a channel to talk about OCs #and we had to gently explain that we were all writing original fiction all of every single one of our characters were 'OCs' #fandom is really a different world sometimes

[kouhaiofcolor]

"Toxic femininity isn't real men are way worse that terminology is misogynistic—"

Girl be serious. That IS the toxicity. That shit right there.😅

#like i just hate that we cant be real ab that #i agree its fuck men — but when we blatantly disregard how we even fuck ourselves & each other over as women #i cant simp like that #we could definitely do better by young girls #we could definitely be putting more condusive ideas in their head ab their self worth #& the things they should value within themselves #its not just men that fuck women over #regardless of who can or cant be real ab it women do have a lack of accountability around this #getting old pretending like we havent created spaces for our own objectification #toxic femininity #double standards #mine.txt

[izacore]

anyway, you can talk all you want how stunts are not affecting them and they're grateful to have that privacy or whatever but something tells me harry singing woman again after such a long break is not exactly an indicator of being pleased with the situation lol

#imagine claiming this!!!! situation after 13 long hears still happening in 2023 #is better than creating a safe space to convince them that babes you don't have to be going through that!!!! #things could be different!!! #anyway #i'm going for now

[tenderjock]

unpopular opinion in the c*dywan fandom but i definitely see the relationship post-war (in pretty much any universe) as being like. they both have things that theyre doing that take up a lot of time and energy. they travel a lot, apart from each other. they dont see each other much - theyre certainly not setting up a homestead on tantooine together, as much as they both fantasize about it sometimes. they'll spend months apart and then have two days together, most of which is occupied with doing laundry because ben hasnt had time to do chores in three weeks.

maybe they sleep with other people too? maybe not. either way, i dont think that cody is obi-wan's most important person and i dont think obi-wan is cody's most important person. even if they were, it wouldnt change that they have other things in their lives going on that take precedence. its okay, though; because they love each other dearly and they will always, always fight for each other, no matter what.

#i think its more important to find someone who will always be in your metaphorical corner #even when they arent in your literal corner all the time #than it is to find a soulmate. and who knows? maybe thats what a soulmate is after all #may the force be with you #i also think it'd be funny in the au where leia is quinlan's padawan if she knew fox better than cody #despite being half raised by obi-wan as a child #simply because cody is off Doing Things and not around the temple #also also i think they should be allowed to have lives outside of the other. especially cody. #especially given that he was literally created for obi-wan/the jedi i think to give him some autonomy we should also give him space #like i DO think its his choice to love obi-wan and i think he DOES i just think its also his choice to not be obsessed with the man

[phantasyhalation]

even though i fundamentally agree with the motives behind a lot of critique Online i feel strongly that much of it is totally misdirected and self-defeating. i see no value in shadowboxing individual manifestations of the Problematic as stand-ins for economics and culture. there's plenty within Popular and Niche cultures which offends me personally on solid internal grounds—but if i'm going to start a ruckus about it, i need my position to be rock-solid, even if it cannot be literally Shared. even if one's opposition is well-founded, the common attacks lack weight and utility. taking a running jump off the Empire State with a sword-kinda deal. personally, if i'm going to be Mad Online, i'm not going to bank my politics, morality, credibility etc. on it: i'm just going to be pissy, for it is universally understood. over-emphatic short-form culture criticism has no reach, no rhetoric, no Reason—i feel Takes of that nature are a surefire way to discredit and embarrass yourself to anybody who doesn't already agree with you. the online collective already suffers from a dire lack of curiosity, so i see no sense in picketing the dragon without a stick strong enough to make myself understood.

#discourse about discourse is all this blog will touch. if i want to Do Discourse i will create a digital space better fit for it. #none of this is to say that Discourse is tilting at windmills—moreso tilting at Some Guy or Some Thing floating on abstracts. unreachable. #there are COUNTLESS ways to emancipate yourself or attack your rulers far more effective than tilting at christopher nolan #most of them are more enjoyable too you'll find. read a book #latency.txt

[thehardkandy]

I do think it's the winter getting to me but as soon as vacation ended I am digging myself further into a feeling of. Missing something important

#like i just need to go be creative and getting into the swings of passion #but I've been kinda drowning in SI more than is normal and while that's something i don't have an issue pushing through #it does make it especially difficult to create because i think about diving back into something #and it's just a big black hole where if i do it. so what. why does it matter and what is it for #and unfortunately giving into the black hole (shockingly) does not make the feeling any better #it just makes it bigger snd bigger and bigger #and everything feels so topsy turvy because more so than ever before my life looks like. more than i could have hoped for #working full time saving money eating well living independent #and it fucking sucks!!! i hate this shit!!!!! i dont wanna do this for 50 more years!!!!! #the things that bring me joy feel so secondary and insignificant cause everything i do #to give myself a good life that gives me space to ve creative and live and laugh...... doesnt do that #what do i do!!!! (rhetorical) #cause the answer is push through it. its to take my vitamin d and force myself to create #and soon enough ill be waxing poetic about how beautiful the life i have built for myself is #kinda silly how closely the feelings live together

[flowercrowngods]

next time steve and el sit down and steve talks to her, tells her something, or just asks her how she’s doing, asks her about her day, asks her if she’s okay — eyes alert, focused on her — el goes very silent, very still. smiles. because, “you’re talking again.”

#pls i just need my two nonverbal kids to allow each other to be nonverbal but to recognise and celebrate when they’re better 🥺🥹 #create a safe space for each other and just. bring each other food and drink and keep each other company until words can come back again #i have. so many thoughts. SO MANY THOUGHTS #steve & eleven #time travel au #steve said four (4) words in chapter 10. and not all that much in chapter 9. are people aware?? #do they see?? do y’all notice??? it’s fine if not but GOD these things just. make my arms tingle idk idk i’m so!! they’re so!! aah

[packder]

Being a doomer for a minute, humans are fucked as a race. Doesn't matter how many fixes or fundamental changes to society you do, people are still greedy and self centered. If you gave equality to everyone, some ass will work out a way to get people to give their share to them and that's our fundamental flaw. The amount of damage we've done as a race to the worlds eco system is beyond pointless. I've seen mines tearing up the land as far as the eye can see to be sent across the ocean to manufacture fucking pointless trend crap that falls apart in years instead of decades, recycling at this point is a joke; not recycling itself, but the amount of trash the world produces that just gets buried or dumped at sea cause "lol if can't see it, not a problem". I don't think the human race as a whole will ever hit that tipping point of "Waking up" and realizing the power the workforce has over the the assholes orchestrating this devastation. If we ever do, it'll be because we ran out of food or reason to go to underpaying jobs stopped sustaining us. The self sacrifice people as a whole would have to make to stop the madness is unfathomable, the amount that would have to suffer or die to make the machine stop. But it doesn't mean don't stop trying.

#I will always fight to make the world better no matter what #I create so much free content as its one of the few things I can do #but god damn if I stop and look at the bigger picture #our race does not deserve to go beyond #aliens be like #“can't join the space club cause you enslave your own people”

[unhealthy-leon-brainrot]

when i look up leon scenes on yt for when im editing and yt somehow recommends me compilations of leon and ada kissing, i die inside LMAOOOOOO

like damn yt thats not what i asked for 😭 STOP SHOWING ME THAT!!!!

#yes i dont ship leon with anyone besides ME #and yes i am one jealous/envious mf !! not afraid to admit that 😁 #i want leon FOR MYSELF !!!!!!!!!! #i literally have certain leon ships muted on different platforms so they dont show up on any of my feeds 💀 #when i learned that i can create my own safe space regardless of what other ppl think.. life became so much better!! #but ofc i dont attack or send hate to any of those who ship leon with other characters !! #like just do ur thing and let me do my thing and everyone is happy in their own spaces <33

[miodiodavinci]

you know i'm thinking about it again and i'm wondering if i ought to eventually private my main twitter and turn it into an archive purely because i've had that since 2015 and only opened my actual private in like. 2017 so there is All Sorts of dumb personal vent things in the depths of it that i'd rather not have scrolled through by anyone professional with the determination to do so skfdjhglkj

#i don't know if any employers could find my social medias #but i figure it's always better to be safe than sorry #the only other option i can think of is to create Job Specific social media and use a whole-other email address for all of it #and then offer that up if they ask #but also like #i don't like social media sdkjfhglks #i'm here on tumblr youtube and twitter and that's it #i barely want to be on twitter and youtube is just a place for hosting videos #like do you think they'll accept that?? #'i don't really like social media and i deleted my personal twitter when everything went downhill' ? ? ? #'at most i like looking at photos on pinterest' or something ? ? ? #because i legitimately refuse to get a facebook or an instagram #and i have a linkedin but i've never touched it actually #just thinkinge . . . . . . #i don't want my online personal life to be dictated by what looks good or bad to my employer #(said in a 'i want to continue talking about ocs and vocal synths and lamenting being nerfed by god' way) #(not in a “oooooh i'm a creep and i want to reblog kink shit on main or something ooooooh” way KJHFSLKJHFSL) #believe me my concern in this is almost entirely #1) there are things from when i was a teenager peppered around here and i don't want that to represent adult me #2) i want to have the freedom and space to talk about my hobbies without worrying someone at work is listening #you know ? ? ?

[oranglesswrld]

And for a second, the figure that spoke is surrounded in a halo of sun, face hidden in the shadows of her hat. 

my second piece for @podcastbigbang

this one was for @shelbychild ‘s incredible tscosi western au. this piece was SO much fun, glad I got to be apart of it!! 

you can find the fic here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/38766741

also be sure to check out the other art by @demonickitkats here it is stunning!!

[image description: a digital illustration of Arkady Patel from The Strange Case of Starship Iris podcast. She stands in the centre of a desert mesa environment. She is a south asian woman with brown skin and short black hair. She is dressed as a cowboy. Her jacket is dark red with white embroidered violets on shoulders. Her shirt is white with teal trim, matching her teal scarf. Her pants are orange, with a leaf pattern along the side. Her right hand clutches her cowboy hat, the other hangs at her side. Cacti and and mesa structures frame her in the background. Sunlight splits from big clouds on either side, surrounding Arkady’s head. The illustration has a warm, orange tone. End ID]

#what's better that gay ppl in space? gay cowboys #arkady patel #the strange case of starship iris #tscosi #podcast fanart #my art #possibly one of the best things ive created podcasts make me draw in ways other media can't #podcast big bang 2022