#destroyed film

[bronwynlayla]

#35mm #film #destroyedfilm #lomo #lomography #soakedfilm #staybrokefilmshootfilm #photography #filmphotography #filmsoup #nofilter #onfilm #grainisgood #filmexperiments #soupedfilm #filmcommunity #destroyed film #suburbia

[lionfloss]

by Lisa Fotios

#nature #photography #nature photography #Polaroid #polaroids #expired film #art #orange #purple #double exposure #flowers #destroyed film

[sinaloan]

Prohrabuju se zas v počítači a nacházim tam starý skeny z analogu. Tohleto je přibližně z května 2021, a pojí se mi k tomu pár nešťastnejch vzpomínek. To jsem taky v tenhle čas čerstvě ničila s radostí filmy, aby to vypadalo coolzy. Digitál teď asi na chvilku odložim, čapnu miňoltu a maličkej olympus. Trochu mi to chybí.

#analog #olympus xa2 #destroyed film #>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> #olympusphotography #analog photography #film #film photo #fotim česky #píšu česky

[lilium--bosniacum]

children’s dreams / al-yarmouk, palestinian refugee camp in damascus, syria 

little palestine; diary of a siege (2021) dir. abdallah al khatib 

#it was the syrian regime that besieged and subsequently destroyed this camp #syria #film #yarmouk

[sahind]

GODZILLA: Minus One (2023)

#godzilla #godzillaedit #godzilla minus one #godzillaminusoneedit #kaiju #monster #king of the monsters #japan #post war #epic #city #poster #film #movie #2023 #atomic breath #destroy #destruction #sci-fi #scifiedit #gif #edit #godzillagifs

[galecstatic]

head empty and knees weak for the way henry holds alex as they kiss

#wanna chew glass atm #they really tryna destroy my life #red white and royal blue #firstprince #alex claremont diaz #henry fox mountchristen windsor #nicholas galitzine #taylor zakhar perez #rwrb film

[lamentofspring]

all of us strangers (2023), adam & harry / portrait of a boy with grief, wale ayinla / sonnet of the wreath of roses, federico garcia lorca / an oresteia, anne carson / dancing with ghosts, hania rani & patrick wilson / every poem is a child of love, marina tsvetaeva / meditation: my grief, the sun, sanna wani

#web weaving #paul mescal loml #this film absolutely obliterated me #I read the script while watching the film and I had to get up and take walks it was so unbearable #genuinely I can’t do this anymore it destroyed me #I am Adam and I can’t do this anymore #on tenderness #on grief and love #on grief #on love #all of us strangers #paul mescal #andrew scott #adam and harry #sanna wani #wale ayinla #love as tenderness #love as grief #love as tragedy #love as protection #mine

[sugarweregoingdownswinging]

she would girlboss her way straight through conahger slaughterhouse 🤷‍♀️

#emesis blue #team fortress 2 #miss pauling #tf2 #fortress films #she would destroy the respawn machine and still have time to take out Archibald

[sharkrocket]

daniil crying daniil crying daniil crying

i like to imagine that he almost never cries and i just wanna know what finally makes him break down and ugly cry

OH MAN, I 100 percent agree with this, he strikes me as the kind of person to bottle up everything and try to push all his emotions down, but those emotions end up manifesting in negative/self-destructive ways until the weight of everything finally causes him to break down

There's a fic I love that does this really well, please read Shedding Skin by Plaguedboar, I binged all thirteen chapters in two days and was ugly crying by the end of it

Daniil and Artemy come to a slow harrowing realization about their feelings towards each other, but they both recognize how dangerous and destructive acting on those feelings might be. After Daniil takes a bullet for Artemy, it drives a wedge between them, Daniil pushing Artemy further and further away, as Artemy increasingly believes that Daniil sees him as something dangerous - something with the capacity to destroy him. That if Artemy allowed himself to love him and keep him in the town, Daniil will die

❗ SPOILERS ❗

The reason why Daniil ends up taking the bullet is because he realizes that he's also in love with Artemy, but truly believes that he's not worthy of being loved and that he'll ruin Artemy just like how he's ruined everything else he's touched. So, by dying by saving Artemy's life, it would have have been the best thing he could do for the both of them. However, because Artemy ends up saving him, Daniil becomes devastated and does everything in his power to make Artemy hate him and leave him, if he knows what's good for him. In turn, it causes Artemy to question if he's even capable of loving anyone. Thus, begins a cycle of Daniil being as cold and hateful as possible, throwing insults and being self-destructive, while Artemy keeps trying to save him, which only pushes Daniil to be more hateful and self-destructive....

❗ END SPOILERS ❗

There's a beautiful moment at the end where it culminates in Daniil walking out into the steppe to die, and against all odds, Artemy finds him there. After all this time, after all the insults, the coldness, the violence, Artemy decides to love Daniil despite it all and follows him into the wide expanse. Even then, the Capital Snake is still trying to spit venom - doing everything in his power to get Artemy to leave and let him die, but it doesn't work because Artemy finally sees through the facade. He reaches past the Bachelor's many roles and holds on to the Daniil that's terrified of loving and being loved in return, and that's when Daniil finally breaks and allows his vulnerability to bleed through

PLEASE READ THIS!! The angst and catharsis of it all is immense, and I can't recommend it enough!!

#Pathologic #Daniil Dankovsky #Artemy Burakh #Burakhovsky #I think the only way I could have done this scene justice was through film or animation but I did my best #Also I can see the burning of Thanatica compounded with Artemy choosing to destroy the Polyhedron manifesting into something very ugly #The man he considered a close friend and maybe even love shatters the last remnants of your hope for the future #There won't be tears at first but it'll be months of coldness and hostility until something finally makes him snap

[one-time-i-dreamt]

I was watching a 70s-80s era movie called ‘Anihilation’ (spelled like that). It was about a man who was on the run from the police and government for stealing a key to a device that could destroy the world and it starred Mark Hamill. It looked so bad it was good and I’m disappointed I can’t watch it again.

#dream #mark hamill #to be clear #he was trying to prevent them from destroying the world #movie #film

[weirdlookindog]

Peter Cushing in The Frankenstein Must Be Destroyed (1969)

#frankenstein must be destroyed #peter cushing #1960s horror #1960s movies #1969 #terence fisher #hammer horror #hammer films

[bronwynlayla]

#35mm #film #destroyedfilm #lomo #lomography #soakedfilm #staybrokefilmshootfilm #photography #filmphotography #filmsoup #nofilter #onfilm #grainisgood #filmexperiments #soupedfilm #filmcommunity #destroyed film

[tapeworrmart]

"Seperation can be a terrifying thing" 🥩🔪

#This film fucking destroyed me esp cuz I'm an identical twin #This made me sad to draw #Dead ringers #Dead ringers 1988 #david cronenberg #Cronenberg #beverly mantle #Elliot mantle #fan art #art #sketch #character art #horror #gore #Body horror #jeremy irons

[leikeliscomet]

There's parallels between Martha needing to be the fandom's strong independent "need no doctor" figure with how Fifteen is being praised/expected to be the 1st trauma-free Doctor of his generation. Same parallels between how people were surprised Eleven would have grief over Martha and how people were surprised about Fifteen crying after losing Ruby. Its like in response to Black trauma narratives there's a complete 180° where Black characters need to be positive enough to comfort audiences even though the trauma is still basically there.

Anyway this is why I May Destroy You and Rocks are goated when it comes to showing Black trauma properly bc it explores all sides including the limits of how long trauma can be hidden away

#i may destroy you #rocks film #doctor who #fifteenth doctor #martha jones #fandom antiblackness #rtd era #black representation

[gameraboy2]

Peter Cushing as Baron Frankenstein in Frankenstein Must Be Destroyed (1969)

#peter cushing #Frankenstein Must Be Destroyed #vintage #film #movie #frankenstein

[bird-inacage]

Only Friends: EP10 Ray's Therapy Scene (First Focus)

I've been meaning to do a deep dive on this scene, which has no doubt been immensely commended for Khaotung's stellar performance (I'm running out of vocabulary to gush about how talented that boy is). However the purpose of this post is to highlight how equally superb First is, as I fear some may overlook the excellent work he does here.

The reason why this scene warrants a huge amount of respect is how challenging this dynamic is on both actors. Only Ray is speaking the entire way through, which means the tone and rhythm of the scene is led by Khaotung, whilst First's role here as Sand is to be reactive to this immense outpouring and release of emotion. First is required to be a very restrained and contemplative presence - a projection and visual representation of Sand in Ray's own mind. It's literally acting on a macro (Khaotung) and micro (First) level in tandem.

I want to start by mentioning how well First portrays this bedded-in weariness in Sand’s demeanor throughout, an expression we’ve seen in Episode 8. It carries this heartbreakingly heavy and worn down quality. A symptom of a man who bears far too much weight on his shoulders, whose mental toil never seems to end; a product of his own nature and those who knowingly or unknowingly take advantage of it. This is the tragedy of Sand's character. And this is the realisation that is well and truly hitting Ray now. His temper and behaviour have inevitably taken its toll on someone Ray knows doesn't deserve all the suffering he's been putting him through.

⬆️ "I was stupid, but I want you to understand me. I was mad at you because I cared so much about you."

When Ray starts asking for forgiveness, there's an air of slightly deflated scepticism that flits across Sand's face. Sand's immediate instinct is to be hopeful, to give someone the benefit of the doubt. But the reality is Ray has apologised a number of times before and that hasn’t stopped him from hurting Sand still. So Sand’s expression sobers, conscious of how likely it is that Ray will let him down again.

This is Ray acknowledging that he's fallen into a pattern of taking Sand for granted. If that’s all Sand has come to expect, why would his apology this time change anything? Ray has not earnt his redemption yet as he hasn't apologised to Sand in person, and has no guarantee it would be accepted. Which is why he's so upset because he registers that Sand's disappointment in him is fully deserved.

⬆️ "There's no one more caring or loving than you. Though I've been nothing but an asshole to you."

You see the tiniest lift of Sand's brow that's tinged with grateful disbelief, 'Me? But I'm nothing special'. His gaze softens by the sentiment, a visible breath inhaled in as if taken aback, clearly touched but hesitant to believe it. A humbling trait of Sand's is that he genuinely struggles to see his own value. He doesn't realise just how meaningful he can be to someone. That he could hold such weight.

And all the criticism that Ray has thrown at Sand has only piled onto the insecurities he possesses. Remarks that have questioned Sand's principles, his dignity, his sense of worth.

⬆️ "But if you don't want to put up with me anymore, that's alright. I get you."

Ray's image of Sand watches on as he begins to fall apart, crushed by a mixture of intense fear, regret, and despair that this may be too little too late. That his last outburst may well have been the final straw, and he failed to appreciate Sand when it mattered.

On the surface Sand may look numb or somewhat devoid of emotion, but you can detect the turbulence brewing underneath. Sand has a habit of holding in his feelings in to an almost painful degree (which begs for release). It gives you the impression he could suddenly burst at the seams at any given moment. But Sand as always holds still, holds strong, holds steady. Other than the slight twitch of his lip, he holds himself together somehow.

⬆️ "No one can put up with me".

Ray vocalises his own self-hatred, how little he deserves someone like Sand, how guilty he feels for causing this damage. Whilst he does so, Sand appears increasingly teary, lip ever so slightly quivering, brows crumpling. He looks like he desperately wants to break down and cry along with Ray.

What sets Sand apart from everyone else in Ray’s life is he understands. He can sympathise with why Ray is the way he is. Despite everything Ray has done, Sand still very much wants to protect him, shield him, care for him. He doesn't blame him. It breaks his heart to see Ray upset, to see Ray hurting. His compassion for Ray has always been his undoing.

The last thing he would want is for Ray to feel unwanted or intolerable. He tries to be the person who can withstand Ray's temper, his volatile nature, because he knows Ray is still deserving of love. It’s because of this love that he can feel every single thing that Ray is going through.

Sand exudes an incredibly strong parental presence in this scene; a form of unconditional love and patience. As we're often told by our parents, they're not angry at us when we veer off path, just disappointed and perhaps saddened on our behalf - but that won't stop them from loving us all the same. This is beautifully captured by First. You can detect Sand's selfless love for Ray in his every gaze, always.

⬆️ "Ever since you walked into my life, I've been so happy. So damn happy Sand."

This is where Sand almost breaks down as he displays a small, tentative smile that is laced with pained and tired relief. His eyes close in an attempt to maintain composure. Whilst there’s overwhelm, there’s also finally a glimmer of peace.

This is what Ray knows Sand needs to hear, what Ray wishes he'd said sooner. Ray picturing himself saying this to Sand may be a form of vindication in the event he doesn't get say this to him in-person.

Finally Ray collapses into Sand's arms. Sand seems to visibly reign in his own emotions, in order to revert back to 'care-taker' mode. Sand nods once, a gesture of kindness and true acceptance that says 'It's all okay, I know.'

He's Ray's pillar, his rock, and his raft. Sand has become Ray's primary source of safety and comfort. Sand's gaze is so endlessly gentle as he nestles in close to hold Ray. Everything about his embrace feels warm and stable in such a reassuring way. Sand is every bit as loving and caring as Ray just described him to be.

What makes this entire portrayal so devastating is this is the Sand Ray sees and knows. Ray mentions in Episode 11 that he’s been stowing away these details. Which indicates that everything Sand has done and said has not gone unnoticed. Whether it was due to denial or ignorance that prevented Ray from confronting it sooner, he has unconsciously taken note of it all. How Ray's image of Sand responds in this scene is based on every interaction he's had with Sand up until now. This imaginary representation of Sand is proof of everything that Ray has come to fall in love with.

First was not given any dialogue in which to communicate in this scene. His entire performance relies solely on the tiniest of micro-expressions and gestures. He symbolises the essence of Sand but not the physical manifestation of him. Therefore his acting may come across as understated but that’s a sign of real talent when you can say so much with so little.

#only friends #only friends the series #ofts #only friends meta #ray x sand #sand x ray #khaofirst #firstkhao #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #this scene was so goddamn amazing #the more you rewatch this scene the more tiny nuances you'll notice #it also destroys me to think about how it must have been for first and khao filming this and every other emotional scene of theirs #firstkhao mentioned that sand is more like khaotung in real life #UGLY CRIES