six months since 15x20, Carry On | November 19, 2020

The sexual tension between Dean and fixing Cas‘ tie. Immaculate.

It’s Jack’s birthday, but also, he’s graduating! Don’t ask how they snuck him into the school system, but he DID work very hard in his classes, and his parents are so proud!!

Bottom of the ninth, and you're the only guy left on the bench... sorry, but I'd rather have you, cursed or not. And anyway, nut up, all right? We're all cursed. I seem like good luck to you?

7x23—Survival of the Fittest

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Ps: I posted a new Supernatural AU abd will update Windowpane this week. I havent been posting because of the lack of reblogs and or comments. I appreciate those who like them, but likes aren't very motivating and leaves my work where you found it. At this point idc if you read it, but reblog if you see it.

Thx for reading!! -K💘

Help I'm back on my Supernatural bullshit again no telling when it will end

I think Dean & Cas should have another baby. I think it’d be good. Just because it will be fully their decision this time. I don't mean that Jack isn't their baby, oc he is. But I need them to consciously take a step towards something that they discover they actually want. No Satan impregnations and heaven shenanigans. Just two men who love being dads adopting another kid. Besides, Jack would love a baby sister/brother!!

I think the reason that, while I’m not a fan of SPN Angels/Demons siding with Earth/Humanity over Heaven/Hell, but am cool with it in Good Omens, is because of how it is treated, how the Humans they ally with are, and what they do after preventing their respective Apocalypses:

SPN Angels/Demons that side with Humanity and Earth over Heaven and Hell: Become genocidal serial killers in the name of "protecting humanity" and/or ally with people who are genocidal serial killers in the name of "protecting humanity"

Good Omens Angels/Demons that side with Humanity and Earth over Heaven and Hell: Quit their jobs, move to Earth to live with humanity, and, if necessary, fight Heaven and Hell to defend Humanity, but nowhere in there do they commit genocide on all Angels/Demons/Other Supernaturals, nor are the Humans they ally with genocidal serial killers who are painted as "good guys" and "heroes"

lil birthday ficlet on honour of Jack turning four, set after 15x19, the finale doesn’t exist, Cas is back from the empty (Jack brought him back), Jack zapped himself into a preschooler after the whole saving of the world thing was over with and now he gets a dinosauor themed birthday party. wc:1100

Dean’s hiding in the pantry when Cas finds him. Head down, practically on his knees on the tile, he paints himself into a stark contrast from the fearless hunter he spent his life growing into.

“Dean, what on earth are you doing in here?” Cas asks, confused.

Dean’s not exactly jumping at the chance to lay it all out there so he shrugs and stumbles through a reply. “Just grabbing some supplies, the party’s really getting going. Wouldn't wanna run out.” He doesnt turn around, and Cas doesn’t make him.

“Dean, everything we need for the party is on the counter. Sam did all of that hours ago. What’s really going on?” His tone’s gone so gentle it grates against Dean like more force than should be possible. That anger he’s so used to rumbles just below the surface, and he wants to reach for it because it’s easy, it’s safe, it's comfortable, but Cas used his dying moments to tell him that he was wrong about himself and he’s been trying desperately for that not to all have been in vain.

“He’s four.”

“I know, it’s hard to believe isn’t it? So many years gone by so quickly,” Cas says almost wistfully. Dean barely hears him.

“He’s four and he’s so little and he needs us so much, and he gets nightmares about the wars he’s had to fight while he’s wearing damn footie pajamas. He’s four.” Dean turns then, sitting down against the shelves with his hands propped on his bent knees, he doesn’t look Cas in the eye.

“Are you thinking about your childhood?” Cas asks as he joins Dean on the floor. They face the same direction, Dean’s glad for it, less pressure to look at Cas.

He scoffs, neither mention how wet it sounds. “We lost Mom when I was four, Dad started carting us all across the country when I was as little as Jack. And I can’t stop thinking, why didn’t he love me enough to take care of me. Why did he turn me into a soldier, why didn’t I get to have the birthday parties and school trips and playtime at the park where I ran screaming from girls because they had cooties. Why couldn’t he look at me and see the same thing I see when I look at Jack? But then I think: how different was I really from him?”

“Dean you can’t-” Cas starts.

“Cas don’t give me that shit. I turned that kid into a soldier the second I could. Sure he looked like a college freshman but he was days old, and I didn't hesitate to use him like my old man used me. But now, now I look at him and that ridiculous gap in his front teeth and how he’s a fucking magnet for stains and I don’t understand how my dad could have seen me like that and decided that I didn’t deserve a childhood.

“Y’know, I read my dad’s old journal. Read it like it was a fucking bible. Seventeen days after Mom died, I watched my dad put a bullet in a shifter’s head, and that was just the start. He felt bad, after I saw that, but it wasn't enough to make him stop.” Dean feels his throat constrict around itself, some scars never fade.

“Dean you are not your father. And I don’t know about Jack but I do not fault you for your actions. Jack aged himself up because he knew the world wasn’t safe, he knew that he needed to be able to fight. As horrible as it sounds, Jack knew his purpose before he was born. Had you and Sam not been there for him Jack would have been lost, easily found by the angels who wanted him dead or the demons who wanted to corrupt him. The fact that you look at him now, now that he’s aged himself down to an average human four year old, and can’t fathom raising him the way you were, proves that you couldn't be farther from your father. You are a good man Dean, despite all the hell that's befallen you. And you did not deserve the life you had or the pain you’ve suffered.” There's such a vehemence in Cas’ voice. It doesn't get rid of the pain in his chest, but it lifts it a little.

They sit in silence for long stretches, the sounds of the party just barely filtering into the small space.

“Kelly would have loved to see him like this,” Dean says eventually, smiling a little. Cas takes the topic change in stride because he’s just good to Dean like that.

“She really would have. To know that Jack brought forth peace like she was told he would, and then to have him get to live a child's life too. It's more than I think she ever could have hoped for for him.”

Cas fidgets beside him as they sit in silence again. Like there's something about that day he knows they aren't talking about. It's not hard to figure out what after talking about Kelly.

“Y’know the hardest thing about that day was losing you,” Dean confesses quietly.

Cas looks at him with his brow drawn down, almost as though he hadn’t expected Dean to remember that in the same moments Jack was born he had to watch Cas die.  

“Mary fell into an alternate dimension with Lucifer and you ended up with an adult infant, Dean, don’t be absurd.”

“I’m not Cas, I know that I didn't give you some big speech when we got you back… well any of the times we got you back but you gotta know that it messed me up. Jesus you seriously don't know how much I need you just to function like a normal person. Sam can attest to it Cas. You die and he mourns, sure, but I lose it. I'm sorry I never showed you how much you meant to me back then.”

“It’s alright, you show me enough now. Now come on, it’s definitely not fair for us to leave Sam and Eileen alone with all the party duties.” Cas stands and holds out a hand for Dean to grab. Even after he’s securely on two legs Dean doesn't let Cas’ hand go. 

“Let's go see the birthday boy.”

They aren't outside a minute before Jack runs up to them, his wide sticky smile, painted into a dinosaur Dean couldn’t name if his life depended on it, directed right at the two of them rambling on about the bouncy house and his friends from the neighbourhood and the cotton candy machine Dean wasn’t able to talk Cas and Jack out of booking. 

He’s small and vulnerable and happy and he’s four and even though he knows the pain Dean knows, he’ll never have to experience it again. Dean vows to make sure of that.

I have only ever seen one episode of Supernatural, but I’ve accepted that I’m never going to escape it, so I made this shitty meme to cope <3.

Real talk: Bobby would have kicked dean's ass for how he treated jack. Maybe not at first when he's grieving cas because it's not as bad and bobby is hoping dean will get the grumpiness out of his system soon. But trying to kill jack? Blaming him for things he can't control? Doing exactly what john winchester did and hurting a child because Mary died? Bobby would eviscerate dean six ways to Sunday. Bobby would be soooooo good to jack. He forgave sam *instantly* for letting lucifer free. His grandson jack hurts someone on accident while soulless? Unfortunate, but nothing makes him give up on his kids

Happy birthday, Jack!

Im a dean Winchester kinnie please god why me why must I be cursed with this burden please I can’t do dhdhdjdjdndnm

Hellers🤝Sastiel fans🤝Casual watchers🤝Anyone else at all

Loving and appreciating precious child Jack Kline on his birthday

Jack introducing Cas, Sam and Dean to other people: this is my father, this is my my dad, and this is my father's husband so he also is my dad

it’s their birthday!!!!!

so my family said that i could play one jack episode in the living room and so i was thinking about what episode to play and i was like, “well i could do the one where they celebrate his birthday.” and my dad goes, “yeah that would make sense, what do they go to chuck e. cheese or something?” and i’m just like, “ugh i wish they went to chuck e. cheese, in the good supernatural they would.”

oh so it really IS about how gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day

the way i have this open in my browser is supernatural’s fault