#dissociation life

[wandering-system-of-a-time-lord]

Still here just having adhd problems

Trying to do stuff but can’t cause I’m stuck. My adhd is out of control.

- Alex

#dissociative identity disorder #dissociation life #did #alters #mental illness #dissociation #alex #alter Alex #adhd feels #adhd mood #adhd problems #adhd thoughts

[iwillnotseeheaven]

#tw sui ideation #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #dissociation #tw depressing thoughts #depressing quotes #depressing shit #depressing life #mental health #mental illness #actually bpd #bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd stuff

[leeb-leefuh-lurve]

Idk I don’t think I have existed yet this year

#meme #mental illness #bpd #bpd life #lol fml #bpd things #bpd meme #trauma #dissociative episode #dissacociation #i am not real

[psychocitysblog]

I wake up everyday just waiting to go back to bed.

#kinda depressing #depressing shit #this is depressing #bpd #bpd shit #depressing life #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing thoughts #actually bpd #bpd mood #childhood ptsd #ptsd problems #living with ptsd #ptsd #ptsdlife #trauma #dissociative identity disorder #help help help

[thattheater-kid]

You know what’s wild about being a fictive? Missing your old life even though it was shitty because it’s a shittiness you were used to. The life you’re living now is a new kind of shitty that feels unpleasant in a different way.

#maybe it’s stupid to miss the life I had #it sucked #so much #I hated it actually #I prayed every night that I wouldn’t wake up the next morning and cried when I did #I’m still doing that tbh #this is a different kind of suck though #I want my old life back #those people were shitty but they were MY shitty people #maybe I just got used to the horrible conditions I was living in #and now I miss it even though it was horrible #just because it’s familiar to me #maybe it’s the difference between the physical discomfort I felt in my old life #vs the emotional discomfort I feel now #maybe I should talk to my therapist #or go to bed #did system #plural #plurality #actually plural #actually did #plural system #system things #dissociative system #fictive #fictives #fictive culture #system culture #plural culture

[amievenreal]

I don't want to kill myself like I romanticized when I was younger. I now wish that I could simply just stop existing.

#bpd thoughts #bpd feels #living with bpd #bpd life #bpd mood #bpd shit #dissociated #time to dissociate #mentally ill #mentally unstable #mental disorder #mental illness

[zenithsys]

Do you feel, like, constantly overwhelmed? Unable to focus on tasks and self-care like showering? Have I got the tip for you

I recently got put on this method through a YouTube video recommended to me called the Sharp Ax method. Name doesn't matter, I'm gonna skip right to telling you what to do.

You have a notebook? Maybe one that you've horded and used once or twice before abandoning? Grab that shit. Get your favorite pen. At the top of the page you're going to write "Brain Dump". For like, 10-15 minutes, just sit there and write down every thought that comes to mind. Does your back hurt? Write it. Do you have to make breakfast? Write it.

But here's the thing: if there's something you need to do (paperwork, showering, shopping, etc) you're gonna write it like this.

"I want to shower." "I want to check the mailbox." "I want to do my laundry today."

For whatever reason, reframing things you need to do as things you want to do has helped me so immensely, and even when I can't finish all the things I want to finish, I still feel good for finishing the ones I was able to.

This stupidly simple journaling technique (which doesn't even feel like journalling to me) has caused me to go from being chronically overwhelmed to feeling like, even just for a little bit, everything is going to be okay.

#coping #life hack #coping techniques #mental health #mental illness #ADHD #Autism #neurodivergent #actually autistic #actually adhd #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #in case you want to know the story behind the name #it was about abraham lincoln #and how once he was like #'if you give me six hours and an axe to chop down a tree #anyway it's been a certified lifechanger for me :)

[bunniibpd]

do not perceive me

#bpd #bpd blog #bpd meme #bpd memes #relatable memes #bpd life #bpd mood #bpd problems #bunnii vents #trauma vent #trauma memes #depersonalization #derealization #dissociation #mental illness memes #facebook memes #depressing memes #mentally fucked #mentally ill #twitter memes #actually borderline #mental illness #mental health #borderline memes #childhood trauma #trauma #tw intrusive thoughts #hello kitty #girlblogging #shitposting

[c-0-yote-teeth]

#actually dissociative #dissociation #did #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #osdd #did system #traumagenic did #traumagenic osdd #trauma #im just so TIRED #life is exhausting #and there is no end in sight!!!! #lets gooo

[keets-writing-corner]

guess who's still thinking about Lucifer >.<

anyways thought it'd be fun, given my previous post about his dissociation with conversations, to try and guess what his takeaways were from his phone call with Charlie based on his reactions

Maybe I'm wrong about what he's catching and what he's missing but either way I had fun

strike through= what he missed bold=what he caught neither bold nor strikethrough= he might've heard it/made it out through the white noise, but not enough to connect the dots RED= only heaven is in red cuz you cannot convince me otherwise that that's not a trigger word for him

Idk thought it’d be fun to try and guess what Lucifer is ACTUALLY hearing with his dissociation filter on let's GO

Lucifer: [insert absolute fail of hello]

Charlie: Hi Dad! Lucifer: Hey! How are ya? Oh! Wh-wh-where are you these days? Charlie: You know where I am, Dad… I’ve told you before…

Lucifer: You hAve? Oh. yeah Uh, erm well I um uh

Charlie: I told you when you called me five months ago! Or did you not listen?

Lucifer: No no no just forgot! I just forgot. I’ve been really busy with you know… um. iMpOrTanT tHiNgS

Charlie: Well I’m actually running a hotel to rehabilitate sinners, maybe you saw our commercial?

Lucifer: No? Sadly I… missed it!  Lucifer: You know I haven’t been watching much TV lately! Scrambles the brain!  Lucifer: but hey! A hotel! Fun!

Charlie: Listen, Dad, I’ve got kinda… a big ask?

Lucifer: -spit take- Yeah?! Of course! Anything in my power is yours for the asking you just name it

Charlie: I need to speak to heaven! Well, whoever’s in charge up there above Adam above anybody, I need to go to the top!

Lucifer: NO Lucifer: no no no no Lucifer: That’s uhahah no…

Charlie: Look! Dad! I don’t ask you for much. I never have, but this-this is really important to me. It’s the most important thing I’ve ever done and I… need… you… I need your help

Lucifer: I-... I don’t know Charlie

Charlie: Please just- Come see what I’m trying to do. You’ll see why it’s a really good idea and heaven is bound to agree if I get the chance to talk to them

Charlie: Please dad

Lucifer: wait… you’re… INVITING ME OVER??? Lucifer: ABSOLUTELY Lucifer: I’LL BE THERE IN AN HOUR

___

so yeah, he can semi follow along but like crucial bits and pieces ARE being left out

#lucifer #lucifer morningstar #hazbin hotel #dialogue #dissociation #this has been on my mind since the episode aired tbh #I think in the notes of my last post (I am not finding it for the life of me ;-; If I do I'll do an edit and credit them) #someone was talking about how this could also be nervousness as well #and you know what #yeah absolutely true #nervous about talking to his daughter #and the dissociation absolutely doesn't help #so nervous about navigating a conversation too #I do not think I'll do the whole episode #I really just wanted to explore the phonecall tbh #but legit I'm convinced when Charlie introduced Vaggie #all he heard was “-aggie!” and just defaulted to the only name he could think of that ended like that #tbh he's probably missing chunks of words and has to figure out what the word was based off of prefixes/suffixes #cuz that clearly happened with Vaggie #but it's already a challenge to piece together what he DID hear and what he didn't hear #so imma leave it at this #lowkey this is giving me loads of writing ideas for my own stuff

[puppyeared]

mascot

#this isnt vent dw!!! i dont smoke either i was just kinda going for some sort of vibe #i know its usually played for laughs or like. dark humor whenever ppl draw mascots without their heads and u can see the actor #but i always found it fascinating and a little sobering. ever since i was a kid ive always been hyperaware of ppl in costumes #like. even if i tried to block it out id be thinking the whole time 'its not real. theres a person in that suit who gets paid to do this' #it used to be an uncomfortable nagging feeling but now its like. oh yeah theres someone with a whole life story doing this. idk #i think when i tell ppl im not conscious of my body its like. im not dysphoric or experience dissociation but. at the same time #it feels like my physical body doesnt fully outwardly represent me..?? like some sort of costume #i like to phrase it as being a giant hairless mecha and inside theres a very tiny puppy piloting the damn thing #and the other thing is. when i draw my sona i dont really see it as what i /wish/ i looked like or how i want people to see me #its like being in a costume and just. fucking around with some sort of barrier between myself and others #plus mascots arent allowed to talk and i dont really. engage with other ppl in public spaces that it kinda feels like ad lib #i share a lot abt my life but ironically im also a private person..... i guess it just gives me some sort of control over my identity #my art #myart #my oc #sona #mascot #furry #??? is this furry art???? #twinkle #puppysona #edit: had to outline it bc i just realized it looks really weird on dark mode -_-

[wandering-system-of-a-time-lord]

I still here, will update better later on when I have some time to. Just stressed at the moment and sad plus hurt.

- Alex, the introject medic alter

#dissociative identity disorder #did #complex post traumatic stress disorder #dissociation life #alters #mental illness #complex ptsd #alexintrojectalter

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i use dissociation more than anything i’ve ever learned in my 10yrs of therapy

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #dissociation is my favorite coping mechanism #that and avoidance #i love avoiding my problems until i can’t take it anymore and have a full blown breakdown about it #it’s easier to go through life ignoring everything that’s bothering you until it all just explodes one day #idk maybe that’s just me tho #right after every breakdown i feel like shit tho cuz i usually freak out everyone around me but i don’t know how else to cope #even tho i’ve had 10yrs of therapy nothing else worked for me #so dissociation it is babyyyy

[corvidaeconundrum]

Uh oh, meme guy strikes again, oh shit oh fuck oh god- (HTB is by @mustangs-flames btw, check them out! It’s an awesome series)

It is 11:45 PM and I can feel my mind deteriorating, but god was this fun to make -Jonah

Bonus behind the scenes of what drawing this was like when your (in headspace) best friend is a fictive hyperfixated on his own source:

#digital art #fanart #hail true body #htb #htb mimic!cesar #htb cesar hernandez #htb fanart #dissociative system #system art #plural system #fictive #now i get to lay awake in bed until 2 #Also sorry if theres any mistakes with Mark i have literally never drawn him before in my life #ill gain that skill eventually #-jonah post

[psychocitysblog]

Why does being alive have to be so hard?

#kinda depressing #depressing shit #this is depressing #bpd #bpd shit #depressing life #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing thoughts #actually bpd #bpd mood #ptsdlife #ptsd flashbacks #childhood ptsd #ptsd #actually ptsd #living with ptsd #ptsd awareness #ptsdsurvivor #trauma #dissociation

[thecovenhouseco]

Slowly realizing that you may not be able to work anymore if you actually want to treat some of your disabilities feels like you’re being crushed like a hydraulic press. I’ve worked so hard, and I’m afraid that it was for nothing. So if you’re struggling with the same thing, I’m proud of you for all that you’ve done.

#disabilties #dissociative identity disorder #did osdd #did system #ehlers danlos life #ehlers danlos zebra #ehlers danlos problems #ehlers danlos awareness #hypermobile ehlers danlos #potsawareness #pots #mcas #the terrible trio #invisible illness #invisable disability #ugh why