#cus i dont think they have yet

[nashvillethotchicken]

I wish there were more black people who were into iwtv so I can talk about how Louis's class and race interests intersected

#iwtv #amc iwtv #iwtv 2022 #its so crazy cus hes from a rich lightskin family in new orleans #like he says hed be a free man of color (not black) if not for jim crow #the intraracial dynamics of new orleans pre-1970 is so genuinely interesting to me and we never get to really get into them bc louis spends #all his time with white/nonblack people and when he is with his black daughter its different bc theyre so isolated from the great black com #like louis was absolutely in jack n jill as a kid. hed be in a blue vein society. hed be an alpha based off his name alone like #hes the black bourgeois class and its so crazy that people say hes middle class in fanworks like no babe. they had darkskin servants #i think it also stems from people relating blackness to poorness. ldpdl is not poor in any sense of the word #he inherented a literal plantation!!!! but because hes black people downplay his class interests (except for other black people) #yknow who really was poor? lestat! like eating syrup sandwiches with the lights and water cut off by the city poor #and yet people act like he grew up hyper rich in fanworks and its like... thats not what happened #you can talk about how jim crow and white supremacy squashed/manipulated the black elite class in nola while acknowledging louis' class #like they both came into the relationship with money (louis' money might have been shorter than lestats #but they still had money) #ldpdl #like i would even wager that louis family dont even consider themselves black like that #cus blackness is defined by whiteness and since louis spends all his time with white people bc of his business hes treated as and sees him- #self as black in a way that his family isnt. theyre only black when theyre made black if that makes sense #theyre black when white people are around

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

"Fenris is hard to friend with a pro-mage Hawke" to YOU. Liam gets him though

#it doesnt look that high but rn i dont even have varric maxed out; and he's the one i constantly get approval with x'd #but genuinely i was surprised when i heard so many ppl say they had trouble befriending him with a pro mage hawke #cus i bring him along p regularly even to mage centered quests and i still get max approval by the end of the game #well. liam *is* vocal against blood magic so that helps probably #tho the first time i played he was way more neutral on it (at the beginning at least) and i still max friended him #and tbf he gets less eager abt it in act 3 but at the same time hes the most open/willing abt supporting them in act 2 #guess liam is just built different xdd #laya plays dragon age #da2 #getting to the point now where approval does matter so i gotta start paying at least a little attention to who i bring where lol #so far im on track with everyone i think so no need to get finicky about it just yet~

[nerdie-faerie]

Thinking about how most of the times we see Kol in tvd he's acting as errand boy for his siblings, starting with Rebekah asking him to kill Matt at the ball. If he cared solely about killing someone to spit in the face of Esther's rules he could have killed anyone else after Rebekah changed the plan. The second time, he's in Denver with Jeremy and texts Klaus to let him know if there's anything else his brother needs from him. And later Klaus calls on him to use his presence with Jeremy to threaten Bonnie into undoing the linking spell. Then he's there again to kill Mary when he finds out from Klaus that the mfg are trying figure out who they're sired from after breaking his cover in Denver. He's not even in series 4 up until Rebekah gets undaggered and suddenly he's there to retrieve the professor for her

I just think it's interesting that he's characterised as the volatile and reckless sibling and in the originals we learn that he constantly feels like an outsider in his own family with Klaus, Rebekah and Elijah making up their own little trio with Finn daggered. And yet anytime they need something he's there, almost as though he's still desperately trying to endear himself to them until he inevitably lashes out and gets daggered for it, his efforts constantly unappreciated. The only time he asks them for a favour that I can recall is when he swears Rebekah to secrecy about the dagger he's working on against Klaus only for her to tattle and get him daggered

#TVD #TVDu #Kol Mikaelson #The Mikaelsons #sibling dynamics #this isnt even from the lb i just realised while i was trying to make a sandwich so here you go #i just find the family dynamic with the mikaelsons interesting particularly how the characters are presented by their siblings vs how they #actually behave cus the two frequently dont line up and i think thats fascinating cus hes a group of people that should know you better #than anyone the family youve spent centuries with but ironically their perception has been twisted by those centuries distorted by #past perceptions ongoing grudges and personal misconceptions like rebekah being labelled as having worse anger issues than klaus yet that #not being what were shown elijah being labelled as noblr while being the most likely to rip someones heart out klaus being labelled as #heartless while being desperate for connection and loyalty finn being labelled dull what in love with finn and being a fanatic etc etc #also not to put my shipper goggles on but i think thats why kennett apeaks to me cus bonnie will also do anything for her loved ones even #to her own detriment and kol has the same trait just tainted by a millennia of betrayal and bloodshed #the mikaelson are such interesting example of how even the sweetest of relationships can be warped by time and betrayals

[wetboycunt]

thinking in tags lol

#& #kinda want Ika from baddragon so bad ... maybe large one .??? it tapers a lot #but its so expensive..... and i dont wanna ask someone bc i would probably not want to actually record stuff yet #i do NOT like my body like at all im too fat and hairy imo... fine on everyone else but me #if i was confident enough or skinny enough tho would totally have already started sex work online grrrr #anyway just thinking out loud....... $145 for the toy i want so maybe ill use credit card and slowly pay off instead of buying outright #or asking someone for it because i lack the confidence for a sugar mommy thing lawl #also having avpd is so hard cus... like i need the other party to do everything first... let me listen while they talk until im comfortable #or send videos or pics b4 i do until im comfortable.. idk. #personality disorders are hard

[northern-passage]

if the only way you know how to criticize my handling of Lea is to somehow blame Merry and also Trans Women™️ as a whole then i’m going to be honest: your criticisms are not going to be the ones i listen to. it’s very strange to me now that both times i’ve had people specifically bring up Merry when talking about Lea and also follow it up with, and i quote: “people only care about trans women.” this monolithic Trans Women you keep blaming has nothing to do with the decisions i’ve made about Lea, and i’m begging you to think for like 2 seconds and realize what you are saying and how you sound right now. i’m not even trying to change your mind or your feelings regarding Lea, that conversation has been had many times over at this point, but you have got to stop blaming trans women for.... being more oppressed than you ? come on

#transmisogyny #i'm always open to discussing things i could do better but if you do this it's an immediate No from me #smells like MRA shit for real #there is no reason for it and yet both times people have found a way to weasel in awful comments about trans women #it's gross and unnecessary #and immediately makes me recoil #this is not a 'competition' and it's weird that you think it is #this isn't an invitation to debate either btw this is just a PSA lmfao #cus again. Weird that it's happened both times now #and i never really know how to respond to it #if you want to blame someone then blame me. the person who Wrote the character that way #and again there are many posts on this blog where i discuss lea and all of the characters and why i do what i do with them #so im not interested in having the discussion again and im sure you all arent either lmfao #but i really dont like this attitude some people seem to come away with which is. 'blame trans women' ??? #like why would you say that. why would you feel that way. it's a bit weird innit? #and are the trans women in the room with us right now??? #anyways. just something to think about before you send me weird transphobic rants about hating lea and merry and trans women #and feminine transmasc people. and perhaps next time just Do Not send me that #personal

[forestryfae]

anyways i think. if someone says "i want to do something" and you just fucking leave without them or you make no effort to try to include them or help them include themselves youre not trying hard enough

in other words, a group of us said we wanted to go for a walk but apparently youre not allowed to use the bathroom before you leave so they left without me<3

#what the fuck even is the point. #and like. if they were unsure. they coulve ASKED. but yknow. hats fucking impossible here cus no answer is an automatic yes or no depending #on what the person who made the assumption feels like in the moment. #talkies #we're supposed to play dnd at some point too but eveyone has made a character already and i didnt even know #they KNOW i wanna play. but any time i mention that i dont have a character yet nothing fucking happens either #'oh you should make a character! :)' okay? where did you all hide the fucking character sheets then. #why didnt anyone ask me if i wanted to make one when ive said i want to play. there was in fact time to think. #anyways. really love it when noone makes an effort to include me when its something they know im interested in #or i make an effort to reach out and i get zero fucking response

[nyankoizumi]

how it feels to chew five stickmen.                           stimulate your senses

#avm #read this if you dare #this doesnt even come CLOSE to explaining everything goin on inside my head #but i guess i can note some stuff #firstly blue is such a little hater because he REALLY isnt cool with people who have hurt his friends #its like they get all older brother about it so thats why they still hate mango's guts #two a lot of the color gang consider red as a younger brother/just a sibling #and three the romantic relationships; purple might've sorta developed a crush on green but he doesnt know that #so he thinks of them as a friend and they dont wanna mess things up so to the friendzone they go #next endie and red have a thing for each other but endie is so dense about it and they dont see each other enough to go anywhere #so they stay friends for now but the others all know endie has a massive crush on red #and lastly vic has given mango the tittle of hot guy i wont shut up about except he doesnt know them so its a bit weird and parasocial #you know the drill #and all of these. arent fully canon in my mind it depends #im not one to genuinely believe in ships in canon unless stated otherwise by the media #maybe purple is the exception cus i see him doing that thing where someone your age shows you a pixel of kindness and you're head over heels #animation vs Minecraft #i actually reccomend doing this even if its not understandable too #its fun to think about #OH and green has a complicated relationship with mango because he isnt sure he's good for purple yet he has to prove himself #but he wont tell him that #on the other hand mango respects him as purple's friend #im not tagging all of these #avm ships #i guess

[blinky-skyd]

does anyone......wanna hear abt my agent ocs 👉👈

#in the mood where im thinking abt them and their interactions. ahh #theres 4 of them! and a half!!!!! 2 and a half of them dont have names!!!!!!! #i love them theyre just still in progression #oh cus i forgot neo 3 is now a thing i dont have a new 3 yet so i meant 4 of the ogs

[homosexual-fanfiction]

okay theoretically .. if you were to look at the word count for a chapter.. how many words do you think would make you say "this is too fucking long"

#extremely unsure as to weather i should chop this up yet again cus . i maybe sort of really rushed the planning near the end #when i was drafting everything out at the beginning of november #because i REALLY wanted to start writing but now i am paying for it by having to wrestle with these last few chapters #i think if i did break it up #i have an idea of where i would do so. but then i think i would end up with like a long chapter and then a shorter chapter and then a long #chapter again? #i want to give everything the space to have the attention it deserves and its looking like i might have to split this and make it 12 chapte #chapters if i want that tumblr can you please stop putting error messages over my tags while im trying to type. you bitch #anyways #all that is just to say i'm curious what everyone's opinion would be on what would constitute too long of a chapter #cus right now im thinking if it breaks 10k i'll find a place to break it up #but i'm interested to hear other opinions #i could have said that a lot more concisely instead of having an essay in the tags but u kno #btw NONE OF THIS MEANS ANYTHING IS READY SOON. just incase. i dont want to get anyone's hopes up on accident i think this chapter might tak #take a hot second here to write like i have chunks of it done and i know what i want to happen but i'm going to have to beat at it a lot to #make it happen smoothly #soooooooo be patient with me #for the sake of having a good chapter to read <3 instead of a rushed one <3 thankies <3 #not an update

[ribbonbonny]

by god they werent lying when they said that fantina grid expansion made her powerful homegirl legit melted through uxie. and that was with only sycamore and fucking blaine as party members

#also got to test out NY dawn on uxie :] whihch was fun!! #though fantina actually blazed theough the battle faster i think WWWW good for her!! #though in all fairness neither of them are EXed n im sure thatd help dawn a good bit #plus shes 1/5 compared to fantina 5/5 #ive only ever paid for the story and champion bundle in pmex and now that theres FINALLY select scouts i can use m #ny dawn ny lisia and fall caitlin were the choices :] #palentine mallow was a good option too solely cus. better unit n the pnly palentine unit i lack #but caitlin is simply so pretty… #the other two were kind of no brainers any others in their pool i wanted i already have #ribbon rambles #ribbon plays pokemas #havent gotten to test caitlin and ny lisia yet but tbf i have faith in them #caitlin is good for pure defensive supporting #ny lisia will get her turn for physical weak fairy stages #i do gave 5/5 diantha. #but i love lisia so ill take it #even if the ny idols dont have my fav outdits theyre still overall cute

[bittersweet-mojo]

shoutout to the first gay people in the witcher. i sure hope you guys dont die haha. i havent finished the show yet.

#blood origin spoilers #about me #the witcher blood origin #yayy. clap clap clap. #dont tell me im serious i havent finished it yet #i cant tell if the implication is they cant be together because of class or the gay thing #cus its pretty weird to have it just be the class difference #guys i get that your trying to do something here but are you really gonna commit to #sexism is a thing. but gay people are fine we just so happened to not have any gay people yet. #cus thats. a choice. #this doesnt really make sense you guys #im gonna think its really funny if theyre like and then humans came and they were homophobic :) #asdfghjkl

[kii2me2ii2]

omori's inclinations towards self isolation is so realistic and similar to my own it's almost disturbing and very nearly triggering... very. nearly.

#not really a vent jus. hm. #its not surprising or anything. omoris a good game. its been praised for how it deals with and portrays this stuff. #im watching the sleepy crest black space ii vid #my shut in life will turn into a rock /lyrref #thinking about it is a little difficult. its hard to without becoming. consumed.. with desires i know. can be destructive #that said are but i changed it to 'can be'. so i can have plausible deniability when i relapse into madd&shut in and pretend its ok ^^ #because i know its not good to anticipate failure or relapse or whatever. but its like. that desire feels so base level for me. #its the safest i feel and relapse is inevitable and.... welcomed. almost. it cant last because i have people whod be hurt by it. #so welcoming it doesnt feel dangerous. i have people with me that i have a duty not to shut out. (i can wait until they leave me just fine) #but i like making friends. so i know realistically its somewhat unlikely ill ever feel like i dont have a 'duty' not to shut in for others. #and my family actually like..... has a substantial relationship with me now. but i think my dissociation can take care of that problem #rather easily. ive always planned the potential for them. not my friends though. so i cant shut in yet ^^ #though i do technically..... have a plan if even they become too unbearable as well. that goes back.. years at this point #but it has less to do with disconnection on my part and instead more to do with festering disconnection on their part #i know whats good for them i know whats good for me and thats hikikomori ^^ #haha i jus said that cus it rhymed lol ignore me #does the post above even hold up at this point. #well. i think so. i dont think the game itself is triggering. i think im digging this well myself. and its not like ill be stuck here #i dont feel as though i am going to be consumed either. i think im just making noise. for the post. and to talk about this experience #since its something i struggle with quite a bit. but i dont tell my friends or stuff about it. because that feels..... mean. almost #like. oh ya by the way i fantasize a lot about you leaving my life. ya you should feel bad for me or something. idfk #really. really. the only feeling i have thinking about this shut in life is...... almost warmth. i think. #i dont think i could ever see the idea completely negatively. ive lived in a haze of drugs daydreams secrets and self isolation before. #its just. safe. it doesnt matter how the days blend together. your brain crowded and constantly foggy with dissociation. #youre somewhere else. somewhere where these things dont matter... those things help you get there. theyre tools of equivalent exchange #give your life up and you can create a new one. that idea had always permeated through my life in a manner of styles #but this is probably the most.... sensical and safe manifestation of that idea ^^ #anyways. i like chatting about this stuff with people who relate #so hmu i guess. #vent in tags

[nerdie-faerie]

Currently thinking about the last time I met up with my college friends, and we went around the table reintroducing ourselves with names and pronouns, cus it gets like that. And every time it would come around to me, I would deflect and distract instead of answering because I hadn't actually figured it out yet. It's coming up on a year since then, I still have no idea what the answer would be

#Queer gang #it was literally this time last year cus it was the last time i went home for winter break that i saw them all #i panicked and got distracted the first time i was supposed to introduce myself despite the fact theyre the last people who would judge #but were a bunch of very easily distracted fckers so it wasnt even that noticeable that i hadnt answered at first #but then one of them realised id never actually introduced myself and i cant even remember how i changed the topic #but someone would always realise in the middle of someones story so id just redirect the attention to what we were already discussing #to buy myself time to think but i never actually came up with an answer and im stuck on a coach rn so my brain has all this time to think #and im just. its been a year since that incident its been several years since i started to think maybe my gender didnt entirely fit #but every time i try to figure it out like a puzzle like i did with my sexuality the first time i realise i dont really have an answer #its not that i feel that something else would fit better and i cant figure out why it doesnt feel right in the first place #is it because i was raised hyperfeminine despite growing up predominantly around brothers? #is it because tradition gender roles dont fit anyway when yoyre queer because so much of gender is tangled up in sexuality? #is it because im taking too much of a theoretical/whatever approach to it when i know gender is predominantly a social construct? #is it because its just not that deep and i dont care? or do i care and i just havent figured it out yet? idk

[300iqprower]

This seems a bit out of left field here but I’ve suddenly remembered how Fate’s Cu doesn’t have his battle frenzy and that’s so…odd ??? ?? Because literally every other depiction of Cu adapts it ( such as Smite, who gives him a literal monster transformation) and it’s one of his key character traits but Fate just…doesn’t have it? Not even Berserker!Cu has it. I’m not complaining but it’s just such a odd creative decision.

It’s cause it would completely show up Artoria and Heracles. None of the celtic servants EVER get to truly cut loose. Medb goto be a major villain but 1. Her character revolved around Cu (how Turas Realta fixed that was fcking incredible) and 2. the mythical beings like Cu, Scathach, and Fionn are all severely held back for arbitrary reasons.

This isn’t a joke, to be clear. Like it kind of of is but the Fate franchise has an incredibly racist view of the celtic nations. Despite having the most famous irish hero in the original Stay Night cast, Fate as a series has a ton of pro-imperial britain sentiments and part of that means a disgusting amount of anti-celtic themes, by which i mean themes that intentionally or not support the british destruction of celtic culture and subjugation if its people. The big one is that the british knights are portrayed as “bringing nobility to the celtic savages”.

From a purely writing perspective, Cu not having it in FSN makes sense, he’s the lancer not the berserker and it was established within just the scope of FSN that servants can be summoned to multiple classes. Putting Warp Spasm/Riastrad in would be redundant to Heracles’ character.

But Cu Alter not having it? Oh there’s zero excuse for that. None whatsoever. The only reason I can even imagine for it is not wanting Cu to look too cool. Which would be a stupid reason to assume, were it not for the heavy anti-irish sentiments already running through the series. On top of that, Cu Alter’s mats seem to bend over backwards to explain why he isn’t the Warp Spasm even though frankly he could totally pass as the base form of a Warp Spasm Cu :/

#fgo #fate cu chulainn #warp spasm cu chulainn #never thought i'd get an ask #anyways this is yet another thing i have in my own writing as a character #i dont think Nasu hates the irish i just think he’s a masive fuckinh teaboo #so he treats the cektic and norse like garbage simply by association

[transmascnepetaleijon]

i love the online community and the culture but being part of the terminally online gang is really having more cons than pros

#debating what im gonna do now #im still gonna post stuff here sure but only on my computer maybe? like im seriously considering deleting the app from my phone #plus im thinking of actually like. making a schedule for myself #thats a lot harder in practice though because if im not gonna be on my phone then im gonne be doing a slee of random activities #the which i cant really predict #like yes yes yes having everything on my day mapped out and all my activities ready sounds so good #but i know that when the time comes for me to sit down and do something ill be like ''actually what if i like did something else'' #im also gonna see if i can manage to get my hands on a portable cd player or something to minimize what i use my phone for #ideally id have an ipod cus that sounds cool but i have zero clue if you need itunes to use it #can i just like? download shit onto it? please #im also seriously considering going back to swimming #or. something. my mom told me weightlifting is soo perfect for me cus i like doing suff alone but i have anxiety and also cant wok out - #without someones help cus im that weak #im really not athletic ok. like i suck really hard at everything athletics. i dont know why im even considering going back to swimming #im mostly just wanting to do something like that so my mom stops bothering me about physical activities #maybe i can go on daily walks... #i have the hobbies that i like. enjoy doing too #like dnd and drawing and writting and playing my guitar and (more recently) miniature stuff #im planning on customizing a dollhouse i have ! but the theme hasnt really been set yet augh #i think im gonna drop athleticism and focus on my nerd shit #and yeah im gonna delete the tumblr app from my phone so no more posts throughout the day #i have one more week of break before classes come back and its oe week to get a strong daily guideline for my days #txt

[jrueships]

I'm so glad you liked the lowry gifset!! I thought it was so bad you decided not to post it lol

OMG NO!!!! I WOULD NEVER DO THAT LMFAO T R US T ME! a guy who doesn't even know how to gif deebo BREATHING will NEVER upturn his nose on another's gifset!!! I think all gifs are cool tbh but STILL anything a MOOT makes/sends to me is PRISTINE in MY eyes!!!! don't worry, i and the rest of the tumblrinas appreciated the BEAUTY of THE BOOTY of those gifs! devious content aside 😈😈 i thought they were all great quality and GREAT choices !

#this is just gen message to all the anons n moots who sent me asks i have yet to reply to... im so sorry 😭😭 #i want yall to know tho it's NOT cus i thought it was a bad ask or submission !! im just a HUGE overthinker #so i HAVE to think of the BEST way to answer the ask n not make the asker think i just answered it carelessly or whatever ! #im the same way with texting.. i am an AWFUL texter #i hate being left on read but i always leave OTHERS left on read it's crazy cus i can understand the feeling #yet continue it onto others #BCS LIKE! i feel like it's my JOB to reply to EVERY SINGLE INDICATION texted best i can #n if i dont then i DIE! #so like if someone sends me a long ask (which i LOVE) or a video.. i gotta think of the best way to RESPOND?? #to really VALUE it and make the answer worth the time the ask was sent with! gotta point out every second n everything that made me THINK #in words that make SENSE and are quality responses??? ig???? #so YEA WHAT I MEAN IS.. i get the feelin but i am mental 😭 #but if ANY of you send me an ask and i havent gotten to it yet so u unsend the ask... i willl Find you. #BCS TRUST ME I AM STILL THINKING OF THE OLD ASKS SENT TO ME THAT I HAVENT ANSWERED YET... #thinking of how to respond best to individual stuff n stuff! #this is just a SO U KNOW so yall know! im just a huge overthinker who sees a simple math problem n takes eons trying to figure it out LMAO #I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE N IT'S JUST A LIL EXPLANATION 2 LET EVERYONE KNOW THEY ARE VALUED #n appreciated <33!!! #ted asks #THANK U AGAIN FOR UR SERVICE WITH THE GIF IT WAS WONDERFUL !!!!