#didn't write as much as I wanted today

[fortheloveofexy]

it's a pet peeve of mine when ppl frame Andrew as hating Aaron and being needlessly cruel to him... bc while yes, their relationship is fractured and strained, Andrew genuinely cares about his brother and wants the best for him, he just doesn't know how to show that in a normal way.

like he might not know how to express it in a healthy manner but Andrew LOVES Aaron, like he truly just wants Aaron to be healthy and safe. It's like, his whole Thing. Aaron is one of the most important people in his life. Andrew wants him around. He'd do anything to protect him.

I guarantee Andrew wants to be emotionally close to Aaron too, he just doesn't have the tools to do that and the thought of letting someone in terrifies him. He also has no concept of what a healthy sibling relationship looks like, so he has no frame of reference to work from.

#i love bickering twinyards as much as the next guy but sometimes ppl write andrew has if he thinks aaron is a waste of space #and that just isn't true #andrew values his brother #he wouldn't insist on keeping aaron close if he didn't #when ppl do this is just so obvious to me that they're using andrew as a mouthpiece for their own dislike of aaron #and like ok yeah you're entitled to not like a character i guess #but it's just so wildly out of character to me for andrew to treat aaron like shit for no reason beyond Being Cruel #like yeah andrew can be mean when he's feeling defensive or trying to make a point #and yeah he can treat people like shit if he's got a reason to justify it like Keeping People Safe #but he's not needlessly cruel to the people closest to him without cause #like neil says #everything andrew does #he does For A Reason #even neil isn't needlessly mean to aaron tbh #like he doesn't like aaron much at certain points but if he picks a fight with aaron it's never without cause #and he's genuinely happy for aaron when things work out with katelyn in the end #and he wants aaron to have a relationship with andrew as well! like it's important to neil that the twins have a healthy bond!! #anyway im getting off my soapbox now this is just something i was thinking about today a Lot #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court

[theminecraftbee]

okay now that i'm no longer trying to keep a project secret from certain people i can complain publicly about a thing i've been losing my mind about:

why the fuck is the evo wiki like that.

listen. i know. i know fandom wikis being decent entirely relies on whether there are people who both want to obsessively categorize things enough to fill out the wiki, with the free time to do that kind of obsessive categorization, and the desire to manage it all as a wiki. believe me, i know. but please i'm just trying to do research please, please at least bigb's page was just Entirely Empty so i knew i had useless information and just left. why the fuck did the mafia's page, by contrast, have this:

a sentence that is actively LESS USEFUL THAN IF IT WERE NOT THERE.

and then grian's page - GRIAN'S. GRIAN'S. THE ONE PAGE I THOUGHT MIGHT HAVE A SHOT OF BEING FILLED OUT. JOKE'S ON ME I GUESS.

BECAUSE IT HAS THIS????? I'M LOSING MY MIND. WHY ON EARTH IS THE WIKI LIKE THIS. WHY IS IT THIS BAD. PLEASE I'M JUST TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT EVERYONE'S RELATIONSHIPS WITH JIMMY AND MARTYN WERE PLEASE,

anyway thankfully i had friends who could help me with their own knowledge and who also found the evo recap but in conclusion i have been being driven mad by this for weeks, thank you for coming to my ted talk.

#evo smp #wailing and screaming. why is it THIS BAD #and like i know. i know fandom wikis can be very abandoned. #it's not like the hc wiki is actually all that good either (especially for less-watched hermits) #but this feels like 'bad because abandoned and lots of blank pages' and more ACTIVELY TRYING TO UN-HELP ME #ITS MAKING ME CRAZY #anyway. ANYWAY. i can FINALLY do this rant publicly because this project had to stay secret until today but now it can be public #.......which is to say hi i'm writing an evo thing don't worry about it. #anyway. the only vaguely useful page was the watchers one and even that one didn't have much detail in the places i actually wanted it #this is a call to action for any evo fans who really like wikis i guess? mostly i just wanted to share these two screenshots #because like. look. me having trouble figuring out who salem was because her page is blank is one thing #getting a 'i can't bother' in the ACTUAL TEXT OF THE ARTICLE is another #once again: thank god my beta found the recap.

[the-lincyclopedia]

Sometimes getting back in touch with people you admire but have lost contact with falls in the category of "this is why you shouldn't meet your heroes," and other times it's more along the lines of "I remembered loving you but I'd forgotten how MUCH."

#a lin original #so. a couple years ago i got back in contact with my sixth grade writing teacher #who i credit with the fact that I'm a writer and an editor #and it SUCKED #in several ways - including that he told me about his sex life even when i said i didn't want to hear it #but anyway #today i got a text back from a college friend i hadn't heard from in years #but whose state I'll be visiting next month #I'd asked him to hang out and he just wrote back and I LOVE HIM SO MUCH #like the INSTANT sense of safety is truly amazing

[v-arbellanaris]

I have no idea why but I absolutely hate how Ameridan' story was handled, they basically dumbed it down to him worshipping both the creators and andraste/chant of light, which kind of proved Cassandra's dumb (and incredibly disrespectful) point of an inquisitor having "room for another god". It's also so unfair how they made the evanuris to just be power hungry slavers and tyrants, my only hope is that if the creators were disproving then I hope it would be the same for the chant of light and maker (seeing asnit was solas who made the veil and not the creator) I really hate how centrist the game has gotten, like flat out, whenever I hear the words grey morality and nuance I can't help burn cringe, that's how much dragon age has ruined it for me.

It's also so incredibly funny how the devs are genuinely surprised that most of the players are pro mage, like of course we are?

i think it's particularly extremely aggravating, the way bioware writers write about a pantheon as if polytheistic religions are simply a thing of the past and dead and some kind of mystery/mythology. according to bioware, this kind of writing for polytheistic religions is fine because no real religion these days would everrrrrrr worship multiple gods /sarcasm. (note that the links are just some examples and not comprehensive in the least)

there's a lot of writing choices i quite simply disagree with in dai, and there's some that are just... i don't even disagree with them because that implies it's something to argue about. some of their writing choices are just wrong. after borrowing so heavily from ethnic groups to shape their fictional histories, the disrespect of writing their fictional oppressed minorities as being responsible for their own oppression because they were not "open" enough to include/absorb expy christianity into their religious beliefs and fought back against violent colonialism. the resulting clumsy collation between isr*el and the indigenous people of the americas wanting to reclaim their lands stolen from them by white colonisers makes my blood boil.

ameridan is just another piece of the puzzle that makes me seethe. we have a man who apparently ~existed before hostilities between the elves and the humans~ which is now the fault of drakon's son who invaded the dales after ameridan was long gone. that's already absolute bullshit because ameridan lived in the fucking dales. elves only started living in the dales AFTER ANDRASTE'S REBELLION. after the fall of arlathan, and hundreds of years of enslavement at the hands of tevinter humans???

additionally, the battle of red crossing happened in 2:9 glory, but tensions between the elves and humans had been building up since the second blight. drakon the first died in 1:45 but the elves apparently did "nothing" to help montsimmard when it was overrun by darkspawn in 1:25 divine - twenty years before his death, there was already simmering resentment. additionally, it was drakon the first that expanded the orlesian empire and the orlesian chantry - wotv2 notes his battles against the darkspawn did more to spread the chant of light (specifically, the orlesian chant of light which he, yknow, fucking made up) than any of his other attempts. by the time the exalted march on the dales happens, over three quarters of thedas is under orlesian rule. maferath himself handed the dales to the surviving elves from andraste's campaign in -165 ancient and the elves lived in the dales peacefully until the orlesian chantry was salivating at its borders. and the orlesian chantry has a history of wiping out "cults" - i.e. other sects of their own religion that differ from belief, no matter how minor, to their own. including, notably, the wholesale genocide of a non-violent sect centered around fertility rituals and, later, the dragon worshipping sect in haven off their own land. (and i'm willing to BET MONEY that they were originally alamarri themselves, considering that andraste was brought there to rest, and considering how cultural variance in religion usually occurs [i.e. through the blending/adoption of folk beliefs or the cultural/religious practices from Before]. so the andrastians slaughtered the cult AND THEN TOOK THEIR FUCKING LAND.)

the entire way andrastianism is treated in inquisition makes me violent. and unfortunately, it does not look like it's going to change - there's been multiple statements about how the maker's existence will continue to remain "a mystery" out of a reluctance to confirm or deny the existence of a One True God which, coupled with how they've shat on every other religion in the game - the tevinter chantry, the qun, the stone, the elven pantheon, every other sect worshipping the maker/andraste - gives me absolutely no hope that the writing team is going to get their heads out of their asses about it.

#asks #bioware critical #dai critical #and tbh at this point i really think anyone acting like the writing team is being geniuses or whatever is kinda racist and deluded lmao #most polytheistic religions surviving today are inextricably linked to ethnicity and culture and rich histories of surviving and resisting #colonialist attempts to wipe them out. i feel like comparatively there's fewer polytheistic religions in ''the west'' (more specifically #rooted in white culture) as a result of that. but bioware didn't borrow from THOSE white-rooted polytheistic religions and cultures #they borrowed from native; jewish; roma; even hinduism when it came to the dalish elves but people want to act like the only thing bioware #is pulling from is fucking norse mythology. borrowing character archetypes from norse mythology and planting them onto your #fictional ethnic minorities based off real life religions and people. IS NOT ACTUALLY GOOD WRITING. when you dont CONSIDER the implications #like Gods Not Being Good or having Separate Morals To Humans is a huge theme for norse mythology #but not so much afaik in other polytheistic religions TODAY??? #fucking bioware SHOULD HAVE JUST USED NORSE MYTHOLOGY AS A BASE FOR THE ELVES FROM THE START #and NOT brought other ethnic groups into it??? #the moment they did they SHOULD HAVE been considering the implications of their writing. and that they didn't and continue NOT TO #is actually something people are allowed to be fucking upset about!!!!

[vulpinesaint]

literally evil for my sacred texts professor to assign a two hour movie. i would not sit down to watch a two hour movie for pleasure much less for class

#AND fifty pages of reading. does she hate me or something #hate her and her stupid discussion posts that are only open for two days before they're due #who does that. who posts the homework as a discussion title (read so and so chapter) #and then doesn't open that discussion so that you can see the actual prompts until monday. #and then that discussion post (actually a small paper) is due TUESDAY NIGHT??? #what if i didn't want to write a paper on monday fucking night salah. what would i do then. #anyway curses and curses and curses #i'll watch it on two times speed but i have so much other shit to do and i'm so tired... #still sick btw and severely dehydrated i've felt lightheaded and dizzy every time i've stood up today :( #valentine notes

[theflyingfeeling]

I hope everyone's having a nice Sunday, and if not, I hope I can make it more less terrible with the third chapter for my fic let me down slowly, now on AO3 ✨

again, huge thanks to anyone who's been reading this 🥺 the final chapter will be up at some point next week

#blind channel fanfiction #blind channel rpf #in today's episode of Local Fic Author Assumes She's The Worst Ever Pls Don't Hate Her Too Much: #if you have read something similar in another olli/allu fic recently it's purely coincidental 😳 #i promise i have written this fic completely separate and unknowing of other fics or fic ideas okay i swear i'm not a copycat!! 😭 #the communal braincell just did a thing again 😔🙈 #and i mean. i understand this fic is entirely different from the one i'm referring to in terms of the setting etc. #and there's absolutely no harm in writing about similar stuff!! that's like completely okay!! i know this!! #but personally i just hate the thought of anyone thinking i've copied someone's idea when i haven't 😭 #also sorry in advance for adding new tags mid-publishing. i just really didn't want to spoil anything 🙊 #btw @ dear pre-readers! i may have added a sentence or two that weren't in the 1st version of this chapter #nothing major or anything that would affect the plot or the bigger picture. just adding some more depth i guess #i have made minor (=hardly noticeable) changes to all the chapters actually. just fixed some phrasings etc. 😇

[stillresolved]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN

NAME?: ferre :)

PRONOUNS?: they / them

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION?: tumblr ims for newcomers, discord for friends/longtime writing partners!

MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: rn aeri's taken over, but on here, it rotates fairly often; i also always have brainrot for suki & patrick ♡

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: 9-10 years? i started in the shitty ims of quizilla, didn't realize this is something ppl actually did as a hobby for another year before i moved to tumblr. i believe i was on-and-off for about four years before in 2018, i made calum, where the hobby became more permanent, took a year long break and then came back in 2021....u're all stuck with me for life now :)

BEST EXPERIENCE?: THE PLOTTED GROUP VERSES I HAVE WITH THE PPL :'D from the thg verse to the crime verse AND NOW!! the celebrity verse i never thought i'd get to write and plot such intricate ideas with my partners, so it makes me SO HAPPY and thankful to have stuck around here all this time; also whatever's going on with suki & her co-workers i'm in, i love it

RP PET PEEVES?: admittedly, a lot :'D but moving blogs has helped with getting away from constantly encountering these pet peeves :D if i have to name one then recently i've been getting turned off by ppl who are always their soapboxes lecturing about rp. they talk about how rp should be and how people should interact with one another, but most of the time? i hardly see them practice what they preach. if you want quality partners, you have to be one first- that's how you find ur people :/ also excessive, consistent saltiness- i get uncomfortable.

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: i don't really care, just as long as there's character/relationship development going on. that being said- if you want pain that will make u yell at me in the dms, hit me up ♡ ( i have references :DD )

PLOTS OR MEMES?: honestly plots all the way, but i'm also very picky with who i plot with in-depth, so memes are good ways to break the ice.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: i tend to match my partners so most of the time my replies end up on the longer side...that being said, i am always down for shorter threads, it's a good exercise in brevity.

TIME TO WRITE?: recently it's been more on the weekends as i have solo writing projects i work on during the week although i do tend to hold onto completed replies/memes so that i can mass post them when i have a few more completed.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: NAH, one thing that's been making me happier these days is that i'm starting?? to branch out a bit more from the good beans i'm accustomed to writing....when it comes to portraying my characters, my goal isn't to make them do the right thing so much as do the most interesting ic thing ♡

tagged by: i stole it ♡ tagging: @geaesaekki @mythvoiced @velvetineblue @theimpalpable ( for when you've finished renovating :D ) @bloodxhound @byanyan @crue1 @irrwicht and you! stealing is acceptable in this house :D

#( ferre answered. ) #( dash games. ) #today is mun day and even tho i didn't write much on here ( yet hopefully ) i wanted to do this.... #so!! take it <3

[kevin-sedai]

The vibe really deteriorated as the day went on, and now I'm sitting in bed, awake, feeling like garbage

#it was an okay weekend but i was jittery and numb for most of it #tried to write christmas cards for the first time in 2 years. cried while doing so and then had to lie down after i did 5 #i got frustrated with the story i'm writing and considered dropping it or deleting the whole thing #spent friday alone pretty much all day which normally i'm fine with but for whatever reason made the loneliness really hit hard this time #spent all thanksgiving day waiting for a familial confrontation #got asked by my 6 year old nephew how old i was and then he followed up with 'well why arent you married what are you doing' #which i'm pretty sure is something he heard in a conversation someone else was having and he repeated it bc he's 6 fucking years old #which btw i don't hold against him or am mad at him about bc he's an innocent kid #but that made me feel really shitty #spent an hour today panicking about this dog virus #and in between all of that i was self diagnosing myself with mental illnesses #which made me feel awful bc it made gaslight myself in thinking maybe i wanted one? #which is so fucked up to the max and i'm so sorry for even putting that here #but i put this all here bc i could never have this conversation with people irl #they'd get too worried or they'd think i'm overreacting or i need to date or need to do something with myself besides read #i'm so sorry everyone #i'll try to be better #i just had to put this out somewhere #and i didn't put this in a journal bc my last entry sounds so teenagerish out of context i don't even want to look at it #anyway i have to try to sleep i have to go into the office early tomorrow #i'm sorry guys #i really am😔

[wastoidwill]

okay, so I know I don't come onto tumblr much for anything at all, really, except the occasional look around and such, but I have just finished writing what's probably my favorite fic that I've ever written, and I wanted to share it here because of how proud of it I am, so if any 9-1-1 fans and buddie shippers out there are interested...

waffle house

ship: buddie words: 27.3k summary: buck and eddie get married for the legal benefits alone, but slowly, over time, that develops into something more. link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/47152771

#also I have been working on this for pretty much the entire week and even stayed up until one am last night to finish #and then I fell asleep and didn't finish until around 11 o'clock or noon today #but now it's posted and I feel so freed because it was eating me alive trying to finish this when all I wanted was to share it with everyon #but now it's out there and I really hope that if you do in fact decide to read it that you enjoy it #buddie #evan buckley #evan buck buckely #eddie diaz #edmundo diaz #edmundo eddie diaz #ao3 fic #fanfiction #fic writing #buddie fic #buddie fanfic #911 fox #911 abc #9 1 1 #9 1 1 on fox #9 1 1 on abc #fanfic

[baejax-the-great]

I've read a few papers regarding this art of Achilles and Ajax playing a board game during the Trojan war, and though there aren't any existing texts from back in the day describing this particular myth, here is my favorite interpretation of this popular motif.

Achilles and Ajax sit with their shields behind them and a board game between them (in this version, they are calling out numbers and Achilles is winning). Achilles' helm sitting on top of his head suggests he is slightly readier to return to the fight if needed. In other versions, Athena stands behind Achilles and is urging him (possibly even scolding him) to get back to the war. There are references to the two of them being so caught up in this game, they are taken unaware by Trojan troops. Being Ajax and Achilles, however, they manage to survive.

My favorite interpretation is that this event is a non-Homeric myth of Achilles refusing to fight-- this time with Ajax joining him in that refusal-- over the death of Palamedes, who argued they should all go home from this pointless war, and whom Odysseus and Diomedes subsequently murdered, framing it to look like an accident. Achilles, who is generally depicted as very morally uptight regarding things like murder, opposed this action, and in this story was incensed enough to quit the fight over it. It is possible he was also influence by Palamedes being a close friend.

What is known from extant myths is that 1. Palamedes invented a board game while at Troy and 2. The soldiers became obsessed with this game to the point that 3. Odysseus was very ticked off at how much everyone was playing it rather than killing Trojans.

Thus, Ajax and Achilles sitting not only with their helmets off and shields on the ground, but specifically playing Palamedes' board game while Athena scolds them to get back to the war could be a nod to more quarreling amongst the Achaean leaders after the murder of Palamedes.

Soldiers quitting a fight over a moral disagreement (and eventually coming back to it) was a popular trope in stories of this time, and Achilles became the sort of catchall stand-in for this kind of myth. I think it's fun that in this version, he gives the other leaders a sort of "fuck you" by playing a friendly game with his good bro Ajax.

#ajax #achilles #also palamedes was like an annoying numbers guy #and I do think Achilles would vibe on his level #there is another interpretation of this art i like less #though it doesn't change the origin of the myth I suppose #but that exekias depicted achilles and ajax together multiple times #as propaganda that salamis should be part of Athens #look ajax and achilles are friends our people were meant to be one people under the rule of athens obviously #though there is a theory that he was from salamis and that's why he made so much art of ajax #ANYWAY i just really like this motif okay #sorry saw art of this today and didn't want to derail that person's post #back to writing morning essays I guess #why is tumblr putting a tip button on this

[that-was-anticlimactic]

all fluttering and dancing in the breeze

🍃written for @nobamaki-bigbang🍃

“Great! Okay, so I’m assuming we all know how to play baseball, right?” Maki asked.

Everyone was nodding, and Nobara was about to scoff and say duh, was about to proudly announce that she was actually a fantastic baseball player. But…

But then she glanced at Maki—sweet, gorgeous, Maki with a determined fire blazing in her eyes—and she had an idea. A terrible, devious, but quite possibly genius idea.

“Um, actually,” she spoke up, much louder than necessary, “actually, I, uh… I don’t know how to play baseball.” She fluttered her eyelids and smiled shyly, grabbing a strand of her hair and twirling it around her fingers as if she were the epitome of innocence.

[or: nobara pretends that she doesn't know how to play baseball so she can spend time/flirt with maki]

🍃11,157 words | nobamaki🍃

🍃art on tumblr here & here🍃

🍃art on twitter here & here🍃

#corey writes:) #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #GUYS I FINALLY FINISHED #IT TOOK SO LONG #this fic was originally going to be 4.5k words MAX and that CLEARLY didn't happen lol #i pushed myself to try something new this time and wrote something a little out of my comfort zone! it's a baseball fic!!! #i am really proud of how it turned out like it's not my favorite fic ever nor like Great but it's Great in the sense that this is Not my #typical style of writing and i'm proud of myself for finishing and finishing with SO MUCH written! #i actually like. need to go to bed lol - my first alarm goes off in like five and a half hours i just. today's my posting date and i REALLY #wanted to post it today! i worked SO HARD all day between teaching/student teaching and meeting with my supervisor ahhhhhhhhhhhh #there is art!!! my artist is not on tumblr but gave me permission to repost it here with credit sooooooo i am SO pumped and ready for y'all #to see it! it's literally SO PRETTY AHHHHHH they are SO TALENTED so everyone go follow them on twitter if you have one! #okay actual tags now sorry y'all just really proud of myself for finishing and finishing on time #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #nobamaki #jjk fanfic #kugisaki nobara #zenin maki #nobara swears so much in this y'all it was rough iouygtfcdxfcghujijuhygf #okay i need sleep i just always get so nervous when posting lol #MWAH GOODNIGHT! <3

[goldiecastelia]

I know that my ideas aren't the best, and that my opinions seem shallow, and that I'm probably not the best profile when it comes to art or writing or anything interesting but HOLY SHIT LET ME BE HAPPY WHAT HELL!

#DAMN I JUST WANT TO STOP FEELING LIKE SHIT #I'm on the brink of stopping posting things about any fandom possible #oh you're are attacking my depression anxiety existential crisis today so much #JESUS JUST LET ME BE #If you don't like anything I post JUST IGNORE IT WHY YOU HAVE TO SAY YOU DIDN'T LIKE IT #shogun 2024 #shogun #shogun fx #stellatrix #ftws #fanfiction #creative writing #writeblr community #writers on tumblr #writer problems #writers of tumblr #writing problems

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[kyouka-supremacy]

Okay negative rant about 55 minutes and Dazai and overall bsd writing pls pls pls don't read this if you like any of those things please I'm literally begging you

Look, I know I'm not the biggest bsd fan- I'm quite literally here just for a ship, which is kinda sad, but also true - so I shouldn't come in reading any other installment of the series with high expectations. Still, I was so let down by 55 Minutes? Besides featuring the standard sexism and nationalism one sadly gets used to reading bsd, there's just- the big D problem. When Atsushi got shot back in time, I was so hyped by the premise of Atsushi being given exclusive knowledge that came with the chance of finally acting on his own, getting to make his own decisions, saving the day with no external help and just stopping being a puppet in someone else's hands- and then it was all gone, just like that? He revealed everything to Dazai and Kunikida? Breaking the most basic time travelling rule to do so on top of that???? Something Wells-my-beloved had carefully warned him against? Simply because Dazai could immediately read into his mind for no other reason than being unnecessarily overpowered? It was... So disappointing. I'm definitely tired of Dazai always saving the day, being unnecessarily omniscient and just straight up being depicted like a god. It's so lazy narrative wise? Dazai is potentially an okay character but like,,,,, you gotta give your characters flaws man. You cannot have a character who never failed, which has everything always going according to his plan. Or you can, but it's so annoying to read! It makes him all the more unsymphatetic, and Dazai alone isn't very easy to be sympathetic towards to begin with ://

Quit it with all the characters admiring him like he was the savior of the world!!!! Quit it with all the characters treating him like he was the man with all the answers!!!!!!! Quit it with all the characters considering him a god!!!!!!!!! It's just so infuriating because I've been in fandoms - mainly The Promised Neverland - where actually well written protagonists were constantly thrown under the buss by the fandom for being “perfect” and “flawless” and “Mary Sues” (they weren't) thus “unrealistic” “boring” “annoying” and worse. And you know where the difference lies? Those characters were all female. It's so frustrating and infuriating having had to witness that baseless, senseless criticism, and then seeing everyone turn a blind side to Dazai just because he's hot and most importantly male?? It's upsetting, it's disgusting.

And finally please give Atsushi his own agenda- he's supposed to be the protagonist (he hardly makes one), if not him, who else deserves it? Atsushi really, really needs to stop being a puppet in Dazai's hands. He needs to start thinking with his own head!! Quit it with all the “I'm going to do this because I trust Dazai / Ranpo's plan”- what do you want to do, kid?

#Man today I'm like. I hope I get over sskk soon because this series is truly getting on my nerves #I usually pretty much ignore Dazai's existence but reading 55 Minutes made it hard- #And sorry for the rant I usually try to keep myself from criticizing stuff because it's mostly pointless negativity but also //// #being this involved in the fandom I really needed to get this off my chest #I got to the scene where Atsushi reveals everything and I had the physical urge to stop and go write this- #man I don't want to keep reading :((( #anti dazai #anti bsd #I feel awful for using those tags but I have to for blacklisting reasons 😭😭😭 #I hate spreading negativity #bsd negativity #;;;; #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd 55 minutes #mine #q. #Edit: Mmmmmhhh to be fair there's something I didn't word well. It's not like Dazai doesn't have flaws. He very clearly does. #The thing is how the narrative depicts him like he didn't. It's a subtle difference but it's about the tone of the narration you know? #I guess in 55 Minutes it was magnified by Atsushi's pov but it's not limited to 55 Minutes. #He's always depicted like being the best strongest smartest guy ever which is just... Boring. Annoying.