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dodecathief · 2 years
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was anyone gonna tell me that the DND Beyond jingle is being run as a youtube ad or was I just supposed to find that out by clicking a C2 animatic myself?
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gentlenotes · 4 months
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i got the endoscopy!! 🤍
and it went well with no issues! every doctor and nurse were all the nicest people on earth, making sure i was comfortable and helping me through all my anxieties and concerns <3 if you're interested, here's the summary:
ok so i was in the waiting room for like 5-10 minutes before they called me in. they had me pee in a cup for pregnancy tests. :') soon they had me get my gown on and i laid down in the bed. she asked me some questions about my height/weight, allergies, medical history, etc. for like 10 minutes until we got to the IV part for the future sedation. so the thing is i'm a small person and i have really small veins (and have to get poked around a LOT when i get my blood drawn) and she started with my hand and she was like 'wow you really do have tiny veins' and she had to poke around for like 2 minutes before she gave up bc she couldn't get to it lmfao. but i'll be totally honest, it hurt like a motherfucker :') (i didn't cry or feel like crying at all, i just clenched my fist and really wanted to punch the drywall lol)
so she moved on to my elbow for it instead, which worked after a while and hurt a bit, but not as much as when we did it on my hand. so we got it all figured out and got the tube connected, and she told me i'm gonna have this pH tester in my stomach for a couple days. along with it, i'll need to have a food, sleep and symptom diary with this sheet they gave me until like saturday. she made sure i was comfortable and she left. and then this dude came in after 10-15 minutes, and i think he was the main guy of this whole operation. he asked me if i was caught up with everything, including the diary, and make sure i knew what was going on. after he made sure i was caught up, he left. after a while, another lady came in and introduced herself as the nurse and then left. finally, a lady came in and introduced herself as the anesthesiologist. she was really upbeat, and helped me understand what was gonna go on with the anesthesia. she put on the oxygen thing that goes in your nose and she had a hard time bc "you have a teeny tiny nose" 🥹🥺
but we got it all figured out and we went to the room and it had a LOT of wires and computers and monitors and stuff. but it was pretty dark so it calmed me down lol. there was the last three people i met + this new lady. they laid me on my left side and made sure i had a comfy pillow and even added this long memory pillow behind me so i had back support?? idk i was just living in luxury lmao. but then they put this mouth guard thing in to keep my mouth open. then my anesthesiologist started running the anesthesia, and the BAM i was asleep before they even put the tube in!
i woke up groggy af in the recovery room w/ my mom. there was this nurse lady and i was like am..... am i done..?? and she said yes and i almost immediately went back to sleep lmao. i woke up again after i think a few minutes and the nurse asked me if i was able to sit up. i tried and almost fell over lol after a bit, she asked me if i was able to walk or if i wanted to wheelchair out. and i felt really disoriented and i didn't want to keep like tripping or smth on the way out, so for the sake of both us, i asked for a wheelchair. and i was done!
i feel fine except for the fact my chest hurts like hell and it hurts in my chest as well to swallow anything including water. i'm not shocked but it does suck lol. but basically they said everything looks normal, but it's gonna take a few days for the biopsy results.
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spacelizzbian · 7 months
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S1ep3
"You told her that?"
Poor Sabine, getting dissed left and right
Uh oh, my force sense are telling me Ahsoka is about to do an Anakin training session
Nevermind, she did an Obi-Wan or Terra Sinube like training. Neat
In EVERY level if the new republic?? So also governing? That doesn't entirely sound like a good idea
Between this and the mandalorian s3, the new republic is looking like a bunch of shortsighted chumps
Granted in the mandalaorian they at least looked like they were trying but here they're like
"aaah what's the worst that can happen, he's probably dead anyway"
"We have evidence that he isn't"
" YOU ARE MAKING THIS PERSONAL >:c "
Uuuuh yes it would? Ahsoka you're talking as if you participating in a "dire situation" didn't accelerate your training at all
NON TRADITIONAL LINE OF JEDI HAH
Disaster lineage cnfrmd canonically disasters
Her sneer and jab at the cup 😭
Very rebels humor
Ah THERE is the Anakin training, turning a life threatening situation into an exercise 🤙
"What do you need?"
Now that? That is Ahsoka training
I love the familiarity they both have with these moves. It actually FEELS like they trained together and came up with these.
Sabine's excitement at getting one aww
"Pweaaaaasse UwU" Huyang is sucha little shit I love him
Why did Ahsoka look and sound so much like a mom when she said "we can't help him if we're both dead"
The fucking epic flute theme set to Ahsoka walking out on the ship in the silliest space suit 😂😭💀
Ahsoka on the ship looks so silly but it's exactly what she would do cause she has done so many ridiculous things and it's so so clone wars and I love it
(Obligatory it would've looked better in animation but that applies to the whole show and I don't wanna say that 254 times)
Ahsoka, floating in space, completely deadpan: "did you fix the ship yet?"
11/10, so stupid but exactly my type of stupid
Ok, the Purrgil setting for the chase is suprisingly claustrophobic and disorienting? Good, that is how that would feel
"Standard jedi protocol"
Lol. Lmao even.
Manifesting an infiltration of the big ring next episode, that'd be fun af
This guy showing up to say one thing at the end of the ep to remind us he is also here
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safyresky · 1 year
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Have I ever told you all about sleeping Dani? No? I didn't think so. She's quite lovely, so this isn't going to be an exciting af story or unhinged, but I need to share it anyway bc it has me cackling.
So let me tell you about what Sleeping Dani said to my dear dear fiance last night :)
for once i went to bed before him
this never happens. i hate going to bed bc then i have to wake UP and i loose PRECIOUS TIME DOING THINGS???
capitalism is a plague onto humankind
anyway
i go to bed all cozy and pass out so fucking fast
you guys don't even KNOW
i was SLEEPY
this does not bode well for Thursday Night
(laudna my beloved come back)
SO. FIANCE GETS INTO BED.
HE CURLS UP WITH ME.
PASSES OUT.
PROCEEDS TO HAVE THIS BATSHIT DREAM IN WHICH HE IS FIGHTING OFF HOME INTRUDERS WHILE THE CAT
YES, DEAREST CINNABUD,
IS YOWLING HIS HEAD OFF
IN IRL
IT IS BLEEDING INTO THIS DREAM.
My fiance SNAPS AWAKE, DISORIENTED. MID-ADRENALINE RUSH. READY TO ATTACK THE BREAKER INNERS
there are no breaker inners
just cinnamon singing fluffs the song of his people
fiance looks over to me. i am dead asleep
and i sleep light so he's like. okay. it's probably fine if dani's not worried
probably there's no murderers
dani was OUT COLD let me tell you
so he tries to lay back down after checking the time (3:47am ish)
he cannot get comfy
he is still trying to not be freaked out
cat finished yowling
he's finally drifting to sleep
when suddenly his body goes
YOU ARE ITCHY AS FUCK AND YOU NEED TO PEE
so he gets up to go pee
and it is at this point that Sleeping Dani emerges
as he is getting up sleeping dani rouses
looks at him confused
he goes '"i'm going to go pee"
sleeping dani replies
she says
i kid you not.
she says
"you can do it! :)"
and falls back asleep
when he was recounting this to me in the car this afternoon, i fucking LOST IT
I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD
I DO NOT REMEMBER THIS THOUGH I DO REMEMBER WAKING UP AND IT WAS V BLUE AND FIANCE WAS MOVING ABOUT
BUT THAT'S SO ON BRAND FOR HER
FOR ME I GUESS LMAO
I'm CRYING in the car it's so funny to me
and fiance, he goes, "well, at least even subconsciously you're supportive of me :)"
AND I WAS GONE
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This is disorienting AF lmao
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sharksa-shivers · 6 months
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Max is sick/more texts between character stuff cuz why not?
Kristy: Max
Kristy: Max, cmon dude, need you to wake up! We kinda need you today!!
Max: Ive been up ffs been trying to sleep tho
Max: damn that sucks cuz i feel like shit
Kristy: Ughhhh, look, i get it, depression but like…You can't just keep sitting stuff out because of your depression???
Max: ??????? It's not depression tho???? Hshshshshs fuck
Max: Im fuckin sick lol im not coming sorry to disappointt
Kristy: Yeah, sure, ok. Nice prank buddy
Kristy: Now get up and get dressed, we need to go!!!
Max:(sends a pic of him holding up a wad of used tissues, Max looks out of it in the picture, he is obviously sick) sorry lol would you like a snot or cough sample to prove that im not fucking lying?
Kristy: …….Oh…….
Max: YEAH LMAO
Max: you try fuckin sleeping when you can't breath, having a tiny nose thats clogged doesn't help when im trying to inhale oxygen
Max: throat hurts, head hurty, nose blocked tf off, can i sttay home now mom??? please???? Im so tired and i feel like shit lol
Kristy: …..I guess you're kinda gonna have to, hmmm….Trying to think…
Max: how about fuck the mission, tkae a day off???
Kristy: No!!!
Max: lol you should
Max: i love demon fighting and shit and you nkow i do but like…life is nore then labor ok? Enjoy it
Kristy: ……That is so weird of a phrase to come from you of all people who's suicidal af
Max: IM NOT SUICIDAL EVERY FUCKING DAY GODDAMNIT SHSHSHSHSHSH IM ONLY SUICIDAL MOST DAYS OK?.??? THERE IS A DIFFERENCE
Max: in seriousness tho, eh. Today feels kinda good mental health wise, its just my physical health thats shit today lololol Kristy: Well…Guess it is what it is then…
Max: hey lol can you get me some food and some meds plz? Im cozy in bed dont wanna spread germs and shit but a bitch needa eat lol (also meds would be p nice i miss breathing…oxygen bb plz come back im sorry;~;)
Kristy: Yeah yeah lmao, i can. I'm gonna assume no food preferences today?
Max: No lol just plz, im so hungry, blehhhh (preferably something i can fucjing taste and that wont hurt my throat much tho lol)
Kristy: Okayyyyyy, i'll see what i can do.
Max: Best friendo ever lol you da best!!! 💗 ---------------- And now some rambling text info bout The Trio derps whenever sick cuz why not tho? --- Trio derp sickness levels (this sickness meaning like…ig nausea levels --- Kristy: So Kristy is least likely to like get sick like that. With her having magic and the amulet and whatnot, she gets very used to rapid, disorienting movements over time (though at the series start, i can see this being more of an issue but also with Kristy's determination, i can see her blowing that shit out of the water pretty quick, her determination being the stronger of the 2) Kristy can still very much get sick tho, if she's in a very disorienting situation for a long time period, she's gonna get fucking sick… 🍃🍃🍃
Sharky: So with Sharky, he can get sick and he does from time to time. It's either him getting motion sick, him getting actual sick (from like food poisoning and bugs and whatnot) or it's the third option and that tying into him being a shark (but i'll hop back to this in a sec)
Sharky is kind of harder to get motion sick because he does have the advantage of being born in the ocean so…He's used to that sort of thing, like a ride or whatever isn't going to give him motion sickness, he gets it more from like…Being thrown around rapidly with 0 control or from magic use or things like that…
So for the other thing…So…him being a shark yeah? So a reminder; Sharky can throw up his entire stomach, like wholeass organ…This is because he's a shark and it's something Sharky REALLY REALLY FUCKING HATES part cuz it's so weird, part cuz it's disgusting and part because it fucking hurts since he's very not used to doing that…Sharky can vomit up either his entire stomach or he just throws up normally…Sharky doesn't really have much control over this but if it's a higher stress situation, it's gonna be the entire organ coming up. (this whole bit happens more if Sharky's scared or very fucking stressed or in a big emergency sort of thing…Otherwise, Sharky's probably gonna just throw up normally…) Sharky learns he has this ability during the series and i kinda megadoubt he ever utilizes it like Slash does BUT Sharky does learn how to control this a bit better and when he feels it happening, he tends to insta-calm down to try and prevent the whole thing from coming out… 🦈🦈🦈 Max: Max defs gets motion sickness probably the worst…This is probably another reason why Max isn't the biggest on dizzying shit or boats or things like that because it probably fucks him up alottttttttt… Unlike Kristy he has no magic And unlike Sharky, Max does not have any sort of help from the ocean soooooooooo…Yeah, rip dogeboi [i kinda feel like Sharky throws up more then Max does tbh but i think it's cuz Sharky's put in more situations where that can happen vs Max…] 🐶🐶🐶 Now for sickness sickness, i feel like Sharky probs gets sick in that way the least cuz of his height honestly (it's harder for germs and shit to bother him if they can't reach his face…If somebody coughs near him, it ain't gonna be near his face so…) I feel like Kristy's second And i feel like Max probs has it worst here again tbh (i defs feel like Max has really fucking awful allergies tbh…Idk why but it's a vibe i get, probably if i had to guess, something with his fur picking up things that make him sneeze and cough and whatnot, rip dogeboi again)
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songbirdtana · 5 years
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You ever rewatch something just for the Mems and you get to a part that literally Transports you back in time and gives you literal chills? That shit’s freaky af
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rens-room · 3 years
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dgm hallow thoughts: 
it’s the mixing of the old and new animation styles in the op for me. 
ok I’m gonna say it. I don’t like the new animation style. too shiny and smooth.
it made some characters look better (link) and others look worse (bak chang and lavi).
miranda looks so much younger and it’s disorienting. I don’t like it.
kanda looks too soft it’s almost out of character for him.
allen and lenalee look ok with the new animation.
it’s the lack of details/black shading lines that’s throwing me off. all the colors in the new animation are so flat and reflective.
when the ED is literally called lotus pain. I’m in lotus pain right now! no need to rub it in.
did we ever find out who shot cross?
not allen losing another father figure lmao.
could allen exorcise the 14th from himself with his sword? just a thought.
^followup- he unintentionally tries, it doesn’t end well.  
kanda I need you to sound a little less happy to be beating up a CROW and holding a kid hostage. the first wone is understandable but be nice to the kid.
can we go back to when the noah wore different clothes/had individual outfits so I can tell them apart easier.
uhhhh wisely is always my “new favorite” noah because I forget about him during the first hundred episodes.
sheril scares me.
can we just...talk about how unethical the second and third exorcist projects are??
johnny is baby (not a compliment).
GIVE KANDA A BREAK PLEASE!
I think flower hallucinations could be fun. there’s a lot worse things to see all the time.
did alma get get their memories back in the past? how did they know they were the same person kanda is looking for? 
why does everything come back to allen?? like past!kanda had a similar hair style.
also when did kanda die the first time?
isn’t if fun how alma died like three times. 🙃
I love how the narration says kanda and alma’s past is a love story, thanks for supporting my ship.
you ever just skip falling and go straight to being an akuma? or are you not as hardcore as alma?
allen get out of the way! they’re not looking for a third! (I regret making this joke). 
kanda look at what you did! you stabbed an exorcist and now look at him, he’s a noah!
that’s what you get for brining other people into your relationship problems. 
how did I forget lavi got captured?? well I did forget how much I loved him as a character so...that’s probably why. 
BUT HOW DID I FORGET THE CARDINAL!?
Apocryphos is disturbing af. 
jail brrrreeaaaaakkkkkk!
dgm? I think you mean the show where everyone’s hair is growing/long/was long at some point. 
oof he’s running off with another woman in his arms, that’s gotta hurt. 
it’s bleach all over again, the main character is a hybrid. 
it’s the reanimating old scenes in the new style, making it weird, for me.
ok maybe, we don’t genetically modify people in the future? might stop them from turning traitor later on. 
allen in his old outfit!! he looks younger and older at the same time. (he also looks more like nea)
nea’s glow up from a blob shadow in a mirror to being pretty though. 
I think alma is up there in the Tragic Backstory rankings. not sure if being unconscious for almost all of their second life makes it better or worse given what their body was used for.  
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v-hope · 2 years
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I gots question for you👀
This has been burning in the back of my mind ever since I remembered you speak Spanish
Do you think you can explain Dos Oruguitas word for word?
I mean it almost matches the eng version but i saw a comment on yt once saying that the Spanish version hits harder so.... DjjsJxjx i wanna hear that from a spanish speaker hsjdjsfjxjxjxjxjxjxjxndjxjajajeej(i mean youdont have to i'm just curious how you would explain it xjsjdzjdbl
(alsoifyouwantIfoundareallyreallyreallygoodtagalogversionofthesongthatIamreallyobsessedwithand/I/couldexplainittoyouifyou'recurious 👉👈sorrydosoruguitasismyfavoritesongandifirmlybelieveitwillimpactmylifeuntilthedayiturn99yrsoldbecuaseiplantosingthattomyfuturehusband😅😅😅andimramblingagainsorry)
lmao you’re lucky bc i’m bored af so i’ll copy-paste the spanish version of the lyrics and then translate it all at once right after
btw i had a bit of trouble bc the narration of the song turns into passive voice at some points and i didn’t know what to translate it to ksñsks (so spanish speaking people don’t come for me i did my best 😭)
“Dos oruguitas enamoradas
Pasan sus noches y madrugadas
Llenas de hambre
Siguen andando y navegando un mundo
Que cambia y sigue cambiando
Navegando un mundo
Que cambia y sigue cambiando
Dos oruguitas paran el viento
Mientras se abrazan con sentimiento
Siguen creciendo, no saben cuándo
Buscar algún rincón
El tiempo sigue cambiando
Inseparables son
El tiempo sigue cambiando
Ay, oruguitas, no se aguanten más
Hay que crecer aparte y volver
Hacia adelante seguirás
Vienen milagros, vienen crisálidas
Hay que partir y construir su propio futuro
Ay, oruguitas, no se aguanten más
Hay que crecer aparte y volver
Hacia adelante seguirás
Vienen milagros, vienen crisálidas
Hay que partir y construir su propio futuro
Dos oruguitas desorientadas
En dos capullos bien abrigadas
Con sueños nuevos
Ya solo falta hacer lo necesario
En el mundo que sigue cambiando
Tumbando sus paredes
Ahí viene nuestro milagro
Nuestro milagro
Nuestro milagro
Nuestro milagro
Ay, mariposas, no se aguanten más
Hay que crecer aparte y volver
Hacia adelante seguirás
Ya son milagros, rompiendo crisálidas
Hay que volar, hay que encontrar
Su propio futuro
Ay mariposas, no se aguanten más
Hay que crecer aparte y volver
Hacia adelante seguirás
Ya son milagros, rompiendo crisálidas
Hay que volar, hay que encontrar
Su propio futuro
Ay mariposas, no se aguanten más
Hay que crecer aparte y volver
Hacia adelante seguirás
Ya son milagros, rompiendo crisálidas
Hay que volar, hay que encontrar
Su propio futuro”
trans:
Two caterpillars in love
Spend their nights and early mornings
Full of hunger
They keep wandering and sailing a world
That changes and keeps changing (x2)
Two caterpillars stop the wind
While they hug with feeling
They keep growing
They don’t know when to look for a hidden corner
Time keeps changing
They’re inseparable
Time keeps changing
Oh, caterpillars, don’t hold back anymore
You gotta grow apart and go back
You’ll keep moving forward
Miracles are coming, chrysalises are coming
You gotta leave and build your own future
Two disoriented caterpillars
Very warm in two cocoons
With new dreams
Doing the necessary is the only thing left to do
In the world that keeps changing
Tearing down their walls
There comes our miracle
Our miracle (x3)
Oh, butterflies, don’t hold back anymore
You gotta grow apart and go back
You’ll keep moving forward
They’re already miracles, breaking chrysalises
You gotta fly, you gotta find
Your own future (x2)
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muslim-flint · 2 years
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i need to ask you a sensitive question. there is a new movie coming out called breaking bread. is the concept bad or. i am neither jewish nor muslim idk how i should feel
im gonna be honest ma boy i just woke up im disoriented af and i dont have the slightest idea what ur talking about i tried googling it and nothing came up lmao
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thoyoung · 3 years
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127 June energy readings
haechan: in June he's going to have money issues somehow. I think since he'll stop with dream promotions he might feel a bit disoriented for a while. will juggle different stuff but nothing will give him real income or satisfaction. maybe he won't get paid enough for his work. he feels a bit tired and doesn't take responsibility for anything. he's also very lonely. I talked in a different post about his love vibes (or privately with someone now I don't remember lol) and he might be in a romantic slump, meaning he's either single or likes someone that doesn't like him back. but he has no interest to date rn. he will get gigantic help from different people tho, his family first of all, very good relationship with his family, then huge help with everything in his life in June from the king of swords who for me it's doyoung, the emperor who for me is johnny and the hierophant who here I perceive as taeyong. usually taeyong is cups but here I feel him being the teacher and counselor of the situation. haechan also got the magician, very powerful card. this is him and it means power and self awareness. it tells him to work against being abused by others. it could mean growth or deception, based on his choices.
johnny: oof johnny is having a hard time. he's in a "what's the point of all of this?" mood. he's a bit depressed, lonely, sorrowful. and I got the lovers in reverse which could mean problems with love or a real breakup. I got the emperor card tho who is him, it means he didn't lose his shit completely and he's just going through it a bit. temperance card, he will get a hold of his life and will reach balance. the 3 of swords reverse also gives me confirmation of love problems, maybe a toxic partner or cheating. it suggests johnny to step back from this relationship. king of cups reversed tells me he has issues with jealousy and either he or his partner fears commitment. could be him. he might like someone but fears commitment and at the same time he's jealous of them being with someone else lol. besides this, he's feeling a bit suffocated by work, things are going well, new projects might come his way, but he has to be wary of being too self centered and proud in a negative way
taeil: he's bored af ahahaah. I got the moon card which obv tells me it's him. it has to do with dreams and illusions. he's either dreaming too much and needs to step back and be more rational or it tells him to step ahead and not be afraid of the darkness. I think there are good opportunities for him in June but he's afraid of the burden of it and the fear of responsibility. queen of swords in reverse could be his employer which is cruel and impatient. maybe this is why taeil is afraid to take on a new job. he's afraid of competition. five of wands reverse tells me he won't accept a new opportunity because he wants to avoid conflict. death in reverse tells me he's also afraid of change. this month he won't step out of his comfort zone. at the moment he's perhaps spending too much money, or having unsustainable habits masking them as self care. but I also got the tower and wheel of fortune. around the end of the month he might have great news and things will suddenly change for the better.
taeyong: needs to go on a self discovery journey in June. he has to think of his potential and make good use of it. June is a very favorable month for him, very abundant. the cards I got reminds him of how beautiful and incredible he is and that he has to use that to his advantage lmao. could mean something to do with the beauty or fashion industry. might releases a clothing line or something. he will have great success in June if he doesn't take things for granted. he will go through a bit of despair and discouragement at work but he'll overcome this soon bc he will achieve great success. he's afraid of ruining stuff for himself but he only needs a bit of courage and faith. no love message in this reading lol
yuta: his reading is very hard. it's like he doesn't want to know anything. his energy is very hidden. I got both king of swords and queen of swords but they don't want to mean anything. a message I got from this reading is that he's in a very weird mood, he's resisting change. he needs to listen to his inner voice and do what his intuition tells him. yuta could have witchy powers ngl lmao. he might be good at tarot or manifesting. he's hidding his energy a lot. perhaps he needs to work on opening up his heart. regarding his job he might need to overcome some small obstacles but nothing relevant. might learn something new of have a new opportunity. very particular reading. yuta doesn't want his energy to be seen lmaoooo
jaehyun: not to scare you but the worst reading. jaehyun is having a bitchy attitude. he's angry, manipulative, has difficulty maintaining good relationships, he's domineering, authoritative. has lost all hope and he seriously needs help. insecure emotionally thats why he's being hard on everyone. could be aggressive. cruel. jealous. impatient. literally all cards are this way 😭😭😭 he's in a big denial, doesn't want to make choices, refuses to examine his behavior, is being avoidant. he feels imperfect. let's all suport him in June and send him words of love pls. tried to clear the reading to understand why he might feel like this and there's no real concrete reason. he reached a breaking point and he needs to start loving himself more. he thinks everything is his fault. he has deep issues with perfectionism which is causing his bad mood. he has to stop concentrating on all of those little details and look at the bigger picture. what he think is truly important it's actually not that important afterall
jungwoo: interesting reading. jungwoo is having issues with being calm. he might accuse people of dishonesty, could fight with someone and he'll be wrong. he might think others are not paying him enough respect. could act impulsive. can't see the situation clearly and is too afraid to stop and realize that no one wishes bad things on him. feels like he has to protect himself. this could be just a few days matter tho bc generally the month of June looks good. he'll move forward with his life and he'll be enthusiastic of some stuff happening. he will do something definitely, some new job or a project and he'll be successful. great great messages about his job, very successful month in terms of that
mark: lmao someone's going to confess and he'll be so taken back. he doesn't like this person at all. a very unwanted confession. it will make him think a lot tho. he'll be on edge for a while and a bit paranoid. regarding work tho, similar to haechan, he'll think a lot of the future, also some financial loss fear and wondering what he's supposed to do now. can't see the future well but I also see he's going to keep working very hard and he'll have success that way. good relationships with friends and family. might celebrate a bit or have some free time and grow tired of it. has to take care of his health a bit more
for doyoung I talked about his love energy here but I did another reading regarding work just to have a more general insight on June. I see fullfilment towards the end after some difficulties. he's too rigid tho and hard on himself. I got other cards urgently advising him to step back from that toxic relationship he's been in. he's literally got all the cards meaning he can't move on from it right now tho so nothing much will change. that thing is probably roaming his head a lot in June. asked for new info but I only got the same messages I got in the love reading
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dognoselover · 3 years
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Bloodstained Hands, Ch 2:
Kakashi shot awake in a panic, gasping for breath and covered in a cold sweat. His hands were trembling, and, for a long moment, he was disoriented. This wasn’t his room, or his apartment. Where were his pictures of his team? Or Mr. Ukki? Even his body felt wrong. But then, suddenly, Kakashi remembered where he was. When he was.
“Kakashi!”
His eyes widened at the sound of the sweet, sing-song way his name was called. No… It couldn’t be. Throwing himself from the bed, he rushed to the front door, ignoring the way his skull flared painfully and how he stumbled. Panting, he slowed as the front door came into sight.
“Kakashi, I know you’re in there. You didn’t show up for training today. Minato-sensei said you weren’t feeling well, so I thought I should bring over something for you to eat…”
“Why do you even bother?” Came a loud, familiarly obnoxious voice. Dread rose in Kakashi’s chest, threatening to consume him. “You know he’s not even going to answer the door.”
Unbeknownst to his teammates, the Hatake was only a few feet from the door. He could sense their chakra, weaker than he last remembered it, but still there, strong and steady. The wound in his heart begged him to open the door, to wrap them both in his too-small arms and beg for their forgiveness. Yet, he couldn’t find the strength in him to move, paralyzed by fear. The darkness within him too easily reminded him that he was the reason for both of their deaths. If anything, he should push them away. He should push them far, far away, and then maybe then they would be safe from the destruction that he caused everywhere he went.
Obito and Rin were freshly fallen snow, and Kakashi was soaked in their blood, trying to keep it from dripping from his fingers with every breath.
“See?” Obito broke through his thoughts. “I told you he wasn’t going to answer.”
“Hush!” Rin scolded. Kakashi silently approached the door, using every ounce of restraint that he had finely honed during his decades as a shinobi. “Kakashi, please, talk to us.”
His voice came through low and hoarse, like a hiss. “Go away.”
Unfortunately, his acknowledgement of their presence only encouraged Rin. “Kakashi!” She exclaimed. The happiness in her voice tore at his soul like savage claws, and everytime she said his name his resolve crumbled a little more. “I brought some miso soup, since I know it’s your favorite… It has eggplant, too! I-”
“Go away. I don’t want to see you.”
“Oh. Alright…” Rin trailed off, and Kakashi could hear the dejection in her voice. Of course, if Rin was upset, Obito felt the need to jump to her defense.
“Why do you have to say that, Bakakashi?” Obito shouted. “You’re always so mean, and Rin was just trying to do something nice for you-!”
ooooh this is a cool section !! i’ll do my best to give a Good DVD Comment on it but i wrote it... at least a year ago so LMAO
the chapter begins with a nightmare and that nightmare ends with rin saying kakashi’s name when she was killed - and i liked the transition of her, in real life, saying it to him to wake him up. and kakashi’s freshly time traveled, so he’s disorientated and confused af. 
meanwhile, obito and rin are... concerned out of their minds. kakashi? sick? missing training? he must be dying. so of course they’re going to go check on him. but kakashi hasn’t actually seen them yet. it’s his first interaction with his formerly dead teammates (save for minato).
and he’s just confused, especially awoken from a nightmare like that, and his most significant memories of them are of their deaths, and he’s just not ready. not ready to accept this is his reality now, not ready to lock eyes with two people he failed so spectacularly and pretend like everything was normal, like he was his bratty 12 year old self who didn’t care when actually he cares so so much.
this is also the first time we see a theme prevalent throughout the first half of the story-- what does kakashi do different? does he hold them closer or push them father away? savor their presence or protect himself from another possible failure-- their possible deaths, again?
he just doesn’t know right then, so he pushes them away. he doesn’t have a solid plan of action and that scares him. he doesn’t know what he’s going to do and he can’t show them all this emotion that he has-- emotion that he’s not even used to dealing with himself --because if they see that emotion then they’re going to know something’s wrong and then they’re going to press him. press him for information he doesn’t have and isn’t ready to give. he just... doesn’t have any answers. and with kakashi the way he is, a strategic genius since he was a toddler, i imagine not knowing what to do is frightening. he’s always been quick on his feet, with a witty retort or a plan of action and here he’s got nothing. nada. the obvious tactical solution is to retreat until he does have a plan.
so he pushes them away. or tries to. rin is wholeheartedly concerned for him and wants to express that in a way kakashi would appreciate -- something practical, like a meal -- and she’s undeterred by his expected backlash. her concern for her teammate far extends the severity of his words, which she’s used to by now, and his barbs aren’t so much as barbs to her. she recognizes it for what it is: a defense mechanism. she also knows that he just can’t keep closing himself up but that’s pitted against her politeness and fear of upsetting him, which is why she gives up relatively quickly after kakashi insists that they leave.
obito, on the other hand, is vulnerable. he’s concerned for kakashi for once, not seeing him right now as a rival but a teammate in need-- because when, ever, has the prodigy kakashi seemed so human? --and when kakashi uses that vulnerability to push him away, obito gets understandably angry. he’s defensive of himself for being vulnerable, which was obviously a mistake since kakashi didn’t take the olive branch, and it presents as defensiveness of rin, even though she can well enough handle herself. why rin, though? well, we could just put gender roles into place and say something outdated like “he was protecting her” from someone she.. didn’t need protecting from. but in reality, he gets defensive over rin because he can’t get defensive over himself. saying that he didn’t like kakashi’s response is the same as admitting weakness, and 12 year old kakashi caught scent of weaknesses and exploited them like a bloodhound on a trail. and obito wants nothing more than kakashi’s respect, to see him as an equal. so if he shows that he’s concerned, that he’s hurt, kakashi would just see him as a crybaby plus some. since he wants to avoid that, shifting his protectiveness onto rin is the next best option.
ultimately it just presents a team dynamic that i thought was... fitting. obito and kakashi still clashing, right off the bat, as if nothing had changed although everything had changed. putting a bigger strain on their first true meeting. it’s all kakashi trying to juggle time traveling and his not-dead dead teammates and all this unusual physical pain he has in his left eye, while at the same time obito trying to handle kakashi and rin trying to handle the both of them.
i could honestly ramble about this a whole lot more -- i’ve already written a fuckn more in depth analysis of my own damn writing than i was expecting (why cant i do this on my college essays) -- but i think that about sums it up. can you tell i like introspection a whole lot? :)
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troiings · 4 years
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i quite literally just need a place to dump this convo from discord so ignore it unless you REALLY want to know what bs was going on in my head while i was writing the early bits of “stone in your water”
if you wanna natter about dimeritium headcanons feel free to reply or hit my askbox just don’t reblog this particular post k thx
Arwen: the card art for dimeritium shackles in the gwent game is horrifying tbh https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/681632336185393329/688832600936022084/latest.png Miriam: God. Yeah. Imagine inhaling that Arwen: idk how firmly based on the books that is, because the wiki just says it caused "unpleasant side effects" for mages "The mage's arms were twisted and bound behind his back. The Redanians gave the fetters a good shake. Terranova cried out, lurched, bent backwards, bowed forward, then retched and groaned. It was clear of what his manacles were made." Miriam: Yeah that's from the books, right? Arwen: either they cause SEVERE pain (to make him writhe around so much) or the mage loses some of their control of their body? or both? Miriam: So just being around it is like being in toxic air or something Arwen: yea, Time of Contempt Miriam: I assume it's something that causes pain but also poisons the body Based on the retching That's the body trying to rid itself of whatever Arwen: yeah boy i keep coming back 'round to this Tissaia is gonna get worse instead of better lmao jk jk she's gonna improve but the parts that are HER pov are gonna be significantly worse than Yenn's Miriam: Found another book that suggests it's nausea and vertigo that dimeritium causes https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/681632336185393329/688834200404754441/JPEG_20200315_124109.jpg Oh that's from the mere touch Arwen: which means we really get to dig into Tissaia being BAD BAD OFF well shit Miriam: Inhaling it would probs REALLY fuck you up Arwen: she should probably be tossing up her lunch a lot more than i've been writing her doing tbh I keep seeing that about some powerful mages being able to resist/neutralize it so i suppose it's worth a note that Tissaia probably has some ability to compensate some level of resistance nobody could 100% resist what they've swallowed and breathed in and had leached into their blood but there's an argument for some of the symptoms being significantly milder i reckon Miriam: True I think it's because it cuts you off from the Power Like someone sucking all the air out of the room Or suddenly cutting off one of your senses You'd be sick, disoriented af, hurting, helpless Arwen: Tissaia and her deafening silence/emptiness it's Fine Miriam: But if you're strong enough you can probably learn to adapt without that sense that you've used to rely on and build your life around Arwen: you know what blocks magic "by severely limiting the flow of the Power in its immediate surroundings" the magic is still there, but it's stagnant and cannot be directed in show terms, we're literally talking Chaos just sitting inside the body not moving, interrupting the "balance and control" element i bet most mages strong enough COULD resist if the need arose, but the ability to channel with control would be lost to them and shit would just blow up if they managed it Miriam: mmmm yeah that makes sense too Arwen: like it would still cut you off from it, in the way that being in a room with no air circulation is fine until you run out of oxygen lmao i can't think of a better analogy but like, it happens fast, probably i bet "Power"/Chaos are constantly moving and, by nature, MUST be constantly moving and changing
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loveisbananananas · 4 years
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some thoughts on Babylon Berlin Season 3
it’s spoiler-y for all 12 episodes ok 
what I liked
the return of Doris aka my favourite secretary... give her a storyline please I love her
redemption for Frau Behnke!!! I’m so happy she got more to do this season; as much as I found her boring as the constantly complaining Landlady I love her now as a badass spy in training. Slightly worried that they’ll kill her off next season (as they do with helpful/decent people) and unsure how I feel about her and Katelbach -- knowing this show next time we’ll see the both of them it will be together in bed lol (you know how they just drop the fact that people bone)
I really like how they slowly introduced us to Nazis - in Season 1, they  focus on the nationalist movement apart from the NSDAP and now they slowly shift that focus and I think that mirrors the public perception of politics in the late 20s as you have so. many. different. parties. Jesus Lord
ugh the intro is GORGEOUS this time around
I also really liked the first scene! It felt so disorienting yet thrilling to be dropped in this huge fancy building and people just start killing themselves and it took me like... half the first episode to realise that it was supposed to be a flash forward to Black Thursday/Friday anyway I really like how they structure the first/last episodes 
“Love is the Drug” as the soundtrack for the same scene at the end of the last episode? chills. poetic cinema. I’m ready to be sad about the Great Depression next season lol
it’s so interesting how minor characters (the neighbour woman) get backstories/how they just show glimpses of their lives? more of that please
the introduction of the world of film and the press; we haven’t seen a lot of those in the first two seasons and when I think of the 20s and Weimar Germany in particular those cultural influences usually are what I think of first
yes! let Lotte find out about her past! maybe don’t give her a deadbeat dad tho lmao
Gräf is my son and I’m glad he survived this season (I wasn’t sure tbh) and ALSO I thought they were gonna make him crush on Gereon and I’m relieved to see they didn’t -- please just keep him and his bf safe and happy
Henning, Czerwinski and Lotte (and Gereon) are my favourite family of choice and I loved their interactions and I want them to solve 10000 crimes together 
soft Gennat is soft and now father to all gay characters on this show // what I meant to say is that the party at Gräf’s seemed lit and I want to go there
oh speaking about that party: the kiss 
as much as I am worried about how her character is going to work, I am also already in love with Marie-Luise and will seriously riot if they really pair her of with fucking WENDT
what I didn’t like
Vera was my daughter and deserved so much better, how dare they fridge the WLW
Greta deserved better but I think we all agree on that
Wendt is a BITCH 
ugh I cannot believe they really went in that direction with Toni -- I get that it is supposed to mirror Lotte’s adolescence (literally taking her coat) and that it’s inevitable blah blah but it was SO frustrating to watch. also I hope Tom Tykwer doesn’t think he’s slick just because they had Toni read from Bambi by Felix Salten whose other famous work was an anonymously published tale of a young child abuse victim turned sex worker ugh ugh ugh
the revelation who the Tagschläfer was seemed kinda obvious but lame at the same time? idk
Böhm and Helga are the most unlikeable characters on the “good” side fight me
I like the whodunnit structure of the season but I hate the reveal in ep 11 I am sorry it felt cheap af
the Armenian, his wife and Walter W should just solve their problem with a threesome
Gereon’s neglect of Helga felt a bit sudden and I feel like they could have focused on him and his brother a bit more since it was the big reveal of the end of season 2.... frustrating (when are Helga and Anno gonna meet tho I need that D R A M A)
I fucking hate the gory porn elements... like Charlotte doing that performance for money and Gräf being raped by the archive dude. I mean if you have to show us please also show the consequences because they just seem FINE after being abused and that feels so fundamentally wrong
I swear if they try to make Seegers seem reasonable or sympathic that’s a big NO from me
the last episode felt a bit too slow tbh I expected more action and drama
everything else
quite chilling to have Gereon pick up Mein Kampf from Moritz’s desk and have Emil and the Detectives lying underneath it - that’s he kind of smol detail I live for
I’m excited to see how far the timeline will take us. I originally thought they were going to stretch the show to the Machtergreifung in 1933 but as we are still in 1929 maybe they will just cover everything up until the end of the Great Coalition? I mean they already introduced Brüning, Papen and Schleicher so why not make use of them lmao. anyway seems like at least three more seasons are neccessary but on the other hand I have no idea what timeframe the books cover so don’t quote me on this
a poem by Theobald Tiger... please let Tucholsky show up and cast Kästner for the next season please do it for me personally
so in a nutshell: it was a fun but slightly incoherent and sometimes frustrating ride... Babylon Berlin works as a political thriller but not as a crime story imo
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Buff have you got any crucible tips? I tend to avoid it as I'm about as good in clash as Asher is at emotions.
there’s 11 enemies in quickplay, 5 of them happen to be on your team.
no but in seriousness, im guessing you’re asking this from a solo perspective so im gonna give you my solo view on things (highlight the text to not die):
be aware of your surroundings. there’s a lot of cover around every map for a reason. you should probably never be standing right out in the open, unless you’re baiting. to add to this, try and get a mod or an exotic that will let you have radar while ADS. it rly makes a world of difference.
know when to fold em. in my experience, the better you get and the more skilled players you encounter, the more you will find yourself in gunfights that go on for pretty damn long without either party killing the other. because you’ll both have learned when to shoot and when to hide and/or run.
pick the right subclass for yourself. i’ll always be an outlaw gunslinger at heart, and as great as the six shooter is in crucible, i do like to go in as a trapper nighstalker instead. the shadowshot CAN be clutch, but more often than not it’s completely useless. but the rest of the subclass (smoke bomb, invisibility, even the normal grenade) just works very well for my playstyle. so, don’t be afraid to try out different things and see what feels best for you.
get the heavy? idk i personally dont rly do that bc i like my primary/energy too much to wanna switch off of them lol but the truth is, whoever’s got the heavy has also got a few guaranteed kills.
funnily enough, try to stick with your team. not like glue or anything, but unless you see the perfect flanking opportunity, just stick with at least one teammate. teamshooting will never not work, lbr.
if you see someone on your radar, sitting around a corner? don’t go around that corner. they’ve got a shotgun and no dignity and they’re willing to prove both of this to you.
verticality babeyyyyyyyyy. jump over an enemy and they’ll be disoriented af 90% of the time bc the FOV in this game is just tragic. some ppl even say to just jump up very high when turning a corner bc this way the shotgun ape wont be able to shoot you. this is false however. dont do this. shotgun range is approximately 500 miles, and they won’t care.
learn the maps. this ties back into being aware of your surroundings but there’s a bunch of spots on maps that nobody rly thinks abt and you can get a bunch of cheap shots in. do you know how many times ppl have told me they’ve reported me for ‘camping’ in the lil window of that house at zone C on vostok? also, by knowing the maps, you’ll be able to predict better where the enemy actually IS once you spot them on the radar, and also where they’ll be going/coming from next.
learn to aim. you might think it’s better to aim for the body bc that way even if you miss you’ll still hit something, but the truth is it’s way better to miss 90% of your shots going for headshots for 6 hours and then seeing yourself improve in the 7th.
get the right loadout. this is trial and error more than anything. but the thing with destiny is that it will literally NEVER be a truly competitive game, since it’s a looter shooter. wanna know why you keep getting killed by Luna’s and Not Forgottens? it’s bc those guns are better. you didn’t die to that One-Eyed Mask wearing titan bc he outplayed you, he just had the better exotic. and no, it wasn’t your aim that was off, it was just the Nova Warp killing you through the wall because It Does That (even tho it shouldnt). so, get yourself some good gear. you can say ‘if you cant beat them, join them’ and get yourself a shotty and the wardcliff coil too, or you can say ‘the meta loadout isnt fun for me’ and try and find sth else that works. i think ive said this before but a lot of the time i choose a long range loadout bc it lets me keep my distance from shotties, 1HKO melees and mid range weapons, and as long as i can position myself correctly and flee when i need to, it works very well. so, at the end of the day, do try to find sth that is FUN for you too, otherwise there’s no point in playing crucible anyway.
uhhhh idk. is this helpful? full disclosure, ive been losing more games than ive been winning lately, and i wont even pretend that it was all on my random teammates, so take it all with a grain of salt lmao. i’m a slightly above average player probably and thats all. also no matter how good or bad you are, you will always be better with a team bc thats just the way this game is. but again, if thats not how you wanna play then dont force yourself to. it wont be fun.
ALSO these are all from a quickplay perspective! comp is kind of a whole other story. tho basically, in comp, just make sure to stay alive. that is legitimately the most important thing as a solo player, since you’ll be able to still play the objective or revive teammates etc even if youre the last one standing. it requires a lot more awareness and ‘calmer’ play than quickplay, plus some more coordinated work, so you’ll also have to be able to be a teamplayer, even if youre not using mic and all that (most ppl in comp dont enter voice channel anyway lol). idk, i’d stay away from comp anyway. as a wise random on the internet once said ‘comp is a shitshow, get luna’s and then get the fuck outta there’
and lastly, there’s a subreddit called r/crucibleplaybook which probably has ACTUAL advice and is way more helpful but i wouldnt know bc reading is for nerds so ive never actually looked into it
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I thought today was Sunday. Well that’s sad. No wonder I saw so many people out today haha, club dresses & everything. Mbn. Being in public is so triggering. It’s almost like I gotta keep my head down to avoid seeing people ‘living’. I can’t explain how weird it is just to look at people when I’m out. They seem like aliens but whole time I’m the alien if I don’t feel comfortable w people doing absolutely nothing but living. The universe be testing me sometimes. Actually the universe wasn’t necessarily testing me today w sum but it’s just my ego & I be having to stop myself & it sucks a lot but I guess. It’s my ego but sometimes it feels like I have valid reasons to bring my ego out w this one thing. Sometimes tho. In a way everything revolves around life & freedom & shit. Literally everything is connected in some way. It all leads back to freedom really. It’s past physically. I feel physically was the thing that damaged me from the start but eventually it started to become emotionally, mentally & spiritually. I didn’t just lack freedom physically since the start, it was also indeed emotionally, mentally & spiritually but I mean it just got worse. I mean I’m better now but I have my moments. Irrelevant ass shit but it’s on my mind lol. I need a separate tumblr account. I’m starting not to like it anymore fr & I ain’t tryna make this all about me. I think I’m mad at the universe tho. I mean I’m not mad mad but I feel some type of way. It’s more so like everything is unfair, it’s past you like it’s in general. How I be doing everything but never get anything from them. Idc if it has anything to do w you. It’s other things that I want that I feel like I deserve & it’s annoying cus all I do is ‘work’ over & over everyday, shit regarding you & me & everyone around me & it’s like bro.. I get nun. I see the people around me who be getting ‘rewarded’ from the universe & im like I be doing so much & nothing good ever happens to me. Can I at least get my soulmate back? You see.. them making me drop out of school was nice but it didn’t make much of a difference cus now I’m more isolated & im not socializing w anyone & now I won’t get a diploma lol so there’s pretty much many cons w it. At least I ain’t going insane w being isolated. It just gets tiring I feel like & when I stay home too long & end up going out, I feel disoriented & lost. In my head but also visually. It’s kinda related to the alien part too. I never wanna get to that point again of forgetting to count money & stuttering my ass off & not being able to make eye contact. My social anxiety was bad. I would never look someone in the eye while talking to them. I was scared & uncomfortable. Counting money was the one that was most embarrassing. My mom was like how did you even forget? & I was like you really gonna ask me that question? Idk. Isolation was the most traumatic thing that’s ever happened to me. Isolation in every single part of my life, as I said not just physically. Lmao yeah I’m done. Ain’t that serious. Just thinking. Irrelevant af
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