#deep life moments

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[basingstokemercury]

Julian Bashir on kindness and the sanctity of life (compilation)

(The Wire)

(Past Tense)

(Life Support)

(Hippocratic Oath)

(In Purgatory's Shadow)

(Ties Of Blood And Water)

(Inquisition)

#deep space nine #space station squad #the julian bashir chronicles #from the holoimager #because the internet seems to need it at the moment #he really never stops believing doesn't he #everything he sees and goes through and is forced to do #always knowing that the enemy is worthy of life #always begging for a peaceful solution #never letting himself take comfort in the idea that there's nothing he can do #and uh sorry for the bad lighting in Past Tense and Hippocratic Oath #I don't know why they do that so often

[s0fter-sin]

my favourite soapghost trope is soap accidentally seeing ghost without his mask and instantly covering his eyes so he doesn’t see anything

#he bursts into his room without knocking? #they get abducted and they force his mask off? #ghost intentionally taking it off and he does it out of reflex? #good shit its all good shit #i love a good the world comes to a halt and he cant stop staring moment #but that bone deep instintual need to uphold ghosts boundries? #fuck it hits different #soap will poke and tease but the Second ghost sets a boundry hes enforcing it with his damn life #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #soap cod #ghost cod #save post

[downfalldestiny]

Aliens os the sea 👽 !.

#Sea #Deep water #Aliens #Octopus #downfalldestiny #downfall #life #ocean #Waves #magic destinations #magical world #magic moments #Swim

[arthursfuckinghat]

There needs to be a scientific study done on how Rockstar Games' Arthur Morgan is able to provoke the most earth shattering emotions I didn't even know I had in me

#you guys get me right #like you feel it deep in your chest #the joy the anguish the grief #it feels like words aren't enough #and I don't mean it as in “sad moment in video game makes you sad” #I mean it as in “a deep and well written moment that has been slowly building is fleshed out in a video game and I think about for weeks” #when I say I lose sleep over this game I really mean it #I spend hours just laying in bed thinking about everything that happens in arthur morgan's life #it eats at me #I'm not ashamed of how much I have cried over this game #it fucking gets to me #playing rdr2 is the best form of escapism until the story hits you like a stab in the chest but the blade just pushes in further and further #until you're left with a gaping wound #“wow michael I didn't know you were so emotional over pixels on a screen” #except those pixels were acted out and performed by real people and voiced by real people and designed to look like real people #the game's main target was historic realism emphasis on REALISM #to provoke emotions through amazing storytelling #it's okay to feel strongly about things!! #this game man #this game #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick thinks #arthur morgan #red dead redemption 2 spoilers

[marrissacooper]

I owe you a lot, Devi. I know we’ve had some ups and downs but I probably wouldn’t be going to college if it weren’t for you. Well, I actually have a lot to thank you for too.

#nhie spoilers #daxton #daxtonedit #nhieedit #never have i ever #neverhaveieveredit #paxton hall yoshida #devi vishwakumar #mine #i'm gonna pretend my edit is deep and say #the scene where they're laughing in front of devi's door in s1 is actually the moment when paxton stopped being a dream #he didn't help her by being an unattainable ideal #he helped her by being a very real person in her life who cares about her

[starsxinxthexbluexsky]

The Untamed | Episode 28 [Mutual Longing]

⤳WangXian’s Favorite Scenes [12/∞]⬿

#the untamed #cql #theuntameddaily #lwj's moment of longing and his face makes me think that he is very gay #lwj: there comes wei ying. he looks as beautiful as the last time i saw him and he told me he was leaving me #and in the final gif they look deep into each other's eyes and fell in love #lwj is wearing his best light blue suit just to see if by chance he ran into wwx #and by chance in life [and cuz they were soul mates] he met him #wangxian #wei wuxian #xiao zhan #lan wangji #wang yibo #my gifs #mygifs.scene #1k

[drops-of-moonlights]

inherited curse

#Drops's Art #Winx Club #Bloom #Daphne #behold the rare Drops Drawing Canon Winx moment #y'know one of my fave concepts is Bloom just actually kinda hating Daphne deep down lol #the prospect of being a fairy was fun until it turned out she had god inside her and that made her life hell #and depending on what hc you suscribe to regarding the dragon's flame it's all Daphne's fault that it turned out like this #normally I'm not about the Evil Daphne concept fun as it may be #but I do like the idea of Daphne filled with good intentions just absolutely making everything worse for everyone involved #and since she's dead/no longer a physical being it's up to Bloom to clean up her mess #and idk if I were Bloom I would be pissed at Daphne 24/7 for this lol

[torisharp]

A Paradox for a Paramour (FigAyda)

A FigAyda prediction comic! In this AU Porter is the BBEG because it's funny. However, I don't remember what Porter looks like and i was too caught up in Fig/Ayda fluff to care. Enjoy. (◡ ‿ ◡ ✿)

Some Fantasy High Junior Year spoilers ahead, but it's mostly speculation! I got to wondering what would happen if there was a TPK while Ayda's away with her dad.

#fhjy #dimension 20 fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #figueroth faeth #ayda aguefort #wanda chillda #porter cliffbreaker #figayda #i don't know if i've ever made a fanfic comic before in my life besides like single joke panels #but i've had this idea since like the beginning of the season and we're more than halfway through now #apparently i'm deep in the figayda feelings rn tho because I cranked this out before bed #i'm also pretty sure Porter's not a berserker but pls just accept the mindless rage thing a nod to zac's cool moment last episode #fantasy high junior year #d20 junior year

[fritzllang]

I dont think I showed you guys the odo and dr crusher ceramic cups

he s m o o t h

#you dont understand i NEED to drink my morning beverages out of hollowed out odo's head #an imperative in my life at the moment #no i did not buy it #star trek #star trek the next generation #star trek deep space 9 #star trek ds9 #star trek tng #st ds9 #st tng #beverly crusher #odo

[isalabells]

- And we pulled that stupid prank on you. - Wiener schnitzel and sauerkraut. - Yeah, we thought we were so clever. Eva von Braun, right? But you– you just set it aside, and you put your head down and got to work.

FOR ALL MANKIND 1.02 He Built the Saturn V || 3.03 All In

#and today on posts for girlies who are equally insane about s1 & s3 Margo #legit gonna throw UP. like what is she seeing in this picture at this very moment #forallmankindedit #For All Mankind #Margo Madison #having LOTS of thoughts on this. #the only mission control pic she has on display is from her FIDO days. not even flight. but from her very beginnings. #it does something to me. no disrespect to her entire career but deep down to me she'll always be #Margo who wanted to be a flight controller who wanted to be FIDO on a real mission guiding people safely into space and to the moon. #anyway can't decide what makes me more feral. the fact that it's Bill 'Margo you're outta your lane' Strausser who brings it up. #the way her features s o f t e n as soon as she picks up the frame. #the fact that the show springs this on her in THIS particular episode at THIS very time in her life. #the way this is most likely why she allows herself to openly dwell on this era and what it meant to her #like. she brings up Apollo 11 twice in s3. her good bye speech mirrors Gene's words. I'm feeling ill.

[esmes]

don't mind me - just some rainy day musings bc sweeney todd 2023 has rotted my brain

someone's tags on a gifset got me thinking about 2023 revival lovett and todd and the special something their dynamic has. there's something about this particular iteration of these characters and their relationship, especially as we see it evolve throughout the show (even as we've seen it evolve throughout the show's run), that just makes mrs lovett's betrayal and her death at his hands hit hard. i know, i know - she deserves it. she lies! she's a lying liar. her deceit is no small thing. any one of us would be incensed to have been misled the way she misleads sweeney. even if a small part of her may have done it, as she says, to spare him having to see what became of his lucy, the larger part was certainly to serve her own interests.

but there's something about how close mrs lovett gets to bringing sweeney around to her this time that just gets me carried away. they're not just business partners - they're lovers, they're co-conspirators, and they're sort of each other's only friend in the world. at this point, he indulges her flights of fancy. they know each other intimately. they joke with each other! he's likely had to listen to countless hours of her prattling on about her thoughts, hopes, and wishes. this is a man who, at this point in the show, is slitting people's throats without remorse. and yet he spends the evening on the sofa cleaning his pipe while he patiently listens to his girlfriend rave about a seaside wedding. when she takes his hand, he doesn't wrench himself from her grasp like he used to. he doesn't get up and walk out, which he could do. he accepts her - her presence, her company, her warmth. he may struggle to admit it to himself, but he does. he can concede that he loves her - just a little bit, though he can't quite bring himself to say the words. sweeney is fiercely loyal to lucy's memory, so much so that he clearly couldn't ever wholly give his heart to someone else, but, in that moment after "by the sea", you can see that he's softened toward lovett. they were both alone a long time before this, after all.

it's not the stuff of great love songs, but it's something. it's almost enough.

this is what ultimately makes the final living moments between them all the more heartbreaking. mrs lovett has always been a sympathetic character to me - a villain, sure, but not without her reasons. she's a woman alone in a brutal world. whether the character is an older or a younger iteration, she's been alone for a desperately long time. when sweeney returns to her after all this time, she sees her moment and she takes it. she's not letting her second chance at life get away from her without a few claw marks.

when sweeney kills her, he sheds no tears over it - but the grudging fondness we'd seen him beginning to feel toward her only serves to emphasize how monstrous of a deception it is. his "you LIED to me" comes out in an anguished roar. when he throws her in that oven, all the light goes out from the world. it takes my breath away every time. though it should, it doesn’t quite feel like justice.

i know not everyone loves annaleigh's interpretation, but i have maintained from the first time i saw this revival that the warmth she brings, the honeyed, deluded, comical sweetness that lures sweeney into believing life with her could be tolerable, if not ideal, was a brilliant choice.

that's why the leap into hell together works for me. some productions have had sweeneys that barely tolerate their lovetts, so a cold diverging of paths makes sense. these two definitely fall into a different category. it makes sense to me for this sweeney and lovett's ultimate fate to be each other. who else would it be? lucy did nothing wrong - she's not going where he's going. having made lovett pay for her lies, they can head on down (hand in unlovable hand!!!!!!!) to live out the almost-enough life they created with each other. and sure, her chirping his ear off for eternity would certainly make an appropriate punishment for his crimes.

#sweeney todd #long post #lord but i do go on! #mrs lovett and i have this in common #i've enjoyed them since i discovered the show in 2006 and they are very much My Brand #but i really do just feel a deep fondness for j&a's todd/lovett antics #and any other production whose sweeney/lovett Go There #also soz to reference the movie but #the moment where hbc's lovett echoes sweeney's 'life is for the alive my dear' back at him? perfection #'maybe not like i dreamed. maybe not like you remember. but we could get by.' perfection. no notes. #anyway the girlies that get it get it #otp: if you only knew

[aquarterasian]

honestly i love that precure is super simple and doesn't have a solid plot and maybe even has massive plot holes like who gaf im here to watch cute girls fight monsters and be silly

#precure #pretty cure #like obviously precure has its deep moments #and i have had complaints about certain plot points before #but overall it really doesnt affect my enjoyment of it #hugtto is my one exception #i think everyone is allowed to have a season they dislike. for fun #but even then im not gonna attack people for liking it bc i know its meaningful for a lot of people #im just here to have a good time im not gonna complain about like. scenarios that are so stupid they wouldnt happen in real life

[morallyambiguous]

sometimes you feel lost + adrift in the world, and sometimes you have an interaction with a stranger so steeped in kindness & empathy that it leaves you stunned, still reeling

#so many lovely interactions today. people are so kind. so forgiving. #someone you met just mere minutes ago can etch themselves so deep into your mind‚ change the course of your life forever. #how lucky we are that each of us matters so much‚ has the ability to make such a resounding impact. #walked a ukrainian woman who spoke v. little english to the nearest bus stop after she missed her bus. #we sat together & i made sure she got off at the correct stop‚ both of us trying to talk to each other despite the language barrier #repeating words + stumbling over sentences & smiling at the absurdity of it all. #neither of us knowing quite what the other was saying but nodding along anyway. #knowing it didn't really matter if we understand each other or not‚ because for a moment we were unified—connected by our shared efforts #afterwards she hugged me & told me i was a v. beautiful + good girl and we waved goodbye to each other while we went our separate ways :“) #still thinking ab her. she works at a farm near my house. i hope we run into each other again one day‚ another chance meeting. #the world is so big & people are so wonderful. so many people we haven't met that we can't help but fall in love with ! #i love going outside :“) #text.

[downfalldestiny]

Turtle and colorful friends 🐢🐠🐟🐡 !.

#Relax #Turtle #Mood #Vibes #Deep blue #Sea #Ocean #downfall #downfalldestiny #life #magic destinations #magical world #magic moments #Beauty #scenery

[quarks-pussy]

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly. #fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!! #julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!! #i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu) #like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment. #and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin