#depression posting

[deurity]

#196 #depression posting #sienfeld #196 campfire

[systemdeez]

I'm cleaning my fucking bedroom and I just realized that having a clean room actually owns. Why did none of you tell me this?!

#196 #r/196 #r196 #depression posting #tbh #unironically such a huge mood booster

[infernaljazzman]

Just me or is the release of Hazbin Hotel s1 (Friday the 19th) the only thing I have to look forward to all year, like literally nothing else in my life can top that.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin #hotel #hazbin hotel s1 #hazbin hotel season 1 #hazbin hotel season 2 #hazbin hotel s2 #hazbin alastor #alastor #alastor x reader #just me #based #my life #life quotes #life #gif #depressing shit #drepressed #depression #depression posting #vivziepop #vivzie #vivzieverse #spindlehorse #helluva boss

[lordoftablecloths]

having depression AND austism AND a crippling sense of self worthlessness is awful when youre an artist because you want to create, you want to do awesome mind blowing shit, but youre too sad and tired and too disappointed and too unmotivated half the time to do it

#art #help me GOD #depression posting

[living-dead-girl515]

That place in my heart

Where the light doesn't touch

Some days it swells

Opens wide

And swallows me whole

But at least I'm not alone

#creative writing #writing #poetry #prose #prose poetry #poem #pretty words #sorry for being depressing #new poets society #poemblr #poetblr #poetry is my therapy #my poetry #hello darkness my old friend #depression posting #spilled poetry #spilled feelings #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #spilled words

[grimethefrog]

i want a very large monster to hug me close and not let go because it can sense my depression and all it can offer is its embrace to try and comfort me and it works because we may not be able to communicate but at least we're not alone

#Monster lover #monster fucker #comforting #depression posting #mental heath awareness #Mothman

[very-sleepy-bees]

I just feel like the difference between who I am and who I want to be is too much, if that makes sense. The person I want to be is very easily found, as a cute, thin, social person with fun hair who does cosplay, is a great artist and loves to do fun things, that kind of person is who I want to be. The issue is I'm none of those things at all. My hair is messy(I've been trying to grow it out which just means I haven't cut it in years and barely brush it) I'm awkward, overweight, ugly as all hell, shy, a truly horrible artist, too fat to do any cosplay and constantly miserable(also don't bother commenting "oh you're not those things" I am, you don't know me.) Just idk I feel like I'm so far from the person I actually want to be I just wasn't born right for it.

So @ any trans moots if you've been thru something similar please do tell me how you solved it on your end. God knows I could use the help.

#trans #trans advice #tw #dysphoria #dysphoria tw #advice #depression posting

[selbstzerstoerun9]

Ich bin nicht suizidgefährdet , aber wenn ich kurz davor bin, einen schweren Unfall zu haben , glaube ich nicht, dass ich ihn vermeiden würde und wenn mir jemand eine Waffe an den Kopf halten würde , glaube ich nicht, dass ich um mein Leben flehen würde. Ich würde sagen " tue es " , ich habe eh nichts zu verlieren. Nein ich bin nicht suizidgefährdet, aber wenn ich sterben könnte, ohne mich selber umzubringen, ich würde es tun.

#selbsthass #hass #selbstverletzten #hate #selbstverletzendes verhalten #suicid #suizigedanken #trauer #dead #depressiv #suizid #suizidversuch #suizidgedanken #sad #depression posting #depression #death #tw depressing stuff #die #selbst hass #selbstverletzen #selbstzweifel #selbstzerstörung #self h@rm #klingendrang #klingenliebe #liebe zur klinge #iwanttokillmyself #iwanttobeskinny #selbstmord

[badmimi]

On Trying

People say “I love you. You know I’d do anything for you.” “Oh, so-and-so, I’d do anything for them.”

But I don’t think we know what this “anything” really looks like. Maybe you picture these vague, but heroic in their amorphous shape, feats of triumph. Harnessing your considerable will to defy an impossible or Sisyphean task. Slay a dragon, lift a car somehow, move a mountain, walk through fire, defeat Voldemort through the power of friendship - you get it.

We’re raised on legends, stories, magic and dreams. That is our kind of “anything”. And we mean it, we do. In the way that if life ever came down to that moment in the third act of a movie and you’re holding the bad guys off so your people can get out in time before you light a cigarette, hit the detonator in your lap and adios motherfucker for the sake of the ones you love? Yeah. We mean it.

But that “anything” isn’t all that relevant because nobody needs me to do any of that. For me anyway, self-sacrificing shit is a forgone conclusion, are you kidding? It’s best case scenario. Everybody lives, I can rest and nobody can be mad at me for being dead. (Because I’m a hero. Duh.)

And there are things to be done that Miss ‘I’d do anything’ hasn’t, in fact, done. Some things outright asked for and some things unsaid but so present in the room with us you can almost feel them hanging written in the air. Things that would change everything for a number of people I care about. Things that are fair.

My loves, I would do anything for you and these are the invisible things hanging in the room.

would you try?

would you wake up in the morning and go to bed at night?

would you take care of yourself and your personal space?

will you try?

would you take better control of this body and this home and have gratitude every day you get to have them?

can you try?

would you cultivate the agency you’ve lost?

will you address the avoidant behavior patterns that make so many of these bare minimum things someone else’s job?

could you try?

would you be present inside your body?

would you put the same energy you put into escapism into real life and right now?

would you stop spinning in your anxious, breathless, sticky, static shame about having wasted so much time so you can put that energy into starting?

could you try?

Trying is putting one foot in front of the other. Trying is a single step you just keep taking. That’s all it is. It’s a simple thing but it’s always conscious. Intentional. How can trying be more formidable than death itself? Death is supposed to be a nightmare that stalks us from birth. A shadow on the wall. Death is a thing that eats.

Maybe some of us lived in the dark and stopped seeing shadows? We’ve moved mountains just to be here and it’s caught up with us. We’ve been stumbling numbly down hallways just reacting to stimuli on autopilot and we forgot about taking steps on purpose. Flipping the intention switch of trying seems too hard. Impossible. Sisyphean.

This year I’m working on trying. I’m slaying dragons.

#depression posting #ptsd #complex ptsd #mental health #mental illness #journal #recovery #mental health journey #writers on tumblr #writers and poets

[gothicfishnetyuri]

A leaky dam

Patch it up with tape, the crack won't grow

A drippy ceiling

Plane a bucket underneath, it won't spill over

A creaky bridge

Turn up the stereo, drown out The strain of iron

Concrete gives way. a vessel overflows. a path becomes in traversable

Admonish the dam for its scars

Trouble the bucket for its lack of volume

Scold the iron for its weakness

#Nova's writing #depression posting

[look-at-that-right-there]

Being the mentally unstable one in the family is wild to me because like, I had an improbably unproblematic childhood. Like, zero complaints. I got that all-natural, organic, cruelty-free free-range madness. I would make Freud puff his cheeks, throw up his hands and convince himself that I'm just a lying liar who lies. IDK either bro. It is what it is, my guy.

#shitpost #midnight rants #dysthymia #pdd #depression #depression posting

[inlovewithaspiderguy]

Vent

I am so angry at myself for this whole shtick I just had to go to class that’s the only thing that was asked of me and I lasted what four weeks? Four weeks before starting to skip school! And since the beginning of April it’s ten times worse because I used to just not go on Thursdays because that’s where we had the hardest classes but now im skipping ever day and it’s gonna make my results drop so fucking low. i swear to god the Monday to Friday were fine! I haven’t gone to uni in two weeks. I never come out of my apartment and this week especially I fucked up my sleep schedule so bad I can only sleep from 1am to 5 am and then three hours more during the day. Hell of my own making for the third time cause yea this is the third time I do shit like that. First time was exactly a year ago and I tried to kill myself. Not exactly feeling peachy rn either. Second time in December and we had me change what degree I studied under the promise that I would go to class. My mother said if she found out I skipped school one more time she would pull me out of college and I would have to start working a real job. I’m not ready for that! Uni isn’t working out either! At this point I only see two solutions: getting medication (my parents are very opposed to that) or being sent to an institution; because I can’t manage life unmedicated so it’s taking a pill or escaping it. But to get those I’d have to confess to having lied and having skipped school and that would be the nail in the coffin of my relationship with my parents. God knows I used them for a long time but I can see this as something that would break us. They’re the only thing I have cause I block my friends like every year and don’t know how to make some. And just the shame of confessing, saying “i lied to you AGAIN I’m skipping school AGAIN I want to die AGAIN”… that would just kill me. If I don’t do it myself. It’s currently 5:45am. I have a FaceTime appointment with my therapist at 9. I’m going to lie and say I’m done it’s all going well yada yada . Then I’m gonna go to my classes today and next week because this is the last week of school before vacation and the exams. I’ll do my best on the exams end will act surprised when I’ll get some zeroes to classes I wasn’t there. Hope I pass on the first try but I don’t believe it. Oh yeah there’s that thing since I changed degrees abruptly I don’t have access to the college website with all the documents that could help me save this shitshow! Fucking hell.

#vent #rant #a long one #depression posting #tw medication #kms mention

[systemdeez]

Fighting a war with my inner demons right now (I saw an attractive person and I'm mad that I don't look like them).

#196 #r/196 #r196 #:3 #I'm ugly lmao #depression posting

[onebigdisaster]

Sometimes you have to stay busy so you dont have time to feel.

#life quotes #depression posting #health anxiety #anxiety disorder #overthinking #im hurtin #im tired

[lordoftablecloths]

when i say im sad i mean SAD i mean DESPAIRING i mean WEEPING i mean IN ANGUISH i mean WANTING TO TAKE MY BRAIN FROM ITS CAVITY AND THROW IT AGAINST THE WALL

#depression posting #is this anything

[living-dead-girl515]

It creeps up on you

You never see it coming

By the time I notice it's already too late

The numbness has set in

Made it's nest inside my head

So deep I could drown in it

It feels inescapable now

Every time I think I've beat it

It evolves and comes back again

I keep thinking I've tied the score

But then depression takes the lead

Once more

#creative writing #writing #poetry #prose #prose poetry #poem #sorry for being depressing #new poets society #poemblr #poetblr #poetic #depression posting #depression poems #tw depression #depressing life #original poem #poetry is my therapy #my poetry #spilled ink #spilled feelings #spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #spilled words