#did I need some of those things as well

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

rough day...

#i might come back and color this. Eventually.... #scribbled this after a busy day of lots of moving things into storage and hauling boxes around #i felt a bit like a workhorse! #at some point i sat down on the uhaul w/ my water and thought. Wow. How Does Eddie Manage #poor guy deserves a break... #he needs a day off smh #i mean the neighborhood would fall apart w/o him probably but still. he needs a vacation! #he works too hard! someone tell him to prioritize himself for once! #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #eddie dear #alrighty well its 12 am i need to get up in less than 6 hours and i still have Several Things To Do before i can sleep! #so! queuing this and getting those last chores done #wait fuck. what where they #well! i'll remember when i get up to do them! probably! #yknow 7 hours into tomorrow's drive im gonna be like OH FUCK I FORGOT THE [insert task here] #oh. shit did i eat dinner? hm... im not gonna be ready for breakfast when i wake up #so i might as well add 'quick cup of noodles' onto tonight's Before-Sleep list.... #im rambling! sorry! #anyway i have Much affection for eddie! somebody get him a spa day and some shiny new stamps!!!

[lorillee]

im really normal about them <- lie

#ace attorney #mia fey #diego armando #miego #lorillee.png #THATS RIGHT BABY. AFTER -um . hold on. *checks notes* - SIX MONTHS. LORILLEE IS BACK WITH PHOTOSHOP ART 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥 #every now and again i like to put effort into something just to remind everybody that i can actually draw #well i say that but to be honest i put a lot of effort into those ms paint ''diego fey REAL'' doodles #but half of that is just because humans are a . something. to draw. and urban backgrounds are my worst nemesis #and also trying to work with ms paint to like slightly transform things is an incredible pain in the behind #anyways. yeagh 😎👍 behold the power of miego. getting me to actually finish something in photoshop for the first time in months #anyways. ive discovered the secret to getting me to draw stuff on photoshop. prepare yourselves accordingly #what i need to do is sketch & line something in ms paint. and then directly trace it over into photoshop #and then i can go ham #see because the reason i never did this before was because i would sketch things in ms paint #and try to line them in photoshop and it simply Wouldnt Work. #so i had assumed that if i wanted to draw in photoshop id have to sketch in it first. yknow. which i cannot do for some reason #something about the way the pen feels and the . its like the smoothing setting is on even when its on 0 percent. you know. anyways #but with this one i drew mia in ms paint as per usual . and i wanted to mess around with color & light #and i triedddd to do it in ms paint but unfortunately as you can probably imagine. doing stuff like this without layer filters #can get a little difficult. if you know what youre doing its obviously going to be easier but that being said i do not #when i pick colors i am literlaly just wildly guessing 😭🙏 which is fine for more straightforward coloring/shading #but not quite here. which is why i wanted to take a stab at it in the first place #so anyways i was like FINE WHATEVER and tried tracing the lineart in photoshop so i could take a stab at coloring in there #and i was . enlightened. (no pun intended). it WORKS #so anyways . you may actually be able to expect. some photoshop art from me #well ok thats a lie never expect art from me. but we can all dream together #anyways they really are the star-crossed doomed by the narrative romance ever. everything to me

[bonefall]

I can't see how the writers still think Skystar's a good person. Like, twelve year old me liked him and thought he was interesting, but I was like twelve. And even I knew he was an irredeemable asshole after Moth Flight's Vision. If a twelve year old can figure this stuff out I have no idea what these grown ass writers were doing.

DOTC has a thesis, stated in The First Battle, that really explains everything.

"Fear and Greed" is just a fake-deep way to reinvent a Good and Evil dichotomy. Because Clear Sky's abuse comes from a place of fear, it means it's not malicious, unlike a "greedy" cat.

He can be "soothed," ergo, he's a fundamentally good person.

Post-First Battle, the books are focusing constantly on his feelings, how sad it makes him to not be trusted, how happy he is when people are on his side. All while he continues to screech at people who tell him what to do, manipulate and mistreat his son, and even still beats and mauls those who offend him.

But because it's "fear," that doesn't matter. That's a justification, an excuse. The writers don't seem to believe in good and bad actions as much as they do good and bad people. True 'evil' comes from a person who hurts others for the wrong reasons, like 'revenge' or malice.

It's abuse apologia. Plain and simple.

The truth is that abusers don't think of themselves as evil people, and everyone, even you and me, is capable of being toxic or abusive. Talk to those who have been abused and we'll tell you; we often stayed because we "saw the good," or even felt responsible for them. Abuse can be passed down through generations because the kids come to believe the way they were treated was normal and okay.

If you go through life thinking that abuse only comes from evil/greedy people, you won't see it when it happens right in front of you. Fundamental good and evil is childish. Abuse comes from fear all the time.

Abuse is about power and control. Fear of rejection, of losing someone, of pain, those are all very common motivators as the abuser tries to stop them from happening before they even begin. It doesn't MATTER that your abuser is in pain too, you NEVER "deserved" what they did in an attempt to break your legs so you wouldn't run.

But... we can all change. Even the worst of us. It's never too late to stop hurting others, move on to a better life, but some people never will. Skystar loves his power, and he keeps that power no matter how many times he misuses it.

He has no reason to change as long as his cruelty rewards him with status and authority.

But the writers are incapable of recognizing that, because for this entire arc, they were stuck in an absurd view of the world in terms of Fear and Greed. Abuse can be excused if he did it for the "right reason," and that makes him "fundamentally different" from the truly evil villains, Slash and One Eye.

Hopefully, it now makes more sense to you.

#I am completely sincere when I say that I am legitimately concerned for the mental health of these writers sometimes #It's a lot of words to say. Again. That evil is really really simple. #It feels good to get what you want. #Power gets you what you want-- Security. Assurance. Respect. #Everyone wants these things. #It's not about having a twisted and sadistic soul #I'm sure those exist out there. But they're so so rare #And you will get hurt if you need to believe that the only person it's okay to leave or distrust or hate is a literal monster #You can leave anyone who tries to control and hurt you actually!! #Even if they're in emotional pain and insist that they NEED YOU #You didn't deserve it! You never did! It's okay! They didn't need to be a monster. And you're not one for leaving either. #Or resenting them. Or recognizing that they can't be trusted. #Of course... well. Clear Sky DOES act like a monster in this text. #Gouging out people's eyes and slaughtering innocent women #But most of the time irl your abuser didn't like. Kill someone lmao #At some point the metaphor breaks down #BUT!!! #cw abuse #dotc hate #Clear Sky #Skystar #Anyway casting spell of I Love You on every abuse survivor who feels a connection here #bone babble

[sleepinglionhearts]

Once again I am thinking about becoming an art teacher vs. thinking about how fast I'd get fired if I became an art teacher

#idk I work well with kids but I dunno if I'd survive a classroom overfull of 'em #and like ok sure I could try teaching in Austin or something but the thing is #I would WANT to teach in town or in some other middle of nowhere small town because I feel like #those are the students who like. NEED to have someone teaching them wild ideas about art and communication #and what art can do and what art does and what art has to say #i would get so fired so fucking fast lol some kid would be like 'guess what we did in class today' #and then parents would come down on me for teaching art history to their 12 year olds #and not in the conservative white friendly way hsgshsgshs #oh who am i kidding I'd get fired as soon as parents (or some other teachers!!) find out I'm queer #happened to my 10th grade english teacher #anyway. just having some thoughts tonight

[paperrcrownss]

bread and circuses.

#i am about to write tags that are so long #sorry. ahem #was thinking about ideas for the pds2 designs. realized that i had not drawn #ashe (well i did once) or the trickster. went “oh ill do that real fast. wont take long. they dont need an s2 design” #looked at official designs (which i had never done ???) went “huh ??” cause they did not line up with my brain At All #took half a week to put those brain designs on paper. now we are here. #yeah i always thought the trickster was a clown/jester or clown adjacent #but some of this shit is just made up ima be real <3 #i had fun drawing it tho !! hope you had fun. looking at it ??? yeah #feel free to ask me about design things teehee #n e ways #jrwi #jrwi pd #ashe winters #jrwi trickster #( <- do people use that one or the other one) #jrwi fanart #✦ the king draws !!

[fourteenthz]

15 Lines of Dialogue

Rules: Share 15 or fewer lines of dialogue from an OC, ideally lines that capture the character/personality/vibe of the OC. Bonus points for just using the dialogue without other details about the scene, but you’re free to include those as well!

Tysm for the tag @myreia !! I feel like everybody got tagged in this already so if you haven't and you see this, pls consider I tagged you!!

Cleaning some of these so it's only the dialogue but it isn't purely Thesa bc she talks so little. I always have to go back on my fics to edit bc @ myself "she wouldn't say all that!!" so I'm giving a bit of context with who the scene is.

w/ estinien

“Alphinaud would find a way so he could keep traveling with you and Alisaie would pretend she didn't want anything with it but would still join right after him.” “Sounds like someone I know.”

2. w/ ardbert.

“I'm not the one you have to lie to, you know that, right? You can tell me you're tired of this. There's nothing for me to do — and I wouldn't, either way.” “What would change?” “You'd be honest with yourself for a change.”

3. talking about zenos.

“We are not so different, him and I. It's why I pity him, and I don't like it one bit. All this is because we're just too much alike and-”

4. w/ thancred.

“Considering you haven't called me in yet... should I leave you be?” “Just trying to make sense of my thoughts, so don’t. There's no need.”

5. w/ haurchefant.

“I can not stay. Alphinaud is alone and waiting for me. I need-” “To rest, for now.” “But I am good enough.” “Don't lie. I was the last to know about what you're going through, so please, don't lie to me anymore.”

6. w/ thancred.

“The exarch knows?”  “His doing, I'm afraid. Haven't gained any magicks, if you wondered.” “It was never necessary. Now, a lead, if you please.”

7. w/ hythlodaeus, about emet.

“... it's the matter at hand that gives him a tendency to be intense. If it unsettles you, I could ask him-” “No. It doesn't bother me,” I'm used to it.

8. w/ thancred.

“You did seem off when I arrived. I would like to hear about it sometime later. What happened in the few seconds you were alone here tonight and there, on the moon.” “I would like that too.”

9. w/ twins and estinien.

“I still don't want trouble with your father, so wait me back at the Annex? I will bring the food this time.” “If we are talking about free food, then I'll linger for a moment longer.” “And what if I don't bring you any?” “I'll get Alphinaud's part. You wouldn't want that, would you?”

10. w/ thancred.

“Your reaction... what was that?” “I fear I may have overstepped our-” “It's ours, you have nothing to overstep. Besides, I would tell you if you did.”

11. w/ the twins.

“The forest didn't felt like home, and I couldn't stand people thinking it still did. So, I went looking for a new meaning for the word- I guess I found what I was looking for.”

12. w/ haurchefant.

“I can fill you in first.” “Is that what you want?” “It is what you want.”

13. w/ estinien.

“It's relieving. Having you back.” “I could say the same about having you.” “I never left, why-” “You did, but not today.”

14. w/ emet, about ardbert,

“But of course, we are on the First. So that would explain him — which leaves me to wonder: won't you tell the Exarch and your Scions about that friend of yours?” “That doesn't concern them. Specifically, not you either.”

15. w/ thancred, about ryne.

“It has to be enough because now you do not have time to overthink, just to show the girl that you're strong enough and that she's safe here with you.”

#orange is her btw!! #also anna consider this the wip game as well bc WELL GUESS WHAT.... NOTHING NEW FROM ME. #I miss writing........... seeing some of these...... cry. #also I know ppl don't take the 'if you see this I tag you' thing but I truly mean it #if i follow you know i'm always here for your writing and I need to read everything you write so if you want to do this tag game I DID tag #anyway. she doesn't speak much so this was kinda hard. #everything about her is 80% on her actions or her own head you know #but i think i got this. some of those are very telling ig. so yeah. that's it ig. #wol posting #my writing #ffxiv

[oreegaanoo]

Once again I am fueled by comments from my thesis supervisor and feel like I can actually do this thing hell YEAAAAHHHH

I CAN WRITE THIS THING!!! I CAN DO IT!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHH

#imagine a drawing of me going all feral that's me rn #I get so hyped every time I meet him even though all his comments are like “this is okay” and “what did you mean by this”-- #then followed up by discussions and improvement suggestions and I get so excited about writing it all suddenly #like!!! what is this!!!! #it's probably because I get to actually talk about my thesis and in detail with someone who understands it? probably? #most likely now that I think about it. I don't have a lot of friends who study the same thing so I can't talk about these things in depth #(but I'm also very happy to have those friends who don't understand but listen to my ramblings about it <3 ) #p #and also also like. I am about 45 pages into this thing. I am so far. I have wanted to just drop it for the past month or so but!! I'm so-- #--far!!! holy shit!!! that's amazing my guy!!! you're doing well!! just need the clean up and some clearer explanations and that's it #it's not going to be two more years of this it's going te 6 months MAX #most likely 4 months of work with 1-2 months after for the grading and checking process when i don't have to do shit #I only have this thesis; one essay that is 75% done; and one spanish course I'm taking end I'm done!!!! I will cry when that happens!!

[fooltofancy]

theology conversations with my dad are also very funny because he will very earnestly say something and i have to very earnestly be like dad that's a heresy.

#he did Not go to school for theology and sometimes it shows. #he's. looking to be a chaplain for like. nursing homes etc. when he retires in a year or so and most of those places require a theo degree #and he's like well i have been reading the bible constantly for forty years!!!! and i'm like you have!!!! and that's great!!!!!!! #but you need to know that there are. vast interpretations for That Thing and you are Going to come up against them in that kind of position #and it would be GREAT to have some idea. about those things. #on the one hand i do not want to engage with that shit any more than i have already but on the other hand i would love to be able to be lik #... here are some texts. i don't believe this shit but i think u should read them perhaps.

[skrunksthatwunk]

sometimes you need to go back and listen to the music you liked when you were 13 because it's good for you. and no im not talking about like emo nostalgia in this case we have enough posts about that. im talking about dad rock. actually im just talking about barenaked ladies

#idk if i'd call barenaked ladies dad rock per se but every once in a while i'll hear a song and go MAN. I REMEMBER THAT #i had so many oc animatics in my head about this one.... #anyway skrunk lore moment but i had a really intense bnl phase for like 8 months in early middle school which explains a lot about 13 y/o me #in a neutral way but like. yeah. anyway go listen to box set for me. #you don't have to listen to anything else even though i still have a great fondness for a lot of it bc it's one of those things where it's #so familiar to me that i don't even know if i think it's good or not. but box set goes hard and i'll stand by that #in the car and hello city and i'll be that girl and spider in my room AND CALL ME CALMLY and blame it on me and alternative girlfriend and #the flag and when i fall and the king of bedside manor and am i the only one.... ohgh #AND YES IT'S BASIC BUT IF I HAD $1000000 IS COZY. IT'S CUTE OK #OH and it's all been done for all your immortal/reincarnation ship needs. well. a certain vibe anyway #and alcohol. and OH MY GOD I FORGOT JANE. AND INTERMITTENTLY and break your heart.... waaaaaaa #man they have way way more albums than i thought they had #i can only really speak for gordon born on a pirate ship and maybe you should drive actually but. i like those #or i Did like them. havent relistened but even looking at the titles is making me giggly like... i forgot some of these #ALSO SHOEBOX IS A FRIENDS SONG?? WHUH? #or maybe it was used in friends? idk. no thoughts on friends but they did music for just the dumbest shit. ignore that for me please #ANYWAY. going to go listen to all of that now bc im having a moment. if you listen to it and don't like it um. don't think less of me lol <3

[demiel-kheiv]

"i dont need 1kg of clay" - me in the store

#famous last words #and now i already used like 500g (out of 600g i have) of clay #getting faster at it tbh #have more unsanded or unpainted things that i have finished on this photo #i love remembering that i love putting my hands to some use #dont like doing it with people looking over my shoulder tho #so having some alone time and returning to old hobbies #did all of those for friends and tbh ill need to give people all the stuff id finish later #bc i really dont need it all myself #itll just collect dust somewhere #i like making things but if i dont do it for someone i dont know what to do with it later #well problem for future me #/ #my stuff #my crafts #ukrainian #укртамблер #укртумбочка #clay art #clay #clay sculpting #clay charms #crafts

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

EMBARRASSING: local fool didn't realize he lived within driving distance to a really cool epic cave system, now has to rectify the fact that they haven't visited in the half a decade that she has lived nearby posthaste

#i knew about some of the caves that are really close but i did NOT know about the big one how did i do that #i simply MUST visit this summer i need to rectify this mistake #and man...... they have long trails too *swoons* #methinks i can find some time. well. very rushed but i *could* go next week but i actually have to go to the gardens because OMG OMG OMG #VERY EXCITING BUT THEY'RE HAVING AN ORCHID EVENT THEN TULIPS REALLY SOON #I REALLY REALLY GOTTA GO I AM SO EXCITED THE THEME IS FRENCH IMPRESSIONISM AND THE COLORS THEY'RE USING AHHHH #AJDIUHASDIASDIGAHS u cannot imagine the #WAIT HOLD UP THEY ARE HAVING FIGURE DRAWING SESSIONS IN THE GARDENS I AM GOING TO THROW UP THIS IS #ANJDHGASLGDGASHJDGHAS dude. u cannot Imagine how excited i am about this AND OH MY FUCKING GOD THE COLORS OF #THOSE TULIPS I'M GOING TO FAINT ASDJHASKJDHASGKDLH I NEED TO BE THERE IMMEDIATELY IT'S GOING TO BE GORGROUS FR FR #AND THERE ARE CUTE LITTLE TEA PARTIES WITH REALLY OVERDRESSED TABLES I AM SEETHING I DON'T OWN A PETTICOAT #THIS IS A DRESSING UP OCCASION AND I DON'T EVEN HAVE A PETTICOAT OR A BUSTLE OR ANY 19TH CENTURY FRENCH ATTIRE AHHHH #AND OH I'LL FINALLY GET TO SEE ALL OF MY FAVORITE TREES AND HERB GARDENS AND AJSDHILASJDKHLASJASHD #i miss one particular tree so bad. she's a silly little thing i hope she's still there #sorry this started as me talking abt that cool cave system but dude. i Need to be at those gardens i need it to livve i neeeeeed it

[seariii]

I was stressed but now i'm more chill and really sleepy...

#overall my mood has been better but i am so incredibly terrified of the future... its like.... #like i feel as if someone has holding me at gun point and got told thst if i did any mistakes they would shoot #but then im not given clear instructions on what i need to do and i have to figure it out myself #i am really scared... even tho all of this gave me a new objective... i dont wanna be obsolete... #... so... that what we will work on... also... i wanna work towards my dreams... #I've been putting it off for so long i want to do it #people support me and actually enjoy my voice... i want to... #the things on my plate right now are things i can achieve... but i want more... i want things i actually want... #i want... #my house has a constant buzzing sound. i believe its because of the small power plant behind the lot. which makes it difficult for recording #since i have to get rid of that and that messes with the rest of the audio #its comforting to know it wasnt the mic tho... heh... #tomorrow lets try to take the first few steps... well more like lets try to continue with the set up #we have already a couple stuff but we still have a lot missing... #... today the girls said some stuff that impressed me... thats how im perceived?... is that what people think of me? #i kinda want to... fulfill those 'expectations'... they dont expect anything but its more of a me thing... ive been dreaming and hoping for #so long but i dont take the next step. i never do... and its because of the executive dysfunction... but... once i get the hang of it... #once i do... everything will be excellent... and we will take it easy #i am so tired already... i feel im gonan falla sleep #seari talks

[raycatz]

I DID MY CAMP INTERVIEW AND IT WENT WELL AND I HAVE A JOB THIS SUMMER YEEEAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!

now to crumple on the floor and hhhhhhh destress, breathe? aha...

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#the director even told me to not worry about missing training because of school - that we could make things work #TvT #rays random ramblings #I got to talk a little about what made me uncomfortable last summer - not all of it because i couldn't find the right words in the moment #but some of it! which was nice #the general consensus is that I need to communicate more and be more transparent when I don't understand something #WHICH TRUEEEEE #and I need to not feel guilty about asking those questions but the ad-staff in turn need to work on like #i dunno I feel judged!!! it's not just me!!! #the ad-staff could be more reciprocative and we're all stressed and it's scary #but anyways #I have a job at camp TvT #yippee!!!! #she asked me what I think went well last summer #and I completely blanked #man I should have talked about my anxiety camper!!!! #I helped anxiety camper get through it! we were buds! #she had it rough the whole week but it did get better as time went on #the staff and I and a brilliant CIT helped her through it and I'm really proud of that #really proud of the kid too

[starkidlabs]

Creepy guy liking all my posts on Instagram and commenting “U always look so beautiful” etc. etc. Why is my life like this. I want to die.

#this is a third person from the two men I mentioned earlier this week . although this guy is still substantially older than me. #although unlike the other 2 older guys I am genuinely freightened of this person in some ways #he is fine to talk to in person a little but quirky but his Instagram/Facebook really freaks me out #he’s still into creepy pasta well into his 30s and he seems to get obsessive over women #I think he’s bi (although on other ocassions he’s said he’s only into men) yet whenever he breaks up with a girl he says he’s never dating #women again because they’re all crazy #he also really fetishes women in a weird way - he’s the type to do those weird duets with hot women on tik tok (the ones you find on cringe #accounts) and he finds a woman he knows vaguely irl and posts multiple images of her to his Instagram stories #saying that he’s their biggest fan and in love with them essentially #also his most recent story is about how he needs to be with someone because he has a really high sex drive and can’t stand with not being #without a partner #like that’s just a really fucking weird thing to put on your story #and what did he do after that? he started liking all my photos and commenting hearts under them #why can’t a normal person be interested in me #why am I thrust into these situations #I feel like I’m going insane

[itspileofgoodthings]

Years ago, I asked you what the different alternate universe Maria’s were doing with their lives. Are the answers still the same?

OOOOOOF yes.

but now I’m in the period where I have to face that I do not, in fact, have multiple lives so I have to figure out what I’m doing with my one wild and precious life and the sort of (for me, at least) ease of following a particular school-related completion course that wasn’t too hard to commit to or finish has come to an end and I am at a crossroads where it’s just like—you could choose. And on some level, in the next few years, you need to. Low-key terrifying and I hate it.

#like. when I started college it was like. okay well now finish it and then I did. and then it was like well you need training for a job #so I did my two year master program in teaching and then I just did that. #and then it was like ‘get job’ and then increasingly ‘adjust to job’ and I did both of those things #but all of those were in the grand scheme of things easy choices #because they also came with clear opportunities that felt like signs #I got the job right after I finished the program! I got into college and was offered a (small) scholarship #even the transition from college to grad school felt easy. I didn’t even know for sure that I wanted to be a teacher #but it was a sensible gamble and it was the same college and I got offered a writing job at the same time that gave me work experience #and it all just fell into place #and even the first four years of teaching where I had to sort of actively battle to get better and adjust to it all #have just run out! The road of easy choices have run out. And I for one hate that so much #and on some level I am content to wait for whatever the next easy choice is. To wait until the signs align again #but tbh I don’t think I am being allowed to do that again #This is just. Different #anyway this is a lot thank you for asking Stacy aksksjjehe

[semiotomatics]

idk abt yall but im still not over the fact that the internet lets you communicate w ppl literally all over the world, ppl you'd never have a chance to talk to otherwise. its just so cool to me!! i absolutely adore talking to ppl abt their cultures n their homes n their lives n getting to share mine in return. i know that as our online lives have gotten more complex the "internet culture" has kind of superceded a lot of ppls irl ones, at least when interacting in online spaces, but i rly hope we dont lose that desire to share pieces of where we came from w others. i think doing so not only enriches our own lives, but enriches our relationships w others as well.

#personal spewage #for all its many. many. MANY. flaws #the internet has some ginormous upsides #n getting to hear abt what someone halfway across the globe is having for dinner. or what cute thing their pet did. or whatever else #is absolutely one of them #i wonder if i feel this way bc i do still remember when that _wasn't_ a thing? or at least wasnt as common of a thing #cause like yeah i grew up w the internet but the internet of the 90s/early 2000s was. p different to how it is now #yes you could still interact w ppl but things were usually relegated to walled-garden forums and IRCs #which! i freaking love old school web forums! we def need to bring those back somehow #but idk. nothing beats something like. well. tumblr #for getting to meet new ppl and actually _get to know_ them #anyway #thats my soapbox rant for today #lol