#desire the damage

[edorazzi]

Page 9 of my Miraculous Mentor AU comic A Matter of Trust! In which Felix goes roof-hopping for the first time as Chat Noir - but he's not alone out there! 👀

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#miraculous ladybug #mentor au #A Matter of Trust #felix sphinx #adrien agreste #josie's art #who could it possibly be :V #not much is happening on this page but it still took FOREVER to finish that cityscape; i'm suing myself for damages >:'0 #apologies for skipping felix's initial reaction to the catsuit but he's still thinking this is probably a dream #some deep desire to be a house cat in thigh boots? sweep it under the rug with the rest of his trauma! #that's for Later Felix to address :|

[llyfrenfys]

See, I personally find this quest to find pagan/pre-Christian elements in Welsh/Irish literature quite unnerving - I don't know about anyone else.

There's something to be said about genuinely discovering pre-Christian elements in a narrative or story and that being where evidence and study has led you. But I see some people on this fruitless quest to find pagan elements in very Christian texts and sometimes it feels like if no pagan elements can be found, people start making stuff up out of whole cloth - and that can be very dangerous for already not-well known texts in minoritised languages!

There's already so much misinformation out there about Irish/Welsh texts and literature in general - so it hurts to see people carelessly adding to the misinformation either out of ignorance or lack of respect for the source material.

I promise you the source material being Christian doesn't ruin it - you can in fact, enjoy these myths without making them into something they're not!

#I feel like general ire towards (particularly) colonial Christianity has informed how people think of and view anything that is associated #with Christianity - and ire towards some of the ills committed in the name of Christianity is very valid actually #but what it isn't is approaching any text written in a Christian context and immediately disregarding it for having anything unique or #insightful to say. And in a Celtic languages context #this can be especially othering and almost fetishistic of an imagined pagan Ireland and Wales which was 'covered up' by Christianity #and that desire for people outside of Ireland and Wales to impose a kind of 'pagan faerie culture' onto the modern countries directly feeds #into false depictions of Ireland and Wales as 'lost in time' or as magical places full of latent pagan culture &c. which can be really #damaging in its own way against people who live in Wales or Ireland or who speak Welsh or Irish #this goes for other Celtic speaking nations too like Scotland Brittany Isle of Man and Cornwall #But Wales and Ireland tend to be the most focused on for this kind of treatment #luke's originals #Welsh #Wales #Cymblr #Irish #Ireland #welsh mythology #irish mythology #irish literature #welsh literature #Arthurian legends #arthurian literature

[deservedgrace]

The lack of understanding and empathy for cult survivors is really alienating. Because the same people that (rightfully) get upset hearing domestic violence jokes or rape jokes will make jokes about starting a cult.

#i logically understand that people actually mean commune or group or something innocuous #emotionally... all i can hear is 'i have a desire to abuse/harm a group of people' #and like. the same people that would balk at any other abuse joke don't think of it like that when it comes to cults #cults are not just a silly little group with weird beliefs teehee #they do actual harm #and I'm sick of people joking about subjecting others to the same trauma i went through #and i *logically know that people are just not educated* #it still deals psychic damage to see #ex cult #religious trauma #rape ment #i just #nobody feels safe when my trauma is free game to joke about

[may8chan]

Reflective Desire Model Cam Damage & Vespa

#Reflective Desire #Cam Damage #Vespa

[dalkyum]

YUGYEOM ☾ W Korea

#yugyeom #kim yugyeom #got7 #got7daily #got7edit #madstual #eritual #took damage the entire time i was editing these #i will be taking several laps now <3 #i have to run off my desires or whatever they say #myedit #up

[butchhansolo]

in-universe "logistics" aside, i think it's good that echo has the permanent scomp arm instead of a hand for like. real-world representation reasons.

in star wars sure they have fully articulated replacement prosthetics but we very much don't have that in real life, and i feel like echo with the scomp is good rep for that. he's one of the most competent characters and i think it's good to show that he can do All That as he is, especially with how irl people with only one hand usually are very capable, even more if they've been living with it for a long time, and very rarely do we see that in media.

like, mark hamill once said he talked to a kid for a make a wish thing who was about to have his arm amputated, and the kid said that he wasn't worried because luke did it too. i think that's important

#tbb #echo #.txt #the bad batch #arc trooper echo #SORRY MUTUALS this has been on my mind since i saw some people being really weird/Actually Ableist about it on twitter back in january and #that post going around just reminded me of it #NOT THAT OP WAS SAYING ANYTHING PARTICULARLY BAD bc like yeah utilitarially a multitool type arm could probably be useful #just imo its nice to have real world rep #also im still taking psychic damage from some of the twitter shit it was like how echo would ''have relief at having a proper hand'' or sth #like um. thats not very ummmm.... thats not really a good thing to say-- #with regards to like. a lot of people with limb differences dont feel any particular desire to have a standard limb and a replacement #isnt necessarily the best for everyone or what everyone wants #and acting like all people who dont have standard are all suffering and sad about it is demeaning and patronizing #twitter users when theyve never read about people with limb differences from those people's perspectives #twitter users when theyve never heard of the Lucky Fin Project #sorry for going off agh prosthetics are what i plan on studying & specializing in so i read a lot about this stuff

[twinvictim]

I complained last night but man every time I see someone else's nishiki lives au they're always like "kiryu and Nishiki would never reconnect or be friends again" as if Kiryu doesn't forgive Hamasaki for stabbing him or Mine for bulldozing his house or Majima for kidnapping his daughter or Kazama for everything. As if Nishiki did actually resent kiryu. As if he didnt want to make things up to him ever and did hate him. As if kiryus not singing the a love song about him 10 years after he died as if kiryu doesn't cry when he see 'nishiki' sushi in a restaurant. As if you simply don't understand anything. As if they don't love eachother.

#ykza #🐉🐟 #for as much as people claim to like Nishiki everyone seems intent on forgetting that his only goal or desire in life is to be with Kiryu #if Majima n saejima can reunite after 25 years while Majima is very brain damaged and disabled and feels like he abaondoned hi. #and they can be just as close as they once were!!! than kiryu and Nishiki can too sorry #crimson tomes

[fennel-tea]

That Awful OTP Meme, or: my Binah/Hod manifesto

I originally posted this on twitter but while this is mostly tongue-in-cheek I actually have a lot of thoughts on these two that are generally summarized by [god DAMN I love the interplay of two people who are varying degrees of Terrible]

or just, like, a Hannigram meme.

#fennelart #project moon #binah/hod #lobotomy corporation #lobotomy corporation spoilers #the thing is that binah has never had regrets. binah has never had the time or desire to let herself have regrets #hod on the other hand is Full of them. she is someone who is trying very hard to be a good person #but is going at it from an entirely selfish direction (circa lobcorp) and just ends up completely sucking anyway #which is honestly part of her appeal to me? #i like the idea of them picking each other apart which is a thing that is extremely one sided at first because. it’s Binah #but even binah is still human albeit an extremely fucked up one and I think if hod manages to poke her head out of her own issues she could #start to see where the lines are #also she (binah) is locked in a basement and bored as shit and will take anything remotely interesting at this point #hence where I put her on the devoted scale versus indifferent #could you call it romance? #it’s not healthy in the slightest but no ship with binah involved is lmao #anyway this whole essay in the tags is mostly to say I’m proud of myself for the black damage joke lmao #periodic black damage and a -50% debuff to your stats. its the give and take you know how it is #shoutouts to the person writing binah/hod in the ao3 tag like two years ago you thoroughly infected my brain

[silenthillbunni]

i hate when i try to research suicide methods that are as painless as possible, but most of the results are like "there's help to get". no there isnt!!!! stop lying ._.

#i wish every country had medical assistance in dying as canada has #just getting pills prescribed and then go home and die in ur bed painlessly and without fear #that should be available to everyone #u shouldnt have to deal w the fear nd pain nd loneliness to first find a possible way thats is accessible to u #then consider the pain/injuries of possible failing the attempt or it taking too long and giving u 2nd thoughts #like if i jump off a building or bridge i will prob regret it in the air falling to my death #i dont wanna deal w that awful misery nd anxiety #shooting myself in the head is the most desirable one bc theres not a moment to regret #u shoot nd then ur dead #BUT u have to shoot right or else u survive b w brain damage lol #also guns arent accessible here.... i dont even know how i'd get my hands on one #idk... getting prescribed pills from the health care system and then dying painlessly without anxiety nd stress nd fear is the best #but every country in the world denies ppl that right :((((

[absentlyabbie]

i've developed some interesting methods of handling having a relationship with my mother who made my childhood/teen years misery and committed more than a little abuse.

as an adult, we have a very different dynamic, her daughters (sister and i) have confronted her with a lot of her bullshit and the things she both did and enabled. for some she has been sorrowful and even sometimes apologetic. she's a better mother to me now than she ever was when i most needed one. so i'll never actually trust her again, and she'll never be much deeper than surface level in my life, but we have something mostly good now, and on my terms.

however, she is very definitely one of those "i don't remember it that way" and "i did the best i could" mothers in a lot of areas, and has also always been the type to (probably unconsciously) emotionally manipulate the people she's hurt into catering to her hurt feelings about it instead.

over the years i've learned to get really comfortable with just not indulging it.

is she having a bad day, seems sad and upset? i'll give her a hug, try to make her laugh. if she throws broad hints it's a surge of hurt feelings about having driven one of her children to cut her off? well i'm just gonna stand there and not acknowledge or entertain it.

"well, apparently i was a bad mother" or shit like that? i'm just gonna look at her for a second, and i might either shrug or even nod, but i'm not saying a damn thing. i'm not awkwardly, uncomfortably, painfully contorting to her guilt trip nonsense. i'm not apologizing or trying to soothe her or reassure her or minimize it.

like, yeah. you really were. you know it, glad to hear it. we've definitely had that talk.

best kindness, most generosity i can offer her in times like that is not maintaining eye contact to bluntly tell her "yeah, you were." she can go ahead and feel bad about it.

it's not on me to make her feel less bad. she should feel bad. and i am definitely not someone she gets to seek comfort from about it.

hopefully someday she'll inch past just "poor me, i'm so sad and angsty about it" towards, like, examining the whys and acknowledging what she actually did wrong and work actively to be be better. in a few places, some of that has happened.

but that's her work. her job and responsibility. she can do that shit on her own time.

i say all this to offer a shoulder of solidarity to others like me. if you maintain a complicated relationship as an adult with the parent who hurt you and did you wrong as a child, that is okay. you get to choose how and if to thread that needle.

but you don't have to accommodate emotional manipulation and guilt trip garbage. stonewall it. walk away if you need to. don't apologize. don't try to make it better. that's not on you and it doesn't have to be. it's okay.

#to her perhaps dubious 'credit' #this has shown genuine results #she has over the years pulled a lot less of that shit #of laying emotional traps to try and make me comfort her about how horrible she was to us as a mom #because she doesn't get the desired result #it's not an easy thing to make a choice to continue having a relationship with a parent like this #who caused you serious harm and painful long-lasting damage #especially not always intentionally generally not maliciously #the abuse was the abuse and it doesn't matter why #how she conducts herself now is what determines if i give her any chance to be any kind of decent mom now #and it's SO HARD at first #because that's your mom you LOVE your mom even through all the shit #you're hardwired to love your mom and you hate to see your mom hurt #instinct is to Make It Better #but that's not always the correct response it can be downright detrimental #to yourself and to her own personal growth towards being someone better #so you teach yourself to just Let Her Be Upset #she should be upset and in a case like this it may in fact be good for her #and it's just not my damn job to make her feel better and i don't mind making that plain #you grow more comfortable with it over time #hold your ground and your stance gets stronger with each step-back not taken #abuse mention

[sunlightfeeling]

…….

…i really like “A Whiter Shade of Pale”

#i freaking QUIT #🥲 #tsukutta #instaglamour content #sure ill let this one be rebloggable #so damage can be inflicted if desired

[diabolimeservavit666]

White Eyes, Shedims, and ordinary low rank Black Eyes are not going to be options for my own reasons. If anyone has any questions of how or why Adam is, now, at least, partial Demon, please look at my reply to the post linked below. Got any other questions or suggestions, feel free to add in the comments or my DMs.

#i have so many fantheories of a demon adam milligan #its not even funny #adam milligan #jake abel #supernatural #side effects of the cage #side effects of being in hell for a decade #his soul has got to be damaged #in a good way #demons #princes of hell #knights of hell #crossroad demons #besides i seriously doubt #it would change the way michael feels about him #no hed probably find him even more desirable #midam #not in the same body #matt and jake ofc

[tsuchinokoroyale]

Enemy fellatio’d

#don’t ask me how I was playing for the other 2/3s of his health bar this clip is definitely indicative of the whole attempt okay #I’m very much Not Good at Elden ring but this was soooooo satisfying I actually quite like the bell bearing hunter’s moveset #I just wish he didn’t hit like a goddamn TRUCK like that sword throw does WAY too much damage for how fast it comes out and combos #I understand the desire to punish panic dodges but please ease up a little I was so clenched this whole time 😭😭😭 #I keep telling boys to come fuck me whenever I play cuz I’ll punch their dicks off but apparently that’s not very appealing 🙄 #tsuchi plays games

[fellhellion]

god i could gnaw on conchata's Issues forever. when miguel is like mom stop pretending to be terminally ill to get us to visit it really upsets gabriel and me, and conchata - who hates the thought of hurting gabriel and believes miguel is too self centered to care - utterly dodges thinking on the fact she's hurt gabriel, because she doesn't want to believe she's hurt him, and then accuses miguel of not being affected at all. the dysfunction is so fucking tasty.

not even touching the fact miguel genuinely has been ghosting conchata because he sucks at emotional vulnerability yeah, but because he thinks talking to his mother is futile, that he innately hurts her by virtue of being too much like his father.

#miguel ur ma is a milf. who said that #oh no im channeling dana hJKHJFKDHF OH NOOOOO #all jokes aside MAN that issue of the 90s run is my fave. the family dysfunction is so tasty. #also. as dysfunctional as it manifests i have sympathy for conchata feeling abandoned and WANTING to see her sons but expressing it in the #worst way fjksdfhjkds like tunes has mommy issues sure lmao but theres also the whole thing of gabriel and miguel just. leaving conchata #in the equivalent of the psych ward. to try help w the damage george's abuse left yeah. but also imo because there has never been a persona #problem the o'hara boys haven't run from in completely different ways. #conchata expresses the desire to see them in a borderline manipulative and very dysfunctional way yes. but i believe her desire to see them #IS sincere and that she does love her sons. but again. the actual way she behaves w those emotions isn't a healthy expression #anyways! im never not insane about this family #tunes talks 2099

[sadlynotthevoid]

I want to read a LCF x Assassination Classroom crossover only for the sake of seeing OG!Cale interact with the principal.

They would fight and OG!Cale would win because he's such a little shit and fears exactly one thing— and manipulative assholes aren't that.

Principal Asano (whatever his name was) would have an aneurism trying and failing to intimidate him.

This brat (because any version of OG!Cale would kick his ass, but teenager!OG!Cale would be funnier) not only isn't affected by his bloodlust (he grew up around Ron, that was rather pathetic), he can see through his manipulations and plotting as if he was reading a book— an easy one, at that—, and had been going in circles around him since he entered through the door!

What is worst, he has been switching back and forth between almost calling him out and playing dumb since he tried to use one of his usual tactics with him. He's laughing at him inside— he knows it.

He ends up giving Asano a nervous tick.

So, AU where teenager Og!Cale transmigrates to AssClass world— maybe he appears near Karasuma's colleagues so he has to deal with him (because whatever God that delivered him knows that kid needs a responsible adult around)— and proceeds to take it really well. Can't say the same about some people (cofcof Asano cofcof) who fucked around him and now find out.

Meanwhile, Karasuma is very busy with his job, the supersonic octopus, getting his teaching license, and the strange kid with self-esteem issues that crossed worlds— who's now living with him.

Curiously, helping Cale to accommodate to a whole different world and society is the less difficult task out of all of them. The hardest part so far was explaining him why his happiness and reputation isn't a "good price to pay" for someone else's wellbeing.

(Although the talk about "why exposing yourself to any nocive substance was a bad idea even if you have a great tolerance or immunity to them, and therefore, is forbidden" had been a close one. Seriously, why does he knows how poisoned food tastes like?)

#karasuma is a very busy person #og!Cale is actually an easy kid to raise most of the time #even with his unique solutions and chaotic tendencies #but then he has times when he's lack of self-worth and common sense holes crash #he has an unique thought process that normally works for him #it's just that he isn't used to think about himself like a living person with feelings and desires instead of acceptable collateral damage #he'll learn #asano is suffering #and he will suffer more once Karma and Cale meet #the chaos #Nagisa reminded Cale of Bassen #he must protect #og!cale henituse #lcf au #lcf crossover #tadaomi karasuma #asano gakuhou #that was his name #assassination classroom #assclassxlcf crossover

[teasel-backatitagain]

Thinking about her (Karina Braun)

#I do not like her in the slightest #But also want to explore Reiners feelings toward her post rumbling #Her 'oh yes i only want my son' bullshit is not flying with me (nor is it flying with jean AHAHAHAH) #Karina used Reiner as a tool to further her own desires #Putting a clear expiration date on her only son as the ripe age of ten #She sees him coming back from his trip to hell depressed suicidal self harming and does not care lol #She also gladly pushes gabby toward the same fate (and we know how Reiner feels about Gabby) #So yes propaganda propaganda but goddamn the amount of damages she caused her only son (a literal CHILD) #Reiner is somewhat aware of all that but feels conflicted about it and might kind of push it away #Cause god he has already lost so much #She would have AT BEST troubles reckoning with the full extend of it and properly atone for it #And at worst be a nasty bitch about it and straight up refuse to admit anything but still insists on having a relationship with her son #Idk man wherever she ends up falling on that spectrum Reiner is in for a fun time #(cause i do think he'd want some sort of relationship with her) #(also i think she wouldn't be fully on board with her son kissing devil men (yes jean) on the mouth so that's a problem to add to the list) #Interested about how jean would fit in all of that cause of course he'd be there every step of the way #(they're in love your honor there is just a chance they don't know it yet) #Between his mom being so not karina #his foul mouth #big heart and burning desire to prevent reiner from being trampled yet again #That would make for some fun discussions #So much possibilities... the juices are jussing #do i have the braincells to discuss all this with the nuance it deserves at this ungodly hour? no #hopefully at some point i will #reinjean adjacent #rambling