#disorder linked

[itsaspectrumcomic]

I love going to dinner with my friends, but do restaurants have to be so loud?? Every sound turns to mush.

#neurodivergent #autism #autism comic #auditory processing disorder #sensory issues #funny #actually autistic #restaurants #do they need to play music at top volume??? #do we have to be so close together??? #adhgsfhfklkfg #its a spectrum #edited to include links

[knifearo]

this year my challenge for everyone is to unlearn the association between love and morality. love is not something that is inherently morally good, and the absence of love is not something that is inherently bad. sex without love isn't morally bankrupt, it's just an action. people without love aren't less kind or less good, they're just people. when we can get past this false (and often unnoticed) dichotomy of good love/evil lovelessness then i think we are going to be able to take leaps and bounds in sex positivity, aro advocacy, certain discussions of mental health...

#and also. not the direct focus. but love doesn't make things good. you can be in love and do terrible terrible things. #people do bad things in the name of love and in despite of love all the time. #but!! imagine a world where people could exist as people and not be demonized. #sex positivity means being cool about All sex. reexamine your internal systems of moral judgement. #this goes for sex workers. for aroallo people. especially aroallo men. for aro people in general who might enjoy sex. #and frankly i think it can easily bleed into discussions about mental health disorders around 'not feeling' certain things #especially demonizing ppl who don't feel as much empathy. i think there's definitely a correlation between that and the emphasis on love. #our support needs to go out to Everybody and i think these things are all structured together in one way or another!! #it might not be immediately obvious but when i tell you it all leads back to amatonormativity..... little bit wild.... large bit wild.... #anyway. horror movie psychopath 'oh he can't feel emotions or love' damn alright. well. let's take a closer look at that. #silly that there's an association between lack of love and Murdering. feel like that might affect some stuff. #love is just an emotion/a feeling it doesn't mean anything about you one way or another #same with empathy. you can feel it all you want but it doesn't inherently change the actions you choose to take #anyway. thesis statement. there is a socially constructed link between love and morality. unlearn that. #kiss kiss (<— lovelessly) #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #talking #aroace #aspec #sex positivity

[kingofpeacows]

A lot of the time when people bring up Bart Allen as being super autistic coded, they're bringing it up in conjuction with the rest of YJ (which, yes, I love autistic friendship) but sometimes I just wanna talk about Bart Allen.

I wanna talk about the kid who doesn't understand he's getting bullied and managed to be friends with everyone because of it. I wanna talk about the kid who is so bad at holding a conversation everyone thinks he's some sort of brooding asshole. I wanna talk about the kid who KNOWS that the older, more popular kids talk to him and dare him to do stupid stuff because "of course Bart will do it" and does it anyway because he likes making people laugh. I wanna talk about the kid who knows he's doing something wrong socially but he doesn't know what and wants nothing more than to fix it. I wanna talk about the kid who knows he's different but still thinks the rest of the world is the problem. I wanna talk about the kid who's so smart and so brave but everyone only sees him as some mess-up idiot. I wanna talk about the emotional kid who got bullied for being robotic and unemotional because allistic people can't grasp what his world looks like. I wanna talk about the kid who wouldn't know sarcasm from truth. I wanna talk about the kid who's low-empathy but does everything he can to be compassionate. I wanna talk about the kid who's surrounded by people, but still feels so alone because no one else understands his world.

Sometimes I just wanna talk about Bart Allen.

#yes the rest of yj can be autistic but that doesnt erase the isolating feeling of autism #its a spectrum disorder for a reason #bart allen #dc #dc comics #dceu #headcanon #autistic headcanon #autistic coded #bart allen impulse #impulse #yj98 #young justice #young justice comics #young just us #hes so autistic #hes so important to me #read mark waids impulse and everything he does is so linked to the autistic experience #need people to be real bart fans and not just yj show fans or know him through other media /lh

[mischiefmanifold]

"waaah autism speaks sucks they support eugenics!"

autism speaks has an adult autism diagnosis guide, written by autistic adults for autistic adults (LINK)

autism speaks has a program to help autistic adults find and keep jobs (LINK)

autism speaks has housing and residential support for autistic adults and autistic teenagers who are moving away from home (LINK)

autism speaks has an autism response team (ART) to provide referrals and support for autistic people and the autism community (LINK)

autistic people on the board of directors include Stephen Shore, who was nonverbal as a child; most other members are parents of autistic people or professionals who study autism (LINK)

autism speaks has a blog where actually autistic people share their experiences and advocacy (LINK)

autism speaks works closely with autistic people such as Eileen Lamb in advocacy, awareness, and support for autistic people and families

autism speaks' FAQ explains several misconceptions that many autistic people still believe about the organization, such as the video "I am autism," which was taken down soon after its publishing because of backlash from the community; autism speaks has expressed great regret in the creation and publishing of that video (LINK)

autism speaks has not had the goal to cure autism since the early 2010s, and the desire to cure autism was removed from their mission statement in 2016 (found in the above link to the FAQ)

#y'all better read the entire fucking post and visit all the links before commenting #because I will know if you didn't it's so obvious #autism #autism speaks #autism spectrum disorder #autistic community #actually autistic

[marisatomay]

there’s a tiktok going around of a woman recording herself sobbing directly into the camera because as she says in the text over the video of her crying her relationship of eight years just ended and since she has adhd that heightens your emotions and while this is not the first video of this kind i’ve seen making the rounds on al gore’s internet it is the first where i’ve seen people call anyone who criticizes the video a misogynist and truly genuinely people need to get a grip because from where i’m sitting we should be criticizing this behavior even more it’s so bizarre to me that we don’t more frequently say how weird and disturbing it is that we’ve created a culture where it’s perfectly normal to intentionally record yourself performatively experiencing all of the trials and triumphs of being alive for internet points which has been coupled with individuality culture and the need to pathologize every very human behavior and emotion to create people whose brains have been so broken that everyone now thinks their every experience is unique to them alone and so naturally they are the first person to feel awful after a long term relationship ends but because of a developmental disorder and not just because they’re a person with feelings and it fucking sucks when sad things happen and i hate it so much we need to knock it off stop recording yourself being alive. stop it.

#something fun about this post is how many people in the tags assume i personally don’t have adhd or any other developmental disorders #i KNOW your emotions are heightened because of ADHD. i live with it every day. #but there’s this NASTY trend of pathologizing every emotion and behavior as a disorder symptom when really you’re just Alive #doing that does nothing but hurt those of us with developmental disorders by infantilizing and alienating us even more #and to be clear i’m using this video as an example because it’s the most recent one i’ve seen but i’m not linking it #because i really don’t actually want to feed into whatever pile on is happening or inadvertently encourage that kind of behavior

[thebibliosphere]

Audio processing disorder is so funny. Like it's a pain in the ass, but it's also so funny.

Every time the Pedro Pascal edit goes over my dash (you know the one), and I hear the audio start up, I know the lyrics are "hey sexy lady, I like your flow," but my hard-of-hearing, goth, ADHD-having-ass hears "hey sexy lady, I like your bones" and just never questions it.

Like yeah. Same.

#audio processing disorder #tw: the linked video has a lot of rapid jump cuts

[cr1mson5returns]

Guess who finally done did the thing???

#jason todd #red hood #batfamily #borderline personality disorder #link #google doc #cr1mson's writing

[karamazovposting]

On Ivan and bipolar disorder (part one)

I've never seen anyone talk about this and it doesn't surprise me considering most people don't really know what bipolar disorder actually is (the stereotypes are all wrong and good representation in media is rare, sigh) and while I'm not saying my interpretation is the only correct one as I'm a firm believer that anyone can see whatever they want in art and that's a beautiful thing, in my opinion there are enough things about Ivan's behaviour and character that make my bipolar Ivan Karamazov agenda worthy of being pushed a little.

This first part will be more of an introduction where I'll just talk, in general, about what I picked up on in the first half of the novel and then in the next parts (I don't know how many there'll be yet, there's a lot of stuff to say) I'll get more specific by going over Ivan's inner world and the more significant events that made me think yeah this young man definitely needs some lithium.

Let's start with this: I know every Dostoevsky character is fucked up in their own way, that's pretty much his thing, but there is a difference between being a little fucked up and being actually mentally ill. There's just something about Ivan that made something in my brain click and go bipolar, which has never really happened before.

Do I think Dostoevsky deliberately chose to make Ivan so bipolar coded? Considering at the time there was barely a name for this disorder (which isn't even the same name we use today), let alone an actual diagnosis, no. But as someone who is diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I think his character makes a lot more sense if we see him as suffering from it. I even talked about this to my therapist who has read the book and he sees my vision too (lmao).

The thing that I'm sure jumps to someone's mind when it comes to Ivan and the topic of mental illness is the psychotic episode he goes through after Fyodor's murder, and while it kind of sustains my thesis on its own already, I thought he was bipolar coded way before that, because in my opinion there are a lot of subtle signs and behaviours that are kind of like little puzzle pieces that need to be put together to get to see the bigger picture, as bipolar disorder is not just the episodes someone goes through but also the impact those episodes have on them. It's a disorder that shapes the person, their brain chemistry and patterns and therefore their life in an irreversible way.

What initially struck me was how angry Ivan actually is. We don't really see it at first solely because we don't really see much of him in general, but I think that after he pushes Maksimov off the carriage without saying a word or explaining himself to his father we open some sort of Pandora's box. After that, almost every time he appears in the first half of the novel, he's angry. At the top of my head I can only think of two instances where he's not: when talking to Katerina before leaving for Moscow, which is also the first time we see him show an emotion other than anger (and it only took him, what? More than 300 pages? Yeah, relatable), and when he's at lunch with Alyosha shortly after. Other than that, he's always angry, and it's so visceral that I couldn't help but think that he feels that particular kind of deep rage only someone with bipolar disorder is capable of feeling (I personally nicknamed bipolar disorder the always fucking angry disorder). The way he's so deeply and irrationally angry that he feels himself shake and has to collect himself in order to not beat up Smerdyakov? The way he can't let it go and engages in conversation with him even though he himself doesn't even know why he's feeling or doing any of that? The way he treats his father? That's undiagnosed/untreated behaviour, I've been there. It may feel weird or even absurd if you're not familiar with this disorder, but there's a reason why the term bipolar rage is a thing: it is indeed on another level. It also seems like the only emotion he's comfortable with showing is anger and that's why it seems to be his only emotional outlet, as he didn't seem that eager to open up in front of Katerina and even when alone with his own brother you can feel some sort of awkwardness coming from him. I'll go into the specifics of that particular interaction with Alyosha in the future, but I think that after that Ivan's, very emotion-centered, character arc officially starts to develop as his relationship with his own feelings finally and slowly starts to change and becomes a tool to get him closer to the other characters. It's obviously not linear and I really like that, it feels very realistic.

Anyway, at first I thought I was just projecting, lots of people have anger issues and showing one symptom of something doesn't mean you have it, diagnostic criterias exist for a reason. The thing is, the more I read the more I noticed that not only Ivan happens to meet a lot of them, but he also shows some behaviors and has some personality traits that can easily be interpreted as bipolar coded (as I said a few paragraphs ago): his complex and peculiar type of loneliness, the emotional outbursts, his own perception of himself compared to how the other characters speak of him, his traumatic childhood, his attitude towards life (and death), the reasons behind his relationship with God and religion, his curated persona, the fact that no one seems to understand him. Not to mention he's described as having experienced depression and anguish multiple times in the past, and in a particular occasion in the novel not even knowing why (this one point in particular is very important as it connects to his attitude towards life and death, which is the most bipolar coded thing about him to me). All things I'll go over with more detail in the future when I'll get to his inner world.

For now I'll say that the main thing about bipolar disorder is that it fucks up one's emotions a lot, causing "inappropriate" or "abnormal" (for a lack of better terms) and exaggerated emotional responses and reactions in the people who have it (which usually manifest as the epic highs and lows the average person has at least heard of, but it can and does get more complicated than that) and I genuinely don't think Ivan reacts normally to anything, ever; the most noticeable thing to me is that his default reaction to anything, no matter what it is, is laughter. We also see him get extremely anxious to the point of being physically unwell and spiral a little after Smerdyakov and Fyodor tell him to go to Cermašnja due to what the former told him, which made me go damn, no one died yet and he's already paranoid?. His emotional regulation is a mess and he's so real (and bipolar) for that.

Another quite important thing about bipolar disorder is that it makes every emotion more intense to the point of confusion and being all over the place, which causes a person with bipolar disorder's emotional responses and reactions to be the way they are. Now, I'm not proclaiming myself as the one and only True Ivan Karamazov Understander, but I do think people tend to focus too much on his façade of coldness and on the darker side of his story, causing them to forget about how actually fun, passionate and almost childish he is at times. Ivan feels, and he feels deeply, and it isn't fair to overlook that just because he rarely shows it. Extreme rationality and collectedness can often also be a way to try to gain control over your symptoms (I'm guilty of that). We get to see some of his less collected emotionality in how dramatic he gets (like a true Karamazov) when reciting poetry in German to Katerina and in The brothers get acquainted, Rebellion and The Grand Inquisitor, as I already mentioned. At this point of the novel, something in particular happens and at this point in the novel I decide that yes, Ivan is bipolar coded.

I think I'll stop here at this sort of "cliffhanger" because this got quite long and I need one post only to elaborate that last paragraph. This isn't as coherent as I hoped it would be and, honestly, I kind of feel stupid, like I read too much into this and am seeing things that aren't there (how familiar, how fitting), but I wanted to share my perspective (and I'm also open to discussion!). Also, I won't lie, Ivan is my favorite character of The Brothers Karamazov and I don't think he's talked about enough, I've even seen people say he's the least interesting one out of the brothers which kind of broke my heart because I personally think he's the most interesting (no shade to the uninteresting Ivan gang of course). I don't know if I feel like that towards him because for the first time ever I got to see myself in a character and it was very important to me, but I don't think it really matters, "meeting" him made me happy and he will always be special to me, even if his story has its fair share of tragedy. Or maybe because of it. I'm planning on making a post about that and his ending in particular, but for now I'll focus on finishing this bipolar Ivan Karamazov essay.

No idea when I'll write the rest though, but I will.

#I'd link the Wikipedia page for bipolar disorder in case someone doesn't know much about it but imo it lacks nuance and isn't very accurate #the brothers karamazov #ivan karamazov #bipolar ivan karamazov agenda #thoughts #mine

[didderd]

Today is Palestinian Land Day.

I saw the post linked above and wanted to make sure I posted something for the day.

There are important links in that post, so please check those out too, but I will link a few more here, since I wanted these on my blog for people anyway.

Links below:

https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1vtMLLOzuc6GpkFySyVtKQOY2j-Vvg0UsChMCFst_WLA/htmlview#

#i would say more here. but i don't feel confident talking about such important things. the post i linked says what needs to be said #please try to do the daily click every day (the last link i attached) #(tho i know some are just forgetful due to mental disorders/disabilities (like me). so don't feel bad if you miss a day) #(i've been meaning to post something here for palestine for a while. and i'm finally doing it. i am sorry it took me so long.) #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #free palestine #free gaza #land day #palestinian land day

[utaicon]

I tightened my throat to forget, the scars I left in the past.

bpd4bpd mizurui icons・★

nobody requested, self-indulgent・★

free to use, please like/reblog if using・★

flag by @ghostflags on twt・★

#links: lyric/psd/card credit ☆ #project sekai #project sekai icons #rui kamishiro #kamishiro rui #mizuki akiyama #akiyama mizuki #bpd #bordeline #bpd4bpd #borderline personality disorder #cluster b safe #mizurui

[peachssodapop]

I often have to remind myself that the way i think the hero's spirit is like an avocado isn't canon

#they have like soul slime so when the hero's spirit is retrieve the individual Link soul has like hero's spirit soul slime in it #and the hero's spirit has individual Link soul slime on it #so when Link reincarnates he has progressively more soul slime in him #which assists in letting Links be children who can pick up a sword and fight #it's the soul slime #botw Link has so much soul slime in him and that's why he could beat grown men at 4 #I also believe every single Link has an anxiety disorder #I call it the hero's anxiety disorder cause i'm the king of naming things #the dsm entry is just when an anxiety disorder is in a Link the symptoms don't have to match

[disease]

Diagnostic And Statistical Manual Of Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition, Text Revision (DSM-5-TR) [.PDF]

#link #DSM #psychiatry #mental disorders

[eclecticopposition]

seeing personality disorder discussion on the dashboard. the impulse to share all the self-therapy books and tools we have has never been stronger

#our files are so disorganized but we have a bunch of them saved to a dropbox file #the clinical model is letting you all down. if we had our shit together we would welcome you into the warm embrace of our radical ideology #but in the meantime if you all are interested in free books to start managing your own recovery with or without a therapist #let us know #call it an interest check #we love piracy and we especially love doing it for our friends #we have podcast recs and links to some really foundational CPTSD recovery pieces too #we can maybe tell you what approaches to check out depending on what you need because that's hard to know without a lot of research #personality disorders aren't actually clearcut definitions so much as they are expressions of trauma that have been unnecessarily categoriz #they are prescriptive and serve power rather than the person who has them and fail to take the actual mechanics of trauma into account #the DSM-V would shrink to thirty pages if it reflected the growing understanding of CPTSD and maybe therapy would actually work #but in the meantime we have ourselves and we have each other #and we have free books #idk just let us know

[hellyeahsickaf]

Another link to ME/CFS and fibro I can't stop thinking about is one I heard from my old therapist. I mean it's a link I've seen in just about everyone I've personally met with a dissociative disorder

I don't talk about having DID (I will likely continue not to because I feel cringe when I do) but she treated me along with many other patients with it, and other dissociative disorders.

And one day I'm talking about something related to my disabilities. She goes "I was wondering, yknow I don't know much about CFS or fibro but are they specifically linked to dissociative disorders that you're aware of?" and I mention something about ACEs scores and the link between trauma and chronic illnesses. I ramble, I couldn't tell you what I said lmao

I asked why and she said "well it's just that all of my patients with your disorder have CFS, fibro, or both. Sometimes other things too. But not just some or half of them, all of them. I started wondering what that's about, but I couldn't find any specific study on it or anything"

Like I found it super interesting to hear directly from a therapist that treats it and attests that 100% of the patients she's treated with it had the same disabilities. So I guess I just hope that potential link gets studied more extensively sometime

#chronic pain #chronic illness #disability #fibromyalgia #cfs #chronic fаtiguе ѕуndrоmе #actually disabled #spoonie #me/cfs #cfs/me #but yeah few reasons i don't talk much about having DID. It's embarrassing and vulnerable firstly #lots of info about my disorder you couldnt waterboard out of me lmao #i do mention it a bit on my main but thats also pretty rare. i dont want to be seen differently #if this post disappears it means someone did not like me talking about it. but i didnt put it in the DID tags at least because yeah #i literally tried to make this post several months ago but just couldn't. got too ashamed about being this way. #just that this is on my mind sometimes. the link between these very specific disorders

[the-npd-culture-is]

NPD culture is getting supply from a youtuber saying "everybody loves you" into the camera

-🩵🎭

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#hehe omg give me that youtube link./hj lh nf #anon #ask #asks #npd culture is #🩵🎭 #npd #npd safe #actually narcissistic #narcissistic personality disorder #actually npd #narcissism #narcissistic #narcissist #actually cluster b #cluster b safe #cluster b #cluster b personality disorder

[fantasy-store]

Narcissistic Lesbian

a flag for the lesbians with npd!

alt names include: narcbian, narc lesbian, npd lesbian, narcisbian, lesbissist, lescissist and youre free to make up your own!

narcissism+lesbianism=narcissbianism /silly

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