liquidlightandrunningtrees · 4 months ago
Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.
Daniell Koepke
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slipscout · 18 days ago
but lets not forget that since Luz had a hard time adjusting her diet to the demon realm food(is it the bile sac? who knows), she ate mostly griffin eggs while she was there.
and then imagine the hexsquad showing up to Camille’s doorstep, her feeding them food and them just absolutely ruining their stomachs because they’re not equipped to handle human-realm food. like.
Camille probably fretting to Luz, “oh my god was my cooking that bad???”
hunter going “wow 5 minutes in and i just got poisoned,”
amity smiling very politely because damnit she will make a good impression and she WILL like this food Luz’s mom made
Gus and Willow are both stomach cramping on the couch
poor luz running tums and water and ginger ale between everyone and going “no, they’re just not used to human food. I had a hard time eating there, too.” and Camille is not only reminded that Luz spent the ENTIRE time in a realm that she literally wasn’t equipped for, making it back, bringing several human(oids) back with her, and explaining that they just lost everything to a child-god.
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reality-glitch-rg · 6 months ago
You’ve heard of “no thoughts; head empty”; now get ready for the equally debilitating “only thoughts; head full”!
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videomontage · 7 months ago
Cramming a yrs worth of modern history content into my head today keep me in ur prayers...
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gatitamyers · 5 days ago
my mom telling me she suspects my dad of being autistic.. this is only supporting my suspicions that I’m autistic 💀
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happykeanu · a month ago
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Imagine having such highly advanced brain rot
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senorita-grace-autumn · 4 months ago
One of the worst things about migraine is not the throbbing pain itself, but the syndromes that come along with it. The pain itself is debilitating, but what's worse is the nausea and the cognitive functions impairment. The migraine medications usually cause nausea as well, specially if taken on empty stomach.
So here's the worst/hardest part: you're very nauseas already, and you need to take a medication asap that will treat the pain symptom before it worsens, but you need to eat something first so the medication doesn't add more nausea to the already existing one and lead to vomiting. But the pain and the nausea makes it really hard/near impossible to swallow any food. The pain, and the light and sound sensitivity also makes it really hard to cook something or do any kind of effort to prepare any small healthy meal that doesn't include any food triggers as well. If you're living on your own, it gets really bad.
I tried to trick my body by eating something small and light like a banana or an apple, or maybe a tiny sandwich and then take the medication, but it never worked. Bodies can't be fooled and nervous system can't be tricked. It has to be something that fills up my empty stomach really good and it has to be a healthy choice as well.
I think my body is doing all this just to protect itself and to prevent me from dismissing its basic needs that I used to dismiss for a long time in my teen years up until a couple of years in my twenties. I used to have those unhealthy coping mechanisms such as; not eating for days due to depressive episodes and the general feeling of loathing life and wanting to stop existing, not sleeping adequate hours, and sometimes not sleeping for days, because it was easier to stay awake than to have to face the very first moment of waking up in the shitty reality I was living at (and also cause staying awake gave me a very needed opportunity of living some hours on my own, away from everybody at home, and away from all the drama and abuse), being dependent on caffeinated drinks, to a really dangerous point, cause I wasn't able to regulate my emotions and what I was going through, and it was easier to just fixate on fight/flight response all the time by staying acutely alerted (with no real danger around, but my nervous system wasn't feeling safe even in my own body, even when nothing bad was happening and it was just my normal day-to-day life), forgetting to drink water for long hours that I got dehydrated a lot, cause I never learned how to be rooted in my body so I can identify basic body needs like hunger and thirst and not to abandon my body completely when I'm focusing on something outside.
I think my nervous system just had enough of this. And decided it has to stop somehow, so it flared back!
Now, all caffeinated drinks trigger my migraine at any time of the day but specially at night, any disruption to my sleep schedule or not getting enough hours of sleep triggers a migraine attack right away, skipping even one meal triggers it, not drinking plenty of water every single day, and just getting a little bit thirsty can send me down tbe road of an awful attack. There're other triggers that have emotional roots, but the physical basic triggers are just so obvious. I'm not allowed anymore to mistreat my body the same way I used to before. My body reacts now to mistreatment in a very aggressive way and my nervous system never misses a chance to remind me to take a very good care of myself.
Sometimes I do everything right, and still get an attack and unfortunately, this is the tragedy of chronic illnesses.
I'm sure the reason in these cases is mostly an emotional trigger and these are more complicated to analyze, though sometimes I can figure it out easily (sometimes even on a subconscious level), but it's just exhausting trying to maneuver around all the triggers and ending up having an attack! Like all this effort was in vain..
It amazes me how our bodies are designed and how they work. But I'm exhausted af. I just need to befriend my body and make a good trusting and warm relationship with it. I'm tired of having my body flaring up every time I do something against what it really needs. I wish I can just make it understand that we can communicate with each other in a more friendly, less in the face way. I still don't know how I could do this, but I think it's good that at least I understand the root causes maybe?
I don't feel angry or disappointed at my body due to this, I rather feel sympathy and compassion. But I also got bored and tired and need a break button from all this.
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typicaltk · 5 months ago
anxiety is such a bitch
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woahkiah · a year ago
How am I not supposed to make my life about the pain when it stops me from living so much of it?
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andgently · a year ago
ive been needing to make a phone call for four months. it is an important phone call. I need to make the phone call.
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screaming--agony · a year ago
Dear Diary,
Someone asked how my migraines have been because I haven't said anything about it since my foot surgery. My mom commented on how I haven't taken any migraine meds in awhile. With them, I'm not allowed to be on ibuprofen-type meds at the same time. My foot has hurt so god damn much since I followed the doctors rule of migrating from an ace bandage to a bandaid, special boot to my actual shoe. There isn't much padding and it fucking kills. My migraines are still prominent but I can't do anything about it. Not with the double whammy. I have to pick a pain, calculate the risks/benefits and see which outweighs the other. No matter what I do, my body fucking hurts. Everything just hurts and I'm so tired of everything hurting and no relief. Doctor-relief. Nothing. Neither foot or head is outweighing, it's equivalent. That dark sinister shadow creeps in with each passing-opportunistic second. A thought for a new pain to dominate everything else. I just need to breathe. I've been trying so hard to fight these thoughts but life is aligning things that are out of my control. It's hard to counter darkness when light fades to a faint glow and I stumble and fall over everything in my path. Broken and mangled, choking on my blood I struggle to muster a muscle. Everything is so heavy. So fucking heavy yet so fucking empty. I'm following the rules. I'm listening to doctors. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to. And nothing I do is enough. Nothing.
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just-carry-on · 9 months ago
I just want one beautiful day without a migraine. A day to have sex, ride roller coasters, and enjoy the sun. Just ONE day.... please.
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pennerjones · 12 months ago
Dealing with a chronic illness/disability is really scary, especially if you don’t know what is causing it. I’ve been dealing with chronic pain and mobility issues for a while, but the mobility issues suddenly seem to be getting worse—to the point where I’m concerned I might be losing the ability to walk. I’m working with my doctors on it, but that is a slow process that has been going on for about a year now with no answers.
And I had a shocking experience the other day. When I went to a museum with my friends, I decided to use a wheelchair to get around because I knew I physically couldn’t navigate the museum with just my normal cane. It was so freeing! I could actually keep up and didn’t have to stop every five minutes. I could explore the exhibits and actually have fun without constantly thinking about how much my legs hurt. After that, it’s weird to go back to my “normal” at work where I walk and hurt all the time.
Does anyone else have experience with something like this? Because I could use some advice/words of encouragement.
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kelliaellis · a year ago
A Letter from Fibromyalgia
A Letter from Fibromyalgia
A Letter from Fibromyalgia Hii!! My Name is Fibromyalgia, and I’m an Invisible Chronic Illness. I am now velcroed to you for life. Others around you can’t see me or hear me, but YOUR body feels me. I can attack you anywhere and anyhow I please. I can cause severe pain or, if I’m in a good mood, I can just cause you to ache all over. Remember when you and Energy ran around together and had…
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by Blake Boylston | Experiencing depression can be devastating and disorienting. You feel terrible, and you don’t know why. Or maybe you do know why, but no matter what you do or how hard...
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howifeltabouthim · a year ago
Those whose every act is praised are handicapped by adoration. They grow stunted, shrivel up, lose the impulse to continue. Praise can kill.
Sarah Manguso, from 300 Arguments
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danguslangusmisha · a year ago
Anyone ever use pasta as a chaser? I do it all the fuckin time and it’s a m a z i n g
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norweigianwoood · a year ago
How are you supposed to do anything if you can't focus on anything for longer than five minutes without combusting
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woahkiah · a year ago
Honestly, I love being disabled.
I love calling myself disabled, doing activism in its name and the community I’ve found along with it.
But I hate being sick. I hate the isolation, the fluctuating symptoms, and the debilitating pain.
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hello-darling-dino · 2 years ago
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Don’t let this smile fool ya, I’m dealing with more anxiety than I’ve ever dealt with before. It’s debilitating and miserable.
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