Gulity, anger, fear, blame, stupidity
Everyone is mad at me because of this and if it threatens my familys lives I’ll never forgive myself. I know that I still went out and could have gotten it either way, but when warnings signs where staring me in the face I just jumped right in, biggest fucking mistake. Everyone was irresponsible.
Ive seen two movies and cried, they were sad, but crying in general pass time. I just want to start redecoratig my room right away to get my mins of everything.
My headache is so bad.
I took a bath with a face mask and had candles and incense on. I turned the lights off and tried to think about something else.