Back in January I was planning on a trip to San Diego w the idiot and his friends. And I had this grand idea that in the time between then and when we would fly out I would convince him to be with me.
Well.
I just looked when that flight was scheduled (thank god I didn’t purchase any plane tickets), and it would have been scheduled for May 11th. Wednesday this week.
May 11th now, though, is the day I’m making it official w mister million. May 11th is when I’m letting this man know that I’m ready to go ahead with him after I was the one to slow it down on calling it a relationship. And May 13th (the San Diego trip would have been through to the seventeenth) I’m about to meet up with some of the best people I have come to know since the start of the pandemic.
Time is a funny thing, and every day I’m grateful for whatever force moves us along in this weird little existence we all get to take part in.
Being on mutual, as a queer person, is so weird. Like I'm scared to say that I'm genderfluid on there so I basically just put down in my profile that if you're not an ally of the lgbtq+ community then don't swipe up because I have a lot of queer friends. And like. I mean it's technically true. But. Idk. I really wish I could just be myself.
i think me and steph are gonna breakup...i rlly hurt him. i hurt myself.
and its my fault. I dont understand how ppl fall in love so fucking easily!!!!! I dont know how to love, i dont know what thats supposed to feel like. When steph says he loves me, how tf does he know that? We've only been dating for a month. Ugh its confusing and annoying. I dont know if its me not understanding love or if im feeling loved "too soon".
Im on the cusp of a breakup because i didnt lrocess my trauma 🙃 im fucking pathetic.
When tells me he loves me, i feel repulsed.
What the fuck am i?!?!?!? I desire love and affection, but once i have i cant deal w it!!!! Im constantly at war w myself and contradicting myself. It doesnt make sense.. And i rlly dont wanna breakup, i rlly dont. But he deserves someone better like this shit is fucking obnoxious at this point.....
dating simulator where it starts normal but it slowly becomes clear that all of the romanceable characters are attempting to cover up an extremely specific murder they committed a year ago before you arrived
I have a first date set up for the first time in seven months!!!! And I’m actually excited about it? She checks all my boxes so pls pray i dont fuck this up
I was seriously at my lowest from the end of January through to early March. But I learn and grow and prosper every day. And now we’re here today, and I just love these two vids smushed together displaying point A and point B and that it’s worth it to hang on.
In the first video I was screaming: i was first, I was supposed to leave first (because I’d tried to leave amiably two weeks prior to when things ended for good)
it's time again for the ✨#ADHDCosmicTakeover!✨
my comic this year is about pinballing helplessly between interests and the frustrating feeling of being a "jack of all trades, master of none"
(but who said i have to be a "master" of anything anyway? fuck off!)
thank you so much to dreamadoodles for organizing this year! pls check out the tag to see more comics from other contributors 🌠
ill talk about this in my physical journal more but, ive been confused as to whether or not me n lukas are still dating..... i think im just trting to hold on to him. But hes monogamous and i very much NOT. we had conversatiom back in November...it felt like a breakup. maybe bc it wasnt tragic or whatever i didnt really register it. But he basically said i can do what i do but je doesnt want to be in a long term relationship w a polyamorous person. Thats a breakup.
Im not flimsy with my relationships. I seek long term connection, i gotta be sure to bring up me being polygamous VERY early on in my relationships