'Cold hands'
First Love with Nayeon
- angsty but turns into fluff, kinda talking about homophobia in the beginning?? (just the whole im scared of others to hear it thing)
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Confessing your love for her was probably somehow the most difficult thing in your life. The fear of rejection, of judgment, actually of everything, it was always there. What if she will hate me? What if she never wants to be friends with me again? Something like that was always in your head, for years. But those thoughts disappeared the moment Nayeon said:
"I love you"
She left after wiping away a tear from her cheek. You just stand there - in actually her apartment. You just couldn't live with the thoughts anymore, just wanted to get rid of it. You just started talking. How much this friendship is dragging you down and stuff, but Nayeon was hit harder than you thought.
You walk around her apartment a bit, walk to the dresser in the living room - pictures of you together, hugging, kissing eachother on the cheek, laughing together and so much more. You feel yourself smiling. And then it hits your head.
You really love her.
That moment actually showed you how much you actually like her.
"Shit," you mutter. You grab your jacket and put it on as fast as you can. You run out of the apartment, slamming the door behind you. She can only be at one place...
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"This is where I always go when I want to be alone"
She said as she showed you a bench in a park, her "comfort place" as she called it.
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It is dark when you arrive, you see the back of a person sitting on the bench. It can only be her.
"Nayeon" you call out. She doesnt move, continuing to stare at the water infront of her.
"I know you heard me" you walk towards the bench she is sitting on and sit down next to her. Except for the waves and some light gusts of wind, it is completely silent, your breathing not in time. "Are you serious?" you ask, it's soft, a low whisper that makes someone listen clearly to really hear it all.
"Why shouldn't I mean it?" she asks back, again in that quiet tone. As if there were people around you, but you are completely alone. The fear that the world will hear is too much. You are silent, she answers her question herself, "I didn't kiss you on the cheek all the time for fun. Or hugged you like no one else did. I kind of wanted to show it without having to...", she pauses, thinking about the right way to describe it, "..say it."
"Do you think they will loathe us?" you ask quietly, one could even think that you say it in a frightened tone.
"I don't know." she answers.
"Me? Maybe... problably. But you? I don't think so." she says, a soft sigh afterwards. A tear runs down your cheek.
Just tell her. Damn it, you know. Tell her.
Your thoughts are overwhelming you. Nayeon gets up and slowly walks away, you sit on the bench, not daring to move in any way. You stop breathing and just sit there.
You do love her. You know it. You are alone. Its just the two of you. What are you waiting for?
You do love her?
You love her.
You stand up, your legs moving faster than you can think.
"Nayeon!" you call after her, she is already further away, but you can still see her figure. The street is almost dark, with only a few streetlights left on. You run after her, and suddenly, you reach out. Your hand around her thin wrist. She stops, looking at you with a glance over her shoulder. Her eyes red from tears. You haven't even looked at her face once since she left you alone in her apartment.
"We could be seen-..it's better if you go.... I-I need time, alon-" you stop her from talking further.
You kiss her. Your lips on hers. Your hands on her cheeks.
You slowly pull away from her, taking a step back. You wipe your tear away from your face and smile at her.
"You don't know how long I've wanted to do this," you say.
"I don't care if the others see it Nayeon" you take her hand and walk with her back to the bench. "I just want to be with you" you sit down on the bench.
"I know you said you come here to be alone, but how about we just be "alone" together?" you smile again. So does she. She breaks her silence. "That's a very good idea" she takes your hand in hers, your fingers stroking each other's.
It feels like you've always been this happy.
"I love you" you say, no longer in that strange, quiet, fearful tone.
"I love you too" replies Nayeon, loud and proud. You both laugh, your cold hands warming each other.
You could sit on that bench forever, away from everyone. Just the two of you on a very cold winter night, but it doesn't matter. You both have each other, and that is completely enough.
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I miss dive so much 🥺 ghost, can you give us HCs about what each family does on a night in?
hmm let's see!
minayeon - they like to cook together often and try new recipes nayeon bakes with yoona, and then they'll try to make a dish they love together or try a new one then they probably watch a movie or a show they're all watching together, then the two like to talk about their days and everything else while they're tucked in bed with each other :)
sahyo - jihyo will try to cook something really elaborate or they'll order take out from one of their favorite restaurants, sana might have a few work calls to do after so jihyo hangs out with the kids until they sleep, although sana likes to read books with haewon so she'll try to do that, and then well y'know how it is with sahyo after the kids are fast asleep!
dahmo - on a good night dahyun will have time to cook, but on a chaotic night (which they usually are) the kids will scream for dino nuggets and mac and cheese or something, then after dahyun will try to get at least one of them to bathe, momo will yell at sakura while trying to help with her math homework, and then the entire household is passed out by 9:30pm, sometimes all of them crowded on dahmo's bed because they couldn't get them to settle
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