#daydreaming out loud

[daydreamoftheendless]

if your bells hells group art contains dorian i’m giving you a lil kiss

#critical role #he’s part of bells hells!!!! #as he should!!! #but also as a reminder if you make artwork in this fandom regardless of dorian inclusion i’m still giving you a lil kiss #thank you artists #dorian storm #bells hells #cr #daydreaming out loud #cr fanart

[randomnotebookthoughts]

Aren’t you tired of the space between us?

#random notes #random thoughts #randomnotebookthoughts #female writers #writers and poets #writers on tumblr #thinking out loud #obsessive daydreaming #love poetry #love #spilled ink #words #quotes #icona pop #spotify #text post #feelings #poets on tumblr #poets corner

[kisses4kaia]

brothers best friend billy bc i am self-indulgent ☺️ very poorly proofread😴 edit; here’s another installment of this au <3

william h. bonney is a gentleman.

he is a gentleman, but fuck, if you whisper another word into his ear, warm breath fanning over the cusp, he’s not above bending you over the poker table and fucking you in front of everyone, including your brother.

and billy knows, he knows you’re trying to rile him up, knows you’re just trying to get a ride rise out of him, but did you really have to hit him where it hurts? you’d learnt not too long ago that billy is quite sensitive on his ears—when you nibbed him on his earlobe while he was balls deep inside your tight cunt and he came on the spot—and if you didn’t take advantage of that from time to time, you reasoned, it would be an injustice, truly.

“oh billy, don’t you know fucking your best friends little sister is wrong? how long has this been going on—2 months, huh? hmm, you ever gonna tell jesse? oh, no. he would kill you if he found out, wouldn’t he? and you’re still taking that risk for me; how romantic of you, billy,” your voice is a tantalizing taunt, and it’s winding him up, so much so that he has to take a swig of his whiskey to cover up the flush spreading on his cheeks.

your whispers are received from billy with a shudder, whom you’re standing behind while he sits at the poker table. nobody really even notices you talking to him, not even jesse. he’s focused on winning, as is billy, but you just make it so much damn harder for your lover.

the game is on its last play and it’s gotten quite intense. “reveal your hands,” the dealer commands and jesse lays down his cards before billy shows him up completely, 4 aces over jesse’s straight.

the sportsmanship is friendly even after billy gathers the whole pot for himself and jesse goes to catch a drink at the bar, giving billy the perfect opportunity to figure out what the fuck your little show was about.

his large hand is wrapped around your—by comparison, small—wrist, and he’s dragging you outside the saloon, all the way to his house just down the block.

when the door slams shut, billy’s lips are on yours faster than you can blink.

he has this way about his kisses—they’re always needy, but not all-dominating. he doesn’t want to own you, you can see it is his eyes, the eyes that are so much softer than lil the other men you’ve come across, who look at you like a piece of meat. he kisses you with a certain passion, a fire that you haven’t been able to find with anybody else, and it ignites something bubbly inside you. he’s feverish, and you reciprocate his urgency, fingers hooking into his two front belt loops, pulling him closer to where you need him the most.

“fuck, pretty. really tryna rile me up, huh? fuck was that, back at the game?” his lust-blown pupils do nothing to hide the fact that you won. you got just what you wanted, so with a giggle you respond, voice teasing. “i just wanted to see how gentlemanly you could stay before you would eventually break—i knew you would break,”

billy scoffs and rolls his eyes, before placing his lips on yours, more gently this time, and picking you up, wrapping your legs around his waist, carrying you to his bedroom that you’ve grown oh, so, familiar with.

he surprises you when rather than laying you down on your back unto the bed, he sits down himself, begins unbuttoning your linen button-down and unbuttoning the boot-cut denim jeans that hugged your ass so fucking well, before pulling all of it off of your limbs and helping you pull his own trousers down.

with gentle maneuvering, billy eases you onto his hard, awaiting cock. a soft gasp leaves you, and a deep groan from billy reverberates throughout the room. “this is what you wanted? to sit on my dick, make your pretty, little pussy cum? yeah? go on, use me. ride my cock, hm? you own it, it’s yours,” his breathy words only speed up your pulsing around his dick, and pull a aroused moan from your throat.

he sounded so honest, so real. it was times like these, with him underneath you, coming more and more undone by the second, that felt the most raw. it was times like these, when his hands where welded onto your hips, surely leaving bruises, that you realized, you didn’t want this with anybody else, ever. you never wanted to leave his loving embrace, and it’s with that epiphany you speak.

“fuck, billy, i love you. i love you so fucking much, oh my god, fuck!”

his hips falter slightly at the sentence, but almost like a serendipitous parallel, billy cums with a loud moan right along with you, orgasms perfectly in time with one another.

and as he comes down from his high, riding you through your own, his response to your confession is uttered—in hushed tones, in fear that if he dare raises his voice, dare speak freely, dare open his arms, you may disappear, like sand through his calloused fingers.

“i love you, too, angel. i think… i think want forever with you.”

#.𖥔 ݁ ˖ִ ࣪⚝₊ ⊹˚ 𝐤𝐚𝐢𝐚 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐬 ! #hehehehehe #billy the kid #billy the kid smut #billy the kid imagine #billy the kid x reader #william h bonney #william h bonney smut #tom blyth smut #tom blyth #william bonney #billy antrim #guys if he doesn’t show up in my bed soon #im going to go so fucking insane #but yea this was really just me daydreaming out loud😼 #kaia writes william

[scribbleshrimp]

hey i just wanted to thank you for escam. i know youre like done with uploading it but you were one of the only things keeping me on there for a while. which i guess im also thanking you for stopping

Glad you liked it! It makes me really really happy that it had a positive impact on a few people. I kinda cringe looking back at it, it was full of spelling mistakes and inconsistencies and really odd narrative choices (holyyy shit the fig tree motif that was supposed to be a core thing was poorly brought up and feels so out of place reading back) but it was my first attempt of actually writing character dialogue and an overarching story. TikTok is EVILL I can’t believe how shitty I felt about myself due to a few comments saying it was mediocre like yeah duh it was my first attempt writing something that wasn’t an essay for school! Of course it wasn’t perfect!!! Why is it a crime to not have professional level work for a hobby. That app is super cruel to beginners, the “art lore” stuff there that’s just bullying kids for being bad at anatomy is super malicious. But despite that scrambling to post videos during lunch in the middle of a noisy cafeteria while also prepping for a math test is memories I cherish lol. It’s kind of annoying that I think the thing I’ll be most remembered for are my characters that I developed as an edgy teenager since I’m not really planning on sharing more of my stories publicly but it makes me super thrilled that people found value in it. Okay okay sorry I’m rambling I just get excited when people willingly read my work. It makes me feel like a 5th grader discussing my warrior cat ocs during recess again. I’m glad you deleted TikTok that place rots the mind and soul.

#I’m done with Escam and that whole era of my life was one where I wasn’t really happy #but that doesn’t stop me from happpily daydreaming Mallory animatics I’ll never draw while listening to music #I have a complicated relationship with the people who live in my head #they still talk constantly and it’s super loud and annoying. I occasionally still wrote out what they are saying #or else they don’t leave my brain alone!!! #right now they are debating the ethics of art preservation. Efron has very strong opinions on it #mallory even stronger #anywayssssss thanks for leaving this lovely anon it made my night #or uhhhh my morning I guess #good lord it’s 3am and I have plans at 7am #this ask was a sign from the universe to sleep probably

[amomentwiser]

I've made up a daydream scenario in which I talk to a therapist and it's... actually kinda helpful?

I be therapising myself asking questions as well as answering them at 1 am

Like I know I should probably to go to a real one at some point but until then, I'm keeping this up.

#I mean I talk tp myself / out loud alllll the time #but when I imagine saying stuff I'm having a hard time with to a therapist #it's like i look at it more objectively? if that makes sense #lmao why am i so weird #tags #maladaptive daydreaming #daydreamer #madd #daydreaming #imaginary scenarios #imagination #self help

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

the thing about me is that having a crush is fun for the first little while and then I just slowly become more and more overcome with insecurity about it

#like yeah he's friendly and nice to me but I know there's no chance. NONE. that it means anything at all. #no way. like there's no way he'd ever see me that way. We Just Work Together #and it sucks because I genuinely do enjoy just being friends with him! like there aren't many people I've met #who I genuinely click with and we get along well like that. and we definitely clicked as friends yknow?? #and I'm super glad for that. I just feel so stupid for being in love with him when I'm too loud and too awkward and i fidget too much #and I'm just. not an attractive person on ANY level #so like even having a crush is so unrealistic and I hate that. he's the only guy I've ever genuinely wanted to be with #(beyond a brief infatuation that I knew wouldn't work out i was just kinda caught up in the theater stuff yknow) #like.... UGGGHHHH this is bringing up SO many insecurities bc I genuinely want more than a friendship #and gurt called me out the other day by asking how important it is to me that this particular guy likes me back #and I had to play it down bc it's SO important to me like. WHAT am I supposed to do with this??? he's the only guy #I've ever been able to envision a life with and I KNOW daydreaming like that is probably bad and dumb and I just feel #SO stupid for how I'm feeling about this whole thing and yet. I go to church and work with him and it's just really easy and nice #and we work well together and get along and it's just GOOD #and I want that forever #and idk what God is trying to do here but it's making me feel SO STUPID all the time!!!!!! girl help!!!!!! #Lu rambles

[tvrningout]

me: alright, what's a nice scenario for a starter

chiyo: i'd like to spill my guts <3 ( metaphorically ofc )

me: that's wildly ooc, no

#chiyo vc: i can't talk about my own problems/trauma so i just write it into my manga and wonder if anyone realizes what's happening #asdfgh ma'am pls that's not allowed when you would never admit that out loud #sometimes she really does just wanna lay everything on the table for certain muses and it's sweet i love that for her #but truly it's something she'd daydream about but never do bc in her daydream the other person holds her hand #and doesn't think of her any differently but in reality that person may not hold her hand and maybe they'll think poorly of her #she's the most pessimistic romantic/dreamer to ever be tbh #get ready to ramble | ooc

[daydreamoftheendless]

catching up with bell’s hells this week, prepare to be sick of me

#critical role #cr #bells hells #daydreaming out loud

[randomnotebookthoughts]

I wonder if anyone ever fantasizes about having a life with me.

#random notes #random thoughts #randomnotebookthoughts #female writers #writers and poets #writers on tumblr #thinking out loud #obsessive daydreaming #love #love poetry #spilled ink #words #quotes #text post #feelings #poets corner #poets on tumblr #original writing #love poem #relationship

[unimportantweirdo]

i will not maladaptive daydream out loud in public i will not maladaptive daydream out loud in public-

#look its hard enough to not talk out loud #but when im already imagining rm sitting next to me reading in a coffee shop #theres very little i can do to not look over at him and smile #is that even maladaptive daydreaming? #ive never quite understood #and i dont want to use an incorrect term #daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming

[toysheepisneedy]

What if my crush asks to talk to me privately and to follow him and i panic thinking he might be about to tell me to never approach him ever again or to stop staring so much but lost in those anxieties i didn't notice i followed him into the mens room and next thing i know he tells me to kneel and unzips-

#daydreaming out loud here #queer nsft #mlm nsft

[fff777]

i want to write!!!! but instead i have job :<

#thinking out loud #fic talk #daydreaming about jwn while trying to write my dumb emails

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

Me watching all my beta homies develop celebrity crushes on David Tennant after watching Good Omens:

Me, a Chad, who has been crushing on him since his first appearance as the tenth doctor: get in line losers 😎😎😎😎

#good omens #crowley #doctor who #the tenth doctor #david tennant #seriously I’d have reoccurring dreams and daydreams about the tenth doctor breaking through my window to wisk me away (in a good way) #I DESPERATELY wanted to be that man’s Rose Tyler #I sobbed my eyes out when that mf died #I’m still broken from that #and then I continued to crush on David Tennant for the rest of my life #I actually watched GO because I saw an edit and out loud screamed ‘DAVID TENNANT!?’ #and then also heard it was very gay so I watched it #so when my friends are now finding how adorable he is through GO I’m over here like #‘yessss this is all part of my elaborate plan to get you to like David Tennant just as much as I do’

[saltydoesstuff]

the existential dread is kicking my ass today boys

#when even your unhealthy maladaptive daydreaming coping skills can't keep out the horrors #the horrors are everywhere and they are loud #saltyrants

[themetalvirus]

more often than not i am trapped in a house in the middle of the suburbs with no access to transport that is full of people who don't like me and often refuse to even talk to me and the people who DO love and care for me i hardly see in person so whenever i get love on here its like. i look like this

#exoticbutterstxt #im loud when i pace and it was 3:30 am but my housemate is usually awake and doesnt mind when i pace... #she came out of her room to ask me to stop and i also jumpscared her by accident #it made me feel really bad #i was daydreaming egghogs to splatoon music but after that i just kinda went back upstairs #ik its not really a big deal but my only interactions with ppl in my house are like #them asking me to stop doing things #or me desperately asking for basic courtesy and getting rebuffed #so. thanks #sorry about the oversharing i am not mentally well #also i have a mom and gf who love me very much and a friend or two and my granddad also #but man i dont see them often #im feeling especially lonely because im gonna see my gf and be with her all weekend #which is kind of a Rare Event #so i'm excited but also her current absence makes me even more lonely #man.jpg