hidding today bc its sunday and i’m a lil more depressed than i expected but also having a hair care moment … happy sun-sol-day
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I have a MAJOR crush on a coworker, we're on different departments but there is some overlap. She's so funny, and cute, and smart! I missed feeling like this! I love being explained to, I love feeling like an idiot compared to my crush. Her laugh fills me with warm and fuzzy feelings. Her slight awkwardness is calming somehow and I like talking to her so much
BUT
When I asked her out she declined, so I'm keeping my distance and being as professional as I can be. Usually, being rejected kind of squashes the feelings and gets me to move on. This time though... maybe it's because I see her almost everyday? I just don't seem to move on. I OBVIOUSLY act as if it wasn't a big deal, and I just asked her out and moved on immediately. But on the inside... I think about her almost constantly, I haven't felt like that in years. So, since I can't do anything with all these feelings, I'm dumping all of it here. I'll definitely continue on acting professionally and try to redirect my infatuations. Maybe to the other people flirting with me? I just... can't? Don't want to? I don't know...
One time I drove her and other coworkers from a team building thing we had, and we kind of gushed over the mountain view. Also, she is named after the mountain the city is built over. So everytime I see that mountain (aka everytime I drive out of the city for work and stuff), I think about her again.
Crushing is hard
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