#depressing a fuck but amazing

[edains]

Rick Riordan constantly trashing the movies for not sticking to his books then releasing a show in which he rewrites everything and loses the spirit of the books entirely

#pjo #pjo show crit #rr crit #im throwing down for the films ok #they were a horrible adaptation but they were entertaining #watching the kid actors in the show with garbage writing & directing is depressing #rebekah rambles #*actors doing fucking amazing btw

[weaponizedhorse]

If you have autism, ADHD AuDHD, depression, anxiety, OCD anything that causes you executive dysfunction where you feel overwhelmed by tasks and don't know where to start I need you to stop and read this because this website is about to change your life.

It is called goblin.tools and it is completely free and I believe it is life changing.

So this magic todo taskmaker is amazing. You can give it any kind of task you need to do and it will break it up into easy to understand, manageable, and accomplishable steps, (that you can then check off the list which probably my favorite part) like cleaning your room, making coffee, etc

In this example below I put the Magic ToDo Task as "take a shower" (but it can be any task)

Here is the lowest spicy take (aka not broken down into many steps)

And here is the highest spicy level (where the tasks are broken into many easily managable step that will tell you exactly what to do)

Any parts of this you feel like didn't give you enough steps? Need more clarity? No problem! Any step you can edit or break it into even smaller steps!

Let's say you are have a foggy brain day and need more instructions for washing your hair, here you go!

Legitimately it can break down any task, making them so much more approachable and manageable.

And if this incredibly cool task helper thing wasn't enough for you, the website has five other functions

A feature that adjusts the tone of your text, allowing for a more professional or sarcastic expression, ideal for business emails.

An emotion detection tool, which helps interpret the emotional content of a text, identifying anger, frustration, or other sentiments to clarify communication misunderstandings. (I think this feature could help a lot of autistic people SO much)

A function that estimates the time required for various activities, such as making the bed, providing practical scheduling help

There is an entire *insanely* cool cooking function (I am gonna have to make a post about that)

Something called the "Compiler"? I honestly don't get it. It says "Compile my braindump into a list of tasks" (so if someone figures that out please let me know)

And since it is tax season under the cut are the steps it gives you for filing your taxes on the lowest and highest task breakdown levels! :)

#the websites UI could use a lot of work #but the service is so good I don't care #executive dysfunction #autism #AuDHD #ADHD #depression #chronic illness #anxiety #OCD #ehlers danlos syndrome #fibromyalgia #also the name 'goblin.tool' is just fucking amazing #anytime I can check things off a list it give this one part of my brain a little tickle I love it

[curioscurio]

Sorry I haven't been as active lately!! I got both a job and a banging girlfriend in the first week of 2024 so there's been little time for art or shitposting but!! Things are looking up for once and I'm super proud of all the hard work I've put into getting here! Im really happy right now! 2024 is the year of the Cassie (wario for luck)

#i also now work in a TEA SHOP. what luck!!! #after like 3 years straight of depression and dysfunction. cassie finally gets a break #god my girlfriend is so. amazing though. shes so smart and compassionate and beautiful and sexy as fuck and funny and #i actually had my first day at work today too and it was tiring but lovely

[yellowocaballero]

So fucking glad to see someone talk about SSS Class revival hunter 😭 I lived it so much and I feel like no one ever mentions it against more popular titles like ORV or even The Lout of the counts family, so I'm so glad to come here and see your amazing takes :>

Thank you for the ask which lets me talk about SSSCRH (the version I read was titled 'Suicide Hunter', which tbh I like more - no beating around the bush).

It's hard to draw an accurate comparison since I'm going off just the webtoon for SSSCRH, while I'm going off both the webtoon and the webnovel for ORV. And I love ORV, ORV is my media blorbo right now, it hydraulic presses my brain, I am writing ORV fanfic - it's, like, funner to enjoy. But SSSRH is just better. In the vast majority of ways it is is better. It's better than the holy trinity by a wide margin. TW talk of suicide obviously.

I can't believe I'm saying this but you need a basic understanding of Buddhism in order to understand SSSCRH. It's not about Gongja's suicides - he doesn't suicide from depression or lack of self-esteem. SSSCRH is about suffering in the Buddhist sense - dukkha. I don't want to make this an essay, so I might reblog this with more information, but extremely shortly:

The Four Noble Truths of Buddhism is the truth of suffering, the truth of the cause of suffering, the truth of the end of suffering, and the truth of the path that leads to the end of suffering. You've heard that Buddhists say 'life is suffering'. To put it one way that doesn't require defining a lot of words: the cause of suffering is experiencing the world as we percieve it instead of how it truly is. Suffering isn't just being miserable and in pain, and life isn't suffering because life sucks and global warming exists and people voted for Trump. Life is suffering because we can experience beautiful and joyful moments in this world, but we do not exist in the moment of that happiness or place our ego/'self' between us and that happiness. Living in that moment, accepting the moment as it is unconditionally, is freedom from suffering. The Buddha tries to free people from suffering through teaching Buddhism.

"What does this have to do with the webnovel and manwha about a guy murdering himself thousands of times" it has everything to do with it. Because SSSCRH is about suffering, and it is about using suffering as a tool in order to experience a world unfiltered by ego and break down the artificial boundaries between human beings. Suffering in SSSCRH is not a bad thing. Gongja has the unique capability to (reincarnate.) experience a person's suffering in unity with them, which dissolves the delusion of separation between people and puts us in touch with the reality of oneness.

The Murim arc was fucking insane because Gongja pulls a Big Bodhisattva Move and walks through the suffering of the world in order to achieve full understanding of the human experience. He takes all of the suffering of the world into himself and is liberated. You can tell it's Buddhist because death was not presented as a bad thing - death was an aspect of a happy ending for the Heavenly Demon lady, because she was finishing her life according to her own joy, and because her teachings were passed on she did not truly die.

But the purpose of embracing suffering is to discover the ability to fully embrace life, and that's where Heavenly Demon's teachings were incomplete - as the ghost dude said, Gongja hasn't even experienced his own full life and the infinite capability for his own happiness. You can only feel the depths of sadness when you've felt the depths of happiness. Sadness deserves its place in the world and it can strengthen you, but so does happiness.

Gongja is attention-seeking, envious, and unbelievably petty. When he drills down into his own desires and why he wants the things he wants, you see that he has a very strong sense of justice and right and wrong - he realizes he doesn't want to be famous, he wants to be acknowledged, but on an even deeper level he is desperate for love and to be loved. Everything he does is to experience love, and as such he learns to love others. His love for the Flamey Asshole was purely parasocial and ego-filled, with no concern for who he was as a human. Throughout the manwha, he grows to care for people as they truly are and pierce through any delusions or misleading outward appearances. He has released all attachment to life and death, and as such does not fear death, and as such has taken a step on the road towards becoming a Boddhisatva who frees others from the cycle of samsara, and as a result has learned sick sword techniques and is sooo good at beating people up.

I think the only other thing I want to mention here because otherwise this is an essay: in almost every time loop/regression story, only the final regression matters. In stories with dungeon monsters and NPCs, only the humans matter. The regressor exists in a space where there are no consequences for their actions, so they act terribly and do whatever because none of it matters. In Groundhog Day Bill Murray acts like an asshole because he can. That's not the case here. Everything Gongja does matters. The NPCs are fake, but Gongja never treats them as anything less than real people who deserve life. Once he understands a person's life he never treats them as unimportant. No loop is thrown away and no person or life is disregarded. His choices matter, the way he treats others matters, and Gongja never treats anybody as if they don't matter except for himself.

That was not short. There is a lot more. The female characters are so good and so rich. From a craft perspective it is excellently paced and has a wonderful sense of set-up/payoff and balances tone and maintains a lot of momentum, which is really hard in a time loop story. You have to do a few very specific things to write OP characters well and SSSCRH does it very well. There's more to say from a craft perspective and it's hard to judge accurately from a webtoon but it's good. I was so strangely struck the entire time about how sincere and genuine it was, how it said what it said with no trace of irony of confusion, and I think that's what stuck with me the most.

TL;DR: SSS Class Revival Hunter is good for a lot of very normal reasons, such as excellent pacing and set-up/pay off and characters, but it's also so sincerely and genuinely Buddhist that it blew my tits clean off.

#sss class revival hunter #kim gongja #ssscrh #I s2g I rewrite these like three times to be as short as possible #I just knew I had to define some terms because if I say 'it's about suffering' and leave it at that #people aren't going to fully get it #its not intuitive from a western perspective #It's really hard to get the full meaning of SSSCRH if you have no familiarity with Buddhism #bc suffering (and delusion and nothingness and oneness) mean diff things in buddhism than in english #theres other buddhist stuff like responsibility to the whole and the community but this was long enough already #the few ppl talking about it have good takes but I think ppl miss how #kgj isnt depressed and he doesnt kill himself from self-sacrifice #he's not kdj or cale #he only truly commits suicide (throws his life away) once which was from part percieved worthlessness of his own life #and big part EXTREME FUCKING PETTINESS NEXT LVL PETTINESS INSANE PETTINESS #every other time he kills himself is from his EXTREME goal oriented behavior #as usual there seems to be a dialogue with the rest of its genre #specifically the extreme egocentrism and selfishness of its genre and other OP protags #(which cale has a hilarious relationship w/) #(ur doing amazing honey i know this upsets you) #my asks #and theres also a conversation with buddhism itself anyway #i love orv but this is so much better on so many levels and its being slept on smh #nobody is going to read this its way too long but you know. its not ABOUT you.

[kevattie]

phil lester in the emo days based on a picture with maybe three pixels in total !! yes his thumb is quite long!

#phil lester #dnp #fanart #:3 #amazing phil #ive actually been in a fistfight with digital art since 2018 #phil lester fanart #phanart #the forbitten term... #having a tumblr blog solely dedicated to fanart of car seat headrest and dnp in 2023 is um uhhbhh ummm #yk how you mimic the faces of people you draw? i was smiling when i drew this it was quite nice #nnngghhh loser emo boys will be the death of me #i will forgive them for being semi-cringe millenials for i know of their depressed emo gay boy pasts.... and i understand.. #FUCK DIGITAL ART!!!! I WANT TO INHALE TOXIC PAINTS!! #emo #emo boy #2000s emo :3 #emo fanart

[inklore]

I saw you post about how people should like to comment on writers work but I slightly sympathise bc some people are embarrassed and/or think that their comment/reblog would be useless. But more people are coming to this app to read a fic like another wattpad or an ‘easier’ ao3 instead of using their acc to post what they like yk

Srry for the rant <333

no need to apologize for the rant it’s always welcome here if it’s done in kind and yours was <3

i get what your saying about people coming to the app thinking it’s like all the other reading platforms but if we’re being honest i’d say ao3 is easier, better selection, plus when someone views your work your ‘hits’ go up and that can sometimes help more people find your work if they go by that / sort the fics on ao3 like that. wattpad literally has the same system of ‘views’ on your work that help boost it, but also commenting there is really big (as someone who was once on wp comments meant everything which is why i don’t get how ppl don’t understand that comments are everything here as well).

you could also say these other platforms make it seem like tumblr works the same way and it doesn’t, but even when writers try to spread the word on that fact not everyone wants to listen or sees it because people don’t rb (which tumblr was made for that let’s not forget).

but on this great app it doesn’t matter how many people view our work, read it silently, press the little heart, no one will see it unless you rb it. and being shy about commenting and thinking comments won’t matter is backwards thinking to me. how do you think writers feel knowing they have 100 notes and 10 of them are rbs and 0 comments? like we know there’s people out there reading our work and not even giving the pointless heart to it and there’s not much we can do about it, and yeah we are so grateful for all of it, but what we wouldn’t give to even have ONE PERSON comment some emojis on our fic. let us know that someone other than ourselves actually liked it. a ‘like’ can mean anything, it can mean nothing. it does nothing. it’s nice, it’s acknowledging, but that’s all it does. it’s a silent compliment that keeps our minds wondering.

if you weren’t embarrassed to read the fic you shouldn’t be embarrassed to comment on it. i’m not trying to sound harsh but it’s 2023, half the population reads fic. devours it. ppl are famous authors because of it now or get ‘tiktok fame’ over liking it. you commenting ‘omg amazing’ or putting two little emojis in a writers comments is only going to make them feel seen. feel great. feel like they’re not just posting stuff on here for bots. so i don’t super sympathize with people who are embarrassed because i just can’t wrap my head around it. but i’m also saying it’s okay and i’ve never once saw a writer get mad over anything someone has commented on their work (unless it’s been mean or a criticism they didn’t ask for or a ‘part two pls’).

if you like something on here reblog it!!!! comment on it!!!!!

#as someone with anxiety adhd and depression i get the being nervous about it but i’ve literally pasted a quote from the fic and added #thot emojis after it #like that’s all it takes to make a writers day #i literally went down someone’s masterlist and devoured and commented on every fic #thinking wow i’m probably being annoying #but i didn’t care because their writing was so fucking amazing and i NEEDED to tell them #reading is silence is for the books in your bedroom not tumblr #in** i’m too lazy to rewrite the sentence #yell shout #if you like it comment #reblog it #▸ laur answers

[maranescence]

Too bleh to draw new art rn so here’s some goofy ahh TADC shit I drew back in January

#the amazing digital circus #tadc pomni #the amazing digital circus pomni #pomni #glitch productions #funny #art #digital illustration #artists on tumblr #digital art #it’s 3am #yay time to crawl back into my fucking depression hole again #all my social media is on life support lol #im getting sick

[raveartts]

Alastor's only attracted to one thing and....why am I making more than one drawing for my stupid rarepair crackship, i'm gonna have to write a fic too aren't 😩

#raveartts #hazbin hotel #alastor #kevin wtnv #welcome to nightvale #tw blood #still figuring out my kevin design (that's just ripped off from everyone else's kevin) #appleradio is a fine ship suuuuure. staticradio too whatever #but yall are SLEEPING on Kevastor #there is no better ship than this are you fucking seeing me #me and my big honking braincells????? #my giant wrinkly brain #with amazing ideas in it #-oh hey doesn't this count as a comic actually #not polished but loooook i'm making COMICS now #take THAT depression

[legobiwan]

I think what makes Super Paper Mario stand out from many of the other plot-based Mario games is the motivation of the villains. (And no, I have not played all of them, but I'm familiar enough with the major titles to take a leap with this idea here).

You can write a laundry list of bad guys who have wanted to take over the world: Smithy and his gang want to reforge it (literally) in their image. The Shadow Queen wants to rule over a dark, new reality. Cackletta wants the Beanstar to fulfill her crazed wishes of destruction and power. Antasma wants command through the Dream World. Princess Shroob wants, and maybe even needs, to a degree, to siphon off the life force of the Toads in an interesting twist on an alien species' resource issues. In fact, one of the few antagonists we encounter who is not 100% fueled by power-lust is King Boo, who walks a tighrope between a pedestrian desire to rule reality via ghost army and a need to exact revenge, a tightrope he eventually falls off of decidedly in the direction of bloodthirsty vengeance directed specifically at Luigi. (He built, bought, or at least took over a whole-ass, multi-level hotel for this express purpose, not only luring Luigi into this trap, but roping his brother, his friend, and some random Toad acquaintances into the whole ordeal, as well - which is categorically insane and the topic of another rant for another day).

But Count Bleck doesn't want power for power's sake. He merely wants to use the Chaos Heart to end reality. There's no throne he covets, no crown he searches for - he desires only utter annihilation of everything, including himself. It's such a nihilistic goal and is so striking in comparison to the other enemies we encounter in and around the Mushroom Kingdom. Even Dimentio, whose initial plan was to seize power and reshape the world in his own corrupted image - even Dimentio chooses this final destruction over the promise of false power in the end.

How do you fight against someone who seeks death as their ultimate goal? It's such a depressing and fascinating concept in a Mario game, of all things, and is one of the reasons I personally see SPM as a kind of climax to the events of many of the preceding games, including SM: RPG and Thousand Year Door, which you can see as the "prequels," as it were, to SPM, if you look at these games as existing along a timeline that began with the creation of the Pixls and the Tribe of Ancients and ends with Bleck and Dimentio's defeat at the threshold of apocalypse.

Anyway, I'm starting to come up with some lore ideas that would possibly tie these three games together in a slight AU where the Bleck gang would show up in 7 Stars and Geno's role is extended past the restoration of the Star Road.

#hello there #i'm just trying to work some ideas out here ignore me #as i'm distracting myself from actual real-person responsibilities by creating a lore timeline between these three games #it WORKS though! #i swear! #also spm is just so...depressing in so many ways #amazing fucking game #smb meta #ranting about nothing in general #also yes i'm sure there's at least one other game where the antagonist just wants to blow everything up so you are welcome to @ me w/ that #hahahahahahahhahahaha

[ilovecats-24]

This month’s choices are next month’s body.

#pro ana #tw ana trigger #i want to ⭐️ve #thinner is better #i wanna be skinnier #weight loss #wl #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #tw disordered eating #disordered eating thoughts #amazing body #fuck my body #sk!nny #sh #depressing shit #st⭐️rve #st⭐️rving

[soppsop]

i just rememberd adhd meds exist and now im upset because i could have that if it wasn't for that freakin neurologyst we went to see that told us it was impossible that i could have adhd because i have good grades in school. literally the ONLY question he asked me and immediately said it was impossible. we spent like 5 minutes there. he could've at least... explained something???? anything?????? and now i'd feel bad about asking my parents to see another neurologist because that costs a lot of money :((

#now im just unable to concentrate on anything and feeling very worthless #ok gonna start rambling here a bit #vent? -> #i'm just not good at anything except drawing. everything is hard and i don't think i'm capable of getting a job and contributing to society #in any way except drawing. my self worth is being held almost entirely by my ability to draw. #but i'm also incredibly slow and unproductive and it's so hard sitting down and starting a drawing and finishing that drawing #drawing is the thing that makes me feel alive and feel good about myself so when i can't draw i just feel really awful #i just wish i could concentrate and work and be productive man. why do i have so much stuff going on in my brain. why is everything so hard #sadge 😔😔 #ok gonna try to draw i hope something cool comes out or i'm throwing my computer out the window and playing videogames #oh also another neurologist once told me depression can't be caused by school #i'm pretty sure it can but idk im not a doctor #what is up with these neurologists man #i know it's gonna get better tho. life might suck but i *am* a teenager and it's only gonna go up from here. #im still learning about myself and stuff. also no school next year that's gonna be awesome #don't wanna end on a sad note bc life is good actually #and i'm fucking amazing at drawing

[dollypopup]

just. . .do y'all remember when Polin actually loved each other in our fandom? do you remember when our posts were about how sweet they were together? when it was about how they were on one another's teams? when it was story after story and post after post of polin against the world? of 'I like you' 'I like you too'? of 'Is life meant to be this happy?' 'I think so'? Do you remember when we were all about how much Colin loved Penelope and Penelope loved Colin? When the biggest narrative was that they saw one another, made one another brave, brought out the best in each other? When the mirror was more than just a sex scene and was also a metaphor for what they saw in each other and how they reflected one another? When they were kind to each other? When we were kind to them as characters? When they were encouraging? When they were affectionate and loving and tenderhearted and messy and silly and loving with one another? When Penelope chose Colin at every turn and Colin chose her?

Where is it? Where is the love for our couple? Be honest, wanting Colin to grovel and suffer isn't for Polin fans. It's for Pen stans. Because us Colin fans are shown time and time and time again that it's okay to call a character we love an idiot, want him egregiously punished or humiliated, to see nothing good in his character at all. So who else is it meant for? I miss when we cared about them. I miss when there was a place we could go that was about their romance and tenderness. I miss when it wasn't just straight up hating on him, or us obsessed with Penelope getting with other characters, or thinking he's less than.

We have one of the *best* Male Love Leads in the entire series. And if you don't think that way. . .I just don't understand why you claim to ship this ship. We have an amazing pairing. A wonderful couple. A couple who cares about each other, a couple who builds one another up, a couple that are friends, a couple that has passion and happiness and so much potential.

Do you remember our gifsets gushing about how much he cared for her? Do you remember our metas about how they could bloom and flourish around one another? When we looked at how Colin was hypervisible but ultimately unheard and how Penelope was invisible but the loudest voice in the ton and sighed about how they fit so well with one another? Do you remember when Penelope was proud to have Colin as a partner and he showed her off at every turn? Do you remember when it wasn't a scorecard? When it wasn't about suffering and was about tenderness? Do you remember when they LOVED each other in our fandom? Do you remember when we loved them?

I remember.

And I miss it. I miss it so much.

#actually fuck it i'm untagging it #because no one fucking cares #i don't belong here and i should just take the fucking hint already #these posts are depressing #these TAGS are depressing #there's no love #there's no romance here anymore #our version of their romance has been distilled into 'heehee can't wait to see him jealous and crying over our queen' #but i want to see them in LOVE #ooey gooey happy sugary dripping in sap in love #these posts about groveling and jealousy and suffering aren't for them as a couple #where is penelope 'my husband' featherington? #where is how proud she is of Colin? how happy she is with him? #where's the tenderness? our bragging about how amazing our couple is? where's the heart eyes over their looks? their humor? #how they laugh together? #instead of seeing their lessons as quality time we've cheapened them into a series of suffering points #instead of looking at the suitors storyline and being like 'of course pen is still going to choose colin she loves him' #we want her to rub it in his face #instead of wanting introspection from colin and seeing him come to terms slowly with the fact that he loves penelope for all she is #we want a quick 'other people want her and that's not fair!' lightning strike realization #i miss when this couple was a couple #i miss when we loved them #and i miss when they loved each other #it's about drama not romance #it's about suffering and not joy #it's just painful loving this couple for both the characters and seeing them twisted into the worst versions of themselves

[mayrumai]

‘lestat doesn’t even love claudia, why didn’t he let her go?’

louis was having depressive thoughts. he wanted to end himself. and despite being trash, lestat does love louis in his own twisted fucked up way. so yeah, to him it was pretty obvious that without claudia, louis would find his life meaningless (which is apparently something that happens to a lot of vampires, we now know that lestat has experience with it). he even says it, how louis needs them more than ever.

yes, maybe he now hates claudia, but this is not about her. this is not about making her suffer. he’d do anything for louis (again, in his own way), even tolerating her. this is all about louis, always.

do I think that justifies his actions? no.

do I believe he acts out of complete selfishness? yes.

he wants louis to be happy, but refuses to admit that /he/ is the one making louis unhappy.

#why? because he’s all kinds of fucked up #iwtv spoilers #lestat de lioncourt #claudia de pointe du lac #iwtv #interview with the vampire #bailey #you’re doing amazing sweetie #can’t wait to see what happens next #cw depression

[indelicateink]

i really want to know what the honey and pineapple floorshow was all about.

#interview with the vampire #louis de pointe du lac #iwtv #amc iwtv #the awkwardness when your hosts lean into their interpersonal problems in front of you #anyway louis is not a super happy person in dubai but he's positively bitchy at the dinner table it's amazing #between this and the meth-addicted coal-miner's son snark #something something eating will perhaps always be problematic with louis #something something he may have found a quasi-humane way to consume blood but something something suppressing his true nature to appease #his conscience leaves another kind of hunger unslaked #22 years of hangry on top of many decades of major depression goddamn #someone get this man 100 sessions of emdr. a pass to murder a remorseless felon. and the fuck out of this depression cave #(there is no way armand is horfing honey and pineapple. louis' off-the-cuff bitchery is hilarious and holy shit louis is unhappy)

[a-little-bit-poss]

being bored is something to avoid at all costs

#last two days of work i didnt miss weed all that much #today i can see why ive been taking it a bit much #cuz the mind wonders when understimulated and creates enemies and conflicts that dont really exist #my mind is used to conflict drama and survival that itll invent it as default state #ok i think i can mark this a low day on my roller coaster however not nearly as low as ive gotten which is amazing! #took a step back sought out some new music and stuff to read and like taking a more big picture look at things helps #the stella on anti depressants is sooooo fucking powerful

[stonerzelda]

sometimes i will see a post and become so enamored with it and it sends me out looking up all the history and art behind the topic that i spend an hour just delighting in the new fancies its given me but becayse i am so distracted i do not interact with it at all and then lose it. Many such cases

#i saw an amazing post abt tieflings yesterday and its not in my likes and i didnt rb it RAGE RAGE FUCKING RAGE #😭IT WAS REALLY COOL it was abt how tieflings used to be able to just look like whatever but then hasbro made them HAVE to all look similar #so they could sell stupid touys #which is even DUMBER bc they missed out on the opportunity to have toys that had multiple changeable parts!!! they coulda cashed in on #like multiple accessories or faces or horns or body mods like WHAT were they thinking (knows what they were thinking but its depressing) #anyway. SIGH