#definitely not me

[jessieren]

How can you not like the tache when you see these beautiful photos? (Looking at you @librawritesstuff 😉)

For all that the tache adds extra snark to Morse (and I personally love it for that alone…), Shaun actually manages to look extra soft and adorable in these

@melbows I think these beautiful shots were from Kati-D? Her pictures are always gorgeous

#shaun evans #itv endeavour #endeavour morse #moustache mondays #morsetache mondays #look at how beautiful he is #even with the tache #it’s so unfair that someone is that gorgeous #not that i’m complaining #the tache is becoming quite enticing #I even defended it to some irl the other day #seriously #I’m now the defender of the tache #who saw that coming #definitely not me #the journey from hating to liking the tache #was quite a surprise #and happened surprisingly quickly #it rather took me by surprise #but it’s good to be part of a growing group #of tache lovers #if only he knew… #haha that would be funny #I need to stop writing tags #brb #hot damn evans

[pyromaniac4198]

collab fic anyone?

i'll write the first scene, then you reblog with your own scene

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A goddess, one Annabeth didn't recognize, popped up suddenly behind Annabeth and lunged at her immediately, holding her drakon-rib sword just barely out of her reach.

"Foolish demigod," the Lady hissed, "tricking my mother like you have. she may not have realized how badly you fooled her just yet, but i have. For your hubris I will send you where that little boy you love so much cannot follow."

She moved, pulling Annabeth with her, too quickly for Annabeth to see where they were going until they stopped, where the goddess held Annabeth by the throat over the void of Chaos.

"have fun, little demigod," and Annabeth fell.

She woke up on the beach at camp and looked around. Her sword was beside her, but Percy was nowhere to be seen.

"Percy?" Annabeth called out.

"Yes?" a young blond boy replied confusedly from where he was losing badly at chess to a black girl.

A black girl who had Annabeth's dagger. The one she shattered in Rome

Well shit

#percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #percabeth #pjo #pjo tv show #pjo series #pjo fandom #annabeth chase #pjo books #the lightning thief #the heroes of olympus #Who is this goddess? Who knows #Definitely not me

[patolemus]

i don’t know why i am the way i am (there’s something in the static, i think i’ve been having revelations)

Rin has always been a believer. Both he and Yukio attended mass every Sunday at the monastery all their lives, grew up listening to Shiro and the other priests recite from the Bible—and this is the only book Rin knows almost by heart. The twins were baptized when they were younger, and despite his rebellious attitude, Rin has never wavered over that belief - whether that is because he was always surrounded by it or not - and it’s Yukio who’s gotten more skeptic about it as the years pass.

After Shiro dies, and Rin finds out he’s the son of Satan, Rin stops going to church. He doesn’t believe he’s welcomed at God’s house anymore, son of the original sinner that he is. He mourns the loss quietly, spending Sunday mornings in the quiet of his and Yukio’s abandoned dorm hoping he could be somewhere else.

(Alternatively, he could go to the chapel obsessively, turning his believes into a quest for absolution. Maybe if he behaves like a good Christian boy ought to do, if he follows the rules and proves Rin has not abandoned him, God will forgive him the sin of being born.)

Rin would want to have his confirmation—maybe he was in the middle of that process before Satan possessed Shiro. But now that holy instruments harm him, it’s like another sign that a demon isn’t welcomed, and that God has forsaken him. For that same reason, some of his favorite Bible verses harm him, and it’s through gritted teeth and clenched fists that he recites them in class and to himself, refusing to give them up because he’s turned tainted by his demon blood.

(When he first awakens, the night before the funeral, Rin takes a bottle full of holy water from the monastery’s reserves and tries dousing himself on them, thinking he might be able to cleanse himself of this curse with it. It burns, making his skin splotchy red and his eyes water from the pain. He’d always been able to touch it without issues before, but now it repels him. Rin falls to his knees in front of the altar, head bowed to the sculpture of Jesus crucified on the cross, and wonders for the first time if God has left him.)

(The burn fades within the hour, and Rin hates that most of all.)

Rin avoids mirrors the first few weeks after Shiro’s death, not wanting to see how he’s irrevocably changed. He hates the feeling of his longer canines when he runs his tongue over them, grimaces at the new, sharper shape of his ears, can’t barely take a look at his tail to stuff it under his shirt. He looks like he’s only just rolled out of bed, appearance shabby and unkept, but Rin prefers that to watching himself now that he’s no longer one of God’s creations.

He prays by his bedside every night - even more so now that he can’t go to mass, Rin has started praying obsessively since Shiro died - has his rosary around his neck even though it makes his skin itch and takes it everywhere he goes. He always blesses the table before eating, thanking God for the food he’s provided for them.

Every time he uses his flames, Rin feels like a sinner. This are the flames of Satan, the flames of the original sinner, God’s antithesis. Using them feels like forsaking God just like God has forsaken him, but Rin finds no joy in it. As the flames die out and Rin’s freaky demonic features recede, he bows his head and prays. “Forgive me Father, for I have sinned,” he says, trying and failing to feel better about himself.

His friends notice, after all secrets are out in the open and Rin doesn’t have to hide them anymore, and they look at him strangely for it, like his apology to God is out of the norm. Maybe they don’t think Rin would be religious, as the son of Satan. Maybe they just think it’s strange that he’s looking for absolution. They don’t comment on it until much later, when Bon tells him that he’s not a sinner just because he uses Satan’s flames. Bon is much smarter than Rin, so infinitely smarter, so Rin tries to believe him. He never stops praying though.

When he first realizes his feelings for Bon are less than platonic, his first instinct is to go to the confessionary and confess his sin. But the only priest he’s confessed to is Shiro, and Shiro is dead (Shiro is dead), and what priest would give absolution to a demon? So Rin doesn’t go, stewing on his guilt and thinking about it obsessively (“Forgive me father, for I have sinned. This is my first-tenth-hundredth-thousandth confession.” “Forgive me Father, for I want, and I do not know how to stop wanting.”). Is it because he’s the Son of Satan? Was he born a sinner, always meant to stray from God’s path like Satan did? How can he follow God’s will when he’s fallen in love with a boy?

Later, he realizes Shiro would have probably been fine with it, and if Shiro approves… maybe it’s not so wrong. Maybe Rin isn’t sinning when he looks at Bon feeling butterflies in his stomach, isn’t straying from God’s intended path when Bon’s laugh makes him happy. And if this is not a sin then maybe being a halfling isn’t either. Maybe it’s not God that has forsaken him, but the Catholic Church.

(The Vatican will never love him. They have casted him as the villain before he could even prove himself one of God’s believers, and they’ll never let him forget who his father is, and what he’s done. He’ll never be able to visit freely, to marvel at the beautiful structures and the holiness of it all. It hurts. But it hurts less than thinking he’s beyond saving, that God has given up on saving him.

The Vatican can suck it.)

Rin tries going to church again. It’s a daunting task, after days and weeks and months without stepping foot inside a chapel, but Rin finds himself sitting on the third row at the Sunday mass held near True Cross Academy, and feels the knot in his stomach loosen as he listens to the priest. It’s familiar. It’s liberating. Rin feels a little more like himself. Bon is waiting for him at the school gates when he’s done, looking immensely proud and Rin takes his hand in his and lets the feeling of contentment wash over him.

He still prays. He still blesses the table. He still recites verses of the Bible even if they hurt him, and he still refuses to go to a confessionary.

But he can stand to look at himself in the mirror now. He resumes his confirmation process, even knowing he may never be allowed the actual sacrament. He lets himself see a world where he can be the son of Satan and a good Christian, where he can love a boy who’s beautiful and good to him without disappointing God. It’s a different world than the one he lived in before, but Rin thinks it’s a world Shiro would be proud of.

It’s a start.

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(This is my interpretation as I was raised Catholic and went to a Catholic school all my life. I’m nowhere near as devoted as I’m making Rin here lol, but I grew up around Catholic religion and know people who are very hardcore Catholics, so this, as well as my own religious education, is where I draw my knowledge from.)

(Also, I want to clarify that a lot of Rin’s thoughts are in no way healthy, and he will grow to let go of them in time. This is the result of a very traumatic situation that left him stranded with no sense of direction, and some of his actions stem from a need to overcompensate for being half demon. He’ll get better as he learns to deal with that reality.)

Update: my brain won’t stop eating at me so this has turned into a thing (tm). Let’s call it revelations au because I think I’m funny. You can find all my posts about it through that tag in my profile.

#patolemus thinks #that never ends well #the religious guilt!au I didn’t know I needed #this might turn into an actual fic who knows #definitely not me #rin okumura #my baby is going through it #bonrin #rin x bon #ao no exorcist #blue exorcist #religion #religious guilt #fanfic #fanfiction #writing prompt #revelations au

[allyheart707]

Wow Ally, your au is great, you should ramble on about it

-Not Ally

:0

Thank you so much, Not Ally! Yes, I know my AU is so cool 😎

I'm so excited for the next few parts because my AU is going to (most likely) consist of two major archs and the ending of arch one is (hopefully) going to be so cool!

I also really need to redo their reference sheet and decide on a few things because I feel bad that their design (especially Donnies) changes like... every other part of my comic. Like does he have a spikey looking shell or a smooth shell? (It changes back and forth SO much in the comic because I can't decide ;0;)

I'm so happy that people like my AU I did not expect this outcome ;v;

#ally asks #Not Ally Anon #definitely not me #is it cosmo? #this ask just... has a cosmo vibe to it #little subjects au #ally rambles

[lover-of-mine]

Seven(ish) Sentence Sunday!

I was tagged by @disasterbuckdiaz @daffi-990 @wikiangela @try-set-me-on-fire @steadfastsaturnsrings thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think the Eddie begins missing scene fic is almost at a point where I can stop writing it, but, to be honest, I don't know because they refuse to do what I want, so I'm just typing things out and hoping this thing is gonna end before I end up writing Eddie showing up at his lawyer's office lol I am having a few moments where I'm like "is this too much for the point in time they are?" but then I remember Eddie gave Buck Christopher after this and Buck was clawing at the mud trying to reach Eddie while screaming his name and I am making the executive decision that even if it is, it just means they won't talk about it, and they really don't talk about it so it's fine lol anyway, have a little bit of Eddie's disconnected thoughts after he made Buck get in the bed with him (I'm trying my hardest not to let Eddie think the word love so I keep having to backtrack his train of thought lol) prev snippet.

"It's okay, it's okay," Buck says, adjusting around in the bed for a few seconds, before turning to his side, tugging lightly on Eddie's arm, and he blindly moves again, chasing the warmth of Buck's chest. He half expected to panic, this isn't something they do, but he's too comfortable to worry. Besides, it's Buck.  Everything about him is familiar. Even if this is something they have never done before. It's just warm.  Buck is warmth. But it's not only heat.  This is… safe? Eddie doesn't know.  And he doesn't have the energy to find out. Or the presence of mind.  He's just letting the feeling wash over him as he drifts off.

No pressure tagging 🩷: @eddiebabygirldiaz @bucks118 @honestlyeddie @watchyourbuck @housewifebuck @giddyupbuck @wildlife4life and anyone else that feels like it!!

#the trauma fic verse #writing #911 wip #buddie wip #seven sentence sunday #i mean #the canon of the trauma fic is that eddie is aware of something he cant name since the well #i think im doing a good job at that but i don't know #anyway #eddie is gonna wake up to buck getting chris ready and then he's gonna realize he needs to talk to his lawyer and hopefully the fic will en #but who knows? #definitely not me #eddie does what he wants im just a vessel trying to get him to follow a script he doesn't really feel like following lol

[shatnerihardlyknowher]

James Tits/Transgender Kirk wip

#star trek #star trek the original series #tos #james t kirk #jim kirk #james kirk #jim t kirk #admiral kirk #captain kirk #star trek kirk #tos kirk #trans kirk #transgender #ftm #artists on tumblr #david bowie #rebel rebel #i love this song sm #definitely not me

[im-so-tired-i-want-a-nap]

Genderbent Marauders having a sleepover

Even though they live together

#the marauders #marauders fanart #sirius black #remus lupin #peter pettigrew #james potter #wolfstar #jegulus #fuck jkr #i drew this while watching the hunger games and i think i accidentally made Remus look like Liam Hemsworth... #just a little bit #the marauders fanart #please someone save me from my own shitty backgrounds #is that a couch? a bed? who knows #definitely not me #tw smoking

[mirkwoodsuperspy]

"this song is so byler coded"

babe you think the markings on your school running track is byler coded.

#definitely not me #byler #byler endgame #byler is canon #byler tumblr #byler coded #will byers #mike wheeler #will byers and mike wheeler #will byers x mike wheeler #mike wheeler x will byers #mike wheeler and will byers

[blorbocedes]

that video is very lana del ray vintage (the goyard, the motorcycle, the age gap between them) but the older he gets and the more clear it becomes that he clings to his youth i am attracted to him less like he’s a man in fifties he’s supposed to have grey hair and wrinkles!

reject the fountain of youth (having your social media admin thirst post you so teenagers make edits of you with lana del rey songs) embrace ageing (look 5 years older than you actually are. attract with a specific kind of twenty somethings with father issues)

#the way toto is literally older than christian.... show me those greys RN 🔫👨🏻‍🦳 #and that twenty something? M--ax vestappen 😁 #definitely not me #blorbocedes ask #team principal fuckery #christian horner #toto wolff

[smoshers-comment]

▶ William Osman - Pushing A Roomba To Its Limits

#smosh #other channels #william osman #mythical era #2019-12-17 #ian hecox #roomba #my roomba brings all the boys to the yard #idubbbz #jacksfilms #michael reeves #gus johnson #what a mess this was #presses like #DEFINITELY not me #picking my posts back up where i left off in 2019 #DEFINITELY not #must. watch.

[ihaspebbles]

I am about to have blue hair and pronouns (a grammar enthusiast that was left unsupervised in the same room as hair dye)

#definitely not me #blue hair #pronouns #i did not wear gloves #my nails look like i have cyanosis

[grimalkinmessor]

Someone should make the Right Brain/Left Brain animatic but with Beyond and L if they haven't already

#but not me #definitely not me #death note #l lawliet #beyond birthday #im thinking L as left brain and B as right brain but honestly itd be hilarious either way #beyondlaw #bc i can #or #beyondlawlight #if you make light the One #and if youre not a COWARD

[fulltransmetalgenderist]

yall ever listen to a song you really loved years ago and you're just hit over the head with so much care and tenderness for who you used to be and sadness about how you're an ever changing person who is not the same twenty year old that really loved this song?

#asking for a friend #definitely not me #definitely not crying over a silly two minute song #ftmgenderisttext

[azullumi]

who tf proofreads their works???

#definitely not me #100 words and im out #i will reread it but that doesnt mean im proofreading #hahahahahahahahhaahahaha #azul.thoughts

[nicoandthepoets]

Guess who rewatched dps again?

#definitely not me #dead poets society #dps #im not okay

[lias-writings]

guess who just spend the entire night and day on character.ai without a second of sleep🤗

#lia talks🪞🎀 #definitely not me #ellie williams x reader #the last of us #just had conversations with 22 different ellies