#diary of a fucking loser

[montanabohemian]

honestly, the people bitching about an objectively insane episode of wwdits are SO BORING. it's just a silly little comedy about some idiot vampires that live together and commit atrocities in new york. like what is so difficult to comprehend about that.

of course lazslo would create horrifying animal lab experiments that can talk that guillermo has to take care of.

of course nandor and colin are besties.

of course nadja makes 50 dunkin runs for a crazy lady.

it's just a weird show that is outrageous and funny and sometimes carries an emotional wallop. it's not fucking rocket science.

#wwdits #wwdits s5 #wwdits spoilers #what we do in the shadows #i just #was it the best episode of television i've ever seen? no. #was it the worst? no fucking way. #it was just ... INSANE #absolutely batshit crazy #and sometimes that's fine #stop assuming everything has to be ~prestige television~ or it's bad #like that is a TERRIBLE way to consume media #anyway it was weird and silly and colin and nandor having a besties moment just HIT SO HARD #and like y'all are so pressed about these frankenstein creations that you're forgetting NEW NANDOR LORE DROPPED #LIKE WHY ARE HIS CLOTHES AND DIARY AND HIS MOM'S NECKLACE IN A FUCKING MUSEUM #HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #PAY ATTENTION LOSERS #edit: HAHAHA OHMYGOD WHY DID I SAY NEW JERSEY #sorry i didn't realize i even typed that

[lastofthe20thcenturygirls]

two people too closed off to everyone met through their love for a game she was the first face he saw they fell in love both of them not being people of too many words never could tell each other to be with him she ruined her reputation they got separated due to circumstances had a child born out of love couldn't meet again due to people this time neither of them could raise their child not together nor alone a child who would grow up to feel next to nothing for them one spent her life succumbing to madness and illness the other living in guilt and loneliness... a tragedy if there ever was one

#shit hurts #shit fuckin hurts #i don't hate the old madam but i will never forgive her for lying to him #do you think he doesn't regret not realising it sooner why fengxian's deal fell through #she already was ill by that time but they could have had more time together 💔 #he literally was at no fault #fuck his loser father #no wonder he could never recognise you you stupid go stone #kusuriya no hitorigoto #the apothecary diaries #anime #lakan #fengxian #he's annoying yes but he's true to his heart yk #he just didn't know #knh text

[rocksalt-and-pie]

watching bridget jones's diary gets more surreal every year, the fact that she's supposed to be a loser? what I would give for living in an apartment of that size, in fucking London no less, working an apparently not too difficult but obviously well paid job, at a publishing house no less (the dream), having not one but THREE single friends who are free on the weekends and willing to go out, weighing 136lbs (gotta be fucking kidding me)?! and she's unsatisfied with her life just because she's "still" single at 32?

#fucking ridiculous movie #gen x is sick for portraying her as a loser #she's quite literally living the dream #bridget jones #bridget jones's diary #mp

[xerith-42]

That AU where Aphmau Blows up

Shout out to @thornsofrustandash for the idea. This just came to me like a prophetic vision.

Okay so I usually change Aphmau's name because I hate calling her that, but I have warmed up to just shortening it because Aph is a really cute nickname and it's more accessible to people who can't be bothered to keep track of the 5th Aphmau rename they've read this weak.

This post is me pushing my garrancemau propaganda so if you aren't down with that, idk what to tell you you just don't have taste /j

If you're reading this, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I know this isn't what we wanted, I know I'm supposed to be better than this. I was once a lord, I should know the responsibility that comes with it, and I shouldn't be so selfish.

But I need to think for myself. Have I not earned the right to selfishness after all those years of sacrificing myself for others? That's why I have to do this. I'm sorry.

Aaron, I need you to look after Lilith. I know she's going to miss me, but you're a great father and you have plenty of people who will help you with whatever you need so long as you ask for it. That's what I've always tried to tell you, and I'll keep telling you from the great beyond if I have to.

To my guards and friends, I'll miss you dearly. I wish we could share one last celebration with one another, but after this, there will be plenty of reason for celebration. Please don't let the tragedy of my death outweigh the triumph of my accomplishments. Remember me fondly, keep love in your hearts, and go forward knowing that you are some of the best companions a woman could ask for.

And to my head guards... [There's a noticeable teardrop staining the page and causing some of the ink to bleed] I'm sorry. For everything.

Goodbye.

Aph

A tear slipped down her face again, one that Aph was quickly wiping away as she folded up the letter and left it on her bedside table. She glanced over at her bed, where Lilith was swaddled up in a blanket and snuggling her favorite doll, one Laurance had carved for her. Aph's heart dropped at the image, the final thing that would make her doubt what she was about to do.

She had to remind herself that it wasn't a guarantee it would kill her. Only a possibility. She could hear Zoey rightly correct her that it was a high possibility, but she had to do this. Aph walked over to her daughter, placed a final kiss on her forehead, and then left her home. The Phoenix Alliance was quiet. It usually was, but somehow it felt even emptier under the light of the full moon. As if they're city was as abandoned as the one they had found on the island.

Her eyes kept catching on the sings of life. A guitar leaned up against a stand, the sound of cows snoring in their pens, and the many clothes strung along the drying racks reminded her that they lived here. They were making a home here. Aph had a home. The relic fragment pulled at her, reminder her that she had to protect her home. She had to. She couldn't stand seeing that sad look in Vylad's eyes anymore.

She nearly sprinted past Lucinda's house after traveling through the portal. She couldn't let anyone find her. They might be able to talk her out of this. Luckily she knew the path like the back of her hand. The forests of Phoenix Drop had changed quite a lot over 15 years, and yet they were exactly as Aph had remembered them.

The fragment in her pocket started to pull at her further and further, as if responding to the magic around the closed portal. Aph pulled the piece out, turning over the small purple orb in her hands.

"Take me to him," She commanded, and a burst of light instantly went off, magic springing from the fragment and latching onto the frame of the portal. It flashed red, and the portal was open. She could almost see him. Aph reached her hand through, and when she did, she could instantly feel the heavy blue fabric she knew so well. "Garroth!"

Aph pulled, yanking him out of the dimension and to the floor, where he was instantly followed by Zane who now stood before her. The relic fragment in her hand continued to spark with magic even as she tried to close the portal. Both Garroth and Zane needed a moment to readjust to being in the overworld. It was Zane who took less time, who realized where he was, and who he was in front of.

Bright white angel wings filled Garroth's vision as he looked up at the lord he loved so dearly.

"A-Aph?" Garroth muttered out. "What are you doing?"

"Saving your life," She answered, a smile evident in her voice. Though it faintly echoed with an unfamiliar sound, overlapping with the voice of another. "I'm sorry I couldn't do it before!"

"Wait!" Her hand shot forward, reaching straight for Zane's chest as she held onto the fragment even tighter, trying to hone and focus all the stray magic that was jumping from it.

"W-What are you doing?!" Zane gasped out as he saw her eyes start to glow white. "YOU'LL KILL US BOTH!!" Finally, she had clarity. Zane had put it so well. In order to succeed, she had to kill them both. A relic for a relic, a life for a life.

"That's the plan." Aph turned around and looked down at Garroth, her eyes becoming amber for this final moment. "I love you." A blinding white light filled her eyes, and an explosion rang out across the land.

"What happened?!" Dante nearly screamed as he raced to the explosion site. He prayed that Alexis would find no refugees were harmed, but all thoughts were swept from his mind when he got a clear view of the crater where the forest once was. Black and purple essence was scattered across the destroyed land, some parts were still actively on fire, and near the edge of the crater was Garroth. "Garroth?!"

Dante didn't get a reply. Garroth was still in shock, his hands trembling, and his eyes trying to cry. He was trying, but all he could seem to do was shake.

"Garroth, what happened?" Dante's voice sounded far, like he was talking to someone else. Garroth fell to his knees as he saw what laid at his feet where she once stood. A leather bound notebook with a rather crude "Aph" carved into the front of it. It was worn, clearly loved, and when Garroth traced his fingers over the poor thing like it would break, he could almost feel her life force coming from the pages.

It should have been louder. Garroth should have been filled with anger, something violent, something heard. Instead, the moment he held her diary in his hands, Garroth broke out into the sort of weeping he hadn't allowed since he was a child. Since the last time he lost someone this important to him. Garroth's crying was quiet. His tears were plentiful, but the sound was reserved, only a few sobs escaping between gasps for breath.

"Dante!" Travis called out, only seeing the backs of the two men. "Dante, what's going--" He stopped short when Dante turned around and he saw the tears streaming down his face. It made both men freeze at the sudden display of emotion. "What... What happened?" Dante glanced back at the weeping Garroth, and opted to step away and bring the conversation somewhere he couldn't hear.

"I-I don't really have any details yet. Garroth's not exactly comprehensible right now," Dante explained with a shaky voice. Travis faintly wanted to hold his shaking hands, just to console him a little. "Seems like nobody else was harmed in the explosion... Except..."

"Except...?" Travis repeated.

"A-Aph. I'm pretty sure she was the uh... The cause." Travis could hear his heart beating in his head as the entire world came out of focus. He couldn't really process what Dante said at first, and when he did, he felt numb. Like he should have some big reaction to the information, but instead it just left him feeling cold. "I-I'm going to keep looking around, see if I can't find a sign that she's alive."

"Yeah, y-you should do that. I'm... Enki help me, I don't know what I'm going to do."

"You could help me." Travis didn't have the heart to tell Dante his effort would be fruitless. It's not like Dante would listen anyways.

"I think I'm going to go tell the others." Dante nodded, before walking back towards the site. Travis' body moved without his own will, his legs suddenly having a mind of their own. His head felt heavy and yet also weightless, and he felt dizzy. Things only came into clarity for a moment when he saw Katelyn limping down the path through Phoenix Drop towards him.

That was when Travis got a hold of himself again, and he was suddenly racing towards her, catching Katelyn's weak form in his arms like it was instinct.

"Katelyn? What are you doing out of bed?!" Travis almost yelled.

"Like I was gonna sit still after hearing that," Katelyn groaned as she leaned against his weight. Travis' arm wrapped around her waist to hold her up like it was nothing. "What happened?"

"Still figuring that out."

"Where's Aph? I-Is she safe?" Travis's heart dropped, and he could feel the beginning of tears.

"I-I don't know."

"You don't know what?! Where she is or if she's safe?! You're her guard you should--" Katelyn stopped her yelling when she saw the tear finally slip down Travis' cheek. "No, no, no. Don't--"

"I-I'm sorry, Katelyn."

"No! She can't be!!" Katelyn was suddenly fighting against Travis, trying to break free from the grip he had on her waist. Instead, it just turned into Travis pulling her in even closer, wrapping both his arms around her tightly as Katelyn began to wail. The sound of her agony was enough to finally push those stubborn tears from Travis' eyes as e clung onto her.

They barely noticed the figure rush past them. His vision was somehow hazier than usual with the added tears in his eyes. It was when he stumbled into the crater and saw the man standing before him that the whirlwind of emotions quieted down, and Laurance was able to hear his own thoughts, feel his body again.

Mere moments before he felt an unholy amount of pain, a miserable feeling of mourning consumed every part of his body, and when he saw what remained he realized why. He saw Garroth's absolutely pitiful expression as he clutched onto her diary like a lifeline. Laurance's mind was quiet at first. Just him. Just the realization of all he had lost in a single moment. And all he was now able to lose.

Finally there was a sound to rival the explosion, a single noise to encapsulate the grief. A miserable scream that cracked and broke as it continued to tear through the land as Laurance came to terms with everything he had lost, and everything he was about to lose. The poor man could only fall to his knees and scream as it all came crashing down on him. A cacophony of voices filled his ears, only making it worse as tears forced their way through glassy eyes.

The voices of the calling were the same, yet because they called for something new, none of them sounded right. Nothing was right. Laurance's body felt like it was being ripped apart all over again and it didn't even matter this time because she was gone. He had failed her and possibly doomed everyone because of it. Every time Laurance tried to focus on the anguish of her loss, it was always weighed down by the agony of his own curse. The curse he bore for her sake was now meaningless.

Eventually Laurance's voice went hoarse. It was only then that he finally looked up and saw Garroth. The man he had spent so long fighting to get back, the man who he was ready to rip apart the realm barrier for, the man who was so loved he had more than one person willing to do that. Adoration and love swelled in Laurance for a moment, and emotion got the better of him. Laurance threw himself into Garroth's arms, and Garroth caught him and held him like it was the easiest thing in the world. He held Laurance's sobbing form and continued to weep himself.

Neither knew how to feel about the few tears of joy they initially shed while holding each other. They didn't last very long, and were rather quickly overshadowed by mourning. Garroth managed to stand up and walk the two of them away from the crater, before he collapsed against a tree and allowed his body to finally relax.

Neither Laurance or Garroth spoke for quite some time. It was just the two of them and her diary. At some point Garroth must have decided he'd had enough of wearing the heavy armor, but he never set Laurance down. Even as they walked through the streets of an empty Phoenix Drop that Garroth wanted nothing more than to explore. He'd need time to adjust to their new world, he knew that, but he always dreamed he'd do it hand in hand with the people he cared most about. He never imagined it would be him and Laurance stumbling into Aph's empty home at the top of the hill, and then collapsing before they could get to their own bed.

Now Garroth lay on the floor, Laurance still on top of him, and both of them seemingly run out of tears. That wouldn't last long.

"We should at least get to bed," Garroth suggested quietly. He was met with the sound of Laurance's sniffles.

"I can't," Laurance answered.

"Why not?" Laurance sat up, finally getting off of Garroth and letting him sit up. Laurance tried in vain to wipe his eyes, knowing it likely wouldn't do anything.

"I-I can't. I can't be around you for much longer."

"Why? What's wrong?" Laurance's body began to tremble. His blood ran hot. If his voice weren't already so hoarse, Laurance might have screamed. No no no this couldn't be real-- "Laurance, please talk to me."

"I can't!" Laurance backed away from Garroth, but refusing to move too much. He wasn't sure if he moved if he would have control of his body. He couldn't take the risk. "Calling!" That's all Garroth needed to hear.

The calling. He'd helped Laurance with it before, and Aph had told him how it was harming Laurance. Neither knew too many specifics unless Laurance disclosed them, but Garroth did know exactly what he was saying. There was no doubt that Dante's effort to find her was meaningless. She was dead and Laurance knew the second it happened. And now the calling had simply switched targets.

"I..." Garroth's voice trailed off. What was he supposed to say?

Aph would know what to say.

The thought made Garroth feel like crying all over again, but he didn't dare look away from Laurance. Especially not when he saw his eyes flash red.

"I'm sorry," Laurance whispered. "I love you." And like that, he was gone. In almost an instant Laurance had stood up and taken off, faster than Garroth was capable of keeping up with.

"Laurance!!" He desperately cried out, scrambling to stand up in his heavy armor, and barely making it to their door before he realized it was hopeless. As the sun started to peek over the horizon, Garroth looked out upon an almost empty Phoenix Drop, and he couldn't contain his anguish anymore. Garroth fell to his knees in the doorway of his beloveds home, and wept for his lost lovers once more.

hi i actually have a lot more ideas about this but this post is really long and writing this au is literally hurting me so I'm gonna make another post with more stuff later okay bye

#we've hit this point #i cried while writing this #text post #minecraft diaries #laurance zvahl #garroth ro'meave #minecraft diaries laurance #writing #aphblr #minecraft diaries garroth #minecraft diaries au #minecraft diaries aphmau #aphverse #yeah this post fucking hurt me #like I got legit upset while writing it I can't wait for you losers to read it #and then come to the tags and know your pain is shared #angst #whump #i really hope I'm using that right #I keep crying #it keeps getting worse #so much angst #mcd travis #mcd katelyn #mcd dante #very messy tags #alternate universe

[thevirgincherry]

have been ill since i was a kid it is not going to get better or pass likeeee sick of people telling me otherwise

#🏩.diary #I’ve always been this way #like there is no fixing it it’s not even like #idk my mental illness isn’t even something i can use as an excuse it’s just me now like idk #my friends are insufferable they don’t get it that #it’s not the fucking same like im so upset why do they always make things ab themselves #im the one that has no other friends no job no love life im failing uni with no social life like no you don’t get it #and they’re always like oh i wish I wasn’t known on campus like you talking to people is so draining I hate it #I hate it so bad i need to kill myself #I’ve been suicidal since I was 11 like that’s it’s not gonna change #and then they wonder why I don’t wanna talk like sorry im too suicidal to hear ab you having multiple jobs and boyfriends and driving sorry #like im too bitter #why don’t you just do this I CANT!!! im ugly and repulsive and can’t go outside #I’ve been made fun of for my weight and face by family n school friends like why would k want to go outside when it’s not even. me that #thinks I’m repulsive but everyone around me too #my parents don’t ever call me pretty unless I have makeup on they’re repulsed by me I know they love me bc they have to love me but im such #a loser there’s nothing to be Proud of #I don’t know what to do at all it’s like I’ve fucked it over so badly I can’t fix a single thing #it’s like I have everything wrong w me and it’s humiliating #tw vent #sorry im worked up godddd #I hate when people talk me like it’s my first time feeling this way and that it’s easy to get over #just try getting ur license or doing this I psychically cannot bc I’m crippled by anxiety and facial and body dysmoprhia like fuck off #whatever whatever im too pussy to kill myself so I’ll just live in this fucking cycle forever and ever like bc im literally a fucking . #pussy what’s wrong w me #in other news my sisters separation anxiety is back and she won’t let go of me I can’t go to the bathroom without her coming she’s sleeping #in my bed again #she’s so clingy I love her but I can’t do anything

[jamesblr]

Feel so gross for eating more than my 6'0 bf :/

He basically does what I do, eating nothing or <200 calories until dinner then OMAD, except he actually has self control unlike me. Lately it's been so easy to cave into my cravings and I don't know why. I need to be better.

It shouldn't be this difficult to eat less than a man almost 6" taller than me.

I feel awful for wanting to be sicker than him but genuinely it should be easier for me.

Regardless, I've been bringing down my intake (painstakingly) slowly over the past few days. It should be where it needs to be tomorrow or Friday.

I just need to stay focused and remember why I'm doing this.

I won't let myself down again.

#i will reach my ugw #⭐️ve #thinspø #ana trigger #disordered eating thoughts #@na trigger #i want to ⭐️ve #🕯️as a 🪶 #i will lose weight #i will be weightless #tw ana diary #ed bllog #ed not sheeren #ed bullshit #4n4blr #4n0r3xia #💗 my random posts 💗 #I'm a fucking loser lmao

[poolboyvmprmansion]

not having any like super close or long term friendships at this point in my life is really fucking with me i think

#kye speaks #i have friends rn #i have a ton of friends rn! #theyre all new friends. #we're still learning base level facts about each other #and the fact that i dont have people to talk to throughtout the day #is really making me feel like im going insane #and i feel like if i try to cope by like writing an actual diary or some shit im gonna get too ok with being alone #and then itll be worse! #so i just vent in the tags to you losers (lovingly) #because at least theres a mask of being social online #and like i literally hung with people like all day saturday sunday and monday evening #but i still feel fucking lonely! #i hate it #i know this is like the foundations of that that im building rn and it will get to that point #but rn im gonna start setting buildings on fire

[randomositycat]

Oh so... okay it IS the inferiority complex... wow.... it's okay man :(

Maybe one day she'll want you idk chin up brother

#the apothecary diaries #hes a loser #i knew he was a loser from the beginning #its just funnier that he admits hes pathetic #LMAOO #id bully jinshi every chance i got #ill tell you that #i dont think i could help myself #but at the same time in his defense #if she did that to ME oh brother id feel pathetic and simply crumble to dust #after trying to do whatever fucking wannabe dom act that was #LOSING oh my god #i simply couldnt #but knowing him hes probably excited to lose again #this just reminds me of this fic i read where i was like 'thats an interesting thing for them to say i wonder why they said that' #well now i know #thaanks #apothecary hour

[chiveburger]

dude I’m fucking CRYING reading dweller... the very core of it is scary, but it’s much more sentimental and sad than terrifying. I don’t think I’ve cried reading a book but this one got me. to keep it simple, toby who the story follows starting at 8 meets and befriends a monster who he calls owen in the woods. they grow up together, and mutually understand that they care and love each other. this is a spoiler but eventually toby starts a family and after the arrival of his firstborn he vows nothing would ever hurt him, and he decides to kill owen. I could NOT fucking turn the virtual page to finish that chapter because I was genuinely so scared owen was going to die. I sobbed a little because the first thing owen signs to toby when he sees him in the woods is “baby?” because he knew toby’s wife just gave birth. even when he holds the gun up to his face, owen doesn’t run away. something about this story is so touching, and the way it’s written despite spanning for 3 (and more) decades is easy to follow. even the way the scenes jump from one to another is very straightforward without it being too direct or repetitive. I don’t know man, if owen dies at the end of this not out of natural causes I’ll fucking go crazy.

#OWEN!!!!!! YOU DON'T FUCKING NEED THIS LOSER!!!!!!!!!! #borger diary #dweller #borger watch

[dappourock]

love hatsune miku's lame loser unpopular older brother mikuo

#he's soooooooo funny to me #miku and mikuo are both trans to me #i love when trans guys are just fucking losers #mikuo is a loser to me but i love loser characters loser isn't an insult to me it's like a state of mind #green diary

[wibble-wobbegong]

hey guys if you see stuff about bombs on tv tonight blame it on driving school

#I ONLY HAVE FOUR MORE HOURS LEFT #ITS THE LAST DAY #WHY DO THESE BITCHES HATE THE GRIND #gonna have to tell my mom and she’s not gonna be mad i just don’t like fucking stuff up bc she’s nice about it #she’s gonna be disappointed but not mad and it’s like. #she SHOULD be pissed #this EARNS me a good yelling at and maybe like. a punch or something. but SHE WONT DO THAT #AND ITS WORSE!!!!! #head in my hands #see i never miss my dad but i think he needs to come show her how to be mean to me #im so bad at Everything unless there’s a threat bro. i need her to be MEAN!!!!!! #god. the GUILT bro #if I could be normal. ohhhhhhh i would love to be normal #dear diary #<- new personal tag #I DONT WANNA SEE ANYBODY IN THE REPLIES. #let me loser cope on tumblr dot com for free Ok thank youuuuuu :)

[myfirstandlast]

the coolest places are ones i will never be invited to

#tumblr always remaining my deeply depressing online diary #i don’t know how to be appealing to people cooler and more interesting than me #i just have nothing of interest to give i am so nothing in a huge gigantic world #i dont want to be such a fucking loser but it feels like this is it this is all there is and i’m losing my 20s to being a fucking lame #i don’t know. i never feel right or exactly happy. i don’t know what my problem is besides my general lack of knowledge and sense #even this is embarrassing like overdramatic 22 year old being embarrassing online. i wish i could blow up

[hebescus]

man i need them concert money

#ACT LOVESICK DAY ONE HOW DO WE FEEL #envy. envyyy #txt #i'm patiently waiting for the pricelist lol #they performed my beloved wishlist #also why didnt they perform openjng sequence with the frost outfit? #i would kill to witness eternally live ngl #this post is a fucking live report of my reactions #not the biggest fan of moa diary but they were shaking their asses hsjshsh #loser lover uncensored <3 let them say fuck thank you

[portokali]

there is. definitely a lot to be said about the merits of having the ability to turn off Shipper Brain Mode and enjoy a story without ever demanding a ship be canon or even shipping any of the characters. however there is something about a hint or a promise of romance in works that aren’t explicitly romantic that makes them somehow more tantalizing and interesting. anyway this post is about james and erin derrygirls where i had 0 expectations of their feelings ever being confirmed and simply entertained the idea of them as a what-if-james-likes-erin-lol on a completely different tab that was left open in my brain but when it Was confirmed in s3 and the way it was left unfulfilled but all the same promised absolutely has done numbers to my brain chemistry like the small and tender crushes of two kids living ordinary lives under extraordinary circumstances. something about that yeah.

#like sometimes i feel a lot of Shipping is all abt for the sake of shipping and so u can project a Whatever romantic ideal #which often has nothing to do w the characters presented on screen (or on page etc ykwim) and more abt fandom building a fanon around t #the ship and making it all abt coffeeshop college aus etc... like its more abt inside consumption and deformation of the original ship #to be sth it wasnt meant to in canon but what the fandom wants it to be. i dont rly like this kind of shipping #BUT when i see two blorbos and their love is real it touches my soul...... blease understand #like im SO HAPPY w how little screentime their romance actually takes up its EXACTLY as much as i needed in a story out of derry girls #any more wouldve been too much cause honestly theyre all just losers who dont pull and the story is abt friendship and coming of age anyway #but also..... the jerin story so so good and important to me fr. #no bad tracks. the way it happens so quietly and you can pick their feelings up by SQUINTING? impeccable #the way HE is whipped for HER (a must in a het relationship) but absolutely sees right through her bs and keeps it real always #the way james absolutely Knows and Sees erin for all of her and still oh god oh shit #disintegrating to my bare essentials im gone #cause erin diary girl erin erin the author erin the writer and james you should write that down derrygirl james my best friend james #the i can wait........ like literally so mature of them to realise theyre not mature enough yet but YET theres potential for sth #that they cant just fuck up w their teen bullshit!!!!!1GOSH. FABULOUS!!!!!! #AND the way everyone's parents mirrored the girls in the flashback episode and now erin and james seem to rather grow to be similar to #erin's parents aka a loving marriage and relationship that endured objectively A Lot and provided shelter n family not only to their kids #but also officially unofficially james too james who never knew his dad james whose ma kinda umm doesnt love him. lets be honest. #like theres n o reason for me to be losting my shit so mcuh over them except there IS. #except i am! #the fact that their ship name is jerin? erin with a j?? an absolute w for j community on top of everything #no bad tracks im telling you #the quiet tender kind of love that short of develops as a bytheway as an aside to the main story #as an of course id have a crush on you. of course it would happen. of course it's not going to be the main story #its not the end of it either its not even the beginning not really #you know im such a fool for you....... but now im feeling it even more......... etc #jerin #derry girls #derry girls spoilers

[thevirgincherry]

oh my god she’s like a plague

#🏩.diary #fucking loser

[aropride]

when i was in 7th grade i used to say goodbye to my dad every night instead of goodnight

#suicide tw #text #neg #bc i never was really sure if id make it thru the night #i dont know. i was so fucking young. and that wasnt even when it started #i was in 5th grade. writing in my diary with my bottle2pen pen i used all the time #like. 'ways i could kill myself: hit head on rock. jump off bridge. drink poison' #like i was 10 or 11 i was a fucking kid #and i thought itd get better #i was so sure of it. it'll get better in middle school! itll get better in high school! itll get better once im out of this relationship! #itll get better post covid! itll get better after graduation! itll get better after this summer! itll get better after college! #itll get better in summer! itll get better when i tell my parents! #and its Not Getting Better and i Havent Told My Parents and . i dont know #i feel like my life is falling apart & ill never be able to fix it & im going to feel miserable until i die around the age of 22 #give or take a few years. whatever.i dont care #its like at this point im just gonna fuck up my life beyond repair and then kill myself or whatever #<- who said all that? damn what a fucking emo loser. well im fine guys! for realsies! totally fine!smile #i have therapy tmrw. or well. today. #im not excited. butwahetevr. #dont . worry abt me. ill make it thru. i always do