#did you know that in high school i was in an isolated cult-adjacent convent boarding school where i had no access to any electronics and on

[lostjulys]

c!clingyduo was just like. hey! we're best friends! us against the world! except then it was them against the world and the world shattered them, through no fault of their own (they are sixteen. they are not atlas. they crush under the weight of the world), and they splintered apart, aching with the aloneness of being apart from your best friend, and it wasn't them against the world, it was them, alone. and they could not survive alone. when you are sixteen and you are deeply, truly alone, the world is terrifyingly cruel. when you are sixteen and you want nothing more than to be with your best friend, and you cannot be, and there is nothing else that is kind to you, you hurt, and it's horrifying, to be truly alone. to know that the single constant you've always had, you've always trusted, is gone. and they'll never be whole again, after being splintered like that.

#shhh wait wait wait oversharing in the tags dont look at the tags unless u wanna hear a real fucked up story shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #this poast is ok to reblog tho i want u to think abt cclingyduo :] #bababababba did i take up all the tag space yet babbababba cclingyduo man :(( #did you know that in high school i was in an isolated cult-adjacent convent boarding school where i had no access to any electronics and on #30 minute phone call with my parents a week. my best friend got pulled halfway through 11th grade and i never got to say goodbye to her. #i didn't know she was leaving until she was already gone. #we wrote letters for the next two years but at some point my homeroom teacher started taking every letter she sent me #before i got it and she'd forward them to my house (6 hours away) and say that it was against the rules to talk with former students. #her letters were the only thing i looked forward to. i waited hopeful every single fucking day. and they never came. #i wrote 30 page letters. by hand. send em every sunday night. #anyway then after i graduated she turned out to be a transphobic piece of fucking shit who said i was going to hell and she didn't feel #like she could talk 2 me in good conscience anymore so i blocked her on everything :) #dot text #c!clingyduo #ask2tag?