#dear crush

[lovedeshecho]

I just want to know if we are friends or if I am the love of your life.

#rose #dear diary #dear crush #girlswholikegirls

[aasthamoon]

For the man i named after hope,

When the world is struck by an apocalypse and my eyes are puddled with despair, i always find a light in you. A heart so warm that it had held me as their hopeless refugee. At times when the world looks like a broken mirror, i look at you, oh! not to forget those eyes. They hold galaxies, constellations, Stories, love and overall so much kindness in them. Sometimes i stare into them and feel like I'm sinking, as there is so much depth, so much flow in them but who drowns in a submarine. Right! And so i stare in them till i realise you're heavier than the sea. The knowledge the grit adds on to it. Suddenly, I'm at peace.

I have seen carpets beaten till it's clean, but the difference is your heart and how it shivers at the sight. You, instead, prefer rubbing them under warm water foaming stream till they give out clear water. That's the difference.

This is what separates you from the rest of the world yet still keeps attached to it.

The exhibitions you go are filled with paintings and sculptures of so many artists. Where people weigh them with money you weigh them with art. You'll stand and stare at a single piece for a lifetime till it turns into art. You get immersed so much that it takes shape of you. When art itself couldn't resist and takes shape of you, just think of my poor heart.

You remind me , always, that it doesn't matter if it's a flood of an apocalypse, you should always hold on to something you believe. I'm always taught

"if you trust in the process, end is always beautiful, it's always Karma and you're a good human. At the end you'll win."

With that I shall keep you here. You know you're my hope. Afterall life is better than death and I'll prove it. It's still LIFE.

-aastha ∞☾.

#kimnamjoon #bts #btsrm #dear crush #poetry #aestheticeditsz #poem #young poets #love poem #love concept #love #hope #hopelessly in love #romantic #romanticism

[jill-1234]

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I took a listen to all these songs a few days ago and they really spoke to me. I could easily relate to each and every one of them. Most of my relationships have never worked out due to either long distance or there was something wrong with it. It hurts because sometimes I feel like I still have feelings for some of my ex's even though I have moved on. I've experienced heart break way too many times to count to the point where I've gone so numb to it. I'm gonna be real and open. I'm honestly scared to get into a new one. The last relationship I recently had was with two girls and again they didn't work out due to long distance or that there was a lack of communication and the parents were homophobic about it. I'd say the first real relationship I ever had was 8 years ago with a boy I truly loved with all my heart but for some reason it just didn't work. To this day I still have no idea why we broke up in the first place. We were young and we probably didn't know any better back then. I admit it. I have fallen so head over heels for someone (not going to say who) at first I thought I was just infatuated with him but no. There's definitely a strong attraction there. I just doubt we would even work out. That it would even last if by some miracle. They don't realize that I would do anything for them. That I would treat them better. That I'd spoil the living hell out of them. I'd give them everything they need and even give them what they want WHENEVER they want. Both physically, mentally, and emotionally. The fact that I think about them every single night drives me crazy and sends me into so many bubbly feelings that I just can't explain it. I like them as a person so very much. I wish they could see that. It's been so long since I FELT this way about anybody. When I realized I was starting to feel this way I didn't know what to do about it. I still don't know what to do what to do about it. My emotions and hormones are everywhere & raging like you won't believe. I don't even know if I would be their type or that I'd be way out of their league. I think everyone has that fear. This makes me feel a tad bit nostalgic with my first love when I was 16 because this was how I exactly felt when I was around him. That spark. You recognize it right away. It's an incredible feeling and I have forgotten what that truly felt like to have for a guy. Would I be willing to try again? maybe. Still there's that risk. The risk of getting hurt all over again. I'd be willing to take that risk. It's been a long time since I've had strong intense feelings for a guy in general. I know. It's honestly sad. I haven't even expressed how I feel to them because I'm scared of rejection. That I wouldn't be good enough. That it would never last between us due to the whole distance thing. I've cried about it so much at night. Somedays I want to scream and just tell them how I feel. In the end there's a slim chance they probably wouldn't have time for a relationship but we all take that chance right? I guess you just never know until you try. I've been pretty emotional this past month about it. It honestly feels like I'm stuck in this large bubble that I can't escape with so many feelings and questions popping in my head all at once, leaving me scratching my head in confusion. Feelings are very hard. Why must they be complicated? why can't we just blurt out how we feel to the person we love so dearly? why do we back out at the last minute? why do we feel insecure? it's human to feel that way. Man do these songs hit me right in the fucking feels because this is exactly how I'm feeling right now in my current situation.

I was debating if I should even post this on here but you wanna know what? sometimes you just have to let those feelings out or it's going to eat you alive the more you hold it in. Whether it be through music or on a platform. Anything can help with that. Writing is a great form of expression and I've learnt that along the way as an aspiring author. So with whatever you're going through write it out. Let the words flow. Trust me it'll help you. I know we don't know each other very well but I want to get to know you. I'm too shy to message you first. I want you to know that you can talk to me about anything. Even if we just talk for a few minutes during the day it makes me so happy to hear from you. Literally. It does. If only you'd let me. I don't think you understand how happy I get when I think about you in general and that I like you for just well being you. I just wanted you to know that.

I'm sorry.

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❝Fire and ice. You come on like a flame then you turn a cold shoulder. Fire and ice. I want to give you my love but you'll just take a little piece of my heart. You'll just tear it apart.❞ Fire and Ice - Pat Benatar

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BTW

I'm leaving social media for awhile. I felt the need to vent and just let my feelings out in someway shape or form. I'll return when I feel up to it. I just need time alone for the sake of my mental health. If anyone needs me I'll most likely be on Quotev. I'll see you all soon.

Peace and love!

-Jillian

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Credit goes to their rightful owners for the gifs and videos.

#feelings are complicated #feelings are hard #feelings are confusing #longing #in love #long distance relationships #dear crush #crush #secret admirer #im hurtin #hurt #deep thoughts #trust issues #stressed #confused #overwhelmed #vent post #vent #feels #big oof #comfort ships #mileven #anidala #stranger things #star wars

[crushdiaries]

Dear Crush

You have the prettiest eyes and the nicest smile, especially when you smile at me. It makes my heart flutter, did you know? 

❤

#dear crush

[victorwrott]

does your crush know you think about them?

#music #dear crush #love letters #zambia #zambia ku chalo #Youtube

[myheadscreams]

masaya n kong makausap lng kita 🥰

#dear crush

[breakupin]

#dear crush #breakupin #relationship quotes #love story bangla #bengali crush status

[soahbee]

#older is better #i find my teacher #teacher crush community #teacher x student #student x teacher #teacher crush #tc crush #older man younger woman #oldermen #older guys #teacher attachment #girlblogging #tc community #teacher love #male teacher x female student #older daddy #male teacher crush #i like older men #male tc #coquette #femaledaily #female hysteria #female rage #dear diary #my tc #tc love #he is my everything #he is mine #he is my babygirl #this is love

[theside-b]

BL Couples + Height Difference

#bldramaedit #boyslovesource #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramanet #kdramaedit #jdramaedit #taiwanese drama #thaidramaedit #i can't reach you #semantic error #i became the main role of a bl drama #sing my crush #let's talk about chu #love for love's sake #with my dear bro #plus & minus #the sign

[widgits]

lol get reek’d!

#included both because i liked both hehe!! #throbb #asoiaf fanart #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #theon greyjoy #robb stark #game of thrones #got #a clash of kings #a storm of swords #a feast for crows #a dance with dragons #valyrianscrolls #game of thrones fanart #my art #asoiaf reek #listened to dear arkansas daughter a lot while drawing this... so slay! #does now retroactively make me think of them but whatever #anyways so sorry theon ur boyfriend got crushed by the wheel #soooo sorry that the riverlands killed robb with its inherent narrative swag!!! #also i didnt care enough to look what fingers he loses that was a little too much effort for me #truly could not care less

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hey what if Eddie had a lil crush on Wally in the early days. i think that'd be cute

#its hard Not to crush on him hes a handsome little man #everyone in the neighborhood probably crushed on 'em at some point #except for our dear local lesbian poppy ofc. and potentially sally... shes up in the air rn #but yeah i just think itd be sweet! wholesome! #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A QUICK AND MESSY SKETCH WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED #blinked & the next thing i knew i was shading. huh #i don't even ship them really What Happenedddddd #i just think wally has too much rizz. he unintentionally flusters everyone simply by Being #No One Is Immune

[lovedeshecho]

The Beginning ended so fast

Our story was short, like a good song that you put on replay because its stuck in your head, and you feel sad when it ends.

There were moments where we didn't want it to end and moments we knew how difficult we could have been.

Sometimes we have to weigh all the possibilities if something or someone is good for us.

Was it wrong timing or was it an impulsive decision that you and I wanted? Though it was short and sweet I cannot stop but wish that maybe I was worth the fight.

If we didn't know better would we choose each other and ignore everyone not on our side? I close my eyes and all I see is your face, and your name repeats inside my head.

Your beauty attracted me, but when we spoke the first time I had a feeling she is going to be more than just a friend.

Our souls clicked as we talked, and our smiles from end to end…which made me wonder will she take my lastname?

#me #personal #dear diary #dear crush #sad #heartbroken #poem #kasm #poema

[aasthamoon]

Moon pulled me again. "I swear it reminded me of you" i said to which he retorted "are there anything else that reminds you of me? Other than moon because it's ig copyrighted by you of I'm not wrong." Oh! Boi...this man got me thinking...and i fell into an Abyss of thoughts and all of a sudden Snapped out of it by the smell of freshly brewing coffee from a nearby cafè. I heard children laughing, there were couple holding hands and walking in the park, some were ig scared of getting caught so they were cautious these kids now a days, i saw an elderly man buying flowers for his wife who was sitting on a bench in the park, I saw the river side, i saw the cars maintaining a symmetry and going to ig their homes making a red- yellow trails, i saw buildings which looked like fireflies stuffed in a jar but in an arranged manner, i could feel the winds blowing and i could sense his calm kind eyes on me, waiting patiently for an answer, or maybe not, because he tucked a few midnight strands of my hair behind my ear and said "maybe i got my answer". I felt sad, i said "no no wait lemme wordify it....ok so..." He stopped me and said, " i followed your eyes, they Started with me and you know where they led me to?" I nodded a no in desperation and anxiousness, "me. And this is the best way anyone have ever described me." He caressed my cheeks and stood up.

"coffee!?"

I smiled at him. He knows our order 1 iced Americano and 1 caramel cappachino. I saw him leaving for our orders and sat there Just to thank life and universe for him. Because it's at that very place infront of me near the river bank, on a snowfall evening we met. We stumbled upon on e/o and accidentally spilled our "iced Americano and caramel cappachino

#poem #kimnamjoon #김남준 #방탄소년단 #btsrm #bts #nature #moon #moondrop #full moon #manifesting #aestheticeditsz #poetry #dear crush #loml energy #love poem #love concept #conceptual #true story #love story

[negrowhat]

We're talking about Narrative Tops who would LOVE to be Railed

@poetry-protest-pornography has decided to make top/bottom discourse a little less serious on this hellsite. Let me insert the disclaimer here:

(disclaimer: i generally hate top/bottom discourse, because it's so weirdly gendered and un-nuanced, but for the sake of this, we're going with narratively assigned sex roles)

And then let's talk about assigned BL Tops who would LOVE to be railed by their assigned BL Bottoms.

Bai Zong Yi from Kiseki: Dear to Me. No one is ever going to convince me that Zong Yi wouldn't be an absolute eager beaver to be underneath Ze Rui's fine ass. He's done his research. He knows how these things go and he loves to learn and Ze Rui is sort of a teacher. In my mind they be dipping and flipping each other.

Win from Between Us. If I'm not mistaken, in the source material Team was very much interested in topping Win. Also Win's character just seems like the top to be versatile and not just strictly a top. Maybe he wants to have his face buried in the pillows every now and again and he deserves to get his back blown out. He literally takes care of everyone else, someone should take care of him. Also...let's remember his horny response to Team slamming him into lockers in that one scene.

Xiang Hao Ting from History 3: Trapped. All I am going to say is that ONE scene where Hao Ting was straddling Xi Gu's lap and arching his back in the sluttiest way I've ever seen is definitely bottoming at some point. And I just know he would be LOUD! Literally think about Xi Gu having Hao Ting spread out more frequently then I would like.

Payu from Love in the Air. I've mentioned this in a character analysis, but in my mind, Rain is topping Payu at least once a month. Rain and Payu have that sort of dynamic where the power goes back and forth and I know there are times when Rain is allowed to screw Payu silly. I just know it. Also...Rain deserves an opportunity to smack on Payu's ass.

Nuea from Secret Crush on You. OK this one is canon and I'm just putting it on this list because not enough people talk about it. Nuea is such a stereotypical depiction of a top in dramas and I just love that he and Toh had conversations about switching it up. I love that Nuea also just let Toh know that if he wanted to top then he would have to be serious about it and actually put in that work and also be the one in control. Also Nuea has definitely expressed his interest in being taken by Toh (as long as he was serious about it). So this is real, it happened in the series and I just need for people to know that IdolFactory is doing good things.

This is only a few. I could keep going...but then again in my mind...all the couple are vers unless stated otherwise.

#this has been fun #tops deserve bottom rights #or something #the top/bottom discourse surrounding pb has shown me that people are still very one-sided on what a top looks liike #kiseki: dear to me #between us #until we meet again #history 3: modc #history 3: make our days count #love in the air #scoy #secret crush on you

[fioleespring]

palette source :D

#reki dear #your crush is showing #renga #sk8 the infinity #fan art #digital art #anime #art #sk8 fanart #mlm #reki #langa #h draws

[universalcrush]

Bettie among the stars ! 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

#bettie page #crush! #sleep tight #dear