#current state: suffering

[ann-chovi]

It's uhhhh.... it's been a series of DAYS dear listeners.

#mari #pokemon trainer oc #drawing your OC to reflect your own mental state is helpful imo #so i am not alone in my suffering #job hunt begins tomorrow lolol #(no i didn't get fired or anything- just fed up with my current work situation) #wish me luck?

[very-lost-hobbit]

Seeing so many people I once respected and even adored/admired prove themselves mask off antisemites when given the chance and an "appropriate" enough reason is so incredibly heartbreaking. So many left leaning and supposedly empathetic people apparently do not hear themselves right now.

#my entire heart to the jewish community because MAN. I know it's never GREAT but the last few months have been ROUGH. #Obligatory of COURSE I care about the people suffering in Gaza too but. I should not have to qualify this post by saying that. #My empathy contains mulititudes I can care about multiple things at once. #Anyways. I can't imagine how much harder all of this in its entirety is for people actually affected by it <3 <3 <3 #also it's very easy to criticize the current Israeli administration without being antisemetic because FUCK Bibi he's an enemy to peace #just as much as Hamas is! They both suck! Hey look at that I just did it! #Wish things could hurry up and get the two state solution activists in the region have been calling for & an end to the cycle of pain. #Also. INCHERESTING how it was ''poor poor Russians they can't help where they live :('' vs ''ALL JEWS ARE COMPLICIT IN THIS ATROCITY'' #really really INTERESTING 🤔🤔🤔 (not to make everything ever about my main mantle- BUT. lol) #I also think some North Americans esp are projecting their own guilt for living on stolen land onto this conflict #but that's a different conversation #antisemitism #kat gets personal #me

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#Woha... Alright read the chapter 🫡 #It's just. I get where Fukuchi is coming from and I feel like after rereading it the whole thing was a little more clear but... #Did it *really* have to be so complicated. Like dude did it **really** have to be so complicated. #Maybe it had to idk. After all I'm always the first to say that a complex reality can't be reduced to simple axioms– #and that semplifications never bring anything good. #But at the same time was there REALLY no other way #Couldn't you promote your ideas diplomatically instead. Couldn't you become a democratic activist or politician. #Couldn't you write a book‚ person named OUCHI FUKUCHI #Also couldn't you? Talk about it with someone before executing your crazy plan so that anyone else might have pointed to you how crazy it i #But I suppose the whole central theme of this arc ultimately was “people who try to do everything by their own are destined to fall” #And to an extent it does still feel kinda self-contradictory of a plan. Like ahah my plan included not to make anyone suffer!!! #[turns half world population into a vampire] #Like c'mon? Violations of human rights can happen even without killing people dude #(Also Akutagawa) #(Like I get it he's only one (1) person. But he's also the only (only) person for me so I can't bring myself to ignore him y'know) #Mmmmmhhhhhh that's of the main things ig. I YELLED when they brought up Max Weber and the what-is-a-state question #That's like. One of the main questions my whole life studies centers on. #The adrenaline that gave me to see it mentioned in my current hyperfixation ahfjvafjhcvlawsvfblwhkv #This chapter was just so so political theories packed I felt like I was just still studying lol. #I feel like this was a true “get why bsd is labelled as seinen”. #You just can't do this kind of in-depth political theory discussion in shonen manga ig #What else. Still patiently waiting for ss/kk 😔 #random rambles

[zevrans]

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#so i finished my 4 out of 4th 12 hour shift in a row last night and i'm literally so exhausted and i was glitching mid simple tasks 🤡✌️ #my coworker asked to change shifts so he could have that one specific day as off #and he managed to do some very critical mistakes in his 4 days prior and that's considering his gf is often with him there #and i was the one suffering the consequences even if it's literally not my fault #ever since i've got this job i've been fixing so many mistakes of his i kept wondering who's the newbie here?? #like i try to leave my shift as good as possible i clean everything check everything and do all my duties #and when i come here after his shifts it's.. a fucktonne of work mistakes and literal dirt like dude!!! #4 shifts in a row never again man never again i am so tired my brain is nerfed and i can only rest for 1 day today because tomorrow i'm #going to a doc; #my social battery is not just dead it's nonexistent at this point #i just want to lay in bed and not be percieved or interacted with for at least the same amount of days 😫 #i really thought i could take a socially demanding and rather multitasking job without it taking hugest toll on my mental state huh??? #and i had such a bad sleep too i had a very graphic and sickening nightmare which woke me up 2 hours after i fell asleep #and then i woke 2 more times after that and i feel so exhausted and not rested at all and so fatigued i can't even do anything #man for me my sleep being interrupted is the worst like i function better if i have a smaller amount of sleep but it's uninterrupted #than longer in hours but it gets interrupted and i wake up even once #sorry i come here once in few days vent post and then dissapearvckfkv 😭 i miss tumblr but have no energy currently to even rb anything 🥲 #tbd

[void-critters]

On Repeat Tag!

thank you @morrigan-sims sm for tagging me!!

Rules: shuffle your On Repeat playlist and post the first 10 tracks.

The Moon Will Sing - The Crane Wives

Little Pistol - Mother Mother

Hollow Moon - The Crane Wives

Eat The Acid - Kesha

Radium Girls - Rachel Sumner

Good Fight - Trocadero

Don't Give That Girl A Gun - The Indigo Girls

Guide My Way (Red Like Roses Pt III) - Casey Lee Williams

Big Blue Dress - Cranius

Getting Naked, Playing with Guns - AJJ

... there's a lot to unpack here, but overall fairly accurate to my recent listening habits. AJJ and Kesha rly been getting me through the last couple months and I wouldn't be surprised if a couple of these songs end up in my spotify wrapped top songs.

Tagging @jonquilyst @dumplingtrait @hauntedtrait @folkbreeze @magnoliidae and if you clicked on any of these songs to listen to them, then you're tagged too! 😉

#nonsims #original critter content #tag games #morrigan sims #I have no excuse for the cranius song on here except its in my baldurs gate playlist #let me listen to my shitty WoW music in peace ok? #this list also a decently accurate representation of my current mental state; which is to say #I am Suffering™

[eucalyptuspop]

been seeing some discourse and i just wanna say, as a fellow grizznom enjoyer, i'm probably the one who wants the most to see grizz snap and yell at nom nom for being a jerk

#no i dont want grizz to fix him i want drama i want him to suffer and learn the consequences of his actions #grizz is there for support but ultimately its on noms to better himself #and ur right he should get in therapy before being in a relationship lol #i actually dont want them to be together until nom nom breaks out of his current state

[regularwomen]

suffering is not art just in case you were all wondering

#you’re not going to be sitting at home during what is the current state of the world writing meaningful songs #or writing captivating novels expressing the frustrations of a generation #we’re all sick and tired and it’s just not going to happen #so if you feel #bad that you’re not making something of your suffering #chill out #no one is lmao

[introvert-celeste]

Every time I hear about what DeSantis is doing it just gets worse. I love Florida but I fucking hate the people in charge. It's sickening.

#vent #Florida used to be a swing state but it's nosedived so quickly into extreme conservative territory so quickly #i don't it can ever recover #between anti-trans legislation and the don't say gay controversy with schools and the six week abortion ban among many other things #i had i feeling this was coming but i didn't expect it to pour in so quickly #and while none of these things currently affect me they make me very worried about what will happen next #and it hurts terribly to see those it does affect suffer bc there's very little i alone can do to help them #sorry to be a downer but this is weighing heavy on my mind

[penguin--person]

Buddy (Buddy Sim) for character bingo!

(And Enoch too if you have time!)

thank you for this!! buddy my best pal buddy ... got carried away in this, talked a lot, so !! cutting this post in half, hamburger style

no bingo:( checked off 'i wish they didnt exist' becuase. well. their existence is suffering, there's no true way for them to be content becuase they, well, exist . their purpose, to be your buddy, can never be fulfilled, but they care so much about it ! it's their one purpose, and if they can't get it right (becuase of the way they were made), it's still not going to be true friendship! both sides need to cooperate to be good friends, and there's no gurantee the person playing the game's gonna be nice:( even if they were somehow reprogramed, there's still no sure way for them to be truly happy, for them to achieve their true happiness, i think . so. im choosing to kill them to end their suffering, they can go hang out with enoch ! or something . it's. i love buddy but dear god the many moments of depression outweigh the bitersweet best ending . i wouldnt say anything like this about 'real' characters, like wirt for example, but. buddy had One truly good moment (that we know of, i guess) and everything else was hell . and . that's the way it has to be for them .

i love their design becuase its just!! god!! the too long limbs, the giant hands and feet, the not right fingers, the facelessness, the starving of them!! they want to be human so much! they want to be a real person, not just 0s and 1s! but! they can't! and their design represents that! and their extending hand . silly spring hand<3

I always have time for my best bud in law enoch!! fousek's best pal!!

his design is overall awesome, as you know, gotta love him!! biting his maypole version bc i wanna know what he would do. would he kill me? exile me? laugh and make me do community service? bite me in return? who knows, not me! also the reason for he doesnt get bullied enough! i wanna be the one to bully him! i think it would be funny<3

i would have checked off 'not for me but i can see the appeal', but you write enoch so cool and awesome!!! i can see the appeal and it is for me!! awesome guy!! big old guy!!

and BINGO enoch my best pal enoch has granted me BINGO and for that i give you the boy his friend

#. my buddy opinion is definetly affected by my current (Suffering) mental state i think . so . sobbing crying etc #thank you for the ask again!! got carried away w buddy abit. but my post my rules #buddy simulator 1984 #otgw #if buddy's existence had at least a sliver of chance at hope i would not kill them . but. god. there's none

[ukulelegodparent]

It is also my firm belief that any exhibition on 19th century politics and/or the leadup to WWI should be accompanied by circus music BC it's all complete and utter clown shoes

#like of course it would be somewhat insensitive bc it is clownery that very much lead to a shit ton of suffering and death #but like omg all the stuff that is nice about 19th century literature and art and music also very much existed in politics #except there it didn't lead to great things but instead some of the stupidest decisions known to man #ESPECIALLY anything after 1848 like jesus christ why does nobody habe clown's makeup on??? you all should! #also any current leftover from noble families back then who think they still have absolutely any rights to the areas their families #ruled back then regardless of whether or not they still are monarchs or not #like re:my comments about the prinz dumm Episode from Neo Magazin Royale #bc like yeah. 'hi my family has been significantly involved in the emergence of the last two world wars #specifically the first one and also a number of genocides etc. can I please have back my castle that was built #by your ancestors from your taxes for my ancestors who then sent your ancestors to go to die in the stupidest war™ #and that was recently renovated once again by your taxes? Yeah that one can I have it back please???' #unhinged how is this man walking around freely and not in professional care for his dillusions??? #also like 'well obviously Germany is a republic now. I respect that. obviously. yeah. but also if you ever want a king again I'm here #I'll do it no problems. also plz call me your royal highness 😌' insane people behaviour #girl I'm sure if I dig deep enough I can find some relation to some noble can I then use that as a basis to sue the german state to give me #idk a nice vase or something? #bc i mean it this random guy can do that why shouldn't I?

[voidcoretxt]

historia i teraźniejszość DIEEE. AND GO TO HELL.

#mutuals who know smthn abt the current state of polish education Do You Get My Pain. my Suffering. #voidcore.txt

[tariah23]

The new Chi no wadachi chapter 😵‍💫…

#this manga man… idk what to feel #rambling #it’s just tragic all around #like the mom was abusive but we do know that she has some kind of undiagnosed mental illness as well and then seichi… the son had to suffer #so much #definitely doesn’t excuse his she ruined her son’s life. MC looks to be in his 30’s now and hasn’t begun to heal… so fucked up #in the current timeskip at least #and then the dad seemed like the type to see what was going on but never involved himself in order to not cause any further conflict like he #seemed like and outsider of the abuse and never stepped in to help even when he must’ve known that his wife’s mental health had been #deteriorating for years probably before the MC had even been born #he seems kind and regretful of not protecting his son and doing more but man he was so weak #did he get with the wife because she was pretty or… #oshimi’s imagery is really elaborate and interesting all thoughtout the manga though #I love how he illustrates his character’s mental state and dissociation #his style has become more sketchy and slightly more realistic lately too #it’s still fine though he’s really good at illustrating the exact mood of the character’s surroundings and feelings